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[SUMMARY: Joel and you have broken up towards the end of your pregnancy until Sarah convinces you to come to Tommy’s annual Christmas party.]
A Christmas baby
“I’m not arguing with you like this god dammit, I ain’t trynna upset you”
Fluff jealousy childbirth angst
“Please come tonight, I really want to see you” Sarah spoke on the other end of the phone. You sighed brushing your hand over your nine month belly, the last thing you wanted to do was attend Tommy’s annual Christmas party.
You knew how much Sarah cared for you and how much she wanted you to be there but after having broken up with Joel just two months prior, it felt strange.
“My dad misses you” she spoke softly.
“I don’t know Sarah, there’s a lot-“
“Please just think about it, it’s Christmas. Pretty please with a cherry on top?”
How were you suppose to resist? Besides Tommy inviting most of the neighbors and having nosey eyes on you, it couldn’t be that bad…right?
Since breaking up with Joel, you had seen him twice. You remembered coming out of your OB appointment and Joel sitting at the bottom step outside waiting for you. You hadn’t expected to see him there, especially being that he never made it to any appointments, constantly over booking himself at work. You remembered the arguments the two of you would have, sometimes you felt he overbooked himself on purpose to not deal with anything that had to do with the baby.
Maybe he had cold feet you thought, whatever it was it didn’t go well mixed with your hormones, your sensitivity at an all time high.
When you moved in with your sister Abby, Joel constantly called her to make sure you were ok. Every night you’d hear your sister on the phone repeating the same things over and over.
“She’s ok”
“I swear I’ll call you if anything”
“No shes not lifting anything heavy, Joel”
Sometimes you couldn’t help but crack a smile, Joel was always invested in making sure you had everything you needed but what you wanted more was his time.
Pulling up in front Joel’s house you could see the guests from the front window. A part of you second guessing what you were doing there, almost tempted to turn back. Then there it was again, a slow pain that kept coming and going from your lower back. This must be what Braxton hicks contraction’s were as the doctor had explained a week piror.
“You made it!” You suddenly heard from outside your car. One of the neighbors, Tilly spotted you just as she was about to go inside with her older brother Jim. Jim was a good friend of Tommy’s, Joel never seemed to be a fan of his, you never knew why.
“Guess I can’t escape now” you whispered to yourself before opening your car door.
“Here, let me give you a hand” Jim gave you his arm as you stepped out the car.
“You look amazing” Jim uttered low as you grabbed onto him. Not expecting his compliment you smiled.
“Thanks”
“That red dress looks great on you” Tilly exclaimed.
“Joel’s gonna be so happy to see you” she chuckled.
Anxiously walking to the front door, you stopped at the steps to adjust your dress.
“Don’t worry Jim won’t let you fall” Tilly whispered, excitement in her voice for her favorite day of the year. Just as you began to walk up the steps the front door opened, to your surprise Joel stepped out. Caught off guard he stopped in his tracks at the sight of you, not expecting you to show up, much less holding onto Jim. You watched his eyes immediately turn to him, a stern look he couldn’t hide until Tilly’s high pitched voice distracted him.
“Joel! So good to see you!” He looked to her and gave her a nod, you could still see the disapproval he felt.
“Tommy’s makin’ drinks, ya got here just in time”
“Shit, you don’t have to tell me twice” Jim made his way up the stairs with you before you thanked him and held your hands together awkwardly. Taking a quick glance at Joel you noticed him looking at you but you didn’t say a word, neither did he, until you were alone.
“I’ve been callin’ you” he stood against the door, cheers and laughter could be heard in the background.
“Abby told me” you spoke softly. His tongue sliding against his inner cheek, there was so much more he wanted to say, you could see it.
“How have you been feelin’?
His question making you finally look up directly at him. He wore a red and black flannel shirt, the one he knew you loved.
“Um-it’s getting harder to walk in certain shoes now” you chuckled showing off that you wore flip flops with your dress. Joel smiled, something he hadn’t done much of since you left.
“Oh my gosh you came!” Sarah’s voice made you both turn her way.
“Hey Sarah,” you smiled.
“Oh my- that red dress is so cute on your baby bump” she grinned with excitement.
“Thank you” you smiled brushing your hand over your bump making Joel’s eyes soften as he looked at you.
“Oh uh- I’m sorry for interrupting dad. I just-“
“Don’t worry, honey. I’m glad to see you excited” he assured her.
“Well, if you guys don’t mind I really need to use the restroom. I’m going every ten minutes now” you laughed before quickly and awkwardly excusing yourself to the back.
Coming out of the bathroom you gave Sarah your sweater and purse as you looked around the room to all the guests there, you honestly didn’t know where to put yourself.
“Look at you, I’m glad you showed up!” Tommy approached you with a Santa hat and beer in hand.
“How are you feelin’?” Tommy asked as Joel appeared beside him.
“Well my ankles are killing me, my back feels on fire, she’s constantly kicking me“ you chuckled.
“but other than that I’m fine” you sighed.
“Aw she’s just excited to meet her uncle” Tommy laughed as he leaned towards your belly.
“Ain’t that right lil’ niece?”
“Tommy” Joel uttered giving him a side eye.
“What? Just a few more weeks till we meet, I’m excited” he took a sip from his beer before being pulled away to dance. Joel and you stood beside each other, his arms crossed as he laughed at his brother before looking over at you.
“How about we get you a seat,”
“Um, it’s fine, I’d rather stay here plus all the seats are taken”
“So, I’ll get somebody up” Joel looked back at the full room quickly eyeing who he’d get the seat from.
“No, no it’s fine” as much as your ankles hurt, you’d rather have stayed away from everyone asking you dozens of questions.
“You wanna lay down in our room for a bit?” His question catching you off guard.
Our room.
“Thanks, Joel. I’ll be fine. I’ll just take some water though, I am thirsty”
He nodded, his eyes remained on you longer than he meant to, drifting down to your dress laying perfectly over your baby bump.
“You look beautiful by the way”
Your heart skipping a beat from his words, you looked over at him.
“Thank you” you whispered before he walked into the kitchen.
Soon you noticed Mary and Lisa heading your way, two of the most nosiest neighbors you had dying to ask questions the moment you walked in. Those two women never seemed to know when to stop talking. Quickly turning towards the kitchen you walked off doing your best to avoid them when you heard a woman laughing in the kitchen. Silently stopping at the doorway you saw Maria with Joel, she was known for many things with men around the area, especially married men. Her hand on Joel’s shoulder as he held your glass of water in hand, you felt a jealousy you had never felt before.
“If it wasn’t for you driving me home that night, who knows where I would’ve ended up” she laughed as your heart sunk. It couldn’t be, Joel spent a night with Maria? Although you and Joel weren’t together, it was crushing to hear.
“Maybe you can drive me home tonight again…?” She spoke with a flirtatious voice as her hand creeped to back of his neck when you accidentally knocked something down beside you. Both of them quickly looking up, Joel realized you had heard everything but before he could say a word you quickly walked out rushing to grab your belongings from down the hall. Joel quickly put the glass down and pushed past Maria following you out as your heart raced with disbelief and hurt.
“Sarah where’s my stuff?” Your voice cracked as she looked up at you confused.
“In the room, are you okay?” You couldn’t respond rushing toward the bedroom as Joel quickly followed behind calling your name.
“It ain’t what you think-“ Joel appeared at the doorway slightly out of breath as you grabbed your sweater.
“Hey, hey-listen to me, baby” he rushed towards you trying to get you to understand him, desperation in his eyes, his hand attempted to grab your face.
“Don’t!” You screamed, tears building up in your eyes.
“The neighborhood whore huh?”
“No, dammit, listen to me!”
“No, you would-“ you suddenly stopped speaking as a sharp cramping like sensation took over you. Leaning forward you winced grabbing your belly, Joels expression instantly changing.
“What? What’s wrong?” He whispered, his hand reaching for your belly just as the wave of pain passed.
“Don’t” you shoved his hand away and took a deep breath. Getting yourself together you put your sweater on and grabbed your purse. Trying to walk past him he blocked your way, a look of concern he couldn’t hide if he tried.
“I’m not lettin’ you leave like this”
“Like hell you’re not!” You screamed, the music and the guests so loud nobody could hear you arguing.
“You can go continue your fun-“
“I’m not arguing with you like this god dammit, I ain’t trynna upset you”
“Too late for that” you aggressively put on your sweater.
“I didn’t do nothin’ with her! She was with Tommy, he passed out drunk in the car I was the only sober one so I drove. She got out the car went home and that was it, nothin’ happened between me and her”
“I don’t believe you” you shook your head as a tear fell from your eyes. You attempted to push past him but he wouldn’t budge.
“I ain’t lettin’ you drive like this-“
“What the hell do you care?! Go talk with Maria since obviously you have time for her but not our baby-“
“You know damn well that’s not true” he grabbed your wrists stopping you from pushing him aside.
“Let go of me!” You pulled your arms back just as another wave of pain took over. Quickly turning away you leaned against the wall.
“Ow-“ you cried out. The pain more intense than you had been feeling earlier.
Joel quickly coming behind you making sure you were okay, his hands on your waist.
“Come sit down”
“No, no…it’ll go away like it did earlier” you whispered in between breaths.
“What do you mean earlier?”
You stood silent as you slowly turned to him.
“What do you mean earlier?” He repeated himself sternly.
“It’s Braxton hicks, I had felt them last week and the doctor told me it was normal. I’m not dilated-“
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“There was nothing to tell!” You winced again from yet another wave of pain.
“I don’t think these are Braxton hicks, you’re getting them to close together, you’re having contractions“
“No I am not. Just leave me alone” you squeezed your eyes shut unable to speak.
“Stop being so damn stubborn, we’re gettin’ you to a hospital”
“No!” You whispered with a gasp just as Sarah ran in.
“Oh my god-“
“Sarah, tell uncle Tommy we’re goin’ to the hospital” he called out to her.
“Is she-“
“Yes” his voice somehow calm as he had you hold onto him.
“Oh my g- it’s getting worse” you whimpered.
“I know, honey. We’re gonna get in the truck now” he caressed your face.
“Is this actually happening right now” you whispered to yourself.
“I think so, baby”
Tommy ran to the truck with his Santa hat still on, opening the doors for you and Joel as the guests all watched on in shock.
“I don’t have my bag! My bag, Joel!”
“I’ll tell your sister to bring it” he buckled your seatbelt and closed the door rushing to the other side. Everyone watched as Joel sped off, each contraction becoming more intense you screamed in agony as Joel kept beeping the horn. If you weren’t so distracted with the pain you felt you would’ve seen how desperate Joel became with each sound you made.
“We’re here, baby. We’re here” the tires screeched as he made a hard turn into the lot.
Everything happened so fast, next thing you knew you were on the hospital bed being instructed to push. Joel holding your leg up, you cried feeling as if you couldn’t get through this.
“I can’t-“ you shook your head as Joel stood beside you, gently turning your head to face him.
“Look at me, yes you can. I’m right here and I ain’t goin’ no where, count with me” Joel began to instruct you with breathing and counting as the doctor prepped for the arrival of your baby.
After all the pain and chaos that occurred, it was all worth it. After the end of it all, you had fallen asleep and awoke to Joel humming Silent Night. Still feeling weak, you turned to see him looking out the window as it snowed. You smiled just as he turned and caught your eyes on him.
“I think she likes this song” he whispered making you laugh.
“You read the book” you spoke softly as he looked at you confused.
“The book I gave you about dads during birth”
He smiled with a nod.
“How else would I had known how to help you breathe through all that pushin’” turns out he listened much more than you thought he did.
“Mhm” your eyes began to uncontrollably close, you were exhausted.
“Get your rest, baby. I got her” without a word you quickly fell back to sleep as Joel looked down at his daughter with tearful eyes.
“The best Christmas gift I’ve ever been given” he kissed her forehead and continued humming the song..
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pairings: perv stepbrother! sunghoon x fem! reader
warnings: corruption kink, dubcon, somno, humping, sex without protection, breeding kink, masturbation.
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perv stepbro! sunghoon who at first felt a little guilty bc he thought of u a way he shouldn't from the moment he saw u for the first time.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who starts masturbating thinking of u in that miniskirts u always wear.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who would definitely stole ur panties to touch him with it.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who notices u're so innocent when u ask him how it feels to be kissed.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who from the moment he knew u were a virgin decided that he was going to be ur first in everything.
"u've never been kissed?" u felt ur cheeks getting hotter
"n-no, is it bad?" u've never felt that ashamed, u're stepbrother and the only person u trusted knew that you had never kissed.
"no no, it's ok y/n" his hand moves to caress your face "there's no reason to feel shy baby"
perv stepbro! sunghoon who teach u how to kiss.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who starts getting touchy with u, always at ur side especially when u are away from home, taking ur hand and kissing u every time he has an opportunity.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who convinces u to sleep together with the excuse of watching a movie .
perv stepbro! sunghoon who ended up masturbating with u sleeping next to him.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who sees how your miniskirt has risen up, revealing your pink panties.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who takes advantage of the fact that u are leaning on ur back to get on top of u and rub his dick against ur clothed pussy.
"fuck im so sorry baby, but u i needed to feel ur pussy"
perv stepbro! sunghoon who doesn't move even when u open ur eyes confused.
"hooni-ie, w-what r u doing?" u felt how ur cunny was throbbing against sunghoon.
"i'm helping u baby -oh god- u said that u never do anything w someone" he says stopping rubbing him against u "why don't u show me ur little cunny?"
"sunghoon i dont think this is ok" u felt his fingers touching ur clit through the panties making u moan.
"i think u like it, don't be a bad girl or i will do it by myself"
perv stepbro! sunghoon who sees u shaking ur head bit don't give a fuck, ripping ur panties watching ur cunny and how wet it was.
"baby ur so soaked" his comment making u cover ur face with ur hands "don't hide, i know u want this"
perv stepbro! sunghoon who thinks it doesn't seem enough to rub against ur cunny, moving his tip towards your tight hole.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who think u're so beautiful when u start whimper couse he's so big for u.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who start pounding into u watching some tears fall from ur eyes.
"baby don't cry, i can feel how u clench around me, don't lie, u're liking it"
"u're so b-big hoon" he was making u feel so streched
"u can with it y/n, u're a big girl now"
perv stepbro! sunghoon who loves how ur little moans sound even if u're trying to not make a sound.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who starts pounding in u harder, making it impossible for u to not moan.
perv stepbro! sunghoon who feels how he is about to cum and wants to breed u so bad.
"i'm gonna cum in ur tight hole baby, do u want it?" u nod without being able to say a word "i wanna breed u so much"
perv stepbro! sunghoon who fills u making u cum on his cock, milking him.
"u just cum 'couse i cum inside u? i knew u were going to be a good girl"
perv stepbro! sunghoon who from that moment on always tells u that he can help you so that you don't feel bad for not having experience.
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Ok so I was reading some of my Wolverine comics earlier and I came across one where someone (who obviously doesn’t know much about Logan lmao) tries to poison him by giving him what’s implied to be improperly prepared fugu sashimi, and it obviously didn’t kill him but it got me thinking.
(for those who don’t know fugu is a VERY deadly species of pufferfish that can and will kill you if prepared incorrectly, and only licensed chefs are allowed to purchase and serve it)
Anyways how fucking hilarious would it be if someone tried to poison Logan on a routine mission or whatever, it obviously doesn’t kill him but when he gets back home he randomly doubles over and lays down on the couch groaning
and obviously you’re like “Omg are you okay? What’s wrong!?” and by going over everything that happened you’re eventually able to deduce that the poison gave him an upset stomach.
cut to him posted up in bed like an ailing victorian child because he hasn’t had a tummyache in two centuries and he doesn’t know how to deal with it.
like maybe normal quantities of poison don’t effect him that much but if he ingests a crap ton (like enough to kill ten regular guys or whatever) it just gives him stomach cramps until it’s out of his system and he’s a big baby about it
you’re as sympathetic to his situation as you possibly can be but you’re still like: “You’ve been shot and stabbed god knows how many times and THIS is what puts you out of commission??”
“Those only take five seconds to heal, okay!? it’s been over an hour and my stomach still hurts >:(“
“Aww, poor wolvie-“
“SHUT UP”
#i just like it when he’s a little silly ok?#get this man some gingy ale STAT#logan howlett#logan wolverine#logan wolverine howlett#james howlett#logan x reader#deadpool and wolverine#wolverine x reader
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tagged by @iinryer to do a 2024 fic roundup but i'm adding my videos in too because. uh. its fun to look back! and i want to!
MARCH
american teenager (36s)
my first ever commission! for my best friend bia! to this day i hear do what you want (do more!) everytime i listen to this song.
APRIL
arms (1:02)
this was for seti. and it hurt.
good luck babe! (1:11)
literally never felt euphoria the same since the week of bi buck when i made this. changed the timeline. (although i was so euphoric and excited to post that i cropped in a rush and left a little white line in one of the shots and it pisses me off massively to this day. yes im a virgo thanks for asking)
to open up my arms and give it all to you (2.5k)
my little buck coming out to chris fic with hints of buddie <3 bi buck got me writing again after months of literal Nothing. god bless
one of your girls (3:09)
kirby's vision went OFF. so proud of this one like. its gotta be one of my favs and i feel like it became a bit of a butchdiaz classic which makes me so happy :D
MAY
kill her freak out (1:33)
this video is my little baby. ohhh samia. ouaagh eddie.
scared of my guitar (2:23)
shoutout to the way the dialogue syncs up in this one. rly satisfying to me hehehe. honestly didn't think i'd like this one as much as i do but she hits hard
promise (1:15)
love when people commission me to edit songs im already currently obsessing over yay!!!!!
JUNE
happy to be here (2:16)
julien baker. eddie diaz. aka abby had a mental breakdown making this one.
closed hands, full of friends (45s)
this was my first time editing a song i had Never heard beforehand! 3 cheers for finding new music!!
JULY
l'amour de ma vie (3:26)
ok not to toot my own horn but. this one is good. i feel like i really told a story u know. and about now is when i started to play around with fun/more intricate text ooh ooooh
a burning hill (1:01)
this prompt was designed in a lab to kill me specifically. i wanted to do the whole song originally but i like. could not go on.
my ego dies at the end (2:49)
i reallyyyy like this one. long edits my beloved! i love to build to something. i rewatch this one often tbh. jensen mcrae is everythinggg
AUGUST
north star (2:16)
again, had never heard this song b4 i got this prompt and it got me obsessed with this searows album. this edit makes me feel all soft. rly loved incorporating fleabag into it bc like. fleabag for life. shoutout summerofbuddie for the inspo
feels like (58s)
this song has been on my buddie playlist(s) forever so i was So excited to get this prompt. it was so fun to make something. not depressing and just like. fluffy. fun fact i hand drew all the hearts for this in ps and they were such a pain to work with but i really love how it turned out cause i'd never done anything like that before :')
pink balloon (2:29)
finally made a proper buck amv. after so many eddie ones it was actually nice to switch it up. felt re-inspired! also always so inspired by samia ugh. i am an eddiegirl literally to my bones tho so this was both v hard and v fun to make.
SEPTEMBER
"i want a divorce" / "it was a date" (2:19)
the buckshannon parallels ouuugughhh. this was one of those ones that haunted me so persistently i literally was forced to make it. saw hanna's post and then blacked out and i was posting this.
had a feeling i could be someone (3k)
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leave tonight or live and die this way (1.1k)
dyke buddie!!!!!!!! these fics are sooooo near and dear to my heart. i love to make everyone wlw! i love to project my butchness onto my fav characters! wrote these so fast (for me) like writing has Never flown out of me like that. i was possessed by the spirit of lesbianism. and. GOD. the response to these fics also makes me want to cry daily. the beautiful art that was created?????? for me and my little fic?????????? i actually can't believe it i love you guys so much. lesbians forever and ever and ever.
did it to myself (1:11)
another one of my favs. i think it slaps so hard tbh. i tried a lot of new stuff and it was so FUN. orla's music is so much fun to edit to i need to do another one of her songs asap.
afraid of heights (2:46)
boygenius wrote this for my friend buck buckley. got entirely consumed by this one. thank u han for being my buckafraidofheights warrior for life <3
headlock (2:23)
i love buck but i remember coming back to making an eddie amv and breathing a sigh of relief. i just Get him. its so easy. this one's underrated i think oop it kinda slaps
OCTOBER
savior complex (3:16)
this one was a rly good challenge and idek why. super happy with how it turned out though i like watching it back
NOVEMBER
funeral bell (2:54)
the buck thesis statement. to me. and such a crazy unique process. loved working w kaitlin on this one and sending her 10 million drafts (she rly got a behind the scenes tour yall and it was not pretty). this was an absolute BEAST to make despite it not even being that complicated. i think i just cared so much about making it perfect for my dear friend who trusted me with her visions and inspiration and that made it all the more special!
you get your dreams for free (14.8k)
drunk cuddling!!!!!!!! my longest fic i've posted to date and i fully thought i was never gonna finish it. i abandoned this last YEAR but im SO glad i came back to it and most of the reason for that is because of the absolutely lovely responses to my earlier fics this year <3 literally hilarious to me that i originally wanted to post this on halloween 2023. abby. abby no.
surrender my heart! (1:30)
post-confessions euphoria + a carly rae jepsen prompt? i was literally in heaven. SURRENDER UR HEART EDDIEEEEEEEEE
DECEMBER
every place leads back to your place (2.1k)
music inspires me soooo much (looks up at this post. no way right.) so i absolutely loved writing based off a song! and a chappell song nonetheless!! so fun to twist a breakup song around to fit Them. i particularly love the kiss in this one <3
oldie's station (3:17)
phew we're almost there! this one is recent but lowkey it feels like another classic to me already. i really really like it. making it felt like cooking a three course meal and watching it kinda feels like eating one :D (thank god) (i spent so many hours in that kitchen)
letter to god (1974) (2:27)
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letter to god (1983) (1:52)
putting these together bc they are sister songs and sister videos. first time in my life i've worked on two videos at once. it was fun because they kind of grew together and influenced each other very directly. not fun because i ran out of space and my laptop crashed. several times. these felt rly indulgent and raw. kind of shocking to me how perfect both songs feel for both of them. had a lot of fun messing with the voice/video filters to try and place these in their respective eras bc im obsessed with that aspect of the songs. halsey's artistry is crazy yall if u havent listened to her newest album GO. NOW.
the rush of slumber party kissing (3.2k)
posted this literally yesterday lol. also my first time writing smut. somehow. scary! but i did giggle all the way through writing this tbh. when buddie reveal their true nature as silly teenage girls >>>>>>>>>>
SPECIAL SHOUTOUT
fleabag au wip, who saw the light of day again this year. she could be finished in six months or six more years, but she Will be finished. im determined!
<3
ok if u read all that uh. wow congrats fhdhhdh im gonna get sappy for JUST A SEC now cause uh. im actually blown away by the support and love and appreciation this fandom has shown me this past year. you guys have given me so much confidence in my skills as both an editor and a writer and you also quite literally helped me pay my rent. by making videos about gay firefighters. its actually kind of mind blowing to me how lucky i am and i never want to take that for granted <3
to anyone who has commissioned me, or sent me a prompt, or left a comment on a fic, or a tag on a video, or sent me a kind ask, or subscribed to me, or followed me, or reblogged anything of mine this year: thank you.
im so grateful for this little community and all the friends and connections i have made through our collective insanity over a procedural drama on abc (neé fox). yall rock so hard.
<3
tagging @userbuddie @chronicowboy @confessionseddie @try-set-me-on-fire @userautumn @lovelettered @exhuastedpigeon @sibylsleaves @saryasy @team-118 @lemmeaskthedevil @eddiebabygirldiaz if u wanna do any sort of yearly roundup!
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Princess and the Farm-Boy (Special Chapter 😏
DISCLAMER: ALL CHARACTERS ARE AGED UP
Author's note: Y'all it was been one hell of a year. I mean I have never been so overworked and with other stuff in my life it has been impossible to write anything, but I had this one in the works for awhile and I thought you guys deserved a treat. So here is my first *Ahem* "Spicy fic". I really hope y'all enjoy it :).
Clark Kent !Smallville! x Black reader
Warnings: Smut, Oral (f! receiving), Unprotected P in V sex (Please be careful irl)
Read on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/61783975
There you are stuck in the rain, the mud creeping up your loafers and on your nice white stockings. Once again your plans to escape Smallville have proven futile. Your eyes start to tear up in frustration, which makes no sense. After all you're not a child, so why should you start crying like one.
Your thoughts are interrupted by the sound of a familiar and annoying truck pulling up.
“Hey, are you ok?” Clark asks, he sounds genuine.
“Yeah, I'm uh just fine.” You answer, he looks at you quizzically. He knows how much you hate mud and all things dirty.
“Doesn't look like it.” “Well what would you know anyway?!” You spat, your pride may be bruised but it's not broken.
He grumbles in frustration, he knows you're not going anywhere without a fight. So he goes for the next best thing, you see him get out the truck his tall frame makes his way to you and then he grins a little devilish grin.
“C'mon I know you don't wanna be here out in this rain, your hair’s too important.”
“I don't see how that's any of you- Oh my God what are you doing!!!” You squeal as you are suddenly hoisted in the air and on his shoulder.
“Well princess, I'm taking you home.” He smiles.
You don't know how to feel about his nickname for you.
Usually you hate it but right now it makes your cheeks heat up in a way you have never felt before.
He drives you both in silence, he realizes that he kinda kidnapped you, and you are feeling an acute sense of butterflies. Something you could never feel for Clark Kent.
You shake the thought right out of your head, he looks over to you sort of reading your mind,
“Hey so uh- what is the deal you, I mean ever since we met you act like you hate me.”
You turn your head towards him, looking at his defined jaw, it's making you melt right in your chair.
“I don't hate you Clark,” you sigh “I just needed something to be upset at. It just felt weird to be taken from my penthouse in metropolis and come to Smallville, y’know.”
He does understand where you're coming from.
“Look, I might not be super rich and super smart like you, But I know what it feels like to be taken from my home.” He comforts you, hesitantly placing a warm hand on yours.
Before your able to pry further, you make it home. “I guess this is your stop,” He chuckles.
“You know the staff aren’t home, It’s pouring out there,” You sheepishly continue “I-I wouldn’t want you to get hurt.” You can’t even believe the words that are coming out of your mouth, yet they feel so natural.
He does his usual goofy shrug and mumbles an “Okay”.
You say your name into the intercom and your let in to your expansive house, It’s a far difference from his warm and inviting home. You both walk across polished wooden floors with high ceilings, old paintings and weapons from a time before. He felt it was all a bit macabre.
You take his hand leading him to your room. It’s hilarious when you get to your room. It's pink and filled to the brim with hello kitty and poster’s of Beyonce on your wall, it’s much more girly than the cold academic you are.
“Don’t gawk, I’m still a girl y’know.” You tell him, your words bringing him out of his trance. You take your sweater off infront of him as you're preparing to take a nice warm shower. He peaks over and sees you in your rain soaked white button down. He begins to blush as he sees your bra pink and full of ruffles just like your room. He almost gets an anime nosebleed from seeing you.
“Here I’m gonna take a shower,” You throw him the remote. “Pick anything you want, I pretty much have all the good movies.” You wink uncharacteristically and slink into the bathroom.
He turns on the tv and flips through the channels until he finds something. He hears a knock on the door, and while no one is on the other side he finds a fresh T-shirt and some comfy pants in his size in a warmed box.
“Hey um, I thought you said no one was here.” He asked you through the wall.
“Oh there isn’t, I had my robot send it over.” He rolls his eyes. Of course you have a robot, He thinks to himself.
He slips into the warm clothes, He doesn’t know however that you're peeping through the crack in your bathroom door, You notice his strong arms and wide back, He has such a soft chest. He’s jacked but not ripped and you don’t mind it one bit.
You walk out into your bed room still in your robe, He’s sitting in your bed comfortably hand on his stomach. You look out the window seeing the worsening storm.
“Hey do you wanna just stay the night?” You ask him. And while he could go through the storm no problem he needs to keep up the facade of being powerless so he just nods. You hand him your phone and tell him to call his parents.
You sit at your vanity and start to moisturize your brown skin. He looks over to your glowing beautiful skin. He's so hungry it’s almost like he’s eating you with his eyes,he almost trips over his words when telling his parents he wouldn’t be home for dinner.
There you are in your silk pajamas and a cute boy in your room, You have no idea what in the world to do. So you just get under the covers next to him. You hesitantly put your hand on his chest, and before you can pull away he takes your hand in his. The warmth he gives you makes you melt.
“You know farmville, Sometimes I think I like you.” The confession falls out of your mouth like your Niagra falls. You sit up wide eyed staring into his sky blue eyes.
He just gives you a toothy grin like no other and plants a soft kiss to your lips, after a second he pulls away. “ I was wondering when you were gonna come to your senses.”
You roll your eyes and kiss him, this time it gets deeper. You rake your hands through his messy brown hair as he places you on top of him. You straddle his lap and his strong arms cradle your back. He melts into your mouth like vanilla ice cream on a hot summer’s day, And he smells like fresh cut wood and apple pie. He tastes like a dream you’ve been desperately reaching out for but you could never hold.
He pulls away to catch his breath, with blown out pupils like he’s in love, (Well he is now lol).
“Gosh, you’re just perfect.” He breathes into your neck slowly kissing down your collarbone to your plump and supple chest.
You take a deep breath everytime he kisses your radiant brown skin. “Clark,” You break him out of his trance. “Yes, Princess?” The nickname sounds fresh and new but familiar and quiet all at the same time.
“Are you sure you wanna do this?” You ask him timidly. “Girl, I don’t think your brother himself could keep me away from you.” He chuckles into you as he slips off the strap of your top. Exposing your glowing bare breasts.
His mouth salivates at the sight of them, And in one swift motion he pulls you further into him.
He places his warm mouth on one of your soft peaks while caressing the other.
“Oh Clark,” You say his name with a sharp gasp “That feels s-so good.” You enjoy his movements as he kisses lower and lower till he reaches your soft entrance.
His eyes roam the sight, his pupils blown and his breath hazy. Your scent light and sweet envelops his nose.
He starts licking your clit with long swipes of his tongue, you sharply moan. Tangling your fingers in his soft brown hair.
He’s eating you out like he is a man on death row, and you're his final meal. And then when you didn’t think it could get any better he places his thick fingers in your sloppy wet pussy.
“Oh-Oh my god Clark,” you moan out. You're loving every single bit of attention he gives you. And he’s doing so much it’s like he can hold his breath forever he hasn’t even come up for air.
You're so focused on the pleasure he gives you, you don’t even realize how your belly feels warmer. How your toes start to curl, how your body starts to writhe and squirm. But he knows, he knows that even between the broken sentences and near pornographic moans your body is close to climax.
“C’mon princess, think you can give me me a-” and before the man can continue there you are creaming this poor farmboy’s fingers. Your back arches as you cry out in pleasure.
“GOD, FUCK.” Your words spurn him on as he didn’t realize himself that he was grinding into your bed. His dick so hard and with precum leaking at the tip. He’s afraid to hurt you with his size. He won’t even bring up the subject of his sore cock to you opting to handle his business in the bathroom.
“Oh my god Clark that was amazing.”, “Oh well I thought-” you interrupt his words with a deep and passionate kiss as your hands glide down to his member. You can almost feel the heat coming off of it.
“ I think I know how to help you with that.” You giggle. You can see his cheeks heating up as he blushed furiously.
You pull his pants down to reveal a huge throbbing cock. “How the hell am I supposed to fit this in my-”
He hears you mumble under your breath, “Y’know you don’t have to do this.” “Clark, Baby if I didn’t want to do this you would know. Now open my side drawer, there’s a bottle of lube in there.”
So he grabs the lubricant for you, for some reason he is surprised at your usage of the bottle mostly because it’s halfway gone.
“Oh relax, it's for my dildo’s, ya goof.” You giggle at him once more. He doesn’t think he’ll ever get tired of that noise.
You apply the cold lube to his red throbbing cock, which sends shivers down his spine. His chest heaves in pleasure as you stroke his thick member.
“Baby do you want me to ride it, or do you wanna be on top?” The two options scream out to him, “Can you ride me p-please?” he asks, almost nervous like he didn’t just eat your pussy like it was a birthday cake.
You straddle his lap, grinding on him teasing his very soul. You finally give him some relief when you place his tip at your entrance. He’s so big you have to catch your breath every inch on the way down.
“I’m sorry princess, I know it’s a lot,” “Oh no it’sss.” You hiss in the middle of your sentence. “I can take it.”
You finally bottom out and it feels like the air has been removed from your lungs. You reassure him that you're fine but he insists you take a breather before you start.
You slowly pump yourself up and down on his length relishing in the feeling, His hands gripping the sheets trying so hard not to hurt you. The pleasure is almost to good as his beautiful pink lips part in an attempt to breath out a silent prayer of release.
“Princess, I’m so sorry I can’t-” He grabs on to your hips, speeding up the pace on both of your pleasures.
“W-wait Clark, Oh ff-uck!” You whine as you take your arms and wrap them around his back, glistening with sweat.
It seems like his strokes would never stop but as his pleasure builds with yours.
“I’m gonna, s-hit.” He hisses as spurts of his cum flow inside of you as you follow releasing on to him.
You both look at each other with boundless stars in each other's eyes. “That. was… Amazing, I never would have thought goody two shoes Clark Kent could do all of that.” You breathily laugh.
“Right back atcha, now I think I need a shower. Care to uh join me?” he asks shyly.
You smirk because the fun has only just begun.
Taglist: @blackynsupremacy
#black reader#fanfic#clark kent#smallville 2001#smallville#smallville fanfic#clark kent x you#clark x reader#clark kent x reader#clark kent x y/n#clark kent x female reader#clark kent x black reader#superman#smut#first time writing this#nervous laughter#i hope you like it#i hope this is okay!#dc universe#dcu#dc comics#lex luther#lex luthor
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ot8 ateez how they get you to squirt for the first time + their reaction
a/n: there may be typos cause i wrote this out at 2 am very sleep deprived
hyung line
(maknae line: coming soon)
hongjoong
you guys are experimenting with positions you don’t do or don’t do very often
he has you in mating press
it’s not something you guys do often cause you have to be quite flexible to hold it for a long time
knowing this, he’s giving his all to make the most of the position
his thrust are going extremely deep
you both are almost there, his thrust are getting sloppy, your legs are shaking
the last deep thrust is all it takes
he let’s out a small gaps
your mouth is hung open, no noise coming from you
your legs are shaking more before you start to come down from your high
his hands grips at the wetness on your thighs like he can’t believe it’s real
smiles really big when it fully processes he made you do something he thought he couldn’t
he checks in on you to see if your doing ok
“it felt really good joongie”
“fuck i need to do it again.”
spends the next hour trying to see how many times he can make you do it
“just gives me one more baby.”
seonghwa
got you to squirt from eating you out
he spent so much time treating your pussy like his last meal
very pussy drunk
when it happens, he was showing your clit a lot of attention
your juices cover his mouth and when he pulls away you can see it dripping down his chin
he uses his tongue to lick up everything, from your lips, to your thighs, and the little that got on your lower stomach
“taste so fucking good my love.”
your legs are shaking but his hands start rubbing your thighs to ground you again
kisses you up your body before kissing your lips.
“i can believe i got you to squirt with just my mouth.” he smirks
“oh shut up hwa.” you giggle
“now i gotta do it with my dick.”
yunho
has you missionary
knows how much you love his hands
has one hand around your neck, applying light pressure
the other hand is rubbing your clit
his thrust are slow but powerful, hitting your g spot relentlessly
a particular hard thrust sends you over the edge. having your legs shaking and your eyes rolling back
he’s so surprised that he stops completely
“oh my god, baby?!”
pulls out but you immediately grab him and push him back in
he sides in so easily due to the wetness cause the both of you to let out moans
he’s almost coming on the spot when you ask him to make you squirt again
yeosang
like seonghwa, makes you squirt from his tongue
has been teasing you all night
every time you’ve been close to coming, he’s pulled away
you’re a whining, whimpering mess begging for him to let you cum
when you decides you’ve had enough edging he’s has you coming back to back
he’s messily eating you out, sucking on your clit
he has to hold you down from how much your hips keep bucking
keeps your hips down with one hand while the other start fingering you
the combo of both him sucking on your clit and his fingers hitting you g spot has you seeing stars
gets all over his hand and face, making him moan which sends more vibrations to your clit
“that’s it baby, give me more.”
you have to start pushing him away from how sensitive you are
when you tell him how good he made you feel, he starts getting all shy and you see his ears turning red
when you ask if he came he nods and points to the wet spot on his boxers
#ateez smut#ateez hard thoughts#ateez x reader#hongjoong smut#hongjoong x reader#seonghwa smut#seonghwa x reader#yunho smut#yunho x reader#yeosang smut#yeosang x reader
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ehherueemmmm ok
Ten People I'd Like To Get To Know Better
tagged by: 56thingsinaname (thank you very much! despite what my general disposition may showcase, i do appreciate human interaction from time to time :).)
last song: do not remember but i definitely listened to Romance is Boring today (by Los Campesinos!)
favorite color: chartreuse yellow I will DIE on this hill it is beautiful shut up
last book: Wild Children by Felice Holman but i like never read psychical books that was AWHILE ago i just do endless fuckin fics so uh latest fic issss (re-reading for the like. 5th time) How Intreeguing by Datawyrms (Verl) on Ao3
last movie: do short films count? if so it's uh. (re-watching for the second time I DONT LIKE NEW THINGS) Revenge of the Pumpkin Rabbit by Martin Walls, a recent sequel of The Mysterious House made by the same guy; both available on youtube. if we just doin like official releases then it's been atleast a couple years so i do not remember. :/
last show: same thing if like. youtube stuff counts. if so i (re-watched. again. do you notice a pattern) White Stag Education by After10Productions and GREYLOCK by Rob Gavagan last night, both available on youtube. official shit on like streaming services idfk i haven't had any paid ones (all expect youtube at this point) for awhile.
sweet/spicy/savory: taste?? flavor?? by god i haven't heard those words in forever. sick af rn and also unsure exactly which they are. the one (flavory?) thing i do know well is sour and uh. i genuinely chug raw lemon juice like. all the time (not rn though because the SICKNESS has got my THROAT in a CHOKEHOLD and im not sure if it can HANDLE that rn without me just. EXPLODING on the spot) but if i had to choose one from it'd probably be savory because the internet (reddit) tells me cheese is savory and i live and die and come back to life by my Pocket Cheese. (and Emergency Backup Backpack Cheese. gotta be prepared)
relationship status: fuck love (forever alone)
last thing i googled: is cheese savory (before that was: corpse flower, psycho killer lyrics, and known synonyms)
current obsession(s): DANNY PHANTOM. DANNY PHANTOM DANNY PHANTOM DANNY PHANTOM DANNY PHANTOM DANNY PHAN
looking forward to: not being this fucking ill so i can actually work on dp ramblings and/or scenarios and/or hallucinations and/or aus and/or writing and/or drawings and/or literally fucking anything related to dp im already so fucking tired of being sick FREE ME YOU FOUL MALADY FROM THIS PRISON
genuinely do not know 10 or more people on here so uh:
@empc @godsofreeds @feykingscourt @frostbiteicebow @46-reasonable-hamsters and also anybody that wanna join on this train ig :]
Ten People I’d Like to Get to Know Better
Tagged by: @anonymous-existences (ty for tagging me :3)
Last song: The entire Ithaca Saga by Jorge Rivera-Herrans
Favorite color: Yellow, but specifically a light golden yellow
Last book: The Science of Psychology: An Appreciative View 6th Edition by Laura King 💀
Last movie: Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End
Last show: Teen Wolf (I barely got started)
Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Sweet and salty
Relationship status: I have been single my entire life 🧍
Last thing I googled: "monologuing"
Current obsession: DPxDC and the Ithaca Saga
Looking forward to: I have an outing planned with a friend I haven't seen in a while!
Tagging (no pressure ofc): @meditating-cat @elizabethemerald @pinklotushere @hello-casualbouquetcycle @starlightcat04 @angyblobghost @zhelin-thames @kyohoke @vangreer @caleism-1
#im like genuinely considering the fact that i may have covid (again) (for the third time) its that bad#like i got my shots and can soical distance and shit but. damn. fml ig#fuck i already WAS social distnacing for like the last few weeks. and years. the mental illness in me hates ppl#but yeah no anyways thanks oncemore for taggin me i luv talkin to online ppls!!! :>
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Tetris Fanart.
I've been playing tetris while listening to horror podcasts. and yeah
#text#art#eyestrain#cw eystrain#bright colors#cw bright colors#tetris#nintendo#god i dont know what to tag this with. i dont wanna tag it with the podcasts themselves cuz that feels disingenuous. swagever#i actually started this piece a while ago. ok yeah looking at the date that was almost 3 weeks ago wow#but i finally decided to bring it back and finish it#ive been getting back into digital art and its been really nice. its nice having finished pieces.#ive been trying to get weirder with my art. like this piece was weirdly 'personal' in a sense#its been my unique experience listening to these pieces of media. the game in the bg is jsut as important to my experience as the art itsel#the looming sense of dread these podcasts give fit weirdly well with the high tension of some of these games of tetris#i wanted to have that sorta weird ominous vibe to it. have even the pieces feel loud and threatening.#and the gameplay being Past the ds itself is something i thought could be neat#ykno the tetris effect? where you play a bunch and then after you see the shapes everywhere;you play it in your mind?#that was part of what i wanted to channel there. but also like; how your attention works with this stuff#i might be looking straight at the ds but my attention is elsewhere; my brain is in another world#the game is still inescapable tho. tetris effect whatever. these stories stick in my brain just as much.#its all given me some. very very annoyingn anxiety. but i have to go back to them. like a moth to a flame etc. hince the moth climbing out#but uh yeah. that set up was my life for a few weeks whenever i had free time.#the main podcast this is about was magnus btw <- not typing full name so im not on the tag#and uh.#objectum#yeah i think. i think yeah.
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hi evie !! how have you been ? :33 i hope you dont mind me borrowing you and moze for something ehehe <3
#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 nick!#彡 inbox.#evie.ss#omg good morning nick! my stomach literally twisted and flipped seeing this /pos /POS /the most positive gut wrenching feeling in existence#NICK AND THE REASON WAS ? WHY DO U NOT HAVE A KOFI LINK WHERE IS IT …. THIS ISNT OK I NEED TO FIND IT???? U CANNOT BE … BE …. BE UM … YOU K#I NEED TO 😭😭😭 I NEED ….. IS IT OBVIOUSLY IM CRYING WRITING THINSSJSJSN /pos /ULTRA POS THIS IS SO CUTE UR ART IS SOOOO AWESME IM SO IN AWE😭#typos: obvious* <- & barrier* -> amazing work evie#i broke the sound banner with the screech i made seeing this …. YOU … YOU DREW ME … THE EXACT WAY ….. I .. ITS SO SPOT ON I ????? I … IM#FLABBERGASTED . SHELL SHOCKED . GOBSMACKED IM SO OBSESSED WITH HOW U DID MY HAIR …. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I DO MY HAID … AND THE CURLS ARE LI#LIKE THAT… IM SO OBSESSED WITH UR STYLE JSJSJJD HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID IT???? UR STYLE IS MMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!! 1000/1000!!!!!! in specif#the colors … the colors are gorgeous and sooo nice to gaze at … the little wings … HOW DID YOU KNOW I LIKE- IM SO . (hugs knees and cries#YOU DREW THAT DRESS AWESOME-LY …. IM GENUINELY LOSING MY MIND AND I HAVENG EVEN .. looked at *him* ….. nick …. im complimenting it and i#can’t even see rn HEJSJCKCNITS BLURRY 😭😭 my head hurts so bad from sobbing but ive never been happier /pos IM SO ???? I LOVE HOW U DREW ME#i went to go triple check for the kofilink and found myself browsing through puppetgear tag once again u^u JENDNDKXJ oh my god . PLEASEEEEE#ok…. moze … he’s … so tiny .. he’s so cute … he looks so grumpy :’) /pos AND YOU .. u captured his squishable look omg….. he’s so teeny he’#literally as big as a fingernail on my phone im :’) HES POCKET SIZED I CANT BELIEVE U DID THIS /pos /ETERNALLY GRATEFUL#WHY 😭😭😭😭😭 YOURE SO KIND IM SO . IM SITTING ON THE FLOOR OF MY ROOM SNIFFLING AND HICCUPING AHENDNJXKC AND STARING AT THIS OF COUESE#i just saw the ask 😭 i definitely don’t mind im literally on my hands and knees to thank you and it’s still not enough JSNSNDNMC i have to#dig a dent in the hole and bow inside the hole …… it’s not enough … i genuinely love every square inch of this JSNDNXN i just adore … how u#did me … how u did moze (so— everything) even the circle in the background is a color that i adore 😞😞 sniffle …..#what a treat to see moze in ur style 😭😭 what a HUGE . Nice . AMAZING. TREAT . he looks so good in ur style UGH I WANNA FLOAT AWAY#the physical reaction i had in my stomach & head is unmatched /pos …. it’s vaguely similar to when u get called on in class while nervous .#and ur stomach flips .. but in a positive / EVSTATIC / insanely happy way … thank you so much omfg (link?) (please?) you are so kind ….#i don’t even know how to convey my gratefulness so im resorting to crying-staring-crying-staring-crying#(cries)#oh i never answered ur question haha :’) yea im great! :’) and you? :’)#im gonna put this in queue >/////< URK IM SO …. THANK U NICK ))))))):::: (link perhap?)#edit: OHHHH I SEE HOW U DID MY HAIR COLOR!!!!! that is so cool hello? it’s black- but not? and it fits so perfectly!!!! THAT IS SOO COOL WJ#NO WONDER I WAS ADMIRING THE COLORS EARLIER THIS IS SUCH A COOL THING (nonartist tries to explain how neat something is) NSNDNXKK
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Ive got the chapter up now, lets get it done
Akutagawa is looking STUNNING
I’m not sure I like where this is going
FUKUZAWA NO HES GOR THE RECEIPTS
I can’t deal with this poor Atsushi looks so distraught
Look at him
Hes right, you are pure evil
NO NO FUKUZAWA NOOOOOOOOO
STOP IT WITH YOUR 5D CHESS FYODOR JUST STOP
nobody likes a gloat
Light Yagami wannabe over here using both hands
why don’t you take a potato chip and eat it if you’re so great?
I AM LOSING IT ALONE IN A BATHROOM AT ELEVEN PM
FYODOR STOP KILLING PEOPLE YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO FINDS IT FUNNY
That IS so contradictory you should just not go through with it
NOOOOOO FUKUZAWA NOOOOO
DONT BUBBLEDAMMIT
NOOOOOOOO WHYYYYY
Noooo he apologized to Atsushi
oh god
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ASAGIRIIIIIIII
COUNT YOUR DAYS BECAUSE THEY WILL BE COMING TO AN END
BRO WHAT WAS THAT?
WHY DID YOU FEEL THE NEED TO DO THIS?
WHAT ABOUT RANPO
#i am very very much not okay right now#good god#half the cast is dead#the other we havent seen in over a year#manga wise at least#theyneed all the back up they can get#and fricken Dazai and Chuuya are still ar Mersault having their honeymoon waiting for that poison to kickin at thirty minutes#it was thirty minutes right?#its been so long i honestly don’t remember#but that poison should have kicked in a loooooong time ago#remember when the anime had a positive final episode#i do#when we found out Chuuya was ok and the plan had worked#ahh those were the days#but know they’re practically in the hunger games#gahhhhh#bsd atsushi#bsd akutagawa#bsd fukuzawa#bsd fyodor#bungo stray dogs#bsd 120.5#bsd#how much worse will it get in February#guess we’ll just have to wait and see
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At which point did you realise that the plot of IW is ass? I've seen people complain only about the ending or the halfway point where the teams separate, while I was already actively rolling my eyes like four-five chapters in
i think the moment i fully accepted that IW's story was. Definitely A Story was the moment ebina announced 'bleach japan'. like i think leading up to that point i was thinking to myself 'oh i hope i see X happen' or being like 'i wonder where this is going' and that sort but the proverbial bucket of ice was definitely that moment
#infinite wealth spoilers#snap chats#what reaaaaally hammered it in too if it wasnt obvious already was the execution of the jimas/daigo like that still irks me LMAO#i cant even remember what chapter that happened in i just know when it did i was utterly pissed#i think i started to take things less seriously once bryce entered the picture but thats only because of how distracting his VA was#like much love the JP voice actors who try to speak english and japanese but i just cant act like it's not incredibly distracting#esp when the character is supposed to be white yk what i mean- or at the very least their first language is supposed to be english#typically i can look over that thing if its a one or two time kind of deal but he had to speak in english much longer than others#im just rambling about bryce tho this aint bout him. i mean he could be a part of it the cult was executed really sloppily#it might have been the introduction of bryce actually ... i remember thinking to myself 'oh brother' with the whole messiah thing LMAO#maybe it was when kiryu told us his cancer cam from radiation instead of. smoking 💀 ESPECIALLY not even five chapters in#like straight out the gate you just wanna drop that on us mr I Can Do Everything Myself I Cant Worry Others ok#thats a post for another day tho im EVERYWHERE#POINT IS this is not about Retrospect this is about First Impressions and memory warps over time#but i know for a fact i found the bleach japan thing utterly ridiculous and was squinting at the plot the entire time thereafter#like ive said this a million times at this point but although i love IW for it's gameplay (pardon some nitpicks like lack of shortcuts)#its story really feels so messy and had much to be desired. which is so sad after the wonderful stories rgg has been making since 0..#BUT OH WELL im still excited to replay it in english. god willing i ever get the time#i still wanna finish lost judgment <- isnt even halfway through the game#and i wanna do a fun stream Maybe with YK2 but ill get into that when i get into that#if youve read this far. thanks LOL id say sorry for the novel but thats what we expect of me at this point
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how deal with taidan
#^ crying over saki for the second night in a row#i am Not Okay about the fact her taidan is exactly a year after her pb footage aired on sky stage#bc that was the very last thing where i was like ok yeah maybe saki IS my second fave of all time#feels weird to call her my second fave#shes like basically on par w aasa 😭 idk how else to word itjfhd#idk not the point i am just emotional and sad and will miss her dearly#but also wishing her luck in whatever she decides to do next whether that be in the public eye or not#also just feel so sad about how busy ive been recently 😭😭#was planning on going back and watching all her shinkos and leads that i havent watched yet before the 13th but uni hit me like a truck#and i have not have time 😔#have not had *#sorry if you are reading this 🙏 it is not coherent 🙏🙏 fjdhdjd#idk i was torn up enough over kiwa and this is about to be 4000x worse sofhdhdjd#did watch every sakigumi show in order a while ago w my gf and that was nice at least#idk man im excited for aasas run im sure itll be great im just so not ready to say bye to sakigumi#god if youd have told me when i first got into zuka i would be this torn up over saki leaving i would not have believed you#but here we are#at no point was i expecting to get This Attached to saki but it just kind of happened#aasas fault whatever#fjhdjdhd#sorry none of fhis is coherent i do not know how to organise or articulate my thoughts#idk i love s4kiaasa so much#getting to watch them together both on and off stage for the last two and a half years ish since i got into zuka has meant so much to me#i hope they both continue to thrive and i look forward to seeing what they do next
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I feel like certain people on Tumblr have really been fighting for backwards progress when it comes to how we talk about mental illness and abuse. I see posts at least several times a week on my dash that seem to have the purpose of implying people with insert-mental-illness and/or insert-symptom are not abusive when they do insert-action-that-makes-people-uncomfortable, often times meaning to promote a more positive image of people with particularly stigmatized conditions, like personality disorders, mood disorders, psychosis, addiction, or neurodivergence. And I really really hate it because these posts almost always have the ultimate purpose of telling people not just "This thing is not inherently abusive," but often it comes across as "You were not abused."
I just find that to be really unhelpful and unintentionally hurtful, and for what? I believe that destigmatizing various mental conditions is a worthy cause, but at the same time this type of rhetoric seems to be so protective of people in whichever stigmatized group they're trying to advocate for, that it comes back around to a sort of respectability politics. Anybody can be an abuser. And someone's means and methods of abusing can very much be influenced by a condition they have. Why wouldn't it be? Their conditions will affect every aspect of their life and their interpersonal relationships. Especially if these issues are going untreated or being insufficiently managed. I don't understand why anyone would want to make it appear as if abusers are mostly neurotypical and mentally well people, or that if they aren't, then their conditions have nothing to do with it and the overlap is merely incidental. What? It makes it so hard for anyone who is a victim to come to terms and identify the dynamics of what they've gone through.
Addicts and mentally ill people don't have to be unproblematic in order to be humanized and accepted. And nobody profits from writing hard and fast rules about how abuse apparently works, drawing clear lines between which behaviors can, and cannot, ever be abuse.
#tales from diana#making unrebloggable bc i can't handle the discourse on this topic#my own experience with being abused and taken advantage of by someone who almost CERTAINLY had npd... just kinda breaks me#when i see this and it's like making it out to be 'everyone who says they suffered from narcissistic abuse is lying#or misunderstanding what narcissism is because ppl w npd would NEVER do this'#i can see that it's a highly stigmatized term and i don't want to act like an expert on what ppl w the condition go through#but i can tell you i felt deep sympathy for this man for a long time. i felt pity for all he'd gone through. but he'd just lay on the guilt#for every little thing i did that ever displeased him for any reason. he just degraded and disrespected me. and USED me#he used me for money for attention for CONSTANT attention oh my god#he wouldn't even let me go to sleep sometimes before 3 am. and he stole so much money from me#he put me in physical danger. he gossiped about me to all my friends when i was starting to distance myself#before i even came to terms with just how toxic he was to me.#and every time i just wanted to go somewhere wo him or even just stay at home by myself#it was about HIM. it was about how HE felt about it. he had ZERO sympathy for me and i handled all his emotional labor#this man couldn't even think for himself. he brought all his problems to me for me to sort through bc he was so inept and shallow#he was lazy he was careless he didn't listen to ppl he was casually rude#i didn't allow myself to accept these parts of him bc of all he suffered through i felt like he was just a sad little boy#who never learned manners or etiquette or. just. respect#basic respect. as much as i outlined what i wasn't ok w and what hurt me. it didn't matter to him#and NONE of these things are inherently the things that make me think he has npd#his actual suffering and the things i felt bad for him about were very real and severe#but i know what happened between us and i know he was abusive to me. the ppl writing these posts do not.#to say that someone has been abusive in an interpersonal relationship should be something we should be able to respect#and give ppl the benefit of the doubt. and victims may OFTEN not be well-informed about their own abusers' issues#but ppl can just know whether or not they were abused. regardless of if they fully grasp the why and how#if victims say something problematic or paint w a broad brush talking abt ppl who have something in common w their abuser#we should still correct that gently and kindly and not dismiss their experience outright#like i can't believe i have to say that. but i've seen some seriously upsetting posts on here recently.
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want to cut my hair again like you wouldn't believe. What are the possible consequences of going bald
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#actually i dont mean bald i just mean all one guard length#but hhhhh maybe i'm in an awkard stage maybe not i just CANNOT live like this#middle part is frustrating because it's not perfect in the way it sits side part is frustrating because i look like a girl#i feel like i could go all in with the 4 and then sorta texture a bit with the 2 guard HOWEVER having used the 4 previously. i know#how short that is. it might not look good so i worry#the bright side is it would grow out a bit by the time of the parade but augh i hate this#i'm currently a tightly wound ball of rage sorry. i didn't eat much of anything 2day#tried to call the hospital to get help with the letter/consulation thing preceding top surgery and they were NOT OPEN so idk if they will#be open tomorrow or not. the passage of time has gotten very vague all of a sudden#iiiiiii do not think i am doing well. lol. idk why though! god forbid any of it have a reason#i almost wish i'd relapse just so i could like. eat food again#idk i don't think it would solve it but i feel in my heart it might make things easier#buuuut because relapse is Bad For Me i guess i have to avoid it. well i want to anyways.#one bad day would not a reset make but my previous day happened this year already so...#i dunno it's been so long that i feel like it's not valid or whatever cause it was at an age where i can say it was a 'phase'#.............. i dunno what to do with that information. anyways.#i mean so what if i went all in on it again anyways? i kinda miss it lol. it's not like i could do any serious harm??#(potential infections aside.)#i just want to be creative and i CANT because my stupid brain will NOT think of anything#and the majority of what i have concretely written of this was written... get this .... right when i was trying to stay clean at first#correlation does not equal causation ........ sighs#i feel like i'm fighting a losing battle because i WANT IT to be that bad again#i've never really regretted it & it's never really been because of anything#i just started because i was curious about why someone would do that. that's all#i dont think i've EVER had any of the mental distress i see people in when theyre in these spaces#in one journal entry i made this big deal about wanting to kill myself but *i didn't want to*. i never did.#like sorry old me but it is REALLY hard to believe i've ever been depressed depressed#i just want things to be better and they never are :/ this should be everything i wanted and its just ... not#i'm not really sure how to ....... oh tag limit ok hold on
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#update for my friends here#(and then I gotta go read aristotle lol)#I'm doing ok. I think maybe I've made some friends here. particularly a couple of girls on my hall who have been very kind to me.#wish my emotions would come back and be normal#and by 'normal' I mean not just random crying whenever I try to sit still and think for a few minutes.#there's so much happening. my heart is pulled so many ways. I'm not sure how to resolve any of it.#and I'm aching for resolution.#but I think God is trying to show me how much more I still haven't done or experienced#even though a lot of times I feel like I've lived all of life there is to live and there's nothing left anymore.#I wish I had more trustworthy people in my life who are older than me and can help speak into this experience.#I need to call my parents and siblings back home. I miss them.#I keep questioning my decision to come here. maybe I should've stayed home.#I don't know. maybe it's all an exercise in trust.#I'm still afraid most of the time I think. I wish I could put that fear to death. I wish I could just lean back and trust.#everything just moves so fast.#if any of my post-college (undergrad at least) friends would like to give me tips for slowing down and being intentional with life#and relationships and stuff#during this phase of life--I am extremely open to hearing about them!#love you all <3
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also GOOD NEWS turns out the One Week Until Eviction scare was just a false alarm and surprise surprise ✨lack of communication ✨ where as i texted her back for clarification but she said everything is fine and i aint being evicted bc she lied to the higher ups??so fuck it we ball ig its good to know she rlly does have my back to some strange extent so im still girlbossin here for another year and will have more time to build credit and look into the science of buying a house sksks
ALLL THAT BEING SAID i will start the next comic section later this week 4 SURE
#not complaining in the slightest but she very much couldve texted me again within those 4 days to say just kidding BECAUSE UHHH#''ur good honey i just lied to them☺'' me 5 suicidal meltdowns and 10 applications to any available housing later:😬oh ok great!!!!#like woman i was fully ready to accept that theres not a bitch on earth who will show me mercy to any extent and that the world is a cold#unrelenting hell to survive in for the past 4 DAYSSSS which i mean is right but ig its not completely that???#like a ''oh nevermind sorry false alarm'' text literally anytime after wouldve work just dandy sksksks plz#like i was rlly out here thinknig she deliberately basically sentenced me to inevitable homelessness for all she knows out of nowhere LIKE#i think im above the genetic Crazy Bitch Disease#but then i catch myself calculating the most inconvenient place in my apartment for my body to decompose in '''''for revenge''''''#if i couldnt move out in time like what in gods name is this radioactive elephants foot of a brain#plus idk how solid her excuse of not having good internet reason is to keep me here for another year so either way#after this im finding somewhere more solid to live bc i cant deal with this type of thing AGAIN lmfao#like bro u cant just make me think the happiness and peace that ive felt for the first time in my life is going to be reversed bc i have to#move back into that godforsaken house with that pos bc i Literally had no time to find another place and the amount of time that takes#BUT oh well its all good and she's still cool for a land lord so im good im good#the past almost week been crazy as hell
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