#and god damn it I love myself
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for real the love that I feel for myself after this fight is incredibly overwhelming holy fuck
#long story short went to see my MIL for Christmas she got back together with my 16 year old BILs dad and they both started acting abusive#tried to talk to her about it seriously and she started yelling at and attacking me#brought her 40 year old son over to fight me specifically for offending her#ripped the man’s face off because he was tall af and I couldn’t punch but I could sure as fuck do other shit#nearly popped his eyeball and when he moved his face I grabbed his cheek on the inside and outside and when he threw me I didn’t let go#115 pounds hanging off just cheek skin has got to not feel good#and I saw no blood on the outside so I guess I peeled the inside of his face off cheek and jaw#pussy limped away crying and still tried to fight the cops#MIL attacked me with a metal stool#ANYWAY we got my younger BIL the fuck out of there#and god damn it I love myself#BY THE WAY no im not really injured i have a couple bruises and a mild concussion#my partner also broke that man’s face and ribs while I held his face still#teamwork makes the dream work#:)
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FRIDAY NIGHT FUNKIN REDRAW 🍒
+ Close ups!
What wonderful timing this was!! I wanted to showcase my improvement and then the game was updated! This franchise was what actually inspired me to start branching out to digital work, So I owe it a lot!
Twitter / kofi
#THE NEW SONGS R FUCKING FIRE#and from 2021 to 2024?? damn is the improvement evident#Think I could’ve done a lil better on the pose but overall? Very pleased with myself!#I’ve learned I really love rendering xD like a LOT#deadass tho this piece whooped my ASS#the lineart kept giving me trouble but god was it worth it#cookiesart#friday night funkin#fnf#fnf girlfriend#fnf boyfriend
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*clasps your shoulders gently and looks you straight in the eye*
Keferon. Please read Ninth by Kyn on AO3. I think you would love it very much. It has a large chapter count, but don't be intimidated, it's very easy to get into. It is currently unfinished, but is being updated regularly.
You are the seventh person that recommended this fic to me so ahahahaha yeah
I’m doing great Help I hate some parts of it but I love the other parts I’m spinning in the blender
…..I made the moodboard….
#chapter 37#of 120 or something#I must be like 90k words in haha#large word count is not an intimidation. It’s an invitation haha#I love the fics that I can’t read in just one hour:)#I gotta say I don’t enjoy the concept of making robots into organic life#it’s just my preference#seeing them as humans or animals or whatever feels so fucking wrong#the concept itself drives me off#like. Strongly#But at the same time. This fic isn’t about them being ‘haha cute organics’#it’s ‘oh god. I was turned into something I’m not’#instead of teeheee they’re fluffy#it’s please free me from this fucking nightmare. please let me be myself again.#idk how to explain. I resonate I guess#it often feels very disturbing but the characters are also disturbed#So now I’m kind of stuck reading this fic because I just can’t stop lol#just politely skipping the parts that make me too uncomfortable#also#the body horror is….damn. Impressive. I didn’t expect to read about grotesque fleshy creature turning itself inside out#it’s not even aesthetic or symbolic#it literally looks like a fucking nightmare. Which is impressive also.#the flesh is g r o s s#the beginning got me struggling and skipping#but the intermission is currently ruining my sleep schedule#oh fuck….I usually send my posts to the authors of the fics I read…..but I feel like I might offend the author of Ninth if do this……..#there’s a tiny chance they’re following me….if it’s true then I wanna tell I’m sorry pls don’t take this seriously#your fic got me waay out of my comfort zone#huge points for writing Ratchet. Drift in this fic is…the grossest fucking thing I could probably imagine but Ratchet doesn’t even hesitate#he helps him and he cares for him. Which is…..imma be real my first instinct would be to set Drift on fire to end his misery
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Anyway here's the initial sketch of Farmer MalleYuu that inspired me to start developing a farming game. 🥔🥕🐮🐥 They just make me so happy tbh
It's my last semester in uni I'm trying to hold onto my remaining sanity
#I'm a full time employee who studies for uni during the evenings#I'm in my last semester of school#I do the dishes I do the laundry I do the cooking#God knows I'm TIRED#but I'm damn proud of myself for finding time to enjoy my little life#god damn it I'm tired#but twst makes me so happy#so I make a million love letters for it in the form of different media#i will write fanfics for malleus#i will make comics for malleus#i will illustrate for malleus#i will make games for malleus#he is my muse#twisted wonderland#malleus draconia#malleus x reader
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Holmes College Adventures Masterpost Chapter 2: part 1 - part 2 - part 3 - part 4 - part 5 - part 6 - part 7 - part 8 AO3
Not much to say here, I decided to give Trevor some piano experience because why not. I also like to think about Holmes having to learn back/heavily dust off his violin skill as an adult, so I included that as well. I think the spare violin in Trevor's house would be his mother's or late sister's.
I needed to add a couple of fluffier scenes before the shit hits the fan..... you get it.
#almost a domestic fluff if you squint#my art#sherlock holmes#victor trevor#acd holmes#sherlock holmes fanart#holmes collage adventures#god damn i am loving them dearly#why am i doing this to myself this is not going to be a story with a happy ending..........
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How have your interactions with your floormates been? Do any of them seem particularly friendly?
I think this might be your guy to talk to, Leo, just a hunch...
prev ask
#this post has been cooking since the beginning omg. and thus ends the chronicle of my long weekend of shenanigans...#now that magnus and annabeth's designs are out I can rest T-T. this is my lovechild post I have literally been g l u e d to either#my laptop or the books putting all this together. it was the Chases' hair and those damn strawberries from 2 posts ago. my labors of love#anyway not to glaze myself but isnt this post such a cutie patootie-off btwn the 3 of them?? Leo's lil 👀😮.#and the Chase cousins obviously have the most babygirl eyes to ever. that was so important to me#I'm gonna go try to be more normal now that I'm officially a week out from moving back to uni...#but I do have at least another post for this week and obviously the inbox is open#I think someone should get Leo & Magnus to be closer friends -- maybe then we'll get the chance to talk to Maggie & figure out whats up#V²AU#valhalla!valgrace#magnus chase#leo valdez#magnus chase and the gods of asgard#mcga#hotel valhalla#leo valdez responds#answered asks#art#annabeth chase#forgot to tag pookie oh no!!#hopefully context clues and tags help explain this one lol i thought it was cute
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still needs polishing, but I love him
#DIY top surgery for werewolves#this is a commission and damn I just love when people ask for something right up my alley 😁#I challenged myself with this one#having the mouth open was touuuugh#but I think it was worth it for the effect#I’m excited to see it finished#pottery#ceramics#clay sculpture#sculptural#little dude#trans art#transmasc#kiln god adjacent
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believe in my heart there some small bakery with that only didn’t go bankrupt because alec was the only one to enjoy their desserts magnus paid a ludicrous amount everytime to keep them in business
#malec#alec lightwood#magnus bane#tsc#shadowhunters#tmi#the mortal instruments#the shadowhunter chronicles#magnus never understand why alec enjoy them but he would be DAMNED if his husband get said over his fav shop closing#also do you think magnus still paying them after alec death#a way to keep what alec love in this world#and go back and eat those god awful peanut butter cocoa strawberry jam cookies and reminiscence how alec had so much joy eating them#okay now I make myself sad#this supposed to be sugar daddy magnus agenda
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I have made a stickrr
Aww, look at him! Ah, it seems like he has something behind him- But, i mean, you wouldn't want to disturb him, right? (:
It came out good for the first time i think, hehe
And of course my object show style integral oc bc she is already everywhere and i show no signs of stopping
Also yes this is my work laptop. Yes it glows in the dark. I have no shame certified
#this is so stupid. i love them.#sorry for not posting my uni-s are fking killing meeeeee im just tryyying to surviveeee~#also i changed my profile like... what is that... top picture?#it is now kinito-themed and a spoiler for something im (still!!!! T_T) working on#btw. you could say my integral oc is... i n t e g r a l everywhere i do#sorry. i will see myself out now-#anyways. real tags#kinitopet#kinito the axolotl#kinitopet fanart#kinito fanart#kinito pet#should i tag this with like object show stuff?#nah. probably later when i will post officially about my setting/ideas#of whish i have a whole damn lot#spoilers - understanding of integrals is not required. but you will learn--#i am such a nerd on my god#this fandom gave my a choice of any object or symbol in existence. and i chose an integral. even i want to bully myself#prosto cup of art
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Modern Aocorro high school au: what if Spider was a harpist in his high school orchestra and Ao'nung was down bad about it.
Spider was already your classic high school heart throb. He was popular, buff, handsome, a little rough around the edges, yet still a total sweetheart.
For Eywa's sake, he carpooled his siblings to school or rode his skateboard to school, volunteered around town 24/7, used reusable straws, he'd hand his pocket change to anyone in need, and was known for getting into fights with bullies in the parking lot.
Not to mention that he had the prettiest golden curls and brown eyes anyone had ever seen (at least in Ao'nung's opinion).
So to say Ao'nung was crushing, hard, was probably the understatement of the century, and could you even blame him? The guy was perfect, an angel, and it was driving him insane.
He'd catch himself staring during gym practice, marveling at his muscles, cheeks flushing, or in the locker room when he took his shirt off to change, his heart pounding away in his chest.
he thought he couldn't be even more down bad for that boy than he already was, his confident personality rendered null and void when he was around, his tongue caught in the back of his throat, unable to do so much as squeak at him… until the day he caught him in the orchestra room, practicing.
Now, he had heard Spider was in orchestra and had even seen him rolling around some large black case around the school before, but he'd never actually caught what he played.
But walking past that half-opened door was how he found out the love of his life wasn't only a sweet handsome hunk of a guy, but he played the harp, the instrument of an angel.
The sheer audacity of this boy was getting out of hand, he swore to Eywa, he was gonna kill him one of these days with his impossibly hot antics.
He stands and watches as Spider presses up against his harp, eyes focused on his sheet music, hair tied up in a messy bun but a single golden curl hangs he keeps blowing out of his face, and his fingers strum along the strings, working the muscles throughout his hands and arms.
The sound of gentle music flowed from the gap in the door, and it sounded just as pretty as Spider looked, soft and sweet, but still robust, still full of base and bravado. It was so fitting.
Watching Spider's face quirk with focus and frustration and pride as he worked through the song made the other's heart swoon, he swore it must be palpating or maybe skipping beats. He just knows it wasn't beating right, especially as he rubs his hand over his chest and feels how heavy it beats against his ribs.
And thats when Spider just so happens to turn to see who was gawking at him from the hallway, and instead of telling him to stop staring or throwing a pissed-off glance like Ao'nung is sure most other's would do if they caught someone staring like he had been, Spider just smiled.
"Like what you hear?" he quipped, leaning forward to turn the page of his music binder.
"Y-Yeah, yeah, you're... amazing," he choked out an answer, coughing into his fist to try and cover up the stammer in his voice and the blush on his cheeks.
"You flatter me," he replied, sitting back and looking Ao'nung right in the eye before he looked away with an even brighter smile, and it was like his skin was set on fire by just that single glance. "Are you gonna come in or are you gonna keep standing out their like some weirdo?"
"Oh, I-I wouldn't want to bother, I was j-just passing by,"
"It's free period, it's why I'm in here all by my lonesome," he puts on a fake pout and bats his lashes in his direction for show, "keep my company yeah? I'm sure you've got nothing to do if you've already spent so much time staring."
He moved his bag off the chair next to him before patting it.
"Sit," his tone was warm and inviting and his eyes were soft and almost pleading, so he did, with a deep breath, he sat next to the other boy.
He managed to be even prettier up close, and Ao'nung had to tear his eyes away so he didn't make a fool of himself. He decided to turn his attention to the harp. It was beautiful, made of a soft, warm-toned wood, intricately carved and painted with the image of flowers he couldn't name off the top of his head.
"She's a beauty isn't she?" Spider asked
he only nodded at first, before feeling the urge to touch, his hand moving before he could think better of it, but he managed to stop himself before he made contact with he wood.
"Can I?" he asked, quite pitifully, finally making his own eye contact with the blonde. Eywa save him, he was too pretty, it was unfair. He felt butterflies tickling his stomach and his head getting fuzzy. Why didn't he run when he had the chance?
"Go ahead," he answered with a huff of laughter.
He tried to steady himself as he stroked a hand down the curved wood that he saw resting against Spider's chest earlier when he was playing, feeling the warmth from the other boy's skin still clinging to the wood.
His fingers sought out the strings Spider's rested on moments ago, the metal threading bit into his flesh ever so slightly when he ran his fingers down them.
"I catch you staring all the time y'know, you're not very good at hiding it."
Ao'nung feels his heart drop through the floor and into the stone-cold basement beneath them. Fuck. He fucked up, he fucked up so bad, Spider must think he's a freak-
"It's cute."
"What?" he didn't mean to ask that out loud, but when he did, he said it far too loud.
Spider just laughs at him, gently and without malice, his eyes crinkling into almost nothing, his cheeks going a little red, his nose scrunching a little. Ao'nung feels his heart swell.
"Oh, it's never subtle, especially since you turn bright red, and the second you realize I'm looking back, you turn tail and run away like you have the devil on your heels," he pauses to wipe the tears from his eyes, "It's just cute, adorable even. I kinda like having a not so secret admirer."
"You don't think I'm some total freak?"
"Nah dude.... who's to say I'm not staring back?" he said nonchalantly.
Ao'nung was sure his brain was melting, cause he just found out his crush might like him back? Potentially. And that was just simply mind-boggling, cause, he wasn't gonna sell himself short, but he never thought he could be on Spider's radar.
They hung out with different people, and he used to be an ass to his siblings before he transferred to be here, and sure he apologized and made up with them, he always seemed to hold a bit of a grudge.
"You are?" he had to ask.
"Mmmmmm, maybe a little," he replied with a cheeky grin plastered on his face. "I will admit, at first it was because I was trying to make sure you weren't being an ass, but, things might be changing."
Ao'nung nodded to himself, clearing his throat, trying to decipher what that could even mean. Was Spider saying he was starting to like him too? did he have a shot with him?
"Listen, the bells about to ring, so why don't I give you this," he pulled a pen from the spine of his binder, tearing the corner off of one of his sheet music, which felt oddly intimate, and wrote something down on it, before handing it to him.
It was his number. Spider just gave him his number.
"Text me? we can start gettign to actually know each other, and maybe you could start joining me in here during free period, I could give you some lessons on the harp if you'd like?" now Spider sounded a little sheepish.
Which somehow made Ao'nung feel a bit more confident, so for the first time in seemingly forever, he answered Spider with some level of confidence.
"Yeah, I'd like that, I'd like that a lot."
"Good, good, I'd like that too."
They were both smiling now. The bell rang. They both hesitated to break eye contact.
"I'll text you, promise." Eywa, he was making promises. Already. He really was a hopeless sap. But it felt right when Spider huffed a laugh at it, a hand coming up to cover his smile a little. He was flattered.
"You better, stalker," Spider laughed, finally starting to pack up his stuff.
"Rude," he faked a gasped, lingering in the door, knowing he had to get to class, and he needed to let Spider pack up so he wouldn't be late himself, but wanting to let the moment last just a little longer.
"I think staring is rude, but I think I'll give you a pass, so long as you stop running away when I catch you, deal?"
"Deal."
"And you have to meet me here tomorrow."
"I will, it's a date," the words slipped out of his mouth without thinking about how it could be interpreted, "oh, not like-"
"It's a date" Spider repeated.
Ao'nung found he could only nod. It's a date. Even if it wasn't like that, it was still nice to think about. a date with an angel.
"Now go, before you're late, wouldn't want you to get in any trouble." Spider crossed his arms and jutted out his hip like he was some disappointed mom or something.
"Right, bye Spider."
He waved goodbye. It was corny and childish, but he waved. Spider waved back. He had his number clutched tightly in his other palm. Spider had his phone clutched in his hands as if he couldn't wait for the message to come any longer.
"Bye Stalker."
He has a feeling he's gonna have to get used to that nickname, but as he rounds the corner, his chest still feeling warm and full of butterflies, he doesn't think he minds all that much.
#this was so random#but I loved the harp back when I was in highschool orchestra and fought to play it myself but failed to get the funding for it#(harps are so expensive oh my god)#and I really think it's an instrument so fitting for Spider so I projected it onto him#and I have aocorro brainrot at the moment. so I wrote this.#when Spider called Ao' dude. he really meant “future boyfriend”#writing romance is not my strong suite so I don't know how good this is#and Ao'nung is surprisingly hard to write#so idk how I feel about this#ending this felt impossible#it wouldn't just come to an end#even when there was nothing else to write#Spider was making a move. this kid had been staring at him for weeks and acting a damn fool. he was putting an end to it#and how to pop that conversation on a guy other than to wait till his guard was down and he was moments away from a heart attack#they're just silly#avatar 2#avatar the way of water#spider socorro#miles spider socorro#miles socorro#ao'nung#aonung#aocorro#tigerseal#seamonkey
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what if i said hal's mom called him "hally" specifically as a play on halley's comet, huh. what if i said she did that because she knew no matter how far he went, he'd always come back to her, hm. what then.
#and then he wasnt with her when she died FUCK#jessica jordan#they could never make me hate you#hal jordan#green lantern#empyrean posting#i do think it's extremely fucked up how they diminished and rotted her character post spectre. i actually hate it so much#i dont really mind the rewriting of martin as a /not/ absentee and abusive father (even though it cheapens the complex relationship hal had#with him what with the being his mirror image and wearing his jacket and becoming a pilot in spite of how martin treated him. constantly#seeking validation and love from a man who not only would never but then could never give it to him) but then going on to act as if jessica#wasnt his most important parent just by virtue of her being his only one for most of his life and going on to say she was actually kind of#bad because she wouldnt support him when she looked after three sons by herself and also begged the air force to take him back when he was#about to be dismissed is sooooo. god. it irks me so much. she was always there for him and she may not have been perfect but she did her#damn best and now they go around acting like martin was the only REAL figure in hal's life growing up because they understood each other on#some special cosmic level?? go to hell.#talking to myself sorry
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Fuck you I’m right
#with this I've peaked#I will never meme harder than this#it's been a fun ride but everything after this is downhill (/j I'm joking)#also wow this is how I trick myself into loving Nexo Knights#I already liked it but I wasn't crazy about it or anything#god damn it it's Chima all over again (g o o d)#ninjago#lloyd ninjago#oni lloyd#ninjago crystalized#ninjago crystallized spoilers#nexo knights#clay moorington#nexo knights clay#put way too much effort into this#the artist in me would expect nothing less uvu#my stuff
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*gulp*
#god DAMN IT#I have no more shame I am fully indulging myself#WOOFWOOFWOOF#BARKBARK#love and deepspace#love and deepspace sylus#lads sylus#l&ds sylus#l&ds
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Remember when I said I think of Nathan reading Toki to sleep in order for me to fall asleep? This is what I'm talking about when I say that.
#metalocalypse#toki wartooth#nathan explosion#toki agere#toki age regression#toki wartooth age regression#band dad nathan#this took me three days and i am not 100% in love with it but im pushing myself out of my comfort zone to create#i wanna make shit god damn it#agnostic priest is a real band btw#and yes they are reading the velveteen rabbit because i love that story and so would Toki
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@heydevi bro...... fellow understander...... still not over ur gmod solkat theyre so hrhgrbhggfngh 🥺🤲
#fhgghg i love infecting spreading the disease#slkt literally makes me so ill i'd randomly bolt up in bed like#oh my god......... its. so crazy raw to be abruptly left silent in a room full of your formerly loud and chaotic friends#now reduced to a litter of mere corpses. freshly killed and still bleeding they'd died for such trivial reasons#and all you can do is cling to the only other warm figure in the room who's wounded and unconscious but thankfully breathing#the other lone survivor...... mind blank with panic you drag him with you and fucking run#they're insane. i think abt them every day and still shock myself w how insane this ship is#slkt's relationship around fatalism and mortality is unlike any other hs pair it's actually funny they get dunked on so much by the story#bcs when shit starts hitting the fan they're always trying so damn hard to make their deaths count
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I feel like there needs to be more popular Aro rep
#aro#aromantic#for One: Representation is important#and Two: I would have LOVED to have seen someone like me growing up. and I probably would have figured myself out sooner#and being aro would have been easier to accept I think if I saw examples even in fiction#like yes great I appreciate characters like todd from bojack horseman and Georgia from Loveless#but damn I just wanna see one mainstream just Aro character god blez#not to say they couldn’t be like bisexual or something i don’t really care what their sexuality would be#JUST GIMME A CANONICAL ARO GOD DAMN IT
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