#also Adam got out right before covid

[despexco]

The real reason Adam couldn’t go to college “with an archangel inside him” was the dorms. You think Michael wouldn’t immediately kill his roommate if the roommate even slightly inconvenienced Adam? Also, do we really think after spending 10 years in a small box, Adam wants to move into another small box? Especially with a roommate! Last time they had a roommate in a small box, it didn’t go very well.

[strawberry-whorecake]

We’re Going To Destroy Each Other | K.R.

pairing: Kylo Ren x fem!reader

summary: Combat training with Kylo is exhaustive, but he’s willing to push your boundaries to the benefit of the both of you with a little extra motivation.

word count: 1.9k

warnings: swearing, angst (?), injury, PinV sex, unprotected sex, slapping, choking, dirty talk

A/N: i’m sorry my posts have been fair-and-far few— i got covid and literally rot in bed for like two weeks :,) hopefully this makes up for it ?? also can we appreciate Adam in that gif lightsaber training...holy fuck

“I can’t do it!” you yelled. 

You were sweating so profusely, your training clothes were drenched and stuck to you uncomfortably. Your chest rose and fell with heavy pants—gasps for breaths. 

“You can do it, you’re just weak.” he spat.

You’d been combat training with Ren for weeks now, and you weren’t improving in the slightest.

You extinguished your lightsaber and threw it to the ground, along with yourself, and exhaled heavily. “I can’t fucking do it, just drop it, Ren.” Your brows drew together as you pouted slightly.

His jaw tensed and his right eye twitched as he towered over you. “I could easily kill you, you threw down your weapon—you’re admitting defeat.” He outstretched his saber and approached you. He held the hot flaming blade closer to your neck than you preferred. “One swipe, you’d be nothing.” He held his stance, his lightsaber inching closer to your neck.

“Kylo, I’m tired. I just need a break.” you pleaded, his weapon now centimeters from your flesh as you inched away. 

“An enemy wouldn’t let you rest.” He spat. 

You looked into his eyes only for a moment, he was watching you, trying to contemplate your next move. His eye twitched once more then—

Tssssss

“OW! FUCK!” Your hand flew out and your lightsaber became one with your palm. You gripped it tighter, propelling yourself up and on your feet as you switched it on faster than lightspeed.

You swiftly ducked and caught Kylo’s saber with yours, forcing it away from you.

“Very good…” he practically purred.

You grunted as you dodged Kylo’s attack—an attempt to hit you in the abdomen. You shoved with all your might to keep his blade away from your body, trying to ignore the sweat pooling in your brows.

“Come on, I’m going easy on you.” he teased.

You grunted as you launched yourself into the air behind him, trying to catch him off-guard, but Ren was too quick. He had spun just as instantly as you’d swept behind him.

“You have to be unpredictable.” he issued, with the smallest movement of his wrist the heat of his crossblade singed the flesh of your arm. You cried out as the blade made contact.

You furrowed your brows at the smug look on his face, “How’s this for unpredictable?” You swung your lightsaber into the air, catching it in your dominant hand and faked an upper-hand attack making Kylo jump into defense before you swiped it across Kylo’s abdomen—you didn’t use enough force to really hurt him, just enough to scare him.

“Shit!” Kylo hissed between his teeth, reeling back so quickly he dropped his weapon and toppled onto his knees to clutch at his now exposed and burnt flesh. 

You instantly dove for his saber when he was preoccupied, and swirled it in a circle before pointing it to his neck.

He looked up at you for a moment, his eyes wide and racing to look between the two of yours.

“I could easily kill you.” you teased him like he had you.

He blinked slowly, desperate to catch his breath. In this moment, you weren’t the one who was looking weak. You smirked. 

Kylo swallowed harshly as you inched the sputtering blade of his own weapon closer to his neck. If you truly wanted to, you could have completely lopped his head clean off—but you didn’t.

You thought Kylo was going to speak, but instead, he threw up his arm and both lightsabers soared out of your hands. What you hadn’t expected was for your body to also go flying.

You didn’t know he threw you against the wall until you’d heard the slight crack! sound and opened your eyes, only moments later with a massive pain in the back of your skull. 

“What the fuck, Ren?!” you groaned, rubbing the spot your head must've made contact with the wall before checking for blood. 

Kylo was already standing over you. “We’re going to destroy each other.” he spat with venom. 

Despite the burns on your flesh, and the now massive bump growing on the back of your head, you laughed. “That’s what makes it so fun.”

Kylo grabbed you by your throat and smashed your lips against his. You jumped up and wrapped your arms around his neck, him picking you up as you lept. 

You wrapped your legs around his waist as he pushed your back against the wall, never pulling away from the kiss. 

Kylo ripped hastily at your top, trying to remove it from your sticky flesh. You helped him pull it over your head, diving your hands towards his pants where you worked hurriedly to get them off. You hooked your thumbs around the band of your leggings as Kylo supported you with one hand so you could get them off. You pulled his shirt over his head as you pulled him tighter against you with the strength of your legs.

He moved his lips down your jaw before landing on the still sensitive flesh on your neck he’d burned previously. He kissed gently at first, then took a rather harsh nip that immediately drew blood. 

“Fuck!” you pushed his face away from your neck, seeing the trace of your blood on his lips as he smirked at you. “You bastard!” you groaned as you collided with his lips, running your tongue along his bottom lip and tasting the coppery flavor of your blood. You opened your mouth slightly to grant him access, which he immediately granted your wish and sank your tongue with his. 

You pulled at Kylo’s pants, practically begging him to take them off. When he obeyed you took him in your hand, pumping him with rather tensed fingers. You playfully dragged your nails down his base causing him to groan and slap your hand away.

As you giggled he spat into his hand and stroked himself before he pulled your underwear aside, positioning his cock at your entrance, it twitching in anticipation. 

He looked at you as he thrust himself inside, watching as your face contorted in a mix of pain and pleasure as he split you open.

He held you tightly against the wall making sure you were at least stable while he was going to tear you in half from the inside out. He adored the way your eyebrows knit as you desperately tried to adjust to his size. 

As you whimpered, Kylo chuckled. He truly loved watching you struggle.

Without any warning, he withdrew himself before ramming back into you again, somehow deeper this time. You dug your nails into his back, causing him to wince slightly.

His eye twitched once more before he shut them completely, then he started to pick up his pace. He began thrusting in and out of you, slow at first, then a bit faster.

He’d only speed up when you’d moan for him to do so. Hearing you beg for him was one of the best parts. “Fuck...Kylo—” you whined, and he fucked up into you with a little more haste. His thrusts became rhythmic as he worked your walls to adapt to his size. He was pounding into you with such power that you repeatedly hit the sore spot on your head against the wall behind you—but you were too intoxicated by Kylo to truly care. 

Kylo’s head dove toward your neck, on the opposite side of where he’d already made you bleed. He sucked harshly on your flesh, making sure to leave a sore purpling spot right where his lips resided. He may had been infatuated with seeing you in the pain that he caused you, but what he loved more was seeing the marks he left on you.

When he pulled off your neck, he looked deeply into your eyes. He brushed some stray hair off that clung to your forehead before he spoke breathily, “You’re mine.” he panted. “Yours.” you moaned. 

Kylo held you close as he carried you over to the combat mats and set you gently down on top of them. He balled his hand into a fist and placed it beside your head as he used his other to hold onto your breast.

He pawed at them and squeezed, placing sloppy kisses on the flesh that wasn’t covered by your sports bra. 

You sat up slightly and worked to pull the bra over your head, Kylo helping you after a while. With your breasts exposed he immediately took one in his mouth and rolled his tongue over your nipple, sending shockwaves through your muscles. You groaned in pleasure as he continued ramming his hips into yours.

“F-Fuck…Kylo—” you whimpered. He had left some scattered marks down your chest before he purred, “Shhh—don’t speak.” You moaned again as he took your throat into his hand, it squeezed gently but with enough force on the sides of your neck to restrict just enough air urging you to reach your peak. 

He groaned as he felt your walls growing more claustrophobic around his cock, and it began to twitch.

“You want me to cum inside you?” he purred.

You nodded your head the best you could with his restraint around your neck. “Beg.” he growled.

“P-Please—” you whined brokenly. 

He lightly struck the side of your cheek enough to leave a gentle tingle. “I said beg.” 

His movements were becoming irregular as his hips began to stutter. The way he stared into your eyes with adoration and lust as he pounded you, and struck you, caused heat to well in your gut. “Please Kylo, please cum in me.” you pleaded pathetically.

He smirked again, exposing his perfect dimples. “Of course, Princess.”

He gripped your neck a little tighter as you arched your back, feeling him from every angle. You both became erratic moaning messes as the heat flowed from your gut to your thighs.

“Your pussy is so perfect for me to fill up.” he growled as his cock twitched inside you. He groaned as he began to slip, his rhythm coming to a full halt when he buried himself to the hilt inside of you and released his load deep inside your cunt. 

He thrust in a few more times, much more slowly, lasting out the hindmost moments of his orgasm. 

His body collapsed against yours with a groan, as you pushed his hair out of his face. When you both caught the glance of each other, you exchanged exhausted giggles. 

Kylo’s eyes drifted to the spot where he’d sank his teeth into and kissed it very gently, then trailed his lips along your arm onto the spot you’d gotten singed from his blade. 

As he got off you, you sat up too, softly running your fingers against the red line trailing across Kylo’s stomach. The feeling of your nails made him wince, but he knew you weren’t trying to hurt him. 

He pulled his boxers back over himself as he walked to retrieve the rest of your clothes. He handed you your leggings and your shirt as he slipped swiftly into his pants.

You tugged your sports bra on, following thereafter your shirt. Kylo helped you off the mats and onto the floor so you could slide into your leggings—with some difficulty being slick and sweaty, so you were thankful for his help on your already trembling legs. 

When you both had gotten yourself situated once more, Kylo walked back over to where you both had been standing practicing combat. He tossed your lightsaber to you and you promptly caught it.

“You really think we’re going to destroy each other?” you asked half-heartedly.

“Not for a while,” he smirked. “I like you too much.” His eyes met yours as he clicked his weapon to life, standing in a ready stance as he awaited your move.

[astoundingbeyondbelief]

Kaiju Week in Review (December 3-9, 2023)

I made a frame from this shot Wikizilla's Image of the Week. No regrets. Monarch: Legacy of Monsters, I love ya. When I was a teenager, explicit queerness was anathema to most big-name franchises. Those dominoes have been slowly falling, often in lower-profile tie-ins first, and to me this is a huge one: 69 years without a queer live-action Godzilla character are over. And Cate's the main protagonist of the show! I'm not under the delusion that media representation will cure all society's ills, but it sure doesn't hurt. Now, the non-Tumblr parts of the fandom are being completely normal about this, right? Right? Whatever, that's why you'll never get rid of me here. Cate had a couple more sweet moments with May in this episode, and Mariko Tamaki wrote episode 7, so don't expect her to stop kissing girls. Hopefully she's learned a valuable lesson about cheating though.

"The Way Out" is also another gift to those of us who have always wanted to see more of the ramifications of a world where Godzilla exists, from underground towns for the super-rich to ruined cities where federal troops shoot looters and harass people experiencing homelessness. And the show continues to find ways to use kaiju to talk about COVID, from Cate and Kentaro's exchange about San Francisco truthers ("It's easier than waking up every day and thinking, at any moment, the same could happen to you") to the blink-of-an-eye speed at which the threat went from on the news to her front door in the flashbacks.

As I foretold, we got a Godzilla x Kong: The New Empire trailer, an amusing contrast to the weighty Toho flick and Apple show already fore of mind. It's Adam Wingard unbound, that's for sure. The human cast seems pared back, a longstanding Monsterverse problem, and the kaiju fights were far and away the best part of Godzilla vs. Kong, so hopefully this approach will play to his strengths. But that movie also had excellent VFX, and some of the shots in here are rough. There's time to fix them, at least... which probably can't be said of Godzilla's design. I like that he's pink (did some Warner Bros. executive take the wrong message away from Barbie?) and sporting a thagomizer on his tail, but his proportions are uncanny. And I see Kong found the Infinity Gauntlet; good for him.

I am, of course, not done talking about Godzilla Minus One. It added over 200 screens and made $8.3 million in its second weekend in the U.S., a minuscule drop considering that its $11.4 million opening "weekend" spanned five days. Almost a third of all tickets sold this weekend were for Godzilla or Hayao Miyazaki's The Boy and the Heron, remarkable in a market so allergic to foreign imports. That brings its total to $25.3 million (more by the time you read this). With an avalanche of Christmas blockbusters on the way, its grip on premium-format screens is about to slip. Still, I see it hanging around theaters for a while. I have never seen the fandom so united in praise for a film before, and it's making plenty of new fans.

Some of those fans are in high places. Variety leaked that it's on the 20-film shortlist for Best Visual Effects at the Oscars (to be narrowed to five nominees), something I, again, never expected to read about a Toho Godzilla film. Alas, it's locked out of this year's Best International Film category due to the quirky nomination period.

Much has been made of how great the film looks on a $15 million budget. I have two caveats, one in each direction. No one is quite sure where the $15 million figure came from; Yamazaki said at a recent con appearance that he only wished he had that much to play with. (He has yet to divulge the actual budget, just that it was above ¥1 billion.) Now, unions in the Japanese film industry are much weaker than in Hollywood, so a given production budget goes a lot further in Japan. All the same, I doubt that alone explains Minus One looking better than most superhero movies made for twenty times the cost. I'll offer a couple more reasons: Yamazaki has extensive visual effects experience (he's been the VFX supervisor of all but one of the live-action films he's directed), and the film's big effects scenes aren't as busy or lengthy as many of the Hollywood counterparts. I don't know if Disney will ask Yamazaki to direct the next Star Wars movie (that would require there to be a next Star Wars movie), but the studios here should be taking notes.

the sphinx, a blog with a ton of American Godzilla rarities to share, has outdone itself—behold a continuity and dialogue script for the U.S. version of King Kong vs. Godzilla! Included in the download is a detailed comparison with the film. No huge differences, apart from the script giving the secretary added to the U.S. version a name, but a fascinating piece of history all the same.

The Minus One incarnation of Godzilla (MaiGoji?) has joined Godzilla Battle Line, accompanied by [SPOILER]. To be honest, my enthusiasm for this game has been flagging, and I'm not caught up on the strategies developing around these two, so I'll just refer you to Sir Melee's channel as usual. This Godzilla's also doing a collaboration with the Japanese mobile game Fleet of Blue Flame.

Tiffany Grant, Asuka's original voice actress, will narrate the audiobooks for the Neon Genesis Evangelion: ANIMA light novels which explore an Instrumentality-free path for the show. Seven Seas Entertainment published them in English from 2019 to 2021, which, to be honest, was also news to me.

This one's for my fellow library workers: the obscenely popular Who HQ nonfiction series for children is publishing a book about Godzilla next June. I don't know if this will have quite the same impact on today's young Godzilla fans as the Ian Thorne tome had on Gen Xers and Millennials, what with the Internet and all, but it's certain to be more factual. Expect illustrations instead of licensed photos, and not just because of Toho.

I can finally talk more about the Godzilla x Kong: Titan Chasers mobile game without fearing a DMCA. Not that there's much to talk about; it's freemium through and through and I'm not sure I know a single person who's excited for it. Interesting to see some critters from the comics break into another medium, at least. Here's the trailer.

[glassprism]

I'm asking this as someone who absolutely ADORES Lucy St. Louis as Christine, do you think Lucy would have been cast as Christine if Covid never happened?

Kelly Mathieson did say at the time that she was going to be leaving at the 2020 Cast Change, so we would have been getting a new Christine regardless

But, I have always had this feeling, due to the other circumstances that occurred in Phantom London at the time, that Lucy St. Louis' casting as Christine was a bit of a "Consolation Prize"/"Compensation?"

Am I alone in this mindset?

I think she would have been cast, but it would have been very different circumstances from how it happened in 2020.

For one thing, IMO COVID-19 and the subsequent shutdown provided a perfect excuse for CamMack and co. to shutter the original West End production and push in their modified version. So had COVID-19 not occurred, the original West End production might very well still be going, albeit with some changes regardless (I know that even before the shutdown, the Golden Angel had stopped working and the technology for it was too old for them to fix, so something might have changed there). So Lucy St Louis might very well have been cast as Christine, and there would probably still have been huge fanfare for her as the first black Christine in Phantom on West End if she was indeed the first, but it would have been as a replacement Christine, perhaps even an alternate, not as the original principal Christine of the West End revival.

But additionally... I do agree with you that Lucy St Louis's casting, right when it was announced that the original West End production had been shut down and they were opening a new, modified version... yeah, it was something of a diversionary marketing practice. I know some people don't like that argument, for understandable reasons, as it seems to downplay Lucy St Louis's considerable talents, her deserved fame now, and all the work it took her to get to where she is now.

But ignoring that most every actor gets where they are through a combination of talent, work, and plain good luck and connections (see, for an extreme example, Katie Knight Adams being cast as Christine because CamMack wanted her in the role), I also don't see this a a knock against Lucy St Louis at all. Rather, it's pointing out what should be obvious now: companies and corporations will use diversity as a marketing tactic. They will! They know it's something people want to see, they know it gives them "virtuous corporation" points or whatever you want to call it, and they know if they do it, people will sigh and go, "Okay, they did so-and-so sucky things, but on the other hand they are trying to be more inclusive and representative of minorities, so I guess they're okay..."

And I think that was exactly what CamMack and co. were doing here: "Okay, the phans are going to be mad at us for doing this, but what if we did this..." It's a case of being mad at the higher-ups for their cynical use of diversity as a marketing ploy and sop to fans, not to downgrade Lucy St Louis (who is also one of my favorite Christines!) or say she was "only" cast because she's black. None of this is on Lucy St Louis, it's on the people in charge of the show, and it just sucks because, just like the circumstances of the West End revival, it creates this pall on her casting which she does not deserve.

And yet... and yet... IMO had the COVID shutdown not happened, I don't think Lucy St Louis would have been cast in 2020; I think hers or similar casting would have occurred far, far later down the line, because as much as ALW and co. were talking a big talk about diversity, it sure wasn't happening that much in Phantom pre-COVID. (Like, whoo, we got Ali Ewoldt, Jordan Donica, and Rodney Ingram in 2016-2017, but do we get anyone else after? Nope. Oh boy, we got our first Asian Raoul in the West End in the year of our Lord 2019 and he's an understudy, let's celebrate guys.)

And I know this is all speculation, I don't know anything about this alternate timeline other than guesses... but it brings up that conundrum of what are we willing to accept. When is casting diversely okay? Is it all right even when it's being done to make money? Should we expect corporations to do it "out of the goodness of their heart"? When are the benefits of representation and helping minorities feel seen outweighed by the fact that this was done for purely marketing practices? It's something I think a lot of people are grappling with in this era. And I don't have an answer for you on that.

[imzsuzsis-blog]

Loki strokes my back in circular motions in the morning in the bathroom, I vomited again but I can take it better now, it's not because you're hysterical and I don't sneeze so much, I don't get into trouble with anyone, I've finally gotten rid of burping, I'm just joking and then I laugh at myself, I know that I cooked a good thing, it's true, not with him but with my ex Ollie, but a good and cute little girl and I'm waiting for it. "Who are you going to?" He smiled seductively at me when I turned around and started washing my face. "Yes, I will also be there at the press conference right next to Charles, who said that on a drunken night you are a piece of shit, but his girlfriend thinks it's positive, and he thinks it's negative." I tried to laugh but it didn't work, I was struggling with the serum, I never knew if I should put it on by hand or just drip it on my face. ,,What was it? You don't say exactly? Ever since Suzuka's drunken outburst, we know that Charles is not a sane boy, nor is he a hothead who thinks like that." "I know if he doesn't, he freaks out and starts crying in a weird way, but that's how he is. Fuck, it's sold out at the best time!!!!" "Are you running out?" I used up the last of my sunscreen, you could buy a new one here, but where?” I started whining again about a stupid sunscreen that I bought somewhere a month ago because it seemed better than the expensive ones sold by Sephora. "Until we find a new one, use mine, it's the same brand, it's just a sun protection factor, that's all it was." "Fuck, I ran out of primer, and a company sent me this during Covid, but I really have to buy it, because it's available here too, but it's cheaper here." I threw the plastic box in the trash and saw that Loki looked strange, I could only blink. "What you got, how can I say it, my sister-in-law, they are American and you can only get this on the internet." He came closer to me and slowly started kissing my back, which made me start, then he kissed my neck, I just blushed and looked at the needle in front of me, but before long he turned me around, I started to support the cock while he sucked my Adam's cock and excited my body with his fingers. "Loki, please, I have to go, I'm in such a fucking hurry. Aaaah!!!” I twisted my neck with closed eyes and played with Loki's lock of hair. "You'll get there, I'll just taste this delicacy." "Ahh- I understand, but..." "Let's go... I can't bear to look here, fuck you!!!!!!!"

I stood frozen, seriously, it's seven in the morning and we have to get to the track by ten. Loki enjoys sucking his cock. I closed my eyes and instead turned my head, started shaking and called the others to fuck us. ,,Where? I don't know, but I don't dare to look at it... I'm serious, what I saw is almost gay porn... I'll take good Loki's mouth off the pumpkin and bring the monkey." "Suck harder Loki, more!!!!!" "I'm going, it's too much for me. then there. Cya" My head hurts from Lando's screams, which make me moan.. he moans during his orgasm. "Milk, I'm going to have milk!!!!!!! Let's go faster Loki more!!!!!!!!! A little bit!!!!!" "I can't take it anymore, I'll shut up." I was furious when I opened it. Laughing in front of the needle guard, Lando put on make-up and laughed and recorded something on TikTok. "It's done. Oh hello, Osc… And you? Aren't you separate?" "It wasn't Lando, the team said that since there was only one race here, we would go to the track together. So I hope you will hurry and your mind won't run around your tail again." "Relax girl, I'm ready, my dress is in my suitcase, just a light on the diva's beautiful mouth and we're off."

I came out of the bathroom smiling and shaking my ass in a sexy way. "Lando, you have a whore's tattoo." "And what about my lady? I'm not a boyish gay, as you can see, I'm a girl, a real girly girl, my dear. You know it's not a topic for me." I stroked his hair Osc and saw that he was embarrassed. "Sorry, no, it wasn't intentional, we just wanted a little petting in the morning, it really wasn't a willful hetero kidnapper of my heart." "Petting?" Do you remember that he left home?” He had to get up and walk around, walked around the room, then ran out the door without saying a word. "Hmm, I really have to go, I'm sorry Loki, today's an important day, if I miss it I'll be punished." Sexily, I climbed on him for the last time and we started to kiss erotically in the armchair. "Should I ride your fucking dick like this as a farewell?" I cheekily smiled at him not only with my mouth, but also with my eyes. "Yes, it's best to go out like this today." I knew that if I was a good little girl today, I would be one too.. I stroked the back of him neck and started giggling. I've always loved the hot guy on other guys, so it will be the same now. "Loki is fighting, Loki is fighting."

[stylespresleyhearted]

I didn't follow the elvis promo closely: what happened between Austin Butler and Olivia Dejonge?

hiiii ohh well i’d say it’s more about what happened before promo ??? i.e more specifically during filming and covid lockdown. it might be a bit lengthy so bear w me sweet anon

*if you don’t like olivia don’t read won’t tolerate hate against my girl 🌚*

so sometime in dec 2019 deuxmoi got a tip about olivia and austin checking into a hotel together and keep in mind this is before any vanessa + austin break up that i know of although DM didn’t make this public until either 2020 or 2021. there’s also two infamous photos :

that’s bebe orleans (a best friend of olivia’s during the time of filming i don’t think they’re friends anymore tho opp-) and a shirtless austin butler hugging her (apparently during this time olivia would post A LOT of stuff and austin or something of his would be in the background and as soon as fans pointed it out she would delete it poor girl is still so spooked by social media to this day)

Then there’s the infamous shirt-gate. Olivia wearing Austin’s Hawaiian shirt and this was posted to Olivia’s IG jan 2 2020 about two weeks before vaustin break up hit any headlines. vanessa fans clocked this and tore olivia apart. i’m not saying it was alright for olivia to post but she was young, she was about 20/21??? and we don’t know where austin and vanessa stood during this time. idk just ~ drama really. filming continued, life went on, austin was in london filming mota and then DM was sent in this tip right after the austin x lily rose photos dropped

Olivia followed DM when this was posted and only unfollowed them *after* this had been sent in. Now as much as I love Olivia and Olivia x Austin I actually don’t think they ever officially dated either like where Austin was claiming her as his girlfriend or girl or anything. I think they were just something ya know? Fucking, hanging out, feelings unrequited maybe but no titles. So yeah I don’t think Austin “cheated” on Olivia with Lily Rose but maybe they were still hanging out or Olivia was still waiting on him when the photos dropped so she was just hurt/heartbroken? Personally I think someone Olivia knows (or maybe Olivia herself) sent this in and knew using words like cheated would just make Austin look worse so they went that route with those words.

If you watch Elvis promo interviews/videos Olivia and Austin seem to get along just fine and this is where Kaia (austin’s long term gf) comes in. the photo of olivia holding austin’s face in cannes with kaia sitting behind them will always make me laugh because its so relatable i too would be messy having to see the guy who broke my heart be in love with his new gf while we promote the movie we’re in. olivia and kaia follow each other so i think they’re friendly as well. i think its kinda obvious that olivia did have feelings for austin/was hurt by him and then had to do promo with him where he sometimes brought along his new gf. this is when i really started to feel for her and began looking into her.

But then of course press tour ended and so did anything between austin and olivia??? they have different friend groups, live in different cities but then comes austin’s aacta speech

now austin robert butler why in the damn hell were you waxing so poetically about your co star who by this point wants seemingly nothing to do with you? i love this speech and can rewatch it and cry especially when you realize olivia didn’t mention austin by name not even once in her acceptance speech. i don’t think she did that to be petty i think she didn’t want the drama of it which i can understand. so i think she was just distancing herself from the elvis experience already by this point and trying to move on. there’s one (1) photo of them at the Oscars greeting each other but idk as much as it hurts me i think olivia really just wanted to move on from this part of her life. she’s good friends with sophie turner (who i also love and think is so awesome) and one night last year went to dinner with sophie and taylor swift and unfollowed austin. she tried to play it off by unfollowing 100 people the next day lol but girlie u didn’t fool anyone!

fun fact and unrelated but in 2022 kaia was having a girls night with charlotte lawrence (her best friend) and this same night charlotte followed olivia on ig (olivia who was in australia) so i always wondered if kaia was maybe talking about olivia lmao

now i think i’ve covered the most important parts but honestly it’s a lot of lore and most of it unconfirmed you just have to use your basic common sense and critical thinking skills it is not hard to see there was obviously something between them and olivia was hurt. i think if timing and the elvis possession and austin’s identity crisis during all this played a big part in them not publicly dating but i think in a different time/life they could have been “the one” and i associate maroon and the 1 by taylor swift to them. i love olivia, she’s gorgeous, talented, chill, minds her business, kind, idk what everyone has against her.

also gonna tag @bcofl0ve on this because she knows a lot more than me on this subject and was auslivia president she can correct me on anything if im wrong.

[asherlockstudy]

I didn't get a weird vibe from EB but it was odd how Rhett said they need to "feed the" shippers. Sure, Rhett. 👀

I don't think anyone had even speculated about their camping meetup. Haha

I am gonna explain both here because they go together.

Finally watched EB, just in time to get done with it before the new R&L video.

I didn’t see a weird vibe in EB either. Rhett indeed had COVID and in case he had been annoyed throughout his sickness with Link due to the reasons we discussed, it was over by the time of this recording. He didn’t however say a single thing about GME except that he felt horrible throughout. But no afterthoughts on the GME whatsoever. And since Link pointedly did not include Rhett among the people with positive views on it (himself and the crew) in his solo episode, it seems we will likely never have Rhett’s takeaway from GME3.

The one strange moment was when Rhett explained how he caught the virus after having sex with Jessie - again. Link was weird about Rhett’s sex with his wife. Water is wet. He didn’t say anything too much so you probably wouldn’t get it from the podcast format but it was visible in the video format. I had found it interesting last year how after so much time evading covid, Rhett and Link both caught it at the exact same time after vacationing together in a mountain town. But Rhett was adamant he caught it later from Jessie during the sex they were having and that Link must have caught it during his next vacation with his family. Now in this podcast, Link said that he had probably caught covid last year from Rhett and Rhett gave him a slight side look and said “no it cannot be because timing” and Link was like “yeah yeah you right”.

Of course this could have totally been the case (although Covid can make a lot of days to show the symptoms) but the funny thing here is… that you don’t have to have sex to get Covid lol That was one of the things that has driven the world crazy about it - that it is easy to catch! Rhett could have perfectly be in the same general area as Jessie and there would still be a high chance to get it especially since they had not figured out Jessie had Covid. Take me for example. I know how I caught it but how the person I caught it from caught it in the first place will remain the biggest mystery in the universe… But Rhett makes this almost seem like an std lol Again I am not saying he is not telling the truth but that it is funny how he overexplains getting Covid - like, he could also say “Jessie was sick and I got it too”. But the previous year he had also analysed how he was on top of her and their mouths were aligned and they were breathing into each other basically and, okay, Rhett you caught Covid. It happens a lot, trust me. We get it 😂

Now let’s go to what pissed me off both here and in GMM. I saw that the GMM thing was viewed positively or as a joke here on tumblr and I don’t know if I have got this the wrong way or something.

So in GMM Rhett chose to say in an irrelevant moment that they are trying to do certain things for the clicks, and apparently these things are taken seriously by certain fans who analyse them and they are so adamant about the conclusions that they draw regarding their lives that this certainty is so overwhelming that even they forget what the actual truth is or they end up agreeing or they are conditioned to agree. Link said ironically that this is very healthy. Rhett said all that with a smile.

I saw people here taking this as part joke-part semi-confirmation that some things in the theories are correct.

In EB he claimed Link made it sound like they had sex or fondled each other during their short encounter during camping. Fun fact: Link didn’t really sound like that, he said “we didn’t get into it that much” or something along those lines but well this can have a generic meaning, you have to be suspicious in advance or on edge to immediately consider that Link meant there was some light petting going on. I mean, Rhett eventually made it seem more suspicious than it was before.

But Rhett went on saying there are people living their lives wanting to believe that this was a romantic date. And much like in GMM he said they were mentioning things in such a way in order to cater to such fans and get the views. These are very similar statements in two different videos and it seems this is a thought taking a lot of space in Rhett’s brain lately.

Now here’s a few things:

The phrasing of this is exceptionally demeaning. While there are people believing or suspecting such things founded on a frankly strange behaviour from these two (including me lol), it is a wild leap to assume they are living their lives for it. Most people are able to make the connections or draw conclusions at real time while watching THEIR content. And then they can go on with their own lives. Given how fast they managed to lose some of their most dedicated shippers a few years ago, I would say that in fact most people don’t live their lives for it but some simply see it and some might find it cute? Appealing? Interesting? Idk. For me it’s intrigue more than anything else - I am curious how this thing will pan out. And a bit concerned since it’s been years I watch them - dunno how concerned I will keep being if Rhett keeps saying shit like that lol

The claim that they do it for the views - don’t make me laugh now. How will you get the views from it when all your content’s titles are about Doritos and sriracha?!?!?? The following they have gathered around them is in truth mostly foodies or generally people who like to consume various products and nowadays fewer viewers care about their friendship, their dynamic, their personal stories. They drove those successfully out. Whatever innuendos exist within the content (save for GME) are incidental, do not interest a great number of viewers and do not really attract a reliable and steady audience. You only have to check the views honestly. If this went in sync with how suspiciously homoromantic Rhett and Link act, there should be rises in the views, not drops! And their R&L videos would have been soaring, not struggling.

If Rhett says that they do things to attract shippers but then shippers get too serious and there is some sort of violation in their personal lives (that’s in fact what he implied, despite the smile and all), then the fault still lies with them. If he means they initially bait shippers this way, well since it gets out of hand and since as he claims it is all unfounded, well, here’s a solution: 🌺DON’T. BAIT. PEOPLE.🌼 If there’s no truth and it’s all strategically planned in those strange moments, then surely it will be very easy to stop. On the other hand, if despite all those concerns expressed, they still choose to perpetuate this for the “””””views”””””” and the money, well then I can’t feel sorry for them. It’s their choice. One of them really said “we are desperate”. Yeah I could tell that by the nipple suck. But if you are really getting desperate, maybe something doesn’t work right in the top of the Mythical Pyramid. And the problem is not the viewers, shippers or not. I was more understanding a few years ago but now I get the old shippers’ frustration more - you fuck up and then you say “oh it’s the fault of the one watching me that I fucked up but I need them to watch me so I am gonna keep fucking up” No thanks, if you ask me. Stop fucking up.

[1ddiscourseoftheday]

🐒25 Dec '22🚴‍♀️🦴

Twas the night before christmas Louis' birthday when suddenly I recalled- I sat bolt up in shock- I'd forgotten a promise to yall! It was a christmas day, you see, back in 2018, that Simon Cowell dramatically demonstrated exactly how brilliant he is when thinking things up all on his own rather than taking credit for a woman's ideas- he would be starting a new band he said, of CGI monkeys!! One of them would be modelled after Harry Styles! Sadly someone slapped him out of whatever drugged stupor led to telling the press about that brainstorm, and we never heard about it again... except from me, who had made a vow to Never Forget and to bring it up every xmas forever and ever (because I can only assume Simon would hate that.) He still hasn't learned though, just this year he hyped up an AI deepfake of himself made with that very same technology- he really just so transparently wants a band without any pesky rebellious humans in it, yikes. The fact is, the man is a clown all year every year, so may I present… a 2022 review!

Sadly, the year's biggest Cowell news was but a hoax- he did not in fact die, yet. However, he did lose a tooth, get COVID, and fall off his electric bike and end up in the hospital AGAIN, proving that ill wishes (mine) can come true to some extent! And not to worry, there's still hope for next year- apparently he still bikes around without a helmet daily. A recent TV appearance had his fans (??! sounds fake but okay) "distracted by his incredibly smooth visage"- allegedly his botox and other modifications got to the point that his son was "in hysterics" at the site of him, a clever turn of phrase that implies tears but could also mean he was laughing his ass off- me too kid, me too. Although The Sun continue to print only flattering and respectful articles- almost as if they had some kind of relationship or agreement with him?! wow this is Brand New Information- the Daily Mail definitely got the brief that tis the season for making fun of Cowell, and have been running an endless series of articles about his "many faces through the years" and "melting mug". They were denied the opportunity with his most recent TV appearance however, as he did that interview with a shadow strategically cast across himself like a low tech witness protection gambit. Perhaps, I thought, some of the issue was with the confusing and scary sounding 25 pound face masks he was reportedly doing, but it turned out that was merely an audio based misunderstanding- it was sponcon for a £25 face mask, boring.

He continues to talk up his son in interviews, bragging that the kid is a great talent spotter and he "leans on him" for opinions (that I can believe) but if you're skeptical that Simon would actually let himself be upstaged, you're quite right! Consider: he also had some things to say about what his cancelled show The X Factor would look like if it came back. The tabs report that he "is adamant that the judges should be industry insiders such as A&R people rather than artists because they are better judges of talent and less jealous of bright young artists.” Sounds like SOMEONE is jealous all right but it's not an artist judge! I think we all remember who stole the show and the hearts of multiple nations- not to mention those of scores of allegedly straight men- on the last season of TXF while spotting and nurturing the talent who went on to win it all, all while making fun of Simon at every opportunity: yes indeed, it was bright young artist and Guest Judge Louis Tomlinson! Gosh who could have seen THAT coming? Possibly the actual visionary of TXF, Nicole Scherzinger, another guest judge who upstaged Simon- most recently when footage of her forming 1D was finally released on the 10th anniversary. She said she was surprised it had survived, that she assumed he had "burned it" (to bolster his decade long lie that it was he who had had the world-changing idea.) But no, she says, in fact it was "the way that my mind grapes were working" which is, um, a very weird way of putting that, but it WORKED OUT GREAT so who am I to quibble with the way her grapejuice flows.

Meanwhile just when you thought we were free of NFT type annoyances Zayn invited us to join the metaverse, no thank you, but get that cash babe and a happy holidays to you and to all our boys: to Liam, acting like he has to make up for the few months off the radar by posting an equivalent amount of insta stories before the end of the year, to Niall, taking a break from taking over tiktok to tease about how busy he'll be next year, to Harry, dousing himself in freezing water in the UK while pap pics of him in LA were dropped, and to Louis, 31 (!!) now and hopefully with some wonderful plans over his long awaited break before another jam packed year of winning. And to all out there, a very let me be your good night and all the love!

[vincent-marie]

Frankenstein Adaptation Brainstorming...

Okay, so I was listening to the I, FRANKENSTEIN episode of We Hate Movies; it reminded me of why I loved the novel in the first place, how supposedly Guillermo del Toro has plans for his own adaptation (something to look forward to when the workers finally get their due pay) & I just thought of a bunch of ideas of what would I do if I had the budget & skills to adapt the story to film.

Have Victor Frankenstein bring his creation (for simplification I'mma call him Adam) to life via alchemy, not science. As much as I love the story, I hate that the public's takeaway all these years was that Victor's pursuit of scientific research was what did him in, not his hubris or negligence as a science-daddy. Every movie that has had a plague caused by medical research I blame on this long-standing interpretation of Frankenstein's story & I've had enough of it. Especially in a Covid-19 plague-ridden world fostered by anti-education pundits and supporters who believe willful ignorance is the same thing as having a personality. For the record, that's actually why I legitimately liked the animated FRANKENWEENIE remake; THAT version of Victor Frankenstein brought his dead dog back to life out of love in spite of an anti-science, anti-education society, while his classmates created kaiju-style monsters cuz they were just in it for the fame.

Film Adam's (earlier) scenes backwards. Theoretically this would depend on the film's initial budget, but I would want to film Adam's scenes backwards similarly to the dwarf dream sequence in TWIN PEAKS, or Sadako's spooky walk in RINGU. Adam's appearance is described in the book as being beautiful, but also unworldly. Even Mary Shelley herself described her nightmare that inspired the story of being about a creature moving in an unnatural manner. These days folks have interpreted that as him having an uncanny valley effect, centuries before "uncanny valley" was even a thing. Hence filming the actor moving backwards & then playing the film in reverse, a good ol' Jean Cocteau method, would be perfect to illustrate on film how off-putting & seemingly unnatural Adam would look to others. Depending on the budget, this might only take place during the first half of Adam's life story. Like as the story goes on, as he matures & faces more hardship, he becomes more human & his movements become more natural. And of course during the "backwards" parts of the film the actor's dialogue would be pre-recorded & lip-synced backwards on set.

Give the story a queer edge. Not gay subtext, but text right there on the screen. What I always got out of the story wasn't that Victor was in the wrong to play god, but that he was a negligent science-daddy who wasn't willing to accept the responsibility of raising a science-child. I say we take that up to its realistic, real-world parallel: If you're not willing to have a child who is gay or trans, etc., then you shouldn't have agreed to be a parent at all. In the scene where Adam asks that Victor create a companion for him, Adam expresses he does not wish to be a father himself. Victor offers to make sure his lady friend can't get pregnant, but then Adam clarifies that's not what he meant. He wants a male companion. And that's why Victor refuses to grant his wish. Because he's a bigot who cares more about the "ew! gay!" factor rather than someone else's happiness. It also adds an extra layer of rage on Adam's part that we can kind of empathize with when he murders Victor's wife. If Victor thinks he has the right to deny Adam happiness with another man, then why should Victor be inherently granted the bliss of a heteronormative relationship?

As far as casting goes, I'd want to cast Norman Reedus as Adam. This is a bit of self-indulgence on my part. (^_^) In the book Victor's first-person description of his creation is of "being beautiful", except for the color of his eyes. So having a good-looking actor play Adam isn't a HUGE stretch for us fans of the novel. Why Norman Reedus, though? Despite what you might think, it's not because of the WALKING DEAD trivia aspect. (Though that couldn't hurt.) It's more because a) I've always thought Norman Reedus was handsome, b) I loved him as the voice of Striker in HELLUVA BOSS, and c) that low, raspy quality to his voice I think would work really well for Adam's characterization. This is a guy who is maybe a year old in age, but he's faced so much hate, rejection & isolation from the world that emotionally he has already aged to that of a lonely, damaged adult. (Goth and emo bands like Evanescence, Good Charlotte or Paramore could NOT have come sooner for this guy's level of angst.) Also he'd be the only American in a cast of mostly Brits. Partly because Adam is an outsider in the society he was created in. (That was the ONE thing I liked in Kenneth Branagh's FRANKENSTEIN; casting the American Robert De Niro as Frankensten's creation.) But also you could find a bit of subtext about the American being the messed-up child of British colonists.

But, yeah, I just wanted to get this creative outlet off my chest cuz I really don't see myself being successful enough to actually make this happen.

If there's anyone reading this who DOES, you have my permission to use any of these ideas. Go nuts! I can't copy-claim any of these ideas if I wanted to, & I'd rather see it fall into the hands of someone with a great mind who thinks alike who is capable of making this Frankenstein adaptation.

ADDITIONAL MINI-TANGENT: The big reason I hated Kenneth Branagh's FRANKENSTEIN was basically the same for why I hated Francis Ford Coppolla's DRACULA. Both movies just gave off a feel of "We're too edgy & cool for this slow-burn Gothic horror, we're gonna be loud & IN YOUR FACE with the blood & the gore & the sex & the screaming! We're MODERN!" Horror novels that I loved for the foreboding atmosphere, SUBtext & lingering dread were turned into movies that so DESPERATELY wanted to be hard-core they wound up coming off as way too try-hard for my own Gothic horror tastes.

[atlanticcanada]

Bedard ties Eberle's goal record as Canada thumps Austria at world juniors

Connor Bedard is doing his best to downplay an outrageous stat line.

It might be the only thing he hasn't accomplished at the world junior hockey championship.

The 17-year-old phenom had two goals and four assists to tie another national record just 24 hours after a seven-point performance as Canada pounded Austria 11-0 for the host country's second straight blowout win.

"I'm another player on the team," Bedard said. "We've got so many guys that are special players. I'm just here as one of the guys.

"And obviously trying to contribute."

The presumptive first pick at the 2023 NHL draft is going about that work with assassin-like precision — including a goal against the Austrians from what should be an impossible angle.

"Phenomenal," Canadian forward Adam Fantilli said. "What he's been doing is so special, and the way he's doing it is amazing.

"Absolutely nothing but smiles for him right now."

Bedard has scored six times in three games to tie Jordan Eberle's all-time Canadian mark of 14 goals at the men's under-20 event, and his 27 total points at the world juniors are just four back of the national record held by Eric Lindros.

"His ability to score goals is (among) the best I've ever seen," said captain Shane Wright. "He's always creative with the way he shoots the puck and where he can release it.

"Really impressive."

The North Vancouver, B.C., native's seven points in Wednesday's 11-2 victory over Germany also tied four other players for the most by a player sporting the Maple Leaf at the tournament.

Bedard leads the world juniors with 14 points — seven more than linemate Logan Stankoven, who's at No. 2.

"Just enjoying my time on the bench watching him play," Canadian forward Nathan Gaucher said with a laugh. "Unbelievable."

Stankoven added a goal and three assists Thursday, while Gaucher and Joshua Roy each scored and set up two others. Fantilli, with a goal and an assist, Wright, Dylan Guenther, Zach Dean, Nolan Allan and Tyson Hinds provided the rest of the offence.

Benjamin Gaudreau made 12 saves for the shutout.

Benedikt Oschgan stopped 36 shots for the overmatched Austrians, outscored 31-0 through their three games.

"The score is what it is, but I couldn't be prouder of the group," said Nova Scotia-born head coach Kirk Furey, whose largely no-name roster held a powerhouse opponent to one shot through the game's first 14 minutes. "We gave up one odd-man rush at the end against a team with … everybody."

Canada was embarrassed 5-2 by the Czechs in Monday's opener before rebounding with that emphatic victory over Germany.

Sweden leads Group A with eight points, followed by Czechia's seven and Canada's six with one game to go for each.

The Canadians meet the Swedes on New Year's Eve, while Czechia — the country commonly known as the Czech Republic — will take on the Germans.

Bedard scored four times against Austria in an 11-2 triumph at last year's world juniors in Edmonton before the event was shelved until August because of COVID-19 outbreaks.

The Austrians lost 11-0 to Sweden in their opener before dropping a 9-0 decision Tuesday to Czechia, but were full marks for their start Thursday.

A roster stacked with nine first-round NHL draft picks, plus presumptive 2023 top-5 selections Bedard and Fantilli, Canada had a tentative opening against the European lightweights.

"We came out a little sluggish and a little careless with the puck," head coach Dennis Williams said. "They're a hard-working team, they're a disciplined team. They stayed inside the dots, we didn't want to go inside the dots.

"We wanted to play on the outside perimeter and if you're not willing to get there and get pucks through and traffic then that's what happens."

The Canadians then went to their first power play and never looked back.

Guenther scored a hat trick against Germany — all off Bedard feeds — and got things started off with a slick no-look, between-the-legs pass from Brennan Othmann.

Dean snapped his first of the tournament before Wright scored his third on another man advantage from a Bedard setup for a 3-0 lead through 20 minutes.

"We got a good talk in between the first and the second — imposing our game, our style of play," Gaucher said. "We were a bit too soft."

Roy scored his second after the restart before Bedard, who had three goals against Germany, went to work on another highlight-reel effort when he roofed a shot upstairs from a next-to-impossible spot on the ice that had to be confirmed by video review.

"I've seen him do that so many times," Fantilli said. "He's pretty auto with that."

Bedard knew right away the puck was in.

"It was kind of weird,” he said. "Everyone kind of stopped playing. I think they knew they were gonna go check it."

Allan made it 6-0 and Stankoven added his second from in tight on another sequence that required video review.

Fantilli scored his first on a power play early in the third to stretch Canada's lead to 8-0.

"You don't want to start slow," Bedard said. "But to be able to turn it around like we did … I thought in the second and third, we played a lot harder.

"We played a lot more to our system."

Gaucher added his first before Bedard bagged his sixth, and 14th overall, on a play where Stankoven pushed the puck forward on an offensive zone faceoff to his diving linemate. Hinds then completed the rout with his first off a scramble.

But the night — just like 24 hours earlier — belonged to Bedard.

"He's just in another world," Furey said. "It's a pretty special moment to be behind the bench while he's on the ice, and for our players to experience that.

"Because they're not going to get that experience ever again."

This report by The Canadian Press was first published Dec. 29, 2022.

from CTV News - Atlantic https://ift.tt/0Ae68Rn

[windandwater]

new york is at it again!

delivery guy yesterday who I have NO memory of: “I haven’t seen you in a while!” me: “well I just got home so you got lucky!” idk it was just really sweet

bodega guy: how are you doing? me: okay...almost done mailing everything bg: oh for christmas? I haven’t done anything, you wanna know why? me: ...why... bg: because I’m Muslim! me: HA! I was gonna ask if you celebrate! bg: NOPE

bit later in the conversation: “this lady was saying she doesn’t know how she’s going to explain that she can’t afford to buy anything this year, I told her, just become Muslim!”

he’s right

have never had such a pleasant time running errands as this week, guy in the grocery store whole ass read my mind as to what I was looking for (clementines), convo in the new pharmacy ended with the guy ordering the meds I need next month in advance and them giving me their freaking “we’re a new business here’s a planner” gift.

another bodega guy conversation, once again griping about how expensive everything is, I was buying eggs? I didn’t say anything about the price but he mentioned they’re expensive and I had just come from the grocery store where the cheapest ones were eight dollars (!!!!). he was like yeah we used to pay 20 dollars for a case and now they’re 116 dollars a case. a hundred and sixteen dollars. for medium eggs, not even large eggs. they’re not that expensive in Jersey but they come across the bridge and the price shoots up. we just stood there shaking our heads at each other like what the fuck can you do.

a friend of mine started work at a new and extremely nice restaurant and her gift to me this year was a meal there and they kept just. bringing me out comped food and drinks. I am extremely full. but also part of the way through these two children ran right past the host (it was her first day) and straight to where we were sitting talking and tried to ask us for donations for something. ???? my friend was like excuse me where are your parents while they babbled about not wanting to get in trouble and were ushered out and I died laughing.

also they brought out my smoked fish in a wooden chest. why isn’t all food brought to the table in a wooden chest. every restaurant ever: take. notes.

got to the train and there’s just. a guy on the tracks. am I getting home tonight??? who knows!! Eric Adams likes to think an occupying army of cops will fix all this city’s problems, but they were apparently staring into the void doing nothing while an MTA employee tried to get LITERALLY ANYONE’S attention to get the dude some help! hahahaha! I hate it here!

they got the guy off the tracks and everything’s fine

on the way home my next door neighbor texted (the one who I met because they kept getting my mail, not the one who I met because she needed to break into her apartment--look this city is wild) asking if I had a covid test because they might be exposed so before I could sit down and deal with the massive amount of food I just ate I had to go ahead and run that over.

I fucking love it here.

[chemicalarospec]

I can't stop thinking about William Beckett shotgun wedding at 21. My mom also only had a few years of independent adult life before getting married (she did 5 years of college tho she wasn't 21 lol). I asked her once and she did say it would have been nice to meet my dad a little later and have more time on her own. And the way that post phrased things, who he would have been if he hadn't... well it makes me a little sad, that's all, the death of the self you never became. Marriage has been good for my mother, but there's a hell of a lot of people out there who probably would have lived a better life if it all happened later or not at all.

Tommy and Jack talked about marriage on Shut Up I'm Talking a few weeks ago: Tommy is adamant they're too young to be married (he's 20), Jack is sure he will be in a couple of years (he's 22). My paternal grandmother married at 19 and had her first kid at 20. 1970. She didn't have her second until 28. If I was her I'd be almost married right now. I haven't even dated anyone. I haven't even gone on a SINGLE date. Also I'm greyromantic lol. But that was sort of just the only option a woman had for life back then -- she told me once her family didn't even expect her to graduate university. she told me once it should have been her who got the PhD in the marriage. It wasn't marriage that changed her life but motherhood and homemaking. My other grandmother also gave up PhD studies while her husband got one. Sometimes you wonder what's the point if these forms of discrimination have already caused so much wrong in the world. Why oh why did it all go this way. Why couldn't we have had equality from the beginning?

Well, marriage is one thing and death is another, but I'm also thinking about my Uncle Steve. Had he lived I think we would have gone to our first prides together. I reread what I wrote about him the other night and I fooled myself with my alternate reality, almost editing it to be correct before I remembered. I didn't even know what gay people were when he died hahaha. I don't believe in things "meant to be" or anything like that and that's why it's so dangerous to play games like this, because sometimes I feel his absence in my life, and it's a hole I drew in myself.

I swear to God, we would have gone to our first prides together. A Whasian kid from New England with many years of questioning to go to reach asexual greyromantic bigender and a gay Jewish man from Alabama who wasn't fully out when he died. I don't even know where he's buried -- pre-covid there was a yearly meetup of his loved ones, but I've never been to his grave. And why would I? His presence in his life is something I've imagined in the past few years. The truth of it is the only thing I got from him is a pink flamingo sock puppet. And I might have even thrown that away too.

[romilly-jay]

Free Guy: If The Truman Show was a Game Featuring Ryan Reynolds

***spoilers***

I'd forgotten (of course) but Free Guy was one of those movies that got bumped multiple times because - COVID pandemic. Instead of opening in cinemas June/July 2020, it opened - after several reschedules - in August 2021.

This is one of the things mentioned in passing by RR as Deadpool in this spoofy Free Guy Trailer Watchalong also featuring Taika Waitiki as his Marvel character incarnation, Korg:

Also, oh my goodness it made RR the Man of Many Movies in 2021 - well, three movies, but that seems like... alot?

He also appeared in the sequel to 2017's The Hitman's Bodyguard (a big fave in this household despite or possibly because of it being crude and violent - the sequel is noticeably less fun, in my view). AND in Red Notice, with The Rock and Gal Gadot (also, IMO, Not As Fun).

So - good news for RR / SL was that Free Guy was a commercial success, earning $300m worldwide and ending the year just scraping into 10th place in the list of top ten box office earners. AND with the extra credit due for doing so whilst also being original IP. Screenrant has pointed out that ALL the other top 10 earners in both 2021 and 2022 were part of a pre-existing franchise (before going on to suggest that RR almost counts as a franchise in his own right...)

Did it work? Views in our household were a little mixed (I was more forgiving). Mark Kermode - quite liked it. For what it was. Clip below.

What did I think worked well / less well?

So, for me, the movie was a perfect blast whenever we were watching RR in his utopian/dystopian Free City world. A wonderful intro through the opening montage that shows Guy's chipper, happy, but slightly-empty-at-the-heart life, resolutely upbeat despite the mayhem being caused all the time all round them by sunglass-wearing players. (There's a bit later on that explains the players don't HAVE to wear sunglasses - if they're in a part of the game with no missions, for instance, there's no benefit to wearing them.) The levelling up montage - making the most of the idea that he's the Good Guy - is also super fun. The hero fight near the end against Dude, the buggy, under-coded alt-Guy commissioned by the baddie is also entertaining - and resolves in a very in-keeping manner.

Less successful? The segments in dirty, nasty Real World. Although full joy watching TW being a terrible, terrible Manchild Tech Bro <3

I think the tricky thing here is that RR is the big star - and is In Love with the Jodie Comer character - but can't logically "end up with her". So, they need an alternative resolution, one that gives her a happy ending in the Real World and leaves Guy happy in Free City. (Actually, that second part is easier - since he's coded as peppy and since the big, big win for his character is the journey to self-actualisation prompted by encountering his Dream Girl in the game. Which also has a logical grounding in the movie lore, because that's the result of deliberate coding experiments by JC's Real World design partner.)

It works but it's a switch and only one that we could see coming because there weren't other viable Real World candidates - not suggested in her behaviour. Even if the feelings have been clearly trailed from HIS side, they have been non-existent from her side.

Still, RR delivered a cracking performance and clearly enjoys working with Shawn Levy - they went on to make The Adam Project (time travel - YAY, Jennifer Garner and Mark Ruffalo as young RR's parents - YAY) and the latest Deadpool movie (also starring Wolverine).

Something I thought worked really well was the design aesthetic - game world versus Real World - and *ofc* turns out that absolute LAYERS of nerdy detail went into this, mostly for details we never get to linger on, but anyone freeze-framing would get a kick out of...

Interview with the production designer in Variety gives more detail:

I also saw somewhere - somewhere not especially credible like Reddit but *shrug* maybe?? - that the opening map we see showing the layout of Free City is closely modelled on a map of Portland, OR?

[mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune]

The Winner Of The Adorkable Apple Goober King Poll Is…

[Note: If Ya Haven't Watched Cuphead Show, and the Full Season 1 of Hazbin Hotel as well as Steven Universe, watch them first before reading this that also says who won on the poll...cause I will be talking about some stuff that happens in the Cuphead Show and Hazbin Hotel. also will talk a bit about Cain and Abel as well, and Adam & Eve's Bad Parenting....if Other Earth Angels ain't gonna point that out that those two were kind of bad parents, even if they were a bit Gray-Parents....then it might as well be me. also some parts may also talk about some feelings and some emotional stuff, not just about me but also about some of the characters. also reading this post is Optional. but this post will be for Mature Audiences Only. also will have some censored language even if it isn't all that many...but this will still talk about who won in The Adorkable Apple Goober King Poll.]

first I will say how many votes there were, about 34 votes as the final results.

Devil from The Cuphead Show got about 8.8%

Devil from The Cuphead Game got around 5.9%, and while the "9" is

a bit higher he still didn't get as many votes as his show counterpart…so yeah, tough luck there "Grandpa"…maybe next time.

so yeah, The Devil from the Cuphead Show has higher votes than Devil from The Game.

and finally Charlie's Dad Lucifer Morningstar from Hazbin Hotel, got around 85.3% and ya know what that means.

Lucifer from Hazbin Hotel wins The "Which One Is The Number 1 Adorkable Apple Goober King Of Them All…?" poll.

I am surprised by the fact that Lucifer, Charlie's Dad...

got such a higher count of votes, I mean I know that I had talked about if I was able to vote, and well I think I did try to press one of the choices that happen to be Lucifer, but I'm not sure if it works that way, for all I know ya can't vote on your own poll.

but I am surprised that he won, he truly is The Number 1 Adorkable Apple Goober King...

him teasing Adam about how he seem to make Lilith and Eve a bit happier, though him admitting that he had intimate relations with Eve, does not help clear his innocence that has to do with Cain.

I mean still gonna have to Jerry Springer that in our universe.

Lucifer, you clueless adorkable apple goober, you are only giving fans more reason to suspect that you are the Bio-Dad of Cain from your universe.

also I still believe the Cain from our universe, isn't the only one at fault for what happen. because both brothers: Cain & Abel were at fault.

Abel was probably too vainglory to see that Cain was hurting and at any moment, any wrong word or even misinterpreted suggestion would send him over the edge.

Adam and Eve should of done better, if they had stop to think that Cain need some kind of kind words and emotional support, he wouldn't of sank deeper into a very dangerous emotional, spiritual and possibly physiological depression.

plus Cain was NOT the first to take a life, just because a animal that can't speak the same way as humans do can't testify against Abel for what he used them for, doesn't mean they aren't still alive.

yeah animals still play a part of the life cycle, some end up being used as food to feed families and some used for clothes, and some who we form a special emotional bond with that can end up becoming so deep if anything bad were to happen to them...

one could freeze the 5th Heaven and 5th Ring Of Hell if the fluffy-baby was taken away too soon...

which once again, when my second cat was going through a certain situation...I'm glad that I was listen to about having them be taken to the vet right away instead of just waiting, because if I wasn't listen to about the suggestion of taking them to the vet right away, it would probably end up me being a crying mess like I was with my first cat.

I mean when my first cat died, well was slowly dying...

I think I was getting over being sick, from throwing up and stuff....

this was before the whole Covid-19 thing...

I think if I remember right, it might of been around 2018 when my first cat died, but I will have to ask about it.

I know I had two depressions before those events, which thanks to finding some song I wrote that expressed how I felt when that second depression first started, I think it was around 2016.

which is still a bit too close from that first one that happen around 2015 that was caused by some stuff happening at home.

not being able to get proper privacy and personal space, had pretty much sucked...I mean I was trying to work on fan fics and I think some drawings too, but they just kept fragging barging into that room like they owned the place.

and yeah, even when I showed a displeased look on my face, my so called much older cousin has to be a freaking jerk and get on to me for making a certain look, while in that said room that he and others so rudely came in there without my permission and invade my personal space....and after he got on to me for the look I was making, I had to go to the bathroom to cry and let it all out.

I mean seriously, I wanted to be left alone for my personal space so I can work on my fan fics and maybe at times some drawings.

it didn't help that they kept coming in that room all the time, where they could just stay in the living room.

why the frag couldn't just stop doing that, and let me have some personal space, I hated it, I really REALLY hated the fact they couldn't just stop that and let me have that space to be alone when I needed it.

I mean when I feel ready to, I can talk to others and be a bit social.

but what they were doing was disrespectful to my space, and anyone who had their space not respected when they needed it, would probably understand.

and it didn't help some other stuff was going on as well, which ended up having us move to the house we currently live in now.

I lost a lot of weight during that first depression I had during 2015, I wouldn't eat much of anything, and well I think I still tried to do the same stuff I did before, but I still felt not good.

I think I can relate to Charlie's Dad a bit, since he clearly had a depression, and for all we know, he might still feel it sometimes.

like having days when he feels really down...

and I suspect he may have had a second depression as well.

his first depression happening after those in Heaven had banished him to the place that would be known as Hell...

the second depression may have happen when Lilith left him.

I think Charlie may have misinterpret her Dad, and Lilith may have lied to her as well....at least our Lilith has a excuse as to why she became the way she is....because of Adam and Three Angels who were so Toxic-Masculine and insensitive, they couldn't give her some freaking space to heal both emotionally and spiritually.

but what do you except from a bunch of Toxic-Masculine, Insensitive Angel-Boy Jerks....and even if one of them turned out to be a Girl, she would still be full of Toxic-Masculine as well and would still be a insensitive jerk.

we should still be lucky the Toxic-Feminine isn't as high as it's Masculine Counterpart....but it doesn't mean that both are still a problem, it's just the Toxic-Masculine one is a higher problem because without the proper fixing of it, it had become dangerous.

and yeah, I guess I may have a beef with those Three Angels who were so grossly insensitive and couldn't get it through their Toxic-Masculine selves, that trying to threaten Lilith like that, was only going to cause more damage and harm more than good.

I can't be the only one who has realized this, I mean I know I'm a Defective Earth Angel, well "Defective Earth Angel Princess" but there has to be Other Earth Angels, some who might be guys and not just gals....who have open their eyes to the truth about how messed up that is.

but those who haven't viewed messed up that is, and might still think that Adam and those Three Angels were doing a "good thing" by hurting Lilith pass a breaking point.

I can't really force them to change their minds, they will need to see the truth of their own accord.

and yeah, besides King David being a terrible Dad to Tamar, even if it does turn out he had his moments when he was a good parent.

which him being both a bad and good parent, would put him in the Gray-Parenting, and there can be different levels of it...

but he isn't the only one who ended up making poor choices.

Noah did as well, who basically scapegoated his own Grandson for something his own son did.

I get some might not fully understand how mess up that is, and yeah I get that both Noah and King David are my and some others own Ancestor-Grandpa...

but it doesn't mean they are fully perfect, and even if some parents and grandparents who aren't perfect but it's okay if they aren't...

but there can be a line that can be crossed, and Grandpa Noah and Grandpa King David have crossed those lines.

placing a curse on your own grandson, which takes the blame that the son who is the father of the grandson, and placing it fully on the grandson.

or the fact that just because ya have a favorite son, and you don't want to punish him....don't mean you just leave it alone.

I mean seriously, at least Lucifer from Hazbin Hotel ended up going to where the fight was happening at the hotel and saved his daughter.

even if the situations are different, plus if Lucifer did turn out to be Cain from that universe's own Bio-Dad.

the whole Lucifer Vs Adam would kind of be like a Peepaw Fight.

if some who are also a descendant of Cain as well, you would get the humor in that, as well as the whole whoever is Cain's Bio-Dad is....

we would still have to Jerry Springer that whole Who Cain's Bio-Father Is.

anyway, I think Charlie may misunderstanding her Dad, about how he only calls when he wants her do something and the whole not really wanting to be a part of her life very much.

I mean it's good that their bond had got better and Charlie was able to learn a bit more from her Dad during that song they sang together.

but Charlie would have to learn, that when ya been hurt, like badly emotionally hurt. sometimes you need to be alone, even if you end up doing stuff that you enjoy that still brings you a bit of happiness.

it doesn't mean the hurt isn't still there.

and if my theory is right, that Lucifer did end up having a second depression that may have to do with his divorce with Lilith.

would possibly end up hurting way more than what Sera and the Other Angels did to him.

plus ya can't expect those who have been hurt to just pick themself up right away or be as happy as they once were.

even if they can try to act that way to hide the bad feelings, that may turn up every once in a while.

I'm pretty sure I'm a type of Introvert, there could be different forms of being a Introvert. like how your okay with going outside and having fun at times but at some point, some stuff causes you not want to go out very much...maybe some would understand that.

plus those who are not introverts can't just make a introvert go out against their will, even if it is to a party, if someone who introvert wants to do it, it should be their choice, and not because someone either it be a friend or family or for some a co-worker made them.

and I think it could be possible maybe, Charlie's Dad is a bit of a Introvert, but I'm not 100% sure.

if he is, he likely became that way over time...

even those who weren't introverts before, may become that way at some point for different reasons I think.

we wont know how badly Lucifer ended up hurting because of what Sera and the Others in Heaven in the Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss Universe did to him, as well as Lilith did as well.

Lilith from Hazbin Hotel, likely sees herself better than any man, but that could be true in some cases when ya can be better than some toxic-man and toxic-woman.

but Lilith from that universe, could be a two-faced b*tch.

the book that Charlie reads in Episode 1, may have half-truths and half-lies in it.

the parts with Lucifer, her Dad. is one of the truths.

I think it could be possible that both Lilith and Eve are my Ancestresses, and for all we know there is more to the story that happen during those times.

and I'm still going to view that the reason why Peepaw Adam from our Universe was so full of himself, and being partly the caused of Lilith from our Universe not being able to heal properly and not getting the space she needed.

may have to do with the annunaki gene.

it is possible there was a True First Adam and Eve, it just wasn't the ones we thought.

the True Adam & Eve, could be known as The True Patriarch and Matriarch of Humanity.

which would mean they would be The Ancestors of Adam, Lilith and Eve.

The Homo-Erectus came BEFORE Homo-Sapiens, so Adam, Lilith and Eve were Homo-Sapiens that would be possibly the first of the generations of the hybrids that had to do with The Annunaki & Homo-Erectus Genes being mixed together.

I can still believe Heavenly Father/God and Earthly Mother/Goddess had played a part in us being here, it is just I also believe that it could be possible that there were other humans besides Adam, Eve and Lilith.

and as weird as it might be, I believe the books that is like "Stones Of The Goddess: Crystals for the Divine Feminine" by Nicholas Pearson.

and the books by Timothy Wyllie and one of the books is called "Confessions Of A Rebel Angel: The Wisdom Of The Watchers And The Destiny Of Planet Earth" may play a part of a very big puzzle.

that it could be possible that those books by Nicholas Pearson and Timothy Wyllie hold truth in them and play a part to a even larger puzzle.

but it is a puzzle that not everyone will willing accept, and even if they did end up willing to believe and accept it, they will have to do so by their choice and free will.

(if ya want to skips some of these parts, keep a eye out for the bold words...ya know just in case some might want to skip some...)

and yeah it can suck when some Toxic-Religious people cross a line with their whole self-righteous bull slag.

even though I did get better from that whole incident that happen before with that Toxic-Religious jerk, who not only had a problem with me believing in a Goddess now, but may have also had a problem with me being Nonbinary, which once again during my still figuring out about it, I thought I was Gyno-Agender.

but I think I was still figuring it out and it could be possibly my going through a type of Chrysalis stage plays a part of that discovery.

so I'm a Earth Angel Princess who is a Nonbinary-Gal who's pronouns are She/Her & They/Them, or in other words She/They.

but anyway, even if I did get better from what Toxic-Religious Jerk did, when they couldn't stop throwing those misused words at me, thinking they were "saving me", what they did was not okay and caused some form of Toxic-Religious Trauma.

and I know I wont ever truly be fully okay with what happen.

and no matter how much I cried and showed signs I was really upset with them crossing a line like that, I think that no matter what I said or tried to get them to listen, they would still misuse the whole "may the lord have mercy on you." or "may god have mercy on you."

I know it was one of the two, I just can't fully remember which.

it wasn't okay for them to do that, and even if I am bringing up the words they were saying, I'm trying to do so to point out them repeating it in such a way just because I believe in The Earthly Mother now, and my Nonbinary....

doesn't give that person the right to misused those words and make me or others feel really bad to the point of crying and feeling really terrible.

and if some think "oh, it is making you feel terrible because ya know it's working and they were helping." that if full of bull slag.

I'm sorry, but it's the truth. it is NOT okay for anyone to do that.

I can only hope that I don't run into that Toxic-Religious Jerk again.

because no matter if some people are Religious or Not, at least some of them would never cross that line like that person did.

and even if ya might get better in time after that kind of incident, it doesn't mean the scars aren't still there and can open up at times.

sure it might not make you cry like it did before, and you might not cry at all when thinking about it. but it doesn't mean your still not okay with what happen and you might feel bitter about how it went.

it was that incident, might be a reason why I am even more not a big fan of Toxic-Religious people when they cross a line.

plus I can still believe that there can still be good Religious people, and even good people who aren't religious at all.

plus how a person is good or bad, well bad in a very super bad way...

at times how they are will have nothing to do with them being religious, plus just because some are Toxic-Religious doesn't mean the Religion itself will be at fault, but it is possible who runs different sectors of it from different branches could bring shame by corrupting one of the branches.

like if a church was run by someone who was corrupted, and brainwashed people who go to it.

plus with how some Toxic-Satanist are, they probably think no one who ends up being reborn at some point, will have a major beef with them. but they would be so wrong, cause there will be beef and bitter resentment to them when memories even if it's just bits and pieces end up being recalled by the ones they have done harm upon.

I want to try to believe that not all Satanist would cross a line, and would never taint the soul of a innocent like what those Toxic-Cultist did to Alessa from The First Silent Hill Movie that is based off of The Silent Hill Video Game Series.

and it could be rare for Toxic-Satanist to do harm on those they don't know is a Earth Angel....and for all we know, Alessa was a type of Earth Angel, though the Toxic-Cult that hurt her weren't Toxic-Satanists.

Toxic-Satanists are but just one of those who are part of The Toxic-Religious people who cross lines they shouldn't and end up causing trauma.

and yeah, it wouldn't just be Toxic-Satanist that would taint the soul of a innocent....other people who are Toxic-Religious will end up doing that too, and they would do harm to the one they had caused damage to, and I guess how bad it is, it could very well carry on to the hurt soul's next life.

there can be different levels of it, that aren't as bad or not as dangerous as the higher levels of Toxic-Religious.

but it doesn't mean the less hazard types, aren't still hurtful and bad.

and both the Toxic-Masculine and Toxic-Feminine can make some do bad choices, like how in some point in that Moxie Movie the girl who was fighting for girls, ended up falling into the Toxic-Feminine ways.

but she only was brought out of it, thanks to a girl who really needed her help and she was able to be brought back to the good side of the Feminine energy.

even if some Feminist don't get it, I don't think I can make them understand or listen to reason.

for all we know, Lilith who is Charlie's Mom from Hazbin Hotel...

could represent The Toxic-Feminine side, while Adam from the same show, represents The Toxic-Masculine side.

as weird as it might be, I think if Adam did come back as a Sinner and wasn't just gone, I can't help but think he might end up becoming a little redeemed, like he could be full of himself and think he is The Gift to Womankind.

but it could be possible in that mix, his heart could change a bit.

he will still be a insensitive full of himself jerk, but at the same time maybe one with a heart this time.

I mean fan theories are only at rare times right, and boy do some fans end up getting really REALLY happy when their fan theories end up being canon.

Deltarune Chapter 2's future events were technically predicted by accident by fans.

one of them being about Kris eating the whole pie, like using the knife they took out in Chapter 1 and when Chapter 2 fully came out, it turned out they used it for the pie.

but I still think they may have sneaked out first, went to the library, broke into the computer room in the said library and open a Dark Fountain first, before they went home and ate all the pie.

the other fan predication that were possibly by accident, but was used in a Deltarune AU Comic.

would also have to do with the Darkners becoming Items when they enter The Light World, that turns out to be canon.

if you read "Paper Trail" by LynxGriffin.

anyway, it could be possible that the Ralsei we see in Chapter 2, isn't the same one that Kris and Susie befriends in Chapter 1.

for one thing, the Ralsei in Chapter 1 is a bit shorter and has smaller feet.

and for all we know, when Susie and Kris were busy dealing with Lancer's Dad, the Other-Ralsei switched places with The True-Ralsei.

and once Kris and Susie were back home, The Other-Ralsei had locked the door that leads to the Other Dark World that is Lancer's Home.

I think Lancer might be a Quadruplet, and the Pictures of Him in his room, that we see at first in the Card Kingdom's Dark World.

is really him and his brothers, and even if Susie hadn't notice, it is possible the Lancers switched with each other when bonding with Susie. and the first Lancer she formed a deep bond with, is possibly still trapped in the Card Kingdom with the Ralsei who still wears his original outfit unlike the one who appears in Chapter 2.

it is possible that even if the Dark Worlds that are closed, are just not open and can't get to anymore, it doesn't mean they aren't still active.

and if Kris wanted to, they could very well open them back up.

but they would have to find the key that unlocks both the dark and light world's doors to the unused classroom, because that door in the unused classroom, was possibly locked by The Other-Ralsei to keep Kris and Susie from finding out that they are not the one they had befriended in Chapter 1.

I could call the Other-Ralsei by "Alisre" half of the name is pronounced like "Alice" and the other half is like "ray" I think.

well the name Alice isn't just a Girls name, plus we could view the name Alisre as being gender neutral/unisex name much like the name Alice.

anyway I wish I had came on sooner to talk about who won on that weird poll I did, but I guess it's okay if I took my time.

I will have to in some point, check my Messages but I just don't feel ready yet but I might do so at some point.

I'm sure there are others who would check some messages when they are ready, even after their internet connection going back to normal after acting up form some days, that may have happen some month or so ago.

I think it happen before February...?

but anyway, I'm still surprised I think by Lucifer becoming The Poll Winner, but also kind of glad as well.

like picture if Devil from one of the Cuphead AUs found out he lost in the poll.

Cuphead and Mugman would be fighting, well arguing about which one of them should tell Devil about it. XD

like picture Casino Cups versions of the brothers hearing about the poll and learning their boss lost, like technically both versions of him.

well I guess it could be seen as The Eveningstar Princess being both Weird with her first poll, but also trolling Cuphead and Mugman's Boss from the different Fanon Timelines of The Cuphead Universe.

I have no regrets making that poll, I'm glad I let my weirdness out when making that. XD

once again my giving myself the whole nickname "Eveningstar Princess" besides being a Earth Angel, who is technically a descendant of some Royals, and besides being a descendant of Seth & Cain...

it mainly has to do the weird stuff that happen when my Mom was going to have me, because of the whole fact she NEVER got Morning Sickness with me, she only got Evening Sickness when she was going to have me.

and that is one of my Weird Earth Angel Eveningstar Princess Origins.

and if it is true that some percent of us do have Nephilim Genetics, it would explain why when I was a newborn, I came out looking as big as 2 week old....yeah I was told that I looked like a 2 week old and I was a pretty big newborn.

plus it is possible that Lucifer from Hazbin Hotel, didn't make 100% same mistakes as the one from our universe.

to which the one from our universe, I still want to give the cold hands to face punishment to, for playing a part of the whole balance between The Masculine and Feminine Energies not being fixed properly, and the Toxic-Masculine left unchecked during those times, and yeah Toxic-Feminine is still bad, but it isn't as high or as dangerous as it's Masculine counterpart.

I think that even if I can still believe in Jesus, but if he makes some bad choices in some form of twisted form of justice, then I will not view it as being okay, and it just ends up proving to me it is some humans that make up humanity and some parts of omnimanity, that can do some pretty messed up stuff...

plus if some info is right, and the whole Samael being involved.

if ya puppeteer humans into doing some messed up things, like messing with something that can cause a global pandemic, that is only going to place the humans involved in messing with it so recklessly only half to blame.

and I am NOT putting up with humanity being scapegoat for that.

which as strange as it might be, I had decided to try to pray for Jesus, so whatever dark and toxic-masculine influence that might have him, will be fixed and healed...

I guess some stuff I read before that has to do with some messed up stuff Jesus might do, had made me suspect him, because of too much of a coincidences.

and if I am right, that if he does some choices that does more harm than good, despite still having a good heart, then the reason why he would make those type of harmful choices if he is truly involved.

it might have to do with the Toxic-Masculine energy.

what I can try to do, is try to pray for him, even if some might think it is pointless and super weird, and wonder why I would want to try to pray for him that has to do with that stuff.

but I have my reasons, I mean yeah if he is a descendant of King David as well, even if I'm from the side of King Solomon and not being able to take that throne is a blessing in disguise for me.

but yeah, he would still be family, even if distant, and there is one family I don't much consider family much anymore after they did something really REALLY bad....of course I'm talking about my older cousin who besides hurting my feelings to the point where I had to hide in the bathroom to cry, he has done some stuff that is far worse than that to someone else...

I'm still gonna hope I'm not Jesus's descendant, and we are only distant cousins...but anyway, not everyone has to agree about my feelings about the whole possibility the reason why he could be involved and make some pretty bad choices, could be because he is under the influence of some Toxic-Masculine energy and he needs to be healed from it.

I'm not going to make others believe it, just share my belief and thoughts about it.

anyway if when I'm able to, I could make another poll that involves Adorkable Apple Goober Lucifer from Hazbin Hotel.

and I guess if we think about it, Devil from The Cuphead Show did perhaps get second place. XD

Devil from Cuphead Game, came in last.

and the Winner of the poll who became The Number 1 Adorkable Apple Goober King, is Lucifer aka Princess Charlie's Dad. :)

oh yeah, before I forget...

some of the episodes of Cuphead Show, made me think that the Devil from that universe could of been The Steven who was messing with time travel, while the new timeline version of Steven Quartz Universe would become Sans of Undertale.

Devil from the Cuphead Show, had his items put in bubbles and he ended up fusing with Santa....he be Half-Gem...O_O

I just remembered I wanted to talk about that weird fan headcanon, I mean I had posted this before editing that part in, but the reason why I had to hurry was because of food...which I'm still eating.

Devil from Cuphead Show, can't hide the truth...he is a Steven. XD

get him to sing along with the Cookie Cat song and there might be some proof, if he knows the full song and shows sign of Gem Powers, then he is possibly The Original Timeline Steven.

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My Walmart Gripes List

i worked at Walmart stocking shelves starting in 2020 as an 18 y/o and am about to quit as a 22 y/o, as soon as i have another job lined up.

i have endured endless bullshit and… interesting situations from customers and employees/management across the 4 stores i’ve worked at, and i want to catalogue as much as possible to emphasize how working retail (at least Walmart) is NOT WORTH IT.

(worth mentioning that as much as i’ve had bad experiences i’ve also met a lot of nice people and don’t hold anything against them or their reasons for continuing to work at Walmart.)

this is not going to be chronological, since i’m just jotting down these examples as they come to me, but i’m gonna specify which location i’m talking about with Store 1, 2, 3, and 4. also way too many to write at once so i’ll add as i have time/energy to.

let’s jump in!

1. Store 1– i applied and started my job in January 2020 less than a week before the infamous Toilet Paper Rush from Covid. people were so desperate we stopped stocking it on the shelves for a while and just left the pallets they shipped on out on the floor for people to take, and they’d be cleared within an hour or two.

2. Store 1– fuckin 5’3” ginger guy with tons of freckles and glasses came into work several times with a Sons of the Confederacy shirt, and a couple weeks later during a team meeting where we were asked to raise our hands if XYZ he full on did a nazi salute, then smiled and looked around to see if anyone noticed (i was the only one who noticed but managed to pretend i didn’t).

3. Store 1– this was before i was out as bisexual and well before i figured out i was trans. a coworker two years younger than me came up to me, kinda pointed at me, and randomly said “f*ggot?” and i couldn’t tell if i misheard him so i kinda awkwardly laughed and said “what?” and he said it again and i had absolutely no idea what to say, and he said “see, i knew it! i knew you liked men!” and walked away. never reported it cuz i was a dumb kid who was more just scared that someone possibly knew despite me being closeted. turns out! he didn’t know, he was just beefing with my brother on the high school football team and randomly decided to bring me into it.

4. Store 1– same kid as #3 hated doing his job and would often leave the aisle he’s stocking to wander to different aisles to chat with people, somehow never being disciplined for it despite everyone knowing. he even would walk and chat with the guy from our Subway as he took the Subway trash all the way to the trash compactor at the back of the store and back. Dude only got fired after he was adamant that Walmart was giving employees free Kleenex for Covid and walked out with a 4-pack after his shift without paying. dumb bitch.

5. Store 1– one coworker i thought was cool was in his late 20s and, despite very bad anger management issues, was very openly pro-LGBTQ+ and pro-worker’s-rights and would chat about it a lot. then one day we were both monitoring the front entrance to sanitize carts and count people going in/out (Covid protocols), and he told a story about his grandfather being robbed and him shooting the robber as they fled, and at the very end very casually dropped the n-word while laughing, then said “i’m sorry, but if you’re gonna do that shit, you deserve to be called it.” in retrospect i wish i said something to him or management but i didn’t want to risk being the target of his anger problems so i kinda just stopped talking to him.

6. Store 1– during one surge the people monitoring the front entrances had to tell people coming in that our town was a high-risk/concentration Covid area and tell people that we don’t mandate masks but still suggest them (even had some free paper ones up front for those who wanted them). i tried to be as polite and non-confrontational as possible when explaining each time but one bigger guy walking in genuinely just went “you wanna know what i think? FUCK YOU.” and laughed as he walked past me. made me feel shit for the rest of the day.

7. Store 1– this is a recurring theme at Walmart but certain employees love slacking off and don’t really get reprimanded for it as long as the jobs get finished by other people. still remember when we had a rough truck unload and i looked over as we were about to finish and saw two of the guys supposed to be helping (people who are PAID the same amount as ME who was BUSTING MY ASS) just sitting down for 5 minutes, with a look on their faces like “why aren’t you all done with this dumb bullshit yet?” one of those guys was also in my computer science class and was openly passive-aggressively homophobic there, so add that to the tally i guess.