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niredsw · 3 days

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okay here goes nothing please dont be mad at me for this afterwards

i am so fucking tired of feeling left out in every. single. friendgroup. i'll ever have.

i just cant stop thinking "what if they hate me secretly" "they probably laugh behind me" "they probably talk about how annoying and stupid i am when im not there" and this one is pretty stupid but "what if they have another groupchat that im not in and they talk there all day and thats why they never talk to me" i know people said it a million times but i really cant stop thinking like this.

(you have every right to be mad for this part its not even a big thing why am i sad over this)

just today a new friend of mine decided to co peletely ignore my existence and talk with another friend of hers, and thats okay, really, she has other friends and i have other friends aswell, its okay. the thing is i went to her class to talk to her and she just walked beside me, exitted her class and went to mine to talk with her another friend. i know im short but like she shoul've seen me right? i dont know this feels so stupid when i say it out loud

then theres the server, dont get me wrong please i love every one of you so much its just im not active 24/7 and that makes me feel left out. there are certain people who are active all day or people that are loved by everyone and even if they wont answer for days everyone is always having fun with them, i know im not the best friend a person can ask for but i'm really trying my best and i just want to be loved the same amount as i love people, do i really want so much? its really stupid, really, but fuck it no one would probably even see this so fuck it we ball

today when the staff was talking about if we should invite someone or not, everyones opinion was asked, the people that didnt respond were tagged, but i wasnt. this is really really stupid but it just made me feel horrible, like i didnt matter

yeah i know its pretty stupid.

im just too scared that people will lost interest in me one day and i'll just be forgotten, ignored, not important anymore. im so scared we will have a huge fight over something stupid i said and never talk again, then after a few months someone will mention my name and people will just say "we were friends once, never liked her anyways"

i know its really stupid its just how i feel

i fucking hate my attachment issues. i spam people a lot amd then get sad when they dont respond, and i dont even know why i do it myself

im just an obsessive idiot whos always scared of people leaving her. but i never realize how annoying and stupid i sound and then i get sad when they leave me, even tho the signs were super obvious that we were drifting away

im sorry this is stupid i dont need any help i just needed to scream to the void

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no-face-no-shame · 6 months

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Everything's fine as long as I'm trying. Slow progress is still progress :3 ← about to smash his head with a hammer

#my uni i killing me #and i know ppl around me are tired of me #because i lag behind and i'm confused about my tasks #and everyone is annoyed at me and they think i'm stupid #just because i'm a bit less talented when it comes to technical skills #i shouldn't even be studying computer science. i'm an artist #uh every time i think i'm no longer depressed i'm painfully reminded that depression is untreatable #the weather is getting better but i'm not. and i can't even look forward to the easter break #because i have another round of idiotic exams before it #vent #faceless

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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 1 month

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tumblr post: "maybe negative selftalk is bad"

response to the post: "you pop psychologists and your 'don't talk about killing yourself or you might "feel bad"' rhetoric... who do you think you are to tell me what i can and can't say about myself. i'm actually so much healthier for being honest about my feelings than you are and i'll say i wanna kill myself for every minor inconvenience if i want to >:("

#literally seen two posts like this today and like. while i'm not gonna stop saying i'm gonna kms. i mean look at my url #it's insane how much you guys are committed to not getting better LMAO #i don't necessarily think it would immediately make you better to change how you talk abt urself but who knows long term #and i had problems w the og post too dw. i wouldn't be a hater if i didnt have problems with everything. it was too theater-kid-ish for me #but the point remains i think everyone is kinda of annoying and stupid

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navree · 1 month

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"it's always hating on rhaegar for rhaenys and aegon's deaths never tywin" because rhaegar was their father and had a responsibility towards them that tywin did not, stay in school

#personal #anti rhaegar targaryen #fandom critical #like one it's because tywin's blame is very uncontentious #it's just everyone and their mother going 'yeah he ordered it' and agreeing that he sucks for it #i have my thoughts on tywin's culpability (mostly that i do believe he didn't mention elia if only cuz she never crossed his mind)#(as he's a raging misogynist and i do believe that he was annoyed that lorch and clegane were as brutal with children)#(since it's not the best pr)#but it never extends to a lack of culpability on tywin's part #meanwhile rhaegar stans (why does he have them? who knows couldn't be me i'm normal) wanna pretend like this isn't his fault #when it IS #he was elia's HUSBAND! he was rhaenys and aegon's FATHER! it is his JOB to keep them safe during a war HE STARTED!#rhaegar had a responsibility to do whatever possible to ensure the safety of the children he chose to bring into the world and their mother #instead of going off to fuck a girl the same age as most high school freshmen!#rhaegar chose to abandon his family to the care of his violently crazy and racist father #who he knew was violently crazy and racist #unless he was dumb as rocks he was not unaware that no matter what this was not going to end well for elia and rhaenys and aegon #but he did it anyway and that does make him culpable for what happened to them #he had a responsibility to all of them ESPECIALLY his toddler and fucking baby and he FAILED that responsibility #and it is his fault that they were murdered #that is on him #it is not solely on him it is also on aerys for not letting them leave the city even once the cause was doomed #and it's on tywin for ordering their deaths and on lorch and clegance for doing the killings #but it is ALSO on rhaegar not just for creating that situation but abdicating his duties to his family to be a fuckass predator #this is like sixth grade reasoning honestly #i think some of you are just incredibly stupid

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eclaire-went-bam · 4 months

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bcs i'm aware of how i automatically percieve people, i earnestly try to give the benefit of the doubt a lot. i tend to believe people are Actually Just That Dumb™ when they're joking about something, so i try to get ahead of that & tell myself people are joking when they say something stupid, so that i don't look stupid

all i've learnt in doing that, is most of the time, people aren't joking. they actually did mean what they say, & i made the situation 10× worse by laughing at what they said.

not only does it reinforce the idea in my head that people are Dumb so i need to take the reins on literally Everything, but it also leads people to believe i'm making fun of them for saying something silly & talking to me less, when, if i knew it were a genuine thing they thought, i would have gladly explained it without judgement

but i don't really know how to stop treating them as jokes, because what if they ARE joking so they laugh at me for how Stupid i am for taking the bait? i can't handle being made a fool of, i think i'd rather die

#this is in part bcs my father was like this all the time i believe #i'd talk abt one of my special interests & he'd deliberately say something stupid about it #so that he could laugh at me whenever i explained how it actually worked #a lotta ppl in my family tend to pretend to be dumb around me actually. so i gave up on talking abt science special interests #i do have personal gripes with words like “stupid” & “dumb” so know in my head i Know they're toxic & have ableist connotations #but my automatic kneejerk reaction to things is to think Stupid even if i don't say it bcs of the constantly devaluing of everyone around me #everything's a competition. don't lose or show your hand and things will be better for you.#don't give people a reason to think you're incompetent. isolation is better than risking danger & ridicule so long if it's isolation because #you're on a higher plane than everybody else.#or something like that #it's not that deep #npd #narcissistic personality disorder #cluster b #autism #bcs i cant with tones #i guess this may be a fine way of looking at things on the internet with strangers bcs bait is rlly annoying #however when it comes to interpersonal relationships irl and online it's a problem. especially when logically you KNOW your circle doesn't #rlly have anyone who pretends to be stupid to you so they can laugh at you. i think they will anyways.#if anything *i* tend to be like that to people i like less. i pretend to be stupid abt something so they can mansplain it to me & i get #silent supply off so easily having control over what they're feeling towards me & what they're doing even if they think They have the reins #in the discussion. tho i won't view it as making ppl take the bait & i won't openly mock people #i'm a hypocrite

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sodafrog13 · 1 month

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man both femininity and masculinity feel like such a fucking prison sometimes this shit sucks

#the trash speaks #if i could get rid of it all i would #can't be too femme bc then everyone thinks i'm a girl which i hate #i can't even approximate being masc enough bc everyone just assumes i'm a butch woman bc i don't look or sound masc enough #but i don't want to be on hrt bc it just sounds so fucking annoying for me specifically so i don't wanna bother #blow it all up why don't i #turn me into goo instead so i don't have to deal with any of this stupid bullshit. god #maybe delete later

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yusuke-of-valla · 4 months

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Also sorry to be in an increasingly pissy mood today but I'm also tired of everyone saying every game should have the popular feature du jour

#'everything should have a roguelike mode' I don't care and I'll bite your nose off #sorry I don't mean to sound like a hipster looking down on the popular thing like #I understand if people like it they like it and no one should let me being an asshole stop them #I'm just. so annoyed about things. I wish Pokémon would get better at what it does instead of trying to be everything else #and I feel stupid for not liking things everyone else likes because the reason I hate roguelikes is because I suck at them and I hate #action games because there's too much going on at once for me to follow what's happening #and I'm no matter how hard I try I can't git gud #and even games where I think I'm being clever are apparently to easy so #whatever ignore me #again I'm being a bitch

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arseniccattails · 10 months

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btw every time someone suggests a solution to a community problem is to 'read Whipping Girl' you should actually read something by bell hooks instead, or, failing that, any decent social theory by an actual sociologist or academic in another social science.

#this will fix everything #the worst offender is 'wow I'm really annoyed by this trend I haven't realized stems partially from Whipping Girl.'#'we should all read Whipping Girl about it.'#< fastest way to show me you're either a liar who hasn't read it or an idiot with no reading comprehension #ac speaks #like. there is so much gender theory out there that isn't one mid book from 2007 #why has everyone chosen it as their fucking gospel #if you think masculinity and feminity aren't innate or inherent serano disagrees with you.#if you think transmisogyny doesn't mean 'the worst version of transphobia' serano disagrees with you.#(not that people can't use the term in ways that Make Sense or Advance Good Ideas but this book is stupider than most of you realize.)#transgender

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numberoneanika · 3 months

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Honestly the roleplay blogs are stronger than I am because if I saw a post where people were saying my blog was annoying and calling me corny I would jump in a large pit and rot away

#I don't think I should tag this one #Okay I've typed my emotions out. For a more normal way to put it: While it makes sense to be upset #best move. I'm sure the blogs in question would be happier if you just told them about the roleplay guidelines than if you made a post #where multiple people call them annoying. Like can you imagine if someone said that about a writing blog #'So sick of x reader fics in the tag I don't want to see that and they're all so out of character' What a dick move.#It is a different case with rp blogs I'll give you that. But I think the principle of the matter stands #unless it doesn't and everything I said is stupid #original ramble below I was so mad for some reason. im not mad at anyone really. everyone is cool. love you guys #I get why people are unhappy that theyre clogging up the tags #like despiar dev said not to and people want to see content of despiar thyme not just ask blogs #I saw someone say they just blocked them and like. I get why. however. people do not know everything #but my brother in Christ you're not helping the matter!!!!!!!!1 send them a screenshot of what despiar dev said!!!!help other people!!!!!!!#just politely tell them instead of weirdly vague posting it helps everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe they just don't know #misspelling the tags so no one finds this post. I will actually be so pissed if people find this and r upset #Oh I'm sorry THIS is the post you're noticing? You have followed me for over six months and you haven't said anything about any other negat #negative feelings i've expressed. I see how it is #I wish the drdt confessions account was still open but whatever fucking whatever #sui mention #personal vent #whatever I guess

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mymarifae · 2 years

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my favorite trans girl in the whole wide world isn't she so beautiful and pretty and special i love her dearly and i think prsk fans should explode

#apparently i got so mad earlier that i didn't finish blocking the person in the prsk tag using he pronouns for them #and i just saw it again and i'm so fucking annoyed #how do you see mizuki face blatant transmisogyny on a day to day basis and think it's actually because their fashion sense is too 'weird'#BRO mizuki is primarily bullied at school. where everyone is wearing a goddamn uniform #she's singled out for wearing the girls uniform when she's 'not supposed to' this has nothing to do with their girly kei/lolita fashion #don't 'japan has a cultural problem with individuality and westerners are missing that context' me that is NOT what mizuki's story is about #IN. THE SLIGHTEST.#i don't think i've ever seen a stupider way to purposefully misinterpret transmisogyny. you're Really going to say it's because they-#-have an 'unusual fashion sense.' like. really? because no the fuck they do not and you're being obtuse on purpose at this point #it's a blatant trans narrative. accept it and respect it or die

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vse-kar-vem · 6 months

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how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)

#sorry tumblr is like a diary to me idk what i'll do w this blog after i (sigh) inevitably move on #either way #im convinced everyone hates me again :3 but realistically no one cares about me even enough to hate me im just stupid and self centred 💔#if anything me TYPING these posts is actuvely turning people against me #again with the assumptions that people care enough to read these 😭 fhskfbhsjfkg #i hate that i care so much what people online think of me cuz irl it's like. whatever #but here there are so many cool people who i admire and would love to be friends with im always hyperparanoid of everything i do #and still i manage to overstep and come off as annoying #like obvs you're allowed to hate me even if you're someone i look up to like that's your perogative #but i hate worrying about IF anyone hates me #oughgh this is easier irl because usually people send off pretty clear signals if they dont like you #but online (esp with how prickly this fandom is) i don't know whether im being insecure and reading into things or whether people just don't #like me (which again is fine i would just rather know if anyone gets it)#i figure art is the one way i can get people to like me 💔 which sounds kinda pathetic because irl i KNOW im liked and capable!#fandom has just become such a big part of my personality that i cant detach my self worth from it #and i do love art and drawing and such i hate that even if i know people my stuff EYE dont and it doesnt mean anything or act as a signifier #of my friendships #wow .... i really am my own therapist ..... i should shut up #the industrial revolution and its consequences (jofandom)#i think these posts are half self exploration half ... almost self harm? because sometimes im so derogatory about myself on purpose in a #'you're worthless' way. but at the same time it's cathartic and i always feel better having probed at my feelings and gotten them in order #not to do a complete 180 but it's MY post and JO LONDON IN *12* DAYS!!!!!!!! AHH i'm sooo excited if it doesnt live up to my expectations i #may cry a little. and there will be another vent post from me !#sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads these 😭#vee rambles

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killa-trav · 5 months

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the travis can't read shit is so fucking jarring like why do ppl act as if this man is the dumbest person ever

#when ppl realise that being intelligent isn't just academics #that will be the greatest day of my life #literally watch travis play football #the bills 13 second drive #all the plays he makes to get free #his ability to run a different route in a split second to get free #and literally everyone speaks so highly of his intelligence of the game #like so many ppl have said he's one of the best when it comes to helping others #but noooo bc he made some spelling mistakes on some tweets #n struggles to read he's apparently thick as shit #sorry it just annoys me bc i'm quite similar #in that i'm smart but not in an academic way in a critical thinking kinda way #n i struggle to read n spell but i'm not stupid #also yeh his emotional intelligence #is through the fucking roof

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roscoehamiltons · 9 days

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nobodybetterlookatme · 9 days

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Once again, my favorite part of my job is pissing off my medic and ruining their day lmao

#not snz #i love being the world's worst partner lmaoooo #i was actually vibing this time bc i didn't feel like ass #which is worse for everyone around me tbh bc I'm very annoying and i know this #and I've had the jardiance commercial song stucj in my head for months now #so you can imagine what i was humming to myself all day #that's my jam like i think I'm the only person who actually likes that commercial lmao #but my partner wasn't having any of it lmaoooo #i don't hum loud and it's usually at least somewhat loud but we sit right next to each other #so after the first few times it clicked and he looked at me and goes 'that better not be fucking jardiance'#and i confirmed it was and he groaned so loud like bro it ain't that deep lmao #but then he started tapping along with it so he couldn't have hated it that much #also i absentmindedly wiggle a little when I'm vibing with a song whether it's out loud or in my head #and i don't realize half the time but sometimes my partner starts doing some stupid little dance with me or attempts to make fun of me #most of my coworkers do that actually and i think that's iconic of all of us tbh #anyway i also always come prepped with stupid questions to pass the time #you know probably a red flag that i was doing none of this last time LMAO but oh well #today i asked if cheese is a loaf of milk which i asked out of nowhere when things were dead #and he was quiet for a few seconds before saying 'wtf is wrong with you' bc he couldn't think of an answer lmaoooo #i love the bullshit i get up to ahdkaksjak #also i am once again on call bc the entire state is On Fucking Fire so that's fun

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dangerous-disposition · 10 months

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You ever get hit with RSD so strong you just have to fucking listen to metal music real loud in your car in the grocery store parking lot until you calm yourself down

#Just feeling a lot like my friends have no use or interest in me now that I haven't produced anything fandom related in months #And that everyone whose ever said they love my writing just lied bc all they care about is when I'm writing fanfic #And that my OC writing is annoying and the lack of interest outside of like 5 people proves I'm actually a shitty writer #I think I'm about to menstruate again and that's why I'm feeling such big emotions over stupid fears #Like idk someone said they “missed my writing” and I've been... Posting stuff #Just... Not fandom stuff

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hxllhxund · 5 months

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FUCKKKK!!!! Why do I have to ruin everything?!?!....♡

#just girly things #I WANT TO BE PERFECT #the universe fucking hates me and probably everyone else #WHY AM I SO FUCKING SLOW?!?!?!#I feel like I'm always thinking and talking about myself even if I'm not and IT PISSES ME OFF!!!#I should've been born like everyone else #That first concussion I got should've just fucking killed me #I'm a fucking burden to everyone. I'm annoying stupid invasive like a parasite and could look a WHOLE lot better than I do.

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