#and I thought I was just broken
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I miss writing
#I have this weird memory#my dad has a literal personal grudge against Richard Nixon#which like. who doesn’t right? but my dad isn’t concerned abt politics at all really he’s a midwestern normie with anxiety and addiction#but he f*cking HATES Richard Nixon with a passion#so much so that he made this art piece (lmfao😩😭💀)… that’s this half gold plated rusted frame with a U.S. stamp of Nixon’s face in it#and it took him literally f*cking forever to make this I REMEMBER#like years practically idk (I was little)#anyway I asked him once… something like ‘oh why’s it taking so long)#and he gave some convoluted answer abt like. him being slow at art and taking his time#and also gold plating being hard or smth#lol#but I never understood it until now#for me… writing is like. hard labor. I slave over every word. every sentence. I really do!!!#it’s my greatest passion yet the hardest most challenging thing I do#and now that ive improved so much and I’m getting better#ITS TAKING EVEN LONGER#and I thought I was just broken#but I remembered this… thing? this art piece?… and I realized. i guess it’s just in my dna#to be this……. goddam… afflicted by creation#ANYWAY I also just don’t have any ideas atm still#and I have anxiety so the ideas I do have I hate#but what I am working on… feels like plucking strings#idk why I just typed this out#anyway I’m still here I wanna get better I wanna post again#thank y for reading of u did. no worries if u did not. totally wack LOL but I guess it needed to come out#bye.#caitie blabs
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'The cage is open. You can walk out anytime you want. Why are you still in there?'
#Homelander#The Boys#my art#for the record - I hated the 'You could have broken out of here any time you wanted' line#not because I thought it was poorly written#but because I found it painfully accurate#'If it was so bad why didn't you just leave. If you hated it so much why didn't you just tell me to stop.'#rot in peace Babs. I'm glad you didn't get any Fudgie
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She’s just like me…. SHE’S JUST LIKE ME FR!!!!
#chappell roan#….but she’s just like me though#thought I was Demi in highschool and welp turns out I really am#gotta agree with op feels nice not to be alone#demisexual#Demi#feels really nice to not feel like I’m broken or something#me yapping
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If you ever needed to know the extent of how the I/P conflict is fandomized, there is a popular post going around with a Sailor moon sticker saying Free Palestine and all the comments are talking about how it's their aesthetic and they totally need to buy it
Because this doesn't matter to them, it's just the cool hip and trendy thing
#and here i thought i could just return to talking about magical girls when WanPre comes out#seems not#seems no matter what goyim can freely talk about fandoms and make my life a fandom#while i need to defend my existence and feel if I talk about anything else I'll be invalidated#fuck goyim. my trust has been broken. I'm never returning to fandom again#mango rambles#personal fruits#jumblr#ישראבלר#ישראל
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at least it'll be wonderful while it lasts.
(a little post-game downtime discussion, when they have the time and space to talk about these things. also in my canon, scratch gets to stay. :/)
#baldur's gate 3#bg3#bg3 tav#astarion x tav#tavstarion#oc: finch#my art#bloodoath#finch always thought his life would be short either from being a half-orc or taking up his oath#and although his former partner shook a lot of that pessimism loose#caution's death sort of flushed any hope finch had for himself of being anything but a means of vengeance#until of course he found himself surrounded by/in charge of a bunch of sad brainwormed fools#and was suddenly like oh these are people. i used to be a person too. i... i care so much about them oh holy shit#but i think even AFTER the netherbrain he sometimes can't shake the feeling#that he's expendable#that by upbringing or by profession he is the exception to the rule of being loved even if you're broken#he's got time to sort himself out. they both do#but either way immortality just isn't on the table for him. he's TIRED
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Obsessed with his brain
#read a fic where he had to eat someone in the basement to survive and I am... obsessed#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#dale dimmadome#fop dale#idk ask to tag#art#digital art#fanart#blood tw#cannibalism tw#ed tw#In my mind his relationship with Dev is crazy. Because he wants to love Dev so badly but he is just. incapable of it.#and it makes him hate himself#On some level he thought seeing Dev would fix him. That he would feel all those things a dad is instinctively supposed to#and it would prove he wasn't broken. That deep down hes still human. that he's still capable of love just like everyone else#.And then he didnt. and he had no idea how to deal with it#In a way hes kind of scared of Dev. Dev makes him feel so uncomfortable with himself. so he just kind of avoids him.#Which um. thats your son sir you cant do that.#I love dale but he should absolutely not be a father. He is just not built for it
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More minibatch adventure I need a full show maybe too XD
#star wars#star wars the bad batch#the bad batch fanart#tbb fanart#star wars fanart#I like them for once ^^#Trying to complain less in my tags haha#now time forrrrrr#my liffffffffffffe#I went back to the dentist today#I thought she would only deep clean my tooth and be done with it#NO#she actually reconstructed my broken teeth#I WASN'T READY TAT#me : hi#the doctor : ok sit down I'm gonna start by using a needle again to numb you#me: “the what”#It was scary all the way#me the whole time: “the bad batch had it worst you can do this”#BUT my teeth is saved now???#for a reasonable price?#bless#I'm just not ready for the two days without eating 'cause my mouth aches TAT#sight#at least I can drink#water#but still
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[Day 156]
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#dddaily4sherin#grian#goodtimeswithscar#desert duo#secret life#secret life smp#traffic smp#trafficblr#my art#not much to say about this i just thought it was a cool idea#also heart broken brush makes a return!!!!! i still really like it HELPEKWHAH I CANT CHOOSE A BRUSH TO STICK WITH#and LIFE SERIES DAY TMRRRRRR💥
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SHE WILL BE MISSED!!! 😭💫
Awesome till the end, yes she was!!
#UNFAIR I TELL YOU UNFAIR!!#YAGI DIDN'T EVEN GET TO SEE HER AGAIN!#HEART!! BROKEN!!#... but when you read the manga...#STILL!! I WANT HER ALIVE!! FUCK THIS!!!!#just kiya's thoughts#kiya reacts#bnha#mha#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#bnha season 7#bnha spoilers#cathleen bate#cassie bate#star and stripe
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i keep seeing sad posts talking about "may castellan making sandwiches every day waiting in hopes that her son will return" and.
guys.
there is no hope for may castellan. she is not waiting at the door with lunch and a tentative smile, waiting for him to come home even though he didn't yesterday, or yesterday, or yesterday, or yesterday. "in hopes" implies that there will come a day when that hope fades. in hopes implies she knows the odds are bad. in hopes implies reality will eventually catch up to her.
there is no hope for may castellan.
she is not waiting in hopes for her son to return. she is preparing, day after day after day (after day after day after day after day after) for the inevitability that luke will return to her. she does not know he is dead. she does not understand he is gone. she does not realize that time has passed; to her luke is nine, still. to her she is still placidly awaiting to return of a fourth grader. luke is not nineteen and betraying his camp. he is not twenty and housing a titan. he is not twenty one and watching his friends get slaughtered in an arena, twenty-two and forcing his sister to hold up the sky, twenty three and realizing, soul shuddering in his chest, that he has made a mistake he can never take back, that he can never undo what he has done.
luke castellan to his mother is a child who has not yet lost all his baby teeth. the cookies she makes for him are soft, because she remembers that. he still leaves the crust behind on his sandwiches. he has scrapes on his elbows and dirt on his nose. he flinches before he hugs her. he spends a lot of time outside, but he comes home before dark.
may castellan's tragedy is not that she is penelope waiting for odysseus to one day return and we know that he will not. may castellan's tragedy is that she does not understand her hero has left at all. may castellan's tragedy is that she will never understand, and she will continue to age, and continue to deteriorate, and one day she will die and she will spend eternity walking the dying poplar fields, whittled down to the memory of something missing from her.
there is no hope for may castellan.
#the tragedy of the broken mother will never stop wrenching the heart from my chest.#to remember that for a moment sally was may#but unlike may she still had the Sight#and she knew that her son may not come back.#sally waiting for months at the window swallowing the grief that he may be gone forever#and may never gets that.#her broken Sight means that she does not see he is gone.#and sometimes i wonder if sally thought of her. on quieter nights. or nights when it rained.#wondering if this woman across the country was also by the window#watching the lightning#and smelling the lemon cleaner from the room she just cleaned#and holding her son's hoodie to her chest#only at least sally is holding a hoodie that still fits her baby#even if he is a corpse somewhere.#anyways.#pjo#percy jackson and the olympians#luke castellan#may castellan#my writing
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I get the criticism of the Hunters of Artemis from a narrative perspective—it sucks that it essentially boots interesting female characters out of the story—but it always baffles me when people viciously hate Artemis for *checks notes* doing damage control.
Like. Thalia explicitly goes with Artemis to avoid the prophecy, and I definitely think that’s the reason Artemis tried so hard to get her to join—hell, you can view the hunters trying to recruit Annabeth as a way to get Thalia to join. And Bianca? You can’t convince me that Artemis didn’t guess there was something up there and react accordingly.
If Percy or Nico were even a little bit girl-adjacent you bet your ass she would be all over them to join. No one actually wants to risk the Great Prophecy happening, and Artemis is doing a hell of a lot more to stop it than anyone else.
#riordanverse#pjo#percy jackson#Artemis pjo#hunters of artemis#crack fic idea: Poseidon and Zeus have broken the oath several times before Thalia Jason and Percy. Artemis has just been hauling ass across#the country each time it happens. they have been so fucking lucky that their kids have been girl or girl-adjacent so far.#Artemis gets her info from Apollo (who gets pinged whenever a new potential prophecy child is born)#the hunters weren’t at westover to hunt thorn or even recruit Thalia. they were ACTUALLY there because Artemis got a text from her brother#like ‘lol the di angelo kids are out of the lotus hotel’#and Artemis is like gods FUCKING damnit hades I thought we had an understanding#OTHER fic idea: Bianca joins the hunters in the 30s and Nico goes to the casino alone#OTHER OTHER fic idea: Artemis can tell people’s gender sometimes before they can and now she has to crack trans Percy’s egg before she turns#sixteen so she’ll agree to join the hunters and put the prophecy off once again.#anyway. this has been my defense of Artemis.#eli rambles#eli writes
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Shen Qingqiu, after being taken as a captive in Binghe's palace: I can have anything I want? Fine! Then I don't want to see you! Ever!
Shen Qingqiu, after Binghe complies with his wish and doesn't bother him: WHY won't he come and see meeeeeeee?!?!? This protagonist is nothing like the gongs in Meimei's books!!!! WHY DIDN'T HE LOCK ME AWAY TO HAVE HIS WAY WITH ME??!? WHY IS HE RESPECTING MY BOUNDARIES!?!?!!
#anqels ramblings#eva.txt#svsss#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#bingqiu#he was sulking so hard#like he really thought binghe wouldn't listen to him#but bingbing is a respectful boy <33 (except for the time he was trying to scare him but shhhhh that doesn't count)#i mean sqq was also actually mad at him for lying to him. and for attacking cqm.#but I genuinely don't think he meant he never wanted to see him again#he just said it in a fit of anger after having his heart broken#i really need to reread this part if I want to do a more accurate analysis#i'll probably reread it in august to celebrate 2 years since reading svsss. i wanna try and read it in 3 days like I did the first time
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The Nurturing Queen and the Greedy Duke
Credit to @sky00asara in this post for this idea I love guys who are moms (if you get what I mean) This will follow the same rough story beats but will still have a little of my own flair.
The Nuturing Queen, Mother of the Wandering Princess and Erratic Prince, has been said to provide protection and inspire devotion to all who come across her. Praised as Balance and Duality personified, she is a large influence and very commonly mentioned in every scroll, book, art piece, and all magic artifacts that Constantine has seen. He's heard from so many beings of how great she is, her feats, and her being the largest connection between the Unknown Realms and Earth.
Here comes the problem. The Nurturing Queen has an enemy who's been around just as long as she has, who's also been seen not long after wherever she goes, chasing her trail and lurking. The Greedy Duke. He wishes to have her as his own, and take the throne to himself, subsequently plunging the Unknown Realms into chaos. Whenever he confronts the Nurturing Queen, legendary battles commence, and he is beat back.
But now, things are going wrong. The Lazurus Pits have been reported as acting, well, erratic. The Erratic Prince, some beings say, has been seen discussing things with the Greedy Duke. They fear his loyalties may not lie with his family.
A shift has been felt in the magics community. Unknown Realms Beings have ventured into Earth, either out of curiosity or to wreak havoc. Now, at the watchtower, JLD work out how to summon a being and demand to know what's going on, the rest of the Justice League desperate.
When they finally do summon one, they're launched into the Unknown Realms as an answer, told to "Find our Queen" as the being dissappears. They're on a floating island in a green void.
#dpxdc#Dcxdp#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#danny phantom#danielle phantom#dan phantom#queen mother danny phantom#good parents jack and maddie#redeemed vlad#you may notice I love making titlesTM#Literally so fun to make them up#The translator is broken.#Because the guy who worked on it infinitely ago was a bit distracted.#He thought he saw a cool ghost bird.#Gender is very much optional for ghosts.#Ones that came from a living person just have it internalized#Concepts were more concerned with woah I exist holy shit I can do things what the fuck#Clockwork has sent the 3D's on many time travel missions.#The Infinite Realms are known as the Unknown Realms to mortals for obvious reasons.#Vlad is also sent by Clockwork separately.#Lots of people have seen Danny and Vlad disagree and bicker. Certain opinions are formed.#Vlad's mannerisms make him look. Well...#Danny's fine. Vlad just needed to take over for him since he had to focus on schoolwork for a bit. Or maybe something else. It's up to you.#Continuations are accepted and loved.#btw sky if you read this I absolutely loved the painting. Loved it. 10/10 would look at again.#Misunderstanding#ghost king danny#shenanigans
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Hello may 31th anon! Look at that, another year behind us and a new one to come. Have a nice day! ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡
#may 31th anon#hello friends!! (。’▽’。)♡ how are you!! I missed you so much!#I'm sorry that once again i have not been posting but I did that thing again where I got scared of posting#I do not know why but it is the same with physical paper diarys#I have 3 diarys and they all have 1 entry#I think one just says 'I am ten'#what have you been up to!! did you do something fun? is it summer too where you live? c:#my tumblr messages seem to be broken! I'm sorry if you wrote something :C it just says 'no new messages' despite also saying new messages#not a lot has happened here! I got a tomato plant and then I got very invested into the tomato plant and I have eaten three tomatos so far (#my roses are also doing well!! I just got a new yellow rose and since she got here she only made orange flowers#I do not know the meaning of that#but I am very thankful! ( ˊᵕˋ )♡ I love it when things are orange!!#I've been trying to buy an orange shirt for the past 2 weeks but they always sell out before I get to them#I'm also thinking about buying a jean jacket#I have not worn a jean jacket for at least 15 years because one time in 7th grade tthe girl behind me said#that I was wearing a cool jean jacket and I just assumed that this was bullying for no actual reason#but maybe she just thought that it was an acutal cool jean jacket#we'll soon have out 10 year school reunion#maybe I should ask her#is anyone else going to a secret Sherlock phase again#I just want to see that silly little hat again#would sherlock holmes wear a jean jacket#have a nice day everyone!!#see you soon hopefully!!#♡^▽^♡
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#song lan#a-qing#xiao xingchen#xue yang#The scene where Song lan sees Xue Yang is supposed to be dark and dramatic but there's something about the whiplash of emotions-#-that makes me lose my mind!! That's *HIS* bestie!!! Back off bitch!!#Poor guy wandering around for years looking for his amiguito only to find him with the guy that split you apart in the first place#XY wasn't even trying to flaunt it on purpose. He was just vibing with XXC at the wrong time.#I also love A-qing for being quick on the uptake that these two are so similar its practically like a mirror image.#This also mirrors song lan's first/last appearance with the bff sundae. XY finally gets his revenge (having a domestic life with a bff).#((XXC has no idea what the t-shirt says. He just needed a spare. I like to think XY sewed and embroidered it personally))#I will get into my xue yang thoughts more later but...man I will always wonder how things would have gone if song lan never showed up#xxc never should have run away (out of shame for causing SL harm). It was always going to cause more harm...#Dont worry SL. XXC still misses you. Some bonds cannot be broken even if time and distance pull you apart.
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Really wish aro and ace weren't so closely packed together all the time, like I get that a lot of people are both but I really think its important to talk about them as two separate things as well and not just as a package deal
#just having a lot of thought rn#aromantism is very rarely talked about alone outside of aro/ace conversations#and if i had heard of it earlier in my life it would have helped a lot#instead of feeling like i was broken or weird and grasping at straws about something that came so easily to my peers
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