#also: MD is a gremlin

[trash-gremlin]

His ass is not named Robert

[insertcoolnameherethanks]

My mother has decided she does not like Psych because Spencer is "too arrogant and lies".

My mother has also decided she likes House because House "while arrogant, tells the truth"

[littlebouncybunnie]

CAN I HAVE A CAREGIVER FORD HEADCANNONS PEASEEEEE

-🍄

Absolutely, Friend :3

Caregiver Ford Pines Headcanons

The most he'll let you see are fairies, gnomes, and occasionally unicorns (from a distance because he doesn't get along with them)

He doesn't take his kiddo on monster hunts, but he will take you on a walk in the woods with him to look for bugs, birds, or plants. If you're not into any of those, then maybe he just takes outside on a walk with him, but you gotta hold his hand so you don't get lost

He strikes me as the kind of Caregiver to water down your juice so you take in more water and a little less sugar (boooo /j)

He keeps a cabinet full of just stuff for you, like sippy cups, pacifiers, blankets, toys, movies, etc. The same day he found out you were a regressor, he did his research, and went out and bought a bunch if stuff just for you because he wanted you to be comfortable

He absolutely holds you in his lap if he's working and can't play at the moment. He'll just work around you

Unfortunately you're not allowed in the lab in the basement, it's too dangerous. He tries his best to stay upstairs with you, but if he has to, he'll get Stan to babysit for an hour or two, but he comes back as soon as he can (don't worry, Stan adores you)

With anyone else he's insecure about his hands, but you get the special privilege of being allowed to play with his fingers as long as you're gentle

He lets you wear his trench coat :3

He reads out loud to you! Whatever book you want, he'll read to you. He starts off not doing the voices at first, but the more he reads, the more he gets into it and he starts getting into character

He will make sure you eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner. He may even feed you himself, depending on how young you are

He'll prepare snacks for you :) He'll cut up bananas, strawberries, apple slices, etc. Most of your snacks are fruits or vegetables, it's usually Stan that sneaks you sweets

You get lots of cheek and forehead kisses, he's very affectionate

He sits with you until you fall asleep, then he'll turn on your night light <3

With how extra he made the Journals, he's definitely an arts and crafts person. This applies not only to doing arts and crafts with you, but he also hand sewed a plushy just for you that matches your favorite creature out of his journal

You get nicknames like munchkin, gremlin, troll (if you're a mischievous kiddo), prince/ princess, or sweetheart

He carries you around on his hip if you're young enough, but if you're a toddler/ middle regressor, he'll hold your hand

He absolutely will play pretend with you. With how much he got into DD&MD he definitely has a wonderful imagination and he'll make the game fun no matter what. He always gets into character

If you're having a rough day, he'll sit and rock you in his lap, speaking quietly and gently until you're feeling better or fallen asleep

For Neurodivergent or easily overstimulated kiddos, he's almost always got headphones and a fidget toy on hand. He's always prepared <3

[zoyo14]

dont kill me pls

uh, controversial opinion, i didnt like the MD finale

[spoilers/ranting]

now dont get me wrong, i feel like the ending was fine, but the trip to get to said ending? ehhhhhhhhhhhh..

the animation is like, the greatest, prob the greatest in the entire series. however, the writing for that episode feels under cooked. like, theres too many plot holes, too many lose ends, the pacing is absolute dog water.

but the biggest issue? N and Uzi's personalities changed. Uzi reverted back to pilot emo gremlin, and N turns into strictly Uzi support with PTSD.

like, idk, i feel like N really didnt do anything, like, you could prob remove him from the episode and it would be more or less the same. and if you look at the merch?

feral N? decapitating J??? i dont think N earned this, that didnt happen. im 99% sure N doesnt even lay a finger on J that whole episode, the most he even interacts with J is writing the "I O U one spaceship" note. like, the N that was teased and shown in the merch vs the N in the actual episode is not the same person. [no i dont mean that literally]

Vs stand? she 'died' fighting the sentinels, Uzi's? she sacrificed herself fighting the solver/cyn, N's? he didnt do that, eldritch J doesnt even show up in the finale, N doesnt really even fight outside of supporting Uzi and V, none of the DDs even get X visors for that matter.

alot of the characters feel useless i think. like, khan doesnt really do anything, nori doesnt really do anything, thad and lizzy, N, hell, even J. this episode just kinda boils down to Uzi vs Cyn with strong support from V. wouldnt be so much of an issue if Uzi hadnt had her time to shine in episode 7 aswell, like, everything before this was building up for N to take a grand stand or something. he should be PISSED at Cyn, everything and everyone hes ever loved got stripped from him because of Cyn, he literally DIED for Cyn back at the manor, only to watch as himself and V are mutilated and transformed into the DDs, and he gets dumped on a planet where hes abused by J for god knows how long, and when he finally starts to stand up for himself, make a friend/lover in Uzi, reconnect with V, they end up 'dying' right in front of him, FOR him aswell.

all of that stress, all of that fear, all of that anger, and what does N do when he gets back to the surface? sees J working with Cyn? sees Cyn literally destroying the planet? hell, even comes face to face with Cyn?? he just stands there in fear. weve seen N push past his fear before, weve seen N confront Cyn before, so why now is he just standing there? or the one point in the fight where he stops because Cyn flashes a picture of a dog on her visor, like, that shouldnt of have stopped him. thats the person he should hate the most in the universe right now, giving him second thoughts over a png of a random dog. like, huh???????

N also never gets a resolution to his literal years of CONSTANT abuse from J. the only time N lays hands on J is episode 2 with eldritch J. who fights J the whole finale? V. whos pissed at J for betraying them? V. but whos decapitating J in the mural? N. huh? what? why??? also this is a minor nitpick, but in the ending where N yells "THATS MY GIRLFRIEND!!! :D" that doesnt seem like an N thing to do, like, N is a very humble character, he doesnt come off as the type to brag about having a gf.

not to mention Uzi, omg. i think in the finale Uzi is just being a dickhead. for example, when N recovers her he openly says and expresses that hes angry at her for what she did, and what does she do? she headbutts him and calls him a bitch. now lets consider V. what does she do upon finding out N is alive? she apologizes profusely, UNPROVOKED.

what does Uzi do upon seeing V is fine? she makes a deadpan comment about how shes happy V is alive. now tbf, she does look back and give a genuine smile, just to say like "hey, im being serious tho", but like, still, damn Uzi.

another thing i dont like is how serious moments keep getting ruined by jokes. every time something devastating happens, you either dont get time to process it before gets resolved, or the tension is destroyed by a joke.

N getting his core ripped out for example, the second i started to panic, like "OH GOD CYN HAS N'S CORE-" his core is back in his body and hes fine after like 10 seconds. every 'fake out' death in that episode doesnt work, because it gets resolved in literally 20 seconds or less. but i feel thats more a result of the serious pacing issues in the episode.

the episode is 20 minutes, whatever, but keep in mind, MD: Intermission, THE FAN EPISODE, is about 21 minutes long. thats right, A FAN EPISODE MADE BY A COLLEGE STUDENT WAS LONGER THAN THE FINALE. WHAT????????

overall i just think the finale comes off as incredibly rushed, hell, even the merch seems rushed. now im not gonna point any fingers, but certain items seem kindaaaa, ehhhhhhh [cough cough, cat V plush, Cyn plush, and random sticker sheet that just uses the animatez box art]

but yea, thats my 2 cent about the MD finale, overall im prob gonna forget about that episode and go read fic rewrites or something

[rippeanuts1950-2000]

OKAY SO, a while ago I had a very bizarre crossover idea while I was half asleep that seemed entertaining to me when i got more sleep. Anyway, the crossover is for Grojband and Murder Drones. Weird combo I know, but hear me out.

it would be a human au for md with Nori being Kin and Kon’s triplet. I feel like it works a little too well than it should.

She’d be super close to the band but wouldn’t be a part of it. She’s just hanging out, giving constructive criticism on their music, and helping them get the diary from Trina. I envision her as kinda like the band’s publicist and helps them stay out of too much trouble. However, my girl is a chill gremlin so she wouldn’t be above tormenting Trina.

Her relationship with each band member I like to believe would have some fun dynamics too. I think she would be great friends with Laney, constantly correcting the boys when they misgender her.(i.e Corey saying, “Boys and Nori” to get everyone’s attention and Nori responding with “Boys, Nori, and Laney.”) Nori would tell her, “The two brain cells gotta stick together.” She’d also hype Laney up when it comes to her crush on Corey and she’s definitely listened to Laney rant about Corey being oblivious.

Her dynamic with Corey would be chill gremlin and adhd gremlin. You cannot leave these two alone together because if you do Nori will hype up Corey into doing something stupid. She loses the brain cell when she hangs out Corey though, so she’ll also probably be doing something stupid. She would affectionately call Corey the blue haired idiot and he in turn would call her the purple haired nerd.

Her dynamic with Kin would be two geniuses who respect each other but also piss each other off repeatedly. She has to constantly tell him not to try and take over the world. He calls her a buzzkill for it. But the two do help each other a lot with projects. Kin would really care about his female triplet. He just would show it in weird ways, like giving her a cd of whale sounds and book to decode dream meanings after an argument. Nori would in turn go to the dump and get him the pieces he needs for his most recent project or just broken things people have thrown out that she thinks he would like to repair.

Kon is basically her best friend. The two are super close and Kon knows everything about her and she knows everything about him. She does find his obsession with cheese odd though while he finds her obsession with drones odder. Nori is totally against Kon’s crush on Trina but when he starts to like Konnie, she’s like “oh that makes sense.” More than once these two have pretended to be giants with the tiny soaps together.

Oh! And she would meet Khan at one of Grojband’s gigs! That would need to be another post though which I will probably do even if people don’t like this crossover. This is fun!

Hope this makes some sense and was slightly entertaining! You can send me asks about this, I’d be more than willing to explain more if you’re interested, I kinda want want to info dump about this crossover lol

[lanawinterscigarettes]

I'm in this discord server for this specific fandom and lately I have taken to live reacting in our "other media" channel and the past few days it has been all about House MD. Or specifically Wilson being lovely, Wilson being a little gremlin shit when he steals House's guitar in like season 3 (i think its season 3).

I mentioned that one funny tweet about people with big brown eyes. Wilson has big, dumb, brown, cow/doe eyes and I cannot say no to him so when I saw your reposts about the same subject, I was giggling and kicking my feet. HOW DOES HE HAVE SUCH PRETTY EYES?

Okay that's enough from me now. I am also the anon about the cute Wilson request, in case you didn't know lol.

No but fr though, he has absolutely no right having eyes that damn big and mesmerizingly beautiful. I completely understand why House let him get away with being a quote "manipulative bitch" so often (and tbh I too am giggling and kicking my feet whenever I see anything about his big cow eyes)

Anytime Robert Sean Leonard has played a character who's meant to be some kind of antagonist or asshole (Cruise in Ground Control, Demille Blye in Driven and Claudio in Much Ado About Nothing to name a few) I find it so hard to take him seriously, because his attitude is awful but he has the biggest, kindest eyes out there that cancels everything negative about his personality out

[bazzys-md-corner]

OC Posting #5 - Orion!! (Reference)

TWs for this post: Depictions of scarring, mentions of trauma, PTSD, and injury, mentions of partial disability (deafness), chronic emoness, being an eepy little guy

As promised in my last boy best friend reblog, I bring a new OC!!!! I was forced to complete yet another trio and I brought a chronically tired, yet again disabled character in classic "I can make them worse" fashion sorry gang (I'm not sorry 🥰🥰)

Most of his lore is written on his page on my Toyhouse, CaramelizedCat, but I'll summarize some stuff here.

Orion is 16, goes by he/they pronouns, and is best friends with his cousin Nova (owned by @/z0mb1eloz3r) and a chaos gremlin named Angie (owned by Emmie)!! When he was 10, a murder drone broke in and fired a missile that nearly killed him and his mom, but both survived (I chose to be nice and leave his parents alive for once). His mom is paralyzed from the waist down, though.

Aside from the scarring and replacement arm (that isn't gay Finley he just wanted to make it look pretty!!!!!/j), he's also deaf on his left side, and sustained core damage that leaves him constantly tired and struggling with a lot of physical activity. He does have PTSD from the attack, as well.

In conclusion I love him a lot and hopefully won't forget about him like I did my MD sona thank you for coming to my TEDtalk/j

[xitsensunmoon]

For the ask game: why these characters in particular? (You give me vibes of Hazbin hotel and [I haven't seen you like it but I think it fits you] Murder drones, so that's why I'm curious) And, if you want, the number 19 ♪(´▽｀)

Why these characters in particular?

Ough, they fit into my pattern I guess. I always was into sunshine and gremlin characters, especially if they're paired together.

And you're absolutely right haha. Was obsessed with Hazbin for more than 4 years, have tons and tons art with it too. Lost interest because of toxicity of the fandom. Murder drones was my much shorter obsession for couple of months I even have a side account here just for MD. Lost interest for personal reasons. But I still do love concepts that both show introduced and adult animation shows in general<3

Do you think you'd actually get along with the dca if you met them irl?

My answer probably leans more to a negative one. I do think that I would find them both annoying haha</3 Sun is a very intense anxious mess and doesn't make any sense sometimes, while Moon is a gremlin bastard(there can be only one gremlin bastard and it's ME👹👹). As much as I love them as characters I really think they would drive me crazy together lmao. plus I also think they would find me too bold of a person to be friends with me lol

[aionions-iqlauk]

yo an murder drones au( kinda)

so I keep have a stupid idea of combining MD and lethal company you know where they collect junk and shit.

also I had a thought about you know when people say that N,V,J are kinda also part organic (or something) I thought of Protogens where they are built with organic and robot features

So here’s where this au plays out my oc (crow or something I don’t have a name for him yet) is apart of this company in a crew of about 5 or so.(lethal company ) where they get stuff to sell and they travel with a self flying ship. But my ocs are more of being more similar to Protogets like having tails and claws. i feel like they would have to be way stronger then workers/murder drones because THEY have to fight things off to get some junk they have to sell so they can live. Also I think they will start getting used to dying a lot. Maybe there a system where like in the game you can spectate others when you die.

also here’s my goober and some info about them.

I have a thing where sometimes they might need to blend in(the best they could ) they use mimicry like some animals we have like they would take old parts (they mainly use murder drones parts) and basically just put it on themselves like some type of costume to have others to stay away.

So my character tail is based off of my creature but also a bit of a monster (from monster hunter) nargacuga because I think using the tail spikes as a weapon is definitely a very good defense mechanism.

so crow has acid spit and venom in the tail spikes( and similar to rainwing venom it can cancel each other out, like with if you get hit by the tail spikes and get venom in your hand,Crow can just spit on your hand and your ok). Also idk what the fish is called but it also have venom spikes and it lives on the ground and it’s venom is very deadly, is also a inspiration.

also you know the visor (using N for the example) when they are very predatory and out for blood. Crow (and whatever this weird type of drones/species they are going to be called) they also mimic that.

yeah so that crow for ya

also they can’t change part like protogens. They are stuck like how they are. And I feel like they would be a bit taller then we are( I don’t remember which one it was but worker/or murder drones are as tall as humans)so crow is like ranboo tall or even tall then him (ranboo’s height btw is 6,6)

this is the best example of what I mean:

Up is the reference of the design.

old design.

(I kinda base this oc off me it’s also kinda a self insert)

they are very very chaotic gremlin.

I think sometimes these type of drones can wear shoes but some can’t because of how their body/ legs are built.

also I feel like they also don’t really need to eat but only for animal/creature half. But idk. Crow favorite food is bread(sometimes fish and types of meats, yes both raw and cooked)

I also think about how maybe the creatures they are built with had memories but were just grabbed at a semi young age and were forced into this. But just like N,V,J they don’t really remember (but like in spirited away that one character says that you don’t really truly forget) so that memory is just so hidden.

also I don’t know if worker/murder drones can survive water and other things that harm computer software usually. Because it isn’t really stated (but it you think about it,they have to be. Because the workers that might be working in the caves get wet because there are water in caves like 70% of the time. And the company don’t want to keep on replacing robots that keep dying every time.)

but ok anyways these drones I made they can swim and shit, so what if they go the planet that the story takes place (just pretend there is open water sources) and they are trying to escape J (or someone)they they just jump into the water is give them a face of ‘what are you going to do about it’

also where are the animals/creatures yes I know it is stated that the air is toxic but animals and thing adapt (+ the trees are alive as I can see it) and yes I know it might too much time on the animators to make animals walking about. But at least make stuff that lets us infer that there are animals/creatures living about.

also because I made them where they can also just be their own like you know fresh from the Undertale aus he ain’t really a sans he’s a parasite and his creator asked Toby fox if they can make him his own thing and he said yes. So theses drone things can be apart of an murder drones au thing or just be their own thing.

and unlike JCJenson (IN SPAAAAACEE!!!!) this company that crow works for doesn’t give stupid codes for them so they can have their own names and do whatever they want as long they hit the quotas they are fine to vibe.

I want do something in the future where I animate lethal company clips but replace them with my characters. And my friends characters because I told them about this.

Anyways bye. :]

[paperanddice]

Pubs, breweries, and wine cellars of all kinds may attract the attention of a small, alcoholic fey known as a clurichaun. Mean-spirited and rude, these former leprechauns have descended into pure debauchery, seeking to go deep into the drink at all hours, singing off-key drinking songs and tormenting hosts and guest alike. If the drunken fey can be kept satisfied however, it will act as an incredibly loyal and aggressive defender of its new home, driving off thieves, gremlins, and pests thoroughly.

They may be quite capable brawlers despite their two foot height, but they much prefer to use some magic to confuse and distract rivals, laughing and jeering at anyone who falls under their spell. Worst of all, once the spells wear off the target is left feeling hungover (no mechanical effect of that, fortunately for you). They are very unlikely to get into a fair fight on their own, instead usually jumping in during a raging brawl to cause chaos, and limiting actual battles to single targets they're confident in defeating.

Inspired by the Tome of Beasts 1. This post came out a week ago on my Patreon. If you want to get access to all my monster conversions early, as well as access to my premade adventures and other material I’m working on, consider backing me there!

Pathfinder 2e

Clurichaun Creature 0 Tiny Fey Perception +5; low-light vision Languages Common, Elvish, Sylvan Skills Acrobatics +5, Athletics +7, Intimidation +7, Stealth +5, Alcohol Lore +4 Str +1, Dex +1, Con +3, Int +0, Wis -1, Cha +3 Items bottle of alcohol (×3) AC 13; Fort +7, Ref +5, Will +3; +2 status to all saves vs. poison HP 20; Weaknesses cold iron 2 Liquid Courage When the clurichaun drinks any alcohol, it becomes immune to being frightened for 10 minutes. Speed 25 feet Melee fist +5 (agile, nonlethal), Damage 1d4+3 bludgeoning Melee bottle +5 (fatal d8), Damage 1d4+3 bludgeoning plus Shatter Ranged bottle +5 (fatal d8, thrown 10 feet), Damage 1d4+1 bludgeoning plus Shatter Primal Innate Spells DC 15, attack +7 ; 2nd calm emotions; 1st befuddle, charm, illusory object, item facade, mending (at will), purify food and drink, sleep; cantrips (1st) daze, ghost sound, puff of poison Shatter If the clurichaun scores a critical hit with a bottle Strike, the bottle shatters and gains the broken condition. The target takes 1 persistent bleed damage, and while the bottle has the broken condition it deals slashing damage instead of bludgeoning. The bottle can't be repaired.

13th Age

Clurichaun  Weakling 1st level troop [humanoid]  Initiative: +4 Liquor Bottle +6 vs. AC - 2 damage. Critical Hit: The target also takes 2 ongoing damage. Thrown Weapon: The clurichaun can make a liquor bottle attack as a ranged attack against a nearby enemy. R: Alcohol Fumes +6 vs. PD (one nearby enemy) - The target is dazed until the end of its next turn. Natural Attack Roll Higher Than the Target’s Wisdom: The target is confused instead of dazed. Limited Use: 1/battle, recharges if the clurichaun spends an action drinking alcohol. AC 15 PD 17 MD 11 HP 14

[transkeiichi]

Pinned Post

I guess I'll make one of these... hello to the 4 people who follow me <3

I'm Logan, a 27yr old genderqueer trans man. He/him. Bisexual.

I like anime, cosplaying & sewing in general, DND, my horrible little gremlin cat D.Va, and some fandoms I'm gonna mention a lil further down

If I follow you and you read this, my only tagging request for anyone I follow is to tag sn*kes. If you have a special system for tagging triggers or animals or whatever, I will blacklist whatever you use. If you do not, I blacklist pretty much any possible way I can get my blacklist to keep it off my dash. *Note: I only censored the word here because I don't want this to be in the tags somehow, or for the stupid suggested blogs algorithm to suggest me a billion blogs about them. Is this paranoid? Absolutely, but I'm doing it anyway.

Other blogs:

Cosplay

➤hikkikoumori-cosplay

➤I also post all my cosplay on instagram @/hikkikoumori

The Adventure Zone / Mcelroys / DND

➤autisticangus

➤I do not reblog Mcelroys or any DND to my main blog

System blog

➤soundscapesystem

I like being open about my mental health struggles. Tumblr has always been a place I allow myself to be open about these since I spend so much time IRL trying to seem normal. I say this because there are negative stereotypes of those who list their illnesses in their bio, but I've decided I don't give a shit 👍

➤Dissociative Identity Disorder

➤Autism

➤ADHD

➤Narcissistic Personality Disorder

➤Bipolar Type 1

I also "kin for fun" or whatever we're calling it now:

➤Bro Strider

➤Junkrat

➤Keiichi Maebara

➤Dirk Strider

Fandoms you might see me post + #tags:

➤Overwatch + #ovw

➤Homestuck + #hs

➤Cardcaptor Sakura + #ccs

➤Other CLAMP works +#clamp

➤Higurashi When They Cry + #higu

➤Rena Ryuugu specifically + #she!!!

➤KeiRena + #they!!!

➤Zombie Land Saga + #zls

➤House MD + hmd

➤House of Leaves + hol

Other tags:

➤My posts + #logan.txt

➤Bats + #bats!!!

➤Dogs + #dogs!!!

➤My partner <3 + #ray tag

➤Narcissist posts + npd tag

I don't like DNIs, so instead here's some things that might make me fit your DNI:

➤Pro-fiction. Human beings and fictional characters are different. If you ask me if I'm "pro-ship or anti-ship" I would say pro-ship.

➤Transandrophobia is real. I've heard all the excuses to not use this word and to use a different word, but I think they're stupid.

➤Identities that seem contradictory, make no sense to me, or seemingly don't fit my understanding of that identities definition aren't for me, and therefore it doesn't fucking matter if I get it or not. Identities are for the person doing the identifying. You can do whatever you want forever.

➤As a DID system, I try not to interact with syscourse. I have personal opinions about endogenic systems that I don't really discuss publicly. I don't hate endo systems, but I do typically avoid them. I may overlook it in some situations, like if its rarely blogged about, because this avoidance is due to not wanting so many posts about endos on my dash rather than a dislike for the actual person behind the blog. My opinions are more nuanced than "valid or not valid" and I don't care to get into it any deeper than that with a complete stranger.

[trash-gremlin]

uhh since i never did an introductory thing here's some things abt me (fandoms, likes, tags)

you can call me anything tbh. i watermark all my art with nightingale, so you can call me that, or the names of my sonas - Icarus and/or (The) Captain ^^

Fandoms (in order of most active in):

hatchetfield

hazbin hotel/helluva boss

starkid

spirit animals

in space with markiplier

x men

spies are forever

fnaf

pokemon

the hunger games

it's always sunny in philadelphia

house md

moral orel

nimona

bullet train

Likes (things i'll most often reblog):

fandom shit

religious symbolism/shit posts :D

shit posts

ocs!

art

polls

Tags (feel free to filter any of these):

shut up gremlin - for shit posts or posts that i just yap in

gremlin does art - my art tag

gremlin oc - my ocs

gremlin writes - my writing tag

^ i also tag individual ocs in the format oc: [ocs name]

that's pretty much it. anyway so this is so low effort i rlly can't be bothered ✌️

[rawdatabyp3]

Like Throwing Water on Gremlins, w/ Fred Kaffenberger

Get ready to tune in to the next episode of Raw Data by P3 Adaptive, where former P3 Adaptive superstar Fred Kaffenberger will be returning as a guest. Rob and Fred will be reminiscing about old times and geeking out over all things Microsoft. But the real kicker? Fred will be revealing a shocking confession: he once faced Rob's dreaded "Interview of Doom" without even knowing what V-LOOKUP was! What happened next? Well, let's just say Fred didn't let that minor setback hold him back from becoming a data wizard.

Before joining P3 Adaptive, Fred worked for Microsoft as a white paper writer, where he was told he didn't have the "voice of the customer." But Rob knew better, recognizing Fred's talent for helping people get the most out of technology and a near clone of his own voice, Rob knew Fred had the talent and the skill to excel at P3 Adaptive.

Today, Fred is over at Oracle, where he's transitioned from writing about migrating from Oracle to Power BI to writing about migrating from Power BI to Oracle. Talk about a change of pace! But true to form, Fred is still a tech wizard, constantly expanding his skillset and crushing it in the world of DAX.

As for his introduction to the world of data, it began in sales and moved to data and debugging. Eventually, Fred moved on to database work where he learned one of the most important lessons anyone in the tech field can use: the value of being concise when communicating with developers. As he discovered, the more words you use, the more room there is for interpretation, and nobody wants that.

As always, we hope you enjoyed this episode. Be sure to share your thoughts by leaving us a review on your favorite podcast platform.

Also on this episode:

Fred's Data Adventure blog

5 signs you have ADHD and autism by Yo Samdy Sam 

William Dodson MD on the Interest-based Nervous System (ICNU)  

Fatima the Spinner and the Tent by Idries Shah  

Zork online

Discrete mathematics

Referential integrity

Oracle Analytics Cloud

Oracle Release 2--the first commercially available relational database to use SQL 

Get Out

Nope

Excel Power Map

Diplo

Naomi Shehab Nai

Pirates of Silicon Valley

k-means Clustering

Check out this episode!

[florbexter]

*bites in pillow*

[youngchronicpain]

I'm pretty sure 99% of the chronically ill/disabled kids that are in our twenties now had a House M.D. phase in our teens.

[ventingbeec]

5. my friends or close friends

ok so my bestie is really tall and she’s always been

and so when we were little she would iften make comments about my height

oh you’re so short you’re an ant

but i think something was stuck with me

so one day she was in a fight with another girl who was also kind of short

and so when we talked about the fight she made a comment about her appearance and said

fuck that short little bitch

and so i was thinking “omg, if we ever fight is this what she gonna think about me? about the way i look? dehumanising me and making me just an object who looks a certain wayy???” and so i was so scared to figjt with her because i didn’t wanted her to think about me that way

or to think about the way i look

i think this thing was stuck with me forever because all my life i was acared to say my point of view because i was scared that people would judge me and talk behind my back about the way i look

6. other moments

one time when i was slightly happy with the way i looked and that day i also chose to wear a bucket hat that i personally crocheted and i was happy and thought oh i look cute today

and me and my family went to ikea and i was ok minding my business and then i saw this gorgeous beautiful woman and that ruined my day

in that moment i started to compare myself with the beautiful woman

how tall she was how hot and sexy and womanly and mature an md beautiful she was

and i, who was probably the same age as her, looked like a gremlin, like a child next to her

i remember that moment very traumatic and i think

what if we angaged a conversation with the beautiful woman

what if she was not only my age but younger

what would my parents say then? would they be disappointed that their daughter wasn’t tall and beautiful like the lady next to her

would they put us to stay next to eachother and compare us

i feel so much pain and anxiety just imagining this

i feel like what my dad would think

he would think he has a ugly daughter and he would be so disappointed and not proud and maybe he wished the lady was his daughter

this reminds me of another time when i was a child

and this girl was new in town

and she was younger than me

and everyone loved her

and when they asked her about her age

everyone was so shocked that she was taller and prettier than me and they loved her much more

and i think that’s stuck with me and i think about it a lot

one time we were at a wedding and once again a girl who was younger than me was there, but she was so much taller and happier

i hated myself that day

how could these girls be younger but taller

that hurts so so so bad

when im in public at the subway or everywhere i compare myself with absolutely everyone

“am i taller than this person? am i shorter than this person?

when im at home i measure myself nonstop as if i would somehow grow only ons cm in the spawn of an hour

im obsessed and i hate ir

i hate that i can’t love myself and i hate that i don’t look the way i want to

i wanted this since i was young

since i was very very young i wanted to be a model

tf model? im short af

i prayed and prayed and prayed and it never never came to happen

i hate it so much

maybe i think it would never happen

i hate myself so fucking much

why tf im not growing to be 5’8 why why why ehy why ehy

i want this so bad in about to cry

State of minds and the way your body feels

So i recently realised how feelings influence so much the way you see the world around you.

Idk how to elaborate it but i want to tell an experience i had.

So when i was younger for some reason i was afraid or idk to shop. Exactly, i was anxious about shopping in supermarkets. I don’t really know why?

Maybe because i thought people are staring at me and judging me, or maybe because i was low on money?!

So i found a picture where my friend showed me she bought a cup of noodles, and i remember i really wanted to try but for some reason i never searched for it, and even the few times i went with my mom at shopping and found something i wanted i would just leave it.

So now thinking about it it sounds so pathetic but back then it was such a blockage for me to do the most basic things.

Right now i can spend hours in supermarkets, its the lamest thing ever, so why did i put that experience on a pedestal??

Another thing i used to put on pedestal when i was younger was a white pencil. I really really wanted a white pencil and i thought it was such an amazing thing, and when i bought my first one i was so happy, but then i coul afford to buy more so got a lot feon different brands to test them out and even now i have them, maybe for like 8 years?? They are around the house but i don’t care about them, they are lame, but i used to think omg such an amazing thing.

So my conclusion is that we tend to put such insignificant things on pedestal and think we can’t approach them when in real life they are lame af. But still i don’t have any wise advice to give tbh. I still want insignificant things, and i still think im not worthy having them when in reality they are probably very approachable, how to stop this?

So for example, i really want to be tall, like 5’7, can i really do this? probably? do i know how to? maybe idk? is there anything that’s stopping me? most certainly.

So because this is my vent blog anyways, i will talk nonsense.

1. I want to be tall because i want to or because others judge me cus im short?

I will enumerate some moments people judged my height.

1. My mom

so my mom always tells me i would be more beautiful if i was taller

when i was younger she would tell me to work out to grow taller

she pushed me to do a lot of things to grow taller

she always judge other short women calling them names so maybe i feel she thinks the same about me

do i want to be tall just to make my mom happy? i want this for her? i want to look a certain way so that she would stop judging me just for existing?? why does she wants this? shy can’t she love me just for who i am, if i was even more shorter shat would she think about me??

omg i feel like im about to throw tf up right now

i never realised i feel like this

how can i stop this?

am i worth it? probably, but how do i stop hating myself and caring what others think about me

i feel maybe they would never like me even if i was 7’1 so then what’s wrong with me? do i want to grow just to ignore them after and prove something? but i don’t heve to prove anything to anyone, am i right?

the only person i should care about it’s me

so is height really that important?

but i don’t know how to care about myself anymore?? what do i do?? skincare??

i’m so confused

i really want to fit in the society beauty standard so bad, i want people to accept me amd love and admire me

but why??? why do i care so much??

if i would have loved myself then would i care anymore about what others think?? idk how to live myself

i don’t think i have to do anything to love myself, i should do it just because i exist, but why do i feel so weird then

why do i want to prove something when i shouldn’t

2. my dad

i feel like i care about his male gaze

not in a weird way, but in a “i think my child it’s ugly way”

idk if you know that movie when a girl turns into a pig, like, her nose is pig like

and at some point her dad told her mom that

“we have to admit, we have an ugly daughter “

that line, that scene, why is that in my mind? why did it stuck from the moment hear it??!

it passed more than a decade but that line is my roman empire

why do i care about this so much

now that i write this, i never realised how much i cared about my parents opinion about my outside appearance but i do

i do a lot until it eats me alive

one time i was sitting at the dinner table and so my dad stared at me and then smirked

so my mom asked him why

and he giggled and said “look how much X looks like her grandfather”

my grandfather who is first of all a man, second of all a big, crooked, septum deviated, nosed man

i remember that moment so vividly, i wanted to disappear in that moment so nobody could ever see my face ever again

never

i don’t hate the way my grandfather looks, but i am aware of how he’s seen by the society

and i am aware that remark wasn’t something nice but something to point out ugly features

one time when was really into selfcare

and i really wanted to drink a gallon of water a day for health and also clear skin

my father overheard my discussion and he intervened saying that “where could that much water go through your body? for you maybe one cup of water a day”

and for me, that didn’t seem funny

that shattered me, i hate it, i hate so much being perceived

i hate so much being made fun of

i don’t want to look the way i look anymore

i hate me, i hate the way i look

why am i like this, why am i so weak? so skinny?? and some of you will sat it’s something good but it’s not, as a grown up woman i look like a little boy, i feel less of a woman

i feel im not worthy, i feel like i deserve absolutely nothing and i don’t understand why was i born and why am i still alive to suffer

i do i care a lot about shat people say about me

because in our society it matters a lot how people perceive you

i wish i didnt care but i do

i wish i was different but im not

i wish i could look like the beauty standards

i wish i could make my parents happy

i wish i could prove something

i wish i was loved and appreciated

i wish i wouldn’t have to hate myself so much

i wish i could just live in silence and be happy and eat and wash my body and sleep and play and do things i like and love myself

i wish i could just love the way i looked

everything about me

even my big crooked nose

i wish i could truly love it but it bought me so much pain

so much pain

for just existing and not bothering anyone it attracted so much pain

why do i have to look a certain way to not be bullied???!!!

why do we all have to look the same

after some pattern

i think i should stop caring about others

even my mom or dad but it’s kind of hard