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Guilt tripping people does nothing but cause vulnerable folks to spiral and make folks who dont live with moral OCD feel negatively toward your cause
#gopher rambles#what the fuck do I tag this as#feel free to reblog but you dont have to#edit: pls not that im not saying 'only folks with moral ocd are negatively affected' or 'if these make you spiral you have moral ocd'#i mostly pointed that out because folks on this hellsite seem to only give a damn about things folks feel if theres a 'valid reason' to#which is shitty and stupid. but sometimes you gotta work with the shitty stupid shit to get your point across
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POV: Will Wood has an asthma attack while trying to talk about to many things at once and then skadoodles (?)
my mum bugged me into posting this
(it’ll probably rot in my drafts for ages)
(also i’m not sending the live stream to anyone so don’t ask. find it on youtube or tiktok or something idk i bet those guys probably have it somewhere)
#pov:will wood breathes#bro be inhaling#save some air for the rest of us#< /j#this is just a bunch of random screen recordings i had of his instagram stories#this video was originally shorter but i got bored earlier and added to it#idk how long this video will stay up if it even gets posted#i just need you all to know that my mother told me i should post this (?)#she thinks it’s hilarious for some reason#idek why i showed it to her#yes i do bug my mum with ww shit#she had me so she’s gotta put up with me#i feel like i should have more to say about this video#but i really dont#i made this when i was bored out of my goddamn mind#this is why i shouldn’t be allowed editing apps#can’t trust me not to make something stupid as hell#why couldn’t my personality revolve around something useful like math or science or something?#but noOo instead i make random edits of some guy breathing a lot#jfc#i’m gonna go walk into the ocean now#bye#will wood#will wood and the tapeworms#wwattw#will wood memes
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Stitch from the elevator scene in episode 48 of G Gundam
The camera did not pan far enough to completely include Bolt Gundam, sadly.
#G Gundam#Shuffle Alliance#I did this to practice with my new toy/image editor#It uh. did NOT save me time because I figured out how to keep the full height of the frames#despite the pan not being perfectly horizontal#it's a pain in the ass to have to remember to switch back and forth between the move and select tools now that I have a real ass program#but that's the price of not wielding a piece of shit I guess#there might still be some seam fuckery because I had to figure out which brushes were which too.#poor Argo keeps getting the shaft XD#he's cropped half out of this shot#Everyone gets a theme song! Argo and Sai have to share though.#gotta share that final fight with Domon with Allenby as well too champ#and he is *never* the one Shuffle member that gets into any of the video games#(If SunBandai just axed ONE of the two sets of designs that the WHOLE ASS WING TEAM GETS we could have all the shuffles fuck you wing)#my edits
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dont mind the username change btw we're just separating blogs into a personal talky blog and a more plural oriented (ploriented...) blog, we'll keep you updated [fingerguns]
#still gotta exchange all the links and shit hgkjg ooh this is going to be a real headache huh. well whatever. we adapt.#its so faucet can feel safer and let us talk here. keep public and private separate? we dont even know if this is going to help tbh hgjkg#but compared to faucet's ''delete all your accounts and wipe yourself off the internet'' plan its the better option of the two!!#ough this is complicated hgkjg maestro is not amused and faucet isnt sure what we should keep and what we should edit out#like. do we reveal ryan's a fact!ve on there? do we want it known that harlowe's a persecutor? does distance even want to be listed??#[like i've been saying‚ once we reveal something we cant take it back. especially if someone finds us. anything can be used against us.]#[and i know i might be paranoid but i can't... i want to keep us safe. so please just. consider the ramifications here.]#[...we're still nervous about being out on main. so don't expect that yet.] buuuut we're working on it hjgkjg :']#sigh. man. what are we doing. we're all in various states of uncertainty. what are we doing!! will this even help??#god we sure do love our internal arguments and pointless turmoil don't we gang. well. follow through i guess!!#it's alright. transitive states tend to be the messiest. we'll figure it out.
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Rare Darnellcore song ily
#my darnell playlist is such a MESS of shit that feels too selfindulgent but i think this fits in general#'what part of living says you gotta die? / i plan on burnin' through another nine lives' helllll yeah#💛#im feeling better btw :] working up my energy to edit#hopefully i can get this up by tonight bc otherwise itll have to go up like. tomorrow afternoon#i hate having plannnnsssssBDJQHSJQ#edit: I ALSO MEANT TO POINT OUT 'dead scared cuz im fearless in the head' HELLLLLL YEAH
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#glalie#another very cold shivering ice-type. gen 3 seems to have had a lot of these‚ huh?#and this guy is *kinda* just a circle. but i guess they have holes in 'em. are those… holes? what is the layer on the outside made of#i guess i assumed steel because of their typing (4x weakness to fighting my belovèd) and that there was some sort of black mass inside that#and that's where the… bulk of the… meat? lives? i dunno why there would be pointless holes that aren't for their eyes‚ then#wait hold on. glalie is a pure ice-type. i'm actually gonna die its DEX entry says “it covers its body with a layer of ice harder than steel#” which i guess. is why i thought. it was part steel-type. I GOTTA STOP GETTING ALL THESE WRONG it's making me look like i don't know#shit about pokémon when i'm literally the pokémon blog. i gotta step up my fucking game. or at least edit this shit out and not let it get#into the final tags. mama mia
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Guys I missed the countdown by 7 minutes can we redo it?
#would anyone believe me if i said i was distracted by wrestling cable around a piece of wood#i got the best shower thought to pull my amp so it faces into my room instead of into the corner#just rotating it#and the fuckening cable was stuck under a wooden art project (like a canvas) and i had a sbahj moment trying to figure out...#...which side of the canvas the majority of the cable was on#i know where the cable is connected to the wall but i didnt know how far along i pushed it along the wall#ughhhhshdjdossb#rip my back but im determined to go into the new year playing guitar#so can we redo it now 14 minutes later? bc i cant explain the configuration of my room#ShitPost.exe#OBLIGATORY: 'DISCLAIMER: i'M HI (HIGH)' TAG#wait i need more minutes i think i gotta tune to C please hold idk what tune this band does#firmly grasp the moment. go back to 2359 and hold the moment for me ill hit unpuase when im good and ready#edit: unpause i was being dramatic its only drop D but i found the keyboard riff so ill learn that on guitar instead#WE'LL START FROM FIVE... 4... 3.. 2.. fuckyou#dundundununundundjndunnizndnndndjsn#listen up yall#edit 2: i wasn't being dramatic lmao the song i was planning on in the shower was actually C#but i changed my mind when i sat down bc i couldnt remember which song (ive had the playlist on repeat most of today#so fuck my life back to tuning ig#its okay tho i fiddled around on the midnight in my heart#wow can i say anything without innuendo#edit 3: oh thank god its drop c not c lmao still maybe i should prank future cori by leaving my guitar in drop c for the next time i play#gonna pull it out like 'holy shit whats wrong with this thang' (i would not lol i tune it every time)#but ill remember this moment and shake my fist at past cori bc theres nothing future cori can do to stop present cori#can u tell im procrastinating lol. my amp made a funny sound when i turned it on and its not nearly old enough to need warming up yet#fuck i mean i need time to warm up too but like . fuck lol.
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Okay I’m sure this is gonna get screenshotted at some point, but if you mean to tell me your all-powerful “God” is letting all this racism, colonialism, war, famine, pollution, xenophobia, transphobia happen “for a reason” I’m going to explode. I’m automatically gonna discredit your reputation for talking about & knowing about a piece of media especially when you emphasize how you’re a “Christian” so there’s “one objective truth” and anyone else who says otherwise is “wrong.” Never thought I’d hear some shit like that (the second part, the first part I heard in a church long ago) in a reacting to Homestuck video, but here we are.
#don’t name names if you know who I’m talking about#please just don’t I don’t need that drama#this is a vague post even if it’s oddly specific#that being said if the homestuck youtuber reaches out and I’m misremembering then hey that’s my bad I’ll edit this post sure okay#but jfc does that rub me the wrong way when a Christian goes on and on about how Christian they are like- mmmm that’s uncomfortable#the first part didn’t happen in the YouTube video I was watching JUST TO BE CLEAR#The first part DID NOT GET SAID IN THE VIDEO#I’m just saying some shit there I heard in church as an ex-Christian that pisses me off#gotta love when a Christian tells you that ‘you’d be wrong’ hey I’m not the one worshipping a book about a guy who got white washed by#the colonial state that’s on y’all#if you know you know if you don’t I’m not telling as I don’t want anyone from my community dogpilng anyone thanks leave me out of your shit#mine#op
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my ass just saw the most ridiculous shit and i'm complaining about it on main instead of my plural blog i'm only a little sorry
anyways you can't just fucking go "pls ask before being a fictive of one of my ocs thanks" FICTIVES DON'T FUCKING WORK LIKE THAT NORMALLY. MOST SYSTEMS CAN'T FUCKING CONTROL WHO GETS INTROJECTED SHUT THE EVER LIVING FUCK UP
you can ask not to know about it or be told but you can't just fucking go "oh well you have to ask me first before you form or decide-" LIKE FUCKING HUH???? DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW NONSENSICAL YOU SOUND. DO YOU KNOW HOW LITTLE CONTROL THERE IS OVER NEW HEADMATES FORMING. DO YOU KNOW.
sincerely. a system who did not fucking ask for aubrey omori to be the one primarily helping me keep my shit together at work but here we are
(also adding my awesome disclaimer that there are always exceptions to this bc no system is exactly the same however in most cases systems don't have complete control over what kinds of headmates form so this is such a. bold thing to say to say the least lmfao)
#ghost whispers#tw caps#plural tag#this has gotta be like. the most nonsensical shit i've seen in dnis (esp on th) god bless lmfao#like thank you for outing yourself by revealing you inherently Do Not get how headmates typically form! lemme just block you real quick#you can't just ask someone to 'not be a fictive' of something. you can ask to not be told but you can't say 'u don't exist until i approve'#if you're like. a singlet either actually learn how this shit works or don't bring it up at all in your dnis. it's not that fucking hard#edit this actually kinda applies to fictkin too now that i think about it but y'all aren't ready for that convo
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ive been experiencing attraction....
:/
#(says experiencing like its a constant when its only happened twice for just a few seconds.)(same guy tho)#aroace me does not know what to do.#its entirely justified tho i think. david tennant as the 10th doctor is a famed good looking guy. i think.#its just... some edits ive seen. man. <3#i dont feel attraction. not like that. so every time i DO. it fucking shocks me.#i dont even see him like that. its just. the character in a very VERY specific action. i dont even know what.#shit hits like a truck oml.#listen i am not. complaining. its fun. sure.#but it is SO out of the ordinary for me. ew#i cannot stress how weird this is but. gotta move on ig 6=w=9#strange ways <3#sillyposting
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if ur gonna make the argument that trans men suddenly gain the privileges of a cis man when they pass you gotta make the same argument for trans women who pass as cis women,,,,, , ,
#when can i start talking about white women tears: trans women addition#or is now Not The Right Time. but somehow its still the right time to pretend trans men have the same privelege as cis men#sure go ahead just throw us into the fire without the rest of the queer community purely out of Vibes.#sure trans men just have all this privilege and now we dont have to think about them ever again and in fact pretend they're our oppressors#do yall even hear yourselves sometimes?#anyways we gotta focus on shit that actually matters for once instead of this dumb kinda discourse#be real. trans men dont have significant privelege. now link your fuckin arms you tool#just felt like i had to say this 👋 goin back to my break#edition* oops#also to be clear: i dont think trans women just gain priveleges like that by being perceived as cis. just like trans men dont#hope that helps!#tbh any trans white person whos read as fem gets the x gender tears label when they weaponize their femininity#and the percieved innocence by default and vulnerability to their advantage to manipulate people.
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vrisrezi. maybe.
#no probably not jellos just insane and homestick editor brained i gotta make STRETCHES for this shit#i had this saved as an edit idea and then i think i deleted it but. tbh i might do it#no promises never trust anything i say im gonna do i run out of motivation a lot#jello shut up challenge#i have so many vrisrezi ideas like. its too much#uhh trb begining of tainted love/where did our love go... theres a couple lines that r like peak wordplay with them#and if i did it no one would care probably but whatever itd be fun. i should undelete that idea if i did i wanna do it#theres like a “lost my light” line which. yeah. and then somethin about being stabbed in the chest or some shit i dont remember#ohhhh making lyrics literal for edits how i love you
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actually making a concerted effort to learn written japanese (since I've learned a small amount of spoken already) and. oh boy did not realise how hard it is for my brain to learn new symbols
#not beating the dyslexia allegations here tbh#but like tbh i struggle to read even just fonts i don't normally read often#if an app changes its font it genuinely gets harder for me to read and use for a bit#but I've always thought of myself as a good reader and speller?#but now i have to wonder- was it just because i subconsciously implemented 'tricks' to help me deal with it easier so i didn't notice?#because learning a new language means absolutely none of those 'tricks' work#I've always felt like I've known the Shape of a word better than the actual content of letters making them up#most fonts have varying widths for different words right. except those kinds of typewriter fonts that make all letters evenly spaced#and i actually struggle to read typewriter fonts as quickly as i read like. basic sans serif arial-adjascent fonts#i actually prefer to do edit work in courier BECAUSE it forces me to read my own work slower#holy shit i googled 'courier font' and now the whole page is in courier thats kinda cool#also everyone says i spell really well in texts and things#what you dont know is that 90% of my hesitation with sending a message is just doing about 50 rereads to check for errors#(i Have to check it that many times cause otherwise i Will miss something and i Hate making typos)#(bc everyone makes fun of me for making typos and i do not like jokes being made out of misinterpreting me on purpose)#is there a dyslexia quiz that doesn't solely ask about your spelling and reading levels#like there's gotta be other symptoms than just being a slow reader what if you just brute forced reading fast somehow#i also didn't realise i was dyscalculic because i had to use so many similar Tricks to get me through math#and then algebra hit and i haven't passed a math class since......#like maybe i didn't notice i was dyslexic until i hit a barrier where my tricks just stopped working for me#like reading letters that aren't shaped the way I'm used to or learning a new language with different rules#i still have a vendetta against the Fancy lowercase a that just looks like an upside down e trying to read it makes me angry
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💋 The Secrets One Keeps
summary: You're in love with jj but he's with kie, so in moments of pure desperation you often find yourself turning to the person he hates the most...rafe
warnings: some good old angsty pining, very very slight smut if you squint, fem!reader, one or two uses of y/n, plz let me know if I missed anything
a/n: SHE'S BACKKKK, so I've decided to completely reformat and re-post this fic with a few tweaks and editing considering i first wrote this like 3 years ago, and yes for those of you who have been asking, I fully intend to finallly continue this fic....more info on that later ;)
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JJ’s eyes change the moment Kiara steps into any room. Immediately his presence is ripped away from your immediate atmosphere, popping the little bubble you'd spent all afternoon crafting as he sprung up to greet the olive-skinned enigma that captured his affections.
“Kie!” The joy in his tone was incomparable to anything he’d directed at anybody else. Nothing could draw out such happiness from the blonde. You hated that about her.
In an attempt at self-defense, your brain shut itself off. Shielding you from processing the scene in front of you, your emotions ran cold like cement pouring down and across your neurons. It was the only way you could survive such a beating to your heart.
You figured that by distancing yourself mentally, you wouldn’t have to raise suspicion and distance yourself physically. In reality, you knew the real reasoning was your inability to stay away from JJ but the facade helped you cope.
“Hey J” she embraced him and his body relaxed around her as if she was the only source of his happiness. The only way he’d find alleviation from what he perceived as a shitty life being through her. “Sorry I’m late my parents had me running like crazy at the wreck today.”
Scattered greetings filled the air from the rest of the pogues, yet you could only focus on the way his eyes fixated on her like she was the most beautiful thing he’d ever seen.
“Here come sit baby” he offered her the seat he had just previously been place holding. What you thought had been quality time with your best friend, presented itself to you now as momentary attention to pass the time until his actual desire arrived.
Settling herself down and offering you a wide smile, her shoulder bumped against yours gently as a sign of acknowledgment.
“Hey dude” she directed at you, but you didn’t reply. You just couldn’t bring yourself to pretend. Not today anyway. Instead, you offered her a small smile, it was minimal but it was the best you could do under the circumstances.
“Yo" A crumpled tissue paper flew at your head, jj attempting to refocus your attention on him, "didn’t you say you were gonna get some water or something?” He spoke up, the scheme evident in his tone.
“um yeah I guess” You lifted yourself up and took a few steps before jj used the opportunity to slump himself down where you had been sat and sprawled his arms across his girlfriend’s shoulders.
“snooze ya loose sucker” he joked as he turned to Kiara to start up some mindless conversation. Leaving you behind in the dust.
Your teeth gritted as you focused on making your way to the kitchen hoping the distance from the scene unfolding would lift the iron grip on your heart.
You made the fatal mistake of glancing back and you were met with the image of jj nuzzling up to kiara in a picturesque display of love. The lump building at the base of your throat indicated that it was your time to get the hell out of there before you broke down in front of everyone.
“Shit guys, y’know what I just realized I gotta go” You spoke quickly, your tone matching your pace as you rushed to the exit of the chateau.
“You’re still coming to the party later though right?” John B asked, not tearing his eyes away from the screen in front of him.
“Mhm yeah sure” you opened the door ready to depart.
“Shit I forgot about that! Me and jj are gonna be late, we got dinner at the wreck tonight.” kiara added as you stepped out, unable to control the escape of a rogue tear.
“Date night babyyyy” You heard JJ cheer before you slammed the door behind you.
“Is Y/N okay? She seemed a bit off.” Kie nudged JJ as she questioned.
JJ furrowed his eyebrows momentarily. Glancing out the window, he saw you jog away from the house, and a brief flash of worry flashed through his mind. As quick as it came, it dissipated. He shook his head figuring that if there had been something wrong, he’d have been the first to know.
“Nah she’s okay don't worry.” he offered to kie.
Boy was he mistaken.
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“Fuuuck me” you moaned out, sinking into him one last time. You were hot, sweaty, and heaving as you pulled him out of you.
“I thought I just did” Rafe taunted leaning back to lie down, arms crossed behind his head causing his taut abdomen to flex.
You scrambled off the bed, picking up your garments and shoving them back on your body forcefully.
“What, no pillow talk?” He tried again.
“Rafe..” you trailed off. Whenever you’d finish fucking, you’d struggle to even look at him. The self-hatred flooded your body as soon as the orgasm poured out.
“Hey you called me” he eyed you intently but you knew he didn’t actually care. To rafe cameron everything was just a game. At this point it was pretty much common knowledge. “In fact” he moved closer to you so that he could speak directly into your ear “It’s always you that calls me.”
“Don’t be a dick” you stood up and eyed your heels contemplating whether you could face the walk back in them. “You know it makes me feel like shit.” It might have sounded brutal but that’s how things were with rafe.
“Yeah, it’s like you punctuate your orgasms with self-hate.”
“I'm a pogue, rafe.” You argued back as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
“So? Kooks and pogues can fuck you know.” You couldn’t comprehend why you were even having this conversation. Why now, why tonight.
“Yeah maybe, not you though.” You didn’t want to tell him the reason explicitly.
“I fuck pogues.”
“You fuck anyone.” The words came out almost instantly and without thinking, yet rafe took no offense.
“Exactly so what’s the issue?”
“The issue is, rafe.” You paused trying to find the words without actually having to say the words. “The issue is that if my friends found out they’d hate me, probably more than I already hate myself.”
He just chuckled, the look in his eyes changing as he figured you out.
“What's funny?” You challenged.
“You don’t have to bullshit me princess.” He looked up at you with a devilish glint in his eye. “You just don’t want jj knowing about your little escapades huh?” Bingo.
“He’s with Kiara.” You shrugged him off.
“Uh huh, you like him but you can’t have him.” Every word he spoke striking a nerve deep within you. “So you’re fucking me to fuck him over.”
“You don’t know what you’re talking about.” You grabbed your heels and shoved them on, wincing as you buckled them up.
“Don’t I?” He threw his joggers on lazily as he stood, the level dynamics changing significantly. The older boy towered over you. “Where are they tonight?”
“Back at John B’s, we had a little get-together.” You crossed your arms. More often than not you usually called rafe after a few drinks left you feeling lonely. “Sorry, your invite must have gotten lost in the mail.” You attempted to jab at him with sarcasm yet he clearly held the upper hand with his line of questioning.
“So all of them are there now?” He stepped towards you.
“Mhm,” You lied.
“Even jj?” Moving closer until your neck was craned upwards to meet his eyes.
Taking your silence as an answer, he reached up and ran his palms across your upper arms, prompting you to uncross them.
“He was uh- him and kie should be getting there soon” You mumbled.
“So would i be wrong in guessing, that might have prompted your call then?” You let yourself be guided by his movements leaning your neck further back as his hand trailed up to your jawbone.
“rafe…” you called out insignificantly.
He leaned in and pressed his lips against your neck, right over where he could feel your pulse, and pressed down.
You couldn’t help the gasp that left your mouth. Because as much as your heart belonged to jj, rafe was just so fucking good at raising your temperature.
“Round two?” He mumbled against your neck.
“Yeah..” you attempted yet it came out as a whisper. He grabbed you swiftly and lifted you, moving you across the room and throwing you down onto his bed, crawling on top of you in a predatory manner as he did so. As your back hit the bed, the ringing of your phone brought you back from the haze he had you under.
“Wait rafe stop stop” you pushed him off and grabbed the screeching mobile, pressing it up to your ear. “Hello?”
“Dude, where are you?” The sound of jj’s voice came through over the pumping sound of music and party chatter. “Me and Kie just got back and John B says no one’s seen you for like over an hour.”
“Oh I’m uh, I had to go do something for my mom” The lie pouring out of your mouth caused rafe to chuckle which was of course met by a slap from you signaling for him to be quiet.
“Oh well, when are you getting back? I have to tell you about this date. You’re gonna be so proud of me I actually think I’m ready to tell Kie I love her” you screwed your eyes shut as he spoke.
“Yeah I- you know what I can’t make it back my mom needs me to stay and help out but uh I’ll see you tomorrow or something.” You hung up before he could even reply, throwing your phone down uncaring of its state.
“What’s wrong? They getting hitched?” Rafe spoke up from behind you.
You turned to Rafe, the fire in your veins pushing your arms to grab him, roughly pulling him back onto you.
“Just shut up and fuck me rafe.”
And fuck you he did.
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The next morning you woke up to the sight of rafe’s bare back. Not much of a cuddler, you figured.
Quietly you pushed the covers off and began to dress yourself back up. As you got to your shoes you sighed and shook your head, as if there was any way in hell you were going to walk home in heels. You scooped up your shoes and your now-cracked phone shaking your head, slightly ashamed at your outburst.
Without even a second glance at the sleeping body you were leaving behind, you made your way over to the door. As you turned the knob and stepped out to leave, a husky voice spoke up.
“I’ll keep my ringer on for you babe.”
You rolled your eyes looking back at him, “Fuck you rafe.”
“Yeah, that’s what I’m counting on.” He didn’t even open his eyes as he answered, instead just rustling around in the bed and turning to the other side, once again facing his back to you.
You scoffed as you exited. Your internal rant clouded your vision, body on autopilot with an excellent self-navigation of the Cameron house from the countless times you’d made this exit.
“Y/N?” The gentle voice wiped your thoughts clean as the shock stilled you dead in your tracks, slowly turning to come face to face with none other than Sarah.
“Sarah” you drawled out. “What are you doing here?”
“It’s my house?” Her head was cocked to the side, equally shocked to see you.
“No I just mean- I thought you were spending the night at John B’s.” You forced the small talk, avoiding the topic of why you were here, sneaking out at 8 in the morning.
“He had to work today, did you spend the night here?” She glanced up at the door of rafe’s bedroom.
“Umm-“ There had only been two other instances where you had been at a complete loss for words. The day jj told you he and Kiara were dating, the morning after your first sexual encounter with rafe, and now this.
“Are you sleeping with my brother?!” She whisper-shouted, eyes wide as the realization hit her. Busted.
“No?”
“Oh my god!” She grabbed you by the wrist and dragged you to her room, slamming the door as soon as you were both inside. “How long has this been going on?!” Her tone was loud and her hands wild as she interrogated you.
“Just a little under a year.” You sat on her bed and looked at your lap as you spoke. Reminiscent of a child being scolded.
“A year?! Oh my god!” She repeated. “Who knows about this?!”
With that, you looked up at her desperately. “No one. No one knows so please don’t tell them.” You didn’t have to name names for her to know who you were referring to.
“Are you two like” she paused “together?” She scrunched her nose up, disgusted at the thought of her bully of an older brother dating anyone.
“No god no. It’s just sex” you were just as uncomfortable as Sarah was, having to tell her about boning her older brother.
“Disgusting.” She turned away from you with her arms crossed, looking out the window.
“Look I’m not proud of it okay? Just-“ You sighed “Just please don’t tell anyone” pleading again.
Sarah let out a long sigh and uncrossed her arms. She walked over to you and joined you on the bed, her eyes showing concern mixed with something you couldn’t quite place your finger on.
“I thought you were into jj” she spoke softly, there it was. Pity.
“Yeah well, jj is with kie and instead of sitting around wallowing in self-pity, I decided to do something about it.” As the words left your mouth, you realized how weak the explanation was.
“So you just use rafe to bang the jj out of you.”
“It’s not like Rafe cares, if anything he’s also using me.” You tried to reason.
“I don’t doubt that. But I mean, that’s- It’s not healthy, you’ll never move on if you don’t actually process your emotio-“
“Look Sarah, I don’t need to do any of that shit okay? What I have here works, when I fu- when I’m with rafe, I don’t think about jj.” Tears began to swell in your eyes “Sleeping with rafe helps me forget about everything, even if it’s only for a little while he uh- he makes me feel good.” To an extent, there was truth behind your words, while you and rafe fucked the rest of the world went away. It was only after, that the crippling self-hatred hit you along with the return of your immense feelings for jj.
Sarah shuffled over and threw her arm around you. “That’s not good for you, it’s just momentary. It’s easy and it's a cycle, you’re never going to get better going down this path. Especially not with rafe.”
“Rafe he’s- he’s not that bad.”
“Yes he is. But i bet it gives you satisfaction fucking him knowing jj hates him. Feels like revenge right?” She’d always been so perceptive your Sarah, you hated how she could see right through you.
Tears ran down your cheek silently. “You’re not gonna tell anyone right?” You sniffled.
She gave you one of those classic salt-of-the-earth Sarah Cameron smiles, the kinda smile that would light up any room she walked into. “Takin' it to the grave babe.”
A loud beeping caused both your heads to whip towards the window. “Shit, I completely forgot I was supposed to go on the HMS with pope and jj, we were gonna chill there until John B and Kie finished work.” She rose to her feet and extended an arm towards you. “Wanna come? Or we could drop you home if you’re not up for it.”
With a sigh you took her hand and pulled yourself up, walking beside her as you mentally prepped yourself to face the blonde you desperately pined for.
“Well rise and shine campers.” jj yelled out of the window of the drivers seat.
“Y/N! Where you been dude? you totally bailed last night.” Pope was next to speak as you and Sarah filed into the Twinkie. As JJ began to drive you avoided any form of eye contact in his general direction.
“I had to go help my mom out, blackout at mine again.” You didn’t even look at pope either, instead focusing your attention on the blur of trees and houses pacing by the window as JJ sped down the winding roads.
“Isn’t that what you were wearing last night?” pope, observant as always, pointed out.
“Uh yeah, I didn’t really get any time to change cause…”
“I called her last night when I got home, I was so drunk I don’t think I was ready to stop the party.” Sarah covered for you.
“Yeah I wrapped up helping my mom out and then this one calls me talkin bout a sleepover or something so I didn’t exactly have much time to change.”
Thankfully pope had lost interest as soon as he had asked the question, otherwise, your overcompensating ass would have been caught out straight away. You always had to add to the lie until you felt like you had sold it completely.
Keeping your eyes trained on the outside meant that jj’s frown directed at you through the windscreen mirror went completely undetected. He always knew whenever there was something up with you and right there and then he knew something definitely was.
“Hey, you okay?” He didn’t need to address you explicitly for you to know he was talking to you.
“Yeah just tired.” You shrugged him off in an attempt to distance yourself from him yet again.
He knew you were lying but he didn’t understand why, you never lied to each other. Apart from John B, the pair of you were closer to each other than with anybody else in the group. You’d been best friends since kindergarten, and since then you’d sworn 3 things to each other.
1- You’d always share your snacks.
2-You’d always be best friends even if you argued.
3- You would never ever lie or keep secrets from each other.
Of course, as the both of you grew older the rules became more and more lax. The snack sharing was limited only to when you felt nice enough and sometimes you’d go for days without making up if you had argued particularly badly. Having kept two friendship-breaking secrets from him, the childhood rules seemed pretty insignificant by now.
“Mhm,” he responded, flickering his eyes between you and the road. “Are we taking you home to change first?”
“Yeah, I don’t know if I’ll join you guys afterward though.” You chewed down on your nail anxiously as the tension from being in the same space as jj paired with the guilt from having fucked rafe prior, suffocated you.
JJ made a face as he focused on the road, something was wrong with you and he’d be dammed if he wasn’t going to put his everything into finding out what that was.
#back on my shit#jj Maybank#Rafe Cameron#jj maybank x reader#rafe cameron x reader#love triangle#obx#outer banks#outer banks fic#jj maybank angst#jj maybank smut#rafe cameron smut#rafe cameron angst#jj maybank x you#rafe cameron x you#tsok#the secrets one keeps
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good lird they did not make a gimmick blog about a real life murder
#someone fucking DIED but whatever who gives a shit it's funny i guess
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honestly with how suspicious and confusing everything on the dl-6 case was i wouldn't be surprised if it came out that it was that prosecutor guy tbh
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date posted: june 23, 2010
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ok hear me out. what abt winston payne though
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okay now they're just making lawyers up
#also didn't mvk die or something?
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🔥 triedbyfire Follow
why the fuck are you people still posting about the gavinners as if theyre not copaganda. didn't the guitarist get convicted of murder
🎸 guiltiest-lovers837 Follow
so fucking tired of this "um um didn't daryan get convicted of murder" YEAH AND HE'S LITERALLY NOT IN THE FUCKING BAND ANYMORE. dipshit
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are you gonna address the copaganda thing or
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he's so. 😳
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why is he defending
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OP WHY IS HE DEFENDING???
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i just wanna hear about another gourdy sighting thats all
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op. i'm so sorry op. gourdy isn't real you have to let her go. they had a whole trial about it.
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hi!! so this isn't actually the case as while gourdy was briefly mentioned in a trial, said trial had nothing to do with whether or not gourdy was "real" per se as much as. well. murder, actually. while gourdy WAS found out to be an inflatable steel samurai this was not brought up in the case at all as the veracity of gourdy wasn't really as relevant as the fact that the witness was looking for gourdy rather than at the murder she claimed to have seen. plus this was also a relatively small part of a MUCH larger trial which for those interested not only solved the dl-6 case but ALSO marked the end of prosecutor von karma's ~40 year long record and the court records are really a fascinating read through!!
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net 0 information post
#thanks again lawblr
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btw i was at the park the other day and klavier gavin (of gavinners fame) was there and obv there was a huge crowd but this guy was there with him and at some point he (the other guy) waved to the crowd and someone still screamed like it was klavier??? who was that guy ive never seen him before in my life
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YES!!!
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guys help i'm a bank teller and this guy just introduced himself as robin banks what do i do
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you gotta let him rob you that's the law
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look if i ever get convicted of murder im just hiring the lawyer with the coolest sounding name
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bestie if you already got convicted it is Too Late
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guys i know it's real fun to think people just can predict whatever but if you look at the earliest reblogs of that post that "guessed" the true killer in the dl-6 case it was actually a post about how they didn't want to go to the store. clearly edited
#stg nobody bothers to factcheck anything anymore
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i am NOT homophobic or whatever the fuck you guys are saying now i just think its weird to write fanfiction about realass people?? go touch grass ffs
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the fun police (this guy) putting me in yaoi court but the lawyers (phoenix witrght and miles edgeworth) just keep trying to make out (real court is like this too btw)
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YOU HAVE SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU.
#look idc what your enemies to lovers fic bullshit says #they're straight. and more importantly REAL PEOPLE. #there's TENSION because they are in COURT and there are LIVES on the LINE. #not because they wanna fuck. god.
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why dont they just ask the spirit mediums to ask the victims who killed them this law shit is easy
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seriously i cant believe they gave this guy a law degree
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what do you mean evidence fraud
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fuck you *unguilties your love*
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perjury isnt illegal btw in fact if youre one of tge witnesses youre legally required to lie on the stand. thats why everyone does it. trust me
#ace attorney#ace attorney spoilers#dashboard simulator#dash simulator#dashboard sim#dash sim#unreality#fake dashboard#fake dash#post simulator#long post#average day on lawblr i think#'op what is the timeframe for this' not applicable people reblog 10 year old posts on here all the time /lh#but sometime after turnabout serenade.#'isn't one of these urls a real blog' yeah she wanted to be included /lh
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I mean, a very close relative who up until that moment I had thought was a decent person, even if they were a little bit too christian and preachy at times, once told me with the biggest smile that they knew they had chosen the right path, and their soul would be saved, that following god is what free will is about. People like me? Atheists or agnostics? They *chose* to distance themselves from god, so I'm going to hell of my own free will, and isn't free will a beautiful thing, the only person you can thank for the consequences of your own action is yourself! Dehumanization is key to fascism and other radicalized people: they're the first and only ones doing it, I don't care if it comes from a "place of care" (which also ignores all the narcissists and people who do harm because they like it or think they're in the right to do so). I don't care if people discriminate, maim, kill, hurt others "out of care". Becoming a doormat to these people definitely is not in my plans. I don't need to dehumanize anyone, but recognizing the harm they're doing is harming others and they must be stopped, recognizing they're being evil because they're doing evil things, is the root of anti fascism. And why are people insisting that calling other people horrible monsters for doing serious harm to others is the road to doing harm yourself? You can be deeply disgusted by someone like, say, JKR or NG, without wanting to kill them or harm them. You can use them as a cautionary tale for yourself, to never become what they've become. Not everyone who is deeply disgusted is automatically dehumanizing someone. Recognizing anyone can do harm out of a misplaced sense of superiority =/= becoming a doormat and twiddling your thumbs while evil people bring democracy down and take away all the rights gained in the last 70 years (evil because they're doing evil things). It's more about a misplaced sense of being Right: they don't do it out of a sense of "care for others", they do it because they want to destroy others. There's no love or care in their agenda, maybe towards the people in their circles, but that doesn't make them any less evil when they do evil things? Recognizing what's the catalyst of those evil actions may help disinnescate radicalized people, but you can't do that by becoming a doormat either. Also, targeted minorities shouldn't be expected to do this, or to coddle the people who hurt them. The first and foremost aim should be protecting people from harm.
i wish left-leaning understood that most right-wing people don't have bad intentions. most conservative apologists for fascists or even fascists themselves don't wake up with the desire to be harmful. nor do they even have the full awareness of the evil they commit. sure, there are some people who are knowingly morally bankrupt and have no shame in the matter, but this is relatively rare (more people are apathetic than malicious).
but good intentions can still hurt others. good intentions can and does lead to violence. even fascism is rooted in a desire for "purity and goodness," which sounds nice without any of the context of what fascism actually entails. this is why everyone is susceptible to believing fascist ideology. though admittedly, some are more susceptible than others due to, usually, their material conditions.
#I guess next time I see someone being racist I will try to appeal to the good of his heart#'Oh Mr Racist I know your heart is in this but wouldn't you by chance maybe please stop calling the N word this poor pregnant woman#who just accidentally bumped into you? Thanks!'#^ really saw this happen and let me tell you#caresses and kissy faces is not how we de-escalated* the situation#but telling the person what a rude asshole he was being by putting in danger a pregnant woman was a key component#I don't know how else we're supposed to fight any -ism and -phobia out there if this is now considered dehumanization#Also defending yourself from fascism with violence =/= being a fascist#to get rid of fascist you need to fight not to hold a therapy session with them#seriously people consider this dehumanization now?#edit: *I realize how I worded this doesn't sound particularly de-escalating lol#I was paraphrasing but a stern and swift reaction to this asshole by pointing out the harm he was doing was indeed what de-escalated#the situation the most#“trapped by societal conventions” and all that meme#not saying shit like “Cmon Jerry I understand they can be annoying but what you gotta do attack a pregnant woman? They're humans too :))) ”
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