#am i talking to my self. . .

[peanutseagle]

imagine being obsessed with drawing your crush haha couldn't be me 💕

[dreamerdrop]

Julian Bashir walks a very fine, maddening line between “self-loathing imposter syndrome who knows almost everyone who speaks to him for more than a minute finds him insufferable” and “incredibly self assured and annoyingly arrogant to the point of a minor god complex”.

He knows he’s attractive, he thinks he’s charming as all hell, he knows he’s the smartest person in the room (while also being acutely aware he’s going to put his foot in his mouth any second now), and he just swings wildly between “I don’t deserve anything I have, none of this is mine, my life is not my own, I am a monster” and “HELL YEAH LOOK HOW COOL AND SMART I AM GUYS ARE YOU LOOKING ARE YOU LOOKING”.

And then there’s episodes that reveal that underneath that annoying arrogance, at the very core of who he is, he really, really just wants to help people, and if he fucks that up he WILL take it personally and hold himself responsible even if there’s no way he could have known and like. Can you imagine what his first patient death was like for him. Can you imagine what a fucking nightmare his brain must be 24/7.

He is somehow as inherently self assured as he is in need of constant validation for his ego because you can SEE him break a little when that ego fails him, even a little, and it’s just.

He’s very fun to write. I hate him. (I love him so much, but oh my god.)

[hinamie]

もう一回、もう一回

[bytebun]

my piece for @thecodywanzine! thanks to the mods who let me go completely ham and cheese on this bad boy. this one's about living longer than you ever expected and not knowing what to do with it

[behindheterochromiaeyes]

introverts be like

[clinicallyinsanedumpsterrabbit]

So I may have got The Book of Bill and it has me in a slight tiny itty bit of a death grip hyperfixation where all I've been able to imagine is his pathetic toxic ex ass

This pathetic triangle has once again parasitically wormed his way into my brain after years of absence

Also he totally would try and gaslight Ford and say he probably just lost the shirt when he stole it if ever asked where the shirt went

Ok so I could've put a ton of things in that last, panel, so I did, with some joke suggestive ones as the last two below the cut

I'm going to explode him with stock video explosions a bajillion times over

[housecow]

growing up fat (although i was a size 16 at my highest weight until college), trying on clothes in stores was honestly traumatic. i remember being unable to find anything that looked good, breaking down in changing rooms and leaving crying

nowadays though i get excited at the idea of trying stuff on, whether it fits or not :3

[bell-cloche]

Caught up to en book 7

[sillygoofyqueer]

SY transmigrating as one of Wan Jian’s Pangolins.

*Cracks my knuckles* Aw hell yeah. Shen Yuan sliding into life as a pangolin, utterly confused as to where he is because - no matter how much he has read PIDW - a passing comment about Wan Jian's peak does not make it into his huge memory when it comes to Luo Binghe. He's chill with just pottering around and being nosy, deciding that he must be in some sort of xianxia book because there's all the typical customs and terms of address. It's obviously some form of mountain...and a forge...so a weapon making mountain! Oh. OH WAIT- Nevermind, this is fine, he can just escape - IS THIS AN INSIDER'S LOOK AT WJP?? HE NEEDS TO LEARN MORE ABOUT EVERYTHING. The first thing he learns is that anybody and everyone will pick him up if he totters around people, especially the peak lord!! Wei Qingwei is a monster of a man, but he's so kind and he gives THE best chin scratches, AND AND he lets SY hang around his shoulders like a scarf of sorts, because pangolins' shells mean they can't be affected by the heat of the forges. It's also helpful because WQW is a softie and will bring SY along to peak lord meetings n shit if he whines and snuffles (or something) enough, clinging to the man and nuzzling into his face. He learns SO MUCH from the meetings, and...if he hobbles around on the table and charms the other peak lords while he's at it, then that's just something he sort of does. (A schedule is eventually created where WQW allows SY onto another peak for a day so that everyone gets a chance to hang out with their favourite pangolin).

[miutonium]

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[hephaestusshield]

anxiety. anxiety feels more like a biiig heavy rock on your chest. you try to breathe, but it's quietly impossible. your only thoughts are blurred, you can't think rational, everything is your enemy. it's impossible to stand and you feel lonely, but not in the normal way. you think you are the only person who can hear you. you are screaming on the inside, and sit still on the outside. that is what anxiety feels like for me.

[cheekylittlepupp]

Divinity | Human Warlock | The Great old One

[notbecauseofvictories]

I'm cautiously gearing myself up for a conversation with bff where I tell her that we need to recalibrate our relationship, and....I genuinely don't think I've ever had a serious, emotional conversation with someone I care about before.

I've never been a Conversation Haver; I tend to take the approach that people can't significantly change without meaningful reason, and since I am not and never have been someone's Reason, I cannot prompt change. Therefore, my choices are (a) live with what is; or (b) end/limit the relationship.

But....this is my best friend in the world. I do love her. I just can't keep on as we've been going, where it's less a friendship and more ten minute intervals where I talk about my life, after which the focus switches. I once sat in a bar for two hours waiting for her; afterwards, she asked if I wanted to stay in her hotel room like I didn't have to get up in another 5 hours and drive to work. She texted me during my recent trips, and when I said I was traveling she asked no further questions. Said nothing unless it was about what she was reading, what she was doing. I'm not even sure she realized I was traveling at all, just unavailable to her.

I can give a high-level summary of her PhD thesis. I'm not confident she knows where I work.

Truthfully, part of this is that we simply have different social styles....but still. Coming back from my family trip, I said I was tired and trying to get work straightened out, she should go ahead and plan something for the holiday! I was free! Only for me to text a week later....and promptly have her join me, for my previously standalone plans. Oh, and she asked me to bring my camera, because she wants headshots for her new job.

I still love her very much, but if this is the kind of relationship we're going to have? I need less of it.

[irisbaggins]

Honestly, I feel so incredibly validated this episode, specifically with K's speech to Tabby. I mentioned it on this post (where I talk about K and their Atlas Complex), but this only further cemented that idea in my head: K works so hard to seem like they have control, that they're more experienced, that they're self-reflective and intelligent. They want to seem like they're more emotionally intelligent, when in reality they're not, because they're a teen who tries to take on every injustice in the world. Them admitting that they're saying all of this to Tabby because they cannot word themselves to Evan is so heart-breaking, because I recognize that behaviour. They cannot get any of those words out to Evan when they're talking to him, which leaves only the words they don't want to say, the things that will hurt - whether that is Evan or K themselves - and not the things they want to say.

Erika plays K so brilliantly, and I cannot help but shout them out for every episode that comes out. Maybe it's the fact that I was just like K when I was younger, but I find K such a compelling character that I just want to dig my teeth into. Erika always plays the most fascinating characters, and I adore the way they combine both speech and body language to act out a character.

It was just an amazing episode, y'all.

Also shoutout to Carlos Luna for his acting as Tabby, and the bloody callout he gave K came through the screen to punch me in the nose.

[actual-changeling]

yes i am obsessed with touch-starved crowley and aziraphale being touchy and needy and clinging to each other.

yes i am ALSO obsessed with post-divorce era hate sex with as little touching as possible because they have capital I Issues TM and are suffering because they're still touch-starved.

we exist

[dumbfucksystem]

thinking about mafia shen family au. the system is fucking around with shen qingqius life again and is like yk what if ur not gonna tell your husband anything about yourself then ill force you to. have fun! :D

sqq doesn’t even have the time to think 'wtfff??' before Everything Happens. shen yuan’s soul gets shoved back into his original body just moments before he dies. in this version of the au he was choking on food, so he gets the lovely experience of having his airflow blocked again! lucky for him, the system dragged binghe along for the ride so he is saved before he dies again.

this route for mafia au means that the shen family never had to grieve shen yuan. im not sure how the Family reacts to their a-yuan suddenly having a very strong and intimidating significant other (boyfriend? husband?!??? wdym he got married without telling us!?!?) all of a sudden. does shen yuan come out to his family?? no, but also yes, but also not really. they knew he wasn't straight this entire time, so its more like they are coming out to him instead of the other way around. god knows they have bigger skeletons in their closets, they don't care if a twink is in there too.

there is less angst here, and it mostly centers around the comedic factor of shen yuan showing binghe around his house only for them to "stumble upon" an entire closet filled with guns..!?! shen yuan is just standing there in complete horror as binghe grabs a whole ass ar-15!?!?? hes looking at him with the most innocent eyes asking him what this strange metal object is. jesus fucking christ. his white lotus is holding a gun and now he has to explain gun control policies while his brain is leaking out of his ears. he opens his mouth right before an alarm starts blaring everywhere. he’s saved by the bell! except not really, because now six members of his Family are surrounding them and pointing several guns at binghe!!!!! what the actual fuck is going on here!!!!!! this is not how the 'meet the parents' arc is supposed to go!!