#also I was on my period all this past week
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William was still driving when Sebastian texted him. He knew it was wrong, but he slowed down a little, and texted him back with one hand while still driving.
‘On my way. Wait in your room, will come fetch you <3’
Ah, he just knew that the way he was driving between St Michael’s and the hospital over this past week will earn him a few tickets… well, he will worry about that later.
He parked in front of the hospital, and headed upstairs to Sebastian’s room. His boyfriend, as mentioned, was already pretty much ready to go. He was dressed, and William noticed that he had some paperwork with him, discharge papers, prescriptions, list of follow-up appointment dates, and any restrictions that Sebastian should be mindful of during recovery period. William gave Sebastian a kiss to greet him, and then started fumbling through the paperwork right away, just to check if everything was clear to him, if there was something that he still wanted to ask doctor Cole about. He made mental notes of all the important dates, and also remembered that they should stop by the pharmacy on the way. Everything seemed clear, and he was confident he can take good care of Sebastian. And if anything - Isa was a doctor too, he could always call her.
“Alright… babe, I think we’ve got everything. We can get going.” William smiled, taking Sebastian’s hand there. “How are you feeling today, love? Excited to get back home and see the kitties? Oh, I have a surprise for you too - since I will spend the whole day with you today, I brought Dexter over to your place this morning. He will hang out with us. I figured that one more cat to love is a nice surprise for you, isn’t it?” William grinned.
They said their goodbyes to Sebastian’s roommate, the nice older gentleman, wishing him all good health. And then, finally, they headed out of the hospital together.
For I have sinned...
The principal cleared his throat, eyes scanning the notes that he had wrote down before this meeting. It already lasted an hour, and the teachers gathered in the faculty room were becoming restless and bored. But indeed there were some things to discuss, with the concert that the senior class was supposed to perform at the end of the semester, and with recent staff changes.
William glanced down at his watch, sighing softly. His class was starting in 15 minutes, so at least, whether the meeting will be done soon or not, he will get to excuse himself. He looked out of the window, his mind wandering. Principal’s voice turned into white noise in the background. It was a pleasant day, late summer. But William was looking forward to a slightly cooler weather. Wearing all black could really be bothersome at times.
“And lastly, I am pleased to announce that we have finally found replacement for the violin teacher. Dear Mr Tanaka, may he rest in peace, was with us for so many years that I’ve been concerned we won’t be able to find someone as good as to fill this position.” the principal spoke. “But Mr… Michaelis, was highly recommended to me, and he indeed has impressive references. He will be starting this week, so please welcome him warmly once he will arrive. Ah yes… about that. He will arrive today at noon, I need someone to pick him up from the train station and bring over for the tour around the school. Any volunteers?”
William was barely listening, and definitely not paying much attention. He glanced at his watch again, and saw that it was time to leave, as his class was about to start. He raised his hand to excuse himself, and little did he know, he just volunteered.
“Father William! Excellent!” the principal exclaimed. “Just don’t be late, the train arrives at noon.”
“Train…?” William questioned, raising his brow. He had a feeling he was missing something…
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Right after the meeting, William had to run for the class, so he had little time to clarify what exactly he had volunteered for. He was a piano teacher in this Music Academy, but also he served as a priest in local church. Well respected, and rather liked. So when he later found out it was about the new violin teacher, he didn’t refuse. Who, other than himself, would be a better choice to introduce a newcome to their community?
So even though he raised his hand by accident, he accepted this fate.
After classes, at noon, William took a taxi and drove to the train station, to pick up their new teacher. Wearing black trousers, and a black shirt with a thin tie, was absolutely dreadful in this weather, so William quickly found shelter under the roof of the station platform, that provided some shade.
The train had just arrived. William had no idea how Mr Michaelis looked like, but he figured he will just look for someone carrying a violin case with them.
He was in for a bit surprise.
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I can’t tell if my support systems are shit or if I am just that much of a crybaby. Probably both
#I was supposed to meet with my therapist and then cowork with someone#they both cancelled in the space of ten minutes#it was fair but I have no backups lol#and my other friend told me something I should fix in my app and said she would call#hasn’t#the application is due in an hour and a half.#then my computer froze#so now I’m restarting it#also I have a dissertation chapter due#that got extended by a week but I’m still not done#and I don’t understand how to incorporate the material I was given#also I was on my period all this past week#actually now that I spell it out what the fuck#maybe I should kill myself#it would be traumatic for friends but with a little therapy they could push past it!#it’s for the PLOT
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looping echidna beastlife gif from trying to figure out toonboom
#based loosely off the bird who keeps taunting my cats through the window. brown headed cowbird who will sit there#and flap it's wings and yell until the cats show up and then it starts pecking at the window and jumping back and forth in front of them#weird bird.#it's done this for like two years now i think#anyways. sound it makes when it fluffs up is vaguely similar to echidnas birdsong soundboard noise thing. so. yeag#whisp whispers#my art#ALSO. ANIMATION PRECOLLEGE IS SO AWESOME. IM SO. AHRHRHNFMDM GET ME OUT OF HIGHSCHOOL PRLESDRRRE GIVE ME AN ART TEACJER WHO CARES ABOUT ART#it's so awesome here. toonboom access!!!! this is so awesome. guys toonboom is so awesome. not to turn a hobby into a job but like i was#genuinely kind of sad when i didn't get to go to school over the weekend it's so awesome here. who was going to tell me college doesn't suck#miserably all the time. like it's a precollege but still this is so ??? so much better than anything i've done in the past 8 years#<-except for fine crafts one i miss u fine crafts ...... not even a fine arts credit. but it was a nice class#anyways point being. hm. maybe i could animate for a job. i used to think about it but hs art magnet is so bad guys it's so bad .and i#was like hm this sucks actually. also like worst period of my life but that's unrelated . but this is so. nice? and im DOING things and i#feel like i'm learning??? god i hope dual enrollment goes well maybe i will be able to make it through college...#im so. this is so awesome. precollege animation 2-week intensive thing i love you i love you i love you#BTW GUYS DID YOU KNOW ALL AUTODESK PRODUCTS ARE FREE AS LONG AS UR IN ANY SCHOOLING. MAYA. FOR FREE. FOR AS LONG AS ENROLLED IN ANY SCHOOL#AND THEN SOME !!! i don't even like 3d modeling that much but. maya for free??? that's awesome. that's awesome!! anyways#rambling. i think i missed all normal tags. uhhhhhhhhh#beastlife#<-oh no i only missed that one. awesome. guys i love it here this is so. arbrnsnnm i love you figure drawing. i'm having fun!#with charcoal!!!!! i thought i hated charcoal but this is like !!!!! so aweosme ?????? i'm#this is so awesome. this is so awesome. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Workout update !! Damn the schedule >:(
#I haven’t done a whole lot the past 2 days due to a) wretched period and b) worked late last night alas#I’m a little frustrated bc I WANT TO (I sound like a broken record but I’m SO SO HAPPY THAT I WANT TO!!!! THIS IS A GOOD THING!!)#but today was my rest day according to my app so I am gonna take it#I think one more day of letting my hand just chill is probably good#and also last time I missed a couple workout days and then ignored the rest day I suffered KDHSNDJS#thas okay tho we bounce back again tomorrow 💪💪💪#anyway thanks for tuning in to Lynx workout updates I’m here all week folks#lynx talks
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I need either to eat someone's period pussy or have my period pussy eaten
#I'm sorry for all these really horrible posts in the past week#Also I am not on my period actually but maybe will be soon. I don't keep track idk it's all based on vibes
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wishing everyone a happy end to the week!! 💗
#i haven't been on for a while!! i miss u all!!#been busy this entire week catching up with friends & making impt calls#and then i also got my period bHSBFAH so ive just been sleeping a lot the past few days#but im writing rn!!!!!#the end is in sight#im in the 7/9 scene already#its so close i can tasTE IT#then ill start editing#and then hopefully it can be up by next week#my goal really was to finish this fic by this weekend!!!#anyway ! ill be back to answer asks and check drafts and posts and things !!#i talked so much again
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man i think i’m 5 seconds away from a mental breakdown
#I’m actually running out of money now despite working 6 days a week and making 6 figures#Because I bought my acreage with my brother and factored him paying 1/3 of the expenses BUT he’s decided to be unemployed for 1.5 years#I pay the mortgage mortgage insurance utilities internet groceries#I have $800/month in student loan payments#I have to spend like $150/week on gas because my commute is 2 hrs round trip every day#I only eat one meal a day usually because I don’t have the time to grocery shop or cook usually and my brother only cooks for himself#I do all of the chores and at least 1/2 of the yard work#I have the heaviest workload of any of my coworkers (which has been acknowledged but my manager says his hands are tied#Because if he took work off of my plate he’s have to give it to someone else and there is no one else)#I’m being severely underpaid at my job ($4 under the STARTING wage for a pharmacist now despite me working there for 3 years.#But I “got the largest raise last year” lmfao#I’ve been seeing someone but he works nights and his schedule is wack and it results in me going to bed at 3am some nights#I’m also on call this week so I have to be ready to answer calls at any time past 11pm#My hair is legit pulling out in clumps and my hair is half of my personality :(#i’m about to mcfuckin lose it#Brain feels like mashed potato#Oh also I’m on my fucking period
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operation "how much estrogen leeway do we have" has commenced and it's only been 2 days but i'm so frustrated my muscles are still acting like they've been through a marathon
#the past month has been trash and i've spent sooo many work days at home already this year#operation estrogen might fail which would leave us in an interesting place bc idk what the fuck he's gonna try next#except for a more radical surgery#which like. i'm down but endo seems to never get properly treated on surgery alone#though i guess mine might be if they surgically remove everything necessary to get rid of my periods#i'm just like#so frustrated by the way this takes time#and my endo is still like. comparatively not bad. and i've not struggled with it that long#relatively speaking#hiding from work helps a tad until i then have to return to work after an absence#i feel guilty about not being at work but i also just really want to have arms that don't feel like lead#i want to have energy for one after work activity once in a while#and like. my doctor is determined to get me there#they all keep telling me that it is important that i'm good and not just surviving#i'm just really tired#and i have to speak to the counselor tomorrow which#is good and mature but i truly don't fucking want to#i have fridays off to 'get more rest' but like#i do one thing on the weekend and it knocks me the fuck out#traitorous goddamn body#we shall see what the counselor says before i message my endo doctor agAIn but i don't think i'm any more capable of working full weeks#now than i was 4 weeks ago#i haven't worked a full week in the 6 weeks since school came back#rip to me#😔#some day my whiny text posts will be but a memory#i say as if i have any faith
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once again in a murderous mood due to the menstrual agonies
#it doesnt happen often but SOMETIMES i will get cramps on-and-off BEFORE i actually get my period#and this time the actual period is A WEEK LATE (no im not pregnant) but i STILL get the cramps#and tmi but i was changing my cup last night and saw a teeenie-tiny bit if blood and was like ughh FINALLY#and i even woke up in the middle of the night due to cramps (FOR THE SECOND NIGHT IN A ROW)#BUT THEN! THIS MORNING! NO BLOOD IN THE CUP#AND EVERY TIME I GET THE BEGINNINGS OF A CRAMP ITS LIKE#'if i dont take pain meds IMMEDIATELY i will be bed-ridden with the pain fpr 6hrs' cause missing that window means meds have no effect#so the FAKE cramps#they START in the same way the real ones do but dont develop into that intolerable all-encompassing lvl 8-10 pain#but i can never KNOW for certain which ones i got until i see that theres actual blood#so ive been taking HIGH doses of pain meds for the past 4 days now 🤪🤪🤪#anyway#i wish they did hysterectomies when patients just like. asked them to.#but also i wish i didnt have only bad experiences with obgyns because every time ive gone i havent received help#but i HAVE been told 'oh the pain is just normal but it CAN be lessened SOMEWHAT after giving birth! :~) '#ok let me just get preggers real quick and then give birth and then dump the baby in a dumpster somewhere i guess#cause i sure as shit dont want one#i feel like perhaps having a growing organism grow inside and draw nutrients/resources from your own organism#and then ripping you open as it exits#is more difficult for a body to handle than the surgical removal of an organ#also the former takes 9months and is followed by a lifetime of commitment or any and all distress coming from putting it up for adoption#and the latter is over within a matter of hours and you never have to worry about periods pregnancies or parenthood ever again#anyway vol 2#im at my limit etc etc etc#berry talk
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ughh cuz she said the main reason she broke up w me was cuz she didn’t see this lasting long term and i don’t disagree w her!! i don’t think we’d last forever and i don’t know if i’d want to but also i def saw it lasting at least a few years. not forever bht maybe till we graduated so that’s why i’m sad cuz i guess our ideas of “long term” were very different
#likeeee come on. not even 6 months#it wasn’t even five months#and we were genuinely doing so good#like i guess i’m just really confused aboht where all this came from!!!#cuz we were fine all fucking summer!!!#yeah maybe it was hard only being able to face time but we knew we’d see each other again in the fall#and she said she’d only started thinking about it the past week or so#as in the exact time period where we were both on trips one after the other and couldn’t facetime#as in the one time in summer we weren’t having daily calls#and i keep thinking to myself like how does she know it wasn’t just a one time thing and how does she know she wasn’t just overthinking#but also in reality i know she wouldn’t have broken up w me if it wasn’t serious#i know this was a hard decision for her so i can’t just assume things aboht her feelings / thoughts#it just really fucking sucks cuz like!!! all the fucking what ifs!!!!#i just really wish maybe she’d waited for my opinion even though i know it’s probs the best for her as a person#so i can’t be mad thag she didn’t. but i’m still going to be sad about it#sunny rambles
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me: i should do some productive stuff today, like post the things you have to sell to ebay and apply for some jobs
my depression: not today satan
#in my defense the job i wanted to apply to had the link taken down even tho it hadnt even been up a week yet#and i did post one thing on ebay#i got stressed during the second posting and gave up#ive been really feeling bad about myself lately though#ya know....being jobless and all that but also about all the weight i gained over the past 7 mos due to all the stress#but maybe im just on my period idk
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The last time I cried over missing my boyfriend was when I was drunk and 3 time zones away. Now Im sitting in my own bedroom, sober as can be, and I cant get him out of my damn head
#screaming.to.the.gods#i haven’t seen him in over a week - but Im supposed to tomorrow night#we’ve been texting all weekend too. He wanted to see me Friday. but I had a friend visiting from out of town#but Im also thinking about a conversation I need to have with him before our trip in 2 weeks#and Im only gonna get a few chances to have it in person which woulf be much better#basically explaining some boundaries *I* need because of some past trauma#and I know he wont have a problem with any of it. god he is so compassionate I am so fucking thankful for him#but knowing its a conversation I need to have is the stressful part#and I think that stress combines with being on my period and just. missing him. is what is making me an emotional wreck#but he said he has a gift for me tomorrow#and Im excited for it#i went out and bought him a pokemon hoodie#partially so I can have one to steal since he is so picky about his hoodies#but yeah. i really miss him and really want a hug. which is so wild to me#i hate when people touch me. i hate hugs. but he’s different#hes like a security blanket. warm and safe.#and I just want to be wrapped in that safety#uhg okay Ill stop ranting about my first world problems#love you guys though
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i said i wouldn’t do it this time but it’s 3am and mods asleep. boy
#welcome to another episode of Luke is insane abt hockey boy!#this time featuring a guy who is actually this time almost (ALMOST) confirmed to be queer#the almost is partly me being insane because I don’t trust anything anymore#but like. there are only so many reasons you wear pride converse. that is not ally behaviour#it just threw me this time I think bc I’d been like no. heterosexual. bc I think I became aware of him when he joined the real hockey team#because the OTHER problem is that the whole time I’d been thinking he was cute as hell (bc he is) and simultaneously being like no. bad.#anyway this meant that I have actually talked to him a bunch without overthinking it this term which honestly has been very cool#not like a whole lot but we’ve played together a decent amount and hopefully will keep doing that#and yesterday discovered hes recommending other people talk to me abt goalieing which is insane to me bc I am truly not that good#but apparently I made an impression!#anyway it does not help that this guy has gotten incredibly good at hockey in the past few months#idk man I make bad decisions (I say as if this was a decision) bc it is now the end of term once again <3#which means absolutely nothing can or will happen until after summer. which isn’t an issue#I’m just frustrated by my tendency to realise these things right before I’m about to not see the guy for X period of time#I also desperately need to stop crushing on hockey boys I swear but in my defence that is the main way I meet people#I think I’m cursed actually. that would explain many things#anyway he also has exams until next Tuesday which means he’ll be at hockey next week but idk abt this week which is devastating#i just wanna have talk to the guy more honestly to see how that goes bc we’ve not rlly talked individually for an extended time yknow.#in other words we have not had A Conversation it’s been groups or like quicker exchanges#he’s kinda quiet but i can’t quite tell which way yknow. I know he’s Watching basically all the time. and he is slightly awkward#which is also kinda cute. he gets a lil rambly when he talks abt hockey and I wanna push that button more#i. topsy if you’re reading this you’re gonna laugh so hard I just realised. he’s captain of the team now.#which sidenote is INSANE bc he started playing with them THIS YEAR#but oh my god. okay.#anyway. I need to start complimenting guys more for multiple reasons but also#1. he dresses very cool 2. he caught me looking at his shirt last week without saying anything (BEFORE I caught the rainbow converse)#i compliment women on their clothes and jewellery and hair and shit all the time but I do not with men bc. I mean do I need to explain.#but this is so unfair I am haunted by existence of boy and here we are once again. posting on tumblr with the possibility of seeing him lik#two more times before summer. might be three or four depending on what he comes to#luke.txt
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brain being STUPID
#i know its hormones 10000%#like im on my period and running a fever rn. but hes been in ireland this week so i havent been texting him bc international fees and all#and also i dont wanna be distracting him while hes out on vacation yk. he should be having fun not texting me#but now that hes back a little voice in my brains like HE HASNT TEXTED YET!! HES GOING TO PHASE YOU OUT!!#and im not actively worried about that?? bc theres no reason to be?? but idk man im sick of my brain trying to self sabotage#like when i was in bed next to him having a full blown panic attack while most of my thoughts were completely calm and collected#and mostly along the lines of 'this is stuuuupppiiiiiddd 🙄'#its just when i let my guard down (like when im going to bed or getting sick) that this shit strikes. and its annoying bc i dont BELIEVE it#and sometimes its even stuff i make an active point of NOT believing#like when i was having that nervous breakdown the only part of my rational brain that was actually upset was the part that thought#'this isnt in line with my principles. i do not want my past experiences to make me a distrustful person and i loathe the fact that i cant#put this feeling out of my body despite that'#stupid. my brain should do what i want. why else is it there
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everytime i think im done ranting i remember something else LMFAO this one is extra long i hit tag limit god mf damn
#self#for instance.....my mom wants me to cut off everyone who is still tied to the school#and im so mad at myself for feeling a certain type of way when the campus manager called me not too long ago basically to tell me she doesnt#trust the girl who did this shit and she wasnt mad at me but was also mad at me for bringing her to her dads house#for reference we were trying to get a cat from the campus managers dads house LMFAO#and i honestly cannot wait to speak to her again and be like 😔 god dammit you were right like you were every single time#i just dont understand the wiring in her head to think the shit she says and does to people is normal and okay and how she doesnt realize it#is literally a mental health break. when i finally told my mom the first thing she said was shes probably off her medication#which.....probably isnt wrong sadly coming from someone who has borderline and very easily can lose it#but the difference is i dont give in to the urges to try to hurt everyone around me in every way i can#and me and her have said before that we thought she might also have borderline because we were very similar#but god damn does she love proving that if she has it its extremely severe or its something else entirely#on an honest note. shes incredibly narcissistic and i know her mom is part of the reason shes that way bc she was given princess treatment#her entire fucking life and then doesnt understand when other people dont treat her the same way#i hate rambling about this and i hate it that it is bothering me so fucking bad but like ???#if youre going to decide that you can put our past aside period and move on then fucking do that and stop bringing the past up as a way to#hurt me and the people around you???? she acts like shes not done horrible fucking things to people. so sorry i wrote a letter that was very#honest at the time. so sorry that when you found out i apologized for it and said i regret it because 2 weeks after my apology i no longer#regret writing it. if its making school a living hell for you....theres probably a reason for that girlfriend#i am not the person who put that shit in your folder#though i seriously fucking doubt its actually in her folder shes probably assuming it is#and youre the one who made a complete ass of yourself to every educator that ever stepped foot in that building#that has nothing to do with me that you are a literal warning given to every new educator!!!! i havent even been in school there in months#yet IM the problem??? how am i the problem when i graduated in fucking january???? everything since then falls on you#AND YET AGAIN! MIGHT I MENTION! IT IS NOT JUST MY LETTER!!! THERES AT LEAST 2 OTHER ONES!!!!!#BECAUSE IM NOT THE ONLY PERSON SHE DOES THIS SHIT TO!!!!#god sometimes i sit back and realize that theres a reason she regresses as a person and i do not#im not going to sit still anymore and let someone walk all over me and she can thank herself for that#shes who taught me that blocking and running as fast as i can doesnt fix anything#so here we are bitch. youre not blocked and im sure youre sitting at home thinking about how youre right about everything
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I’m finally out of my ugly phase yasss let’s goooo
#tw body talk#tw body image#does anyone else’s face and body go into an ugly phase like two weeks before their period?#my body gets all bloated#my face too#and it just doesn’t look right???#it just looks ugly af#it’s my marination period#so during this period I also let my eyebrows grow out and get unkempt#and I literally don’t even look at myself in the mirror bc I know I’m looking ugly af 😂😂😂#also my mood swings are all over the place during this period#THEN once I do hit my period#my face and body start going back to normal#and now I’m on day three of my period and I looked at the mirror this morning like WHO is this person 🤭🤭🫡🫡#cos my ugly phase is almost over#once I decide my period is over (day four so tomorrow)#I start the maintenance phase#aka getting my brows done#oiling my hair#waxing my body#oh and that post period skinny hits too!!! 😌😌#and I have to get laser done too#I haven’t touched my face during my ugly phase these past two weeks#and I haven’t gotten laser done for two months so it’s starting to show#but by mid next week I’ll be feeling SO good I know it#my thoughts 💭
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