#actually delulu

[council-of-colors]

Heyyyy friendly reminder that if you think people that are at all schizospec are all insane and psychotic kindly fuck off!

Further more if you think it’s funny to tell people who struggle with paranoia, delusions, psychosis, etc shit like “im in your walls” or “the food you had was poisoned” also fuck off!

We are Schizotypal, it’s a big part of why our system is the way that it is. We believe some weird shit and it impacts us daily. But we’re not insane. I don’t care what you think of our delusions, I don’t care if it seems silly to you that we believe that we can make things happen just by thinking about it, or that we worry about disrespecting things like ghosts and gods and otherwordly beings.

This post isn’t directed to anyone on this website but on some other platforms we’ve had one too many people try and pull shit when finding out about our STPD or try to “reality check” us. If we ever open up about some of our delusions on here and someone tries to reality check us you will be getting blocked immediately we know they’re delusions, we do believe them, and they do not and will not go away because that’s how StPD works

Y’know what while I’m at it, people who believe in “narc abuse” can also fuck off.

[actualalivecreature]

drunk posting ri here to say delusions are not a light topic. do not joke about them, at the least it’s unfunny and at the most it can harm people to the point of death, and I am not exaggerating.

people in a delusional state (this includes me at some points in my life, i personally deal with delusions) can not tell the difference between a delusion (unreality) and actual, real life (reality).

saying the emotions you’re experiencing are delusional, when you can actively recognize by definition and within your own mind that they are not, diminishes the severity of the legitimate delusions of folks within psychosis.

you are not ‘delusional with love’ you are not ‘delulu’. If you can actively tell the difference between reality and fiction, you are not delusional.

have some compassion for the folks around you in psychosis and don’t use this language.

[expressionless-fr]

I wish people understood double bookkeeping doesn't matter. delusions ruin your life.

[alloutofseretonin]

To anyone who is struggling with having to bathe due to trauma do you have any tips?

I used to be unable to bathe due to my psychosis for moths like a decade ago... I have also been traumatised in that environment which doesn't help and probably explains why I find showering so difficult to just exist there, especially naked. Like I even used to be scared of using the bathroom in any way!

After my delusions calmed down I was still finding bathing very triggering and extremely frightening. Like- the delusional beliefs weren't there but the feelings where? Like being constantly obsessed by unknown dangerous entities that could strike in any moment and SA me. I knew I knew it wasn't true but still every time I was feeling at least threatened.

And now a decade later most of the time feel very stressed when I have to shower or get naked and I try to pull through and I thankfully manage, with difficulty of course and many times feeling very triggered or psychotic afterwards.

Most people see a girl with greasy hair, hairy legs and sweaty and think I am just lazy but I a truly terrified of showering deeply inside even if sometimes I don't realise it because I am trying so hard of taking care of my self.

Also I feel very unsafe showering at friends house's or hotels and I just have to accept that others will see me as dirty. Being panicked by bacteria and fungi due to my ocd also doesn't help with using other bathrooms but I am so traumatised in mine!!

What to you guys do in order to be able to function like that and avoid all those symptoms?

I have tried watching YouTube and it helps. I don't feel alone by some unknown scary thing but I also don't feel alone because I have my favourite YouTubebers!

But still I can't push my self to shower everyday because it takes too much energy to fight my mental illness that it's just not worth it "I would need a bath tomorrow anyway why shower today?!"

[itzalandevore]

Had someone seriously reply to me saying delusions arent a medical affliction. Not making this up.

This is why ableds using mental health terms like their just the new quirky slang is fucking shitty! Remove the words “delulu” and “delusional” from your insult arsenal now please and thx ☺️

[angelexlife]

Im delusional and im ok with that

At least im self aware (for now)

[frenchublog]

[imaginariumwanderer]

Discord's first mistake was in thinking they'll listen to reasons.

I finally got time to finish this silly lil comic!

Not taking credit here btw the ideas came from this post, credit to @pinkvaquita and @groovyfrog420 in particular!

[sergeanthatredbignaturals]

Mandetory Intro Post

Fun facts!

Right, so we’ve got the mandate into post here lads.

I’m Moth. I also go by Madeon, Nexus (or just Nex), Scythe, and Blood Lust (typically just Lust)

I’m also a Sweetheart (OMORI) irl or whatever that’s called (I’m schizophrenic 🔥🔥🔥, the body isn’t i am in source, however the body is prone to bouts of delusion dk why) so like yeah. Do with that what you will

I’m part of a system, suspected P-DID but we’re not sure. I’m the host, and i run this account so like don’t expect to see anything posted by anyone else y’know? If there is something posted by someone else it’ll be stated in the post so people will know

Uuh, if it wasn’t already obvious, big Venture Bros fan (the show kinda sucks fucking ass, but I’m acoustic [autistic] and it’s literally taken over my fucking life [killing myself/j])

Fuckin’ uuh- ion even know how many Venure Bros introjects we got at this point

Theres quite a few, I’m gonna check Simply Plural and hope i remembers to register at least most of them

Theres about 17, i think? Theres 15 on there, and an additional 2 that i can remember so fuuun (this Godforsaken show has taken over my life, send help)

Right so I’m homozygous (I’m omniflux, and like half the aromantic labels ever/hj) I’m also alexigender, and identify with far too many fuckin’ xenogenders (i have no clue how many, I’m lazy and haven’t made a proper list) and i use any pronouns. I’m also polyamorus and am dating several alters within our system

DNI

Proshippers

Homophobic

Transphobic

Ableist

Racist

Alla that bullshit

Just generally bigoted

Pro-Isreal (hope you’re having fun supporting literal fucking genocide)

Pro-endo, or just general non-traumagenic systems (guys i have PTSD but without the T soundin’ bullshit, like dawg that is literally impossible)

Anti-neopronoun/xenopronoun/whatever other pronouns there are/xenogender

I’ll add more when I’m less fucking exhausted and can actually think

BYI

I’m 24, but the body is like 17

I tend to yap on a lot

Very down bad, probably will post/repost NSFW content, however it will be tagged as #nsft

(If it wasn’t already obvious) Sergeant Hatred fan, will post about him, will write out essays in his defence

Cannot spell for shit half the time, autocorrect is all that’s kept this shit legible

Very heavily opinionated (i feel like that’s obvious at this point but i also feel is should clarify)

I will be posting OC (realistically self insert) x cannon shit, so like go away if that bothers you for whatever reason

I’m a Sweetheart IRL, as stated before, i have memories of my ex-husband, i may post shit about that in the future. If you have attachments to Spaceboy and that makes you uncomfortable to see someone shitting on him then like don’t follow me, or tell me and i can add a warning to posts if you want. Ion really mind

That’s about it for now

Toodles

[chipinsolace]

So called “mental health advocates”: Mental health matters! You are loved!

People who have a psychotic disorder: oh thanks-

Same “mental health advocates”: LOL! Delulu is the solulu! I wanna dye my hair so bad THE VOICES are LITERALLY TALKING TO ME! Ugh I hate you I’m in your walls/j! It’s giving schizoposting! No girl this is spiritual psychosis, Hope this helps! I hate this guy he’s so psychotic.

:(

[owly-lumi]

I wanted to do this meme since I saw the S2 of Earthspark, but I had the inspiration after complaining about It with @sketchy-mf . so:

(ok time to going back to Ao3 reading Fanfiction pretending they're canon in my mind 🙂)

[altosys]

doubling this message

-a delulu traumagen

:33 < idont care if youre anti or pro endo, if you use "delusional" or "p*ychotic" as an insult towards ANY system, YOU ARE ABELIST. you are singlehandedly showing off youdo NOT care for people with psychosis, youdo NOT care for people on the schizospectrum, and you are ABELIST TOWARDS YOUR OWN COMMUNITY. JUST BECAUSE THEY HAD ALTERS AS A DELUSION OF THEIRS, does NOT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO BE ABELIST TO THEM. my god, just leave delusional folks alone if youre gonna be uneducated and reality check them.

[actualalivecreature]

can you?

[expressionless-fr]

is this okay for me to use delulu? in some episodes it's very very jard for me to spell and my hands shake and it's hard for me to write and delulu also sounds funny and comforting a bit also stimmy :(

is this okay?

[louisentheirbees]

the feminine urge to move far away and become a different person

[midnight-soulless-system]

Wonderful idea OP!

If anyone that follows us is schizo-spec and is comfortable doing this, please do so!

Okay so this is a really farfetched idea, and I know I have other thingz I need to do, but would anybody be interested in something of a mass group posting where we could get together and post about our experiences with psychosis?

The idea would be to flood tags like #delulu or #schizoposting with actual lived experiences, and spread awareness about what living with psychosis is actually like (making sure to tag with a cws for unreality/dereality or whatever else of course). It doesn't have to be all negative, if you have positive experiences to share that'd be cool to hear as well!! Maybe even share some creative stuff inspired by ur psychosis or featuring psychotic character. But I think the idea would be to scare off sanists once they realise that being a "schzio" isn't as cool as what it's made out to be.

This is just a far off idea and I wouldn't want to compete with other issues that are in the limelight at the moment. But maybe if enough people rb this post we can decide on a tag and a time? I don't know what a good number would be.. At least uh. Maybe. 200 people..? Or maybe more. Idk. Try not to spam rb this too much, the idea is to see how many individual ppl would be interested in something like this.

If this post gets big, click back on the original post to see if there's any updates from me.