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taimanzano · 3 months ago

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One of one. One, alone, one.

#my stuff #transformers #maccadam #orion pax #d 16 #d 16 x orion pax #megop #transformers one #megatron #optimus prime #megaop #I spent like an hour today reading poetry and getting mad at dumb stuff SO that's why this exists. Sorry for the lame poetry #I did what I could with the meager words i have #also english is NOT my language and i much MUCH prefer poetry in spanish #anyway I don't draw the tf1 versions of these two cuz it's so hard man #so many details #this took a couple of hours cuz i still refuse to take more than 2 hrs per page... and I'm forbidding myself from using anything but black #ok good night #si está pitero está pitero ya alv

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tuliptiger · 1 year ago

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Ventttt below. Read at your own discretion it's not a nice one

What if I just finish outfitting my car to get rid of internal moisture and heat somehow without killing me in the winter and never have an actual home or property. Because the only way I tried isn't working out and hasn't been for aboutttt 2 1/2 years now and it's kind of making me want to be somewhere else at this point.

I don't want to be. At or in this period of my life anymore. It's literally dysphoria but it's dysphoria for the the me I am right now, the resources I have right now, the very situation I find myself unable to escape. It's the utter rejection and disgust of myself and my current life that I can't stand to be in right now.

I need to go to sleep because it's late and that's when the devils in my brain are strongest but that's a very good summary of how I've been feeling the last couple years. Dysphoric of my life and who I am that I cannot escape from.

"Summary. A dysphoric mood is a consistent state of profound unhappiness and dissatisfaction. Symptoms can include discontent, irritability, stress, aggression, and feelings of anger, guilt, or failure."

#words #and by be somewhere else I mean #fucking die I'm so over this entire process and I hate the bank and I'm mad at my mom #and I'm mad at myself #and i feel trapped and I'm just mad #2 1/2 fucking years one really fucked up contractor and shit construction job #that we have to foot the bill on until probably 6 more month #$20000 dollars to this jackass who didn't know how to nail 2 boards together #only to get a really good and nice contractor who is doing good work #but is doing it in the winter and I'm getting to the point I can't afford him anymore and #it's making me sick #ive never come so close to throwing up before because of emotion but here i am #I can't wait until i get to the point where i need to tell him to stop working on the house because I can't afford to pay him #literally can't wait #it probably will make me vomit that time #god i want to fucking not be #here #i don't want to be here at 27 #i dont want my mistakes to compound #i dont want my life to be cumulative #or maybe i do and its not #or theres nothing to show for it #im still a rotten human being who can't stand to be around anyone for extended periods of time #i dont have anymore money #i still dont have my pets #my grandpa is dead #i dont have any kind of security other than my job #and i fucking hate the agency I work for AND it's not really secure either #like #what am i doing

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freyadragonlord · 2 months ago

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I found this meme chart and I SawTM them.

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somewhereincairparavel · 3 months ago

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gentle reminder that jason has striked a god with his blade causing him to bleed, when the god was INVISIBLE, simply based on the movement around him.

#underrated jason moment part 10000000000000000000000 #before y'all yap this is MAD skill I'm sorry bc cupid was INVISIBLE #jason is so slept on #y'all just collectively ignore these huh I'll just dig them out of the depths myself then #“jason just got lucky and it was a fluke” comments are probably incoming but i will ignore them #i am what you call 'the screenshot puller' in arguments I don't play when it comes to jason sorry not sorry #pjo #pjo fandom #percy jackson #pjo series #pjo hoo #pjo hoo toa #jason grace #house of hades

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darkacademiboy · 8 months ago

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originalartblog · 1 year ago

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Apparently much-needed reminder that reposting artists' art (by saving the images or screenshotting them and reuploading them yourself) on other platforms without the artists' expressed permission and without credit is theft and an insult to their passion and craft. You are profiting (in views, in attention, in feedback) from someone else's work and ideas, who do not get that feedback for sharing their creation.

If you are an art reposter, you are a thief and I have no respect for you.

#learn basic internet etiquette i am begging but also holding a knife. yes i'm mad. more about others than myself.#do you know how many artists i have seen leave social media because their art started being reposted all over?#tip: way too fucking many #i've had many people tell me about people reposting my art on tiktok #no one ever asked to repost my art on tiktok. ever. they just save super fried bad crunchy jpegs of my art and repost them #they get 20k likes and don't even bother naming me #also a reason i started signing my name more legibly and why my blog web address is always there but apparently no one can even read that #a few people got an ok for translations on other platforms though #i'm going to be annoying with this post and reblog it a few times to try to catch the people who apparently need to be told #tiny skk adventures #nawy's comics #nawy's doodles #apparently those are reposters' favourites so here look at this

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 22 days ago

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Happy Birthday to Fallen London; My favourite British people beefing it with bats simulator.

#fallen london #ambition: nemesis #mr.cups #Happy belated birthday to me: I finished my Nemesis ambition. I get to make a fun comic about it. THAT WAS THE DEAL!!!#...Is what I would have said had I not spent *four* days trying to draw a cool dramatic comic. This is all I have to show for it.#I also missed posting this on the Flondon anniversary so I'm double Smad and frustippointed at myself.#This is niche content but I know there are flondoners following me who will understand.#I had to make a second account because all my friends who I played with *also* picked Nemesis and dropped the game at various gates.#I failed every possible check at Knifegate. I was on the verge of madness. And yet I still love this game.#Little known secret about me: over 70% of the blogs I follow on tumblr are flondon rp blogs.#The cool art and character lore brings me a lot of joy!#With that said; what the hell is the coincidence that right as I finish Nemesis -#The flondon community starts a Nemesis Race.#Guys. it’s not worth it. It is a revenge quest about losing everything you have to see your task through.#All to culminate in the discovering that you are beefing it with a fanfiction writing bat.#That said; I do feel like this story was very satisfying for my melancholic doctor.#I knew I would get the choice between sparing or killing my nemesis (the bat) and I had a long time to think it through.#Someone who wants to save lives and (does as much as possible to do make things better for others) choosing against mercy?#Someone who never permitted themselves to let the city truly become a home because they were not a person - they were a tool for grief.#Alright..Yeah the ending was really good.#I will be back with a part two. Clearly I'm tenacious enough to commit to what I started.#If I am not excommunicated on sight by the flondon community I will be back with comics for the other ambitions.

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egophiliac · 10 days ago

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so glad we finally get to see the clowns in their full clowny glory

#art #ride kamens #friends at twilight park #i know i have taken Liberties with their outfits but this is my third attempt at this and i am on the verge of madness #it's been a time over here sorry #i gave myself the new years event off and just did login stuff but now i gotta remember how to get back into it :')#i'm gonna EAT the chaostone versions of haruma and mikami's cards...

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manny-jacinto · 11 months ago

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SWANN ARLAUD + LETTERBOXD REVIEWS Anatomy of a Fall (2023)

#anatomy of a fall #anatomie d'une chute #swann arlaud #vincent renzi #filmedit #flawlessgentlemen #dilfgifs #dilfsource #*#me: this man better not awake something in me #my brain giggling: oh baby girl you are in for a ride #i am SO mad at myself. i'm so predicable sometimes #the review in french says: whoever decided to put swann arlaud in a turtleneck for 2h30 deserves an award by itself

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dootznbootz · 3 months ago

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Odysseus: "I need her to be Mine~" Athena: "...I can introduce you two." Odysseus: "What? Really?! Wait, you know her?" Athena: "Uh, yeah? You think you're my only pet trickster? You just said she was the 'smartest girl in the game', you think I'm gonna ignore that? I'll be right back."

Meanwhile~

Penelope: "...So...The guy who has been watching me from around corners before running away is also one of your favored mortals?" Athena: "Yes, I'm sorry, he's usually a lot smarter than this." Penelope: "...Eh, You know I've had stupid moments too. I'll go say hi."

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t00thpasteface · 12 days ago

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every so often i see such an insane opinion on this site i immediately go to the dash and hover my cursor over the text post button to make a post about it and then i have to tell myself "the first person to get mad loses" and then i do the right thing and stay my blade

#i'm blessed to not get Actually Mad at fandom opinions these days; usually this sorta thing just occurs over like irl topics #i have to remind myself that my post about it would do nothing and neither did the original stupid post i'm mad at LOL #in this case it was a very very stupid very pathetic pro-ai-art post that just made me barf at how ''uwuuuu poor meeeee'' it was being #shebbz shoutz

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apple8ees · 10 months ago

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@comicaurora art that started as a very specific au-related bit (hint: drawfing) but turned out really good?? watercolour brushes for fire effects are my new favourite

#comic aurora #aurora comic #aurora webcomic #aurora fanart #also i'm mad at myself suddenly for calling the file aurorot when tarora was RIGHT THERE. SMH #dainix aurora #dainix #e.png #digital art #originally the “sun” in his head was going to be much more stylized #but that looked bad. therefore! firey ball of gas

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fluffydeoxys · 2 months ago

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3000 cycles (i missed you)

#madness combat #_myart #2bdamned #madness combat oc #i drew this saying to myself ah i won't colour it #(2 hours later) hmm okay well. guess i did colour it #there are a few details that i'm really proud of and i think this represents their relationship well #oc: zero

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finzphoenix · 2 months ago

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Drawing btaa 'crow again!

Every time I draw something for myself, I feel so bloody guilty. Like, shouldn't I be working on commissions right now, especially since I quit Patreon earlier this month?? Why am I still drawing whatever when money is tight anyway? I have a responsibility to my family, yet here I am, doodling stuff that brings in zero income. Gods, I'm so egotistical, what's wrong with me --

#I'm just so mad at myself

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whatisr3alityy · 11 months ago

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"it's that Jay guy"

It was my brother the whole time..

How could such a monster make me forget..

My own twin brother

I almost cried throughout this entire process guys

#sketch #art #marble hornets #artist #artwork #digital art #marble hornets fanart #color #jay merrick #jessica locke #mh jessica #marble hornets comic #whatisr3ality #angst #ough #I'm so sad and mad at myself lol

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deoidesign · 5 months ago

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Thinking about vampires, death, life, and the space they occupy in between

#to be or not to be. that is the question #ty adam for being my model for dramatic vampire moment #musings on the thinkings about:#when to live you are required to hurt others. you must repeatedly ask yourself what the value of your life is #To sleep... perchance to dream...#ah. THERES THE RUB.#ok I actually couldnt come up with too many thoughts. I had a lot more while I was drawing this but I guess I put them in the painting LOL #reading that soliloquy and being like damn this is just like vampires #the reality of course is that the soliloquy is a debate over suicide and ultimately making the choice to live #even if just out of fear of the unknown #and vampires are about dying and then in undeath choosing to continue to live #despite the fear of eternity and loneliness and hurting others #theyre not the same. but like let me thiiink come onnnn I'm allowed to thiiink and have incomplete thoughts #I would have to write like a proper essay about this to organize my thoughts. this is the tags on a tumblr post.#anyways finished episode 79 #working on patreon stickers for this month (and next month soon)#and working on book 4. taking a pause from episodes cause I've got 3 weeks of buffer now... UGH #I'm so mad that they changed it. it would have been 5 weeks before but it's fine it's whatever #anyways yeah taking a break from episodes to make my book now!#its good stuff.#and this painting is good stuff #banger after banger from me tbh #this was a little relaxing giving myself a couple hours to muse #it's necessary for my health and I always forget that til I do a painting...#I loved doing the little landscape in the background too I should do that more! I love how plants are just like whatever shape you want #like you can make up any plant you want and not only does that plant PROBABLY exist somewhere #a weirder plant exists somewhere too. so. literally whatever you want #ok bye again for a few days while I get back to work

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