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dizzybevvie · 1 year ago

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Ik there are some Zephyr and Nuffink enjoyers out there and good for you /gen but i just cannot get invested cus...."Nuffink" ?????????

#Im sorry its just like. Hiccup would not name his son “Nothing”. he just wouldnt.#In httyd1 (and Riders of berk especially) Hiccup's name is a MASSIVE point of contention for him!!!!!#in RoB hes making constant self deprecating jokes about how his father is disappointed in him/doesnt like him #“He's looked angry since the day I was born.”#It takes until 'Portrait of Hiccup as a Buff Man' for him to realise his dad truly loves him. and stoick has to work for that too #When hiccup discovers the treasure of Hamish II he says “Hamish II was a Hiccup... just like me!”#And thats what gives him the confidence and understanding to realise his dad respects him #but it took 15/16 YEARS to get to that point!!!!!#Hiccup's name (again especially in Portrait Of Hiccup As A Buff Man) is representative to him about all the ways he is DIFFERENT #and how being different is isolating!!!#with all of that baggage he would NOT name his son “nothing”. he would NEVER .#nuffink haddock #zephyr haddock #hiccup haddock #hiccup horrendous haddock iii #hiccup how to train your dragon #httyd hiccup #httyd

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brbarou · 4 months ago

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more bee and beloved...

#rote #realm of the elderlings #the fool #beloved #lady amber #bee farseer #assassin's fate #they make me sooo sad #the matching scars....nooo i hate being my father's daughter #the way beloved is the one person who could best understand what bee has been through because he has also gone through it #but it never really happens. because she keeps pushing him away #waa #feeling isolated/being targeted as a child for being different...grappling with seeing the paths and having Dreams...#the cruelty of the servants....how twisted clerres is...#having three parents...#they're the same!!!!!!!!

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flowersandfashion · 6 months ago

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The opposite of a haunting is something very lonely, Katie Maria /// there's a little girl in my head, @heavensickness /// Little Girl Looking Downstairs at Christmas Party (1964) by Norman Rockwell /// Changing, Liv Ullmann /// found photograph with my words /// what they don't tell you, @tryworks /// Anne with an E, A Strong Effort of the Spirit of Good (3x07) /// Time Travel by Emhahee /// Second Wave (2023) by Amy Dury /// Katie Maria

#yes that is a photo of me as a child #I've just been thinking about my childhood and how I felt so different from everyone else and I didn't understand why #I always thought that when I grew up I would understand the world and suddenly be like everyone else. but I never did #and I still feel like a confused scared little girl. playing pretend at being a grown up #(I know that this could be read as being about childhood neglect and family trauma and you're welcome to interpret it that way #but I made it more about growing up undiagnosed autistic and being bullied and feeling isolated. I actually had a pretty good home life)#web weave #poetry #art #literature #norman rockwell #anne with an e #emhahee #autism #childhood #isolation #loneliness #girlhood #undiagnosed autistic

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greatgoddyke · 18 days ago

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time to make your choice only you can be the one

#undescribed #bonk.png #ggg #great god grove #great god grove spoilers #ggg spoilers #<- bc of king n hand gesturing stuff for the au this one gets the spoiler tag #caption is a line from legend of everfree from eg movie of the same name bc its now linked to ggg for me bc of brainrot #first au stuff i dont like have anything really planned out n also dont really plan on doing anything with this beyond doodles #settled on inspekta being a horse bc i want him capochin patty n king to all be earth ponies bc of like permanent having it ingrained from #being an mlp fan as a kid that earth ponies are seen as less special bc they cant use magic or fly n that fits for story similarities #bc inspekta n capochin hating on patty for projection reasons AND inspekta's replacement anxiety n envy of king who in the au #is the only other earth pony lined up to become an alicorn (bc again being specifically an fim fan since i was a kid ingrained in with fanon #that ponies that become alicorns are almost exclusively pegasus or unicorn bc of earth ponies not having as clear of a connection to magic)#in my mind patty is the main character like the bizzyboys are also main characters but its like how the mane six are the main six but #twilight is the MAIN main character its like that n then godpoke is her sidekick (like spike ig but like mysterious stranger style <- idk #what i mean by this) she gets to be the protag bc the type of character godpoke is in the game n how im fitting them to be in the au doesnt #really work for a protag role while patty can be more readily slotted into mlp protag shes the only bizzyboy who cares about solving in the #game (as shown in hobbyhoo) n i like her so she gets to be the protag v-v inspekta is still doing the whole like shit from the game just in #a different way bc of mlp related restrictions n tone differences. the episode where luna goes to nightmare night after being freshly reform #ed walked so milldread section could run however cobigail's deal does run closer to that episode that to the game counterpart but like witho #ut cob having been banished for a thousand years theres no rift in the au bc its. mlp so sort of vague direction is related to the tree of #harmony n like maybe thats how inspekta powers up for the two parter transformation. a thought i had for a workaround for how inspekta keeps #king isolated was maybe turning king to stone n hiding her in plain sight but while that would slide in mlp (they turn a child to stone in t #he series finale apparently??) it leaves a bad taste in my mouth from the ggg angle so probably gonna do something else #art comments both inspekta n cobigail's pony names are taken from ponies i already had inspekta's comes from a different mlpied thing #n cobigail's comes from a fankid (spelled like kandi corn tho bc fankid's a rave girlie) the rest of the gods get to keep their names aside #from maybe bauhauzzo (whos role is undecided) huzzle n click clack arent ponies bc i felt it suited them more huzzle gets to be discordesc #bc i think its fun if like this versions god of chaos wasnt evil BUT that angle is used as slander against huzzle by inspekta #n click clack's a breezy bc small n bratty (we will be ignoring that breezies are mortal if i remember right bc thats not relevant)

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langernameohnebedeutung · 2 months ago

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#I also think american exceptionalism and their bizarre cultural one-way street isolation plays a role #i think it's different if you actually see other countries as equals and see that they have female leaders and realise that it's #not going downhill it's not solving everything it's business as usual and it's just another boring fucking politician #and this makes the gender of the candidate LESS (not saying no) issue people obsess about or feel a need to discuss #(e.g. people laying into the appearance of female politicians? certainly misogyny. making jokes about cooking and shoes? definitely too #but I feel like that was more a 'gotta insult these fucking politicians' and gender being one of the targets when people want to do that)#but if you're the US and giant parts of the populace think they're the specialmost extra complicatedest country in this our planetworld #the fact that it works for so many other countries takes a much lower priority #because 'yeah sure a woman can govern a....'checks notes' Fineland and United Kingdom of England or Germanland'#but the US of freedom? we got a red button and what if she's on her period!!?! We are a REAL country!!'#not to mention how deeply entrenched the idea of the US as being CONSTANTLY under attack is and the president as the PROTECTOR #and that protector needs to be daddy of course #i also think the different attitude to leaders plays a role #because a part of misogyny is how much people love to HATE women - to sink their teeth into them and demonise them for every flaw #so any country that has some kind of weird worship of their leaders or sees them as some heroes or extra-class of person*#in my opinion might have a harder time to elect a woman because the moment a woman becomes a candidate #you just have to find the right flaw to go on and on about to make the population absolutely hate her or question her competency #meanwhile the general slack we cut men means they can do whatever but somehow still be compatible with that concept of leadership #(*not just the US ....though a lot of other countries with similar attitudes to their leaders are not standing out as democracies tbh)

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starry-bi-sky · 3 months ago

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'Late At Night, When The Nightingale Sings' doodles, because Pathetic Wet Cat Danny is the best Danny to practice drawing young faces with (and expressions).

#danny fenton is not the ghost king #dpxdc #dpxdc crossover #dpxdc fanart #dpxdc art #dpxdc batdad #dpxdc fanfic #blood blossom au #my art #in that third one the intent was that he's being held up by bruce like a cat. hence the hands. but i didnt wanna draw hands again so thats #why they disappeared. coincidentally the third one is also one of my favorites bc of how the everything came out.#danny can't force a convincing smile to save his life <33 especially now after 4 months of isolation #also!! duos practice! i wanted to draw danny with bruce because they are. everything to me. danny is wearing one of bruce's hoodies in that #second one. they are soft and comfy. he has frequent nightmares since his accident that only got worse after his family died #so he doesn't sleep that well unless he's around other people.#i need to buy an anatomy book and like. soon. i neeEEEd to figure out arms and legs when they're not in standard posing.#im coasting on reference photos and a dream here.#that second to last one is a(n attempted) drawing of Danny at the end of the prequel oneshot 'before the nightingale sings' that explains #how his family died. it was january. he was 13 and a month shy of turning 14. his hair is somewhat shaggy bc its a 4 month time difference #between family death and meeting battinson and hair doesn't typically grow that fast unless some kind of serum is being used and yall know #🫵 ballad of lucy gray baird mention!!! thats a blood blossom behind danny in that drawing. its eye is staring at danny. altho it too big #that one is another favorite but its docked points bc i dont like how his head shape turned out. his expression turned out great tho

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cent-scratchnsniff · 4 months ago

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i wish to be your shadow , forever behind you , even if i am not good enough

plus some extra. they are quite literally metal boxes. i wonder how large they are in actually. im assuming human size? i also never realized just how complicated hokma's was.. i think its all the gears

#lobotomy corporation #lobcorp #lobotomy corp spoilers #hokma #hokma lobcorp #ayin #ayin lobcorp #im always worried about ooc but then a realize. IT DOESNT MATTER!!! i want them to hug #but then i think abt it and i dont know how to draw hugs. does it matter? NO!! you can tell what it is . good enough #anyways tagging w ayin is always weird because its not QUITE him (from my understanding im not even done im on day 47(pain))#its a mix of consciousness between a blank slate who processes and feels things in a similar manner but then memories put onto him that --#-- logically are his but even then theyre seperate entetied in a way even still (angela noted this in one of the days cant remember which)#so its like.... x and a put into one . i thinkk where its going w it is that each are different aspects ended up experiencing and processin #this grief and hopelessness in different ways? and then ending up being assigned a name as a reflection of different aspects born of the --#-- character that was the entirety of 'ayin'. different aspects isolated via extreme measures when they are ALL ayin just... yknow extremes #FROM MY UNDERSTANDING DONT CORRECT ME IM NOT DONE!!! IM NOT DONE!!!! ITLL HAPPEN 98 HRS SO FAR TRUST #((well day 47 when i queued this to be posted .. hopefully ill be past that and with a acceptable death count))#(((I did btw what the fuck hatbthe fuck whayt hfbf ck)))#I FROGOY i #x lobcorp

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kaurwreck · 4 months ago

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I wonder if Fyodor has kept his distance from Atsushi until now because Byakko's claws can cut through skills. I wonder if this is the moment Atsushi could use his claws. Would they slice right through Fyodor's borrowed body to tear him into the same ribbons as Shibusawa?

Is Fyodor afraid of the absolution Atsushi could give him? Or is he starving for it? Is this what he wanted all along? To find Atsushi at the end, to break him until Byakko tears through Atsushi's flesh and into his?

Nothing is hollow; Fyodor is just so hungry for scraps he can't bear to eat that he calls the viscera contracting around his aching gut nothingness, and garnishes his desires with incorrigible sin because then death might taste like salvation. He craves blood but hates when it touches him, because blood and viscera are too warm, too human; and he isn't that, even though he loves humanity so desperately that he's resolved to leave only when he can take the entire world with him.

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd fyodor #bsd atsushi #everyone's like “what if fyodor wants to die!”#and like no! if he did he could! he doesnt! he doesnt want to die but he cant live with himself either.#and he so desperately wants the world to reflect an inkling of him #having become so isolated and dehumanized in his own mind #ranpo thought people might be monsters but fyodor thinks he's the monster #and it hurts to be rejected by the world and to see it from the underground but never feel worthy of walking underneath its sun #so he's nurtured his hurt into hate and killed himself over and over again trying to know without admitting he wants to be known #briefly glimpses of people like him excite him but he has to believe they arent any different either #because he cant stay. and he cant leave by himself. if the world wouldnt have him alive #then he'll have the world dead #like two skeletons entangled in a lovers embrace he will take the humanity he thinks he was denied and girdle it like wisteria #until they suffocate together #and if he calls that salvation. maybe it will feel that way #even if only for a moment #he will be killed by the gift most embodying life because although he perceives life as an act of violence against him #he wants its embrace so badly #that he'll take the facsimile of it #so long as he and his lover die together before the bitter reality of what he's done can settle on his tongue #fun fact btw. that is suicidality. it's not wanting to die. it's not knowing how to live as you are. and it's impulse.#anyway! life and death and life and death and silly fyodor #jinko is mikan and his hungry hungry boyfriend is coming to bask in the euphoria of being alive

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spitblaze · 5 months ago

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Transfems are not 'privileged' for being forced to live in hostile panopticons and transmascs are not 'privileged' for being forced to live at the bottom of isolated wells and any 'benefits' that either incidentally incurs are canceled out if not outweighed by the drawbacks. Are we done here. Can we all please just go home

#spitblaze says things #i cannot believe people are still talking about this ans more importantly i cannot believe im still thinking about it #99% of what we are all saying is not at all contradictory. its complimentary even #like yea it can be isolating being a transmasc even in trans spaces. it can also be isolating being a transfem in trans spaces #and it is not fucking lost on me how all of this stupid binarist discourse either glosses over nb people entirely or forces them (us even)#to 'pick a side'#we have a lot of similarities but enough differences in experiences that its worth discussing #and if your first response to hearing those discussions is 'this is exclusionism' or 'youre implying that MY group doesnt experience that'#then like! hot take! maybe YOU'RE the issue here for seeing this shit as a black and white us and them dichotomy #instead of. you know. the weird intermingled spectrum of genders and presentations and experiences and theory it really is #god. fuck

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pharawee · 1 year ago

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First & Sprite

—TWINS, Episode 1

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kazamajun · 10 months ago

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Thinking thoughts today about the contrasting yet similar ways both of them lost whole chunks of their lives

#both happened as a result of battle - albeit she won and he lost #both missing out on time with each other and their kid #THE CONTRASTS AND HOW IT REFLECTS THEIR NATURES are what's interesting to me tho #look at how fucked up kazuya is. his devil wings are shredded like grated cheese and he's covered in scars and wounds. it's all violence #not to mention being a lab rat which is a pretty hellish panopticon even if you consent to it #meanwhile jun is alone and isolated on sacred land for her recovery. she looks peaceful. no visible signs of harm #the completely different vibes match who they are as people.#ngl tho i do still think a seven year coma is horrific and potentially guilt inducing + traumatizing + scary and all that #this is just commentary on the ~aesthetics~#tekken #val rambles #kazjun

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insufferablemod · 9 months ago

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hi im still mad davesprite never got to talk to dirk

#IT'S SUCH A WASTED OPPORTUNITY #Exploring the different ways the daves have dealt with their trauma #And their relationship with bro #Like #Davesprite Saw bro die #There's a chance he even died saving ds #And even just the guilt from not being strong enough to save him #coupled with how dehumanized he already feels from being the'Other Dave' n part of the game #Would make it So much harder for ds to realize just how bad his childhood was #Not to mention his lack of a healthy support network #(Noone really had a proper support network tbh. Their all fucking traumatized teenagers)#How he was isolating himself #I'm #THE FACT THAT HIS THOUGHTS ON BRO ARE NEVER EXPLORED #I'm normalI'm normalI'm normalI'm normal #Rambles #Daves

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thirdtimed · 3 months ago

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thinking about the jimmy scar pearl venn diagram and absolutely just disintegrating over it

#(obligatory: as characters)#was extensively rambling to myself in discord when i realized the lifers who anguish me most narratively are those three #(out of the ones that i am familiar with anyways)#thinking about this more and getting so inconsolably sad. hey guys does the loneliness ever eat you alive #the ostracization the isolation the shame the guilt the desperate continual want & desire for genuine human connection #only to be categorically denied it at every turn #to be mocked because you cannot fly though you desperately try. and you fall each and every single time #to be so easily discarded because you will always die first. a truth so widely accepted you almost start to believe in it too #because being a ''good person'' just simply isn't how you play this game #because it's a fundamental truth of this world that you always play the role of the villain. why start acting differently now?#you were left behind and abandoned and locked up. thrown inside that tower to rot.#your hair will never be long enough to let down so you cut it all off. and when you start yelling & screaming & drawing blood because of it #it only further convinces everyone else that this was the right decision #because you're a danger. a menace. a demon. and you will only ever hurt the ones you love #Hey. Hi. Hello #Hey guys. i need jimmy to win so so so so so so badly

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jessamine-rose · 4 months ago

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*lovingly tackles Aine*

Read my Yandere! Pierro longfics first ♪( ´▽｀)

Last week, my beloved mutual @ainescribe surprised me with Savior! Darling fan art and AHAI9232@2-!/! CRYING SCREAMING I WANT TO LOOK AT THIS ART AND WORSHIP YOUR VERSION OF SAVIOR THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BLESSING ME WITH YOUR ART—

*clears throat* Anyway, now that I finally have the time to properly sit down and comment on the fan art, I’ll do just that. Feedback will be in the tags and it will be unhinged. Once again, thank you so much to Aine for drawing this <3

#feedback #fan art #ainescribe #AIIINE ;-; once again. thank you so much!! it rlly means a lot to me that you enjoyed my writing and felt inspired to draw this :'>#and as someone who loves fashion and character design. it's so so interesting to analyze your version of savior #there's so much symbolism and visual storytelling in each sketch/ outfit and i shall now proceed to pick apart each detail as best as i can #her snezhnayan fit.....god i love it. it's regal. distinctively snezhnayan. and draws attention to her--and you just know that was pierro's #intention when he dressed her in those garments. IT'S JUST SO...!! savior's wardrobe scrubbed clean of her original culture and preferences #replaced with the foreign garments of her captor's nations.....in line with this. i love how her kokoshnik and khaenri'ahn earrings are big #and attention-grabbing. you can't look at her without taking note of those accessories. it begs the question:: how many times has savior #looked at the mirror after being dressed up in snezhnaya and was unable to recognize her own reflection?? :'>#also shoutout to some details aine shared with me: 1) the face marks are inspired by weeping angels 2) the kokoshnik was traditionally worn #by married noblewomen BUT the veil was normally for unmarried women so savior's outfit can be seen as a form of compliance + rebellion #(though later on in history it became accepted for married women to also wear that veil. also my apologies if what i said is inaccurate)#lastly shoutout to savior's expression!! very poised and mysterious....due to her emotional state or pierro's rules on how to act as his #spouse in public?? we'll never know~ the first drawing hits even harder when you compare it to the next one!! such an interesting contrast~#savior in her plain attire. casual and domestic with a smile on her face....i'm guessing this is her pre-fatui version?? she looks so warm #and friendly. and i can definitely understand why pierro fell for her smile <3 #also i fucking love the caption. sorry pierro but you are cursed to be a loser/ simp/ pathetic man in all of my fics and AUs xD #NOW ONTO GODDESS! SAVIOR AAAHHHH!! i love the greek goddess motifs. she looks so regal and awe-inspiring but in a different way from her #snezhnayan attire--archaic. divine. and more suited to her personal style.....yet both versions of her look so painfully isolated :'>#her blank eyes. emotionless face. and veil give me the vibes of a spooky victorian ghost...or would a statue/ portrait be more fitting??#the lack of a necklace is also an interesting design choice given what happens in the fic. and now i realized i forgot to comment on your #version of her snezhnayan necklace oops. similar to the kokoshnik and earrings. the size + grandeur makes it impossible to ignore #that and big jewels = expensive af. ohhh and i love the sparkles on her veil!! pierro rlly spared no expense in dressing up his wifey <3 #it's also funny how all of these outfits are similar to my own version in terms of 'savior wore grand clothing during her glory days as a #goddess -> wore simple attire after her decline for practicality and to blend in with humans/ disassociate from her old identity -> is now #dressed in even grander clothing as the harbinger's spouse. but it's used to reinforce her new identity and pierro's control over her'#tldr:: your design is so creative and i can see the effort you put in analyzing her character and depicting her based on your interpretatio #thank you for being my mutual + reader and i hope we can share even more harbinger/darling brainrot in the future :>

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nerdy-hyperfixations · 2 months ago

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It's hard being someone who does genuinely get infuriated with Ford's actions and acknowledges a lot of his flaws and the people he hurt, while also liking (and relating) to his character enough that I would like him to have nice things sometimes and don't believe he's satan

#hes not my favorite guy #but i keep having to defend him because every time people talk about him its like “YEAH HES A SHITBAG WHO WANTS TO WATCH HIS BROTHER DIE”#“HED PROBABLY LAUGH IN HIS FACE WHILE HE GETS MAULED BY TIGERS”#when i was reading the fanfic O Brother I too thought he was being overly cruel to poor Stanley (in a way that made sense not an ooc way)#but then he like found out the deity that was his entire life was lying to him and that he hurt people #and that he no longer can SLEEP because hell hurt people again #and he has to figure out the impossible answer of what to do while everyone is upset and untrusting of him #and his best and only friend barely can LOOK at him #and all the comments are like “YEAH THIS IS WHAT HE DESERVES!!! FUCK YOU STANFORD”#meanwhile im over here like “oh my god thats so fucking awful!!! i feel so bad!!!”#like he genuinely has NO ONE right then thats fucking awful #its Jonathan Sims all over again except even the AUDIENCE hates him and like?????? please hes just misguided he does NOT deserve this #stanford pines #ford pines #gravity falls #again let me clarify HES NOT EVEN MY FAVORITE GUY #i obsess over him occasionally but im a Stanley defender through and through AND YET #i keep having to say “guys. hes not as bad as you guys think. and Stan isn't as GOOD as you guys think. GUYS. PLEASE.”#it truly is interesting how different focuses on characters influence the audiences perspective of them SO MUCH #because ngl remember how i mentioned J Sims?#i really feel like Jon and Ford are similar #meddled with deities they didn’t understand. had paranoid tendencies. isolated themselves often. had selfish tendencies.#often rude and abrasive but also had a heart #and again the audience LOVES Jon and hates characters for disliking him #but this audience (which probably is the same people too lol) hate Ford and feel vindicated when characters dislike him

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soldier-boy-dean · 5 months ago

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the Homelanderification of The Deep vs the The Boysification of A-Train

#these two started as the same kinda jock asshole members of the Seven #and they’ve gone in completely different directions and it’s just so cool to see #having a family that you love and care for (A-Train) vs being completely isolated (The Deep)#and how it affects whether you’re radicalized towards hate and violence that makes you feel better about yourself #or choose the more difficult path of trying to save people and do what’s right #the boys #a train #the deep #the boys season 4

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