#a lot of things is the answer lmfao

[gingermintpepper]

I would love to hear you talk about Kassandra???

So, what can I say about Kassandra.

Well, firstly, I've been thinking about how I want to answer this question since I got it however many months ago and I figured I wanted to speak about my own interpretation of things rather than formal stuff - half because I don't want to cite anything since going through Iliad based papers brings me little joy and half because I figure I could treat it a bit more casually this way. So here's like, a very brief selection of thoughts I have about Kassandra, Saintess of Troy.

I view her tale as a microcosm of the wider tale of the Fall of Troy from Apollo's perspective. A human is given a choice and, of their own free-will, they make the most destructive decision ignorant of the way they're sealing their own fate and no matter how much their patron will want to save and help them, they will be unable to so much as lift a meaningful finger because the choice made is one that is sealed in Fate and powers far beyond any one god. The themes of doomed love are also shared; Kassandra loved Apollo just as Apollo loved her but she couldn't be what he wanted of her. She couldn't accept what it was he was offering, no matter how much power, honour and love he tried to tempt her with and in a lot of ways, I think of her devastating visions of doom and death(tm) as a physical parallel to the feelings Helen must be tormented with knowing that she will be cited as the reason of such mass death, destruction and violence. Likewise, I see Apollo's inability to save Kassandra up until the end as representative of his wider inability to save Troy. All his love and blessing were not enough, even though all she had to do was take his hand, it simply wasn't meant to be and so I imagine that must be a fresh hurt for him with each beloved mortal he loses during the campaign.

Kassandra is genuinely so interesting? Both as a character and as a narrative idea; she sits almost in the center of so many fascinating parallels and foils that it gets me so excited whenever she comes up in conversation! I've mentioned it briefly before but she forms a very neat triad with Iphigenia and Troilus which runs parallel to the three dominant male powers in Iliad - Agamemnon, Achilles and Apollo. They're what I somewhat refer to as the sacrifice trio, innocents who must ultimately be abandoned and stripped away for the sake of the desire of their sacrificer, in turn revealing something intrinsic about the nature of the man. For Iphigenia, she reveals that Agamemnon truly values his ambition over all, that his image and status as a leader is more meaningful to him than the love of his family (which, of course, dooms him in the end). Likewise, for Achilles, Troilus' sacrifice reveals that no matter the glamour or glory that crowns Achilles' head, his rage is ultimately his most powerful feeling and it burns bright and hot no matter the circumstance, opponent or arena. For Apollo, Kassandra's sacrifice (which is much more symbolic as he is a god and therefore need not actually physically kill her) reveals his position as the 'loser', one who will be scorned and reviled and lose all the things he loves no matter how closely he cherishes or adorns them. He can't protect the mortals he's blessed, he can't protect his children - he can't even save one woman. She also has that aforementioned triad with Helen and Andromache - the sequestered women; doomed to wait and pray but each, in their own ways working to save and support their own in the conflict. They're all haunted by the promise of what awaits them - Andromache's hopes and future lies with Hector and with her son yet she is the embodiment of a war-wife, solid and stoic in her support when Hector returns but suffering deeply knowing each fight could be his last. Helen, of course, carries with her both the suffering of the greek women and the hatred of their men - if Andromache fears death taking the breath from her beloved fighters then Helen bears the weight of death upon her shoulders, all grief and scorn is bore like a crown upon her head and she must bear it. It is her duty to bear it. Kassandra then becomes the suffering of the young women - they who are surrounding on all sides by throngs of death and do not know why it has come, they whose screams intermix with that of the dead upon them. There is no avatar for Kassandra to experience the war through, no reason for her to be stoic or strong or upright. She tears her hair, hysterical at the suffering that is poured into her mind day in and day out, wild and unrestrained where her elders must hold their grief and tame it. In this way, she gives voice to the voiceless, she screams for those who cannot and is reviled for it - a young woman surrounded by death yet ordered not to speak a word of its stench or horror. There's many more things I can talk about too such as the whole Kassandra as Apollo's living Palladium thing or the Kassandra-Electra-Clytemnestra trio or even Chryseis as a reflection of Kassandra and how the taking of a priest's daughter could be seen as tantamount to trying to steal away Kassandra (and how this eventually wraps back around to the actual incident of Kassandra being stolen away and ending up right back under Agamemnon's care just as Chryseis before her) but like, we would be here all day.

Y'all maybe this is a hot take but scorned woman Kassandra is like, the most boring interpretation of her ever. She has so much life and passion in her, so much joy, so much despair, so much love - making her jaded and cynical towards both her fate and her god is such a slap in the face to me of what her character could and generally does seem to stand for. Kassandra never stopped loving Apollo - likewise, Apollo (at least to me) never abandoned her. All in Troy suffer heavy, cursed fates - Kassandra is one of the few who at least had some awareness of how hers would turn out. I like that she's a fighter. I like that she screams and cries and spits and is expressive and ugly in her torment and grief when so many of the women around her cannot afford to be. I like that she said no and despite how much she suffered for it, she never begged for her yolk to be taken from her because she knew that the choice she made was the right one for her. She's raw, she's vivid, she's human and more than anything, that's what I love so much about her.

[louroth]

Hello hello everybody! It is time for another months progress, and I am so excited to share with you, all the things I have gotten my grimy little gremlin hands on. First off, what we are all here for; writing. I have been on fire, to be honest! Last month I churned through the last of the first batch of erotica stories (there's 6 (!!!) of them on my patreon already) and set them up for publishing along with two more unseen ones- I'm still going over the logistics of where to publish for the best revenue (I know this sounds boring, but I have to make an income somehow, and hopefully find another audience as a smut writer on other platforms 💀 I love writing it so why not!), and I am making headway, learning the ins and outs of self publishing. On patreon, there are also two Q&A's that are written in a bit more fictional manner, in character: a more fun way than just writing answers straight up and down. I have enjoyed those so much! There's a bunch of other stuff I haven't even mentioned- honestly, I have to say, I'm really proud of my output on Patreon even though I have been really anxious about writing full time. It's going great! I have to thank my new friends and support-network on discord; you make this all worth it. I cannot express how fun it is to shoot the shit with you in vc, gaming together, or seeing your shenanigans in gen or your in depth theories (thanks for the brainworms!) or memes or staring longingly at the fanfic channel or drooling over your art (ouro related or not) or... Gah. You are just amazing people, and I will waste no opportunity in saying so. Thank you forever and ever and ever an-

When it comes to OUROBOROS, I am happy to announce that the next chapter is damn near done! I was halted because of the discovery that dashingdon is no longer supported by it's creator, and have been working on the twine version ever since, earlier than I expected- it's tough work, but I am so excited to make this an actual game made entirely by myself, and not submitting to a company that quite frankly leaves a bitter aftertaste. It is taking long to make because I want to make it mobile compatible from the start, which there isn't a lot of resources for. But I'm doing my best! The plan is that I will be posting the next chapter for Patreons in the coming month, and then treat you to a full twine release here on tumblr. I haven't made any rewrites when porting the twine build, but I would like to do that too... so we will see; this plan is not set in stone. I will just have to see how it evolves over the next month. Yes, beta-readers is still on the schedule, just holding off a little while while I wrap my head around this new coding landscape.

Other than that, I have been working on the set aesthetic for ouro, which has been really hard, a lot harder than I expected. You all know I am no wizard when it comes to graphic design, but I want to at least develop a set palette and imagery and portraits that is cohesive to the story. The work is ongoing, and I don't have much to say about it- even though it is taking a lot of my brain power. I'm hoping I can come to some kind of set and in depth conclusion that I am happy with before the twine release, because I want the game to feel like a treat to open up and play; a world to get lost in.

That's it! If you want to see weekly and more in depth dev-logs, you know where to go. I hope you have an amazing day or night, and we will see each other soon. xx

[mohntilyet]

4 and 5 for tyche pls?? 🥺

Lace,

Rebuilding efforts in Dock Town are going well. Killing Elgar'nan seems to have drawn back the Blight, and what is left to clear at least does not include an unpurgeable sickness, thank goodness. 

But Tyche is still here, a month since defeating the Gods. She hasn’t gone back to Rivain yet. Her family wants her to go with them, to bury her brother, and I keep saying that she can come back to help after. But I'm not sure she can pull herself away from where he died. Like she has to stay here and fix things before she can leave.

We started this together in Minrathous. I think she might need us. If Kal-Sharok can spare you, please come. I’ve been trying to talk to Tyche, but just knowing the why doesn’t help me find the right thing to say. I’m afraid I’ve been I'll be too harsh with her. Help us figure this out, won’t you? You always knew how to cheer us up.

With love from Minrathous, Neve

+ 04. a letter from your OC to their love interest !

Lucanis,

I know you offered to follow me, but the Crows need a permanent solution that is not just you ignoring all Talon correspondence. That was not going to last forever, my heart. We got away with stealing a lot of time, but I missed the sea and the Crows finally got their claws into you.

I knew this separation would come, and prepared for it. Of course, I could not prepare for what it actually was. Adventuring is dull without you. Isabela says I’m scaring everyone. The Lords reluctantly suggested I could go into privateering, but Da found out and wrote to me to say he’d rather die than watch me sell out to the Crown, and to ‘at least work for a merchant prince if I had to’. If this does not explain my family’s priorities, I do not know what will.

I often look across Rialto Bay and think of you. I promise, if you take the time to look too, there will come a ship on the horizon that always finds its way back to Treviso. I won't be long.

Wait for me, Tyche

(Feel free to beat me to it. Find a job to do in Rivain— I’d love the excuse to kill a few nobles.)

[aizawashuichi]

reading the scene where Near meets my ocs for the first time and he's just a 30 year old insufferable man. take me out was (is?) a italian dating show (based on the taken out australian counterpart), and the narrator is a shinigami watching over this cuz he's nosy and other stuff

The woman at the counter - finally, i'd say, otherwise it would have meant that she had even more serious vision problems than she already had - noticed them when they were two steps away, put the phone aside and pulled herself up, flashing one of her best smiles. “You must be…” She put on her glasses, which were resting on her head, and looked at the computer screen to her left. “Tommaso Rinaldi?” 'Roger was able to take an appointment, but not to give measurements. He's not really good at planning out a lie. That's a good thing for me, but still…' he thought, finally managing to get the L puppet off his finger. The woman rested, then, her gaze on her electronic wristwatch. “Rather early…” she commented in a low voice, turning back to the two gentlemen. She remained a few seconds too long looking at them, as if expecting something from them, and Near wondered what, until Roger lightly touched his elbow. “Yes,” he said, and the girl nodded. “Veronica. Pleased to meet you.” Even her name seemed familiar to him, and it was strange, because although it was a fairly common Italian name, he had not met anyone called that since he had been there. He had made the acquaintance of no one, actually, except virtually of the president's staff, in which he was sure there was no Veronica. “She'll be the one taking the measurements.” She pointed with her thumb to her left. “Ali! Your clients have arrived!” Near, rather than turning around, as the other two had done, to watch Ali come out of the storeroom, two boxes in hand, stayed to observe Veronica, because the strange feeling of having seen her was beginning to bother him, and not being able to understand why he was feeling that way did not please him at all. 'I am positive that I've seen her, but where? I didn't leave my apartment whatsoever. It must have been when Roger turned on the TV this morni—' “You were on the news,” Near said, as Ali arranged the two boxes on the countertop. “My fame precedes me...” Veronica whispered, casting a glance in the other worker's direction. “Your friend's date is dead,” he continued. “A real Take Me Out,” Ali commented, receiving a look from Near, which completely extinguished the nervous smirk on her lips. “I was joking…” 'It was funny, I must give her that,' he said to himself, showing no sign of amusement on his face. [...] “Heart attack, anyway,” Veronica intervened. “Elena had nothing to do with it.” “Who knows…” It came naturally to him to say, procuring a frown on the girl's face in front of him. [...] “Don't get any funny ideas.” Veronica's tone had suddenly become harsh and hostile, which was understandable since Near had just accused Elena of possibly being behind Daniel's death. [...] “I'll try not to,” he answered her.

[moe-broey]

Down time...

Just some VERY messy quick doodles. But it's soooo important to me.... bite bite kill kill bite chew gnaw chomp kill maim murder

+ some extra expressions I like enough to post (but please look away this is private........... like you don't really See Anything/it's cropped out, just suggestive LMFAO)

Mostly just bc of Moe tbh. I like how silly it is LMFAO

[hermitw]

ok fine one last post about ch.9 so I can move on

the panel w ellipses are enough to convince me that Sukuna was an unwanted, neglected child who probably felt dreadfully, existentially alone and afraid and got sent to that headspace for a second, and the face that follows is the face that develops to cope w that sort of thing.

[3416]

thank you for sharing the positives to being a leafs fan because it gets exhausting watching the entirety of the hockey world stomp over a team that is dealt with the shorter end of the stick. your content makes me still hold onto faith for a team that isn’t loved.

my question is: do you believe that the leafs hate he justified as much especially in comparison to other teams in the league?

the thing about the leafs is that they have one of the biggest and widest reaching fanbases in the sport (if you go to any games on the road, you'll immediately know what i'm talking about... every arenas like half full of em), but it feels sort of like a love them or hate them in the nhl itself bc of the amount of rivalries and history. that's not even taking into account their surface meme-ability in modern day for being unable to get deep into the playoffs. at least we no longer have to hear a deluge of first round jokes tbh.

i honestly don't think anyone holds as much contempt for the leafs as much as a certain section of their own fanbase so i've never viewed it as a leafs vs everyone else thing, though it definitely is that too lol. i ALSO hate a portion of this fanbase more than i hate any other team or its fans tbh bc of the way they talk about their own damn players. might as well cease to call yourself a fan at a certain point imo regardless of the fact that you grew up with the team or whatever. i don't actually think the leafs are like. targeted or everyone hates them the most (all original 6 teams take a fair bit of heat tbh), but their fans online are the reason a lot of like goofy polls and stuff always read as the leafs being the most annoying/biased/delusional group. it's hard to disagree in some ways. i guess i don't put myself in a position to see a lot of leafs hate in general? i don't follow people who hate them or interact with people who hate them beyond finding ppl in this fanbase who have such nasty things to say, lol, so that colors my perception but. for as much hate as you might see, the leafs are definitely one of if not the most loved team too. center of the hockey world, it's true it's true. you gotta take the hate with the love, but i also think a big part of hockey/sport culture is just chirping and insults in general so fkljdsl. being able to parse what's actual hate and just jokes is also important.

[jrueships]

Do u not ship tatum and brown 💔

[gingermintpepper]

Y'know, ever so often I go "man, I should make a post about x or y character from my story!" and then I take exactly 0.7 seconds to remember that I'm not doing historical fiction and that there is Genuine Context That Would Be Missing and then I just never talk about x or y character.

Anyway, Hyacinth has a pretty rad family. I love thinking about Hyacinth and his very rad family.

[cerbreus]

meeting w the transfer admin went well!

[the-way-astray]

did you change your blog colours??????

i swear it wasn't supposed to come out looking like christmas on crack i was just tired of the blue on black and i figured red and green would be different enough from the previous scheme. and then. i realized

[imaginarianisms]

⭐

yes. LJAGLALJG no frfr els bestie im& just playin. im& dividing these up by eras!

conquest era.

valaena velaryon: visenya targaryen, rhaena i targaryen (as a girl), daenerys targaryen (in a dream or a vision, ik we've& discussed this in plotting so heehoo), laena iii velaryon (either through dreams or sorcery of some kind).

daemon i velaryon: visenya targaryen.

alyssa velaryon: rhaena i targaryen, alysanne targaryen, laena iii velaryon (either through dreams or sorcery of some kind), daenerys targaryen (in a dream or vision).

larissa velaryon: rhaena i targaryen.

daemon ii velaryon: rhaena i targaryen, alysanne targaryen.

dance of the dragons era.

laena & laenor velaryon: rhaenyra targaryen, alicent hightower, mysaria of lys, laena and/or laenor, baela targaryen, rhaena ii targaryen, helaena targaryen, alysanne targaryen, aemma arryn-targaryen, sara snow, laena iii velaryon (either through dreams or sorcery of some kind).

corlys ii velaryon: rhaenyra targaryen, alysanne targaryen, laena and/or laenor, helaena targaryen (canon and/or survival au), baela targaryen, rhaena ii targaryen, aemma arryn-targaryen, mysaria of lys, nettles, sara snow, aelyx targaryen.

vaemond velaryon: rhaenyra targaryen, laena and/or laenor, helaena targaryen, alicent hightower, naerenna celtigar (if i add her lmao), daemion velaryon-celtigar (if i end up adding him lmfao), aemond targaryen, daena targaryen (in an au where he survives, idc he deserves to meet his great granddaughter).

vaenna velaryon: helaena targaryen, aemond targaryen, alicent hightower, rhaenyra targaryen, alys rivers, aelyx targaryen, daena targaryen (in an au where she survives), nettles, sara snow.

daeron velaryon: helaena targaryen, aemond targaryen, alicent hightower, daena targaryen (in an au where he survives idc he deserves to meet his granddaughter), naerenna celtigar (if i add her lmao), daemion velaryon-celtigar (if i end up adding him lmfao), nettles (greens au), sara snow.

laenys velaryon: alicent hightower, helaena targaryen, aemond targaryen, laena and/or laenor, naerenna celtigar (if i add her lmao), daemion velaryon-celtigar (if i end up adding him lmfao), nettles (greens au), sara snow.

addam velaryon: aemond targaryen, helaena targaryen, rhaenyra targaryen, baela targaryen, rhaena ii targaryen, sara snow, alys rivers, nettles, daenerys targaryen (in a dream).

alyn velaryon: rhaenyra targaryen, helaena targaryen, baela targaryen, rhaena ii targaryen, alys rivers, nettles, sara snow, daena targaryen.

daenaera velaryon: daena targaryen, helaena targaryen (survival au), baela targaryen, rhaena ii targaryen, alys rivers, aelyx targaryen, naerys targaryen, myriah martell, nettles.

coraena velaryon: daena targaryen, baela targaryen, rhaena ii targaryen, bellegere otherys, naerys targaryen, myriah martell.

asoiaf era.

sadly i dont think i have anybody for lucerys ii or saerys

shaera velaryon: daenerys targaryen, laena iii velaryon, clementine (asoiaf au), bethania blackwood, lyanna stark, jon snow, sansa stark, prusella celtigar, eowyn (asoiaf au) arya stark, rickon stark, myrcella baratheon.

corlys iii velaryon: daenerys targaryen, laena iii velaryon, arianne martell, margaery tyrell, asha greyjoy, prusella celtigar, eowyn (asoiaf au), sansa stark, arya stark, jon snow, rickon stark, bethania blackwood.

monford velaryon: clementine (asoiaf au), laena iii velaryon, melisandre of asshai, patchface.

daella velaryon: daenerys targaryen, laena iii velaryon, clementine (asoiaf au), sansa stark, arya stark, rickon stark, prusella celtigar, eowyn (asoiaf au), misa amane (asoiaf au), bethania blackwood.

laenaera velaryon: lyanna stark, jon snow, sansa stark, arya stark, rickon stark, daenerys targaryen, katniss everdeen (asoiaf au), clementine (asoiaf au), jacob black (asoiaf au), leah clearwater (asoiaf au), meera reed, cerenna celtigar, val the wildling princess, nezumi (asoiaf au).

aurane waters: sansa stark (<3333), daenerys targaryen, laena iii velaryon, catelyn stark-velaryon, mariyam stark-velaryon, jon snow, arya stark, rickon stark.

viserra waters: sansa stark, laena iii velaryon, margaery tyrell, myrcella baratheon, arianne martell, ashara dayne (survival au), obara sand, nymeria sand, alex & emilio benedetto (asoiaf au), daenerys targaryen.

aron velaryon: jon snow, daenerys targaryen, val the wildling, melisandre of asshai, meera reed, patchface, terrence celtigar, rickon stark, clementine (asoiaf au), nezumi (asoiaf au).

jacinda velaryon: melisandre of asshai, jon snow, daenerys targaryen, val the wildling, rickon stark, meera reed, patchface, terrence celtigar, clementine (asoiaf au), nezumi (asoiaf au).

other blogs:

tyrion lannister: daenerys targaryen, sansa stark, jon snow, bethania blackwood, myrcella baratheon, laena iii velaryon.

maegor targaryen: visenya targaryen, rhaena i targaryen, daenerys targaryen (through a dream or vision, it'd be extremely interesting if they interacted).

aerys ii targaryen: bethania blackwood & daenerys targaryen (through a dream or a vision of the house of the undying from her time in qarth).

larra rogare: naerys targaryen.

robert baratheon: lyanna stark, myrcella baratheon & bethania blackwood.

irri: daenerys targaryen, misa amane (asoiaf au), eowyn (asoiaf au), arya stark.

saera targaryen: alysanne targaryen, rhaenyra targaryen, aemond targaryen, helaena targaryen, & daena targaryen.

gaemon palehair: helaena targaryen & aelyx targaryen.

marilda of hull: alys rivers, nettles, & helaena targaryen.

tyanna of the tower: visenya i targaryen & rhaena i targaryen.

willas tyrell: laena iii velaryon (<3333), margaery tyrell, sansa stark.

jocelyn baratheon: rhaena i targaryen, alysanne targaryen & aemma arryn-targaryen.

shaera targaryen: bethania blackwood & daenerys targaryen (through a dream or vision).

MULTIMUSE MEME: Send a " ⭐ " and I will list muses I would be interested in throwing at yours, or potential muse combinations if you are also a multi. || ACCEPTING.

[leartistickarma]

Favorite part about sable and why?

Hello, Anon! Thank you for your ask ^^

My favorite part about Sable would have to be his appearance so far. He has an attitude towards me as his creator, which I get. The reason why I like his appearance so much right now is I just think he looks pretty cool if I do say so myself 😎✨ lolz

Personality wise? Despite being considered dangerous, he's not an actual bad guy. He may look it, but he still has 'humanity' left in him thanks to the cigarettes he smokes(they aren't regular ones. Hope that one drawing helped clear that up considering the chromatic smoke clouds 😂), which keeps him stabilized mentally and emotionally for the most part. Why I like this about him is he's still determined to be a good guy, despite the wrongs he has committed in the past. He knows he did wrong, and he won't forgive himself, at least fully if ever. He's willing to take steps forward, towards doing better for both others of the past he did wrong towards, the present ones, as well as for himself in some way. Although I am still building him up, I like how he's turning out bit by bit. Even if he may not show it directly, he does care, especiallywhen he isn't feeling... Devoid of his emotions? But that's something else. And he's pretty good at being a total ahh most of the time. Though I will add that in general, his personality can and will change, but mainly I guess you could say he gives off Killer Sans vibes for the most part despite what I've said. And I don't say that because of the DT looking stains on his cheekbones. That is something else, not DT like what Killer has.

Mm- I rambled. I think. Dunno if I got off track or not, lmao. But even if I did, free extra info that might help others get to know about him a bit more.

*scurries off* 🐀

[brilliantsnafu]

Just had my first hot pot experience. One of the most stressful dinners of my life lmao.

[blood-choke]

Hello! I just wanted to say that I really appreciate this game and how it portrays butchness. I'm a huge fan of lesbian lit and there are so few butches in media that to see a game have not one, but three, makes me feel a certain kind of way.

Aside from that, I was really drawn to how you portrayed the differing relationships between all the characters. Everything feels so visceral and real, it just feels so crunchy that I find myself wanting for more. I really look forward to seeing how it will turn out for everyone involved.

Additionally, (if this is too spoilery, has been answered, or insensitive pls feel free to ignore) is it ok if I ask how you decide the dialogue and event flow of the choices? I was mildly and pleasantly surprised that flirting with Clear and staying with her in ch 3 would lead to "that" scene, and I'm curious on your writing process on how it lead to that.

Ultimately, I just really want to thank you for sharing your game with us. Im just really glad to be able to experience this game and I hope that you stay safe!

thank you!

overall when it comes to structuring dialogue & choices i tend to write a linear path first & then double back to add more branches.

i had a basic outline of the chapter & knew what i wanted to touch on with each route & what scenes needed to happen, and then i just kinda started writing from there. Clear's was actually the one i wrote first, her sex scene was what i wrote first, and then i went back and built a lot of the route around it.

i wrote Clear's and Hana's routes simultaneously since they were so intertwined, but i ended up rewriting Hana's three times, whereas with Clear i just had to edit it a bit. i knew i wanted them to have that conversation at the table about Clear not having any friends, and then i wrote the scene where mc finds the vampire erotica book. it took some trial and error until i was happy with the dialogue & choices at the table, as well as how i wanted to split the following variations. i tend to do the romantic variations first, and then work my way down, and sometimes i have to go backwards and edit as i write because i'll add something on a whim to one variation and decide that actually i want this to be in all of them.

i am definitely someone that's a bit of a "planster" meaning i do minimal planning and write a lot by the seat of my pants. sometimes it works, other times it puts me in a bit of a bind. like i said i tend to set out with specific information/dialogue/scene/etc in mind that i know has to happen, and build up around it.

with Hana the main focus in her route was that conversation with mc; i wanted mc to get overwhelmed at the store, and for her and Hana to talk about it afterwards, and for Hana to be frustrated at her situation as this person who suddenly has to comfort and take care of mc after being replaced by her. again, minimal planning, i wrote almost her whole route before i started working on Valentina's & i mentioned Standard and his proclivities towards Chinese antiques. this made me realize i needed to rewrite a lot of Hana's dialogue to be more inclusive of her race. i went back to Clear's route, and ended up writing a lot of the conversation with Hana there after she gets back from the store, and then i adapted it to the other routes.

Valentina's route was all about the painting. again, i wrote that initial scene of walking into her room, the description of the painting, and then her first sex scene, and built up from there. there was also the brief meeting with Joan, which was mostly just for fun and to introduce those characters early for anyone that went on V's route, so the next chapter those players will have a little jump on who they are. but the main point was that painting & i think it's pretty obvious with how the whole route plays out, and the fact that the painting is always seen by all players.

this is still a game, so it is gamified quite a bit, with all 3 characters having a potential sex scene in the same chapter at the same time. i planned it that way to make it easy for myself and because that's just how i wanted it to go. i put some stat checks in place to add variations, like if you went with Hana or Valentina in ch2, if you flirted with Clear or not, and again, it was a lot of jumping around and trial and error. i wrote a significant part of Valentina's route out of order, and i finished hers last before i finalized the council meeting (which i had written very early on but like Hana's route i had to rewrite a few times)

i like to describe my process as building a tree. i write the core of it all first, one linear path, the trunk, and then i double back and add in all of the possible branches. it doesn't mean anything that i wrote the friendly, romantic variation of Clear's route first, it just allowed me to use that single variation as an anchor and build up around it without straying too far and losing the plot, hahahaha. i still sometimes stray a little too far... but it's fun that way. it was fun trying to figure out a way to make the rival route different, how to change it while still telegraphing the same overall ideas about Clear & her situation. it's also very frustrating, but it's all part of the process....

[kelin-is-writing]

Hi, I know you hate endevour and his fans..but whay if people like him because of his psycholgy, he is an intresting character..

Honestly, I hate Endeavor but I don’t really care if peoples likes him or not; y’all can like whatever characters you want, it’s really none of my business at the end of the day.

What I don’t like and find embarrassing, it’s rude fans that come into my inbox disguised as Anonymous only to attack me because I hold him accountable for things he has in fact done and for supporting his victims, while not caring about what happens to him.

I mean— Why do you care if 1 out of billion other fans doesn’t like Endeavor (for fair reasons)? It’s just like when bullies in middle school hate on someone for their looks. Like, the other person is allegedly “ugly” and you get mad on a personal level because of it? Very questionable behavior.

If you find him an interesting character, that’s totally fine. I don’t really have any say in it, because patronizing a total stranger is a weird and narcissistic behavior that I won’t engage in.

I just personally don’t like Endeavor nor I think he’s an interesting character, since I don’t really like nor him nor peoples who are like him irl, this because of personal reasons that I won’t disclose on here. It’s really just this 👐🏼