#also pls help me anon

[deathofacupid]

hi hi hi!! just wanted to let you know that the links on your masterlist aren't working. might be because you changed your username :)

UR KIDDING

NO

IM GONNA DIE

does this mean i have to redo all my links? or can i just change my username back?

[piningpercussionist]

transfem scott getting lots of support from ramona and kim in the early 2000's when shit's very taboo but they all 3 have a fire forged bond and lord if they aren't going to make sure they're all as happy as they can be because they've come this far and I dunno it just makes me happy all three of them

YES YES YES

It makes me very happy as well,,

Like I've said before. General Trans Scott enthusiast here- I love the idea of their little support network *violent coughing* I (we?) mean polycule *violent coughing* so fucking much.

Ramona I think has a bit of a more gentle hand with reassuring Scott with gender issues, but sometimes she just can't help herself from some pointed banter or teasing- how could you with someone so dense? (Said w affection)

And then Kim I think is more blunt. But like, in a good way mostly, you know? The kinda blunt that makes you snap to attention and go "Oh. Yeah that was silly of me." And if Ramona's started some sort of banter? Kim is SO piling on. Maybe sometimes she's a bit TOO blunt with it- but it's only because she's so firm in her support. She wants Scott to Get It Together- and be happier for it. So if some ribbing now and again is in order, then goddamnit she will do so! Anything to crack that shell.

And ohhh can you imagine how they would react to some transphobic bullshit?? Unholy terror would be driven into the offender before they walk off with an absurd amount of coins between them. I can feel it in my bones. Scott doesn't even have to lift a finger (if the transphobe is even noticed/processed at all, bc I honestly can see Scott just. Not realizing someone's being transphobic.) Kim giving someone a lashing with her tongue as distraction and then Ramona coming in with the hammer- BAM! Free Money! Paying literally with your life for your transphobia. A Better And Just World.

And of course (transfem Scott more specifically, here,) the way Scott would start to flourish under their support... cagey and maybe a little (perhaps a lot-) resistant to start- but Kim's blunt affirmations and no nonsense attitude for bullshit (which is what Scott insisting on "being cis" would be, c'mon now,) and Ramona's also low bullshit tolerance but less Stabby (bc I won't lie, that's probably how Kim's comments would feel,) assurances? Ough... My Heart... Be Still-

I would Kill for them, Your Honor-

(Ran out of tags so putting this in the body of the post- I am SO tired someone pls sound off if this isn't as coherent as I am hoping this is. I WAS trying to nap and get the extra sleep I desperately needed but the writing bug... it Bit Me.... only a little but enough to stop that process-)

[writingbyshiloh]

Vampire AU headcanons for the Marquis de Gramont

CW: 18+ for the smut part, Vampires, blood, blood drinking, a brief reference to sex in a mirror, slightly obsessive Vincent, slight NSFW content (but there is a warning before it too), (minor)Vincent blames the reader for drinking their blood, GN! Reader  I read it for grammar but we all know how that goes

Summary: Hcs about the Marquis du Gramont in a vampire AU. 

AN: I had the BIGGEST crush on Angel from Buffy so anything vampire is a yes from me. I wanted this to be headcanons with a few blurbs sprinkled about. Not sure what it turned out to be, but it's long and I feel like I focused more on the vampire than MVdG. Also thinking of doing vamp!reader and hunter!MVdG. If you don't like this concept it is okay just don't read

Being a vampire hunter is your life, and not to toot your horn but you're fairly good at spotting them, luring them into a secluded place and then killing him 

That's how you first spot him. 

A friend gave you a spare ticket to a ballet she's in, you dress up and go to support her. It’s good to balance normal things and monster hunting. 

The audience is small, spread out in the large theatre. She told you it's a special performance, for benefactors and close family/friends

You go to the bathroom during intermission, but end up bumping into him

Tall, dark hair, a pale face and handsome, his dark suit sparkling under the lights.

It takes a few minutes for you to realize that his a vampire, you’re more so used to the newer ones, drunk on immortal life mostly in night clubs. 

He's a gentleman though, oozing manners. If you had to guess he’s a couple of hundred years old 

You extend your hand to him for a handshake and tell him your name. He repeats in a soft French accent. Slender fingers cup your own as he brings your hand to his lips, gently placing a kiss on the back of your hand. You’re embarrassed by how fast your mind goes to all the other places you want to feel his lips. The lights flash above the both of you, a silent reminder that the show will continue. As you make your way back to your seat, half of you hopes that you'll see him again, and the other hopes you never do,

Turns out you don’t have to wait that long before seeing him again. You want to go back to congratulate your friend, tell her how great she was etc. He sees you and “accidentally” bumps into you backstage. Every part of your brain tells you to run, fight, and get away but you don't. You want to know him. 

He asks if he can see you again and you tell him to meet you at the Louvre. It’s a public place which makes you feel safer, 

Tells you to meet him during the night. You’re not sure how he gets this kind of access to places like this, he's loaded with money, he has to be to rent out a place like this overnight 

He tells you about the paintings, pointing out details and societal context that would have been important (almost like he was there during that period hmmm)

And you really should not be alone with a vampire in the museum, and if you were you should take the time to kill him 

But something keeps causing you to trust him. Plus you have fighting experience and he doesn’t even look like he gets his hands dirty, You'll be fine? Right? You can protect yourself 

(you can't)

He tells you that you should go to his estate, he has a private art collection, which he thinks would suit your tastes more 

(Don’t go to his house, you will not make it out the same)

You protest, not wanting to be in a house with a vampire, he tells you to come during the day if it makes you feel safer 

It almost feels like a joke when he says it

So you do

He leads the tour of his house but remains fully in the shadows. As long as you’re in the sunlight you'll be fine

The tour ends with his private art collection, you notice a theme of blood, eroticism, murder, and cannibalism. 

(He has some portraits of him done over the centuries there too)

You’re so caught up with looking at the paintings of him over time (and how he never ages). Most vampires try to hide what they are, especially with a slayer BUT he's not. He knows what you are and knows that you know what he is

As you admire the paintings, he takes the opportunity to shut the blinds, the gold chandeliers casting light and shadows over his face, making his face look more angular, teeth look sharper etc etc 

You’re looking at the painting while he looks at you, and your exposed neck

You’re not making it out unbitten HAHA

Only let's get into a few NSFW ones which lead into a whole other rambling

Neck kissing, hickeys, you name it

He's trying SO SO SO HARD not to bite you but can't resist some indulgences, trying to satisfy the craving by feeling your pulse points with his lips

This goes hand in hand w the classic vampire who can’t drink the blood of a loved one because of they do they won't stop 

Eventually, EVENTUALLY he does drink your blood and you both do get into it, but you also lose a lot of blood. His fangs hurt, like a strong pinch but it also feels really good. He can’t stop drinking until he notices that your cries of pleasure are now cries of pain, you’re getting too weak and are feeling sick.

This pulls him out of it, and the last thing you remember is his arms around you and his pale face coveted in your blood 

He's so upset that you tempted him into this (it’s still Vincent c’mon), and let him give into the vampiric urges 

Would bring you to some medical person in his estate and leave (even though it's his house)

You wake up dazed and confused (unsure if it was a dream but two bite marks on your neck prove it was real) and you KNOW that you NEED to get out of there 

You’re able to escape, but he’s not going to let you go that easily. 

Okay one more NSFW idea

As prev noted vampires don’t show up in mirrors 

And you can feel his, see his hands on you. He's sitting behind you, hands snaking down your body, but you can't see him in the mirror. 

You’re literally holding onto his arm but when you glance down you can see his hand but in the mirror, you holding onto nothing 

You end up having a lot of sex in mirrors, and he never stops enjoying how surprised it makes you

[boba-beom]

minors who are writing smut, why are you rushing to grow up so much? literally chill out and take your time with your childhood. nsfws is obviously content you shouldn’t indulge in until you’re of age. take your time with being a minor and find hobbies and what not. I just don’t get it lmao why do minors write nsfws?

[smoshidiot]

Hi! This is so random but I’m looking for the art and artist of an artwork you shared in your instagram before. It was inspired by your young redacted moodboard and it’s a fanart of a young redacted

hello!! i’ve done a few myself so i’m not sure if you’re talking about those

or the one(s?) posted by my friend sammie

insta / @smoshkidtv

i think they only ever shared theirs via story, but they should totally post them to tumblr too bc their young redacted art is so precious ♡

[dnpbeats]

No I think the interview was good, just not the best. I don't really enjoy Anthony's videos I just don't think the format is appropriate for the guests he has. But in dans case that wasn't an issue obv! It's just like some videos from dystopia daily I don't care ab the truth of it, its just that I find it annoying when a person is theatrically pessimistic and THAT'S the joke yk? Just the tone is annoying to ME (you can enjoy it if you like)

no I agree on the pessimistic note, like I just have come to realize I have a drastically different outlook on life than dan has (or at least, had/purported to have in DD/whatever you want to say), like there were parts of DD I found funny but there were also so many things I rolled my eyes at 😭 bc sorry but I don't want to be reminded every 5 seconds that X thing in life is shit lmao, I know for some ppl humor is their coping mechanism and that's great but for me personally I don't want to be focusing on the negative constantly like it's EXHAUSTING 😭😭

[taegularities]

wdymmm bondage set 😨

jk will u let oc use the bondage set on you? 🫠 also oc in handcuffs seem pretty nice hihi

Jungkook: "Are you kidding? I want to see her writhe and whine, but I'd probably beg her to try it on me, too. She's so…"

Jungkook, with an increased heartbeat, almost drooling: "Sounds pretty, huh? Tell me about it."

[pardonmydelays]

okay but can we discuss just how fine lin looks in the freestyle love supreme episodes...

anon-

ok, i'm just sitting here & staring at this ask like a goddamn idiot, because today i wanted to scream about his talent, but apparently you already found out that 2014 lin is my biggest weakness (i guess all my mutuals already know this...) & now you want to talk about it & i just simply don't know what to say, cause, god help me, this is more than i can take.

(yes, i had this picture in my gallery. very normal. most people have their selfies or pictures of their loved ones, but nooooo, i have 2014 fls lin, because i got a little too excited when i was watching it for the first time.)

CAN WE TALK ABOUT HIS HAIR PLEASE I AM BEGGING-

i also found these a few days ago:

LOOK. AT. HIM. WHAT THE HELL. WHY SO HANDSOME.

ok, i'm done.

[httpiastri]

https://motorsportuk.tv/videos/behind-the-scenes-hitech-grand-prix-f2-paddock-pits-tour-2024-british-grand-prix/

Hey, could you write something where the reader helps Paul taking care of his hair? He looks like he needs help🥺

And I just found out I’ve also curly hair and I’m struggling 🥹

i would save this in my inbox to write later (i will keep it in my memories tho!!) but i had to share this video

because im cryingggg :(( how can he look so soft and so sweet :(((( and his voice waaaaahhhh

[laterlavender]

Jubilee seems the type to get the weavemothers armor and immediately put it on and ask Wyll how she's looks

The way you just sniped Jubilee with that assessment LMAO (you are absolutely right)

Nobody asked for this but I couldn't not draw something

Wyll is a supportive king 🩵

Silly Bonus:

[acornered]

top 5 snake breeds, top 5 places you want to travel, top 5 songs atm

THESE ARE ALL VERY GOOD. Reblog that post too because I have some top 5s for you.........slime man

Snakes:

Ball Python- puppydog of all time

Reticulated Python- large, gorgeous, intelligent

Woma Python- EYEBROW GUY

Black-Headed Python- woma with head dipped in ink

Burmese Python- large and dumb, sweetheart, problematic fave

Travel (I only counted places I haven't been before):

The Ball Python Temple in Ouidah, Benin

Madre Selva in Peru

Reykjavík, Iceland

Tokyo, Japan

Salton CA, USA

Songs (not sorry, it's all over the place rn):

Jericho- Iniko

AMAMA- Crumb

Half Bad- Let's Eat Grandma

Beast- Aldous Harding

symbol- Adrianne Lenker

[nilfruits-confessions]

so idk anything about nilfruits lore yet but i just watched heaven dope and the blue guy is my wife now actually.

FUCKING PLUTO?????

[osaemu]

hi sab ummm this is so funny to type HELLPPP so lik e. srry for dipping i literally had a heart attack 😭😭 GIRL I ACTYSLLY CANT STOP LAUGHIJG ABT THID IM SORRY. anyways so like long story short i'm chronically ill and like i have heds whihc gives me heart palpitations and stuff sometimes and my friend. she offrd me a hit of her vape and i was like uuurmm ok why not and then it sped up my heart rate even more and i literally had a heart attack HELELOOOO 😭😭 girl. anyways i mite not be on as often but here's the new ollie lore 🥳 oh yea my name is ollie 😼😼

-📀

ANON HELP ........ R U OK BFF ??? 😭😭😭😭😭😭 PLS take care of yourself omg ............. you're like those ao3 authors who r like "yeah sorry for not updating this week i crashed my car and it exploded and i went into a coma for a couple days and then i got amnesia and then—"

[ikamigami]

every time I see a new post of yours it's a surprise

I hope that it's a nice surprise for you 😭

Or that at least that means I'm not boring he he

[cheemken]

Oh man thank you for the Drayton angst HHH my heart goes out for him. Like from what I've seen, a lot of people just take his slacker / laziness at face value but from the bits of dialogue, you have room to imagine there's more to this kid.

Hassel advising him to avoid desperately trying to live up to the expectations of others. Drayton being strong enough that Geeta, the Champion of another region was considering in scouting him. He wouldn't have become the BB League Champion without a lot of effort put into it, not in a battle oriented academy. If he was a slacker from the beginning, realistically he wouldn't have made his way to the ranks until he beat the reigning Champion.

There's just a lot of inconsistencies with how Drayton presents himself vs how others view him. Various NPCs expressed their distaste of Drayton but most of them are consistent in saying that his one seemingly good trait is that he's a strong Trainer. It's hard to picture a talented kid like him repeating three years without some kind of cause.

My personal headcanon is that Drayton has that kind of negative perception from the students because of how he acted. One of the strongest Trainers in the academy, coming from a respected family and yet repeated multiple years? Not putting in effort? It feels like a slap to the face of those who worked hard to get where they are. Why is this guy still here if he's not going to try?

Perhaps it's the realization that he can never measure up to his talented family. Drayden being a respected Gym Leader, Iris being the actual Champion of the region--how can he compete? What can he say to those that often compare him with them? Especially during his teenage years, it's not difficult to picture that at some point, he simply gave up. Didn't bother trying for something that might just be a waste of effort in the end.

I have other thoughts I'll share in a different ask as this one has gotten rambly as it is haha

Oughghfhfhfhf your honour this is so fucking real hcnxbxn

Cause being from a family like that and being constantly compared to them would fuck up a mfer man I can vouch for that, and it's just chdmdb it's the fact y'know that there really is that awkward air in his conversations w Hassle and Geeta, like talking abt his family is a sore spot for him but he just hides it well enough that people would just think oh bc he's lazy he doesn't want the responsibilities his family has going on too, especially w how well known his family was in Unova and possibly to Dragon Specialists from other regions, given how Drayden even knows Hassle

It didn't help his sis is the Champion too, it's worse when they compare him to her

And it all leads down to the thought y'know, that he really made an effort when he was younger, but still couldn't live up to the standards of his family, that being a trainer and a strong battler is all he is, and w how Dragon Masters are, I know it takes more than strength to truly be one; especially w how the Blackthorn elder treated Clair too, I imagine it's a similar situation w Drayton. He's a strong trainer, Champion level, but he's just lacking something; that something is now a thing he'd rather not try to find out, cause in his mind even if he did, it'll never be enough, he'd still fall short, so why bother anymore right? His family can have all the titles and recognition that they want, he'd just be there vibing w his friends, least they don't compare him to his family much

[violentviolette]

Hi, can you talk a little on ASPD and dopamine? And also, I guess, dealing with addictions as they form, in context if this disorder?

Thanks!

theres actually a lot of research into the chemical aspects of personality disorders and it all really does boil down to trauma and genetics causing lots and lots of dysfunction with nuerochemicals, transmittors, and receptors. so ppl with any personality disorder are going to struggle a lot with things like dopamine, seratonin, and other chemicals

the dysfunctions fall under two main catagories, either a lack of ability to produce dopamine and seratonin, or a lack of ability to absorb them. i had some genetic testing done about 6 or 7 years ago because i was having no luck with antidepressants and struggling to find medication and it turns out my brain lacks key seratonin receptors. so things like ssri's which help u produce more seratonin and dopamine were useless for me because my brain *is* producing those chemicals properly, but i lack the receptors to be able to absorb any of them, which is why my issues are so persistent and resistent to treatment. i can absolutely flood my brain with seratonin and it wont do shit, cause i have no way to take it in

the hilarious other side of that is that u can absolutely have too much dopamine and seratonin in ur brain, and if too much builds up with no way to process or flush it, u can get things like seratonin sickness/syndrome which can cause anything from fever, chills, diarrhea and other flu like symptoms to seizures and death. as well as dopamine overloads, which result in things like anxiety, mania, hyper impulsivity, insomnia, psychosis and hallucinations, aggression, and more. which are all absolutely symptoms of cluster b personality disorders

because of this there's been speculation and theorizing (that does have supported research but more is still needed) that a key component of cluster b pds is an excess of dopamine in the brain without the ability to process it. so we end up with all of the negative side effects of having our brains swimming in dopamine all the time but dont get any of the actual positive effects of that that we're seeking. which like. love that for us /sarcasm. but it does very much explain a lot of the reasons that cluster b pds are so difficult to treat with medication and why our problems are so persistent

which then plays into addiction, and could explain why we seek out dopamine in such high quantities and are prone to such risk taking behavior to get it. if we're lacking in receptors, it makes sense that our brains would then require HUGE hits of dopamine to feel anything, because our brains need to be swimming in the stuff in order for us to feel the positive effects but that then leaves us with a huge excess that we cant get rid of which then causes problems. whereas a normal person would need only a tenth of the dopamine we do to absorb it and wouldnt be left with the overflow.

this also then makes treating and dealing with addiction much more complicated. because the problem is no longer finding healthier ways to get dopamine, because the amount of dopamine we need to be effective is actually the problem, not how we're obtaining it. which means the problem is figuring out how to either grow new neuroreceptors (which is possible, but difficult and i admit im not as well read on how the science works there because brains complicated), or how to retrain our brains to rely less on dopamine for satisfaction. which is also doable but sucks big ass.