#and i wanna curl up and die

[shadowland]

i can't wait for this group project to end

[justxdemixokay]

Everyone is acting differently towards me..I can feel it...I don't know what I did..I'm sorry I'll make it better..just please.. don't abandon me..I can be better, honest.

[colefrr]

I AM ACC HAVING A SEIZURE RN WTF IS HAPPENING ON HERE ON NINJAGO TUMBLR I AM BEING BOMBARDED WITH SPOILERS AND GOD PLEASE HALP IM VER OVERWHELMED WHYYYY IM ONLY SSN7 WTAF HELPHELPHELP

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

almost january which means it's almost st sebastian's feast day which means it's almost light yagami's death day which means it's almost february which means it's almost valentine's day which means im six months behind on all of my projects

[graveyarrdshift]

btw is there any trans woman who wants my uterus? I can give it for free

[iwakuraz]

whats the point in life if everybody stops liking me the moment I start feeling even just a bit sad

[innytoes]

uhm... 👉👈 Ray hitman AU? maybe? if you were up for it? pretty pretty please? 🙏

-For those who don't know I made a shitpost about Ray being a hitman because I looked up housing prices in Los Feliz (and how medical debt works) and SIR HOW THE HELL DO YOU AFFORD THAT HOUSE ON A PHOTOGRAPHER'S SALARY.

-It starts when one of the Petal Pushers has a very abusive, stalker ex. She had tried everything, but even with a restraining order, it isn't enough. Law enforcement just shrugs and suggests she moves (again) after 'someone' breaks into her house, ransacks it and kills her cat.

-It's not like Rose and Ray meant to kill him. But it's what happens. They manage to make it look like an accident. They never tell Violet, but deep down she knows.

-Somehow word gets around and they suddenly have a booming side hustle of taking out abusive spouses, partners, exes, stalkers, etc.

-Ray starts to take on the most of the wet work, with Rose doing the research and being his alibi.

-He's always been a great shot. He won Rose so many stuffed animals at carnival shooting games that they had to start donating them to shelters.

-They do have very strict rules on who they work with and who their targets are. Ray gets very good at stalking people with a giant long distance tele-lens. Both the people who hire them (to make sure they're telling the truth) and the targets.

-The prices they charge vary, and they even have perfected the scheme of 'take out life insurance on him and we get half of the pay out' for people who are in a bad financial situation. Those are trickier because he has to make the deaths look like an accident.

-Listen I'm not saying a few of the plants in Rose's Plant Wall in the studio are toxic. Of course they aren't, they have children running around in there.

-The ones under the grow-light in the attic though....

-He tells everyone he's a photographer but really, he only knows how to work the tele-lens. Rose jokes he could become the world's greatest paparazzi if he wanted to.

-Rarely does he get up close and personal with the targets, but he did made an exception once when 'My Ex Is An Abusive Scumbag number 87' really, really wanted Ray to know the client was right by going after his kid from his first marriage, because his favourite target (their client) wasn't there to take his rage out on.

-He starts hitting the gym after that because it was a liiiiittle too close for comfort.

-As spoken by @floating-in-the-blue: THAT'S WHY HE'S SO FIRM.

-They buy a big house and have money to send the kids to summer camp and fancy music school and the likes. When people ask he just smiles and shrugs and said he signed an NDA so he can't talk about most of his Big Photography Clients.

-Carlos and Julie think their dad is the biggest goober and he totally is. He forgets where he put his phone because he's too busy with the 700 other details of his job. He can tell if any of the parts of his work-toolbox have been moved even a millimeter.

-Just imagine Reggie like: wow Ray really does a lot of research about his photography clients, I wonder if it's like an engagement shoot or something.

-IT WAS NOT AN ENGAGEMENT SHOOT. There was a shooting, though.

-He's a little shell-shocked but still follows Ray down to where he meets the client to promise her it's done, and she cries and tells him thank you and mentions some of the awful things the guy has done or threatened to do, and then he gets it.

-They stage it to look like a break-in gone wrong. Reggie helps knock some shit over when they're distracted like: he's a ghost there are no finger prints. He stays after Ray leaves and watches the woman 'come home' and call the cops. She's either a really good actress, or the tears are just more tears of relief.

-He's really, really glad the abusive guy didn't come back as a ghost though, that would have been so awkward.

-Reggie decides that Julie can never, ever know.

[fortifice]

I am getting beaten to death by my own body.

[slutdge]

why is the process of making a will like pulling fucking teeth and i dont even have a guarantee that my family wont be allowed to have control over my body when i die which is the only reason i wanted to go through this process in the first place

[shoukiko]

CONTAINS MWIII SPOILERS!!!! SCROLL AT YOUR OWN RISK!!

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I'm going to shoot myself. Oh my god I've never felt so......wow The story was great, I absolutely loved playing. The open combat was my favorite (And also all the cutscenes with Ghost). Being honest I did not like that they brought back Graves. That did not make any sense to me and honestly made me annoyed.

I did not like the Danger Close mission, Yes because of Graves, but also because I just suck :3

I absolutely LOVED the Oligarch and Highrise missions, I had the most fun playing those. I was so emersed in the game during that, sneaking around as Soap, shooting people with the silenced M4 I found (And also Ghost during the interrogation cutscene HOOOMAMA). Playing as Gaz and zipping through the hallways of this big ass building, Got my blood pumping. But then......Soap Holy shit I actually sobbed in front of my viewers. It happened so fast and I hate them for it...but it was also handled well? Like when you're in that situation, theres no time to think or prevention for it. I'm genuinely heart broken, Johnny died a hero. Seeing Ghost run to Johnny and check his pulse, hearing him say Johnny in a concerned and scared voice.... Hearing Ghost's voice break a bit when he was saying "Rest in peace, Johnny" ...fuck man Great fucking campaign, I haven't cried this much since Titanfall 2.

On a lighter note, Ghosts hands are fucking huge and in a way it was comforting to see how he was able to hold Johnny's ashes so easliy. Rest in Peace Johnny, You're in our hearts forever.

[aeonsredemption]

uh ohhhh, wanna kms again XD

[justxdemixokay]

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[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

everytime i think i've finally figured out what i want to do with my life and what i want to put my energy into, i start second-guessing when i realize how much work and effort it will take. in a way, this isn't my fault bc i was raised in a very helicopter-parent "you don't have to do anything, we'll do it for you" environment but i'm 25. i'm going to be 26 in less than 2 months. i know that's still young and i shouldn't have to rush into moving out, becoming independent, finding a dream job, etc. there's no right way to live life, despite what other ppl's opinions might make you think. but... it just feels so hard. and i know changing isn't supposed to be EASY... in fact, changing for the better with intention is something that can be incredibly messy and hard and emotionally draining and painful and 9/10 times, is. BUT. i've started thinking about... what do i truly want to do? the answer is that i have a lot of things i like doing that i wouldn't mind doing on the side, or as a hobby, or whatever... but my main focus is. who knows!! i've gone back and forth on the idea of being a full-time artist or a teacher over and over again for the last 7-8 years since my graduation. i wanted to be an animator, then a writer, then a teacher, then a writer again, then a painter, then a teacher again... and i can't really pin down the niche i'm trying to insert myself in. i do think it would be fun and rewarding to be a teacher. i'm not sure what grade i'd teach (maybe elementary? possibly middle... idk!!) i'm scared i'll never figure out what i want to do and that killing myself is just the better option............... logically, i know how stupid that sounds LMAO but emotionally sometimes, it truly feels like the only possible ending. i'm sure when i actually do try again and put myself out ther ein the #realworld and become more independent and comfortable with myself and my place in the world, it'll be a lot easier to avoid thinking about killing myself all the time... sigh. honestly... i do want to be a teacher. but i know it will be hard and annoying and take a long time so that's what gives me pause. but like the socrates of our time said; the time will pass anyways. and if i don't try, i'll just slide further and further into that hole where the only light at the end of the tunnel is the sweet release of death. so i may as well try to try, i suppose.

[pardonmydelays]

feeling so fucking terrible today i don't even know if im gonna make it to october

[picnicbask3t]

me watching someone mischaracterise my own character and then publicly expose said mischaracterisation

[orion-archives]

I'm tired. Of all of this.

Every fucking day feels like the same, yet it gets heavier. Things get worse, nothing gets better and the few things that gave me security, happiness, where I thought I could escape and be free for some moments, are getting corrupted, forgotten, stained forever, never to be the same refuge they once were.

I'm tired of living sometimes. Of existing on this world.

I know how dying feels; it's calming, the darkness eats you and you feel without worries for the first time in your existance. You know it and that frees you.

But I don't want to die. I'm a coward. I want to continue living on this earth just because I think I can do something in the future, something that will fix everything, something that will give a purporse to everything I've done and lived through.

But we all know that is just a lie to make us feel better, don't we?

Because, at the end of all, do we really matter? What can assure us that?

I'm tired. Too tired.

I want to go somewhere else, but there is nowhere to escape. I want to say that I want to go home, go to the park, go to a forest and be happy. But this is something that will haunt me, haunt me forever and everywhere until the end.

Because you can't escape yourself.

I'm tired...