#is it a hot take to say pluto is fucking ugly

[nilfruits-confessions]

so idk anything about nilfruits lore yet but i just watched heaven dope and the blue guy is my wife now actually.

FUCKING PLUTO?????

[forgive-me-your-highness]

Your highness demands questions to be answered.

This fool would love to appease Her Majesty

1. You just opened up a web browser. What is the first site you visit?

First thing that opens for me is Ao3

2. You just walked into a bookstore. What section do you go to first?

Sci-fi

3. You are hanging with your closest friends. What are you most likely doing?

This!

4. You just turned your car on. What station is the radio tuned to?

80’s on 8 LMAO

5. You have just woken up for the morning. What is the first things you do?

I go back to sleep

6. Complete this phrase: You cannot buy happiness, but you can buy____.

Shiny gloves

7. What would you do if you woke up as the opposite gender?

I’d text my friends that I have big dick energy

8. Are you more likely to cook for yourself or buy food from a restaurant?

Cook for myself

9. If you had to lose one of your senses, which one would you rather lose?

Smell

10. If you could relive any one year of your life, how old would you be?

I’d go back to 7 or something

11. Would you take a bullet for anyone you know?

Many people

12. Would you rather be rich and dumb or poor and extremely intelligent?

Extremely intelligent

13. What TV character do you most relate to?

I watch a solid 1 show right now and as a fellow nd I relate to Dr. Shaun Murphy

14. You just walked into a supermarket. What section do you first go to?

Dairy

15. Is sex before marriage wrong?

FUCK NO, like buddy there’s worse things to worry about than where someone sticks their dick before they sign a paper

16. You just won the lottery. What is the first thing you do with your winnings?

Depending on how much I’ve won, help out my mom

17. If your best friend admitted that they have a crush on you, how would you react?

I’d be over the moon

18. Will the USA ever have a female president?

I just want to drink my hot cocoa in peace…

19. You are carpooling with your friends. Are you more likely to be the driver or a passenger?

Hands down a passenger. I sleep through any drive

20. How short is too short for skirts and dresses?

If you, the person wearing it, are uncomfortable with the length then it’s too short. If you like it then fuck yeah rock that skirt!

21. If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, without any consequences, what food would you choose?

Shit man probably chicken noodle soup

22. It’s Saturday night. What are you most likely doing?

Either relaxing with Lulls or sending her some fun ideas

23. You go on a blind date. Your date is extremely beautiful and physically captivating, but you hate their personality. Would you want a second date?

No thank you, if we don’t get along then I’ll respectfully turn them down

24. How strict should gun laws be?

If it means I don’t get shot while studying then I’ll praise the goddess

25. Would you rather be the worst player on the best team or the best player on the worst team?

So long as we’re having fun I don’t mind

26. How well do you work with others?

Depends on who I’m working with

27. You have the ability to cure only one fatal disease and eradicate it forever. What disease do you choose?

If cancer isn’t a disease then I just made myself a fool

28. If you could go back to college and choose a different degree to study, would you?

I’m good with not thinking of that

29. Where do you see yourself ten years from now?

I hope I’m not dead

30. Are you pro-life or pro-choice?

Sir this is a Wendy’s

31. Would you attend a same sex wedding if invited?

HELL FUCKING YEAH I WOULD AND IT’D BE MINE (or some close friends!)

32. So far, what has been the greatest day of your life?

I’m saving the best day of my life for the future

33. Has anyone you know ever been arrested?

Yup

34. If it could be one season year-round, what season do would you want it to be?

Winter

35. What is your biggest regret in life?

Didn’t get to say goodbye to a friend

36. If you could bring one celebrity back from the dead, who would it be?

Robin Williams

37. What offends you the most?

I’m pretty hard to offend (Skyward Sword is a bad game, it was a GOOD GAME OKAY?)

38. Would you rather have an ugly hairstyle or be bald?

Ugly hairstyle because that’s mine everyday

39. At what age did you have your first alcoholic beverage?

3 (don’t @ me I know, bad parents)

40. What do you think happens to us when we die?

Don’t make my religious crisis worse

41. What do you think is the best way to quit smoking?

This just unlocked memories I forgot about

42. If you could take home any one animal from the zoo, which animal would you choose?

FISH, any kind

43. We’re humans created or did we evolve from earlier species?

Prob evolved

44. What scares you the most?

The list goes onnnn

45. What personality trait turns you off the most?

Lack of boundaries

46. You got offered a job to do something you hate, but the pay will make you rich. Do you take it?

If it means being able to live comfortably then yes

47. If today you only had what you were thankful for yesterday, how much would you have?

Fireworks

48. How often do you get mad or upset at yourself?

More often then I should

49. If you could choose one celebrity to be your parent, who would you choose?

I don’t even know any

50. If you could only listen to one musical artist for the rest of you life, who would you be listening to?

Ah a tie between Unlike Pluto and MISSIO

51. Have you ever used you cell phone while driving?

I’ve seen it go wrong so that’s a hard no

52. Had anyone you were close to die way too young?

Sir this is a WENDY’S (ex boyfriend)

53. Is world peace possible?

God I wish

54. You go on a blind date. You date is extremely ugly and physically appalling, but you are madly in love with their personality. Would you want a second date?

Oh my god if we get along then hell fucking yes

55. How did you discover that Santa Claus isn’t real?

Aged out of it lmao

56. Do you believe in God, or some form of higher deity?

Please I beg of you I can’t answer this

57. If you could save someone you deeply cared about, but it meant breaking a law, would you do it?

Will do

58. What is the dumbest thing you’ve ever done for money?

25 year old wanted to date me and he still buys me video games :/

59. If you were to make a YouTube video about what you know most about, what would the subject be?

Either LoZ or Service Animals

60. What do you think is your greatest personality flaw?

Oh damn where do I start?

61. If your friends spoke to you the way you speak to yourself, would you still want them as friend?

Considering it’d be rambling then sure

62. Have you ever “woke up like this”?

You guys wake up?

63. You got offered a job to do something you love, but the pay is one of the worst out there. Do you take it?

HELL FUCKING YEAH

64. What do you think is your best physical feature?

I have nice tits lmao

65. What do you think is your worst physical feature.

I’m too soft :(

66. Do you know anyone who has committed suicide?

Mm ex

67. What is the nicest thing you’ve ever done for someone you don’t know?

I helped a lady find her camping spot, and when I realized it wasn’t safe for her I let her stay at my camping spot with me. She was very nice and had lots of good stories to tell

68. Have you ever had a night’s dream come true?

Sort of? I heard a voice and the next day someone said it word for word and it shook me hard

69. How would you reject a date offer from someone you didn’t like?

Done it many times and I try to respectfully turn them down

70. Which do you think is worse: Failure, or never trying at all?

Failure :/

[ofcloudsandstars]

Celestial Forecast

Week 2-8

Sike! I am still going!! Take that PSD !

The aspects this week are really forcing us to look into our hearts. There is a handful of aspects being triggered by Venus and Uranus that will ask us to heal and bring positive change (along with some lunar transits triggering Ceres that will look at where we need to be nurtured) and this last leg of Mercury's retrograde leading up to the full moon at the end of the week will bring us to find out what we need to love and forgive in ourselves before we can absorb the retrograde lesson and move on.

Notes: this is london based so weeks are from Monday-Sunday and the time is set to UTC. 

2nd

🌓 First Quarter Moon in Gemini    ☽ Moon in Gemini trines Ceres in Aquarius ☽ Moon in Gemini Sextiles Chiron in Aries ☽ Moon in Gemini will Square Eros, the Sun and Neptune in Pisces

Energy: Today will feel vulnerable yet healing. With the moon waxing in Gemini it's a great day to open your mind and take in new information yet with mercury, the ruler of learning and the mind currently asleep this energy will feel inverted at best and could be used to learn about yourself and hidden emotional baggage that you may be clinging onto. With the moon making a harmonious sextile to Chiron and a powerful trine to Ceres, our deep wounds (and other wounds) will float to the surface yet we will have the opportunity to nurture ourselves and work through it. With Ceres in Aquarius the key will be to nurture ourselves by honoring our individuality and forgiving ourselves as well as accepting our uniqueness. With the square the moon will be consecutively forming with Eros, the Sun and Neptune throughout the day, these bruised points could potentially manifest in areas of sexual frustration, repressed anger or deceptions revealed. Especially with the sun square, these negative traits could be brought to light. It's a good day to do shadow work (I know I say that often but it's the retrograde along with these transits man..) and protect yourself from other's negative energy. Alternatively if you have had a foe that's been bothering you and pestering you for ages but unable to make others see that they are a gremlin all along, this is a good day to do a truth-revealed spell to expose their ass to everyone. The retrograde and these transits are about revealing secrets and ugly truths/emotions so if they are trying to be shady to you behind the scenes then you can expose the shade.  

Recommendations: self healing, meditation, shadow work, tarot reading, divination, truth revealed spell, self love magic

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3rd

Venus in Aries squares Saturn in Capricorn

☽ Moon in Gemini trines Juno rx Libra ☽ Moon in Gemini sextiles Venus in Aries ☽ VOC 2:19PM-4:25PM (until next day)

Energy: Today will feel extra fucking tender as Venus will make an uncomfortable square with Saturn in Capricorn which will make us feel a bit lonely and in need of a hug. Though this energy might manifest in people feeling isolated the tension of this aspect may push others to want to build a long lasting relationship with loved ones whether that may be friendship, romance or any other meaningful bond. To add to this the lovely emotional moon's transits will make a trine with Juno retrograding in Libra (classic) and a sextile with Venus in Aries. These two aspects will make it a little easier to reach out to others to let them know you would like a little bit of love and support today and most likely someone you care about may reach out to you first. It's easy with these transits to want to isolate yourself especially with mercury's retrograde but if you do practice some self love magic and working on your heart energy. Do not do any love attraction magic if you feel compelled to. The moon will be void of course for most of the evening so it's a time to rest and reflect. Instead take care of yourself or reach out to loved ones.

Recommendations: self love magic, preparing drinks with intention such as hot chocolate, hawthorn tea, matcha tea (these are all heart-opening), self-love bath magic, napping it off (why not?)

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4th

Mercury Retrograde Re-enters Aquarius Mercury in Aquarius sextiles Venus in Aries

☽ Moon enters Cancer (4:25PM) ☽ Moon trines Eros in Pisces ☽ Moon sextiles Uranus in Taurus ☽ Moon opposite Saturn and Pluto in Capricorn ☽ Moon squares Chiron in Aries

Energy:

Mercury will re-enter Aquarius today. Aquarius tends to be more detached from the emotional details and can see the bigger picture which this phase of the retrograde may ask you to do. This segment you may find the tides of the universe are seeking for you to rise above your individual problems to see the grander scale and change your perspective. This re-entry will make mercury sextile Venus in Aries which will make you re-evalue the harmony within your relationships and how you express love and affection. This may be an awkward day to try to charm someone or express affection depending on how the retrograde may affect you (unless you are 100% honest and unfiltered about your feelings but even that could backfire).

With the moon in the most EMOTIONAL sign, (cancer), the lunar transits will add another perspective to our emotions as we may evaluate our relationships. It will trine Eros making our passions and desires clear (though we may lack the fire to act on them), it will square chiron making our previous traumas bubble to the surface and it will be opposite Saturn and Pluto in Capricorn which will only add additional feelings of loneliness, isolation, unearthed intense repressed emotions from the netherrealms of our deepest subconsciousness and a possible spike in PSD (pisces seasonal depression). On a positive note, the moon will also sextile Uranus in Taurus starting off this chapter of mercury's re-entry into Aquarius with some positive surprises or chance encounters that could help shake things up in a good way. This sextile helps break patterns and starts something new so this energy could be used wisely to evaluate what is no longer serving you mentally or emotionally and starting off on a positive foot!

Recommendations: journaling, resting, divination for shadow work, healthily crying

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5th

Venus enters Taurus ☽ Moon in Cancer trines Sun and Neptune in Pisces ☽ Moon sextiles Sedna in Taurus ☽ Moon opposite Mars and Jupiter in Capricorn

Energy: Today will feel like an oasis in the many days of romantic strife. The transits have not been kind to our hearts with Juno in retrograde, and Venus in Aries ridiculous aspects, but now Venus is taking a chill pill and returning to one of it's home signs Taurus. There's a reason why Taurus Season starts on 4/20 because it's the most sensual, relaxed,  chill, luxurious, lush sign there is and we will feel the effects of Venus in Taurus with wanting to just enjoy life and appreciate the good things in it a little bit more.

Additionally the lunar transits are pretty nice too. The moon in cancer will trine the Sun and Neptune in Pisces making the day extra dreamy and creative and easy going. The moon will eventually make a sextile with Sedna in Taurus adding to our desires to be creative and in some cases may manifest in appreciating life and nature. The moon will also form an opposition with Mars and Jupiter in Capricorn which could either manifest a drive to put our feelings into action or expand on them or if we choose to not use the energy it could manifest in other ways such as sudden bursts of energy which could be either good or bad. With oppositions it's best to try to make the opposite energies harmonize otherwise the imbalance can cause unexpected bursts in areas we weren't ready to handle.

Recommendations: creating art, art magic, dance magic, kitchen witchery, self love magic, meditation, dream oracling, nature walk, creating something, tapping into heart energy.

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6th

☽ VOC 7:11AM - 9:27AM ☽ Moon enters Leo ☽ Moon in Leo trines Chiron in Aries ☽ Moon opposite Mercury rx in Aquarius ☽ Moon squares Venus and Uranus in Taurus

Energy: Today will be a day for drama as the Moon enters Leo and makes all sorts of spicy aspects with the planets. With the moon in Leo the energy can create a positive outlet for our emotions to be channeled through our creativity yet on the flipside the energy can also let explosive emotional episodes burst out dramatically. The moon will be teaming up with Chiron in Aries in a trine which can help us explore our deep issues and bring about healing. However when it comes to communicating there might be some challenges with the moon opposing mercury retrograding in Aquarius. It may be best for us to work on ourselves solitarily or channel it into a personal creative project instead of trying to express it or project it outwards when there is a lot of room for miscommunication. Finally the moon in leo will square Venus and then Uranus in Taurus which will add the flavors of drama, surprise, new encounters, emotional outbursts from others, emotional neediness, rebelliousness and in some cases infidelity. Take caution as this is not a day to over indulge by impulse spending or lash out in response to outbursts. Though the squares may make some tensions with the Moon in it's dramatic placement, the lunar transits are only a few hours long so the air will clear and a settled state will return quickly.

Recommendations: Protection magic, invisibility glamours (if you want to avoid drama), Hexes!! Or- channeling energy through creative outlets.

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7th

☽ Moon in Leo sextiles Juno rx Libra ☽ Moon opposite Ceres in Aquarius

Energy: With the moon continuing it's transit through Leo, it's now met with a sextile from Juno in retrograde and eventually an opposition with Ceres in Aquarius. Leo also being a sign also of romance and the inner child could bring out those emotional qualities to the surface today with our lunar transits as they get affected by Juno and Ceres. The Juno retrograde sextile could stir up deep feelings of wanting to connect with your ideal love, wanting to receive your ideal love or wanting to find something to devote your love and creativity to. The retrograde can help with great introspection yet if you feel any frustrations then tarot can help you to show where you need to work on to manifest it in your life. With the moon in creative Leo opposing Ceres in eclectic Aquarius, it may bring up potential for us to find nurturing in expressing our individuality through creative projects or alternatively it could potentially bring up some negativity regarding feeling alone and unnurtured as well. If you happen to fall on the negative side of the vibe you can honor yourself by doing the things you always love the most or trying a new outlet to express yourself. It's ok to feel down from time to time and lunar aspects (especially with smaller planets/asteroids) are brief so this may not affect you so much but if it does use the Leo moon to fuel it into self expression!

Recommendations: Art magic, self love, love divination, love spells

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8th

Venus conjunct Uranus in Taurus Sun conjunct Neptune in Pisces ☽ Moon in Leo squares Sedna in Taurus ☽ VOC 8:12AM-11:47AM ☽ Moon in Virgo (full moon phase begins) ☽ Moon in Virgo trines Venus and Uranus in Taurus

Energy: It's not yet the full moon yet we are inching there, and the energy will feel heightened now!! The full moon phase will begin and will start off with a powerful conjunct with Venus and Uranus in Taurus along with the Sun and Neptune in Pisces creating a powerful dreamy vibe of romantic surprises and new positive sensual developments. The moon in Virgo will trine Venus and Uranus in Taurus as well making all three planetary energies work in unison to create a powerful energy of love, tenderness, harmony, excitement, positive surprises, new positive changes, chance encounters, thrills, breaking habits, powerful magic and romance. The Virgo full moon (opposing Sun in Pisces) is a moon that reminds us that our dreams are in reach if we follow through the steps to get there. Along with the aspects between the sun and neptune along with venus and uranus today is a FANTASTIC day for romance spells for new love AND MONEY SPELLS especially to win money or earn it suddenly in a positive way (that's not the universe just scheduling you for another week of back-to-back double shifts). If you are a creative this is a great day to pour energy into your work cause you will find breakthroughs. If you are keen for an adventure, today is fantastic to take a trip on. If you want to hook up or find romance today is also an amazing day to do magic for it. If you always felt shy about playing the lottery or doing a scratch card just give it a shot today, it's the full moon!! Your dreams are in reach. The other planets are like cheerleaders for virgo's full moon. Go for it. Yolo

Recommendations: Money Magic (focus on winning money), love magic, sex magic, manifesting dreams into reality, vision boards, job finding spells, road opening magic (road opening means unblocking energy or creating new opportunities to come your way whether that means for jobs, money, creativity etc).

[padfootagain]

Singles Will Be Paired (III)

Part 3 : More Than A Little

Here we go with part 3! I'm very inspired by this story so as you can see the updates are quick!

Still just fluff :D

Hope you all like it!

Gif not mine

Word Count : 3400

"Oh my God, I told you! He's fucking Prince Charming!"

You laughed at your friend, and were happy that she couldn’t see you as you felt your face heating up.

"He's not. But he was quite a… charming stranger."

"Charming stranger! YES!"

"Stop being so excited, would you?"

"Never! This is brilliant! Here you are in Paris, enjoying a weekend in Disneyland right before Christmas… that's a sign! It's the magic of these three things mixed together that created this Christmas miracle that took the form of Charming Stranger…"

"His name is Ben, and he is normal."

"Charming Stranger sounds much better. But you didn't send me a picture of this sweater of yours! Nor a picture of him, actually…"

"SHUT UP!"

You sent your best friend a picture of your ugly sweater, and you heard her make a disgusted sound.

"The little devils…" she went on, talking about the children who had caused you to drop your hot chocolate on your sweater. "Forcing you to wear this… thing…"

You laughed.

"It's not that bad. And Ben bought himself an ugly jumper too to make me feel better."

"Awww… it's adorable!" she spoke in a high-pitched tone.

"Stop it," you begged.

"What I don't understand though, is why you didn't ask him if you could have dinner together tonight. I mean, you're both alone…"

"We'll see each other tomorrow, Annie. Relax. I barely know him after all, and… I don't want to look like I'm desperate or something."

"You're right. Keep him on his toes."

"No, Annie!" you heaved a sigh. "That's not what I meant either. Besides… I don't think I have such an effect on him."

"He ran after you to ask to see you again, Y/N. You do have this effect on him."

"Do you really think that he could see me… like that?"

"Y/N. You're single. He's single. He wants to spend his whole day with you. Of course, he sees you this way!"

A grin formed on your lips without you being able to control it.

Because after all, you did hope that he saw you this way.

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 "I can't believe that you still don't have her number."

"I'm seeing her again tomorrow. And it's not what you think."

"It's not what I think, huh?"

"Jack, shut up."

"I'm not shutting up, Ben," his brother replied. "You're finally having a crush on someone, it's my job to make sure that you're not wasting this opportunity."

"I'm not having a crush!"

"You are."

"I'm not."

"You are, Ben. We've been on the phone for a half an hour and for all this time, you've only been talking about her. You're in Disneyland and you haven't talked about Disneyland at all yet, only about that girl. So, Ben… you do have a crush on her."

Ben tried to find an argument against his brother, but failed miserably.

"Right… perhaps I like her a little."

"A little?"

"Can't you drop it?"

"Right, right… Well, tomorrow, at the end of your date, don't forget to ask for her number."

"It's not a date."

"Of course… I need to go. Mom and dad have made dinner. And get her number!"

Before Ben could reply, his brother had hung up. Ben let out a sigh before turning the TV on. He looked through the French channels until he found BBC News. But he didn't listen to anything the journalists say. He looked at the ugly jumper he had bought with you, a soft smile forming on his lips.

Perhaps he did like you… a little…

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 You hurried towards the large gates. It was still rather early in the morning, but the sun already rising, and the lampposts and Christmas lights were not shining anymore. Your breath drew strange forms of smoke in the cold air as you hurried down the lane. You couldn't wait to see Ben again.

You searched for him through the crowd, your eyes scanning every face and a feeling of disappointment weighing your heart every time you realized the stranger before you wasn't him.

For a moment, you thought he wasn't there. Perhaps he hadn't arrived yet. Or perhaps… perhaps he wouldn't come. Perhaps he had thought it through during the night, and had changed his mind about you and…

But you recognized his ridiculous and adorable Christmas hat in the blink of an eye, and relief washed over you as you hurried towards Ben.

He welcomed you with a bright smile.

"Good morning, Y/N!" Ben merrily greeted you. "Ready to take another chance at making me deaf?"

"More than ready," you chuckled. "I've rested my voice last night, I'm up for the challenge!"

"Then let's find that out!"

You laughed as you walked together through the large gates.

"Are you proudly wearing your ugly sweater?" he asked with a crooked smile filled with mischief.

"I am!" you nodded, pulling on your sleeve to show the fuchsia fabric. "I don't really have a choice, anyway. And I guess that as long as I'm here, I don't look too stupid. That'll be another story when I visit Paris though…"

"Well, if it can reassure you… I'm breaking just as many rules of fashion as you today."

He opened his warm coat enough for you to recognize the Pluto sweater he had bought the previous evening with you, and you both laughed.

"That's adorable!" you thanked him. "I don't feel so bad anymore."

"I knew you would like it."

He paused for a few seconds, before going on in a lower tone.

"You still look stunning with this sweater though."

You looked up at him but he held your gaze, giving you a little smirk tainted with flirt, and you let out a chuckle.

"You don't look that bad yourself, even with the Christmas hat."

"Thanks," he smirked with a wink, making you giggle.

You walked in the park together, letting yourselves be guided by the crowd passing the gate. And while you advanced through the main street, you didn't feel the need to speak. Somehow, just by being by your side, Ben was making you feel calmer. Somehow you felt better when he was around.

You visited the other side of the park, before spending some time buying souvenirs. Which meant that Ben and you both tried on the most ridiculous pieces of clothing you could find. Ben settled to buy for himself a pair of Mickey Mouse ears and you bought a pair of Minnie ears as well, so you walked out of the shop with matched costumes. You bought souvenirs for your family and friends, and Ben did just the same, and for the end of the afternoon, as you had went through all the roller coasters, you merely walked together for a while. Until you came across Darth Vader, and you excitedly took a picture with him. A family waited for their turn while you took a picture of Ben as well, but the mother of the family made you a kind offer when you were about to leave.

"If you want, I'll take a picture of you and your boyfriend."

You and Ben both chuckled nervously in response.

"We're fine," you answered, shaking your head.

You felt Ben staring intensely at you. He was hesitating. He didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable, he didn't mean to go too far… but on the other hand, how could a picture do any harm?

"Actually, that'd be very kind, thank you," Ben nodded, handing the woman his phone and softly pulling you back towards the disguised Sith.

You paused next to him, a stupid smile on your lips. Ben had wrapped an arm around your shoulders and was holding you close to him, but he wasn't pressing you against him, and you knew that if you wanted to, you could easily break free. And you felt so safe next to him…

The picture was taken too quickly, and Ben let you go only too soon. You surprised yourself longing to stay there, safely held against him again. His nearness was making your heart beat faster. And when Ben turned to you again, you still had this stupid smile on your lips. But you didn't mind. You recognized the same euphoric and yet shy look on Ben's face.

"Hope you don't mind that I did that," he asked as you walked away again.

"No, no… it's… it's fine."

"After all, we've spent our entire stay here together, so I thought… Why not keep a souvenir of you as well?"

You let out a chuckle.

"It's okay, I don't mind."

You saw Ben biting on his lower lip in hesitation, but he eventually asked in an innocent tone the question that tingled his tongue.

"Do you want that picture? I can send it to you, if you want to keep it?"

You shrugged at first, not really realizing what he was truly asking for at first.

"If you want," you smiled.

"Right. Huh… I'll send you a text, if you want."

You looked up at him, before exploding with laughter.

"Was that a way to ask for my number?"

"Ask for your number…?"

You expected from him to play it cool and to either deny it all or joke about it. But instead, he answered earnestly, taking you aback.

"Actually, that's exactly what I was attempting to do. I thought it was a smooth way to bring it up. Did it work?"

You didn't answer at first. You looked up at him, trying to read through his dark eyes. Your gaze lingered on the freckle under his right eye, before it would finally settle on these two infinite brown orbs.

But in his eyes, you could only read something soft, almost tender as he stared back at you. What did you risk anyway? He would probably never call you once you and him would be back to your lives…

You gave him an amused smile. What were the risks? He was kind and respectful and funny… a real gentleman so far. You had already spent two days with him, why not give him your number?

You offered him your open hand and nodded towards his phone, that he had not yet put back in his pocket.

"It was rather smooth," you giggled, and his smile turned into a grin as he put his phone in your hand, so you could enter your number.

"I'm not that bad at flirting, huh?"

"Now, now… don't get ahead of yourself."

You both laughed, and you entered your number in his phone, before handing the device back to him.

"I am merely speaking the truth! It worked, didn't it?" he replied with a teasing tone.

"I hadn't noticed that you were flirting," you replied with humour in your voice. "Besides… I thought you just wanted to send me this picture."

"Perhaps I should make my intentions plainer then…"

You stared at each other for a moment, before you felt your cheeks going too warm, and you looked away. Ben's ears turned crimson, and his confidence cracked for a moment, as he mumbled under his breath

"Unless you don't want me to. Then we can just… forget all this happened."

You slowly shook your head.

"No need to forget about that, Ben. After all… maybe I should give you a chance to get better at flirting."

Ben grinned, but you didn't wait for an answer to walk down the street again. You didn't want him to see that you were grinning too…

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 Your eyes drifted again towards the bright lights outside. The pale lights of the stars from up above mingled with the more vivid Christmas lights that coloured the street with red, yellow, green and blue sparks. You were eager to witness the illumination of the Castle at the closing of the park tonight. Ben was joining you, of course. But despite the prospect of a magical show, the idea that you would probably have to bid farewell to your Charming Stranger put a weight on your heart. And as the thought crossed your mind again, the lights outside didn’t seem so bright anymore…

You were mad at yourself for acting like a desperate romantic all of a sudden? Since when were you a desperate romantic? Never. And Ben was… like this place. Beautiful. Magical. But you would leave him the next day and he would turn into a memory as well. The magic that this place brought would disappear after midnight, like a carriage turning back into a pumpkin. Now, you could feel how disappointed Cinderella was at midnight. Life was definitely easier with a little bit of magic.

"Are you alright?"

The sound of Ben’s voice snapped you out of your thoughts, and you turned to him again.

"Of course!" you nodded with a smile.

"You seem… far away," he went on, tilting his head to the side a little.

"I was just thinking."

Ben decided that it was best to drop the subject, and he let you pick up the conversation again. And if it was tempting to keep a light tone for what would certainly be your last evening together, your curiosity got the best of you… once again.

"So… when was your last relationship?" you asked out of the blue.

Ben choked on the water he had been drinking as you spoke, and coughed loudly.

"Well… that was pretty direct," he laughed.

"Sorry… you… you don’t have to answer that," you apologized, realizing that your question was too personal and asked in such a clumsy fashion.

After all, Ben’s love life was none of your business…

He had asked for your number earlier that afternoon though… so perhaps it was a bit your business.

"It’s okay," Ben chuckled. "I didn’t expect that kind of question, that’s all. But if you want to know I…"

"You really don’t have to answer that. It was out of line."

He gave you a reassuring and almost mischievous smile.

"I don’t mind telling you," he went on. "I was with someone for over a year. But we… we weren’t meant for each other. I didn’t deal with the breakup well though. It’s been a little less than a year since we… agreed that it was best to continue on separate paths."

"Sorry to hear that."

But Ben shrugged.

"I had feelings for her, so it made things rather hard for me and I struggled to move on. But we didn’t part as enemies. We both agreed that… my life and hers weren’t compatible."

"What do you mean?" you asked with a frown.

"With my job I spend a lot of time travelling. And she wanted someone who had more time for her than what I could manage with my job. It became rather clear that she wanted me to choose between her and my career, that I couldn’t have both. So… I chose."

You slowly nodded.

"I need someone who is more… independent than her. You see what I mean?" Ben went on. "Of course, I want to be with someone and spend time with this person, but… I need someone who will understand that I also have a part of my life that will require for me to be away."

"I see what you mean," you nodded, giving him a warm smile. "And so… that was your last relationship?"

Ben nodded, taking a sip of water.

"What about you?"

"Me?" you asked back with an amused smile.

"Well… you're the one who started with the personal questions…"

"Fair enough!" you chuckled. "But there's not much to say, really. I haven't been in a relationship in ages."

"Why not?"

You shrugged.

"Didn't find any nice guy that I liked enough, I guess."

"I'm glad you're not looking for a bad guy, that's really not me at all, and I wouldn't have stood a chance, then."

"Now, now… trying to flirt again?"

He gave you a crooked smile.

"Trying to improve, as you requested."

"Nice try," you chuckled.

"Should I fear the revenge of an ex who happened to be a bad guy and made you change your mind about men, though?"

You let out a bright laugh.

"No, not at all."

"Good to know."

You both exchanged a smile, but yours faltered quickly, and you nervously played with your napkin. Ben frowned.

"Y/N… what's going on? You've been acting weird. Am I… making you feel uncomfortable?"

"No, of course you're not. I'm just… What's going to happen tomorrow?"

Ben cleared his throat.

"I… Well, I have your number," he answered slowly, his tone cautious and serious this time. "I thought that I could call you, and perhaps we could… see each other again."

"Will you really do that? Or are you the kind of guy who never calls a woman back?"

He gave you a reassuring smile.

"I am not the kind of guy who never calls a woman back."

"Really?"

He nodded, and you saw him taking a sharp intake of breath before asking you his next question.

"But if you still have doubts, then… I mean… perhaps I could ask you for a date. What about tomorrow night?"

You frowned hard.

"I won't be back in London tomorrow, I'm staying in Paris for a week."

"My brother and I were supposed to stay in Paris for four days more. So… I'll be here too, actually. Tomorrow."

His heart speeded up as he watched you smile, and called himself a fool for reacting this way to you. But his smile was tender when he smiled back at you.

He definitely liked you more than a little…

"So… what do you say?"

"I say…"

But you stopped mid-sentence, and a mischievous glint lightened in your eyes.

"Are you alone for the rest of your trip as well?"

"Huh… Yes. I was supposed to be with my brother."

"Well… What about we extend that contract of ours, then?"

He gave you the brightest grin.

"Now… that sounds like a plan," he nodded.

"What about… we meet at the Eiffel Tower tomorrow morning, nine o'clock. What do you say?"

"I say that I'd love that."

You exchanged a shy smile.

You hated to admit it, but Annie was right. You liked him. And more than a little…

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 The crowd was rather dense but filled with joy and excitement. Children were carried by their parents so they would have a better view of the pink Castle. Next to you, Ben was growing colder, blowing some warm air in his hands, and several times readjusting his Christmas hat on his head.

"I'm warning you though, I'm not walking through the streets of Paris with you if you wear that thing on your head," you joked.

"I thought it was part of my charms!"

"No, it really isn't."

"Don't act like the Grinch!"

You couldn't help but laugh.

His gaze grew tender as he watched you laughing, and for some reason, he wanted to tell you. He wanted to let you know that he felt like the two of you were connected somehow, that there was something strange that had awoken in his heart at the mere sight of you. That he had spent the night thinking of you, that your voice was all he could hear through his dreams the prior night… That he had never felt this way before, and he wanted to have a chance to be more to you than this stranger who had spent two days with you at Disneyland.

"Y/N… I wanted to tell you," he breathed, and the intensity in his eyes and the softness in his deep voice made your heart speed up in your ribcage.

But he was interrupted as children started to cheer, the Castle slowly starting to shine with so many lights…

You both turned towards the Castle, but Ben didn't focus upon the magical spectacle in front of you for more than a few seconds before turning towards you again, leaning down to whisper in your ear

"I like you, Y/N. I really do like you."

You smiled up at him.

"I like you too, Ben," you breathed, making him grin.

And when you both focused on the glimmering Castle again, he wrapped his fingers around yours, and for the rest of the evening, until you parted to get back to your hotel rooms, you held hands…

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Comments on A Little Love Story! (Tumblr is being an ass so they’re formatted weird) 

@sailorsunspot:    At work so I don’t have too much time to reply- but!!! I needed to let you know how much I loved this! Particular Michiru’s and Rei’s relationship and their interactions in this - the quiet “Even now” moment, it’s soooo GOOD I’ve always liked Rei and Michiru’s friendships, but I feel like in the past few years, they’ve become possibly my favorite senshi friendship, just neck in neck with the BroTP and it’s definitely due in large part to your work!!! 

Oh that makes me so glad to hear! I think Michiru and Rei are totally DIFFERENT from Mina and Haruka’s dynamic, in the same way that I love Reinako, but it has to be utterly different from Harumichi in the way they interact with each other or else it feels untrue, to me. I AM SO GLAD I’VE MADE IT FOR YOU. 

cakeandpi said: i love this so very much

Thank you for saying so!!

michiruspet said: This was awesome the first time and it’s even better now. So many feelings, so many thoughts and hopes….I Bloody mobile tumblr…. I wouldn’t want to be in Mina‘s shoes if she really killed Haruka and Michiru comes after her. She’ll cut Mina‘s heart out with a spoon because it’s the slowest and most painful way to do. I can easily see why Haruka needs to try to get Mina back, it’s not often that you have friends that line you and expect nothing back. I loved it and I really want to see part two. 😍

Thank you!! I have always liked the IDEA of this piece, but it was written in a hurry and when I was just getting back to writing a lot, and it shows. I’ve often wished I could rewrite it. So when Jetty floated it as an idea, I was DELIGHTED. And yeah, Mina would be Toast. 

everybodyknows-everybodydies said: firstly: I see the scraps of Mako/Ami and I am revitalized because those little interactions here really highlight how you do this kind of casual unspoken intimacy so well *chef’s kiss*, bless you good doctor, I HAD TO SAY SOMETHING BECAUSE WHO WOULD I BE IF I DID NOT.

IT IS HONESTLY ONLY EVER FOR YOU SO I AM GLAD TO GIVE IT

everybodyknows-everybodydies said: SECONDLY: SWEET BRAVE HARUKA HOW GOOD AND NOBLE SHE IS I love, love, LOVE the idea of her going to try to love Minako back into herself instead of Rei - romantic love would be the expected route, but THE LOVE OF A BEST FRIEND IS SO RARELY SHOWN AS FULFILLING THIS KIND OF MAGICAL REQUIREMENT I’M EMOTIONAL ALREADY

That’s why Nikki liked this story so much! It was a whole “love breaks the spell  thing that completely subverted the idea that it would have to be romantic love, because all kinds of love are important and lbr at this stage in the game Rei isn’t together enough to fulfill that requirement even if I wanted to go that route. 

everybodyknows-everybodydies said: thirdly: Michiru weighing the options and being aware of her own growth as she does so and then letting!!! Haruka!!! go!!!!!! SO great. SO GREAT

Michiru gets, I think, slightly better at realizing that not everything can happen because she wants it. To my mind, Usagi and Michiru are both spoiled children, but it manifests in totally different ways, and I think it’s a big part of growth for her when she realizes things like she can’t BUY Haruka out of feeling guilty. 

everybodyknows-everybodydies said: and LASTLY this is sUCH a small thing but Hotaru’s disinterested “whatever” made me SO delighted, she is NOT here to be a pawn in an argument and you conveyed in one (1) word the exact amount of Teen Who Is Unimpressed By The Adults I would expect from your interpretation of her, 10/10

ahahah thank you BITTER HOTARU FOREVER

eyofjetwolf said: This is so perfectly what I was hoping for when you revisited this. All of what it was, BUT MORE SO. The sense of characters, the incredible depth of it all. It’s so much, so good, and wrapped around an idea that was already incredible solid to begin. I’m only that much more excited for all the parts to come.

THANK YOU I AM SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT

keyofjetwolf said: And Haruka clutched her ring tightly as she walked, believing in old, old magics, hoping they believed in her. –AH FUCK ME THAT LAST LINE IS SO FUCKING GOOD I’M HOWLING

I LIVE TO PLEASE

keyofjetwolf said: ““If she kills Haruka, hell itself will not be able to hide her from me, and so there is that consolation.” Michiru punctuated the thought with a deep drink of wine.” –DON’T WORRY YOU STILL HAVE MICHIRU

Michiru also thinks Haruka has no chance of succeeding, and her only consolation is SUPER KILLING MINA

keyofjetwolf said: I feel there’s a part of Rei, deeeeeep deep deep down that would “rather”, you could say, that they take Mina out, rather than have to reconcile this loss of certainty and stability, have to somehow come to peace with the complication of this betrayal. And for Michiru, there’s the ugly deep idea that she ISN’T enough, and having to watch that be true every single day that Haruka slips a little further.

Yeah I think Rei isn’t wrong here, but I also think that she would love for the solution to be so simple. She won’t have to forgive Mina, she won’t have to live with the idea that something like this could happen to HER, it’s only a blip on the radar she’ll have to deal with like an enemy. 

keyofjetwolf said: OH MICHIRU. That she “lets” Haruka try always delights me. It’s such a wonderful growth for Michiru, that she knows the best and kindest thing would be Haruka’s swift death, rather than a slow crawl to the inevitable. But also, you have to wonder. You do a magnificent job in showing Michiru’s train of thought (really, I loved that moment, with the interplay of possibilities, so fucking good), BUT.

Yeah I think that’s it’s kinder for Haruka, and I think that Michiru is smart enough now to know that she can’t stop what would happen if Mina was killed because Haruka didn’t try, but I also think your point above is right: Not only would she have to live with what happened, but also seeing every day that she isn’t enough to pull Haruka out of the spiral it would find her in. It’s kinder for them both. 

keyofjetwolf said: “Rei was not wrong in this, either. They were likely to win the day, if they acted at once. Mina had been wise to name her as successor.” –I don’t know if you tossed this in there to help cushion against what could otherwise read as Rei being stubborn or incompetent, or even making a power grab. I appreciated it, intended or otherwise.

I didn’t because I don’t really see Rei as being either ahaha. I mean, she IS stubborn, but I also think her points are correct. I don’t think she’s wrong here, and I don’t thing she’d oppose Usagi’s general hatred of bloodshed if she wasn’t sure. But yeah, for anyone who thinks Rei’s just being a nasty bitch, naw, she’s being commander. 

keyofjetwolf said: the Sight complied, the Sight believed, the Sight thought the odds were good. –Maybe it’s just me, but this is twice now in the past couple stories I’ve commented on, where I’ve come away with this vague niggle that Rei’s sight shows her what she wants as much as it does what is true. And I know how you feel about “truth”, and how it’s often anything but, and can’t help wondering if it’s something you’re intentionally doing, or something bleeding in? OR, AGAIN, JUST ME

I mean I think that both Rei and Michiru see visions, and visions being what they are, I think there’s an element of them as the “reader” in whatever they See, and that effects the vision. It’s like a dream, how much is organic and how much is leading, really? . But also my intention here was that the Sight agreed with what she already wanted to be true. I don’t think it always does. But this puts an interesting thought to mind about the idea of Rei wondering herself, if it’s only her “making things up” when she and the Sight are in concordance. 

keyofjetwolf said: Hotaru said nothing, simply shrugged and placed a hand on her cheek, leaning onto the table disinterestedly. “Whatever.” –I understand why you don’t write her more, but man, sometimes, I so wish you did.

I love bitter hotaru so much ahah

keyofjetwolf said: “We have to find a prince, maybe!” Usagi brightened at her own suggestion, “I wonder if Mamoru could–” –COULD YOU EVEN IMAGINE. For Minako’s sake, but even Mamoru’s, having to pretend he holds Minako in anything more than general contempt hahhaha

USAGI HAS NOTHING BUT FLUFF IN HER HEAD SOMETIMES

keyofjetwolf said: Rei had come to appreciate / Rei had come to despise –YESSSSS

I KNEW YOU WOULD YESSSSSS

keyofjetwolf said: “Even now?” Michiru murmured, the soft wash of her voice lapping over the hot coals of Rei’s betrayal, the steam of it pricking at Rei’s eyes. –I LAUGHED SO HARD AT THIS AND YOU KNOW WHY

I LAUGHED AT MYSELF IT’S FINE

keyofjetwolf said: “Love.” Usagi looked up at Pluto. “Love can break the spell, I’ve read that so many times!“ OH USAGI

OH USAGI

keyofjetwolf said: “She’s selfish.” Rei crossed her arms and glanced out the window, staring at whatever nothing Michiru’s eyes had moved to. “She just wants it for herself.” And Rei’s SO ANGRY that Mina was taken like this. LET herself be taken like this. Rei wouldn’t, of course, not ever. But Mina was weak, Mina failed, and that she failed in this ugly way that revealed something so antithetical to Rei as well. This couldn’t really be less about her, but she feels betrayed  and betrayed in ways she shouldn’t, which just makes her even angrier and HRRRN IT’S ALL SO COMPLICATED AND I LOVE

YES REI VERY MUCH FEELS THIS IS ABOUT REI. Mina did this to HER, on some level, even if she would never admit that this were true, she feels like MINA put her in this position. 

keyofjetwolf said: I know you know how hard I “OH DAMN!!!"ed when I read this. “I forgot that we only gleefully kill someone when they’re eight.” Please know i JUST DID IT AGAIN JUST AS HARD

DELIGHT

keyofjetwolf said: Rei, already trying to hard herself, to make the call and give the order nobody would ever WANT to give. Harder, because someone has to do it and now that someone has to be her. And beautiful, faithful Haruka, refusing just as hard as Rei’s forcing herself to be. They don’t interact much in your stories, these too, and it’s always so interesting when we get them together.

Rei and Haruka are both stubborn blowhards and so sometimes it’s really great to see them ping off each other, in the same way that Mina and Michiru are manipulative nightmares. They both as SO SURE that they are right ALL THE TIME, IMMEDIATELY. 

keyofjetwolf said: “Michiru looked out the window, gazing into an unimportant street, a note of sympathy filling her voice that was more frightening than any of Rei’s anger could have hoped to be.” Oh yeah, shit. Michiru feeling sympathetic toward Mina? At this point in their relationship? MINAKO’S TOAST

SHE DEAD

keyofjetwolf said: Please tell me this table is where they’ll ultimately have their strategy sessions, She-Ra style.

AHAHAHAH I need to write that still

keyofjetwolf said: First, I know I told you this already, but I was so delighted when you were not only on-board with this idea, but enthusiastic about it. And then to already have SO MANY WORDS. It’s silly, in a way, as I couldn’t have less to do with this, really. The idea was yours, the original was yours, this rewrite is yours. Still, there’s this weird little knot of pride, however undeserved.

NO REALLY THOUGH YOU GAVE ME A CHANCE TO REWRITE SOMETHING I’VE ALWAYS WANTED TO TOUCH UP AND I THANK YOU

[winterromanov]

look at where we’ve been (through time) - bechloe fic

based on a prompt from @isthemusictoblame who wanted a bechloe first date (round about). i really hope u like it xx

“Is it possible to actually, like, shit yourself from nerves?”

Beca scrutinises her reflection in the bedroom mirror for about the millionth time in the last hour, checking and double checking that she’s put enough concealer on that giant fucking zit that’s magically appeared overnight, quelle surprise. Maybe she should burst it. Would bursting it make it better or worse?

“Yeah,” Amy replies from across the room, flicking another page in her copy of Extreme Fishing. Beca stares back at her in the mirror, horrified. “Wait—did I say yes? I meant no. I definitely meant no. That’s happened to nobody, ever.”

Beca doesn’t exactly feel reassured. “Jesus Christ. What if I shit myself?”

“Wear extra absorbent underwear.”

“Amy, I’m going on a date. I’m wearing my sexiest underwear.”

“By sexiest underwear, do you mean your boxer shorts with the little dog faces on them? Because I’ve rummaged through your stuff enough times by now to know that they’re literally the only kind you own, you turnip.”

Okay, so that’s another thing she needs to add to her list of inappropriate things Fat Amy does to Beca’s shit when she’s not paying attention. Beca opens her mouth, but no words seem to come out. This happens a lot around Amy. She’s actually run out of reactions. Her jaw swings open and closed like a door on a loose hinge, until Amy finally looks up from her weird magazine.

“What?” Amy shrugs, “If you do want actual sexy underwear, ask Stacie. She gave me some great catalogs. The stuff is really cheap and barely worn. Honestly. The elasticity in this thong I got was pretty—“

“Please be quiet,” Beca interjects quickly, deciding to terminate that line of enquiry immediately, because the elasticity of Amy’s dodgy thongs is not something she wants to hear about right now. Suddenly self-conscious, Beca looks under the waistband of her tights, wondering what underwear she’s actually thrown on. “And for your information, my pants actually have cat faces on them today, so…”

“Oh, even worse,” Amy says dramatically, faceplanting her bedspread. “Nobody likes cats, Beca.”

Beca sticks her tongue out to Amy in her reflection. “Nobody likes you.”

“That right? I’m sure if you talked to Philippe, aged twenty-four, from Illinois, because that dude really liked those photos I sent him—“

“Can you actually speak like, one sentence without grossing me out?” Beca says exasperatedly. She tugs at where her shirt tucks into her skirt, wondering if it looks better in or out, or whether it fucking matters at all what she’s wearing. She’s never cared all that much before. “Anyway—who the fuck from Illinois has a name like Philippe?”

“I think he had a fetish for French stuff,” Amy says, like that’s totally normal, “He kept trying to get me to do weird things with garlic and this one time he sent me this video of him eating a snail. Like, a wild, free-range snail he’d found in the street.”

“That’s insane!”

“I know, right?” Amy seems to agree, “I was like, dude, but some seasoning on it at least!”

There’s silence, because Beca’s lost enough of her sanity already, and she’d ideally like to keep some of it intact for the rest of the evening. She decides to leave the shirt loose and wanders back over to her side of the room, reaching out for her phone. At the top of her notifications tray there’s a snapchat from Chloe. With a half-smile, Beca swipes it open.

It’s a picture of Chloe. Specifically, Chloe’s newly-shaved legs in a pair of the sexiest, patent-leather stilettos she’s ever seen, and Beca almost has a gay heart attack right there and then. The caption reads just for you!!! with alternating heart and fire emojis—god, she’s so fucking whipped, and it’s just the first date. God knows what she’s going to be like when she actually sees Chloe in person.

“You’ve got that face on.”

Beca’s cheeks flush bright pink as she quickly shuts off her phone and throws it on the nightstand. She pats her hair, trying to make it look like everything’s totally normal and not like she almost had an orgasm looking at a freaking photograph. “What are you talking about?”

“That face I always pull whenever Philippe sends me a pic of his huge French dick. Sort of like…” Amy opens her mouth wide, her eyes inflating twice their normal size, a hand pressed on her heart for effect. “You’ve got that face on. Has ginger sent you a tit-pic?”

“What?” Beca squeaks, “No!”

“Oh my god, has she sent you a cli—“

Beca throws a pillow at Amy to silence her, who takes the shot like a champ, collapsing onto her bed a la being-shot-by-a-flying-burrito style. “Dude. If you say one more word, I’m hacking into your email and cancelling your Extreme Fishing subscription.”

“Feel free,” Amy shrugs. She rolls up her copy and expertly aims it into the trash, where it sits amongst tampon wrappers and unfinished classwork. “I was ripped off. That magazine has nothing in it about how to fool stupid old men into thinking you’re a part-time Victoria’s Secret model and trauma surgeon online and loads about how to entice carp using natural bait. What the fuck?”

Beca nervously pads back over to the mirror, where the aforementioned zit is currently throbbing painfully and looks way redder than it did a few minutes ago. She groans loudly. “Oh my god. I look a mess. This is the first date I’ve had in months in and my whole body is totally not co-operating.”

Amy sighs, finally moving her ass from her bed and walking up to behind where Beca stands. “For the record, I don’t think you have to worry about what you look like whatsoever.”

“Really?”

“I mean, yeah, that zit on your chin is about the size of Pluto,” she supplies unhelpfully, “But Chloe doesn’t care about that shit. She only cares about seeing you—she’s mushy like that. You could rock up in a garbage bag and she’d be like wow, that bitch is hot, I wanna bang her right now.”

Beca smiles a little. Sure, Amy’s not the most eloquent of speakers when it comes to relationships and emotions and all that, but it does make her feel a bit better about the whole thing. She does have stupid underwear on and a huge spot and a ladder in her tights but Chloe has seen her at four am, vomiting over the toilet after slamming too much tequila. She’s seen her sobbing into a milkshake in the middle of the day after breaking up with Jesse. She’s seen her during finals week when she didn’t wash her hair for a whole seven days. That girl has seen her at rock bottom, yet still wants to take her messy, uncoordinated ass on a date.

“But, Beca,” Amy suddenly says in a real solemn tone, tearing her away from her thoughts, “You have to let me pop that zit.”

Beca darts away from Amy’s vicinity like that superhero from one of those stupid comicbook films Jesse loved—you know, the one with the silver hair that runs really fucking fast, but she can’t remember the name because her head is full of way more important stuff than superheroes—and throws her hand up, grabbing a hockey stick (that belongs to neither her or Amy) and using it as a makeshift cattle prod as Amy follows her around the room like a serial killer.

“You,” Beca swipes at her with the hockey stick, “Are not going anywhere near my face.”

“Come on, Beca, I’ve watched so many YouTube videos on it, I can pop them like a pro—“

“I’m leaving in literally ten minutes. I’m not letting you and your huge monster hands anywhere near my tiny face.”

“What will hurt more—me popping that zit right now for no payment, or Chloe’s look of horror when she sees the start of a mountain range emerging across your chin?”

“You just said she wouldn’t care!”

“Let’s face it, you’d have to be blind not to care about a zit that size and Chloe happened to mention to me the other day that she has perfect twenty-twenty vision. On her driving test she read a sign from a whole mile away, unbelievable, right?”

“Amy, that’s bullshit, you—no! NO! GET AWAY FROM MY FACE! HOLY SHIT, AMY!”

-x-

The whole date thing actually was unintentional. As in Beca didn’t start the day thinking she’d end it securing a date with Chloe Beale. Even though that wasn’t, like, something she thought about pretty much all the time or anything.

They’re sat on the balcony that juts out of Chloe’s attic room, their legs dangling into the abyss, watching as the hazy orange sky blurs into black. Chloe’s just been on her eighth unsuccessful Tinder date of the new year and Beca wonders why she keeps going back to that fucking app, especially when there’s so many people she encounters in her day-to-day that are actually kind-of nice and not ugly or creepy that would be desperate to date her and treat her like she deserves. Because she does. Deserve better. Much better than weird thirty-year-old cashiers with BO and a penchant for rushed sex in uncomfortable places.

“And then he got his dick out,” Chloe says dramatically, complete with hand gesture to make sure Beca completely understands, “Like, right there, in the middle of the restaurant?”

Beca snorts, taking a sip of beer. She passes the bottle to Chloe, who takes a generous swig, wiping her top lip. “Men are weird.”

“They are,” Chloe agrees, nodding sagely, “They totally are. Maybe I should swear off them. Go on a man detox or something.”

“Not a bad idea,” Beca says, like her motives aren’t totally selfish, “It’s kind of what I’ve done. After, you know, Jesse. I just swore off everything.”

Chloe sighs softly. Her arm reaches out and wraps round Beca’s shoulder and she finds herself melting into her, warm and soft jarring with the cold night air. “Still hurting about that, huh?”

“Not really. It’s just—I don’t think I’ve ever been on a good date, and that really put me off? I don’t know what’s wrong with me half the time. Because Jess—he was really nice and considerate and actually liked me, but every time we went out there was this voice going we could just do all this at home.”

“There’s nothing wrong with you,” Chloe states plainly, resolutely. She takes another drink. “What floated his boat sank yours. You were stranded at the harbor while he sailed off. You’re the captain of your own ship, Becs. And maybe you didn’t have room for another sailor.”

Beca murmurs a laugh at the excessive nautical metaphors, but Chloe’s always like this when she’s a bit drunk, verbal diarrhoea all over the place. It’s adorable. “But I do want another sailor on my, uh, boat?”

(It’s really too bad that Chloe’s looking over the balcony and down onto the lawn, because then she would’ve seen the conviction Beca looks at her with, like she’s the only person in the whole wide world that Beca would even dream of being with right now and any time ever. They’re surrounded by stars and Beca’s fucking looking at her like she’s the brightest of them all, and Beca can’t believe what a sap she’s becoming.)

“Maybe you just need a good date,” Chloe says, “And I’m, like, the queen of dating.”

Beca suddenly sits up, narrowing her eyes a little. “Is this you asking me out?”

Chloe shrugs, trying to hide her smile and failing catastrophically, because maybe this is the point she’s always wanted to reach too. “Sure. And it’ll be the best date in the world, I can assure you.”

Beca laughs, a delirious and slightly drunken giggle in the back of her throat. She clamps a hand over her mouth. “Sorry. I just can’t believe that this is happening.”

Chloe grins, leaning across and pressing a sloppy kiss to Beca’s cheek. Warmth explodes in Beca’s chest and she fights the urge to kiss her back, while she’s in this happy drunken bubble, because she’ll so regret it a few hours later when the buzz has worn off and she’s lying in bed, mapping the cracks in the ceiling.

“You’re my favourite captain,” Chloe says, her words slightly slurred, “You’d be such a bad-ass pirate. I can totally imagine you with a hat and a parrot and those big puffy pants all pirates wear.”

“You’re my favourite captain too,” Beca murmurs, “Because, like, there can be more than one captain.”

(The conversation has kind of lost its way, but it’s nice, and Beca would’ve stayed out there all night drinking beer with Chloe Beale if it didn’t start freaking raining seconds later. Fucking bitch weather always out to kill her vibe. And she totally does not scream that at the sky or anything.)

-x-

Chloe picks her up at seven thirty. Which is weird, considering they live in the same house.

“You didn’t need to ring the bell,” Beca says incredulously, Chloe stood on the doorstep. She’s wearing an off-the-shoulder floral dress that cuts just above her knees, a denim jacket and the same shoes from the photograph she sent earlier. She’s a fucking goddess. “You literally live here. You have keys.”

“I know, but the thought of someone picking me up for a date always gets me really excited, you know?” Chloe says, “I mean the surprise is kind of spoiled because you already know which car I drive, but I do have a brand new playlist I created on Spotify in preparation, and that kind of thing gets you way more excited than cars do.”

Admittedly, Beca is curious, and the effort is really touching so she lets the initial weirdness slide. “As long as there isn’t any Taylor Swift, I’m totally yours, dude.”

Chloe lifts her head. “I can’t promise that. She does have some non-breakup songs that completely fit the occasion. You look beautiful, by the way.”

The compliment is so honest and pure that it knocks some of the air out of Beca’s lungs, because Chloe just called her beautiful, and it’s the first time in a long time that she’s heard that from someone who actually means it (and who she wants to mean it). Chloe just called her beautiful on their doorstep in the most normal day in March, with a giant red splodge on her chin where Amy admittedly popped her zit successfully, and Beca wonders if she might end up remembering this day for the rest of her goddamn life.

“You look great too,” Beca says, which is an understatement, but whatever. “Now, where are you taking me?”

It turns out Chloe has booked a table at a really posh restaurant in the city, which makes Beca feel a little uncomfortable because she’s the kind of girl who is happier with takeaway pizza and sweatpants, but she trusts Chloe and her instincts. They end up at the top of a really tall building surrounded by glass and from their table they can see across the whole of Atlanta, beautiful and illuminated by artificial light. Before she sits Beca presses a hand against the window, waving at the world below.

“You like it?” Chloe asks, standing next to her. Their reflections blur, merging into one another, like for a moment they’re the same person. “Someone I used to work with recommended it to me. Told me it was like you were on top of the world.”

Beca grins; she’s on top of the world, but it’s not all because of the view.

-x-

Surprisingly, Beca doesn’t actually hate the date. For brief, dark seconds she imagines Jesse is the one sat in the chair opposite and her stomach turns, tangled with nerves, scared she’s going to do the wrong thing or say something stupid or embarrass herself in front of her boyfriend. But she blinks and there’s Chloe, grinning and talking madly, and she’s not anxious at all.

(Fuck you, Amy. Shitting has been avoided, absorbent underwear aside.)

They do cute couple-y things like hold hands across the table and share dessert and make other diners uncomfortable. It doesn’t bother her. It’s not new knowledge to her that some people are yet to be dragged into the twenty-first century. She lets Chloe chat the evening away, because listening to Chloe talk is like her favourite song over and over and over again.

When the waiter drops the extortionate bill Beca doesn’t want the night to end. Luckily, Chloe has no plans to.

“Do you wanna see something awesome?” she says, lips curled into a mischievous smile, and Beca would be a grade A idiot to say no to something like that.

“Oh, absolutely.”

-x-

Apparently Chloe knows the security guard who watches over the Atlanta Aquarium. All she does is flutter her eyelashes at the guy stood at the front desk while she’s outside and the doors creak open, letting the two of them in. She grabs Beca’s hand and pulls her through corridors of eerie, dark tanks, illuminated by pale blue lights. She finally stops at a tank that takes over a whole back wall, fish of all shapes and sizes and colours drifting together right in front of them. It’s completely silent, other than the whirr of filters, bubbles rising to the surface.

“For the record,” Beca says, quiet and breathless, “This is the kind of shit that only ever happens in John Green novels.”

“I love John Green novels,” Chloe replies, and when Beca turns, she’s somehow fished a whole bottle of rose wine from somewhere in her jacket. Beca just shakes her head out of disbelief. “Want to get drunk in an aquarium with me?”

Beca untwists the cap, taking the first drink. “As if you even had to ask that question.”

They sit down on the floor a few meters away from the glass and pass the bottle between them, toes of their shoes touching the tank. Beca watches as a fish doused in bronze swims out in front of them, face touching the glass. She lazily points out in front of them. “That one looks like you.”

Chloe snorts. “What, because it’s red?”

“Yeah. It’s red. Like you.”

“In that case,” Chloe leans out, clumsy fingertip landing where a near-microscopic fish internally lit up by a flash of electric blue sits unmoving. “That one looks like you.”

“Well, it’s a good job I’m no longer sensitive about height jokes. You lose.”

Chloe brings the bottle to her lips, taking a sip before speaking. “You know… I meant what I said earlier.”

Beca brushes a strand of her hair away from her face. “About what?”

“That you look beautiful,” Chloe answers matter-of-factly. Beca’s heart stops. “I just think—like, sometimes you need telling. That you are. Beautiful, I mean. I don’t think you believe it.”

Beca half-remembers some line Jesse used on her in freshman year, something about being halfway to his standard of beautiful, and how it didn’t really bother her at the time but after the breakup it kind of gnawed at her, like she was the person she is now because of him and what she thought he wanted. But Chloe… she’s never expected her to be anything, to look like anything. She just wants her to be Beca, whether that’s with the earspike or not, and maybe it took her too long to realise that. Jesse was nice, sure. But there was always this extra layer of expectation with him. Like—she wasn’t quite perfect, to him, and he was trying his hardest to make her that way.

She doesn’t want to be the perfect girlfriend. She likes being messy and nervous and a bit out of control, sometimes. And Chloe gets that. Chloe has always got that.

Beca takes a long drink, refusing to meet Chloe’s eye. She watches the fish, a beautiful, messy rainbow of colours and movement, and how that’s a bit like the Bella’s, this crazy group of crazy girls that somehow all work. “You know, I’ve been thinking a lot lately about—what would’ve happened to me, if you’d never violated me in the showers that day. Like where would I be right now, without the Bella’s? And without… well, you.”

Chloe shrugs nonchalantly, but Beca feels her shoulders tighten. “I don’t know, Becs. I don’t tend to dwell on what ifs. I like the here and now.”

Beca smiles into the bottle. “Yeah, I mean, the here and now is pretty good.”

“Yeah?” Chloe smiles back. Her feet reach out, her toes tapping against Beca’s. “I think it’s pretty good too.”

-x-

“Can I tell you a secret?”

“Go for it, dude.”

“I was… really nervous about tonight. Like, really nervous.”

“What? Really?”

“Yeah. Totally skitzing it. I rang up Aubrey in a total panic. Luckily she knocked some sense into me. You know what she’s like.”

“…What did Aubrey say? If you don’t mind me asking.”

“She said get a grip Chloe, this is Beca Mitchell we’re talking about, she might think she’s God’s gift but she’s really not that special.”

“Geez. She doesn’t live and let die, does she?”

“No, no, but—she also said that out of everyone, she’d never seen anyone make me so happy, so you mustn’t be all bad. Mostly, but not all.”

“…I make you happy?”

“Of course you do, weirdo. Before you rolled into my life there was, like, a huge Beca-shaped hole in it. Only I didn’t realise it was Beca-shaped at the time, but if I had that would’ve been a really weird coincidence, right?”

“Huh. Yeah. Right.”

-x-

(It’s weird, because there’s always been a hole in Beca’s life too, and it’s the kind of hole that’s made her feel completely and utterly empty for so many years, and when Jesse didn’t fill it she thought there was something seriously wrong with her. But then Chloe—she slipped in so effortlessly Beca didn’t even realise, and it knocks her for six, because an actual person has made her feel actually complete for once in her turbulent life and it happened so naturally that it passed her by, passed her perfectly, and everything is suddenly right.)

-x-

They finish the night where it all started. On Chloe’s balcony.

The wine is long gone but Beca knows where Jessica hides her secret stash (in the gap behind the fridge, FYI, she’s really not that stupid, Jess) so she brings back two full bottles, drops one in Chloe’s lap. She has no idea where the rest of the girls are but there’s music, bassy and loud, coming from the Treble’s House—a party she’s missing out on, perhaps, not that she cares.

“I think I’ve realised something,” Beca says, plonking herself down next to Chloe, their knees touching. Chloe lifts her head up as if to say oh? “Yeah. I don’t think I actually hate dating.”

“Oh!” Chloe squeals excitedly, “Have I officially converted you?”

“Oh, no, not at all,” Beca says, killing Chloe’s high with a grin when she looks like a wounded puppy, “No, it was great, I loved it. But—I’m thinking, maybe it wasn’t the dating I hated? Maybe it was the… company, I wasn’t happy with.”

Chloe grins quietly, staring down at her knees, where Beca’s hand rests on her own. Her fingers reach across, cover them, and Beca clings on like a lifeline. “What about now?”

“This company,” Beca says, raising their intertwined hands, studying them carefully like she’s working them out. She nods resolutely. “I think this company is kind of alright.”

It would be just wrong for Chloe not to lean across and kiss her.

-x-

“By the way, that picture you sent me was, like, smoking hot.”

“Oh, you liked it?”

“Chlo, Amy thought I was looking at porn, that’s how much I liked it.”

“Well… there’s plenty more where that came from.”

“There better be. You know I’m only dating you for sexy photos, right?”

“Yeah. Totally. I knew that was a given the minute I asked you out.”

“Good. I’m glad we’re on the same page. It would be a bit embarrassing if we weren’t.”

“Good.”

“Awesome.”

“Cool.”

“…Should we kiss again?”

“That sounds like a great plan.”

“Awesome.”

[automnehiver]

For the lesbian as : 1 to 50. Do them all. T'aura pas le courage, I dare you

Don’t fucking underestimate me (thanks for the ask, I actually really wanted to do this ; find one so I can make you do the same)

1. Sun lesbian or moon lesbian

Moon I guess, since I became all romantic and shit staring at the moon and smoking when I had my first love as a teen

2. Flannel lesbian or sweater lesbian

Flannel………………………………….

3. Curly fry lesbian or waffle fry lesbian

Honestly I ???? We don’t even have these in France, but curly sounds fun

4. Thrift store lesbian or high brow lesbian

Thrift store for some things but I also like things that are a bit classy, over all coats………but you could also find me picking up a jean jacket from a thrift shop so………………………..it’s hard to choose one tbh

5. 70’s disco lesbian or 90’s grunge lesbian

90′s !!! I love old shirts with shitty designs and pastel colors from the overuse

6. Fat cat lesbian or hairless cat lesbian

Fat cat, but I’d prefer my cat healthy honestly ; poor cat

7. Chinese takeout lesbian or pizza delivery lesbian

CHINESE TAKEOUT

8. Big dog lesbian or tiny dog lesbian

Big dog, wtf are even chihuahuas

9. MoMA lesbian or metropolitan lesbian

Louvre lesbian, sry

10. Matte nail lesbian or glossy nail lesbian

No nail polish lesbian, since you can’t possibly use your fingers for sex if you put on some ; unless you’re a gloves-during-sex lesbian but yeah no

11. Red lipstick lesbian or dusty rose lesbian

I love both, I put red sometimes but I literally have a damas rose lipstick that looks a little dusty !!

12. Crop top lesbian or maxi dress lesbian

What’s a maxi dress ? I love dresses, I wear one from time to time but I never wore a crop top, though I find it hot

13. Neck kisses lesbian or forehead kisses lesbian

Neck kisses……………definitely (to give and to get)

14. Fluffy fat cat lesbian or tiny hairless cat lesbian

Fluffy cat ! What’s with hairless cats, are lesbians in particular supposed to like them more than other persons ?

15. Leather jacket lesbian or letterman jacket lesbian

Leather jacket !!!

16. Puts too much salt on food lesbian or too much pepper

Too much salt probably……I drown my pasta in maggi

17. Glitter eyeshadow lesbian or matte eyeshadow lesbian

Matte, but it’s been a long time since I’ve put any on ! I’d rather have a really cool lipstick and some mascara

18. Flower lesbian or succulent lesbian

I have both in my house, how should I pick one ? I love succulents, it’s super cute, but I can’t get enough of fresh flowers

19. Ugly cat print sweater lesbian or jean jacket that looks like it’s been through a war lesbian

Jean jacket that looks like it’s been through a war hahahaha

20. Spaghettis lesbian or Kraft dinner lesbian

Spaghettis please

21. Hot chocolate lesbian or lemonade lesbian

I love both to death, over all when the hot chocolate is thick and creamy and a bit strong…but lemons are so cool, ghhhghhghgh can’t pick

22. Champagne lesbian or whiskey lesbian

Definitely whisky

23. Dark aesthetic lesbian or pastel aesthetic lesbian

I’d say pastel for some things but if unicorns are pastel aesthetic then nah ; but I was way darker in my teens

24. Silk velvet lesbian or crushed velvet lesbian

Silk velvet, oh god ; I hate crushed velvet

25. Ball gown lesbian or tuxedo lesbian

Tuxedoooo

26. Forest lesbian or space lesbian

Forest…….I think it’s obvious when you look at my tumblr

27. Lennon glasses lesbian or aviators lesbian

Lennon glasses !! I have a few pairs like this

28. Hestia lesbian or Artemis Lesbian

ARTEMIS IS A QUEEN

29. Nose piercing lesbian or belly button piercing lesbian

Belly button, so it can be kissed

30. Electric guitar lesbian or ukulele lesbian

Honestly I love ukulele, but I also really really like electric guitar………probably ukulele

31. Converse lesbian or doc martens lesbian

Doc martens are life dude

32. Hayley Kiyoko lesbian or Mary Lambert lesbian

Allie X, Tove Lo and Tame Impala lesbian ; I like Hayley but not all of her songs

33. Olive Garden lesbian or Chiles lesbian

Olive garden I guess, but again, we don’t have these restaurants in France

34. Tarot card lesbian or astrology lesbian

Astrology I think, I love constellations and stars

35. Peppermint lesbian or cinnamon lesbian

Cinnamon, but it really isn’t my fave…lately I’ve been developing a thing for strong vanilla in cakes and creams

36. Playing-with-her-hair lesbian or getting-hair-played-with lesbian

Playing with her hair…I don’t know if you saw that Brieuc but when Judith and I were on the couch on Saturday night I started doing it and I didn’t even notice, and I had rarely done it before

37. Victim of tickle attacks lesbian or tickle attacker lesbian

Tickle attacker…I’m unbearable, I’m a fucking child. I’m also the kind of asshole who throws snowballs at you if we’re taking a walk together in winter

38. Tiny tattoo lesbian or whole sleeve of tattoos lesbian

Tiny tattoo, but I love tattoos so much that one day, maybe………

39. Lady and the tramp lesbian or aristocats lesbian

Aristocats ! I was identifying with Thomas O’Malley so much when I was little…I also wanted to be the Tramp in Lady and the tramp, how. about. that

40. Cool Rock collection lesbian or cool leaf collection lesbian

Ooohhhh definitely rock since I have one but I would really like to start a leaf one

41. Art hoe lesbian or music hoe lesbian

Art hoe, but you all knew I was going to reply that right ? Though I get so easily caught in music and when I can appreciate art with musics in my ears I just orgasm

42. 80’s windbreaker lesbian or 80’s blazer lesbian

Blazer I guess, but some colors on windbreakers from the 80′s are super dope

43. Mom jeans lesbian or skinny jeans lesbian

Skinny jeans !

44. Silver lesbian or gold lesbian

Mostly silver I think but there’s one item of gold jewelry I’m wearing all the time because it’s a gift from my girlfriend and I love it so much

45. Flower crown lesbian or snap back lesbian

Can’t get enough of flowers, but I think snap backs on girls are hot

46. Annie on my mind lesbian or rubyfruit jungle lesbian

Wicked lesbian ; though I would like to read these books now that I know about them !

47. Breakfast club lesbian or princess bride lesbian

Uhhh didn’t see any of these, but I saw a bunch of teen movies with Anne Hathaway in it because I think she’s gorgeous

48. “Wanna cuddle?” Lesbian or surprise hug attack lesbian

Surprise hug attack and you have to be ready because I’ll be fucking glued to you if I start ; but other times I can be fucking cold and distant if I am lost in my thoughts or working on something

49. Jupiter lesbian or Pluto lesbian

Neptune is prettier

50. Make her mixtapes lesbian or sketchbook filled with drawings of her lesbian

Sketchbook filled with drawings of her (I somehow lost inspiration during some time because all I could draw was her). Plus she has better taste in music than I do