#a lot of rambling about the fandom in this one

[dkniade]

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Fan art of @kianamaiart’s characters from I Don’t Want To Be A Magical Girl! (with glasses, ft misc glasses characters & two IDWTBAMG universe fan characters)

I’ve been following this project from the start so it’s been great seeing interactions between the characters and how the fandom is so excited for it. ^^

I tried to draw the cast from memory and, while Miss seems a little different from canon, at least I got the dark hair roots and strands sticking out lol. But details aside they’re all recognizable! Which means they’re lovely designs that are unique from one another✨

Eclipse’s shades are a combination of his usual eye mask and the shades from this artwork, and Hoshi’s glasses are inspired by this one!🌒⭐️

Designs… (I don’t have a name for her yet but) the pigtails girl’s shapes are a combination of curves pointing downwards and curves pointing upwards. The idea ended up being that she’s on Eclipse and Lady DeVoid’s side so (after reading this post by Kiana about how most of the characters had Aika’s design as the springboard and are designed to complement eachother) I wanted her design to complement those two’s, with some influence from Zira. I like that the strands of hair on her forehead and the shape around them mirror both Zira’s hair and DeVoid’s horns haha. Plus, I was trying to figure out how to design her glasses and they ended up being kind of the inverse of Eclipse’s eye mask, which is very nice. Eclipse and DeVoid seem to be associated with sharp curves and circle shapes; maybe her outfit could be a lot fancier…

As for what her role might be in the story… I dunno, if she works with Eclipse and DeVoid, and Eclipse is all ~theatric and grand~ then maybe she could be like… his assistant… or something? Who knows. Or, I say “observer from afar” so perhaps she actually gets along with Zira well and they’d watch on the sidelines while Aika and Eclipse duke it out…?

Eclipse… Moon… Umbra… man what if I just name the pigtails girl Yueshi (月食, lunar eclipse)(for both the moon motif that Zira and Eclipse have, and the darkness motif that Eclipse and DeVoid have haha)

Shooting star and telescope don’t feel quite right, but with the circular shapes and the lunar eclipse, I could kind of see her having some star trail motifs with her sweater…

I guess Umbra would be the same type of elf (? darkness/concept personified?) as Lady DeVoid but I’m not sure haha. We don’t have much information on DeVoid other than the fact that she is darkness itself and that she lost most of her powers which she can’t remember how to use. Banished by a Star Guardian, revenge, recruiting Eclipse to help spread the darkness particles to destroy the Star Guardian… If she has a similar backstory to MLP:FIM’s Princess Luna then does that mean she was originally Aika’s teammate or something? haha

About Umbra’s hair… (Feel free to correct me for any inaccuracies.) I think from the reference photos I was trying to draw box braids but got so focused on also making the braids look like moon phases that I’m not sure if it’d still be box braids in the end? They seem more like cornrows now, at least for the side ones?

Here are some earlier versions of the OCs! and more rambling about designs

Well, initially I scribbled down Yueshi so I could experiment with values because I was thinking about how light-coloured pants draw the eye too much if the outfit or the top half of the character is darker. (Half way through she ended up looking like a IDWTBAMG character so I tried to match the proportions with Aika’s turnaround.) But I suppose if there’s enough contrast for the upper half (and IDWTBAMG’s stark black design style gives a lot of contrast) then it works out better. I think the combination of making Yueshi’s hair and the top half of her sweater black and the circle shape white worked out okay. Initially she had large round eyes so I tried giving her round glasses too but since she ended up being a fan character in the universe, it was too similar to Aika and Zira.

Umbra’s design kind of popped into my mind today so I tried to scribble it down and experimented with hairstyles. But green and purple are already associated with Zira, and that shade of lavender is more like Eclipse so I guess I’ll fiddle around with her colour scheme more. Maybe there’s not enough of the signature black there, and both could use some more details to match the level of details in the canon designs… (If Yueshi works under DeVoid then she’d probably get a fancy outfit too.) Then again, Umbra is more like Miss in terms of detail so it seems she’d be a background/supporting character or something…🤔

(I can’t seem to escape the puffy sleeves/cone shape silhouette🤔 Gotta diversify. Also, not sure if it’s ‘cause of the project’s style or if I just really love circles in character design haha)

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TOH rewatch semi-liveblog. Season 2a

episodes 6-10 and season 2a thoughts

Episode 6

- This was one of the s2a episodes that i really liked on the first watch, but my memory became soured because of Hunter's fandom. So i was apprehensive watching it again. Spoiler: it's still good, but it's good because of Luz and decent episode structure.

- Lol, i've remembered the Coven Heads' scene as the last scene of the episode.

- Hmm, yes, we do see Darius entering first and then being placed in the center of the Coven Head group, like the viewer's attention is meant to be drawn to him🤔 Sure, they couldn't bring Raine in the spotlight in this episode, but why not Terra?

- No offense to Kikimora and her fans - and i do think there are some interesting aspects of her character and why Belos chose her as his attendant - but also her role could've been divided between the Coven Heads.

- But the Coven Heads really don't feel like this Inner Court the way the fandom portrays them. Even the Healing Coven Head is not attending to Belos's illness, none of the Coven Heads are shown to be present at the Basilisk experiments, Belos barely talks to them, and instead Kikimora does almost all the talking, Belos is not the one inagurating the new coven head.

- I like how the union of the demon and human realm and what it means to the Coven Heads and others is just never properly explained.

- THE most underrated scene of the show is the Coven Heads just standing there blissfully gazing into the magic cauldron while the Emperor is being taken out of the room, sick (possibly faking it), by Kikimora and Hunter. Is Belos pretending? Does he need an excuse to go punch a wall because he had to see too many witches without masks? Are the Coven Heads unaware what just happened or it's a situation where 7-8 out of 9 won't be too sad if he had to die, and at least 3/9 of them are ready for an opportunity to take the throne? Is it insulting for Hettie that she isn't trusted to take care of the Emperor, or is she feeling like that 'out here living my best life' meme?

- Again, is Darius in the frame more often or are my eyes just drawn to him👀

- But, yeah, Belos is really intriguing on the first watch, and a good villain. No, he didn't need to be more sympathetic.

- Meanwhile at Hexside - i like how the Bat Queen seems more open and friendly towards the students. And, really, Luz helped the Bat Queen, Bump and Eda all become more open and better mentors/teachers/etc not just to the closest people to them but also in general, and i think it's a shame that fandom ignores this part to focus solely on family dynamics.

- Palisman staffs: in the first season it seemed like the palisman and the staff were more like separate entities, and the witch had to put them together, and the staff without the palisman would 'exist' in the material world, but here the adopted palismen can just transform into the staff form on their own once bonded, and the staff is a part of them (good for Mallow AU) Although the palismen don't seem to be able to fly in the staff form on their own (but Mallow is special~)

- If only we got more about Gus and Perry! Ok, Perry wants Gus to become a master illusionist, but why? Does he himself like the illusion track or is it his way of encouraging Gus to excel in something Gus loves, even if it is not popular?

- Sad we didn't see Scara's wish.

- Luz is so imaginative! Just from the way she starts to ramble to the palismen and goes in different directions... sorry, but she wouldn't write the cookie cutter trope-y fics. Her idea of 'just one bed' would be like that one nosleep story where the bed traveled dimensions, only there would also be betrayal and 1000 plot twists.

- Palismen are getting kidnapped and they are shaking and crying... little guys, you can fly!

(i know, i know, they can't transform into the staff form on their own)

- Again, Luz is reckless, but she is so smart! Like making Hunter say that he travels quickly thanks to his staff and then getting rid of it. I wish this trickster-y aspect of her was explored more as well.

- Luz is great in this episode and we see many sides of her character, and that's what makes it good. Hunter's story is fine, but not that special🔥🔥🔥🔥

- it's so weird that adult fans either seriously feared that there would be a love triangle with Amity and Hunter or concluded that Luz and Hunter were written intentionally as 'basically like love interests' / 'romance coded' over one single scene of Luz waking him up when that was a visiual gag of subverting how a scene like that could have went in a different media and is concluded with a slapstick. If there were multiple scenes like that, it would've been one thing... but for fans of a primarly comedic show the audience really struggles with recognizing jokes aimed at middle schoolers.

- Hunter is pretty fit, doing parkour without his staff, i think fandom really exaggerates how frail he was. And from what i know, it makes sense for the historical/puritan mindset of 'healthy=good' for Belos to want him to be that way. Don't get me wrong, i think it's great when fanon actually explores Hunter's health from the angle of disability/chronic illness, but at the same time the fandom often tends to lean onto a very specific whumpified portrayal of abuse victims that edges onto uncomfortable 'this what a real abuse victim must be like' territory.

- Oh, and again, Luz is very smart with making the sleeping spell with the glyphs, and Hunter is not the only nerd in the scene.

- "...Garden Club was robbed..." - "By us!" LoL

- Ok, yes, this is still a very good episode. It is good structuraly and has good characterization. Bump's personality shift actually didn't stand out that much this time - i think, because it works well if you look at it from the perspective that he, the Bat Queen and Eda were all changed as mentors/teachers/authority figures once they've met Luz.

Shame that Willow and Gus are barely there and Amity's absence is explained in a weirdly throw away line (i think it would've been better if there was a moment in this episode showing Luz' crush on her, because the crush disappears until Hooty's episode when suddenly it is super important again, and that was weird) but in this episode at least there was a little bit of info about Willow's and Gus' wishes, and so it didn't feel as dismissive as other season 2a episodes.

But it is such a good episode for Luz, showing multiple facets of her personality, and i wish there were more episodes like this for her.

Episode 7

- This episode and the next one are probably the best Eda episodes, but i feel like Luz and King's b-plot could've been utilized better. And season 3 and the behavior of certain raeda shippers really soured me on Raine as a character, even though they used to be my second favourite, but then on the first watch i started to really enjoy their character in s2b, so there is still hope.

- Again team RED placed together on a banner.

- And Darius is conducting Raine's ceremony. I guess Belos can't be bothered, but if there was meant to be confrontation/real narrative connection between Raine and Belos to make the whole possession plot meaningful, here was the perfect opportunity to have them interact.

- Eda tries to save the wild witch in this episode. I wonder whether Eda helping other wild witches was something that was never brought up before or, in contrast with the first episode of the show, meeting Luz really made her less 'individualistic' (as Luz has put it in s1). Anyway, that was nice.

- Seems like Raine only started their operationd with the BATTs recently, since they are giving Raine instructions on how to make their speech and it seems like this is a new thing. Katya: "We actually helped people this time!" - yeah, feels like Raine's rebellion wasn't that successful.

- Gus helping Perry is cute. Perry at the work meeting: "You ask whether i'd rather cover the inaguration of an important coven head or a school competition? Obviously the school competition is more important!"

- i've forgotten about Eber's super vision spell, lol.

- Luz being treated as Eda's kid was always... ... to me.

- The way the fandom just happily admits that they immediately headcanoned Darius as particulary sadistic or cruel to children or cowardly... when he just throws the BATTs into an (unlocked) cell, literally doesn't care about Raine almost killing him and then hurting him by slicing his arm, and then only mentions 'tormenting' Raine, not even 'torturing' - even as a villain there was nothing worse than punch-clock villany in this episode, and yet certain fans just proudly admit that they were rushing to write him hurting Hunter. Because fandoms looove to automatically assume that the villains of color must hurt white children instead of writing them as interesting adversaries with standarts. And the cowardly part?Just plainly not true in the episode considering his reactions to the corrupted spell or his arm getting hurt.

- But, yeah, if Darius was meant to be a villain, his reactions to being hit by the corrupted spell and Raine hurting his arm really would have been so off? A vain villain who values his cloak over the involment in a rebellion? Sure. But not reacting over the threat to his life/physical pain? (but also it makes me feel a certain way over the fact that we didn't see more of his interactions with Raine even if in a background in the epilogue, because it feels like he really forgave a lot and indulged them a lot, and that was not even an intentional writing choice, but it leaves them in a weird place)

- Darius clutching his cloak x1 (i have a theory)

- My other theory has always been that Eber was upping the volume of the recording to cover the sound of Darius explaining things to Raine (and to annoy Darius too)

- the sigil spell - that's definitely something that would've affected what the rebel Coven Heads could attempt to do when going against Belos.

- Anyway, great episode for Eda's development, but otherwise pretty meh. Especially the way certain things about Raine and Darius just don't work for me - on the first watch it's frustration with the tropes that are utilized. On the second watch it's like 'ok, you set this up to be subverted later, but it still makes this episode feel weird'

Episode 8

- 'Fairies' are bug demons, fully sapient, and yet the witches eat them?

- I like King's voice acting and how his character is maturing. His plotline is ok too.

- Wish there were more episodes focused on Eda's struggle with the loss of her magic and her trying to figure out Belos's plans/how to fight him (it felt on the first watch like Eda's urgency to stop DoU plan just faded away after this episode), but this is one of her best episodes.

- The Owl Beast becoming a curse was so confusing on the first watch, lol.

- Luz's part is ok. But the way crush on Amity wasn't mentioned in 2 previous episodes and then here it's all she can think about is kinda funny. Probably not out of character for a teenager, but i wish the writing connected the episodes together in a smoother way.

- I don't feel bad for Amity being pelleted in this episode after she beat up Hooty in s1.

- The ending was way too silly. And i refuse the notion that Luz is taller than Amity.

Episode 9

- Again, hate the way Willow and Gus are utilized here, their c-plot with the music would've been fun as a c-plot in any other episode, but again they are just taken out of picture instead of interacting with Luz meaningfully.

- Yes, it would've changed ASIAS, but this could've been an episode where Amity and Willow or Amity and Gus go to the Eclipse Lake together, sneaking away while Eda stays with Luz and maybe gets to act as a mentor to whoever stays behind. You could even plot it in such a way that Willow/Gus don't get to meet Hunter, instead dealing with the scouts/separated from Amity and King. Or at least the episode could have had a better bonding experience between Amity and King.

- And i really don't like Eda's part here. Her trying to reach out to Hunter was cool, but otherwise she is just comically irresponsible and incompetent for the most part; and the whole deal with her being unable to turn into the harpy mode and then negotiating with the Owl Beast seemed unecessary and just rehearsing what the previous episode did, when the time could've been spend on other things. And the whole 'it's a wild animal!' towards the Owl Beast even seemed like going back from what the previous episode established.

- But the fandom reactions to Eda's interactions with Hunter are so fascinating (in a bad way) and just highlight the fandom fucked up hierarchy: on the one hand as a white character she is automatically assumed to be nicer than Darius towards Hunter and automatically seen as a 'mom' for him, but as a woman she is still considered too mean and failing poor Hunter even though she doesn't know his backstory and there is nothing she can realistically do in this episode, and she acts in the same 'mean' teasing way towards other kids as well.

- I found Amity vs Hunter fight boring until the end. I know fandom has knee-jerk reaction towards calling s2 Amity bland, but to me she feels like that, and it has nothing to do with her not being 'mean' anymore, but the consequences of her lacking strongly written dynamics with Willow or Gus or King or Eda.

- Even with Hunter here, if there was a continuation/development for Amity - being upset over this encounter and how trying being nice didn't work for her the way it works for Luz, it would've been more interesting.

- But still weird how the fandom focused on whether Amity would be mean to Hunter or not after this episode, while ignoring how Hunter's behavior here had hurt her.

Episode 10

- One of the best episodes in the series, imo. Probably my second favourite episode. The first time around i was too worried how Camila would be treated by the narrative to fully appreciate it, and it really just grew on me afterwards.

- I like how King got more confident: 'don't forget to mention me!' rather than clinging to Luz and crying how he wouldn't let her go like in the 1st episode.

- The way the fandom continued to demonize Camila even after this episode is wild. The first thing she does is freeing a cute animal - which doesn't mean someone is automatically a good person, of course, but in the context of the episode it's clearly a shortcut to show what kind of person she is😭But taking care of Vee and saving animals and trying to support Luz wasn't enough, she had to prove herself by being a 'fellow pop-culture nerd' and taking care of a white boy to be accepted by the fandom.

- And i like how Vee immediately is allowed to show complicated emotions and thoughts, and the way Luz and Vee were not explored at all in s3 is such a shame. If there was just a brief scene... But even with just this episode we have enough information to see Vee as a person.

- Anyway a great episode, a great introduction to Vee and exploration of Camila. Writing-wise probably one of the 2-3 episodes i liked start-to-finish.

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Conclusion:

i kinda regret not watching episodes 6-10 immediately after 1-5 (but i didn't have time to watch anything) because i can't tell how they all work together, but right now i don't have strong opinion on episodes 6-10 as a whole, because episodes 6 and 10 are great, the rest are somewhat-good or meh.

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Season 2a thoughts:

But overall season 2a writing is so uneven (even before the shortening) and Gus and Willow are treated so poorly, it is my least favourite part of the show. And while the first season wasn't as 'serious' and had a lot of the same problems, it still was better structurally. And yes, there are many parts of season 2a that are important, and i don't know how you would remove them, but it just shows that the series can't handle all the characters and pace their arcs around each other.

Best episode: 10 or 6

Worst episode: 2

[aestheticallynotdeerlightful]

Style swap- Invader Zim and Psychonauts

Cause I thought it would be fun and practice

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(Please do not use or repost my works anywhere without explicit permission from me first thank you <3)

[theoryofwhatnow]

i suppose it’s no different from the fans who watched the film strictly because of tom sturridge and extend no further interest towards it beyond that. there’s a clear difference and divide between people who appreciate a movie for an actor versus the film itself, but such is true for practically any film-fandom.

regardless, everyone is welcome as long as they remain respectful.

does anyone else feel the disconnect in like minds fans between those who joined through eddie redmayne in day of the jackal and those who found the film through other means like i don’t know what it is but i can feel the difference in my bones

[lil-lemon-snails]

"I can't ignore what's under dancefloor boards, The rhythm of my heart a dead-as-disco beat, But I still move my feet, to slip out of this groove, I'm free" ~ 2econd 2ight 2eer, Will Wood, The Normal Album

I have been plagued with visions of LDR Sun every time I listen to this song and I NEEDED to get this out of my system @spadillelicious when do we get to smooch the boy pLEASE

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[wxywardsun]

My favorite thing in red dead redemption and red dead online is how the characters are HUMAN! Not just in the way they are,but in their appearances too! They have wrinkles,they have scars and smile lines and gray hair,the works. Sean is missing a tooth (albeit through a painful situation),one of Molly’s teeth in the front is slightly bigger than the other,Dutch has forehead wrinkles,Maggie in red dead online has a blind eye and a huge burn scar,a lot of the characters have crows feet too! They’re all SO human and I love red dead for that!! It’s a beautiful game with details that are still being found all these years later but the details in the characters by far are my favorite

[malenjoyer]

Good morning 🙏🏼

I want to thank everyone their support with reblogging my stuff over the years and reblogging some of the context of the situation.

Tumblr and Instagram is filled with the most supportive people I’ve ever had the chance of meeting. The last time something like this happened, I didn’t have much support, not even from people I thought were close to me. It took me a year or two to be okay with being perceived again in fandoms. So I’m very grateful for everything.

I just wanted to post that I appreciate all of the asks and I’ve been reading all of them. I actually get anxious I’m spamming everyone too much so I probably won’t reply to everything. Please don’t feel pressured to support me financially, there’s is a free option on patreon to follow. I’ll post future project plans and occasional updates because I still love comics and I still love DC/Marvel. I do enjoy having people following along for my art/reading journey so I would always be okay with people just following for free. My brain is telling me this post is too long now so I will go 🙏🏼😭

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[This has been sitting in my draft for a while lol]

When it comes to Curly's failings, I always see people bring up his obvious failure to protect Anya and him prioritising Jimmy, who was the rapist in that situation. Which is completely valid btw and we should rake him through the coals for that alone even more. But I also see too many people saying that Curly "didn't enable Jimmy" or playing softball for his actions. And I could maybe see where that comes from if that incident was the only thing we had to point to-- but that wasn't all he did, is it? Curly being indifferent or not taking Jimmy's mistreatment and belittlement of Anya seriously was hinted at so much earlier than that.

Namely, the very first time we play from Curly's point of view. Let's just skip the fact that Curly was putting everyone in danger by not taking his psych evals seriously and simply giving the same answers to pass them even tho he was shown literal minutes after this scene being clearly not-sane, and go straight to the point I actually wanna get into. Which is this:

These scenes in isolation wouldn't be that bad. From his pov, it's played off as comical and it is. Jimmy being a brony (not really lmao) and getting playfully dragged over it is funny. But unfortunately this is the first example out of many for Curly's complacency. Anya is complaining about Jimmy not taking his psych evals or her seriously, which is easy to believe considering how much he rags on her for "not being a good nurse" (she kept Curly alive on hopes and dreams how dare you). So he keeps making her do silly and inappropriate reports she clearly doesn't wanna do, which is kinda shitty (also borders on harassment). But rather than actually saying something about Jimmy's behaviour or even acknowledging how it sucks he says this:

Mate, that's not a good thing 💀 He's clearly aware that the problem is Jimmy's lack of respect for Anya specifically. He knows that if he, his friend and a man in power, were the one doing the evals Jimmy wouldn't try that disrespect. But it's Anya, a meek woman who ranks lower than him so he thinks he can get away with it (which he DOES), and Curly's shown as comfortable in knowing that. He doesn't chew Jimmy out for making Anya uncomfortable nor does he reassure her that he will do something about it. All he does is take it off her hands this once and helps Jimmy power through it to get a good diagnosis (even tho we know he's DEFINITELY not sane either). He doesn't even mention Anya's discomfort or confront him on his inappropriate behaviour, just teases Jimmy in good fun instead because he doesn't think of it as anything serious. It's subtle and pretty minor in comparison to everything else, but I think it's worth pointing out. Especially because this convo takes place after Jimmy had assaulted her, which makes this so much worse.

If you need any more evidence of Curly being an enabler you need not look further than Anya herself. And I'm not just talking about the way he failed her here-- I'm talking about Anya's own view of Curly and the way said view influences her actions.

Just look at her choice of wording. "What would you have done". This is in response to him saying that she could've come to him if she were feeling stressed, which she-- in his eyes-- didn't. The question itself implies that she had no faith in Curly to actually help despite his insistence that he would've, which I think is significant because it shows that she's very much aware of Curly's shortcomings when it comes to her situation AND it's one of the first (or the first time) she actually verbalised her lack of trust towards him or anyone directly. Prior to this scene she had told him about her rape and the rapist, presumably because she trusted him to handle it. And he dismissed her because the rapist was his best friend, and that evidently deeply scarred her. Enough so that she secretly took the gun and hid it someplace else and didn't even tell Curly were that was, because she knows that if Curly has access to it there's a so much greater chance Jimmy will have too, insinuated by the line "the least I can do is make sure he never gets it either". Speaking about the gun:

It sucks so bad that this perception of him isn't even inaccurate nor unjustified. That despite everything Jimmy had done to her and everything he could still do to her, he'd very likely still not allow her access to the gun for protection. Because that's exactly what he didn't do anyway. He didn't attempt to keep her safe from Jimmy, instead he just pretended that nothing was wrong and still let Jimmy's belittlement of her pass. He didn't give her the gun after the incident, because she wouldn't have hid the case if he had. Despite his desperate reassurance that he'd do anything, he did nothing but make it worse for her and she KNOWS that. It's so frustrating knowing he entrusted the axe to Swansea when he needed it but not the gun to Anya when she needed it too. Also this:

The fact that his knee-jerk reaction to her admitting that she's pregnant was "Who would you--" is so fucked, especially considering she's already told him what happened. "Who would you" what? Who would you fuck? Who would you have sex with? That choice of wording drives me up a wall-- SHE wouldn't and didn't do anything or anyone. That was JIMMY. The potential sentence implies that she had any choice or agency in her pregnancy. She didn't. And the fact that Curly had to ask "who" insinuates that he's been putting Jimmy's action out of sight and out of mind the whole time, choosing to not think about them or what happened to Anya at all. And considering he still made her do Jimmy's evaluations despite being able to do them himself and literally didn't even think of making sure she gets psych evals done too--especially AFTER getting sexually assaulted--that might actually be the case (I haven't seen anyone make a stink about that piece of info so I'm going to because what kinda colossal fuck up IS that??).

I vaguely had a post like this in mind but seeing so many people be like "well Anya did some wrong stuff too like leaving Curly alone with Jimmy but you don't get mad at HER for that so why is Curly not doing anything about Jimmy being alone with Anya so different??" actually makes me want to blow some people up. Jimmy's an abuser, sure, but Anya has no real reason to believe that he'd actually harm Curly. From her perspective, they were close, close enough that Curly would not only let Jimmy continuously disrespect her but also get away with assaulting her too. That, and she knows that Jimmy was closer to Curly than anyone and more likely to be civil around him than he ever was to her. She has barely any reasons to suspect Jimmy would harm Curly when they're alone. Curly, on the other hand, has every fucking reason on the planet to think Jimmy would harm her when they're alone. He knows he raped her (likely in her room at night too). He knows that he sexually harasses her. He knows that he doesn't respect her at all. And that was BEFORE the crash. Anya tried insisting on giving Curly his medicine, only for Jimmy to keep aggressively insisting that he'll take care of it despite her protests. Curly didn't try to keep them separate at all even though he was the Captain and had the power to do so. And this should go without saying, but leaving your rapist alone with his best friend that he was close to and enabled/protected him and leaving your friend alone with the woman he raped (and might have repeatedly assaulted given his free access to her) is NOT THE SAME and I'm going to start chucking some people down a waterfall because what the fuck is that argument 💀 Actually leave it to the fandom of the game where the rape of a woman is the catalyst for the events that unfold to use her trauma to defend the guy that enabled it in the first place. Bloody hell.

The reason why this whole Curly discourse pisses me off is because it-- from what I can see-- ONLY brings up his failures 1-0 days before the crash and the Dead Pixel scene (or all the discussion around other points are drowned out by those two). Those scenes, while important to talk about, are not the only things he's done, and focussing on those as the only things is a mistake that comes short of understanding the issue. When it comes to Curly the main defences I see for him are "he was trying not to escalate the situation" and "he was trying to keep things under control the best he can" and "he was waiting for the right time to help Anya", but those don't work when you look at the bigger picture of everything he's done.

He half-assed through his psych eval despite clearly not being sane (and KNOWING he's barely sane, he literally admits it to Jimmy's face). He still continued to task her with Jimmy's psych evals. He brushed over Jimmy's sexual harassment of her as a joke. He didn't think about making sure she got psych evals done herself after being raped. He gave Swansea the axe but didn't give Anya the gun despite it being for "unrest amongst the crew" (whatever the hell THAT means). He let her assault slip his mind that she had to remind him. He's literally a blond man. He took no action to hold Jimmy responsible for anything, and prioritised how his violation of Anya would affect him rather than her. He ignored her demands for him to get rid of Jimmy. He still allowed Jimmy free reign of the ship as co-pilot even after he was openly fantasising about killing everyone and had a major motive and the means to do just that. He was potentially thinking of making her miscarry to cover up what happened. He was so accustomed to her sucking up being disrespected and disturbed that he didn't even notice a difference in her behaviour until she hid the fucking gun. There's so much other shit he's done and hasn't done, and not talking about them or glossing over them makes it so easy for people to argue that he isn't actually an enabler or just minimise the severity of his neglect.

And while I'm already dragging Curly through the mud, I might as well just drag Swansea too. I've seen too many people being like "Anya should've told Swansea instead" and "Swansea was the one that actually took responsibility". Like, y'all realise he's not that much better than Curly, right? He already knew about what happened to Anya-- he admits it to Jimmy's face-- but he didn't do shit. He knew, but he still got completely shitfaced for months despite her earlier protestation to that (for very understandable reasons). He knew, but he still let Jimmy have the axe AND be alone with Anya while having it. He knew, but when Anya locked herself in the Medical and Daisuke and Jimmy asked for his help he didn't budge nor really showed any care. He knew, but the reason he finally decided to do something about Jimmy wasn't Anya, it was Daisuke. Her suffering and her eventual death weren't enough for him to take action either.

This game, on top of everything else, is a great depiction of rape culture. It doesn't just include the rapists, but the people (mostly men) that stay silent, do nothing, make excuses for and protect the perpetrator for whatever reason, and Swansea and Curly (Curly way more so than Swansea) are both active contributors to the environment that allowed for evil to flourish and continue unhindered until it destroyed them all. And while that arguably doesn't make them evil themselves or as bad as Jimmy, they are so much more a part of the bigger problem than the fandom likes to admit.

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[celtrist]

I really want to see a more fucked up version of Charlie in canon. Like, okay, I am a die-hard for sweet bubbly girls in media. But I always see how some people make Charlie actually, oh I dunno... demonic? And it's so refreshing for her type of character. I could honestly see her having low empathy (and we kinda see this with how she handled Angel's situation or even Vaggie's nervousness about taking control on an activity). An exploration of that trait (if it was intended) would be interesting to see for a protagonist, especially when her main goal is about helping others. I would love to see her actually have a level of difficulty in understanding others' feelings from the other residents, sinners, and even her father.

But give her a fucked up side. Not a "she gets more power when she's angey uwu", but a "oh, she's a little fucked in the head". It would give so much to her character that she just doesn't have.

@/murmurmurena (don't wanna bother them so slash there we go) has some fun ideas with Charlie. I highly encourage people to check their stuff out! So many fun dark ideas with her character while also still keeping to her canon personality pretty well! Personally, I think Charlie being a bit more naive to her own messed up traits would work best but her also being aware of these traits can make for some interesting character for her.

THIS FIC, "A Game Between You and I". RIGHT HERE WITH THE FIRST CHAPTER. A bit of spoil for the fic here: but I love how they handled Charlie’s absolute ignorance as to why the idea of Russian roulette is horrifying to Angel Dust. It doesn't feel like her being intentionally malicious or aware that she's the odd man out here. This is also a pretty old fic going by only the pilot, but the point still stands that it was such a fun take for her character!

Charlie is one of my favorite characters in the show in part of the POTENTIAL she could have as being the most bubbly sweetheart character while also being the most messed up character in the show. I can't say I have strong confidence with the show's writing and fully expect them to stick with Charlie being the "nice girl but oh no, don't get her angry or she gets scarwy". Which isn't bad for a character mind you, there's just so much more potential to Charlie outside of that trope, especially when you get into the theories of her either being a doll, Roo's biological daughter, or what have you. And for the MAIN CHARACTER of the show, it would be not only interesting but also bring the spotlight back to her.

There's really no question that the side characters steal the show, particularly all the male characters. If I'm honest, Charlie does not feel like she gets a lot of love from the show itself when she's supposed to be the main character. She feels far more flat compared to the rest of the characters (again, the male cast in this "female-lead" show has more depth than most of the female cast currently. I wouldn't be pointing this tidbit concerning the genders of characters if it weren't for the fact Viv defended Helluva's lack of development with their female cast by saying "Hazbin is a female-lead show and Helluva is a male-lead" and Hazbin ended up with it not feeling female lead (to me) and the male cast just completely stealing the show. I don't normally care about gender stuff, especially since I do personally lean interest towards male characters. But using one show as a defense for poor development of the female characters, and then that show not really holding up with no very interesting well-developed feeling female characters irritates me. It's just very clear that these shows don't seem to care much about the female cast :/)

If you like how Charlie is written that's totally fine. PERSONALLY, I just think they're missing so much opportunity with her character by just making her the standard female character type. I honestly don't have a lot of faith they'll actually do something with Charlie's character though. She's a pretty static character in S1 being the same from start to end. Not changing or learning anything to create any development. What does the end of season Charlie do that start of season Charlie wouldn't do? Fight back? Because we see with the pilot (which is the “first episode”) that Charlie does fight people if pushed like with Katie Killjoy and even Valentino. Static characters can work in media depending on the show or their role. But Charlie is the MC of a show about “bettering one's self”. So to have her as a static with not a lot of strong dilemmas for herself (like we see with Angel Husk Al and even Vox) seems silly. Plus, considering Hazbin is telling a whole story and it's not a fun episodic thing, characters are expected to grow on some level. Or else, what was the point of their hero's journey?

[somedayslater]

i didnt read the last chapters since i discovered it was the end (but i was spoiled by tumblr lol)... i didnt want to believe it... i want to still look forward to new chapters of No Home :(

For the last few years eunyung and haejoon have been my companions. I healed a little while following the story of eunyung, feeling like its ok to be angry and wanting revenge on your family and the society that continues to want to keep you in a "house" where you are mistreated. How the world isnt made for children at all, the absolute unfairness of it all. That you can choose to keep going, and if you do so its ok to keep your distance with what hurts you.

I healed too with haejoon, who came to terms with the fact that he will always be overcome with sadness and grief from time to time, and when that happens he can only let himself feel and wait for it to pass, and try to look forward to the next day.

Honestly this manwha was the best ever. I couldnt read this manhwa as a form of escapism because it was too real. It pulled strings in my heart i didnt know i had, made me question a lot of things about myself, about others, about my relationship with others. It made me have painful discussion with a few people. Following this manhwa, most of the time, was really unpleasant lol. I hated then loved eunyoung, I liked and then disliked haejoon (yeah sorry haejoon, i think you can be really cruel and stupid and i wanted to strangle you a few times in the last arcs (i would NOT be friend with that guy lol) -thats why this character is so amazing). But i felt so much while reading it i wouldnt trade it for anything. It was funny, it was dumb, it was deep, it was enraging and healing, but most of all it was sincere. The most sincere depiction of what being a person in a deeply flawed society is, and how there's happiness even while surviving.

It was so frustrating to see the manhwa go in a direction i didnt want it to go ! I wanted it to become my cozy refuge, where every problems are magically solved, where haejoon and eunyung ends up understanding and loving each other in a cliché way, where theres a new home with my *fave charas* and its a series of feel-good interactions. Instead the problems kept pilling up, most of them didnt have a satisfactory conclusion, eunyung and haejoon kept hurting each other and distancing themselves. Haejoon just cut contact with his father without knowing what were his nefarious motives or without this guy facing any consequences, we dont know if eunyung's parents will keep bothering eunyung unchecked, we dont know if they're going to be happy and rich, or if, realistically, as orphans without generational wealth and deep traumas, they're going to end up in a shitty life situation.

And i couldnt thank wanan enough for this. They didnt take the easy way, the feel-good way, the way that would have given them a probably bigger fandom so a bigger source of money. I'm amazed by how they managed to hold this whole story so perfectly. Not a single misstep. Everything they draw was where it should have been, every action from the characters were understandable (and frustrating lol), the fucking subtlety of the developing relationships, no deus ex machina and no miserabilism. I didnt always agree with wanan's ethic or what i perceived of it (i think stealing or being violent is ok depending on the context, i dont think working hard to earn money is a virtue) but i respect how they choose to present it. I didnt talk about the other characters because honestly they didnt move me as much (except marie), but i love them so much too. I felt sad that eunyung and haejoon didnt become best friend 5ever (or even lovers hehe) but honestly, understandable lol. If i was one of them i WOULDNT become close with the other at all, so its kinda amazing they could still find this level of mutual understanding.

In short, wanan is an amazing story teller.

And an amazing image-composist (have no idea how to say this in english). The artstyle doesnt look like much, but this gave wanan a wide graphic range to convey emotions that wouldnt have been possible with a more sophisticated style i think -how will i forget the red swirlings mixing with eunyung skin ? The expressions, the choice of colors, the choice in showing something in particular without giving a clear explanation on why (often haejoon's surprised or contemplative face, which made me re-read chapters a few times to try to understand what was happening in his big head). It didnt feel like wanan thought their readers were stupid, nor did they play the fake-deep style. It was perfectly balanced.

And so even if i didnt read it, i have no doubt the end will be the same. Im so sad they decided to end this manhwa, but i know prolonging it would have been greedy and that ultimately, the manhwa would have suffer for it. Some authors do that : they have a popular series going on, and for whatever reason they keep writing new chapters without a clear goal and so the story becomes diluted, messy, useless. I love when they do this, because i can say goodbye to a story progressively as my interest in it wans, without feeling sadness or loss. But it makes me not think of the story at all in the future, since everything that was good about it became buried in new shitty chapters. Because wanan didnt do that, i know that i would think of no home for a long while, maybe forever,

,like i really lost companions when no home ended actually. Because it really, really hurts, knowing i wont be seeing new faces of the no home characters anymore. I know it sounds probably stupid ; i feel genuine grief here lol. I want to know what will happen to them, if they are alright, if they found a place in the world... if there is something to look forward after all, and i really dread not having answers every monday anymore. and the fandom is so small i cant comfort myself by re-entering the no home world every week or whatever... does anyone else feel this way ToT ? maybe i should participate myself but well,, i wouldnt know where to begin...

And saying that ! I'm almost never on this blog, i dont really have socmed accounts, i dont participate in fandoms at all. But I spent a looot of time reading and watching people who does -without being connected or interacting with posts or fanfics at all. AND i really want to thank you all for giving me so much material to chew, posts that made me think, fics that made me smile, drawings that inspired me, witnessing interactions that made me laugh. I was and i probably will continue to be a ghost on socmed, but i really want you to know that you had an impact on me and i was looking forward to your new posts (and will continue to!).

the "every no home chapter is a test of my willingness to Not blow my own brains out" and explosion eunhae monday of @skiptoyuri

the regular nohome posters which makes me happy to check tumblr regularly @shimamitsulover @lesbianpegbar @luckyswamps @tomoyoo @cloudbends @t0a2ter @solcarow @dragon-of-timeless-blue

the awesome artists who keep producing bangers nohome art @gohaejoon @maxsolosur @jjd5426 @bnnuycafe @ct-bunny @lentl-soup @fartaycat @jjd5426 @prokkoli @moxymaxing @ginangtan

the nohome posters that i enjoyed running into @pleuvoire @homolobotomized @podoro-vines @fmet @welpuu @revertrate @obstinaterixatrix @kulluto

the artists that made me interested in checking no home @cienfll @craysmo @ant-eaters @idledee @fruiitlins @froqpi-art @201918b @tinfishmeal @ohrsoh @30mingirlfriend

thanks @ditherslam for the awesome fanfics, obviously i read them all and they're some of my favourites. youre an amazing writer and i cant wait for the next chap of "your atoms"!!

thanks @homeless202 for being an insatiable nohome poster for a while (and @grannykombucha !)

im forgetting a lot of others but i really wanted to thank you all for your time, energy, work. i never interacted with your posts or with you but i really want to convey how cool it is that you all contribute to make no home a more well-known manhwa and the fandom alive

thank youuuu (hope the @ are ok tell me if its bothersome ill delete it)

and really, really, thank you wanan ! waaaa i want to cry

[fantasykiri5]

Acrylic Charm Interest Check!

I’ve been thinking about selling acrylic character charms for a little while now, and I have a lot of ideas on which ones I’d like to do, so I figured I’d ask the people which ones they actually want!

[nerves-nebula]

the state of sa recovery fics in this fandom is DIREEEEEE <- guy who has yet to write an actual sa recovery fic of its own because it gets to irrationally bitter and upset at the thought of even a fictional characters getting the attention and affection that it wants and knows it will never have

[pigeonstab]

Everyone is such a pro at characterization. I feel like I shouldn't even be talking about these characters

[elinordash]

now if only he could get the 90-minute equivalent of justice for his actions huh

[theboredhooman]

probably unpopular opinion but while the animation for season 6 is pretty good i find the redesigns were atrocious 😭 photo for reference and more thoughts under the cut because spoilers

they did so many of them dirty...like Zoe girlie what HAPPENED dear god 😭 okay harley quinn

also alya and Sabrina for some reason I just do not like how they look. like at all. also rose that hairstyle....I get it's to better show her cancer but like.....what did they do to you 😭

do NOT get me started on Adrien hsdjkeuwirjskhfskjhgjak

yk what maybe its the photo. I haven't watched illustrhater yet so maybe it's fine and all the posts I've seen just have poorly taken photos. 🫠

[kindaorangey]

people talk a lot about the lack of passion in louis and armand's relationship (myself included) but i'd also just like to note the fact that armand "sleeps" in the same bed as louis even though he doesn't need rest. the one exception to this is in episode 3 and that's purely because armand wants to talk to daniel alone - he and louis always stay in the same bed, even in episode 4 where they're having a screaming match just beforehand (they're still getting dressed for bed as they're doing this). and i think you can decide for yourself what the exact meaning of this is, but whatever you interpret, it's pretty intimate. still not passionate, and even when they're in bed together they don't really touch, but still. it's a simple, routine act of intimacy. i really like it.