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bandzboy · 9 months ago

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i wanna talk about how... i had my last class today and we presented our final projects and everyone was so nice about my song and my teachers gave me 18 out 20 and i was surprised because even tho they literally mentioned that they think art should not be graded simply because it's subjective and all, i don't think i've ever had a grade this high on really anything ever? so i really felt very proud of myself on that moment but LATER ON... they asked us individually what we thought of this course and funny enough... i was the last one to talk about my experience and i said that i felt very fulfilled because i never did collaborative work with people before and i learned so much from my classmates! ever since the first day i felt so welcome and since i'm an introvert it's very hard for me to feel comfortable with a group of people immediately and so i was very grateful for that and as i got to talk with all of them individually about music i always felt like i was on the right track and this is honestly what i wanna do because in the end, this career with bring me a connection with people that i never really had until now with any of my friendships and so i'm very grateful but other than that... i also said that if they wanted to reach out to me and collab and do music with me i would always be available and honestly i don't even know how i could be that straightforward it was a first for me i was like wow i really did that??? and they agreed and it made me so happy and especially because i wanna keep being friends with these people like i was on the way there and i thought that i didn't want to not want to see them again after today and hopefully we would keep in touch for anything and we keep being in community hopefully so yeah... i never thought i would feel comfortable to even ask people to keep in touch and actually mean it and hopefully that our friendship will grow over time

#this is long but it's mostly for me #because it's been hours since i've been home #and i even told my parents all of this #but there hasn't been a day that i didn't come from class every week #that i wasn't excited about something so excited that i posted abt it here #or told my parents about it #i remember there was a time i talked a bit about all of my classmates to my mom #THAT'S HOW MUCH I LOVED THIS CLASS AND THIS PEOPLE #i don't think i've ever felt this way #so much so that i'm sharing on tumblr 😭#i feel like getting into my 20s things can get lonely #and i've been friendless since like i was 18 #and so this is the first time in forever i feel hopeful about friendships #and the fact that it might happen because of music #is even better #because that always brings me solace is also #bringing me friendship after so long so it's great #i'm also hopeful for the future literally yesterday i was kinda anxious #bc idk what will happen from now i'll be looking for a job #and for gigs here and there #but i don't feel anxious anymore after today i'm excited #there are a lot of possibilities and it's great 🥹#so yeah very exciting eheh #tris.txt

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bunnieswithknives · 2 days ago

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Thanks.

#fop #fairly oddparents #fop a new wish #fairly oddparents a new wish #fop nature au #fop dev #fop dale #dev dimmadome #dale dimmadome #art #digital art #comic #The 'Thanks' after all of that makes me so insane Im not even sure I can fully articulate why #I mean. He got what he wanted. Honesty. Thats what you wanted right Dev?#what else do you say to that #He's spent his whole life being sure he knew the answer. That deep DEEP down dale did love him #Have you ever seen that post thats like“I was bawling my eyes out and somebody told me to shut up and I was so taken aback I stopped crying #I think he was so stunned that he just stopped crying.#or like when you get so upset that your feelings turn themselves off to protect you #is that a normal thing that happens to people Erm. anyway #Sorry lol as someone born to parents who.. should not have had me. Writing dale basically admitting as much is actually really cathartic #He shouldnt have had Dev. He doesnt love him. He cant. Dev cant do anything to change it. Its just a fact.#Hes not 1:1 with my parents they tried their best ig but like. their best was still pretty awful child neglect LOL

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spielzeugkaiser · 1 year ago

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Ciri feels a bit like she's been in the way, once Geralt and Milek become closer - like she held him back somehow.

The thing I think is crucial about this - things went wrong and Geralt missed out on seeing Milek growing up - but Geralt is a dad. The parallels are there.

#geraskier #jaskier #geralt of rivia #geraskier lovechild #the witcher #what I want to get at is that Geralt had Ciri pretty much from Mileks birth on #and the thing is #the THING IS if you look at the timelines #with Cintra burning down happening and Sodden and Geralt searching for Ciri - even if he had known #even if Jaskier had told him and he had been happy about it #he probably wouldn't have been there for Mileks birth #because he would have been trying to get to Cintra #and he absolutely wouldn't have taken Jaskier #he even might have not taken them later to KM either (to protect them)#so either way it would have been messy because Geralt would have gotten two kids at nearly the same time #this why that feels a lot like the parent trap in my mind sometimes even if I can't describe how #pfppfpf #OF COURSE it would have been sooooo much different for Jaskier #but I do think all of that is something he learns from Yennefer later #and it stings but he is also glad that Geralt took care of his child surprise #so for Jaskier there is always the thought too of. Geralt is already doing it all #trying to handle things #and they would be... additional

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missjashin · 2 years ago

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Okay we all know that Eddie was (is) a Garfield kid, based on the multiple Garfield mugs that we’ve seen hanging in the trailer.

But I am absolutely making Steve a Winnie the Pooh kid. Because just look at Christopher Robin and tell me that the little lonely polo shirt wearing boy is not the core of Steve Harrington.

Just look!

That is little Steve Harrington no question about it.

#Steve Harrington #eddie munson #steddie #st steddie #well not really Steddie but I mention them both so it is #and it is if you read all my tags ✌️#Steve would have a Winnie the Pooh plushie that his parents/dad told him to get rid of when he was like 9 or something #because he was ‘too old for it’#so he hid it and it still in his room #and he brings out when he is feeling lonely but feels like he can’t reach out to anyone #no one knows about it #not even robin #and Eddie only learns about it when they move in together #peace out ✌️#also yes I’m projecting I loved Winnie the Pooh as kid ❤️💛

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ask-the-colony-tree-siblings · 2 months ago

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Hey, Hunter!

Aside from the chronic back pain, what other long lasting symptoms did you have from the Rot, if any?

((Okay! So my attempt to answer this somehow developed into a rant about Hunter’s characterization so… here you go lol.))

So I have to answer this on Hunter’s behalf, because part of his character is that he doesn’t like to admit any sort of weakness. Apart from chronic pain, I essentially just gave him the symptoms of low iron. He gets light headed and dizzy, and he is often tired or low energy.

Hunter has this mindset that being weak, or showing weakness makes you useless. (I wonder what could have possibly made him develop that way of thinking. Surely nothing to do with the way he was raised and treated growing up.) Keep in mind, Hunter’s very logical logic only applies to him. He wouldn’t judge Survivor for not being strong, Hunter just has unhealthy expectations of himself that definitely aren’t realistic anymore with his post-rot symptoms, and were never actually that realistic to begin with.

He has a habit of ignoring his own symptoms, and pretending to be perfectly fine when he isn’t. He’d never admit it if his chronic pain is making it difficult for him to function properly.

(His physical health is one thing, but don’t even get me started on how Hunter views his mental health lmao.)

Uhhh anyways bonus light headed/dizzy Hunter:

#Rw siblings au #Rw Hunter #Me when I PROJECT #I have low iron #I also feel genuine fear/panic when I hear the word ‘whining’ lmfao #Noooooo I’m not weak at all #Let me go for this run even though I’m light headed because I don’t want anyone to think I’m trying to get out of running #And then why don’t I faint on the road like a dumbass #But hey at least nobody accused me of making my condition up for attention or something #Like I’m scared they would have if I’d tried to sit out of the run #Haters (my parents) be like:#“Stop whining! Suck it up! You’re being dramatic!” 😡😡😡#And then I faint and suddenly my mom’s all:#“Why don’t you ever take care of yourself???” 🥺🥺🥺 “if you were light headed you should have told somebody!!!” 🥺🥺🥺#Like UGHHHH shut up it’s your fault I’m like this #I’m gonna shut up now I just realized I’ve been venting in the tags lmfao #Anyways I love projecting on the sillies #Gotta be one of my favourite hobbies

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captn3 · 2 months ago

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fairly odd parents still infecting my brain have a redraw

og screenshot ^ im already working on stuff with backgrounds i dont need to make even more

#fop #fopanw #dev dimmadome #fairly odd parents #the fairly oddparents #fairly oddparents #development devin dimmadome #fairly oddparents a new wish #fop dev #fop a new wish #fanart #from here on out are my own tags #memo's constellations #✳️#:dev #ahhhh millions of different tags for one thing i did not miss you #I STILL GOT IT THO! it being creating actual full lined pieces #very fun drawing. back to the reference sheet and animation mines for me though #i dont think i said it but i'm actually animating in fopanw reanimated!!#this drawing was just a quick break and also to make a discord icon thats my own art #i havent been so hyperfixated on something since fuck. i dont even know #but this show is taking over my mind dogggg its all i can think about #i keep saying this but #if you told me like a year ago that id be being really ill about doug dimmadome owner of the dimmsdale dimmadome etc's grandson #to the point of adding him to my fucking kinlist which hasnt been updated in fucking months #i would not believe you #but. here we are LOL #if you think im insane. honestly i dont know what to say except watch anw cause Jeeeesus christ dev dimmadome is one fucked up kid #okay sorry for ranting in the tagsss certified memo moment of ranting in the tags. its over now BYE <3

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al-luviec · 4 months ago

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juvie buddies

#alek art #td duncan #td mal #total drama #total drama all stars #(if i want to get technical)#2024 #duncan is around 15 here... mal is around 16 #ive thought really hard about them these past few days . in my brain they actually knew each other and canon is different #duncan and mike got along really well. in juvie mal refused to speak to anyone about anything and would fight as many people as he could .#he wanted to stay in there and far away from home . they get roomed together and duncan is the first person who mal can talk to . he isnt #scared of him . he relates to him a lot . like -> wow we both act out for attention and people think we are terrible because of it #duncan being a mentally ill teenager seeing mal an also very mentally ill teenager thought 'i can fix him' . mike and duncan speak too here #i cant really see anyone else fronting besides those two . their brain was on lockdown and mike wanted out so bad . i see manitoba as a #gatekeeper so hed handle some sessions with their psych. i want to say they (duncan and mike) get moved to a psyche ward just because #i have more knowledge on being in one and how it goes ... but yeah i like duncan mal a lot . this art isnt ship whatsoever though 🙏 i dont #see them as a couple their dynamic is just better as friends imo #but anyways in all stars they obviously recognize each other but have an unspoken agreement not to say anything abt it #duncan is a known criminal but mike isnt like that . mike hadnt even told zoey about that part of his life . so duncan wanted to respect his #privacy -> then mal starts hurting people and he has to step in . mal isnt a good person by any means but i dont think he was that bad in #juvie . so duncan had to come to terms that his friend wasnt the same person he was years ago (in all stars duncan is ~18 and i think mike #is almost 20... so it had been a while since they last talked)#them getting each other like no other and being in pain because they couldnt really speak . i see them having a conversation still in moon #madness abt their past and history . god i just think abt them and their wasted potential wdym mike and duncan were in juvie together #duncan was in for trespassing or destruction of private property or something really dumb . mal fought his parent(s) and got in for assault #mal was already in when duncan was placed . and duncan was let out early on good behavior + his parents (dad) mostly did it to teach him a #lesson . wrong of them or otherwise . so mal was just kinda stuck there until they realized he was actually not right in the head . think he #knew abt their DID but was only diagnosed in juvie and had to go from there . tbh he shouldve been tried as an adult but td logic . doesnt #matter dw guys . mike gets the 'was put on random meds that made him go braindead' treatment bc that was me . post mental hospital abilify #had me messed up

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tacagen · 4 months ago

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one of the things that fascinate me about thawne: yes, he CAN be normal with kids! surprisingly normal!

((not at all times, though. his mental illness still spills through and as usual he, in trying to manipulate or hurt others, spits out at them the exact stuff that would hurt him (or have in his childhood/barry's rejection interpretation) the most in the first place lmao))

but at the same time. his like second instinct when doing his bullshit is FUCK THEM (as) KIDS

(and, well. whatever this classifies as)

#whats wrong with him. seriously. he loves picking fights with literal children So Much #AND NONE OF THEM WITH WALLY ON THE MATTER OF BEING THE BIGGEST FLASH FAN. HOW DID THAT NEVER HAPPEN #about the middle page. honestly i DIDNT remember he is a Jerk in that way too until i checked his interactions with bart for this post #this man officially should not be allowed near children as a mentor.#just straight up drops ALL his insecurities on a poor kid in trying to make him feel ashamed. NO breaking the abuse cycle for this bad boy #the only thing he doesnt say is the direct 'you are a disappointment' altho the message is still the same 💀💀💀💀💀💀#AND I BET HES HELLA PROUD OF THAT. I MEAN CONSIDERING THIS FACT IG HE DOES TRY TO BE BETTER THAN HIS PARENTS. SOMEWHAT.#and omg he formulates his point like in problem based learning (leading the child to making the correct conclusion themselves)#im dying. professor to the fucking core.#and the way he feels the need to bring up flash facts in his appeal?? EO YOURE SO HOPELESS. THIS IS 100% HOW BART SAW HIM THROUGH #and god knows what he told thad promising to get him out of the speed force if he fought barry there and whether he was going to fulfill it #and do you even IMAGINE how FUCKED barry's mental condition would be growing up if thawne fulfilled his button threat #and i really REALLY wonder about the tornado twins and their relationship with 'uncle eobard' but that will be a separate post #he doesnt know any other way tho. and he might be actually mad at bart for not supporting his every action as The Flash #like. he tries to play family but the second they question he just goes WHATEVER. I DONT NEED IT. FLASH OF MY VISION RUNS ALONE #his problem is that he just wants attention. he doesnt see family/heroing for what 'its really about' or downsides that may come with them #everything is so idealized in his head. and the moment he faces reality with its complications the concept immediately gets antagonized.#and then he reconsiders and changes the conditions but fails each time never realizing the problem is his mindset and not everything else #black white at its finest yall #and man. RELATABLE.#also WHY is he standing LIKE A STATUE when appearing in front of bart????😭😭😭😭#poor museum rat has no idea what heroes in real life stand like #eobard thawne #professor zoom #reverse flash #the reverse flash #bart allen #the flash #dc

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sparklingchim · 4 months ago

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#can i yap for a moment #im extremely sleepy but im feeling very upset and mad and confused #also lowkey questioning whether me feeling all that is justified or if i am overreacting #anyway #made out w a boy tonight #and he wanted to go to his place #and i was like no i wanna stay and dance with my girlies #and he gets upset??#asking why i'd kiss him if i don't wanna hook up and i said i just wanna have fun?#made me feel so stupid #that anger in me led to a little fight with another boy (who was unfortunately very cute) and i just wanted to punch him #i just hate when boys think they're so superior #so i argued with this stupid but hot man #until an ex? friend shows up and he was pretty drunk just yapping about things #anyway he basically told me he'd like to rekindle our friendship #but not in a heyy haven't talked in so long let's meet up again #it was in a heyy let's hang out again got a new big car and moved out of my parent's house 😋#which gave me the ick bc that's why we aren't friends anymore and i told him no multiple times #and got sad bc he was one of my closest friends #anyway and then we left the party #this guy pulls me aside the parking lot #and i was so embarrassed bc there were so many people and they were all looking and i could already see people gossiping about it #and i just wanted to die #and then he just CONFESSES??#gives me flowers and all which is saur saur cute #but i legit have zero feelings for him </3 #and have commitment issues and have never been in a relationship and don't wanna be in one #actually grosses me out thinking about relationships </3 #the confession was so random and i kinda lost another friendship? even tho i wouldn't rlly consider him a friend we just share sum classes #but yeah boys are so stupid and confusing and i dunno how and why i get myself into these situations :') m sorry just needed to rant </3

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calebs-hangout-corner · 4 months ago

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Me: EAH has a bunch of plotholes and retcons, I don't have to believe everything canon tells me because it gets things wrong or just flatout contradicts itself at times and it is no use getting hung up on small details that ultimately don't matter in the grand scheme of the story.

Also me: [Trying to come up with a way to explain the whole "the Evil Queen stole the Dark Fairy's destiny" detail]

#my current proposal is time travel #but that too has its flaws #ever after high #eah #we could go with fairies and other magic users just become older than 100 but that contradicts class of classics #not a big deal considering class of classics shows the wonderlandian parents at eah even though by all accounts they should not be there #(note: while possible it just doesn't make sense to me personally)#(by the things the books have told us so far it doesn't make sense to me)#anywAY #my other theory is that the Sleeping Beauty role gets passed down differently #like the currently Sleeping Beauty is still sleepin for a bit and her sibling's first born gets the Sleeping Beauty destiny #like it keeps switching. sleeping beauty sleeps and the next sleeping beauty is the last one's sibling's first born and after the sleeping #sleeping beauty wakes up and gets children and that first one becomes the next sleeping beauty while their cousin sleeps #did I explain that coherently?#anyways in the end it is just a small detail that doesn't really change the plot if you leave it out of the story so it doesn't really #matter in the end. however as a fan of the show I just like thinking about these things #(to explain further on the other thing Briar would be the daughter of A sleeping beauty and the one sleeping before her would be her cousin #who would be the child of her aunt who was not a sleeping beauty

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milolunde · 1 month ago

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We all know Timmy is Wanda’s mama’s boy but we need to keep in mind he’s still Cosmo’s kid too and that Cosmo would love him just as vehemently as Wanda

#fairly oddparents #not that anyone has portrayed him different #certainly not distance he loves Timmy he probably says it the most in the show and in fanon #but still- watching New Wish there felt like there was a disconnect with Cosmos character-like he wasn’t as well defined as he was in OG #that’s in part due to them toning him down from being an idiot plain and simple but I feel like it wasn’t fitted with something else it was #simply taken away #just to say he didn’t have as much of a presence to me in New Wish as Wanda did and I crave spinning Cosmo around in my brain #I want to see Poof being his Dad’s Boy yknow and I want to see cosmo doting and I want to see when he gets like. parental rage for the sake #of his kids #yknow? Yknow? part of him feeling detached in a new wish has translated into him not wanting to get as close to Hazel as he did Timmy-#to try and play it more like godparents are supposed to- just a presence for a couple months #but also because like. he got SO attached to Timmy and he’ll never regret it and he’d never do anything different #but idk. if it were me I wouldn’t have the capacity to go through losing my godkid again after becoming that attached #that’s not even mentioning that they don’t HAVE to be in hazel’s life the same way they were in Timmy’s because Timmy was going through #neglect and Hazel has loving family and friends all around her at all times- her blocks are mental #in that way cosmo and Wanda just have to do the Typical Godparent Job of aiding her- not becoming people she desperately needs in life #which also bleeds into why I think Peri was having such a. difficult time #godparents aren’t supposed to be attached the way his family was to Timmy and that how he learned it #but his first godkid is Not Easy and lends immediately to the issues Timmy was having where he HAS parents he HAS things (though . Timmy #was not rich and would sometimes not be fed… dev’s dad also forgets to feed him but dev is still able to eat you know)#and how he grew up with his parents as godparents and how he’s been taught are conflicting and it’s nature vs doing a good job quoteunquote #I didn’t mean to ramble so damn much in the tags I’m really sorry #told myself if I had more to say I’d write it down and post it later but I must be heard.

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polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup · 2 months ago

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Nanami frantically digging through Shoko’s pamphlets and googling “how to give the ward you just met a sex talk” after the last chapter, this poor man needs a Xanax and a 12 hour nap SO badly right now 😂😂

fantastic chapter btw!! I love love love maki and am fully prepared to be terrorized by her plan—terror for her having to deal with the Zenin and terrorized because that girl is batshit insane and can do anything she sets her mind to ❤️

(I have a sneaking suspicion that her plan involves that mysterious “Okkotsu Yuuta as the world’s most unenthusiastic honeypot” tag, and OH BOY OH BOY am I on tenterhooks to see what insanity (positive) Maki comes up with)

Hope you have a great day!!

Nanami, frantically rushing to r/Parenting for this fucking hurdle of fatherhood:

I (27M) may have discovered my newly adopted son (16M) is in a relationship of indeterminate and possibly intimate nature with his three (15F, 15M, 15M) friends. I need emergency advice.

I only met/took in my eldest a few days ago. Those days have been extremely trying, and have unfortunately placed a very stressful burden on my son. I have tried to support him in any way I can; however, the young character of our relationship makes me fear overstepping his boundaries. I do not want to rush anything which may damage any trust he may form in me in the long run.

As a result, I do not believe having “The Talk” with him would be appropriate at this juncture. However, I fear it may be necessary.

I recently approached him while he was visiting with his close friends in a private room. I knocked (from what I believed to be a respectful distance designed to preserve his privacy) and heard a series of… disconcerting noises. His friend (15M) then proceeded to claim that he could not open the door because they were indecent. The door was quickly opened, and all parties were clothed, but this and other behaviors between the group make me wonder if they have something deeper than friendship between them.

His previous parents were neglectful, and the main influence he has had in recent months is… a rather sorry role model. I believe the assumption that he has not yet learned of safe sexual practices is appropriate. I want him to be comfortable with me before we speak of such matters, but I also want him to be safe in the present.

A complicating factor is that one of his friends (15M) rather frequently wears a hyper realistic panda costume. I bear absolutely no judgment or prejudice against any of his potential partners and support him in his relationship. However, I do not actually know the specifics that should be covered in a talk given the particularities of these partners.

Another complicating factor is that one of his friends (15F) would have been better off being raised by wolves than the sorry excuses of humanity that raised her. While I fear that I may overstep boundaries by speaking with my new ward about such topics so soon, I would most certainly overstep boundaries by broaching the matter with her. At the same time, I cannot deny my suspicions that such a conversation would be desperately needed. How should I proceed?

The fucking comments:

what is wrong with you and your life

there is no way you are a real person

ThatOneGuyinthePandaCostumeTokyo.com is this them

your kid is a furry

Nothing in Nanami’s years of teen parenting prepared him for that moment. The man discovered types of panic he did not know existed. POV you’ve known this boy for three days max and you’re the person Responsible For His Wellbeing and mid crisis you have to figure out 1) if it’s too soon in your relationship to give him the safe sex talk 2) if you can even avoid the safe sex talk if what seems to be happening is happening 3) would it even be appropriate to give the safe sex talk to the people he would be potentially having sex with and 4) is he a furry.

Nanami was not prepared to be confronted with this particular challenge of parenting. Especially because Megumi gave Tsumiki the puberty talk, no one’s been brave enough to give her the sex talk, and the entire teen parenting group has Megumi as too Baby in their minds to have even contemplated giving him any talks.

You have NO IDEA how excited I am for that tag.

Thank you for your kind words! I’m glad you liked it!

#I have unilaterally decided that Megumi explained to his own sister the miracle of her changing body #in my mind Tsumiki had no real parental influence prior to Gojo #her mom sure as hell didn’t explain periods to her #both Gojo and Nanami assumed Shoko would explain puberty to her #Shoko did not do that #she also had spent years lying to Gojo about what a woman’s time of the month meant #he believed it had something to do with the full moon #it sounded much like lycanthropy #he did not know blood would be involved #tsumiki in my mind had been slightly isolated from her peers growing up because of what was happening at home #she also did not know that blood would be involved #megumi knew #Megumi had read a book on it just in case #and then Tsumiki got her period. she thought she was bleeding internally. Gojo thought she was bleeding internally. there was hysteria.#they both thought she needed the hospital because she was dying #megumi sat them both down. told them if anyone made eye contact with him he would kill everyone in the room and then himself. if they ever #talked about this again he would kill everyone in this room and then himself. he was on a hairpin trigger.#there would be no follow up questions or discussion after. he will kill them all.#anyone it’s one of Tsumikis favorite memories even though it was mortifying #the fact that her little brother silently learned about puberty so he could explain it to her if he had to sort of was a big confirmation #that he loved her. and Megumi loved so quietly. it was just nice to hear.#sea glass gardens

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chemicalarospec · 2 months ago

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you've heard of: aroacespec "is this person flirting with me" confusion, now get ready for: Does this person think I'm flirting with them (and also are they flirting "back" with me) because I accidentally bumped into them a lot?

#new jersey girl seems to really like me that makes me happy #nobody's been attracted to me before #but it'll make me sad if she asks me out #because even though I LOVE her i think i'd have to say no just because i really imagine myself #with a boyfriend far more than a girlfriend lately and i don't want to put her into a relationship that might end up feeling like #misgendering...#aro #ace #aroace #aroacespec #aromantic #arospec #greyromantic #greyro #I said this #we've been walking all over campus together and she's um. not a very considerate walker i keep #almost getting pushed off the path so that's whyh i keep bumping into her lol #but also she seems to like standing/sitting near me?#and i said 'i think my face is a little...' because i was thinking it felt like it got too much sun #and she was like 'i think your face is a little too-- wait what did u say?'#and i said i didn't even use an adjective but said burnt/red was what i should have siad #and she just said 'i think your face is a little'#like is that an oblique compliment??#okay the funniest part is yesterday she said some random girl came up to her and said she looked pretty and she wasn't sure if it was #flirting or just a compliment so she doesn't even know what flirting is either lol #also she calls me Data now bc i told her about hwo my uncle said my parents consult me like picard consults data lol #tbh maybe i gave her the wrong signals by moisturizing when she was in my room last night?#(kept sticking my hand under my clothes. my roommate brought her in right after i showered)#i asked my roommated if that was weird and she thought it was fine but she might not be the best metric

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thebirdandhersong · 1 month ago

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Lol

#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting #with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy #and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because #your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED #OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered #being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal #anywaysssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and then she was like why are you crying?? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this #can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws #worries #and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please #also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up #in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite #but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying #you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents #but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents #not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up #that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY #you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard #i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation #and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far

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camgoloud · 5 months ago

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he still has his tonsils. by the way if you even care

#sorry this is fucking UNINTELLIGIBLE but unfortunately i’m still on my bullshit about dr. daddyissues. yeah it’s gonna be all month #i am rotating episode 2.8 ‘the mistake’ in my head at breakneck speed. i am gnawing on it i want to swallow it #oh he’s such a lying liar who lies. charming little bastard. would rather die/lose his license than express one wholly unaffected emotion #‘he thinks not giving a crap makes him like house. like it’s something to aspire to’ quick question HOW serious do the daddy issues have to #be before you start latching on to fucking GREGORY HOUSE as a paternal figure and role model. really #even cameron is not down this bad. even WILSON is not down this bad.#the daddy issues of it all are very understandable though because even setting aside whatever went down back in childhood that shit his #father did to him in seasons 1-2 is SO messed up. jesus #imagine traveling all the way across the world to the hospital your son works in for a consult which confirms what you already knew: you’re #going to die of cancer in like 2 months. making a whole point out of stopping by to visit your son. not telling him what’s going on.#letting him spend a whole episode’s worth of time gradually coming to terms with his complicated feelings towards you (complicated on #account of a whole childhood of objectively awful parenting). the kid finally is able to try reaching back out to you. after YOU initiated #the contact in the first place. how do you react? well obviously by telling him ‘oh sorry i actually have to get in a taxi right now’ and #fucking back off to the other side of the world without giving him a chance to actually talk to you at all and resolve any of the emotions #you just dredged up. oh by the way you still haven’t fucking told him you’re about to die and in fact actively mislead him into thinking #he’s going to have the chance to try meeting with you again next time he visits your home country.#especially fucked up given that the whole reason it DID take your son so long to come around THIS time is that he feels like every time #he’s tried reaching out to you in the past you’ve just disappointed him by refusing to put in the effort to meet him there.#And Now Here We Are Again.#rowan what the FUCK is wrong with you. i want to dig you up and kill you again #house md #robert chase #caseyposting

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cryptcatz · 9 months ago

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so sick and tired of constantly stressing over the thought that the people that love me actually don’t or they will inevitably get sick of me eventually because i am inherently unlovable. why can’t my brain just let me be loved in peace? why must i be scared the whole time, waiting for the moment when they abandon me? why can’t i just bask in it while it lasts?

#im perpetually terrified that my partner has only settled for me and will get sick of me eventually.#nothing about him even begins to imply this but im worried about it all the time #i feel like this about friends too. people tolerate me. but im never anyone’s first pick #personal #hm not sure what to tag #mental illness #actually depressed #insecurity #actuallyautistic #< since a lot of my autistic traits are what make me feel just barley tolerated #autism #actuallyadhd #tired of crying to myself cuz i feel so worthless and inherently awful + broken #abuse recovery #doesn’t help that my parents have told me that no one will put up with me or love me like them #because of me and my physical disability/chronic illness #vent #sorry im just. having A Time rn

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