#and he let it happen again
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I give everything I have for the first person to drug me and use me and for the second person to call me a horrible person and destroy my things and leave me with nothing
#both compulsive liars too#the second is the walking diagnostic criteria of narcissistic personality disorder#the second comparing me to the first knowing they drugged and abused me#and I feel like I am a horrible person cause what the fuck am I doing wrong that this happened twice is a row#what did I do to deserve this#I never wanted any of it I only ever wanted to live alone#I only ever wanted someone to be able to hang around just something normal and calm#but I was never given a choice I was always expected to do whatever they wanted#and now what#try and find a third person it’ll only happen again#I can’t imagine being truly loved after this#I told him too I didn’t want to move in I didn’t want to go too fast I didn’t want it to happen again#and he insisted#he promised#and he let it happen again#he knew what happened before and took everything while comparing me to my abusor#ghost rambles
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I'll stay right besides you
#midoriya izuku#bakugou katsuki#bakudeku#bkdk#my art#mha#bnha#my take on what happened after Izuku fell asleep on the couch once classe A brought him back to UA#Katsuki just had to make sure he wouldn't ran away again#he won't let him leave from his sight ever again#that's where the separation anxiety really started methinks#old art
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"I walked away. They called after me and I walked away. I always do."
#he didn't walk away this time <3#and i have it on good authority that he will never abandon wade again#only wade saying he doesn't want him to stay would get rid of logan. and wade never would#eliza rewatches#deadpool 3#deadpool 2024#deadpool#wolverine#hugh jackman#ryan reynolds#deadclaws#poolverine#logan howlett#wade wilson#gif credits to original owner#I think it's not just Wade refusing to let Logan walk away the way he let Cable walk away...#I think it's also Logan refusing to let what happened to the x men happen to Wade
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Birds of a Feather previous / next
#my art#feralnette au#birds of a feather#long tags#sorry I went apeshit in the tags#LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW#I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO#its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical#and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread#as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational#in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away#and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do#shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again#legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it#but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings#alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird#she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her#knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself#between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot#and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo#essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that#busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way#to show her she's self sabotaging#cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD
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they licensed his ass
my finished piece of the FWMS (official name definitely 100%) thing we started a few days ago! I had fun I hope folks had and/or continue to have fun with the sketch as well.
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhsy#riz gukgak#Fuck With My Sketch#I mean it I'm gonna use that. gotta stop me if u dont wanna#doing things like this is bittersweet bc this slaps and I look at this and Im like well. I will never be able to nail this look again#I guess that's the plight of self taught art. but also it means you have to learn to let go and go look for different delights#you can't get too attached to one way of doing things. you will find many new things on ur way to make more funny bictures n such#this slaps tho Im so happy with how this came out lol. its be a long while since I last drew something in this vein#appropriate that its for riz lol he deserves it. he deserves the photoshoot pieces#funny enough this also kind of was prompted by drawfee? in one of the episodes I was binging (I thiiiink the one bg a day ep)#jacob brought up one of the artists I follow on twitter (havent been there in a decent while lol) who uses a pretty distinct#blue-on-red palette that got me to think abt teal-on-red and then this happened#funny enough I did start the piece with teal-on-red but then I shifted to blue after and was like wait I love this suddenly#and then committed lol. I should work with teal-on-red properly more but for now! we have fun! we enjoy#thats my journey thank u for listening. thank u for drawing with me if u have and come hang next time if u havent
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2.12 Chimney Begins - 2.09 Hen Begins - 2.16 Bobby Begins Again - 7.04 Buck, Bothered and Bewildered
Tommy's family arc
#911#911edit#911 abc#911 show#911 spoilers#911 season 7#tommy kinard#evan buckley#evan 'buck' buckley#kinley#bucktommy#kinkley#tevan#pick a ship name you guys and thanks for picking tevan the most correct name#anyway analysis time!#looking back with Modern Knowledge tm about why tommy acts the way he does in the past... babygirl you were so closeted I'm so proud#babygirl was back there getting into narnia#he was so resistant to letting go of the pseudo-family he'd found at the 118 in chimney begins#even tho it was a good old boys club that he knew he really didn't fit into he was making himself fit because at least it was something#but then he let chimney in and then hen came around and he saw a very queer person being openly queer and not giving a fuck what they think#and I think his behavior in that episode was trying to support hen as much as he could without outing himself#because like. how do you give up years of relative safety with people who do care about you they just won't like you anymore if you're *you#then he meets buck in s7 which is like 10-20 years later timeline is fake and he's like oh. this is what unconditional family is#and he's like oh. maybe I can come back. maybe I can be part of this again somehow. maybe we've both grown enough#or at the very least he'll be close to something he never believed would really happen for him#rant over tevan my beloved tim minear pillow cold both sides god bless#my edits
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Scholarly peak is catching up on recent literature
#bingqiu#shen qingqiu#luo binghe#svsss#sqq#lbh#my art#which is honestly just to say that i've finished the other two print books i was reading#and am now prepared to leap feet first into svsss bk4#i succeeded in holding off for an entire two weeks. i have the conviction of a wet paper towel.#lets see bk4 was described as - what? - an ''angst and smut pile''??#i am very much looking forward to this#i was promised a story with my snake boy#because i am very much not over zhuzhi-lang's fate so this had better be A REALLY NICE HAPPY ONE FOLKS#anyway have sqq and lbh cuddling and reading as i project on them#i like to assume that as time goes on sqq is able to relax his persona a bit more around lbh#i think he should get to cuddle and bitch about shitty novels#but man sqh is really the ONLY source of any books that have an even slightly modern cadence/style i have a feeling sqq would be very keen#though if i'm being honest i really wonder if sqh could ever bring himself to write fiction again#if you're A Writer it tends to be hard to RESIST you just get an itch to tell a story#but also like... the fear that all of this could happen again... or that the characters you're creating might be REAL and SUFFERING...#yeah... i honestly suspect he can't write anymore and that it honestly probably sucks a lot... but for the sake of this joke he is :P
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putting your foot on sunday's lap under the kitchen table as he's drinking his morning coffee just to watch him try to act normal. quietly giggling to yourself, you rub against him and take note of the way his wings twitch – he won't look at you, thinking that it'll be punishment enough. that you'll stop if he doesn't react.
but he's doing more than enough already.
his ears are growing warmer and warmer, a faint flush of pink taking over the apples of his cheeks, and it's all just making you want to push him even further. he looks... cute like this.
he takes another sip of his drink and nearly spits it all out when you put more pressure to his clothed crotch; his slender fingers wrap around your ankle in a fraction of a second and you freeze. but he doesn't push you away like you thought he would – he simply keeps you there, as he finally turns to meet your playful gaze.
his is way darker, his pupils bigger than ever.
the silence in the room is thick and dense, heavier than usual, and your heart stammer behind your ribs. sinking your teeth down into the plush flesh of your lip, you wait for him to scold you.
it's exciting.
the real punishment.
the idea that he'll have you kneeling in front of him, between his thighs, begging for his forgiveness. but you can feel it, he's just as excited as you are.
you wonder whether he's thinking about the same exact thing – about you whispering apologies into his thighs, your lips ghosting over his clothed bulge as he observes you with keen eyes. as he tries to stifle the sounds that'll try to crawl up his throat.
you push into him just a bit more. he squeezes your ankle.
he doesn't look away when your lips curl up into a smile.
defiance.
you're testing him.
and he can't wait to discipline you.
#sorry for letting the sunday freak out#it will happen again#:33333333333#he's still a soggy wet cat in my mind btw#he acts so tough#“he can't wait to discipline you” as if he won't be passing out the second you put your mouth on him lmao#i love it#sunday#mickey is daydreaming#sunday x reader
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egg
#genshin impact#my art#watching the trailers and seeing him without his hat on made me realise that he kind of looks bald without it on#kind of like an egg#still very cute tho#also a rare moment when i actually try and render smth let’s all cheer bc its not happening again
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arm wrestling
Steve s o r t a wants to let Evie win, just once, but he’s too competitive for that
He may love Soda and Evie but when it comes to arm wrestling they get no mercy
#the outsiders#the outsiders 1983#steve randle#stevepop#the outsiders sodapop#sodapop curtis#sodapop x steve#the outsiders steve#the outsiders evie#steve x evie#steviepop#polyamory#steve x evie x sodapop#cas’s newsprints#my art#I think Evie and soda are kinda evenly matched- soda probably wins slightly more because he’s a bit stronger#But he’s also prone to letting her win because he thinks it’s sweet when she gets smug about it#Not Steve though Steve can’t let anyone win he just can’t#dally beat him at it once when they were like fifteen and it’s why Steve started lifting weights- he couldn’t let that happen ever again
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I love Raph and haven’t said that enough so to be more specific I love that Raph is a soft boy who loves bear plushies, a gross boy who eats an assortment of things that are definitely better left alone, a smart boy who is more than capable of taking down villains through planning and fortitude alike, a strong boy who is dedicated to training his muscles and fighting prowess, a teenage boy who loves his brothers but is more than happy to tease and roughhouse with them, an angry boy who sometimes lets his anger take a hold of him to cover the fear, a gentle boy who is generous with hugs and affirmations to those he loves, a capable boy who takes on more than should ever be expected of a teenager, a good boy who just wants to be a hero and slowly comes to realize the cost of that duty, a good boy who has no reservations about putting himself in the way of harm coming to his family, a good boy who’s a great brother and son and person and deserves only the best the world has to offer.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt raph#rise raph#he’s so wonderful frfr#my poor boy is traumatized but still so proud of what they accomplished because they’re HEROES#what started as something fun - Saturday morning cartoon-like heroes vs villains esque - soon becomes his calling#and he loses himself a little along the way#because the world is TERRIFYING now#if they don’t do something about the bad things in the world then worse things will come#and Raph CARES too much to let it happen#even at the expense of his own happiness and youth#and he luckily reigns back that fear - knowing his family is there to keep an eye out with him#and he finally lets himself be a kid again#he’s very well rounded and his flaws are so good because (like the others) they are ALSO his strengths#I like how it’s softly implied that bears are his fav animal too bc that’s cute af#headcanon that he likes them so much because a stuffed bear was the first toy splinter managed to get Raph#but yeah one of my favorite things about tmnt is that the characters are well rounded and rottmnt exemplifies that immensely#with raph being no exception!!#amazing big brother and character#there’s a REASON in my tmnt main character tierlist he’s S tier!!!!#hot take but in terms of who should be leader I think it should be less who’s the better leader-#-and more who’s the better leader FOR THIS SPECIFIC MISSION#bc all four can be great leaders fight me on that#APRIL can as well 100%#doesn’t need a designated leader for them to succeed#they just need ~communication~#one of my favorite things tying Raph and Leo together is that they both *hide*#I’ve talked about Leo’s many masks a lot but Raph has one too#and it’s the mask of a hero - the mask of the protector
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"But lying there helpless with a massive aperture in my chest... I won't let that happen again."
Part of an art trade with @thisisaasecret00
#perceptor#idw1#maccadam#transformers#all hail megatron#ahm#tf#cerebrocentric art#eye strain#/i know i dont talk about Perceptor here but#/the fact that the realisation that he was defenseless and powerless against Turmoil was so shocking and terrifying to him#/that he modified his frame and composure to never ever let that happen to himself ever again#/is something that i think about often#/ :(
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The world must know about french Chilchuck’s chuckles
#Dungeon meshi#chilchuck tims#delicious in dungeon#Gloutons et dragons#I love how once again the thing that gives him kicks is others’ misfortune. “I burned myself while making soup…” Chil: “😂🤪”#Let me tell you when I heard the second one my hand flew to clasp my mouth as my eyes sparkled all like 🥹 He sounds so happy…#I looked like that crying cat with a paw on its mouth meme#I can’t wait for there to be compilations of Chilchuck laughing at others in 4k with sound…#Chilchuck laugh compilation… I believe in the community it’ll happen
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Found out this Saturday that if you make a PowerPoint to summarize one piece in over 24 hours on not-very-good-wifi, you can only summarize up to the end of Marineford and it will take about 2.5 hours
Also apparently if you speak nonstop for 2.5 hours your voice Will Go Hoarse. Who knew
#very glad I had friends willing to listen to me yap LMAO#part 2 happening supposedly sometime after the summer#whenever they’ll let me yap for 3 hours again….#This was a Fun event lmao#my friend who went before me gave an hour long presentation rating every kind of pasta#and I mean every kind.#I think he ended up with 150 some slides in the end#another highlight: my roommate gave a very unhinged presentation on Sanji and Greek mythology parallels
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When I said Spain were violating child Labour regulations I didn’t think they actually were 😭
#lamine yamal#sure someone’s already shared this but help 💀#just rest him for the game man let him do his homework 😭#euro 2024#spain nt#I’ve actually looked more into this and it is a real law albeit unlikely to be enforced and €30k is a pittance in international football#just funny that if he plays it IS technically against German child Labour laws#but then again so was his debut for Barcelona’s 1st team when he was 15 so ! carries.#<- not to be misconstrued as being a hater I’m being tongue in cheek#wish all the best to him he’s a great young talent etc etc but yeah. Barcelona and Spain’s track record wirh teenage players does irk me#a little. hope we see some global restriction on professional minutes for minors but that’ll never happen 🤷♀️#it all feels great doing stuff young for your age when you’re 16 but then you turn around a few years down the line and realised it was#fucked up and you missed up on so much social development#praga
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are you sure about that akechi
[og post under cut]
#u would think this is a ryuji comment#but let him talk about his meal planning !!!#he is a kinesiology major. to me#persona 5#p5#persona 5 royal#p5r#procreate#2024#goro akechi#persona 5 protagonist#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#ryuji sakamoto#shuake#i suppose#8 hours#supposed to b another throwaway#while i prepare for this semester#and then 8 hours happened#time to get used to drawing again 🎉#found this in my photo roll & wanted to use it#have not yet made chicken curry#yet .............
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