#actually autistc

[adhbabey]

I think the reason why I may do better in some situations instead of completely fumbling is that I like to "play a role" or perform in some way. It's somewhat natural and somewhat not. Like being the perfect lover, so its easy for me to flirt and tease. Or like being a good advice giver, I like being able to educate others. Or being the devil to someone's angel, or vice versa.

I always tend to perform or reflect someone else. So it doesn't bother me, and it doesn't make me struggle, as much, if I can play a role that I have played before.

And I realize this is just a form of scripting or masking. I don't do well if someone plays a role that I wanted to play. Or someone tries controlling me in a way I don't want. Or if the role I'm playing is traumatic, if then, its out of my hands of control of a social situation.

I don't think other people really think about this like I do. If they, a neurotypical person, or an allistic person, or someone who just falls outside of my categories, I cannot play or fit myself into an archetype that I feel comfortable in. It definitely makes me feel unstable when people do not like to be labeled. It makes me feel out of tune.

And sometimes, the role I play, is one that is unstable. If all else fails, I'll do something very unhinged. And play a role of a character that is frightening or unnerving, so they stay away from me.

I think this is just autism. I've perfected myself so well. I fit into other things so well. That it doesn't bother me when I have to play a role. But when I can't play a role. When I can't plan my interactions based on a certain idea. I get really frustrated.

I do, I can play a role that suits this. That shows my disabilities. But it's just really hard to see myself as anything like another when I don't feel safe to even manufacture an identity to suit those around me. I feel unstable admitting that I am autistic. I don't like this "role". I'd rather be someone else. Anyone else.

I don't look autistic, because I don't want you to know what I'm like. And that's hard to accept, for a kid who likes to perform for you and feels safe in an identity that makes me feel loved. Instead of a me that is not loved. And it's crazy because this is who I am truly now. Someone who is going to be a hero, instead of someone who can't speak up or voice themselves. The little autistic child inside of me is asleep, as the waking person I am now is to adapt and change and be courageous and voice themselves.

So unlike other some other autistic people, who discuss and talk about how they mask and don't know their true identity as they pretend to be someone else. I'm not pretending. Sometimes, I'm truly someone else, and currently, I am that somebody else. And the autistic and confused child is dormant inside of me, a role I can't play for others, not in the way I've known others to be.

[himynameis4]

Wake up babes new stim just dropped.

[lillprincessworld]

I love teethers

As an autistic person, I have my stereotypes, and one of them is biting. I’m always biting my lips or fingers. When I’m nervous or having a meltdown, the bites that are normally small and chewing gently become self-injurious. But when I’m little, it escalates even more. That’s why I use teethers to help me not hurt myself.

[fran-kael]

I don’t own this

[butchsunbear]

People really are out here thinking all autistic people don't have sex...when autism is genetic. Where do you think the genese come from?

[slugass]

wikihow to scream into someone’s ear canal through the internet

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[choshasan]

Watching fellow autistic peeps get dragged down the spiral of advocating for something they've previously shown disdain for after a (un)healthy dose of internet guilt tripping always hurts..

[collegestudentwithautism]

I never realised how many stims I actually have, this year and last year I have been trying to stim more as it helps me stay grounded though some of them hurt they still help me. Now these are some of mine I know not every Autistic perosn has the same but I do these the most.

My favourite stim is listening to the same song over and over again, currently it's this smooth Operator.

1. Fist bonk

2. Feet swing (I love doing this on a chair or table)

3. Flappy sleeves (especially with long sleeves)

4. Heel clicking(when I click my heels together)

5. Finger tapping (I do this to calm down from anxiety attacks)

6. Swaying (my favourite to do either on my bed or on a chair, people look when I do it though)

7. Leg shaking ( more of a nervous tic, but also a stim one of my Favourites my dad does it to)

8. Flappy hands (of course the one that makes everyone instantly say Autistic, flappy hands come out when in excited about something or see my special Interest)

9. Blinking (I don't do thus alot but I do catch myself blinking long and hard)

10. Finger snapping (another favourite it's loud to do though)

11. Neck twitch ( also another nervous tic from my Anxiety and makes people look at me alot)

12. Spinning (I love spinning, in circles, on a chair, on anything)

13. Hair twirling (I always have my hair down so I can twist it)

14. Fidget toy (I have a box in my room filled with all my fidgets I always have at least 3 on me because I know I need them)

15. Tiptoe walking (I recently started doing this randomly, but I like it)

16. Chest drumming (keeps me from panicking or feeling overwhelmed)

17. Chewing (on clothes or anything, I don't have any chewlry which is annoying)

18. Joint cracking (another one I like but makes other people cringe)

19. Clothes plucking (usually when I'm anxious or feel really hot)

20. Leg drumming (I love drumming on my legs very fun to do)

21. Hitting (this is ine if my physical stims, it hurts when I do it but still keeps me grounded, which is why I usually have a pillow over my legs so It doesn't hurt to much)

So those are all my stims that I have I like alot of them, jsutblike I said not every Autistic person does these, this is jsut what I do as an Autistic person.

[jujapaya]

he is a bisexual dumpster fire.

[bettertwin1]

YES 😭😭😭 YES 😭😭😭😭😭 YURI INFODYMPING ABOUT BUGS AND ANIMALS TO ANYA OUGH IM SICK IM SICK HE NEEDS TO GO TO HIS LOCAL LIBRARU, SEE THAT BOOK FROM HIS CHILDHOOD AND REACTIVATE THAT HYPERFIXATIOJ NOWWWWWWWW

Moot completely unrelated but related to Yuri do you ever think about how he had an intrest in bugs as a kid...I KNOW HIS HOME CANONICALLY HAD LIKE...PICTURES OF HIS SISTER <- ("DO IT FOR HER" 😭😭😭) BUT I LIKE TO THINK...HE COLLECTS AND HAS FRAMED DISPLAYS OF BUGS ON HIS WALLS... PLS SEE MY VISION. <- (HIS SPECIAL INTREST IS BUGS THAT HE CAST ASIDE IN MY FUCKED UP MIND)

I THOUGHT ABOUT SOMETHING SIMILAR TO THIS!!!!!! he is a little animal nerd. A little insect and bug and arachnid nerd. Imagine him doing some inner child healing and picking up his old interests again☹️‼️‼️‼️‼️ Him going outside and looking at insects with Anya and telling her interesting facts about them. (I am getting way too emotional about this cuz i was also that neurodivergent kid who had a special interest in insects and nature. I annoyed the shit out of my elementary school classmates with bug facts, haha)

[vilevexedvixen]

Gross take on Laios

*Please DO NOT harass this person. I am linking the video so people can hear her own words and come to their own conclusions about it. For what I'm concerned about (her warped view of Laios and autism) it's mainly after the 15 minute mark.*

TW: Mentions of past trauma (bullying and SA), and ablism related to autistic traits.

So I think I've stumbled across the worst take on Dungeon Meshi out of nowhere. Their points on the tonal whiplash of Dungeon Meshi juggling the fantasy cooking show and more serious plot are all sound... until she get's to Laios. *Edit: No, none of the video's criticisms are sound. The first half is them not parsing very standard mixes of tones and themes in fantasy anime, and the second half is just hateful, incoherent nonsense.*

Laios' flat affect, tendency to infodump, and not grieving Falin the way Marcelle does led her to the conclusion that Laios is a malicious psychopath. A little bit extreme. Made worse by the fact that she then deems any fans attributing autistic traits to Laios as infantalising and implying that if you relate to Laios you are similarly awful with - "What kind of autistic people are YOU hanging out with?! What kind of autistic person are you being???".

She then goes on to say, "The only one who calls out Laios is Shuro" over the clip of their fight. The fight that many autistic fans of the show I've met relate to because they've experienced the same fight. That fight is Shuro calling Laios out on... what? Laios being too open, smiley and blunt? Like that's harming anyone?

Shuro, frankly, threw a tantrum over motives he attributed to Laios that didn't exist and demanding Laios be less open? THAT'S "calling him out"?

None of Laios' actions that this woman is bemoaing harms any of his party members. He goes out of his way to try and help the team (with his monster knowledge, fighting skills, cooking, etc.) consistently and him not ugly-crying when Falin is resurrected doesn't diminish any of that. His care and compassion are heartfelt and sincere. The fact this woman refuses to acknowledge any of it is her perrogative, but I seriously question her choice to pull the "as an autistic person" card only to paint autistic traits in the worst possible light and insist they must be changed, or removed by "growing up" (an especially laughable sentiment given Shuro's very NT tantrum over not understanding autistc communication differences literally ONLY Shuro took issue with).

In the comment section, she also claims that "Masking is only in mundane situations". Says who? Either she's extremely sheltered or she's extremely short-sighted regarding other autistic peoples' experiences (which I guess explains her praise of Young Sheldon's depiction of autism).

Masking is a defence mechanism meant to help autistic people avoid danger and social rejection (which often leads to harm, so still danger). Masking can be performed in literaly ANY situation where someone feels they need to, unless they're already too overwhelmed or drained to continue masking. I have masked because I NEEDED to while being bullied, cornered (barely evading SA or trying to get through an SA/dissociate), trying to find help while stranded in a foreign country, etc. I know not everyone will've experienced such situations, but I doubt no one masks during similar ones. That isn't to say people don't mask in mundane situations, it just isn't exclusive to mundane situations.

If this lady actually is autistic and not just claiming to be so people who don't know better feel vindicated in her portrail of autistic traits in the worst possible light, then I sincerely hope she touches grass and talks to more autistic people sometime.

*Again, PLEASE don't harass this gal. The rest of her critiques are fine, but I needed to vent my frustration with her perpetuation of misinformation about autism. It is NOT ok.*

[sadko101]

unpopular opinion: all bg3 origin ships are great (and as platonic too)

gale x astarion: "enemies" to lovers they have great chemistry and has plenty of room for fluff and angst, plenty has been said about them i dont think i have much else to say.

wyll x gale: theirs plenty of danger in being the blade of fronteirs/avernus and we all know what gale is into. also they are two of the more good leaning characters. + gale is very "being a warlock sounds rough" and wyll is "that man is wayyy to faithful i dont want him to blow himself up". dancer x man with poor knees. (i could yap for ever i love them)

karlach x wyll: PERFECT, their stories intertwine while they have this unyielding care for each other. both platonically and romantically this ship is amazing! i just have no words for how good it is

karlach x shadowheart: karlach calling her shads is adorable and shadowheart is just straight up smitting for karlach the moment they meet. also when you play as origin shadowheart karlach is super sweet about the hairchange i love them.

gale x laezel: good leaning frail human wizard x GITHYANKI WARRIOR. theyre conversations are amazing with a mutual sense of curiosity for each others past and possible future. laezel falling for somone as soft as gale as well. ugh its soo good.

laezel x shadowheart: NOW THIS! its the true enemies to lovers of bg3. kinda "toxic yuri" in the begining but as the story goes on and laezel rebels against vlakith and shart against shar theres a real parrelel to there stories and a sort of understanding that they can find in each other.

gale x shadowheart: an intresting dynamic given them both being incredibly faithful to two gods who arent super fond of each other... as shadowheart strays from shar she encorages gale to relise the power mystra had over him, just a lot of support and love for each other is what im imagining. (definitly a ship thats develoupment focused)

karlach x laezel: now i havent had both of them in my team much, but the dynamic feels close to "grumpy x sunshine" laezel really opening up and being nice over time while karlach is open and happy from the begining.

karlach x gale: wizard x barbarion, (also "idoit" x genuis) is just great, gale and his magic could probably help to cool karlach down temporarly! i hc them both as autistc and i like nd x nd ships. also if you let gale ascend to godhood (loser) and play as karlach he can actually fix her engine heart which adds a sweet motivation to his godhood.

karlach x astarion: now i love these two platonically but i also love them romantically. astarion is enthusastic about recruiting karlach and comments about supporting her. he jokes abouthow strong she is which is cute. if youve ever played karlach origin and romance astarion they have a sweet scene together.

wyll x astarion: monster hunter x monster, wyll loves to tease astarion but he cares about him. he has faith in astarion to be a better person and its just MWAH. astarion is a bit of a simp for wyll (me too) he is very nice about the horns in wylls origin too (i love them)

wyll x shadowheart: they tease each other in a super endearing way. they kinda immideitly clicked and i know that wyll would support shadowheart through her whole crisis and shadowheart will help wyll in his self sacrafising tenancies (these little shits reciting porn together at the docks)

shadowheart x astarion: these two could be evil together, but they also could help each other heal and become better people

laezel x astarion: theyre very differnt views of love and affection. i think laezel would help astarion in his journy of reclaiming his own sexuality. (i need to think about these two more)

durge x anyone is great

i speedran typing this sorry for plethera of spelling erros

[soraarx]

Ruikasa on some randoms strawpage. my autistic son and his autistic boyfriend

autistcs x showtime, every one of them

BTW I HATE STRAWPAGE GRRRRRRR DIE DIE DIE DIE. it's so weird to draw on there idk how people make actual masterpieces on there. I saw the most insane fucking FMA fanart on twt/x done on strawpage it's fucking insane ?!?!?!?

[nemo-bros]

this is my new visual schedule:

i have no idea how to image describe pictures with so many things in them, so I'm sorry I have no image description, but I will do my best to explain the purpose of each page (left to right top to bottom)

the cover (keeps pieces from falling off if I put the flipbook in my backpack or something) the cover also has my name on it but I cropped this out

'first next then after' page (the main page I use, has my soonest upcoming tasks- I take pieces from the 'to do' page and put them here)

'to do' (at the morning I fill up this page with my tasks like cleaning, chores, and studying- I do have cards for other fun activities and eating but I only ues them on the first page in between tasks from this page)

'done' (when I finish a task on the 'first next then after' page I move it here- it gives me dopamine to see everything I finished that day and makes me less stressed about the amount of things I need to do)

hygiene page- this page is actually so so good its like a cheat code- If you take nothing else from this post at least take this idea: the top (orange) section is for the morning, the bottom (blue) section is for the evening. in the morning all the cards will be in the morning section, when I finish a task I get to move it to the evening section (repeat this for all 6 tasks). in the evening I do the tasks again but the cards get moved to the morning section this time. (if there's a day where I didn't finish then I just move them anyways the next morning as a "reset") this page is in my book but it's probably more helpful just to leave it in the bathroom on the counter or mirror or something (without systems like this I cannot take care of my basic needs, even with these supports and the additional supports in my home i cannot reliably take care of my basic needs)

images 6-9 show some of the word storage pages, I have a total of 10 of these pages

if you're curious at all how i made it let me know and i will post the steps i did to make it and where I got all the pictures!! (I want everyone to be able to access systems like these if they need them, so I am very open to sharing this)

something i really really like about this flip book is that its very tactile and very visual- it does not require very much brain power to use- I really like to just move around the pieces on the pages with the velcro as a stim

i was promted to do this because recently a teacher told me I just need to manage my schedule better and that I should be trying harder (little does she know I'm trying my hardest already)

ive tried so many types of schedules and routines and I just cant stick to them (this is one reason I suspect adhd in addition to my autism but idrk and it probably doesnt matter), but then after she said that I was like okay I guess this is a good excuse to try a visual schedule so I made one (very time consuming but also fun) and then am still disapproved of for some reason... I think she thinks its "too childish/I'm not disabled enough" which I disagree because if it helps and they need it then they should use it regardless of sterotypes- i think this is true for all adaptive tech and disability aids

my point in showing this is to let other autistc adults know that you can use visual schedules if they help you and to boost someone else's confidence for them to use an aid they are afraid to because its stigmatized (also yes mine looks kind of simple/etc but I chose to do it this way because it works good for my brain like this- not because its how all visual schedules should/need to look)

[wyn-n-tonic]

also more representation thoughts... as a disabled girly who is just now getting used to feeling okay with considering herself disabled (it's not that i had any self hatred, i just didn't really know or understand that i fell under that purview before last year), i cannot stress enough how special it is to be reading a book or taking in any kind of media and the main character is just like you in some way and it's not presented in the stereotypical, 'oh this poor creature' kind of way. like, i listen to a lot of audiobooks and it actually helps me focus because i have to make sure my concentration is working and the character of one book was hard of hearing. and his hearing loss happened when he was a teenager so he from a world that he understood and which understood him to a world where he was just suddenly othered and had to reckon with that because people are not nice about it.

and i read a book where the main character was autistic and she wasn't stereotypical, 'the good doctor' autistc. she was just autistic and she was just like me. and she was also involved in sports and she also had a Husky dog. AND THAT WAS SO COOL! and honestly that was the first time i felt like i saw myself as a character. because forever i've just been using the argument of like... okay well i can empathize at least. even with characters that did look like me because subconsciously (before i knew i was neurodivergent) i knew that they weren't like me.

[choshasan]

enjoy this meme I made on instagram!

No I can't spell!

Yes I know I wrote Hyperfixarion!

No I'm not fixing it!