#a tiny vent

[spookydreamscape]

Does your gender dysphoria ever get so bad you wish you didn't have the body of a human at all anymore

[k1s5m3]

saw someone say their stomach isnt growling cuz its hungry its purring cuz theres a cat and we cant suffocate the cat with food the cat's purring thanking you for not suffocating it--- im living by that and have been for the past week

[hellokittyscals]

low cal recipes ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

୨⎯ enjoy ⎯୧

[xxxmiaxxx]

Tips for feeling fuller faster while eating ♥️

Drink 0cal things like water and diet soda before and during your meal (I highly suggest soda cause it makes you feel the most full).

Take smaller bites, they don't have to be like extremely tiny but like the size of your thumb nail.

Chew your food until it's an apple sauce like constantly or chew at least 10-15 times.

Use smaller utensils, plates, bowls and cups to make it seem like your eating more then you are .

PORTION CONTROL!

try and not be distracted or eat mindlessly, you can watch shows and stuff just be in the moment while you eat.

[toastedcrumbs]

⭐Ethereal th!spO !!

[fossilizedremorseful]

I knew he wasn’t gonna cashapp me back and it really shouldn’t be that big of a deal but I work less hours, get paid less, and have more expenses :/

[agender-witchery]

I feel like every post that focuses on and celebrates the sexuality of transfems hyperfixates on gock and like. I get it, the majority of transfems are either pre-op or non-op, and yeah those people are so frequently excluded from even being allowed to celebrate sexuality and need representation because, hey, especially for the pre-op folks, that reassurance that you're desirable is needed. I should know, I used to be pre-op and I fucking hated it. I didn't get that reassurance when I needed it most, and I'm damned happy that people who do need it can get it now.

But now I'm post-op and like, what? I just get to feel even more excluded from that sort of celebration? It's mostly just all encompassing, like it is nearly the totality of what constitutes celebrating trans bodies, with a teeny tiny exception carved out for transmasc bodies which I am absolutely not qualified to have an opinion on, not even gonna try, and damn near nothing for post-op transfems.

The thing that gets me the most is porn. Sure, it contributes to the feeling of unwelcomeness that nearly every post that gets slapped across my dash is about The Gock, but I don't seek that out. I'm not out here looking for text posts about how cool gock is, I haven't had one for 7 years. But I seek out porn. And any time I see porn that depicts transfems, even when that porn isn't fetishizing transness, the thing that defines a transfem is her dick. Aside from literally one instance, I never see a girl with a scar on her abdomen, I never see a cross section of a pussy with no womb, I never see someone with two holes and an estrogen patch. It just isn't there.

And on one hand, it feels like I don't deserve to complain, that I'm lucky to have even gotten to have surgery, but on the other hand, fuck you! I get to complain about shit like this, I get to complain that the overall atmosphere of transfem sexuality necessarily including gock, I get to complain that this shit makes me feel like surgery was a mistake even though if I take a couple hours off social media and think hard about it, I don't have any real regrets, I get to complain that when transfem bodies are celebrated, that almost never seems to include my transfem body. I get to complain that trans representation doesn't represent me.

So fuck it. Neopussy Tuesday.

[living-pain-but-not-enough]

eating breakfast feels gross i dunno why people do it

[bigfatbreak]

"yea I was up late last night"

[mxndlessgxrden]

☀️Th!nsp0☀️

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

☀️from: Pinterest. See yourself? Lmk & I’ll take the pic down!☀️

[k1s5m3]

i swear we all need to get a netflix account that we can watch to the bone and insatiable on together

a community of mentally ill peoples

instead of bingeing 🥗🍕🍟🍚🍝🍩🍓we can binge📺💻📱

[littlebodybigheartblogger]

why do i feel like there’s no one on here anymore……..

i feel like everyone’s on twitter now but everytime i try on there i get no interactions 💔

[prettyinpinkkk]

dude I don't think anyone here knows how fucking DESPERATE I am to lose we1ght, I skip two meals and am forced to eat dinner, I will literally DO ANYTHING, if I have to steal pills from stores I WILL, If I have to start drinking energy drinks I fucking will, if I have to shoplift shit from stores I will, I will do WHATEVER it takes, even if its just a singular p0und I will be happy, I want MY stomach to get smaller, I want to see a difference in my face, I want to look as sick as possible, I want people to be concerned, I want people to be shocked and scared when they see how sk1nny and s1ck I have gotten, I'm literally losing sleep over this,

is that too much to ask for? why did God have to torture me and make my life miserable with this fat, tub of lard you call a "b0dy"

[sophia-131989]

My ed is so confusing because some days all I want is to get better and have a normal relationship with food, but then other days I hate my body so much and I feel like I don't deserve to eat and I have to starve myself to feel beautiful. I just want to get better but it's so hard.

[hazelnutnebula]

hazardous material ☣️🫀🐭

[relentlessly-tired]

I hate the person I am now.

I have like no personality. My only hobbies/passions/obsessions are just ALL ed related (cooking, baking, counting cals, making meal plans, nutrition books/videos) and fitness (gym, cardio, walking).

And it's not like I can even talk ab any of this to ppl irl bc I don't want ppl to get suspicious of me. So I'm afraid I just come off as... Bland. I am such a shell of a person.

Like. Who would I be if I didn't have food/weight on my mind 24/7???? What could I use that energy for?? I think about the person I used to be. I used to read loads and watch movies/shows and be in fandoms and do sports and now I am just like waiting for the day I get skinny to live again.

I hate who I've become. Moreso, I hate who I haven't become. I'm not me. And I don't even have anything to show for it. I'm not skinny yet.

Anyways, that's why I've been so inactive recently. I am so exhausted of living like this stuck in such a loop. But I don't know how to get out.