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Listen, I need Crowley and Aziraphale dolls.
I want to make them kiss like I made my Barbies kiss
#this is very important for my mental health#the brainrot is real#ineffable husbands#good omens#Aziraphale#Crowley#also I could put them into therapy#the things I made my Barbie’s do…
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been watching word of honor
#im only on ep18 and theyve had like 3 breakups#like jesus fuck man#and then they act as if nothings happened i am gonna put them in couples therapy#word of honor#wen kexing#zhou zishu#theyre so unhinged#word of honor fanart#my art#doodle#i would make this a rendered thing if i had the energy aahahaaaaaauuuhg#girl help im reentering my wuxia phase from last year#girl help i cant escape#girl you left me to be swallowed by my hyperfixations how could you#i also started the novel bc ofc sighhhh
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tw flashing images, implied death
please for the love of god reblog this, it took me 3 days
#this is what happens when i let my impulsive thoughts win. i listen to this song like 4 times and this is what happens#i kind of panicked at the end bc i wasnt sure what to put there but i think it turned out alright#i played with some basic effects on premiere this time. mostly scale and position because i didnt want it more complicated already#btw i am completely aware of how macaque might not have actually been killed by wukong this time around. although i dont really fear#being wrong cause im here for that angst baby! and on that note we could be completely wrong abt wukong and macaques early relationship lol#its cute to imagine they were like really close friends though. again i dont fear being wrong if this ages away from canon thats fine#if we get more content for them id like to make another one of these lol. id like to do one for mk with its alright by mother mother.#CUASE THAT BOY NEEDS THERAPY. maybe 'life' would also work for him based on his s4 arc.. hmmm....#myart#animatic#lego monkie kid#lmk#monkiekid#lmk macaque#lmk six eared macaque#lmk sun wukong#lmk monkey king#sun wukong#six eared macaque#shadowpeach#monkie kid#lego monkie kid spoilers#lmk spoilers#lmk season 4 spoilers#lego monkie kid s4 spoilers#lmk swk#tw flashing#flashing#eyestrain#implied death
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I need to know if I'm delusional and projecting onto random characters or if Adam and/or Steve are neurodivergent
You can project whatever you want on them, and I don't know that it's "canon" so to speak but I write them with neurodivergent intent in mind just based on my own life experiences!
so I'm projecting on them too, but it's up for debate whether that's coming across in the text.
Adam is autistic and Steve has ADHD. To Me.
#I think adam autism is wayyyyy more in the text than steve ADHD#adam who has. been to therapy.#and whose mom. is a psych#thats not in canon but it's how I'm writing him#he feels like someone whose mom was psychoanalyzing him in a gentle way his whole life you know what I mean.#like. ok maybe I'm being ridiculous but its in there I swear#steve on the other hand extremely untreated ADHD and also no way of knowing he has it and also doesnt need to focus much so you cant tell#but. as much as it could be in there for his situation I think its in there#anyways this is just word of god I guess. well maybe adam autism is like fair at this point to read and consider relatively canon#dodsent madder#I'm wary of what I say is actually canon#especially when it comes to neirodivergency!#which is sooo extremely personal and SOOOO varied#but like them being trans. thats canon#and when people are like hmmm idk I dont think its in there#I'm like LEARN TO THINK CRITICALLY...#'your family wouldnt recognize you as a man and you said you were glad for it'#'the man who chose and who told me I was allowed not to'#'are you my boyfriend?' 'I prefer partner.'#like be serious. thats canon#sorry it pisses me OFFF!!!!!!#not like super duper its like fine HAHAHAHAAHAHAAHA#anyways okay. yeah adam is autistic and steve has ADHD#uh.......#also personally choose not to use the word delusional and to save it for medical discussions but your words are your choice#asks#autisticfridge#just like to make my choices clear as often as I can#ok bye love you. project whatever the hell you want on my ocs#I made them and put them out there and I get to do 100% of what I want with them
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I love you thiiiiiiiiiiis much! (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Yanderapy#The boys are back in town the boys are back in town <3#At least for the moment! Caught a quick glimpse of inspiration for them and then it settled again haha - but they're here now!#Following up on the idea of their give and take - Ishida is definitely the more selfish of the two and Micchan the more giving#You'd think that'd lead to them overstepping - Ishi asking for too much and Mitsu being all-too-happy to grant it but no!#Part of that is from Micchan being in therapy lol - even when he has trouble recognizing his healthy boundaries himself he has external help#And him being honest and upfront - communicating where he struggles - eventually puts the onus on his boyfriend to help him!#And he does!! Because Ishida loves him!! ♥#They're still weird about it tho lol <3 There are things that both of them can get away with that they wouldn't if they were dating others#Featured here is Mitsu initiating snuggles and Ishida reciprocating a little aggressively lol - which Micchan is into <3 Feels loved!#And also flusters him so he responds with his own cute aggression lol - but they recognize that in each other! They play :D#Mitsu would Try to reciprocate to the level his partner sets the standard of but he's full of these big feelings!#It all works out that Ishida Also feels that way haha - they match each other's energy naturally <3 They have quite good chemistry :)#They also behave when they need to lol that's enough PDAs for now ♪#And of course they also got caught in the plush brainmush everyone does everyone needs to#They'd be so cute...... Holding hands or plush-kissing................#I don't think Micchan's necklace counts as an accessory hmm what would they have#They both need their bracelets! Of course#But besides those hmmm what Signature Objects could they have I wonder#And how would Ishida's glasses stay on! Magnets? Stitched on? Hm! Many things to consider haha
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okay maybe I should seriously reconsider my path in life and sell my soul to marketing or journalism instead
#okay venting in the tags you are very welcome to ignore or not respond to it i just need to yell somewhere#i always thought id be an art therapist because well i care about people and want to help them and love art#but everyday i wake up feeling like a fraud and an imposter so like. should i really be doing all that when im not entirely#certain i cpuld handle it??? like i know i haven't gotten the meaty bit of the education towards that yet but like#university costs a disgusting amount of money here and if i pick the wronf thing im likely doomed forever thanks to awful government#i know things could get better like they did after thatcher but honestly im not putting any bets on it considering how the current labour#party is so like if i fuck up here im basically dead#also can i actually do art uni. like could i cope with that. im deeply unethused with art at the moment and honestly will i evwr be#idk#it was jusr a thing i always did but education around it is fucking soul sucking#also the emotional weight of hearing and solving people's problems as a therapist. i would consider myself quite empathetic for the most#part i feel other people's pain quite strongly and obviously as a therapist id be feeling that quite a bit so could i actually cope with it?#ik therapists have therapists but still#i mean im doing work experience at an occupational therapy place so ill just be extra inquisitive about it all to make sure im going#the way i wanna#I'll be fine by the end of a levels ill probably understand what i want in life#if not then gap year to work it out#should probably look at unis for english language too then#sigh#ucas website i may as well marry you#ill be okay im getting in my head about stuff im actually pretty good at art even if there are things i can improve on (like patience lol)#yeah maybe the voice telling me i suck doesnt know shit and should shut up#yeah#shut it nasty voice you're wrong actually!!! im doing just fine and you're being overly critical#they should make a brain that's your friend and not mush that hides the amalgamation of every bad thing ever in its crevices#crevices shoyild be filled with kindness and love.#sex jokes about that#why the fuck is yahoo mail syncing i dont use you you washed up search engine#bue waffling#vent post
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The thing is Justified... I know a lot of peeps like it but its not really my jam, but holy hell does Walton steal every scene he's in! Timothy Olyphant is great too, but even if I didn't know how amazing Walton is already as an actor, he really does capture your attention from the off. So that's why I've started watching it anyways 😅
Its also so funny to me Boyd Crowder's supposed to be this big bad antagonist from the off, but so far (as I've watched) what he's done is appear very receptive to Raylan's presence and requests and bascially winds him up a lot! Every time Boyd's showed up in recent eps i've watched he's been like "Raylan, let me bring up your trauma for a second. Do you want to talk about your daddy issues?"
Whilst Raylan shuts him down quickly and Boyd is just like "hmm, do you think your repressing of your emotions is boiling up into a rage and that's why ur so trigger happy, babe? Maybe u should do something about that..." - it's great haha ^^
#boyd is like raylan my dearest love and enemy seek therapy lmao#like if he's the one saying go get help for your problems u know its gotta be bad#wow is raylan bad at emotions hes all over the place#he's got the spirit but he's also so trigger happy and dealing with slight toxic masculinity crap#boyd looks a lot healthier in comparison hahaha#justified fx#boyd crowder#raylan givens#kind of#boyd x raylan#i want to study them and put them under a glass#they're so scrunkly and fucked up and meant to be friends even tho they are the worst for each other#ya know what i mean?#boyd was really like I could make him worse but whatvrs going on with him now is interesting enough#and honestly good for him#jury's out on if i like ava tbh i'm not totally vibing with how she's been written but I reserve judgement for later
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Random thought I had today: Could Kamelot's The Shadow Theory be seen as somewhat of a prequel to Haven? Obviously, it was never meant to be, and the two albums are not concept ones, they do not have a complete story; but they explore almost the same themes. Also, I feel that their main "characters"/narrators could exist in the same world - one where the wasteland monarchy that is mentioned in Haven is actually called The Shadow Empire (like it is said in the other album) and our narrators are both "asleep but wide awake" (Insomnia), "chosen ones" in a reality similar to what is shown in the Phantom Divine video. The difference would be that the hero from The Shadow Theory is not fully awake, compared to the one of Haven, and all the scenarios and realisations are a dream/hallucination of his - something I think Vespertine could imply (honestly, I never fully understood that song, but the whole theme of the companion/lover in it and Ravenlight, In Twilight Hours, Kevlar Skin and Static feels vague enough). With all parallels though, in the end, he can't still win his battle, his total "awakening" doesn't happen, there's no revolution, which causes his pain and desperation - The Proud and the Broken. Whether there's still hope for him, we don't know, but his struggles are very similar to the ones of Haven's hero to me. In the end, of course, all these concepts remain pure metaphors, as there isn't an actual story/clearly stated connection between the songs. They describe a series of (psychological) experiences, not events, if that makes sense.
#usually I listen to them in order of release so maybe that's why I thought of this just now 😅#it's an interesting concept to play out in my mind#the whole thing started with me thinking about Kevlar Skin and My Therapy#it truly is a wild stretch I admit#anyways I love both albums I don't really mind The Shadow Theory's flaws#kamelot#haven#the shadow theory#my thoughts#fan theory#symphonic metal#also I don't know where The Awakening fits in this#but I have a feeling that Seventh Wonder's Tiara might#it could be the disaster that made humanity create The Shadow Empire in the first place#out of fear of such threats or people who endanger the human race and so must be put in control in some others' opinions#and that shall be the Karevikverse 🤣#(try saying this 10 times fast)#my theories
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fun metal sonic facts: she canonically disassociates
#thank u idw comics for adding a New Canonical Mental Illness to her she’s so close to being the full dsm-5#metal sonic has severe suicidal ideation she self harms she has psychotic episodes that last for weeks#she has extremely volatile mood swings she has a grossly distorted view on herself that swings wildly from godhood to self loathing#and she also has disassociative episodes. she has so many symptoms tumblr made me put them into three fucking tags#eggman needs to take her to therapy bc i think entire studies could be conducted on her.
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Hm. So am I the only one who 'likes' having ARFID?
Like don't get me wrong it's horrible it's caused so much damage to me but also like. I've had it my whole life I can't imagine a version of myself without it and I wouldn't want to not have it.
It's as big and fundamental a part of me as my autism. Sure there's bad parts but it's what makes me me, and without it I would cease to be me and become a whole nother person.
I've always found it a 'fun' part of me, a unique thing I was completely alone in most of my life, something that made me different in a funky way.
#arfid#avoidant restrictive food intake disorder#personal#just tbc this isnt anti recovery if thats what u wanna do good for u#i consider my arfid to be chronic tho#i tried therapy my family tried so many things when i was younger but nothing worked nothing helped#and i have consistently just gotten worse#and ive never truly wanted to get better or whatever#the doctors would always ask if i had any concerns about my eating habits and i would answer nl#no*#bc i dont. i dont mind it. its so fundamental to who i am as a person i cant separate it from myself#idk this is my relationship w all my disorders honestly#they suck but there does not exist a version of me without and if there did i would no lonher recognize them as Me#but also frankly? i was just one of those kids who was weird and creepy and loved it.#i love my unhealthy habits bc they make me special n not like everyone else. is that so wrong???#idk im just screamin into the void#only IM allowed to insult my arfid. anyone else does it and theyre on my shitlist#anyway again. if u wanna reciver good for u i dont consider it impossible for other ppl#just for me. bc my arfid is based in my sensory processing issues and that is never gonna change#and even if it could i wouldnt want it nor would i put in the effort#so yeah. my arfid is crhonic but my add is iconic whatever#ass*
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Trevor Belmont is to the plot of Curse of Darkness what Jean Pierre Polnareff is to the plot of Golden Wind.
Man who had been mentally and physically scarred by the plot (involving vampires at verious points) throws himself back into peril to help a new protagonist/group of protagonists defeat a related Big Bad (tm) only to get ... injured... in the process.
#i know the trevor and jotaro parallels probably fit better#but come on look at them#cv is also one big jojo's reference anyway like#anyway#they also activate the same part of my brain and idk why#they would be friends i think#they could at least go to therapy together#not putting this in the fandom tags#i don't want to be perceived
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Remembering that a 4 hour psychological test means 4 hours under the examiner's microscope. I hope they let me listen to music during a written test, but idk if that would defeat the purpose or not. I... really don't know what to expect tomorrow, and it's kind of making me a bit nervous. Lol.
#speculation nation#i dont like to be psychologically analyzed. god i just remembered i have therapy this week too.#which that at least. i mean it's uncomfortable but ultimately it's just talking.#psychological testing they are gonna be Watching me. there will be the questions but also they will be judging my actions#and im so used to masking but that would actually go against me in that instance.#and i really hope theyll let me listen to music bc 4 hours of silence sounds like hell on fucking earth.#but i dont know if that's. part of the process??? put me through stress to see what makes me tick???#my goal is to get an adhd diagnosis but im also scared theyre gonna pick up on the autism.#im gonna be honest. but i didnt plan to get the autism diagnosed bc i dont want the downsides of that#ya know. societal and institutional ableism. etc etc. they might take away opportunities from me.#but it goes hand in hand. and surely it couldnt be too bad if they pick up on it...#i could manage through 4 hours without music but itd be hard. and it could do bad things to my brain.#i think im preemptively prickling up. like a porcupine. i dont want them Looking at me.#i need to just... chill out. whatever comes will come. and it's ultimately in my best interests.#this is what i need to get my adhd meds. it'll be worth it.#..... but im also worried about what else might show up. i know i got Problems. but i dont want them to... know about them.#all sorts of awful invasive questions about me and my past.#for someone who acts like such an open book i really am so allergic to actual emotional vulnerability huh?#decent chance i'll just dissociate thru the whole thing. to get through it.#cut the emotions off. who needs em. the brain can factually answer things without the emotions' input.#anyways im gonna go do some chores. peace#negative/#lol.
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Hello! I apologize if this is a nosy question, but what is the silly feelings wheel app you were talking about in a previous post? My therapist and I have been working on identifying feelings but I still very much rely on a list of feeling words to have any idea what I’m feeling, so it could be a helpful resource. No worries if you don’t want to share, just thought I would ask :)
It's called How We Feel! I'm not sure if it's available on all devices yet, but it's on ios and the google play store for sure.
I've been using it for about a year. It's more of a chart than a wheel but people usually recognize the wheel better so that's what I call it. When you first start it has a 10-part tutorial about emotional acceptance and regulation, then it has suggestions for each category of emotion. You can access both at any time tho after those first 10 days.
It has a share option so you can have friends, which has been great for me cause it prompts me to check on friends and them to do the same for me. It allows you to just respond with a little emoji in like a "I'm here for you" little notification to your friend, or you can reach out to your friend on your own. Its really helped me cause I'm bad at reaching out when I need support so to me and I'm bad about taking on other's problems even when I can't handle it so being able to send a little emoji instead to make sure my friends know I'm there if they need me and them doing the same has been great
#I know I sound like I'm a being sponsored by this app but it's genuinely been incredible for my mental health#whenever I get frustrated in therapy now about not being able to describe a feeling my therapist asks me to think about the chart#he'll ask me what color I feel and go 'good! do you want to narrow it down from there or continue with just that?' and it's so helpful#I have such terrible alexithymia from both cptsd and autism#it took a year of working with him to even recognize when I felt angry or hungry or sick#my friends and I check in on each other regularly now but it feels less intrusive#cause it feels like indirectly reaching out so it's less pressure to directly respond#and it might not feel the same for everyone since it could be jarring to get a notification saying friend feels miserable#but now that I've gotten used to it I don't feel like I need to solve their problems and make them feel better#Like they might be miserable because they're sick! So I check in and they say they're sick but okay and I don't feel the impulse to solve#like I would if I just didn't see them then saw them in person and saw they looked miserable#I don't blame myself or feel like I personally need to fix everything because I know they felt like that from an outside source I can't#control but I can certainly help them if they want! It's their choice tho and I don't feel bad if they don't/I can't#I feel less need to control my emotions/force them to be positive like I used to cause nobody feels positive 24/7 and I can see it#I don't feel the need to be politely content like I did in church because no one can be 24/7. I've attempted to get my family to start but#they're still stuck in needing to not be openly negative. It also helps me accept that negative feelings don't last forever#Someone feeling miserable because they're sick eventually puts they feel tired. Then chill and I know they feel better and I feel better too#Anyways thanks for listening to me ramble about my silly little feelings wheel app I hope it helps you like it helped me anon <3
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idiots on the internet will see an entire group of victims call out their abuser and immediately go "c'mon guys call-out posts are bad :((((!!!"
#am i going through an episode of some kind? probably. do i care? fuck no!#I'm so fucking tired of having to be professional about this when i still fucking lose sleep over it#i get to be terrified of people while they get to cry about how bad it was for them#while CONTINUING to try and manipulate and guilt-trip people#if you're someone who specifically got warned about this situation and you continued to#side with the abuser i won't fucking feel pity or sympathy for you once you realize you were fucking wrong#the entire group of people they hurt was in fucking shambles meanwhile they just get to cry on Tumblr about it#and have people believe them because oh no they could NEVER do such a heinous fucking thing#it's not like this is a clear pattern of behavior!! never!!!#I'm fucking done#also if said abuser is fucking block evading AGAIN to look at my blog#i don't fucking feel pity for you. get some fucking help. get off of fucking Tumblr#and stop putting yourself in communities with minors only to fucking manipulate and prey on them#get some fucking therapy and fucking FIX YOURSELF
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god i need the algorithm to stop recommending lore olympus to me.
reframing a kidnapping of a woman as romance, and painting her mother as an overbearing shrew rather than rightfully worried and protective, and portraying the kidnapper as sympathetic ... what about my overtly feminist ass makes anyone or any algorithm think i'd enjoy ANY hades/persephone romance retellings.
at this point the only hades and persephone retelling i'm interested in is a retelling that focuses on demeter's love for her daughter. one where persephone's abduction and transition from kore, the maiden, to persephone, goddess of the dead and queen of the underworld, was one where she carries out a revenge fantasy against her abductor... She cannot fully escape the underworld, no; she is death, doomed by the narrative. Underground she will stay for half the year. But she will not subject herself to be trapped with him.
hades dies at dawn; hades dies in the spring light, by persephone's power, and a knife garnished with evergreen thistles. demeter holds him down, and persephone cuts the head. judith slaying holofernes; persephone slaying hades.
#i just cant stand it. i cant stand women simping over abusive and controlling men. begging yall... have some dignity#and i cannot stand women who write stories expecting their love of controlling and abusive men to be validated.#ladies... you dont have to like this........ the only things you have to lose are your chains!!!!!#also i dont like the girls outfits in lore olympus.#i cant be the only one who thinks theyre degrading.#why is dressing that way seen as sexy? and why is 'sexy' for a woman so humiliating and submissive? what would a sexy man wear by contrast?#lets stop treating ourselves as objects. we arent here to be ogled. you arent a sexy lamp. you can stop stop dressing as one.#also no amount of therapy speak in the world can cover up the fact that this is a relationship with untenable power differences#you can talk about boundaries all you like. hes 2000 years old ...and youre 19.#and the fact that all the older folk around her have their worries dismissed by the narrative........... side eye#ladies. sugar daddy and older 'mature' man fantasies are fine whatever. but lets not kid ourselves. theyre not *empowerment* fantasies.#you still dont have agency no matter how much money your boyfriend makes. not as long as it's *his* money.#you still dont have power no matter how powerful your boyfriend is. it's still *his* power.#its not empowerment if YOU arent the one that receives power. i dont care if you FEEL empowered. ARE you? in a material and objective way?#are you truly receiving POWER? or are you receiving gifts? if its in HIS power it isnt in YOURS.#and if you truly believe that there can ever be a relationship where he loves you enough that you have 'power' over him...#you fundamentally misunderstand the risks in dynamics like that. how abusive men can change in an instant.#women throughout history weep for you. please understand that you are not so different from them.#you are not inherently any smarter or better than abused women of the past. they thought they made the best choices they could too.#dont ever put yourself in a relationship with a man where he holds all the power. retain your power.#and when the older women in your life tells you something is a bad idea... run. run as fast as you can. they are trying to protect you.#ill regret posting feminist rants eventually but god i need an outlet
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Honestly I think everything would be much better if I could think about everything much more and also much less
#as in 'this does not matter as much as you think it does but also you need to be putting time and effort into it'#in case you haven't noticed my general approach to things that i am not an expert in is throwing myself at them obsessively#and yes i can do anything i want to but god at what cost. starting to have to contemplate being a human being with limits and i dislike it#also i have GOT to do something about how checked out i've been. i was sitting in class thinking 'i think paying attention in class#would fix me' and i got so caught up in that that i missed like half of the discussion. like girl why don't you stop thinking so much#the thing about all of this is i know what the solution is but i don't like it#i think if i went to therapy someone else could figure out a compromise though. i'm notoriously all-or-nothing in my solutions#but i don't think it needs to be that way. i do think that regardless i'm not going to like it but whatever#perce rambles#tldr i need to take it down like five notches and also like just buckle down and do my work >:'0#but emphasis on the taking it down five notches. calm down sir
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