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I just read your melvik headcanons, and I love them! They're just *chef's kiss*
Do you perhaps have some skyce headcanons for us?👀
Skyce! - SFW/NSFW headcanons ( •ॢ◡-ॢ)-♡
A/N: I've been itching all over to actually do the Skyce headcanons but every time I get lost in giggling and kicking my feet like crazy so instead of actually doing it I sit down to doodle them. I have like 4 other asks asking for Skyce headcanons and @acedragontype asked me also, so let's actually do it this time. Season 1 Skyce ONLY (Same as the Melvik ones, I assume exclusivity) headcanons because for season 2...you'll see, I have been working on something for the past three weeks. If I finish it will be so worth the wait.
Melvik version
Also THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO FUCKs WITH MY SILLY CRACKSHIP!!!
SFW headcanons
When Viktor first sneaks Sky into the Academy there is a period of time where Jayce disapproves of her involvement, especially because he thinks she is giving him the cold shoulder. Sky's first impression of Jayce is that he is a genius, although quite eclectic. That rubs her wrong. Mix that with the fact she is shyer than Viktor and these two get off on the wrong foot purely due to a misunderstanding.
The idea to incorporate plants as test subjects was Sky's. She spends about thirty minutes rambling about the ways the boys could use a certain strain of carnivorous plants, which forces Jayce to realise he had been a fool for ever doubting Viktor's judgement in hiring her as opposed to any of the Piltover pupils. When Jayce sides with her and convinces Viktor, their relationship becomes better.
Jayce helps in the botanic garden when the forge is too suffocating. It's a big and bright space and he can still use his physical strength to think and tire himself out so he likes it. Sky ignores that he prefers to do that job in the same way he does his forgery work - half-naked. She also ignores that it makes her heart flutter, constantly trying to remind herself that getting involved with the big boss is not good for anyone's resume, but he makes it VERY difficult on her.
They are quite oblivious to how close they are becoming because each of them thinks they have a crush on a different person.
Sometimes their age difference shows up in unexpected ways even though she's just two years younger than him. She'd make a trendy reference and he'd look at her dumb while holding his chin in faux thought (he has no idea what she just said. He's too much of a nerd to know anything 'trendy').
Ximena Talis LOVES Sky Young because she learns every dish Ximena teaches her and she is full of warmth and enthusiasm. She notices they have a level of chemistry but doesn't really say anything. They move in sync and they don't even notice, so Ximena thinks that if it's meant to work it will. They are both good cooks.
At some point, Sky begins spending more time with Jayce than Viktor simply because his schedule is fuller.
Both of them are cinephiles. Sky is certainly more pretentious than Jayce. He loves to watch all sorts of movies, and she has a more 'refined' taste. When their crushes didn't pan out they kind of thought they'd go through it together so they sat down to watch the Piltover equivalent of 'Mean Girls' (Sky had never watched it), but she was so sad she fell asleep on his shoulder. Jayce picked her up, carried her to his bed and slept on the couch (he too begins to ignore how much it makes his heart flutter in almost a childish way).
They are also very competitive at board games and Twister. Viktor and Mel usually tap out but these two will go on until their muscles are sore. Sky has better flexibility, Jayce is bigger so he takes up more space. She does cheat. She'd blow air into his ear or jokingly whisper something sexual into his ear to win. He never says anything because he's too busy blushing (she doesn't realise it has an effect on him)
She is almost like a shadow in public. It didn't bother him, but when he realised he likes her close to him he starts looking for her and gets frustrated and grumpy when he can't find her.
She finds his tick of rubbing his neck quite attractive, he finds her pushing up her glasses cute.
Despite looking very sweet, they bicker a lot over things that definitely don't matter cause they find it makes them run hot (especially before they ever make any romantic moves).
The one time he took her to a gala with him (Mel and Viktor did not have the time) she spent her entire time promoting the Hexpartners project. It was also the time they almost kissed but Jayce recognized he was too drunk and he was far too upright to take advantage of drunk Sky even though she consented. He takes her home while she giggles and tells him about how much she likes how he does different things and proceeds to list the most minuscule details about his behaviour.
They have been in the opposite situation as well. He has been drunk murmuring sweet nothings into her ear. She tosses it off to him probably mistaking her for Mel. (do you notice a pattern with these two?)
By the time they kiss, they're like kettles about to explode. Their first kiss happened at Jayce's apartment, during one of their weekend evenings. He wanted to show her the prototype of a vase for the flowers they use that could essentially water itself using Hextech. 'To make your life easier, you know. You already don't sleep enough.' he'd say and proceed to explain in detail how it works. She'd be so moved over the fact he thought about her, it would be an instinctive action, more of a peck and she immediately tries to apologise but it's difficult to apologise when a man the size of a mountain is kissing your apologies away. He basically crushes her into his arms upon the realisation kissing Sky Young is no longer off-limits.
There is no little spoon in their relationship because Sky sleeps on top of Jayce.
NSFW headcanons (now watch me lose my fucking mind)
Aftercare: Jayce Talis is the best aftercare giver in the game. He can get quite out there when he wants to pleasure his partner and that's not lost on him, so he makes sure there's water and something sweet by his bedside so she doesn't lose consciousness.
Body part: Those arms and slightly crooked smile could drive Sky crazy. Jayce loses his mind when she isn't wearing her glasses cause then she's bating those big doe eyes at him. When they fuck glasses are off no matter what. Also he takes off that fucking bun. He can't stand it. He loves to watch her curls bounce on top of him.
Cum: They don't mean to be messy, they promise they don't, but they are. She is on the pill, and although she tries to convince him to wear a condom that man has a creampie kink, there's no way she can convince him of anything. And one thing about Jayce Talis - he can be painfully convincing when he sets his mind to.
Dirty secret: They pretend like crazy in front of Viktor. They feign unfamiliarity but the moment he isn't looking Jayce would either sneak a hand around her throat, without any pressure or squeezing, just to prove he can and watch her expression grow stiff and frustrated.
Experience: Relative experience, they know what they're doing. Sky has had Zaun partners who've been quite...rude and rough with her so she can't really figure out how when Jayce is rough it feels good. Jayce Talis fucked bitches his whole life, I'm tired of pretending he hasn't.
Favourite position: If you ask Sky she prefers to feel his weight on top of her until it's suffocating, but Jayce loves when she clings to him so he prefers fucking her standing, while she holds on for dear life to his neck.
Goofy: they can be goofy in that Sky would get freaked if she's just hanging midair, but if the fucking is post argument it's deadly serious. She'll touch him a bit more, he'll squeeze a bit harder, a game that has to be won.
Hair: Jayce Talis grooms himself once every two weeks. He doesn't like hair on his face because it's not 'presentable' but he doesn't mind a well-maintained happy trail. Sky Young certainly doesn't mind it. She used to shave but switched to wax once every three weeks when she moved to Piltover, so some hair can grow but it's often little and more reminiscent of fluff than actual hair. Hair doesn't bother either of them, they're adults.
Intimacy: I've said it once, I'll say it again, they run St. Valentine's like the Navy. So they are very intimate. He'd steal a kiss when no one's watching, she'd rub his hand if he's nervous. That extends to their sex life. He'd whisper her worries away, she'd hold him impossibly close.
Jack off: Sky is a small hour of the night-pleasing herself type girl. Even if it's in her own apartment, she tries to keep very quiet, especially if her mind trails to his smile or his hands or his chest, like she is ashamed of how lewd her thoughts can become when it comes to him. Jayce is a rare mastrubator to me. He is more of a sufferer. He'd let the images run through his mind but would grip his working tools and go in the forge unless it was during one of those nights when she falls asleep on his shoulder or just looks at him for a moment too long, then he has to rub one off in the closest private space to be able to breathe.
Kink: Jayce is a pleasure dom to Sky, so overstimulation is a main kink. Another main of his is creampies, he loves to watch his cum trail down her trembling legs. He also has an unhealthy oral fixation (both giving and receiving). He likes to role-play situations in which she holds all the power over him and lets her do what she wants. Sky is not dominant by any means but she learns she enjoys to top once in a while. With time she develops a certain bratiness to her - deny his orgasm, scratch his back a bit too hard, mock him a bit, all in the name of her head being thrown on the pillow and fucked stupid. Oh, also both of them are really into shower sex for some reason. Really into it - wet and licking water off her collarbones, it turns them on.
Location: Jayce's apartment. Sky's is too small, he's too cramped in there they can't move freely. But Jayce's apartment is a sanctuary for both of them and his bed is big enough to toss each other around.
Motivation: If they argue, like actually argue, fucking is close. If Sky's cheating at a game, fucking is close. If Jayce rests his head on her shoulder and begins to nibble on the skin while she works, fucking is close. She's not good at expressing her needs explicitly but if she hooks a leg around him while they watch something, chances are she'll straddle his waist and kiss him without saying anything. It's embarrassing, but he doesn't need her to say it. He'll always ask her if she's sure and then they're off to the races.
No: He'll never in a thousand years take advantage of her nativity even if it turns him on, even if he finds her oblivious passion for her subject super hot, he would never ever take advantage of her boundaries. So BDSM is a no. She can do with him whatever, he doesn't mind, but he could not handle seeing her in pain. Even when she's asking for his hand around her throat, he never squeezes too hard like he knows he can and has done before. Sky is very strict about public PDA. Small caresses are fine, when her office door is locked it's okay, but nothing that could jeopardize their careers, reputations or projects.
Oral: Both of them have a thing for receiving and giving oral. Jayce would beg to eat her out if he has to, just to feel his nose pressing against her clit while she tugs on his perfectly ordered hair, moaning and pleading. Sometimes he'd eat her out to soothe his own unrelated frustrations. But there is nothing Jayce Talis loves more than to force Sky to sit on his face - suffocate him, hands wrapped around her thighs, pulling her as close to him as possible, pressure his head between her thighs, it's a sweet way to die. In return, he loves watching her work her mouth on him. She's far too good at sucking him off, it almost makes him jealous thinking she had to acquire this technique somewhere. In the beginning, he wasn't with deep-throating her, but as time went on he got comfortable with it. Watching her gag as spit and precum run down her chin and those pleading doe eyes looking up is enough to make him cum in minutes. He can fuck her for hours, but if she puts her mouth on him he's a goner in minutes. Sky herself loves watching him eat her out messily, juices dripping down his chin, cheeks flushed as he always grips her as if she's a meal he can't afford to skip. She also learns to ride his face properly for her own gain as he tells her to. 'Don't worry about me' is their mantra when it comes to oral. It's a good day if her nose is pressed to the hairs on his pelvis, eyes rolled to the back of her head from the stretch on her throat. It's also a good day when she gets to tease him about how weak he is to her mouth. He'd cut himself or just run a loving hand on her cheek and she'd bite on his thumb or suck on it slowly just to prove she can and then let him go back to his duties. It's the only form of public teasing she is okay with but it's more than enough for him.
Pace: On special occasions, it's slow, deep and filled with loving confessions and giggling, but more often than not it's messy, fast and rough.
Quickie: Not big on quickies. They like to take their time, to taunt each other physically, to watch their eyes grow droopy from pleasure and overstimulation. If it's too much or they need fast relief they masturbate.
Risk: Not very big on risks. Jayce wouldn't mind if Sky didn't mind as much as she did, but he respects her wishes.
Stamina: That man is a bull. And you know what? Sky Young can handle going for seconds and thirds. They're both athletic and healthy. They match each other pretty well.
Toys: I don't see them being really into toys. More like they both have a clothes kink - her underwear in his pocket/or as a way to gratify himself, his tie to bind his hands to the bed frame or keeping her socks on when she wears those wool knee highs people wear inside the house during winter.
Unfair: To be fair he teases intentionally more than she does, but she is a bigger teaser unintentionally - she'd fix his cuffs without him having to ask, or grab his face when he wants to shave and do it for him, sway her hips, if it's really urgent she'd kiss his knuckles secretly to help him calm down before a speech (it riles him up). His teasing is more gently picking her chin here and there, a remark in her ear, those types of things. He'd leave himself looking a bit shabby to tease her about always making him look properly good.
Volume: Together they are very loud. He loves hearing her under him, it's like a reward for a job well done. During those times he's still more of a moaner and broken cries type of dude. (looks at s2 Jayce...he's a different story)
Wild card: She has shown to work with his shirt tugged in instead of hers without telling anyone (all of hers were dirty). It trickles into Sky Young role-playing as a councillor, wearing only Jayce's councillor coat while riding him into oblivion.
X-ray: As a friend said Jayce Talis packs a weapon we are not ready to discuss. Is it more girth or more length, god knows, but Sky Young will tell you she swears it gets to her stomach and she's not a short tiny little lady.
Yearning: Pretty normal I'd say, a few rounds like twice a week. Whenever, even though they always yearn for the touch of the other.
Zzz: Both of them are quick sleepers. They are more morning people than night owls. They fuck, they cuddle, giggle about something stupid and in 15 minutes they're both out.
A/N: You know my inbox is always open for Melvik and Skyce thoughts.
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I can’t tell if my support systems are shit or if I am just that much of a crybaby. Probably both
#I was supposed to meet with my therapist and then cowork with someone#they both cancelled in the space of ten minutes#it was fair but I have no backups lol#and my other friend told me something I should fix in my app and said she would call#hasn’t#the application is due in an hour and a half.#then my computer froze#so now I’m restarting it#also I have a dissertation chapter due#that got extended by a week but I’m still not done#and I don’t understand how to incorporate the material I was given#also I was on my period all this past week#actually now that I spell it out what the fuck#maybe I should kill myself#it would be traumatic for friends but with a little therapy they could push past it!#it’s for the PLOT
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Workout update !! Damn the schedule >:(
#I haven’t done a whole lot the past 2 days due to a) wretched period and b) worked late last night alas#I’m a little frustrated bc I WANT TO (I sound like a broken record but I’m SO SO HAPPY THAT I WANT TO!!!! THIS IS A GOOD THING!!)#but today was my rest day according to my app so I am gonna take it#I think one more day of letting my hand just chill is probably good#and also last time I missed a couple workout days and then ignored the rest day I suffered KDHSNDJS#thas okay tho we bounce back again tomorrow 💪💪💪#anyway thanks for tuning in to Lynx workout updates I’m here all week folks#lynx talks
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I need either to eat someone's period pussy or have my period pussy eaten
#I'm sorry for all these really horrible posts in the past week#Also I am not on my period actually but maybe will be soon. I don't keep track idk it's all based on vibes
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wishing everyone a happy end to the week!! 💗
#i haven't been on for a while!! i miss u all!!#been busy this entire week catching up with friends & making impt calls#and then i also got my period bHSBFAH so ive just been sleeping a lot the past few days#but im writing rn!!!!!#the end is in sight#im in the 7/9 scene already#its so close i can tasTE IT#then ill start editing#and then hopefully it can be up by next week#my goal really was to finish this fic by this weekend!!!#anyway ! ill be back to answer asks and check drafts and posts and things !!#i talked so much again
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man i think i’m 5 seconds away from a mental breakdown
#I’m actually running out of money now despite working 6 days a week and making 6 figures#Because I bought my acreage with my brother and factored him paying 1/3 of the expenses BUT he’s decided to be unemployed for 1.5 years#I pay the mortgage mortgage insurance utilities internet groceries#I have $800/month in student loan payments#I have to spend like $150/week on gas because my commute is 2 hrs round trip every day#I only eat one meal a day usually because I don’t have the time to grocery shop or cook usually and my brother only cooks for himself#I do all of the chores and at least 1/2 of the yard work#I have the heaviest workload of any of my coworkers (which has been acknowledged but my manager says his hands are tied#Because if he took work off of my plate he’s have to give it to someone else and there is no one else)#I’m being severely underpaid at my job ($4 under the STARTING wage for a pharmacist now despite me working there for 3 years.#But I “got the largest raise last year” lmfao#I’ve been seeing someone but he works nights and his schedule is wack and it results in me going to bed at 3am some nights#I’m also on call this week so I have to be ready to answer calls at any time past 11pm#My hair is legit pulling out in clumps and my hair is half of my personality :(#i’m about to mcfuckin lose it#Brain feels like mashed potato#Oh also I’m on my fucking period
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operation "how much estrogen leeway do we have" has commenced and it's only been 2 days but i'm so frustrated my muscles are still acting like they've been through a marathon
#the past month has been trash and i've spent sooo many work days at home already this year#operation estrogen might fail which would leave us in an interesting place bc idk what the fuck he's gonna try next#except for a more radical surgery#which like. i'm down but endo seems to never get properly treated on surgery alone#though i guess mine might be if they surgically remove everything necessary to get rid of my periods#i'm just like#so frustrated by the way this takes time#and my endo is still like. comparatively not bad. and i've not struggled with it that long#relatively speaking#hiding from work helps a tad until i then have to return to work after an absence#i feel guilty about not being at work but i also just really want to have arms that don't feel like lead#i want to have energy for one after work activity once in a while#and like. my doctor is determined to get me there#they all keep telling me that it is important that i'm good and not just surviving#i'm just really tired#and i have to speak to the counselor tomorrow which#is good and mature but i truly don't fucking want to#i have fridays off to 'get more rest' but like#i do one thing on the weekend and it knocks me the fuck out#traitorous goddamn body#we shall see what the counselor says before i message my endo doctor agAIn but i don't think i'm any more capable of working full weeks#now than i was 4 weeks ago#i haven't worked a full week in the 6 weeks since school came back#rip to me#😔#some day my whiny text posts will be but a memory#i say as if i have any faith
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ughh cuz she said the main reason she broke up w me was cuz she didn’t see this lasting long term and i don’t disagree w her!! i don’t think we’d last forever and i don’t know if i’d want to but also i def saw it lasting at least a few years. not forever bht maybe till we graduated so that’s why i’m sad cuz i guess our ideas of “long term” were very different
#likeeee come on. not even 6 months#it wasn’t even five months#and we were genuinely doing so good#like i guess i’m just really confused aboht where all this came from!!!#cuz we were fine all fucking summer!!!#yeah maybe it was hard only being able to face time but we knew we’d see each other again in the fall#and she said she’d only started thinking about it the past week or so#as in the exact time period where we were both on trips one after the other and couldn’t facetime#as in the one time in summer we weren’t having daily calls#and i keep thinking to myself like how does she know it wasn’t just a one time thing and how does she know she wasn’t just overthinking#but also in reality i know she wouldn’t have broken up w me if it wasn’t serious#i know this was a hard decision for her so i can’t just assume things aboht her feelings / thoughts#it just really fucking sucks cuz like!!! all the fucking what ifs!!!!#i just really wish maybe she’d waited for my opinion even though i know it’s probs the best for her as a person#so i can’t be mad thag she didn’t. but i’m still going to be sad about it#sunny rambles
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me: i should do some productive stuff today, like post the things you have to sell to ebay and apply for some jobs
my depression: not today satan
#in my defense the job i wanted to apply to had the link taken down even tho it hadnt even been up a week yet#and i did post one thing on ebay#i got stressed during the second posting and gave up#ive been really feeling bad about myself lately though#ya know....being jobless and all that but also about all the weight i gained over the past 7 mos due to all the stress#but maybe im just on my period idk
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The last time I cried over missing my boyfriend was when I was drunk and 3 time zones away. Now Im sitting in my own bedroom, sober as can be, and I cant get him out of my damn head
#screaming.to.the.gods#i haven’t seen him in over a week - but Im supposed to tomorrow night#we’ve been texting all weekend too. He wanted to see me Friday. but I had a friend visiting from out of town#but Im also thinking about a conversation I need to have with him before our trip in 2 weeks#and Im only gonna get a few chances to have it in person which woulf be much better#basically explaining some boundaries *I* need because of some past trauma#and I know he wont have a problem with any of it. god he is so compassionate I am so fucking thankful for him#but knowing its a conversation I need to have is the stressful part#and I think that stress combines with being on my period and just. missing him. is what is making me an emotional wreck#but he said he has a gift for me tomorrow#and Im excited for it#i went out and bought him a pokemon hoodie#partially so I can have one to steal since he is so picky about his hoodies#but yeah. i really miss him and really want a hug. which is so wild to me#i hate when people touch me. i hate hugs. but he’s different#hes like a security blanket. warm and safe.#and I just want to be wrapped in that safety#uhg okay Ill stop ranting about my first world problems#love you guys though
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i said i wouldn’t do it this time but it’s 3am and mods asleep. boy
#welcome to another episode of Luke is insane abt hockey boy!#this time featuring a guy who is actually this time almost (ALMOST) confirmed to be queer#the almost is partly me being insane because I don’t trust anything anymore#but like. there are only so many reasons you wear pride converse. that is not ally behaviour#it just threw me this time I think bc I’d been like no. heterosexual. bc I think I became aware of him when he joined the real hockey team#because the OTHER problem is that the whole time I’d been thinking he was cute as hell (bc he is) and simultaneously being like no. bad.#anyway this meant that I have actually talked to him a bunch without overthinking it this term which honestly has been very cool#not like a whole lot but we’ve played together a decent amount and hopefully will keep doing that#and yesterday discovered hes recommending other people talk to me abt goalieing which is insane to me bc I am truly not that good#but apparently I made an impression!#anyway it does not help that this guy has gotten incredibly good at hockey in the past few months#idk man I make bad decisions (I say as if this was a decision) bc it is now the end of term once again <3#which means absolutely nothing can or will happen until after summer. which isn’t an issue#I’m just frustrated by my tendency to realise these things right before I’m about to not see the guy for X period of time#I also desperately need to stop crushing on hockey boys I swear but in my defence that is the main way I meet people#I think I’m cursed actually. that would explain many things#anyway he also has exams until next Tuesday which means he’ll be at hockey next week but idk abt this week which is devastating#i just wanna have talk to the guy more honestly to see how that goes bc we’ve not rlly talked individually for an extended time yknow.#in other words we have not had A Conversation it’s been groups or like quicker exchanges#he’s kinda quiet but i can’t quite tell which way yknow. I know he’s Watching basically all the time. and he is slightly awkward#which is also kinda cute. he gets a lil rambly when he talks abt hockey and I wanna push that button more#i. topsy if you’re reading this you’re gonna laugh so hard I just realised. he’s captain of the team now.#which sidenote is INSANE bc he started playing with them THIS YEAR#but oh my god. okay.#anyway. I need to start complimenting guys more for multiple reasons but also#1. he dresses very cool 2. he caught me looking at his shirt last week without saying anything (BEFORE I caught the rainbow converse)#i compliment women on their clothes and jewellery and hair and shit all the time but I do not with men bc. I mean do I need to explain.#but this is so unfair I am haunted by existence of boy and here we are once again. posting on tumblr with the possibility of seeing him lik#two more times before summer. might be three or four depending on what he comes to#luke.txt
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brain being STUPID
#i know its hormones 10000%#like im on my period and running a fever rn. but hes been in ireland this week so i havent been texting him bc international fees and all#and also i dont wanna be distracting him while hes out on vacation yk. he should be having fun not texting me#but now that hes back a little voice in my brains like HE HASNT TEXTED YET!! HES GOING TO PHASE YOU OUT!!#and im not actively worried about that?? bc theres no reason to be?? but idk man im sick of my brain trying to self sabotage#like when i was in bed next to him having a full blown panic attack while most of my thoughts were completely calm and collected#and mostly along the lines of 'this is stuuuupppiiiiiddd 🙄'#its just when i let my guard down (like when im going to bed or getting sick) that this shit strikes. and its annoying bc i dont BELIEVE it#and sometimes its even stuff i make an active point of NOT believing#like when i was having that nervous breakdown the only part of my rational brain that was actually upset was the part that thought#'this isnt in line with my principles. i do not want my past experiences to make me a distrustful person and i loathe the fact that i cant#put this feeling out of my body despite that'#stupid. my brain should do what i want. why else is it there
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everytime i think im done ranting i remember something else LMFAO this one is extra long i hit tag limit god mf damn
#self#for instance.....my mom wants me to cut off everyone who is still tied to the school#and im so mad at myself for feeling a certain type of way when the campus manager called me not too long ago basically to tell me she doesnt#trust the girl who did this shit and she wasnt mad at me but was also mad at me for bringing her to her dads house#for reference we were trying to get a cat from the campus managers dads house LMFAO#and i honestly cannot wait to speak to her again and be like 😔 god dammit you were right like you were every single time#i just dont understand the wiring in her head to think the shit she says and does to people is normal and okay and how she doesnt realize it#is literally a mental health break. when i finally told my mom the first thing she said was shes probably off her medication#which.....probably isnt wrong sadly coming from someone who has borderline and very easily can lose it#but the difference is i dont give in to the urges to try to hurt everyone around me in every way i can#and me and her have said before that we thought she might also have borderline because we were very similar#but god damn does she love proving that if she has it its extremely severe or its something else entirely#on an honest note. shes incredibly narcissistic and i know her mom is part of the reason shes that way bc she was given princess treatment#her entire fucking life and then doesnt understand when other people dont treat her the same way#i hate rambling about this and i hate it that it is bothering me so fucking bad but like ???#if youre going to decide that you can put our past aside period and move on then fucking do that and stop bringing the past up as a way to#hurt me and the people around you???? she acts like shes not done horrible fucking things to people. so sorry i wrote a letter that was very#honest at the time. so sorry that when you found out i apologized for it and said i regret it because 2 weeks after my apology i no longer#regret writing it. if its making school a living hell for you....theres probably a reason for that girlfriend#i am not the person who put that shit in your folder#though i seriously fucking doubt its actually in her folder shes probably assuming it is#and youre the one who made a complete ass of yourself to every educator that ever stepped foot in that building#that has nothing to do with me that you are a literal warning given to every new educator!!!! i havent even been in school there in months#yet IM the problem??? how am i the problem when i graduated in fucking january???? everything since then falls on you#AND YET AGAIN! MIGHT I MENTION! IT IS NOT JUST MY LETTER!!! THERES AT LEAST 2 OTHER ONES!!!!!#BECAUSE IM NOT THE ONLY PERSON SHE DOES THIS SHIT TO!!!!#god sometimes i sit back and realize that theres a reason she regresses as a person and i do not#im not going to sit still anymore and let someone walk all over me and she can thank herself for that#shes who taught me that blocking and running as fast as i can doesnt fix anything#so here we are bitch. youre not blocked and im sure youre sitting at home thinking about how youre right about everything
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I’m finally out of my ugly phase yasss let’s goooo
#tw body talk#tw body image#does anyone else’s face and body go into an ugly phase like two weeks before their period?#my body gets all bloated#my face too#and it just doesn’t look right???#it just looks ugly af#it’s my marination period#so during this period I also let my eyebrows grow out and get unkempt#and I literally don’t even look at myself in the mirror bc I know I’m looking ugly af 😂😂😂#also my mood swings are all over the place during this period#THEN once I do hit my period#my face and body start going back to normal#and now I’m on day three of my period and I looked at the mirror this morning like WHO is this person 🤭🤭🫡🫡#cos my ugly phase is almost over#once I decide my period is over (day four so tomorrow)#I start the maintenance phase#aka getting my brows done#oiling my hair#waxing my body#oh and that post period skinny hits too!!! 😌😌#and I have to get laser done too#I haven’t touched my face during my ugly phase these past two weeks#and I haven’t gotten laser done for two months so it’s starting to show#but by mid next week I’ll be feeling SO good I know it#my thoughts 💭
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ok just to like paint a picture so. today i woke up at 9 and went to my morning class (was a little bit late) then i got brunch and canceled therapy (was a whole Ordeal trust me..) for like an hour or over idk, then i went back home to work on this research paper & got some food from a local café, then i went to a meeting i had and then walked to my friends workplace and we walked back and then i kind of have just lazed around and im watching my friends show from 1-2. and then TMRW i have a thing early afternoon & a d+d session for like five hours until 10 pm basically and then im probably sleeping in bc of the whole 1-2 thing. And then tmrw i have basically nothing but i then have to call my family bc i havent in a while and i need to do all of my homework. so needless to say this has been a hell of a semester start
#nightmare.personal#There is a 2 week period in which i have an event every other day#so like when ppl talk about not really having freetime in college like#i spend a good amnt of time w my friends Like a lot of time but also. solo time ? very little#On mon & wed i have back to back 3 classes i wake up at like 8:30 w like tiny breaks in between so like#i have my big friend meal right after bc of the back to back ness (on wed i also get dinner later w other friend)#and then immediately after food i go to my friends dorm and we study for like whatever like basically the entire night bc it just-#-devolves eventually to socialization ?#And then tues thurs i have big gaps and later class starts BUT i also have been scheduling like office hrs#but those days r fine and a lot more solitary. and i get a super nice breakfast But like past that ?#idk. idk! i have so many fucking org things like i have shit on tues nights now 2 a month#and then my other thing and its like. Its all worth it but also fuck fuck fuck u know#so its been exhausting. fun but like. idk I need less shit on weekends i think#like i need to do work on sunday but also zero socialization
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#Weekly TV Guide#It is Fellplates week! With a brief intermission in the middle#Also take this list with an asterisk if you would since - and I cannot believe it's this close already - Christmas is literally the next day#Currently I don't have anything seasonal planned but when has that stopped me in the past lol#For the moment tho it's looking like a Fellplates Christmas pffft ♪#Not that I'm complaining! I want it all moving faster than it currently is#Some days I look back at my old TV Guides like ''3 posts in a day for a week?? How??''#I get it I understand it I know it#I'm still not going back to that but gods is it tempting sometimes lol#It feels so funny looking at them all again with fresh Handplates eyes haha#I'm glad I did them all the way I did! But I would do them differently now! Which is part of why I'm glad they already exist lol#Expression of a short transient time period captured to paper :) It's cool to me hehe
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