#allos scare me....
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For a solid month I used to keep getting recommended on youtube “this song sounds like you’re 14 and in love” and every time my honest reaction as an aromantic was: Y’all were experiencing LOVE at FOURTEEN???
#aro#arospec#greyromantic#late bloomer#aromantic#thsi post is older because i drafted it with full 'aromantic' - i definitely identify closer to 'greyromantic' now#releasing this from the drafts bc of realizing that the dead boy detectives were originally 12 but i'm pretty sure still#had the romance subplots and definitely had canoncial sexualities#i cannot imagine experiencing something closely akin to love at TWELVE like infatuation i get i had my first 'crush' at 14#but that was nothing CLOSE to being 'in love'#allos scare me....#i said this#'15 and in love' i woudl believe. 15 is a good age for a first love. 14? ur in an actual relationship with genuine feelings?????? whaaaaat#like i know i'm being silly that's just one year difference but it's how i feel
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Being aro/ace is great except for when allos. Like, I saw a conversation online about how one partner in a couple "Wasn't bad looking, just when compared to THEM" and I'm just sitting here like... What? My only basis for how attractive allos find people is my aesthetic attraction to them and... They're basically look on par with each other? They've even got the same aesthetic going on. Wdym? Why you insulting my boi (gender neutral) like that? If that's what you think of them then maybe you don't deserve them, how about that?
#the allos confuse me and scare me#aroace#mini rant#leave my boi alone#aromantic asexual#aromantic#asexual
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How can I be THIS sexy and yet entirely uninterested in other people. Wasted potential!!!!!
#allo me up scotty#nah#i just!! how do i navigate this idk I feel like i want to meet people and be attracted to them but it sinply never happens!!!#am i just a pussy who runs away and panics about relationships or do i actually not like anyone that way????#idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk#and i know i don't have to identify with any label or anything but i want to be able to try things out. but then in reality it just feels#(2) so incredibly wrong!!! so i don't know what the right answer is and I don't know how to explore this stuff and i don't know if I'm just#(3) scared or if this is actually genuinely who I am.#ugh
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I wanna be in a QPR so bad but I can't communicate efficiently without feeling guilty for expressing my own needs and wants, so for everyone's wellbeing I just don't bring it up
#sky vents like amogus#scheduled this post in hopes everyone would be asleep when it posts#i dont need comfort about it i think i just need a therapist thats aroace friendly and actually knows how to handle ocd#im so scared of just picking a guy experienced in ocd because what if theyre aphobic#and tell me my soocd is actually my brain telling me i should be allo but im damaged from trauma or whatever
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The thought that I could be allosexual and just confused my asexuality with aromantism is a thought that's been cropping up a lot lately and it's terrifying me.
Like it's easier to say that I'm ace/allo, it's easier to say that I'm simply aro/ace, but saying I'm allo/aro just scares me. Because while I know objectively this isn't true, a part of me feel that the moment I identify as allo/aro is the moment I become morally bankrupt. That no matter my sexual history, I will be this heartless creature who's only ever in it for sex in the eyes of the public. And like, I know that just internal aphobia but it scares me regardless.
#k8kat talks#aromantic#asexual#aro/allo#i dont even like sex that much but i do have like more of an attraction???#can i even call it attraction???#idk it's something#idk if i should even be talking about it it feels wrong to talk about#o(-(#but like i see asexual posts that are like 'i am immune to sex' and it's like i dont think i am.#but i'm so certain in being aromantic#and idk that scares me#i'm scared#hhhhhhhhhhhhh#i should be over this by now god it's been years#maybe i'm greyace or demi...#hhhhhhhh i dont like thinking about it too much#i will be thinking about it alot#can you be allosexual and sex-repulsed?#delete later#if the fear gets to me and i become worried about what other people think about me
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wish we had a specific system tag for when other headmates post. hm
#anyways yeah. half of the posts on this account are andrew#and half of them are me#i miiight be the minute introject of all time#thats a joke by the way.#but man. mann.#i get on here and see shit posted about me and it makes me insane#you think that analysis WANS'T made with the help of a minute introject?#idk maybe i'm scared to make myself known though#because of my... tendencies to have. really bad crushes.#ill get witch hunted or some shit man#headmates deemed me the quote 'most allo person in the system' unquote#also ccs being on here. shudders. not sure how they feels abt introjects lol#hid our system carrd because of it#i guess maybe we can make a sideblog but that seems like a Lot#graveyard system mentioned
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the funniest part of realizing you're asexual young is the pressure to have sex slowly building and building. when I was 14 and came out as asexual I was completely comfortable with never 'doing it'. now I'm almost 18 and nervous for the day when I can no longer use the 'um, I'm a minor' excuse
#ace speaks#like. relationships with non-ace people scare me#bc I know that there will be pressure for me to have sex#so I avoid allos like the plague lmao#asexual#actually asexual#ace spec#ace spectrum#asexual spectrum
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Being demiromantic is awesome like haha get rekt loser you fall in love with ppl you barely know while I know my crush is awesome sauce bc we've known each other for years HA I'm better than you
#sumarmz waffles#still cant wrap my head around NOT being demiromantic#allos scare me#wdym you see some random person and think 'omg i need to go on a date with them rn'#HUHHHH????#love at first sight is a scam
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whenever a character avoids confronting a character that they are aware has a crush on them to comedic levels and they play for laughs about how awkward everything is or how the character is 'denying their feelings' it always felt so aromantic to me because I genuinely don't think allos act this way, not with this intense avoidance or horror that someone has a crush on you or you might have feelings for them, that's not 'denying feelings' this just sounds aro
#i was very confused as a teen cause i was terrified of ever having a crush and then i watched characters#'scared of having a crush' but in an allo way and i was like oh god is this going to happen to me#aroposts
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In the end I think my biggest complaint with Dead Boy Detectives is that it's paced like a kid's show despite being a young adult show. If they just aimed for 2-5 minutes less in every episode, I think the characters wouldn't have had those moments where they seemed a little bad at their job for how long it was taking to figure things out.
#i was gonna say 'all other elements being like a teen or adult show' and then i remembered the article that compared it to the OC haha#dead boy detectives#i said this#they walked into that house and saw the family reliving their deaths and i knew it was a loop but they watched it twice#and just stood there before figuring it out#edit: wait them being TWELVE in the comica kind of explains that lol#idk if epiaodes were closely following comica but i can see how that can be hard to change if u v familar with the original#wait they dont age up do thsy that means t hey knew their sexualities and were having relationships at TWELVE?? ahhh allos scare me
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I do NOT struggle with "having no love interest and being lonely" I'm actually very good at it.
#aromantism#aromantic#queer#romance#romance is boring#romance is dead#no romance#no love#no s/o#arospec#i hate this#lonely#nuh uh#hell nah#humor#aromantic humor#i think romance is stupid and allo ppl scare me.#boredom
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may have made a mistake …
#/not serious I just#I’m scared of allos /hj#And I don’t know if I’ve made it clear enough that I’m like#Not into much of it (love) or not#So I jokingly tell my friend if she wants be my valentine because she just got broken up with with but like !!#Was that a bad idea ?#I was going to buy all my irls some chocolate and stuff but now I’m worried#I might just be over thinking it but ugh#Personal#obviously I’m going to keep an eye on them these next few weeks and if they say anything remotly romantic I’m going to loudly say how much#Hate romance and love#Or wait maybe I should just do that in general#god my entire irl friend group is a bunch of cis allos and they’re all nice but man if it isn’t making me feel abit alienated
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Yes we've all heard aroace people complain about the 'you haven't met the right person' line. But to the idiots citing this as the reason aroace people 'aren't oppressed’: No, micro aggressions aren't what's oppressing us.
I could talk about corrective rape, but I'm not going to because that's not what scares me the most. The worst thing about being aroace (aromantic, and asexual to a certain extent) is that society is set up for couples.
Being aromantic is a crushing economic disadvantage. As a couple, you can save more. As a legal couple, you can borrow more. This puts Mortgages out of reach for a lot of aromantics. Adopting too. Although aro people can adopt, you must have a similar income to a couple, which again, rules out a lot of aros. Don't forget Immigration, spousal visas will never be an option for us.
Being poor and aro means you're denied housing, family, international movement, basically anything that allos of a similar income would get. And anything you can get, you'll have to jump through many more hoops for. But we can't fix this by legalising aro marriage, like we did for the gays. Until our society's economic system is completely revolutionised, we'll be waiting.
It's impossible to compare oppression. You can't objectively say which minority group has it worse and I really mean that. But also I'd rather be called slurs and hated by Christians all fucking day.
#sorry about all the aroace stuff recently its just theres been dicourse in my notes and i want to get stuff off of my chest#aroace#asexual#aromantic#i had to work my ass off all my life#to get a job that pays two peoples income#becuase theres literally no other option for me
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Cyan Centipedes (False, AntFrost, and Ren)'s reactions to Martyn's Velma outfit, part two
Part One here
False: Eyy, Martyn's live. (through laughter) His face just popped up on my screen. I have him open. Ren: Oh good lord, okay, we gotta get Martyn-- AntFrost: Oh, I need to open his stream-- False: Velma's here guys, Velma! (False and Ant laugh) She's made it. Oh. Ren: Oh, wow, he is...he's--he's also. I mean, there is a lot of Martyn on this screen-- Ant: Oh my gosh, wait-- Ren: There's a lot of Martyn. False: Dude, it came up and it was like, full screen on one of the monitors. (she laughs) Ren: Dude, look at him! He looks so good! (Ant and Ren laugh) He can't play MCC with those glasses on, he can't see through that nonsense. False: I'm not going to lie, I'm a bit jealous, where are my glasses? I didn't get a character with accessories. Ren: Oh good lord. The dress and everything! False: It's a skirt! Oh, oh it's got the Scooby-Doo logo on it! Ren: (in disbelief) He's even got the pose! (voice higher pitched) That's how she poses! (False and Ant laugh) The little curtsy and everything. False: I didn't even think about the--socks! Martyn: (playing from Ren's stream) I'm glad I'm seeing nothing but 'slay' in the chat (Ant and False laugh) I'm seeing nothing but 'slay' in the chat, that's right, that's right. We're here to play. We're here to play. (at the same time as False) You ready? You ready for some MCC? False: (at the same time as Martyn) Ren, you've disappointed us! Where's the Scooby-Doo? Ren: I'm sorry guys, I'm sorry. False: Wait, do you actually have Scooby-Doo on? Scooby-Doo? Martyn: (playing from Ren's stream) I ate and left no crumbs, according to chat. This is all--this isn't me inflating my own ego, this is all chat. Ren: I mean, you know. False: C'mon, do a face reveal. You can do a face reveal. Ren: Absolutely insane. False: You could do a face reveal. Ren: I've--no one has ever seen my face, False. I've been locked in my-in my computer since I was twelve. False: In the computer? Ren: Yeah. False:....(after four seconds of silence) Mhm. Gonna watch. Martyn: (actually in the Discord call) 'Allo? Ren: (at the same time as False) Dude, you look so stinkin' hot. False: (at the same time as Ren) Hello! Ren: Slay queen. Mm! Martyn: That's it! Ren: I would take you on a date Immediately! Martyn: You know what I want? Big sub sandwich. I see Shaggy and Scoobs do it all the time, that's what I want. I want in on this. Ren: That's what you get. Although I did notice you haven't shaved your legs for the occasion. Martyn: Hey, it's winter. We can't be solving mysteries if we've got, uh, if we've got the chillies ourselves. I wanna be shaking when there's ghosts around, not when uh, not because of the temperature. False: No no no, you're the-you're the smart one. You don't get scared. It's fine. (Martyn laughs) Ren: I'm also mildly disturbed, I was just saying how you-- False: (at the same time as Ren) I was saying to Shaggy, I was mildly disturbed by how short your minidress is? Martyn: Yeah--it's a bit short, right? False: Miniskirt! Martyn: I was very careful when I put my leg up then, to show that the socks are like, trying to reach my knees but not quite. False: Yeah yeah yeah. Martyn: I was like, there could be a slip, I'm very wary of that.
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GOT MY FIRST MATT REQUEST😝 this is angsty to fluff, so be warned. i got kind of carried away and don’t have anyone to proofread my writing so sorry if this actually sucks ass.
“I’m gonna be working 16 hours again today, so I won’t be home until late.” You can feel the annoyance from your boyfriend before you even turn around. Matt absolutely hated when you worked long shifts like that, but he also knew you loved your job as a peds nurse. Still. He hated the hours. He hated how tired you were after work, all because you would pick up everyone else’s slack.
“Again? Baby-“ He stops himself, watching you pull the baby pink scrub top over your head. You can only laugh softly at his expression. “That’s the 3rd one this week.”
“I know, but I Lisa asked me to cover part of her shift. She’s always been super nice to me.”
That was one of the things Matt loved and hated about you, you were too nice. Always doing for others, never for yourself. And he worried you were gonna burn out.
He places his hands on your cheeks, placing a kiss to your slightly squished lips. “You’ve barely slept baby. You haven’t had anything to eat. You’re barely a person right now.”
“Matt, please don’t do this right now. I’m gonna be late.” You watch as he rolls his eyes, stepping away from you as you gather the rest of your things. “I know you’re just worried about me, but don’t be. I’m fine!”
“Just please text me and let me know you made it to the hospital okay, and let me know when you’re on the way home. Just so I know you didn’t fall asleep at the wheel.” He reaches out for you, and you greedily fall into his embrace. “I will. I love you, okay.” You place a soft kiss to his lips and smile sweetly. “I love you more baby.”
And with that you leave.
You kept your word of texting Matt and letting him know you made it to the hospital safely. Even sending him a cute little selfie of you blowing him a kiss.
But when he saw it was almost 45 minutes past the time you should have been home, he felt a pit of anxiety form in his stomach.
He immediately ended the game of fortnite he was playing, and grabbed his phone wasting no time in calling you.
No answer.
So he tried again. And again. And again.
No answer. So he calls the floor of the hospital you work on. Only for the nurse on the phone tell him, you left almost an hour ago.
Kid was shitting bricks he was so scared.
“Nick!” At the sound of Matt’s terrified voice, the older brother of the triplets rushes into his room. “What?” Nick asks as he watches a frantic Matt put his shoes on. “I need you and Chris to take the other car and help me look for Y/N.” This only confuses Nick more.
“Isn’t she at work? And we can’t drive without our-“ “She’s not answering her phone. She left work almost an hour ago. She should have been back by now!” Matt cuts Nick off, trying his best not to break down.
Next to his brothers, you were the most important person in Matt’s life. The thought of anything happening to you made his want to throw up.
“You need to breathe before you pass out. Y/N is fine Matt, she’s gonna be okay.” Nick rubs comforting circles on his back, trying his best to calm his younger brother down.
“Maybe she fell asleep in the parking lot.”
You were not in the hospital parking lot when Matt arrived, only making his anxiety worse. “She’s not here!” He tells his brothers who are on the phone with him as they drive around the city in search of you.
“Chris is gonna take me back home, in case she shows up, but he’s gonna keep looking.”
Matt was barely listening anymore, because as he turned to get back on the highway he sees your car. And when he looks closer, he sees you in it. Asleep.
“I just found her and I’m going to kill her, right after I tell her how much I love her.” “Is she okay?” Chris asks.
“She fell asleep in her car. She’s fine.” Matt hangs up after that. He was relieved to say the least, but so furious with your stupidity.
As he gets out of his car and walks up to your window, he allows himself to take a minute to actually breathe.
You’re startled out of your sleep to a tap on your window, looking up you meet the eyes of your very angry looking boyfriend.
As soon as you unlock the door, he’s pulling it open and unbuckling your seatbelt. “I’m so sorry-“ He cuts you off by pulling you into his chest, and you can feel the rapid beat of his heart against yours.
“Do you have any idea how fucking worried we were?” You begin to gnaw at the inside of your cheek, the feeling of guilt all consuming your body. “I’m sorry, I didn’t even realize I was falling asleep.”
“I need you to realize how stupid and dangerous that was. We’re not in Maine or Utah, baby. We’re in LA. You know from working in a hospital how dangerous it is here.” He knows he should be a little more cautious with his words, but fuck he was scared.
“I’m sorry. I closed my eyes for two seconds! I didn’t mean to fall asleep.” Matt stops himself from berating you anymore, knowing you probably feel guilty enough. “Just- go get in the car. I’ll grab your things.” “I can’t leave my car here-“ You don’t even finish your sentence at the look Matt gives you.
You get in the passenger seat of his car and watch as he grabs your things, and double checks that your car is locked, before settling in the drivers seat.
“I need you to really listen to me when I say this.” You turn in your seat to face him, his hand reaching for yours. To comfort you or himself, he’s not too sure at this point.
“The next time you even think there’s a possibility of you falling asleep like that, I’m talking you yawn for 2 seconds longer than usual, you better call me. I don’t care what time it is. I love you and you scared the hell out of me tonight.”
“I’m sorry, Matty. I love you and promise I’ll never do anything like that again.” He smiles softly, and places a delicate kiss to your palm.
Now that you’ve faced the repercussions of Matt, you spent the drive home preparing yourself for the inevitable lecture to come from the one and only Nicolas Sturniolo.
#matt sturniolo#matt sturniolo x reader#sturniolo fanfic#nick sturniolo#chris sturniolo#matt sturniolo fluff#matthew sturniolo#nicolas sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#chris sturniolo x reader
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As an aroallo person, thank you so much for making that aro Arthur comic. I know a lot of allo artists or writers can sometimes avoid writing or creating works involving aro characters because they're scared to get things wrong but I really appreciate what you drew and wrote and that you were open to criticism. I really like the comic. It reminded me of myself and I'm just glad we can live in a world where a big fandom artist can draw an aroallo comic. You did a really job. I guess I'm glad there's aroallo content being made because a younger version of me would've really loved seeing that and it mightve helped me figure myself out sooner. Just thank you for representing that you can be aromantic and still be sexually attracted or intimate with someone without it being painted like it's a bad thing . Arthur's guilt made me feel seen
WAHAHAHHSHAHAHAJAJ SOBBING I’m so glad it connected with you and that I can create art for people that makes them feel seen and heard <3333
#BIG FANDOM ARTIST?????????#well I guess if I’m given that title I’ll use it to spread the aroallo Arthur propaganda#and ofc create an inviting and safe space for anyone who needs it <3#ask
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