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living alone be like
#the trunk#gong yoo#in all seriousness i am glad han jeong won was able to learn to be alone for the first time in his life#smash that codependency#2024#mine
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iām rewatching scottās double life for the first time in two years. and his first episode is The aromantic experience. everyone around you is asking if youāve found your soulmate and you point to your best friend and say āwell yeah weāre soulmates nowā and they say āHA! FAKE SOULMATES!!!ā and then āwell i just canāt WAIT until you find your REAL soulmate, iām having SO MUCH FUN with mine!ā itās like when someone walks up to you and tells you that someday someone will change your mind. and you watch everyone around you get happy and comfortable and settle down with one other person in a tight-knit way that you donāt understand and theyāre in shock and disbelief and they stare at you weird when you point to your best friend and tell people that you live together
#double life smp#scott smajor#widows alliance#life series#trafficblr#traffic series#moo analysis tag#scott tag#ramblings#iāve got a lot more thoughts about scott & pearl and i kinda forgot how. justified scottās frustration is in that first episode#his handling of it later not so much but pearl really does intentionally stop looking for her soulmate for a whole . like. episode.#thirty+ min video so hours of recording. like. Like#heās alone watching everyone else get together taking random damage and getting weird looks#it makes more sense now#<- edit: āhours of recordingā = days in game/in character time thatās what i meant
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been watching a lot of hermitcraft recently and am happy to report that i am hopelessly endeared by these little goobers š theyāre like bugs to me
close ups under the cut!









gonna be real this was absolutely just me taking the opportunity to get my grubby lil mitts all up in their character designs lol i heart interpreting mc skins
#my post#my art#hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#oh boy here we go#zedaph#tangotek#bdoubleo100#bdubs#rendog#falsesymmetry#stressmonster101#iskall85#cubfan135#goodtimeswithscar#WHY are there so MANYYY (<- is the one who drew that many)#anyways i love them theyāre soā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦#also just for the record i have Peaked with that lil ouppy rendog just LOOK AT HIMMM#i will never draw anything better than that heās literally perfect#donāt. donāt worry about how long it took to draw one tiny thing it definitely wasnāt embarrassingly long struggling with dog legs#iām also really proud of horsegirl bdubs giving his horf a big ol āMWAH!ā but thatās just because that oneās real cute :)#but yeah this was just a lil somethin somethin i poked at whenever i was in a Mood and needed something to draw forrr however many months#i tried challenging myself to draw hermits i probably wouldnāt much otherwise :)#it was fun i love designing my interpretations of various skins#it was really funny tho how i was fighting for my LIFE drawing zed and meanwhile ren and stress turned out perfect first try#was that purely on me for giving him wool and a terrible angle to draw a face at?#ā¦ā¦..yeah probably but STILL#but iām really pleased with how he turned out so 100% worth it babyyy#anyways posting this so iāll stop poking at it iāve gone āokay itās Officially Doneā like 5 times now lol i need to leave it alone#POSTING THIS AGAIN BECAUSE I FORGOT TO TURN ON A LAYER AND DIDNāT NOTICEEE IF YOU SAW THE OG POST NO YOU DIDNāT
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OlderDad!Bakugou who gets a haircut and his baby doesn't recognize him and he doesn't want his dad to pick him up šššššš
Bakugou has a cry in the bathroom and you have to spend the rest of the night consoling him.
Also Hiiiiiii, miss u, hope youre gooooood
head in my hands bc of this, just thought abt bakugo growing out his hair a little bit right after baby's birth...takes him months to go and get a real haircut cuz he doesn't wanna burden you more than he already has and by the time he's okay with the thought (but only for "AN HOUR MAX," is what he says), he has a mullet thing going on and all this scruff on his chinš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ
so he gets home with his regular ol' haircut, maybe a little shorter just to account for ... not wanting to go again so soon, and baby's HOLLERING bloody murder as soon as they see him and refusing to be taken out of your arms, doing that thing where they're flipping their face back and forth to dodge a kiss...
it's so tragic bc not even a little cheek nuzzling helps to calm them bc bakugo's CLEAN SHAVEN and smells like aftershave instead of like dad when he tries!!!!!!
and after, you watch him kinda sulk into the bathroom, thinking like aw yeah thats a bummer but also pretty funny, too (esp bc the haircut does look goodš«£š¤), AND HE DOESN'T COME OUT FOR LIKE an hour???
....until you finally have to ask him if he's okay in there and you're opening the door to him sitting on the toilet seat, arms crossed and red cheeks a little streaky with tears...
LJFKASDJFADSJK it's the cutest, most sad sight you ever did see!! ofc Bakugo tries to deny it, but the way he tears up again (after you're done assuring him he did nothing wrong) when his baby finally realizes it's him and smiles (and then how he refuses to give them up again until bedtime) has his ass. EXPOSED.
(i love and miss u more than air, earth, water, dirt + HOPE YOU'RE GOOD TOO BESTIE ILY)
#bakugo#HI PYGMY THIS WAS INSANE OF U TO SAY THANK U PYGMY MY BFFL#but sorry u said this and i had to rip the idea right out of your hands and put it straight into my mouth#i feel like i'm high on a drug i really do#bakugo doing that thing where he he refuses to leave baby or u for long periods and fights being told to go do something nice for himself#he's showing up to his first guys night in like 6 months and doesn't know what do with himself#needs a baby picture once and hour#and he gets home to baby asleep in the crib and YES he's upset he missed bedtime but also like. wow. alone time with y/n.#and he just wants to hold uš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ and watch a movie and be together#and he;s finally at a point in his life when he's able to admit vulnerability and talks abt feeling like an inadequate dad.#and finally u just have to shut him up by fuc-[redacted for profanity]#oh my god gonna think abt this all night#ALL NIGHT I LOVE U PYGMY#caitie things#kids tw#gen#pygmy lurks
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Okay. hear me out. Creaking Helsknight
#atlas.art#artists on tumblr#mcyt#hermitcraft#helsknight#welsknight#the creaking#do you see my vision#his heart gets left back in hels when he comes to hc through the cloning machine#something something you are a creature not entirely your own devoted to one purpose belonging to one place#and then suddenly you are somewhere else and you are alone and without purpose and you are your own being for the first time in your life#and it feels like there is a hole in you somewhere. like you have lost something vital. you want to find it again. go home. feel whole.#but at the same time in it's absence you have become something else entirely#and you're not sure if you can ever go back to belonging to a separate whole again#not to. uh. get existential with it or anything.#thought about this too long today mayhaps. whoopsie.#anyways his name being hels like the place because he is entirely a part of it as an extension of the creaking heart... .. . .#literally the knight of hels as in created from it and not seperate from the land itself#idk what all of this would imply about wels lol#someone else can figure that out
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me n moze say good morning to the world !!! į( ā¢Ģ į ā¢Ģ )į
art by @rabbbitseason of course <3
#ā ā(Ā į“į
į“Ā moevie.#š¦āā¬š .#moevie.#<-#hehe i took inspo from kaiās rb of my mb:>#MY FIRST MOEVIE COMM#this is queued#im asleep (at least i should be by the time this is posted) but itās a mystery as to how i will fall asleep knowing i would have to#close my eyes and not actively stare at this for the rest of my life#full factory reset i really donāt know what i would even say to this š„¹ im just#things i would do for bitti : anything! i cannot think of something i wouldnāt do for her#i gave her the most cursed ref known to mankind and she came up with this im so š„¹ thank you so much ā¦ your art blows me away every time ā¦.#i may pass out seeing him in your style ā¦ the way you did his hands and heās so big#this is me -> ą»ź°ą¾ą½² oĢ“Ģ¶Ģ·Ģ¤ ĢÆoĢ“Ģ¶Ģ·Ģ¤ ź±ą¾ą½²ą§§ at this HSJDNCN aaaaaa š„¹#i will also state the very obvious and say that bitti is such a pleasure to work with ajsnxnkck ā¦.. please im on my knees#when i saw this- my stomach literally flipped inside out and my ears were ringing .. and my heart was beating a million beats per second#if bittiās comms were open for eternity & i won the lottery- i would commission so many mozes ā¦.. the world would be full of bittiās mozes.#^ though that sounds terrible for bitti ā¦ im so sorry#i swear that wonāt happen i would never do that to you#he is sooooo yum in your style (severe & outrageous understatement)#but what i can do is stare at this all day#THANK YOU BITTI UEUEJJSJS š„¹š„¹š„¹ I HOPE UR PILLOWS R ALWAYS COLD !!!#not even aventurineās shield can protect me from the 100000000 damage i took from this /pos#such a shield doesnāt exist in the hsr realm or the real world !!!#IM KIND OF ANGRY THAT I KNOW THERES NOTHING I CAN SAY TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL !!!!! WHAT COULD I SAY >:#WHAT AN ODD FEELING WHERE I AM reduced to my knees but from positive emotions alone ā¦#im so dizzy /pos let me stop here this is already so long omg š„¹#edit: dude /gn my screen time is gonna skyrocket because im still staring with such a dopey smile on my face ahsndnxkc gosh im happy :ā) th#thank you so much bitti ā¦. this means so much to me#i literally can not put into words how much this has made my entire year :ā)) im so soft im so happy
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when was the last time scott was this alone?
was it 3rd life, after the death of his husband, gone far too early? or was it last life, as he looked away from the blood on his hands and up to the sky just in time to see the lightning flash? was it double life, when he stood face to face with his soulmate that wasn't really his? was it limited life, when the sword of his ally, his friend sank between his ribs?
no, this is something new entirely. because this is the first time scott has ever been betrayed. jimmy held his hand until scott covered his lifeless body with dirt and planted flowers on his grave. pearl was an ally with loyalty abound up until the free for all that killed her. cleo, his chosen soulmate, never once entertained the idea of turning her back to scott, not even as the world grew emptier, not even for the person her life was bound to. martyn- for all intents and purposes- fought by scott's side until the end of the world, until his mind and body fractured and he turned on his heel. but even then, that wasn't betrayal; not to scott, because he knows what it is to be the last one standing.
scott's allies don't choose to leave him; they die before they get the chance. and even after their deaths, there are new friends to lean on. grian stood by his side in that sweltering desert as their fingers knocked arrows and the sand exploded into glass. when cleo died in double life, he looked to pearl, and for the first time, he saw her. he died looking into her eyes, but his heart felt whole because finally, he understood her. alone in the world together, they mended what was broken.
gem has flipped this on its head. it's not that she was fickle from the startā no, not at all. but something burned under her skin from the start, a fire in her eyes that scott is far too familiar with. when she burst from her home with one red eye and blood matted in her hair and splattered along her skin, she was smiling with sharp teeth. the void trickled along her skin, inky and endless and so so cold. the funny part about it was that scott saw her and thought she looks like herself now.
in the wake of gem's fury, scott has nothing and no one. he won't be able to turn his back to her again, not after knowing the sheer terror of her eyes boring bloody, gaping holes into his skull. he spent days curled up in tiny caves and tucked away behind jagged cliffs. he was utterly alone, more alone than he's ever been. scott's allies are what make him scottā what is he if he stands in solitude, no warm faces to share food and diamonds snd secrets with?
what is scott now if not a shell?
#secret life spoilers#it's almost eerie to see him so alone. he's strong on his own but he's twice as strong with the bonds he makes#but for the first time his team has fallen apart#and all it took was the smallest nudge from the eye in the sky#scott smajor#smajor1995#secret life#3rd life#last life#double life#limited life#trafficblr#flower husbands#solidaritygaming#zombiecleo#pearlescentmoon#geminitay#inthelittlewood#martyn itlw#grian
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They made hyoga look so much cooler in the anime hes just standing there , in the manga theyre all dripping wet and bedraggled and senku is dying as usual
#Dr stone#isnt it cute that he was holding onto tsukasa for dear life for that whole sequence .....#after hearing his name called so weakly im sure he would not have let go of tsukasa come hell or high water ... he was covering his wound#with such a shaky hand like he was so fucking stressed out but he couldnt let tsukasa be swept away from him he had to keep both their head#afloat the whole time they were fighting against the current and tsukasa is also twice his size and complete dead weight#ALSO HANG ON WAIT I JUST REALISED SOMETHING#HYOGA... wanted to get senku alone to talk to him but he attacked tsuaksa ... and when hyoga wanted to hit tsukasa he attacked mirai#thats scary because he immediately identified that theyre ride or die together ... hyoga is the original tsukasen shipper#hes like oh you guys love each other ? Well that makes it easier for me#also this was the first time i noticed he wears short shorts and leather thigh high boots. omg slay queen where did you get your boots !#they wanted to make him a classic withdrawn coolguy with a samurai-esque work ethic but actually hes mega camp and a sweety (killed someone
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In Death's Embrace Pt. 2
Jason Todd x Death!Reader
Part one!
Jason shoots up in bed, his hand stretched out. Heās sweating, drenched in his own panic in fear. His hand falls into his lap, still twitching. He doesnāt remember what he was dreaming about, doesnāt remember what he was trying to grasp.
He knows he failed. He knows it slipped through his fingers like sand. He doesnāt think thereās anything more tragic in the world. He doesn't know why.
āOnce again, you amaze me. Breaking the rules of the universe, not once, but twice.ā
His hand is wrapped around his gun before you even finish the sentence. Itās pointed between your eyes once you do. To your credit, whoever just broke into his apartment without triggering any of his alarms, you donāt even flinch. No, you just fold your hands behind your back and give him an odd look.
You tilt your head, eyes moving over the scars on his face and catching on the lock of white hair he sports. Then, your face breaks into a smile, and something in Jasonās heart jumps. Thereās a knowing in your eyes that he doesnāt like. An understanding.
You see through him, somehow. He doesnāt like it. Heāll shoot you for the offence.
āWho are you? How did you get in here?ā Jason demands, assessing you like you assess him. You donāt look like a combatant, in long dark flowing fabrics. Still, he knows not to underestimate someone based on their appearance.
That damned clown never looked like a threat. And now he was standing here, with someone who seemed just as crazy in his bedroom. Only someone that crazy would break into his home.
āAre you going to shoot me?ā your words are teasing, eyes fond. Maybe youāre crazier, then. You donāt believe heāll do it. He will.
He should have already. Itās base curiosity that holds his trigger finger. Thatās what he thinks it is, at least.
āI might,ā he finally says, āAgain, who the fuck are you?ā
āItās interesting talking to you like this. You knew who I was straight away last time, but this time you turn your weapon to me,ā you continue, ignoring his threat. A muscle jumps in his cheek, annoyed at your presence, at your blatant disregard for him.
āLast time?ā
Your smile turns into a bright grin. Heās momentarily stunned by it.
āSo, you really havenāt won just yet. That gives me a small measure of pride,ā you say, walking over to the window with your hands still behind your back, āMaybe enough to spare you from my anger.ā
You look over at him again. Purse your lips.
āMaybe not.ā
āI think you forget who is holding the gun,ā Jason reminds you, clicking his teeth at the way you just shrug.
You go quiet. No more teasing words or ominous warnings. Jason should shoot, shoot now. Heād hate the cleanup, hate the mess, hate all the effort, but it was necessary. You were dangerous. That much was obvious.
Instead, he opens his big dumb mouth and asks, āWhat do you want?ā
You sigh, shaking your head. āIs it terrible I donāt know? Rules are rules after all, but this situation isā¦ complicated. Youāre not another Sisyphus, you donāt even want to be here.ā
āYou broke into my home and started threatening me. That doesnāt sound complicated,ā Jason insists. This is such a fucking weird conversation. And Sisyphus? Jason had done his homework, he knew about the mythical man who cheated death. He thinks heās actually quite a lot like Sisyphus.
He still doesnāt appreciate the comparison.
āYes well, I donāt want to be here either, de-ā your voice cuts off, eyes widen in surprise, and then narrow on him like he caused some great offence. Inside him, he feels his dead little heart wither even further at the sight. Like you being upset with him was one of the worst mistakes of his life.
Once again, you broke into his house. All heād done was tell you to get lost. Oh, and maybe threaten to shoot you, but who cares about that. He soothes the momentary panic, insisting you obviously hadnāt.
Which is dumb. Heās being an idiot. Jason Todd is being an absolute moron right now, and he just needs to shoot you.
Instead of paying attention to the gun trained on you, you stare out his window, at the streets of Gothamās Hill district below. The sun is rising, rays bursting through the fog. The people are just getting up with it. Itās one of the few times the city is anything close to quiet. Most are still sleeping, and so is crime.
Warm sunlight catches on your cheek, and again, something inside Jason cries out at the sight. Itās worrying.
āI think I want you dead, again,ā you confess.
Jasonās breath whooshes out of his lips, and his gun arm twitches for a second. Well, fuck him, thatās certainly a statement. And again, why hadnāt he shot you?
He still doesnāt do it. He must be crazy, too.
āIām being greedy. I always have been, of course. Itās what I amā¦ But especially this time, I think Iām being too greedy,ā you sound sad, your fingers trailing across the wooden window frame, āI think I shouldnāt be here, but itās the ones like you who make it hard.ā
You rub dust against your fingers, and Jason feels embarrassed for the state of his home. He realises a second later what a stupid thought that is, you broke in. He wonders how many times heāll have to repeat it to remember it. He feels uncomfortable and off-kilter, and he knows itās because of you.
He needs to get you out.
āIāve always hated the special ones, you know. The smart ones. Youāre too good at pulling me, manipulating me, tugging on my strings like a puppet. You make me human,ā you turn back to him, crossing your arms and resting against the sill. Youāre comfortable in his home, more so than he usually is. Calm, relaxed, like the world is at peace, and worries are something of the past.
He wonders what that must be like. Fucking delightful, he bets.
āAre you not human?ā
You raise an eyebrow in response.
Shit. Ah, fuck it. His finger tightens, and the recoil jerks his arm. The silencer keeps the early apartment quiet. Quiet, if not for the sound of the bullet clattering to the ground.
You both glance down at the crumpled piece of metal sitting pathetically on the floor. You lean over, pick the piece up, and then lift it to your eye, watching that same sunlight reflecting the early morning in the steel. A small rainbow flitters across your skin. You close your fist, and you stroll over to Jason.
It takes him a moment to remember to be wary of you, and by that time, you already have his hand cradled between yours.
You place the remnants of the bullet in his scarred palm.
āI expect an apology for that later,ā your voice is soft, sweet. Loving, even after he shot you in the chest. Not like it did anything. Your fingers curl around his, tracing every crack and crevice. You do it with concentration, with precision, like you were made just to touch him, to comfort him.
A memory, gone in a flash. He feels itās loss like a toothache.
He swallows, āIām sorry.ā
You laugh, and the sunās not outside, itās in his bedroom and itās smiling and itās everything and itās here in his grasp and he knows itāll be okay again. It has to be okay again. You said itād be okay, didnāt you? He canāt remember. His headās swirling, spinning, falling right into you. Right back into you.
āOr now, thatās fine too,ā you sound delighted. Heās glad.
You let go of him, and move back to the window, drawn by the view outside. Jason's hand clasp and unclasp. The street obviously fascinates you, your eyes flicking back and forth and tracking the movement of every soul outside. He wants your gaze back on him.
Jason clears his throat. You glance back at him, then pointedly, his right hand.
He can feel his face flush, embarrassingly. Heās still holding the gun. He turns the safety off and tucks it back under his pillow.
He clears his throat again. He wants something from you, expects it, really. But he canāt tell what it is. He thinks you know, though. That youāre withholding it, for some reason. Heās irrationally irritated at that. You said you were greedy, but nothing could compare to his greed.
Even if you wanted him dead. He was starting to put together the pieces, but he couldnāt seem to feel alarmed. No, it simply wasnāt necessary, with you here.
Still, itās not quite enough. He wants more. He wants to know more. So he waits for you to speak again.
āIāve thought about doing this so many times over the years. It wouldāve been selfish, and more than that, outside of my duty. Youāre not one of mine anymore. For a little while, at least.ā
He wants to be. He wants to be yours. He wants it more than he can breathe. If heās yours, maybe you can be his.
You glance to the side, thinking out loud, āBut then you went and started remembering. Iāve worked very hard to make sure thatās impossible, you know. That the memories from my realm stay there.ā
You turn a disapproving glance his way.
āOf course, far be it for me to get in the way of a Wayne and his decision to break the world. You lot do that far too much, give me too much work,ā you mutter that last part, hand moving to your brow. Like youāre massaging away a headache. He should be doing that for you.
āBut you did it. And youāre here. And now I am, too. And I have to go soon.ā
You drift closer to him, and Jasonās breath catches. Heās still. He doesnāt make a single movement, scared heāll scare you away. He realises thatās stupid. That you caught a bullet to the chest. That youāre stronger than anything he could imagine.
He still thinks he could startle you if heās not careful. That youāre like the mist outside, incorporeal. But Jason can do anything if he puts his mind to it. He knows how to catch the wind, how to gather steam on the underside of glass, how to cup sand and water and feathers and everything that would ever want to be outside of his reach.
Youāre out of his reach. He has to let you step into it.
You stop a foot away from him. He grinds his teeth, and again, you raise a brow at him. He doesnāt move, despite his muscles screaming at him too. You give him a nod and take another step closer. He still doesnāt move, and you give him a satisfied look.
āSo, what should we do, Jason?ā
āHow do you know my name?ā
āWhat? Did dying strip you of any brains?ā
The banter is familiar. He doesnāt mean to ruin it.
āDo you have to leave?ā again, a voice in his mind whispers. You look sad, again. Again, again, again. All of this is an again.
āEventually. Sooner rather than later,ā you sigh, āYou can keep a secret, canāt you, Jason?ā
āNot if you leave.ā
Itās a bold move. You take a step back, and he winces. Back and forth, back and forthā¦ Still, he doesnāt take the words back. He canāt, because itās the truth, and now that youāre here, thereās no going back. Heāll do anything to keep you with him, and if you go too far for him to reach, heāll follow you.
āI think thatās an unfair request,ā you say, and he shakes his head.
āItās fair. You donāt have to stay forever, just a while.ā Now that, that is a lie. You seem to know it, too.
You look out the window again. Jason, after a moment's hesitation, moves over beside you. You donāt flee, your attention is on the people below. He opens the window for you, and you give him another smile. He collects them like the rare treasures they are. You lean out into the air, and he freaks, then realises youād shrugged off a bullet. He stays close, vigilant, anyway.
āIām curious, I have to admit. Whatās this place like?ā you ask, resting elbows on the wood. The streets are foggy, as they usually are in the morning. The Hill isnāt the nicest place, not the cleanest either, but you look at it like itās heaven incarnate. He can see his neighbour down at the local grocer, the old woman who hoards cats seeing her grandson off to school, and one of his guys hanging out on the street, keeping the space safe.
Under his orders. The Hill wasnāt the nicest place, but he liked to keep it as nice as possible.
...Peaceful, he wanted the people here to have their peace. He was obsessed with it, really.
āIt sucks.ā
You laugh again, music to his ears, āNot the best advertising.ā
āI take it back, itās the best place on earth,ā he replies, barely paying attention to his words. Heās seeing how close he can get to you. How many inches he can claim. His face is almost in your neck by the time you lean back, and he curses under his breath.
āIt doesnāt need to be,ā you say, pushing away from the sill and turning to wander around his room. You take in everything about the space. From the general mess, to the Jane Austen books crammed into his bookshelf, to the mask heās left half-hazard on his bedstand.
You watch it all, just as fascinated with the world outside as the one inside. He wants to believe that means heās special to you. And if it doesnāt, that just means he needs to work a little harder.
Finally, you turn to him. You take in every facet of him, once again. Your all-knowing gaze finds his hair again. You seem especially fascinated by that. You lift your hands, and heās in them before he realises heās moved.
You map his features with your hands, and he makes a little sound in the back of his throat. Ignoring that, you wipe the bags under his eyes. He feels his sanity slip away under your touch. You trace the scar on his chin, the one above his left brow. The stubble along his jaw. The bump in his nose. The edge of his lips. He wonders at the smirk you give when he groans. And finally, you come to that strand of hair.
You tug on it. A memory fizzles again, and to his frustration, he canāt quite grab it. Canāt quite take it, claim it. Itās not his, not yet.
You havenāt given him permission to remember. He wants it, he wants it, he needs it.
āI think I can stay, maybe. Just for a little, just a little. You want that, right?ā your hands cup his face, and he knows, somehow, that youāve done this a thousand times. And if this is the thousand-and-first time youāve held him like this, heās glad. To be back in your embrace is the sweetest pleasure. The greatest relief.
āYes. Yes, yesā¦ yes, I do,ā heās nodding, heās begging, heās pleading with you. Just for a moment more, just a second more. Just a little bit more, before you let him go again. He leans down and presses his forehead to you, sighing in your scent, the wheat reeds in the wind, the warm sun on skin.
He wonders what he has to do to make sure you never let go again. He wonders if youāll let him do it.
You shake your head, giving him a rueful smile, āYou really are too cute, darling.ā
That nickname. The key to his heart, his mind. Every single barrier keeping him from you is gone, crumbled by your will. He is thankful youāve given them back. He is thankful for every moment you ever had with him. And heāll make a thousand more.
He presses his lips to yours, arms holding you close. When you melt into him, sigh into the kiss, he feels a euphoria he didnāt know could be true. He feels a relief he didnāt know even in his days under, even when you only held him.
He feels alive with it.
āThank you for coming back,ā he whispers against you, and he can feel that familiar, that damning smile spread.
āYou left me. I had to hunt you down myself, Jason dear.ā
Maybe he couldnāt have his peaceful death. But he had a loving one, and that was all he needed.
#jason todd upon remembering reader: ah so seppuku it is#jason todd loyal dog core ftw#also the dynamic here is too funny#you came with the intention of putting him in his place and got shot and decided āhes too sweet to leave alone. look how sad he is :(ā#jason todd huge W for once in his suffering life#jason todd x reader#jason todd x you#jason todd imagine#jason todd headcanon#jason todd fanfiction#red hood x reader#red hood x you#read hood imagine#red hood headcanon#red hood fanfiction#part 3... perhaps?#or maybe a prologue#jason meeting his death for the first time and reader being all mysterious and kind
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I know the decision to have Julian's parents have him augmented was made on the fly but imo its pretty obvious from early on that Julian has Family Issues because he avoids talking about his family like the plague and I think they should've incorporated this into the Julian and Sisko dynamic right from early on because I think it would've made for some really compelling stories and moments and could've set up a REALLY interesting Julian and Jake dynamic which they kinda started to do but never fully went for
#star trek: ds9#julian bashir#benjamin sisko#jake sisko#s1 Julian being so young and eager to prove himself and latching onto Sisko as this mentor figure to look up to#seeing Sisko with Jake and low-key seeking that fatherly figure connection which he won't even let himself think about#Sisko seeing this young brilliant doctor who's got all the makings to be something great and he's just GOTTA help him along#I think he would also catch on pretty quick that Julian's got Parental Issues#he tries to ask one day all casual like 'tell me about yourself :)' and Julian talks about nothing but Starfleet and med school#any attempts to ask about his family are met with awkward brief answers and redirections#and then theres the way Julian's eyes light up the first time Sisko invites him to watch a baseball game#like he Knows. he's a dad he Knows somethings up#but he doesnt pry#I also think it makes their dynamic more tragic towards the end of the series#where we have Sisko asking Julian to compromise his morals again and again#Julian's trust and respect for him gradually deteriorating#and then at the end of course Sisko is gone and they have no idea when he'll be back#which I think Julian would have a lot of complicated feelings about#but of course theres also Jake#I imagine they'd get closer#very brotherly dynamic#you know that scene in TNG where Wesley goes to Riker for girl advice and Riker and Guinan start flirting?#absolutely happens but with Jake asking Julian for girl advice and Julian wooing a girl at Quark's and Jake absolutely loses the plot#makes the events of ...Nor the Battle to the Strong more intense as well I think#also I like to think there'd be an episode where the B plot is Jake gets mad at Sisko and impulsively decides to move out#ends up at Julian's because he did not think this through#Julian is now very much caught in the middle of this family drama and he Fucking Hates It#also him and Jake are NOT compatible roommates but he's trying so so hard to be nice#eventually they have a talk and Julian cryptically hints at his own home life and tells Jake he's lucky he has a dad who cares so much#them being closer would work into what Alone Together sets up for them
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Imagine being Orion in A Deadly Education.
People are mostly not that interesting to you. They don't like you so much as they like what you can do. Maybe at some point you tried to really connect with someone, and it didn't go that well, so you didn't keep trying. Fighting mals though? You're good at that. It makes sense to you, unlike most of the things people do. It's rewarding -- intrinsically rewarding -- and people seem to be happy that you're doing it? Because they don't like doing it but it benefits them. So, basically no downside.
And you go off to school and it's full of mals, and people think you're great because you fight the mals, and you ignore them as best you can when you're not fighting mals for them. (You're polite, your mother always wanted you to be polite and you don't want people to be mad at you. But you don't do anything beyond being polite.) And people seem to think you're doing a good thing. So. It's ok. It's good enough. The world makes sense, more or less. This is what you're for.
And one day you see a soul eater go under another student's door, and you destroy it like you always do. Except this person is mad at you. Which makes no sense. No one's ever been mad at you before, not for fighting mals. So apparently you did something wrong even though you only did what you always do which has always been right before. But you guess you should probably make it up to her? So when she says she needs to go to the shop at dinner you offer to go with her, why not?
Except somehow she's mad at you again. So you have to make it up to her even more now, you guess?
(You don't like it when people are mad at you, but you know what to do when people are mad at you. You Make It Up To Them, usually by doing whatever they tell you to or fighting a mal or both, and then they stop being mad at you. You prefer to understand why they are mad at you, but most of the time it makes no sense, and you know what to do when it makes no sense to you why someone is mad at you.)
So you guard her door while she fixes it. Which takes her a weirdly long time. You've just taken down several mimics, you're bursting with mana, you'd give her some if she asked. Mana has never been a scarce resource for you; on some level it hasn't really occurred to you that it could be a scarce resource for anyone else. People aren't that interesting to you, you don't think about them much, except when someone tells you to, like your mother making you do flash cards of other kids' names. But she doesn't ask, and she doesn't cheat either, she does things the long and hard way, which makes a third thing all coming from the same person that doesn't mesh with your pre-existing worldview. She's fascinating.
And then she pulls on your mana like it's nothing and she's even more fascinating. How did she do that? Is she a malificer? (Is that why she keeps being so mean to you, when nobody is ever mean to you?) What's going on?
And you've never voluntarily fought alongside anyone else before, but she's good to fight with. She's annoying, but she does also point out things you missed or didn't know.
And she stands up for you, in a way that nobody has ever stood up for you before. She's not nice. She's the opposite of nice. But it's starting to dawn on you that being nice is not the same as something else that seems like it should go with being nice. And if El is not nice to you but is that other thing, maybe some other people who are nice to you are...not that other thing to you?
It's a lot to think about.
Anyways. You like her. You're not very interested in people. But you are interested in El.
And then you have the best day of your life, when you've gotten to take on more mals and scarier mals than you've ever taken on before, and you did it and you were good at it, and you kind of didn't want to leave but you were supposed to leave because that was how the Mission worked, and then you were about to die because you missed the bell and the cleansing fires had started and there was nowhere to go, but at least you were going to die next to El.
But she didn't think she was going to die, and she cast a wall of mortal flame (who does that?) and it worked as a firebreak and you didn't die and no one had ever saved you before. That wasn't how the world worked. Who was this person who kept breaking the rules of how the world worked like they didn't even apply to her?
(And then you look around and she isn't there and you kissed her earlier when you thought you were both going to die, and she, uh, didn't react well and oh no, what if you've ruined everything what if you like her but she doesn't like you like that what if she won't want to be around you any more? What if the one interesting person in the entire world doesn't think you are interesting?) (it'd be ok, right? It was ok before.) (it wouldn't be ok. So maybe it wasn't ok before either.)
#a deadly education#the scholomance#Orion lake#a deadly education spoilers#the scholomance spoilers#they are two dorks who are utterly incapable of normal human interactions and I love them#the mortal flame was not the first time el saved Orion's ass#it was maybe the third#freezing the grogler and making sure he didn't go down to the graduation hall alone#at least#oh I just realized at the start of the book el said it would be ok if Orion#saved her life a ludicrously high number of times like 13#and at the end Orion says his count is 13#so I guess el got what she wanted there in a weird way?
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I fear Kevin Day is the type of person whose struggle always came second. He funcioned enough that while everyone knew he wasn't alright, it was also nobody's problem, as someone else was actively having a harder time and they took precedence. He internalises all his problems and keeps going and going but he is fueled by alchool and sheer desperation a 100% of the time. If he were to stop for even a second he wouldn't know how to start again.
Did he ever, at somepoint in his life -away from the ex foxes, a pro player, married to Thea- wish he had it worse, just so that maybe it would have been his turn being saved? Being first? How badly would he feel, just one second after thinking it, because he knows damn well he has enough trauma to fill a stadium and he isn't actually jealous of his friends that had it worse, he isn't . That's a fucked up thing to think, stop it, stop it.
Would he still drink himself into a stupor to shoote the ache, to banish the thought? That's the help he got, when he was at his worst, a drink, and then two, and then a thousand. And it worked, it made him go, it picked him up when he was down, and now he can't get down without crashing.
Did he wish to be saved? Did he hope somebody, anybody, took the time and put in the effort to help him, just because they saw him down, not because he begged, but because they noticed he could use a hand. Or two, actually. Was it torment, to always be under the spotlight, yet never been seen? Did he run toward fame hoping the more eyes on him meant it would be easier to be noticed?
#this spurred from a series of posts about kevin always fumbling the men in his life#and yeah. he really is always second place#he supposedly ends up with thea which. what the fuck.#to me that alone speaks volumes about how out of everyone in aftg he is the one that starts and end basically at the same level of struggle#this is also about the part in the EC where he talks to wymack about Bee#and look i love bee and Andrewsās relationship he really does deserve her#but kevin is right to say that she is his and he can't have her#they text each other#kevin needs and deserves to have his own therapist#someone that is his alone#it breaks my heart to think about this boy#he wont even ask for it#he says: she's Andrew's#and that's it to him#it is true and unchangeable and nothing can be done ablut it#and never thinks okay maybe someone else could be to me what she is to him#and no one else says it either#im sleep deprived this is killing me i had to get it out#kevin day#you deserve the world#nobody even wanted to listen to you talk about history#you are easier to deal with when drunk#you don't have to words nor will to fight them on either of these fronts#you ask once and when you are denied you neverask again dont you#aftg#these are the types of people that end up killing themselves and everyone is surprised at first and then goes...oh yeah he had a hard time#but we couldn't imagine it was that bad#we wish he told us
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compiled whatever this is (and I run out of tag space)
meh HoT gifs (3/?)
#alek gifs#ninjago#ninjago krux#ninjago acronix#hands of time#time twins#alternate title to this series is : stuff i noticed after watching this season 10 whole times#okay actually thats a lie. i realized this the 3rd time around#i think of acronix and how he barely makes any decisions for himself and i go crazy#ppl equate that with him feeling forced to do stuff.. uh hes always been a follower guys!!#cue him calling wu āmaster wuā even after the twins betrayal. him liking machia bc shes āmeanā and bossy#he has no issue with following orders lol. prepare for a long acronix rant one day#contexts -> gif 1 barely counts i just wanted to include him looking at krux. he does this a lot during that fight#gif 2 is before they kill blunck and raggmunk (idk how to spell their names still ... sorry)#gif 3 is before they were going to kill wu in the golden hour legacy short. which is canon !!#gif 4 is before they sent themselves into the temporal vortex#that one post that was like āare we still doing revenge? yeah? coolā bc thats basically acronix#there is something fundamentally wrong with these two's brains but idk how to describe it#krux who literally lost his mind after losing his brother to the point he adopted an entire identity#āhe just needed to go undercover!!ā counter point as soon as acronix came back he was unable to pretend to be saunders. he acted super weird#like when kai was in the museum he couldnt pretend to be this person he wasnt. acronix was back !!! so was he. krux was 100% going to kill#the smith sibs if maya and ray didnt comply. also.. canonly they knew him when they worked as teachers back in s3. he watched them grow up#and pretended all was well meanwhile their parents were being forced to work and slave away to build the iron doom. he is not normal#then you have acronix who thrives off of violence and is described as throwing himself into battle like a blunt object. has no regard#for himself as a person and just takes (almost) everything his brother says as gospel. s7 couldve done smthn really cool with how#the only thing the twins ever really disagreed on was technology. also ive went on a semirant about how krux's hatred for tech was misplaced#hatred for losing acronix. wanted to travel to the pre modern era? okay well whyd he pick 40 years ago specifically. also NOTE that they#went back after their past selves had lost. they wouldve faired better if they went and helped their past selves. also the reversal blade#had already fallen so when the twins went back in time there was two kruxes. he literally went back to when he had been all alone for the#for the first time. he went back to when his life was ruined and his brother was gone!! but he had nix with him this time . ughdhf
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ughh im thinking about sunday. specifically about the person he used to be and the person he is now. that confident person with a twisted, unhinged side to him?? guy who definitely enjoyed putting aventurine in his place and causing harm to him. from that, to this almost...meek individual harboring so much sadness and guilt. i think a lot about the fact that he severed his halo in order to feel pain to keep himself in his place. to feel grounded, to feel closer to...humanity?? i guess? i never really know how to describe how exactly i interpret this, but it makes me feel something in my gut just aahhhh. i think the symbolic fusing between him and wonweek was very beautiful, and due to a similar experience i had during a self-introspective moment, i really do relate to him and love him so much. sunday canonically has ocd, and at some point i realized that i shouldn't see my ocd as something separate from me. it is still me, it is still my brain. i decided that working alongside it in a way would be more beneficial as well as treating that side of me with kindness and love instead of hatred! and yes, it isnt just an ocd parallel. i just decided to read into that aspect at the same time. i just think sundays a really beautiful character and i care him so much! i think him being part of the express is such a good decision, and even though stellaron hunter sunday would've been awesome, this is definitely the best path for him. someone pointed out that if he had been in the stellaron hunters, following a script wouldn't benefit him at all. he deserves to spend time in the real world now with people around him who care about him, and i am looking forward to seeing his development with the express in the upcoming amphoreus story. im also...quite terrified. the story is going to hurt so bad...i can just feel it already.
#sunday hsr#minnie post#hsr#honkai star rail#just some ramblings#thought dump#no editing we die like men or something#i also think so much about sunday being alone at night in his own express quarters and hes just . scared#hes the bird in flight now when all his life he has been caged. and upon his first attempt at āflightā#he crashed.. and fell#at least it wasnt to his death...but at the same time it kind of was#the death of the old sunday#which gave birth to this new present sunday we have#if you think about it#anyway off topic. i think about him being scared. and i think he should cry about it tbh#(weltsun delusions) welt should come and comfort him
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Sometimes all a bad bitch want is a silly little short king š¹ā¤ļøāš„
#lemme tell u a secretā¦ā¦.#I reeeaally like power bottom Doyoungā¦..#NOBODY SEES MY VISION#Iām alone here I make my own food self sustenance#personally I hate toxic controlling seme type tops#but queen control bratty bottoms with super high standards and expectations tho š¤#like Iām cooking something#itās not for everyone but Iām cooking something#height doesnāt matter#a short king is a short king when I see one#also LBR Dongsooā¦. is a straight manā¦. heās like default factory settings#this is derogatory btw#/point YOU ARE STRAIGHT! š¤®š«µ#imo DY is a verse like it donāt matter as long as heās finally getting laid with Dongsoo#my mans desperate for dick#also funny headcanon DY is a virgin and died a virgin#he have 0 interest in relationship and sex until Dongsoo came into his life#whoch is why him chasing after Dongsoo is strangely innocent at its core#deep inside heās just a teenage girl falling in love for the first time#also I read this one manga awhile back where the mob boss is the bottom and Iām like yanno what#I quite like this#this is new this is fresh#like who says a boss canāt be bottom??#evilive#ģ
ģøģ źø°#biography of a villain#ėģėģ#dyds#fifiās art#shhhsoftnwet
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30 NOVEMBER, 2019 ā¢ ZATERDAG, 09:41
#wtFOCK#Skam#ZoĆ« Loockx#Senne De Smet#Zoenne#LOVE HURTS#Veerle Dejaeger#Nathan Naenen#wtFOCKEdit#SkamverseDaily#SkamRemakesEdit#s3#3x08#I remember people coming to talk to me about this clip the day it dropped bc they were happy about it and I was likeā¦#have we watched the same clip? excuse me Iām still picking up the pieces of my broken heart from the floor#no but really I understand them both so deeply here itās the worsttttt š#first sheās making the right decision but that doesnāt make it a happy moment. itās SO SAD SHE IS HAVING TO MAKE THIS DECISION SHEāS 16!#OFC if we were still in ZoĆ«ās POV this would have never been an issue but the writers really thought theyād convince me +#my babies had unlearned how to communicate SMH they were the best at it okay? this right here is EFFING BULLSHIT#but considering itās what they were going for I get why theyāre acting the way theyāre acting and it hurts#because ZoĆ« thinks Senne wants for her to make Viktor pay for everything heās done wrong in his life and sheās feeling like her own trauma#and how hard it still is for her to talk about it isnāt being acknowledged by himā¦#and Senne oh he really wants her to do it bc 1- he feels that what went on is his fault & he desperately needs his half brother to PAY +#FOR WHAT HE DID TO HER! HEāS KNOWN THE GUY HIS WHOLE LIFE (PROBABLY KNOWS THE ACCIDENT IN THE PAST MIGHT NOT HAVE BEEN AN ACTUAL ACCIDENT)#they have history and that makes everything even more awful bc he doesnāt understand why ZoĆ« doesnāt feel like testifying#I don't believe that Senne would have been this incisive hadn't he ~known~ her ab*ser#I mean I think he would have accepted her decision way more easily if he didn't feel responsible for what happened š#sheās been feeling all alone in her anguish and at the same time starts pushing him away#itās painful to see how the two of them are trying here. Heās so trying to support her no matter what#and sheās so trying to be strong for herself but her eyes are teary she can barely look at him itās too much šā¤ļøāš©¹
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