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6am with an oasis shirt beneath my suit. Someone has to be the most insufferable person in the office.
#oasis#oasis reunion#office siren#because i will wail like one if this is not gonna be a reunion#actually i will cry regardless#bring it on#eh#bring it on down#hehehe
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can't believe im saying this but long time no megumi
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#jjk megumi#jjk art#am i getting my speed back or am i just procrastinating what im Actually supposed to me doing the answer may surprise u#regardless i realized i havent drawn megu properly since waaaaay pre-halloween and i was feeling the withdrawals#i wanted to get a handle on this newish render style with yuuji first bc i think the lighter hair forces me to know what im doing#vs with black u can hide things a lot better so its easy to play it safe and revert 2 usual habits#so im rly happy i did yuuji first bc these bruise-y colours on megumi's hair look SO good i cld cry#im rly enjoying this thing where i put whatever colour down wherever without worrying abt being too precious with it#the bright neon salmons the dusty purples the olive greens these r all colours i would not normally turn to#esp fr skin#but its so FUN it makes the lighting so fun and saturated and interesting to look at#overall this ws nowhere near as meticulous or 'clean' as the yuuji draws but i didnt needit to b so its ok#this ws just an afternoon#n i just needed to draw megumi :'> i abandoned my boy..........#yall im having fun drawing again pro tip if u feel stuck Do New Things#yet another lesson you think i wld have Retained after 21 years of drawing
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combine their vocabularies and together they could say a lot of superfluous things!
#lychee's trash art#shishikura seiji#seiji shishikura#kaminari denki#denki kaminari#okay hear me out;;;;#shishikami#i don't even know if they have a ship name#bnha#my hero academia#mha fanart#bnha fanart#boku no hero academia#this ship is so fucking funny i need someone to talk at me about it#this one and shinoji or ojishin or whatever#the purple-yellow rivalry is really a thing in bnha#also PLEASe if there are medibang paint users out there#basically crying cannot figure out how to export with accurate colors#i'm googling like crazy about color profiing and i'm too stupid to figure it out;#regardless i'm actually really happy how this turned out though!
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Pretty sure my parents think I'm a heartless freak but like idk what I'm really supposed to do about that-
#like do they WANT me to cry#about death and stuff#idk#maybe not cause theyve seen me cry over way lesser stuff#but i feel like they see me as a lil heartless freak everytime somethinf actually big happens and then#my reaction is just like 'ok :/'#urgh#anyone else just not....feel it?#anyway all this to say my grandpa died#:/#i dont really?#like idk shit happens man#also this is not a vent#i just feel guilty because im not like...sad?#i feel worse about the heartless freak thing#it makes me feel like im a bad person#i think that regardless#but thats like a whole other issue#anyway#ramble over#/gen i am fine and this isnt meant to be a vent
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In 'vis a vis' Janeway doesn't mention B'Elanna in the list of people who're worried about Tom which implies that B'Elanna didn't report the fact that "Tom" grabbed her arm, called her a disappointment and broke up with her (as Janeway definitely would have mentioned it as evidence of him acting strange if she knew about it) which makes sense on several different fronts but also makes me scream and cry loud enough to break glass.
#it reminds me of that time in 'Alice' (NOT related as vis a vis takes place seasons BEFORE 'Alice') but when B'Elanna says Tom:#'practically assaulted me' Janeway's not taking it seriously at all she says 'that doesn't sound like Tom' and I was like CAPTAIN??? DEATH?#but again that has no bearing on this in-universe bc that hasn't happened yet. REALLY I'm screaming and crying about B'Elanna's self esteem#issues which Steth literally manifested the worst case scenario of#Tom's little gesture when he gets back also goes over so well bc of this in MY mind.#Tom wanting her and Tom being with her is something B'Elanna wants regardless of how he actually acts in their relationship#(as long as it isn't abusive). He rarely puts her first without prompting or complaining BUT...he's a handsome human guy who wants her to b#his girlfriend. Ostensibly. And that's a prize you wanna hold onto.#God I love B'Elanna............#did she tell ANYONE or did she just sit with that interaction alone???#her not telling anyone implies that she DIDN'T go 'hey that's not like Tom! I should inform the captain of this incident!'#and that KILLS me dude...she's not like 'Something's terribly wrong with Tom or maybe that's an imposter!' she's like 'Tom said/did that to#me.' SCREAMING. SCREAMING. TOM. YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS /BAD/ WITH B'ELANNA.
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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed
#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself#and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change#it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly#so there was somewhat of a gradual progression#but still#also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time#i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i#had been socially involved#anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change#and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find#the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever#and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha#(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically#it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni#ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that#but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped#and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr#i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years#and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it#and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing#kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao#i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school#and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build#--ing towards#which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now
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welp, i finished the Dawntrial MSQ last night
it was
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i actually enjoyed a lot of the things people were complaining about in the beginning, because while i could understand their criticisms, to me its flaws felt like something it would grow past as it was establishing a new foundation for a new story, which was what was promised to us, and obviously that's gonna require slowing down the pacing and lowering the stakes, which is fine!
but then the second half of the MSQ hit and i just-
on paper it should have been amazing
on paper i should have fucking loved it
but in execution, i stg trying to finish the lvl 98-100 MSQ took years off my life, even tho the majority of them took me a single night to beat, it still felt like it both overstayed its welcome and also did way too little with what it was trying to present us with
i know this is vagueposting because i don't wanna spoil, but man. "divisive" is definitely a word to describe the Dawntrail MSQ with, especially considering how many people were telling me "it gets better in the second half!" and again, I thought the first half of it wasn't as bad as people were saying, so I was HYPED for the second half, and instead I was brutally disappointed by what I got instead u.u
that said, the dungeon and trial gameplay mechanics are great, when the expansion remembers that it is in fact a video game it does it really well, it's just unfortunately not often enough for it to make up for the sloggy pacing of the story
the music is a bop, there are a couple tracks that i was a little eeeh on because they just felt really saccharine in a way that just clashed entirely with the tone of XIV and made me want to throw my headphones in the garbage, but the majority of the soundtrack was otherwise really well done, soken was really channelling his inner david wise here with the donkey kong vibes LOL but there are some somber tracks that are great too, there's a lot of range here in the soundtrack that should be appreciated despite the odd cringe track
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environment design was solid, there were some zones that were questionable in their design because some of them felt pitifully empty despite promising bustling populations (looking at you, Tuliyollal and Solution Nine >:x)
but man , the last zone was brutal and that sucks because again, on paper, the concept SHOULD have been awesome, but ultimately it's still relying on the exact same plot devices in the past (insert lost civilization whose previous inhabitants/rulers are hellbent on keeping it alive even at the expense of current civilizations here) and the gameplay itself deadass forgot it's a game because there isn't a SINGLE instance of necessary combat or gameplay during all of it and so when the final quest (as per tradition, named "Dawntrail") finally pops up, it's like wait what ? that's it?? thankfully the last quest has both a dungeon and trial in it but it feels less like thought out design and more like the game devs remembering they had to actually include some gaming in their video game at the last minute LOL
i think the extra burden of directing FF XVI definitely caught up to Yoshi-P on this one, as well as the budgeting problems that still exist from COVID, and the fact that much of that budget clearly went to overall QOL changes like the graphics engine getting an almost complete rehaul (even in the previous expansions which is. a lot of work. like they want to re-texture ALL of the gear in this game and THAT'S A LOT, literally thousands of items!). where this expansion wins, it wins big, but those wins aren't enough to carry an overall lackluster experience that drags itself out way too fucking long for its own good. the story could have absolutely used a few more rounds in the writing room, if they couldn't afford more voice acted scenes then they should have simply just cut down on the amount of cutscenes, and i think the devs need to seriously ask themselves if the Trust system is worth dragging the Scions back into every adventure even when they have nothing to do (and it shows). like idk, just spitballing here, but the Trust system might be a good chance to re-introduce the GC squadrons, no? maybe go back to the roots a little bit and buff up the stuff that could still have a lot more life if given a chance?
anyways my experience with DT has been about a 6/10 and that score in the end will depend on how the patch quests go over the next couple years, I still prefer it over Stormblood (fr fuck SB lol) but it definitely feels like it's trying too hard to be like EW and ShB while missing what made EW and ShB so good in the first place (or acknowledging why its flaws were forgivable within the context of their respective designs, like yeah EW's pacing was iffy too but it at least had a lot more going on in it to justify it, DT is just grasping at straws by comparison). and in that sense it winds up being a lot more like ARR, where it's just kind of lost in what it's trying to do and creates a worse experience by the end. hopefully like with ARR back in the day the devs will figure out it's time to shake things up and try something new without using the old as a crutch.
#also yeah sorry past me but wuk lamat actually does really suck in the long run#or rather what the writers are doing with her sucks#i don't mind an optimistic character but it's a little much when her optimism is forced in everywhere to the point it becomes self-absorbed#she very much feels like a self-insert black hole sue#she's just there to be the ultimate hero for everyone regardless of whether or not it even makes sense#it's kinda cute in the beginning but it gets old REAL fast esp in the last half of the MSQ when she has no business being everyone's hero#there's just zero nuance or subtlety to her character and the writing throughout the whole story#the story's progression feels like a series of cue cards that say shit like “this is the moral of the story!” and “please cry now :(”#final fantasy xiv#dawntrail spoilers#ff xiv
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ngl. every time i see someone talk about a fairly standard/innocuous bong or pipe that isnt that structurally complex and they talk about the way it would be "impossible" to keep it clean my concern for the ways y'all treat your glass (and therefore your lungs) rises by 10 notches........
#as someone who smokes DAILY: PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CLEAN YOUR GLASS OFTEN#if you just change the water daily even/try not to leave it filled with wet it will significantly improve your smoking experience#if your bong is getting BLACK AND MOLDY WITHIN THREE DAYS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO ANYTHING DIFFERENT OH MY GD#filters.... change the water more.... DON'T ash into the water........ anything??????#😭#also not rbable bc this is very judgemental in tone and i dont feel like ppl crying to me about why they Should be able to do this#like ultimately do what u want im just really concerned for ur lungs & u can Genuinely have such a better smoking experience 😭#(<totally not autistic ab weed & smoking (lying))#also if u genuinely dont know how to clean ur bong effectively: get at least 70% alcohol & the frequency of cleaning depends on how much u#use it but when im smoking from the bong a lot i do it before every sesh (yes it takes extra time. i find it peaceful but regardless. you#will just need to keep track of ur own habits) and fill the (empty) reservoir ~1/3-1/4 with the 70% and then plug the mouth piece and stem#hole with your thumbs and shake that bitch a couple times to slosh the alcohol on the walls. if theres grime add a couple spoons of coarse#salt (or rice if its a lot!!) and then shake shake shake (be careful dont hit it ofc) and then dump that out and rinse repeatedly#(i personally fill it with as much water as i can and dump it out lile 4-6 times but just MAKE SURE THERES NO MORE ALCOHOL)#bottle brushes and straw cleaners help with residual grime / harder to clean spots but are unnecessary in my experience if you are cleaning#it often enough. for bowls (& pipes) I recommend letting them soak for a bit in some rubbing alcohol while you do this#and then by the time the main piece is cleaned you can use a straw cleaner in the hole part or even a toothbrush or a q tip to clean off the#resin/gunk (i clean my actual bowl less often than the bong itself but also i use filters and the resin helps that stay better)#anyway i love cleaning my bong and i love glassware so much and bongs can be beautiful just be niceys to it!!! it needs baths!!!
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Hehe more chibi practice
Also I'm doing a sorta big thing so in the mean time take this :)
#Basil#Basil omori#omori#chibi#If anyone judges my handwriting please know I am going to cry#Actually I'm gonna cry regardless so go off I guess :)#100
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I GOT A PRIDE FLAG FROM THE PARADE!!!!! 🏳️🌈🌈🏳️🌈🌈🌈🌈🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈
HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY TO ANYONE WHO CELEBRATES!!! AND HAPPY PRIDE DISABILITY MONTH!! ♥️🧡💛💚💙💜🩷
#there was a group of people carrying this HUGE pride flag near the end#I asked if they had any extra (my mom won't buy me pride stuff willingly) for my room#and one of them just RUNS back and their makeup is GORGEOUS#and they just go “here you go- happy fourth :)))” and AND#crying actually#on the floor. bashing my head into a wall#if your out there#ily#and you made today so much better#thank you#happy pride (end of pride but regardless)#and happy pride disability month frfr there was a person in a wheelchair in that part of the parade aswell#WOOP
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*frantically googles how to build a time machine to fast forward to this episode*
#i will actually not be surviving thank you#im getting in the clown car and driving into delusion who's coming with#i will cry there's no way i won't cry regardless of how this episode goes#buddie#911#911 spoilers#911 s7#911 s7 spoilers
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dryheaving rn i cant breathe whriutyeriufnkds WAEEEEEEEEEE i capital n Need him. im im im im yeah no thanks like guys Stopwhat if i die I NEED HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry im crazy i love sunghoon so much guys hes so special to me and he always will be like he makes me laugh and smile and hes the most gorgeous man itw and when he smiles an angel is born and babies laugh and double rainbows form and the sun shines and birds sing and hes like a the marias song or a stephen sanchez song or a sabrina carpenter song specifically from eyes wide open more specifically best thing i got and i hope hes happy always and i hope the world explodes when hes sad
#ㅤ dumb ყet poetic 𓈒#middle picture third line.#I CSANT BTEUTYARE#I WANT HIM SO BAD IAUEWFHER#okay Sunghoon theme Soon probablu.#wowowoowow im actually sick whys he so gorgeous#i need him btw#hes my boyf for reals.......#sorry i kind of spiraled originally it stopped after i need him but then i looked at him again adn Well.#I LOVE HIM SO MUCH :((((((#hes my muse everything i do and think and look at is for or about him#hes just so special to me once again like idk guys stop#GET ME OUT OFTHIS ENGENE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#why isnt he real im so sad#sometimes i watch his old lives when im going to bed cos his voice is so comforting and i like seeing him being happy Stop. im kmsing#he makes me so HAPPYYYY im crying these pictures arent even that life changing compared to shirtless sunghoon but#I DONT KNOW lately hes been so happy and it makes me cry cos i missed him sooo much and im glad hes happier now#okay cringe bye i need to be sedated something about him makes me want to kiss his cheeks and hug him like#regardless of delusionness or whatever hes one of my favorite people ever i am very happy to be alive at the same time as him#imagine i missed him like what would my life even be#okay for real bye this is the most parasocial thing i have ever written he doesnt know me and i dont know him But.#i want him to be successful always#made this at 12:31AM CST.
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was sobbing unceasingly (as one does) but then remembered I have mister uplifting as my mac's screensaver
#he rly is my comfort character rn huh#hes literally talking to a kid here and I'm like uwehuehuehue uwu#i swear i dont have parent issues I'm just rlu emotional fr#regardless tho#how could anyone stay upset with this face#okay maybe me bc im still sad but at least i finally stopped crying lol#also ik the screenshot is from like days ago but i never got around to posting abt it til now okay#love me that post-cry feeling#actually no i hate it#bc now tht there no tears i just feel numb??? which is both good and bad#regardless tho pls dw abt it moots bc im very dramatic and probably will be over my sadge by tmmrw#so heres some tags and good night <3#psycho pass#psycho pass sinners of the system 1#ginoza nobuchika#nobuchika ginoza#psycho pass ginoza#long hair men#long hair ginoza#long hair ginoza nobuchika#growing up chronicles
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I wasn’t using that heart anyway it’s fine (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Damned#ZEX#Catch me crying in the Institute I'm Fine I Feel Fine#So far in reading I have cried twice - once for sads and once for happies#This one being the sads of course haha#The happies...doesn't really make sense in Or out of context but mmh maybe I'll get to it at some point lol#For now the devastation! Weh!!#I actually prefer the original phrasing better - ''If I become lost you will find me'' like gods hang on hold on gimme me a moment ❤️💕💖#I just forgot to look at it properly before writing it down lol#I transcribed it correctly in my notes! Heck#I would've been moved by this regardless but with Defeated hanging out in the back of my head for what's to come#He /does/ become lost! And it's from losing the Captain! His anchor his bright spot in this and any other galaxy 💔#All he has left is Dexter! Who won't ''indulge'' him or try to understand him and never /can/ in the way the Captain does#The foreshadowing!! The pain!! Ah ♥#Not to mention Zelnick's hesitance but still willingness to help I jfdkslafdf#Extremely good <3 <3
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@lesharl-eclair here is the vettonso timeline I mentioned at some point!! I was gonna make a more refined version but ah, the original is fine so I'm posting it for you <3
Its written so its as if their careers began at the same time. There's obviously some parts where they deviate from each other(I blame Fernando), but they're pretty similar, no??
Here's some notes I have:
They both started at technically the same team(if you ignore that Seb raced one race for Sauber): Minardi/STR. And they spent 3 seasons either racing for that team or testing(Fernando for Renault, Seb for BMW teams), before being promoted to the team where they won their respective WDCS.
They both spent six seasons with their WDC team. And both won their WDCs using Renault engines. Both were pretty much the golden boys of their teams, beloved by their team principal and team in general. Unfortunately both aren't consecutive because Fernando tried out McLaren lol.
They spent a similar amount of years at Ferrari(five and six respectively.) Neither could win a WDC with Ferrai(😔) And both joined Ferrari in a very similar way. When Fernando joined, he ousted Kimi and it was very uncertain where Kimi was going. I think the commentators in 2009 predicted McLaren? (But he ended up taking a sabbatical obv.) But pretty messy, right? The literal same exact thing happened with Fernando and Seb in 2014-2015. They finally announced at the end of the season, even though it was pretty obvious, that Seb would be replacing Fernando. And where did Fernando go? McLaren! The history book on the shelf is always repeating itself. I guess I find it funny that Fernando replaced his former rival under somewhat messy circumstances, only for his other rival to do the exact same thing to him years later.
Okay McHonda and Alpine blah blah blah. Anyways they're probably going to have both end up competing their careers after two years with Aston Martin. This honestly is my favorite parallel. Because it's very sweet to me that Seb replaced Fernando, in an aforementioned messy way, only for Fernando to take Seb's seat in a very peaceful, almost "passing the torch" type exchange 🥰
#blah blah blah theyre mirrors do you get it 🥺#i was gonna make one where i took our mclaren and alpine bcs they pretty much match up perfectly#but ig it feels a bit weird to just rip them out of his timeline yknow#i think they still match up regardless of that though#and im sure Fernando prob wouldnt mind too much removing both from his history 😭#i love how kimi is just there as well for both the ferrari replacements#like he was there to be the pawn in fernando's and then there to be the unaffected teammate during the second one 😭#see actually this is why we never got them as teammates#it wouldnt make sense for the mirror theory okay 🙄#cause they have the same career but just a little bit offset#so you can look at it and go wow! and then cry yourself to sleep bcs you then realize you'll never get them as teammates#haha i just bought some merch and they're both in aston racesuits so at least *I'll* have vettonso teammates on a personal level#but i think if i ever draw more of that timeswap au +#i wanna draw them together when they were each at the respective parts of their career#ex. minardi nando x str seb. renault nando x rbr seb. sf nando x sf seb. amr nando x amr seb. YKNOW!?#<- ive already thought of some silly dialog for two of them lmao#anyways this is my thesis thanks. hope you enjoy and agree <3#catie.rambling.txt#vettonso#normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion
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Every time I think I’ve gently left my Loki phase behind I get dragged violently back into it with the force of a disintegrating Temporal Loom
#AGH OKAY SO THE NEW LOKI SHOW IS SO DARN GOOD SO FAR#I HAD LOW HOPES BUT D U D E#they actually made. Such a good start#and I LOVE tom’s acting regardless but he was in top freaking form today#i am going insane#crying shaking sobbing#oh my gosh guys I will NOT recover from this#I’ve been thrown like a discus back into my Loki phase I will be a menace for the next three to five business months#apologies#vera rants#loki#loki spoilers
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