#a lot of rambling about the fandom in this one

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Why I think Ace Trappola is a great example for teenage immaturity!

-> Ramblings from the perspective of an actual teen!

Something I haven't really seen discussed in the twst fandom in terms of it's writing is how well it handles maturity or the lack there of with it's cast, so allow me to start a discussion by throwing my own two cents in with the character I think embodies teenage immaturity the best: Ace Trappola!

The reason why I think he is a good example for this is because a lot of his character traits make him feel like a teenager without reducing his character to just be that, it's part of his characterisation sure but it's not EVERYTHING.

Like in the way he is actually kinda smart, I know we call him and Deuce the one braincell dou but he's got something other than air up there!

The problem lies with how much of a slacker he is, he doesn't apply himself academically if he did he probably wouldn't have had to make a deal with Azul just saying.

He feels like that one kid in class that somehow still passing without doing any work and barely being there.

And Ace also has some streetsmarts on him as well, he can pull tricks, mask his true intentions or really rile someone up but his tact isn't all that refined making it blow up in his face.

Which is great! Those are traits he uses to be an asshole so why reward that?

Speaking of which: ACE IS SUCH AN ASS!

Like sure we are friends now so obviously he is a lot nicer in-game but how much of a jerk he can be is still on full display, like with his brutal honesty that can be straight up insensitive.

To be honest that also feels like a teen thing because if you’re ever looking to get your ego shattered just ask a high schooler for their opinion.

And you are totally valid for disliking Ace for being like this, they are flaws and not exactly meant to be likeable aspects of his character but they are well written flaws!

I just really wanted to ramble about this because I am tired of characters in a school setting either just being romanticised, reduced to stereotypes or worse it’s obvious whoever wrote them is not a teen and is embarrassingly failing to write them or even wants to make fun of them.

It’s sooooo refreshing to see characters that feel and act their age! And I want to give them more appreciation!

Teenagers are still people and deserve to be three dimensional characters as much as any other character!

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NINAAAAAAAAA!!!!

Ninas character is a perfect example of why I love the creepypasta fandom so much, because despite her original story being...not the best (which is understandable for a young author) she still continues to be a fandom favourite thats been developed and built up by peoples shared creativity. I love that. Theres so much potential and interesting things you can do with a character like her and I'll never not love seeing people experimenting and having fun with it

y'know, when there aren't people tryna police the fandom

I got real rambly about her under the cut, read if ur intersted

Something i've been thinking about for her a lot that I (personally) haven't really seen anyone else touch on yet is the idea of her being like a copycat killer.

A Nina who, thanks to having neglectful parents, unrestricted internet access, and a rabid love for true-crime, stumbled across Jeff the Killers story/case and became attached not because of any love for Jeff himself, but because she could relate to him. She saw herself in Jeff and related to his story (bad home life, close younger brother, bullied at school, outcast with an affliction for violence, etc) and as such sees his story as one of freedom through violence.

She admired his violence rather than him as a person. And she wanted that. So she replicated his crime on her own family, even going as far as to replicate his look and facial mutilation, and runs away from home.

I especially like the idea of that because then, after all of that, she meets Clockwork (or at least finds out about her).

A girl similar in age who also grew up with a love for the macabre and a hatred for other people, who Nina has a much easier time projecting on to. She finds a new, much stronger admiration for Clockworks violence than she had for Jeffs and in turn a new killer to copycat.

She'd start collecting watches and clocks, making sure to always have at least one on her, she'd wear her hair down and leave her jacket unzipped, the way she'd kill her victims would noticeably start to diverge from her (aka jeffs) usual pattern. I can imagine her trying to sew her mouth gashes closed again in a gas station bathroom one night to match Clockworks (though probably doesn't attempt to take her eye out)

idk, just food for thought. i find her interesting if you couldn't tell

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My another rambling why I think Buck(and bucktommy) and Maddie's kidnapper are not related

First I'll say: it won't happen bc it's easy to suspect by their promo+ interview, but no

So my two variants:

1 variant : it's two different people. If Buck dates serial killer it's not the one to kidnap Maddie (more likely not smt that will happen)

2 and more likely canon: Buck never interacts with serial killer. That person kidnaps Maddie yes, but it has 0 connection to Buck. Absolutely 0. Bc he would fight his abandonment issue and his tendency to make everything about himself. But if Buck is connected to killer it creates situation where he can have normal explanation to his bad mood and guilt without writers having a chance to say "look Buck as always childish and thinks everything about him"

Buck will date someone but I guess it will end bc he will understand he dates them just bc he is lonely and milks this relationship like he did with Taylor bc he doesn't want to be alone. So he will end. Or he will think it's not casual and person actually uses him as rebound after divorce or smt like that. maybe he will also just use them to forget Tommy, but it won't work and he will be honest with them and end it like Abby never did to him

Also, I'm in fandom for almost 3 years,and let me tell you, making everything about Buck and his any relationship(no matter what you ship) is not cool, but it happens all the time. Killer/kidnapper is madney, more even Maddie's arc, and let leave it that way. Let other characters' arcs exists more for them,not for Buck. Let's not be writers who make Buck feel everything about him without letting him grow and see that a lot of things are not him related

Ofc Buck should feel smt about his sister in danger, but maybe lets not expect it to bring our ship back

Disclaimer i guess: Buck is my favorite character

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TL:DR

And I’m not just talking 3rd act after she leaves the prison it absolutely looks like they are leading up to a continuation of her story and they simply never cut to her again. We see her doing diplomacy (and no one listening to her) twice this season before and then they put her on the council but there is clearly things we are missing between there and it pisses me off so bad, along with a bunch of other things that I don’t entirely blame the team for but I do genuinely feel like they realized they weren’t going to get enough time to tell the story they wanted and instead they focused on romantic relationships bc they thought that would be more popular, which I get with how fandom works, but like the romances are the least compelling and complex part of any of the relationships in the show. Like. By a lot. Like “yay caitvi sex scene” or whatever and “yay timebomb” but like jinx not killing herself bc Ekko who she is like, aware of, and is fine with in this timeline, doesn’t want her to bc he’s in love with her is so boring and kinda weak. And I understand that they did that bc these are the important characters, and for some reason vi doesn’t gaf that jinx who she has been trying the whole show to save is going to kill herself bc “yay the kirramountains” feels like such a departure from what the entirety of season 1, and all of season 2 up until that point is going for????? And don’t even get me started on how the mel stuff needed like three more episodes just about that. Crazy. I blame riot games amen

Anyway this is super rambly WHATEVERRRRRR

Sevika nation how are we feeling now that we know her last line was literally in episode 4

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TOH rewatch semi-liveblog. Season 2a

episodes 6-10 and season 2a thoughts

Episode 6

- This was one of the s2a episodes that i really liked on the first watch, but my memory became soured because of Hunter's fandom. So i was apprehensive watching it again. Spoiler: it's still good, but it's good because of Luz and decent episode structure.

- Lol, i've remembered the Coven Heads' scene as the last scene of the episode.

- Hmm, yes, we do see Darius entering first and then being placed in the center of the Coven Head group, like the viewer's attention is meant to be drawn to him🤔 Sure, they couldn't bring Raine in the spotlight in this episode, but why not Terra?

- No offense to Kikimora and her fans - and i do think there are some interesting aspects of her character and why Belos chose her as his attendant - but also her role could've been divided between the Coven Heads.

- But the Coven Heads really don't feel like this Inner Court the way the fandom portrays them. Even the Healing Coven Head is not attending to Belos's illness, none of the Coven Heads are shown to be present at the Basilisk experiments, Belos barely talks to them, and instead Kikimora does almost all the talking, Belos is not the one inagurating the new coven head.

- I like how the union of the demon and human realm and what it means to the Coven Heads and others is just never properly explained.

- THE most underrated scene of the show is the Coven Heads just standing there blissfully gazing into the magic cauldron while the Emperor is being taken out of the room, sick (possibly faking it), by Kikimora and Hunter. Is Belos pretending? Does he need an excuse to go punch a wall because he had to see too many witches without masks? Are the Coven Heads unaware what just happened or it's a situation where 7-8 out of 9 won't be too sad if he had to die, and at least 3/9 of them are ready for an opportunity to take the throne? Is it insulting for Hettie that she isn't trusted to take care of the Emperor, or is she feeling like that 'out here living my best life' meme?

- Again, is Darius in the frame more often or are my eyes just drawn to him👀

- But, yeah, Belos is really intriguing on the first watch, and a good villain. No, he didn't need to be more sympathetic.

- Meanwhile at Hexside - i like how the Bat Queen seems more open and friendly towards the students. And, really, Luz helped the Bat Queen, Bump and Eda all become more open and better mentors/teachers/etc not just to the closest people to them but also in general, and i think it's a shame that fandom ignores this part to focus solely on family dynamics.

- Palisman staffs: in the first season it seemed like the palisman and the staff were more like separate entities, and the witch had to put them together, and the staff without the palisman would 'exist' in the material world, but here the adopted palismen can just transform into the staff form on their own once bonded, and the staff is a part of them (good for Mallow AU) Although the palismen don't seem to be able to fly in the staff form on their own (but Mallow is special~)

- If only we got more about Gus and Perry! Ok, Perry wants Gus to become a master illusionist, but why? Does he himself like the illusion track or is it his way of encouraging Gus to excel in something Gus loves, even if it is not popular?

- Sad we didn't see Scara's wish.

- Luz is so imaginative! Just from the way she starts to ramble to the palismen and goes in different directions... sorry, but she wouldn't write the cookie cutter trope-y fics. Her idea of 'just one bed' would be like that one nosleep story where the bed traveled dimensions, only there would also be betrayal and 1000 plot twists.

- Palismen are getting kidnapped and they are shaking and crying... little guys, you can fly!

(i know, i know, they can't transform into the staff form on their own)

- Again, Luz is reckless, but she is so smart! Like making Hunter say that he travels quickly thanks to his staff and then getting rid of it. I wish this trickster-y aspect of her was explored more as well.

- Luz is great in this episode and we see many sides of her character, and that's what makes it good. Hunter's story is fine, but not that special🔥🔥🔥🔥

- it's so weird that adult fans either seriously feared that there would be a love triangle with Amity and Hunter or concluded that Luz and Hunter were written intentionally as 'basically like love interests' / 'romance coded' over one single scene of Luz waking him up when that was a visiual gag of subverting how a scene like that could have went in a different media and is concluded with a slapstick. If there were multiple scenes like that, it would've been one thing... but for fans of a primarly comedic show the audience really struggles with recognizing jokes aimed at middle schoolers.

- Hunter is pretty fit, doing parkour without his staff, i think fandom really exaggerates how frail he was. And from what i know, it makes sense for the historical/puritan mindset of 'healthy=good' for Belos to want him to be that way. Don't get me wrong, i think it's great when fanon actually explores Hunter's health from the angle of disability/chronic illness, but at the same time the fandom often tends to lean onto a very specific whumpified portrayal of abuse victims that edges onto uncomfortable 'this what a real abuse victim must be like' territory.

- Oh, and again, Luz is very smart with making the sleeping spell with the glyphs, and Hunter is not the only nerd in the scene.

- "...Garden Club was robbed..." - "By us!" LoL

- Ok, yes, this is still a very good episode. It is good structuraly and has good characterization. Bump's personality shift actually didn't stand out that much this time - i think, because it works well if you look at it from the perspective that he, the Bat Queen and Eda were all changed as mentors/teachers/authority figures once they've met Luz.

Shame that Willow and Gus are barely there and Amity's absence is explained in a weirdly throw away line (i think it would've been better if there was a moment in this episode showing Luz' crush on her, because the crush disappears until Hooty's episode when suddenly it is super important again, and that was weird) but in this episode at least there was a little bit of info about Willow's and Gus' wishes, and so it didn't feel as dismissive as other season 2a episodes.

But it is such a good episode for Luz, showing multiple facets of her personality, and i wish there were more episodes like this for her.

Episode 7

- This episode and the next one are probably the best Eda episodes, but i feel like Luz and King's b-plot could've been utilized better. And season 3 and the behavior of certain raeda shippers really soured me on Raine as a character, even though they used to be my second favourite, but then on the first watch i started to really enjoy their character in s2b, so there is still hope.

- Again team RED placed together on a banner.

- And Darius is conducting Raine's ceremony. I guess Belos can't be bothered, but if there was meant to be confrontation/real narrative connection between Raine and Belos to make the whole possession plot meaningful, here was the perfect opportunity to have them interact.

- Eda tries to save the wild witch in this episode. I wonder whether Eda helping other wild witches was something that was never brought up before or, in contrast with the first episode of the show, meeting Luz really made her less 'individualistic' (as Luz has put it in s1). Anyway, that was nice.

- Seems like Raine only started their operationd with the BATTs recently, since they are giving Raine instructions on how to make their speech and it seems like this is a new thing. Katya: "We actually helped people this time!" - yeah, feels like Raine's rebellion wasn't that successful.

- Gus helping Perry is cute. Perry at the work meeting: "You ask whether i'd rather cover the inaguration of an important coven head or a school competition? Obviously the school competition is more important!"

- i've forgotten about Eber's super vision spell, lol.

- Luz being treated as Eda's kid was always... ... to me.

- The way the fandom just happily admits that they immediately headcanoned Darius as particulary sadistic or cruel to children or cowardly... when he just throws the BATTs into an (unlocked) cell, literally doesn't care about Raine almost killing him and then hurting him by slicing his arm, and then only mentions 'tormenting' Raine, not even 'torturing' - even as a villain there was nothing worse than punch-clock villany in this episode, and yet certain fans just proudly admit that they were rushing to write him hurting Hunter. Because fandoms looove to automatically assume that the villains of color must hurt white children instead of writing them as interesting adversaries with standarts. And the cowardly part?Just plainly not true in the episode considering his reactions to the corrupted spell or his arm getting hurt.

- But, yeah, if Darius was meant to be a villain, his reactions to being hit by the corrupted spell and Raine hurting his arm really would have been so off? A vain villain who values his cloak over the involment in a rebellion? Sure. But not reacting over the threat to his life/physical pain? (but also it makes me feel a certain way over the fact that we didn't see more of his interactions with Raine even if in a background in the epilogue, because it feels like he really forgave a lot and indulged them a lot, and that was not even an intentional writing choice, but it leaves them in a weird place)

- Darius clutching his cloak x1 (i have a theory)

- My other theory has always been that Eber was upping the volume of the recording to cover the sound of Darius explaining things to Raine (and to annoy Darius too)

- the sigil spell - that's definitely something that would've affected what the rebel Coven Heads could attempt to do when going against Belos.

- Anyway, great episode for Eda's development, but otherwise pretty meh. Especially the way certain things about Raine and Darius just don't work for me - on the first watch it's frustration with the tropes that are utilized. On the second watch it's like 'ok, you set this up to be subverted later, but it still makes this episode feel weird'

Episode 8

- 'Fairies' are bug demons, fully sapient, and yet the witches eat them?

- I like King's voice acting and how his character is maturing. His plotline is ok too.

- Wish there were more episodes focused on Eda's struggle with the loss of her magic and her trying to figure out Belos's plans/how to fight him (it felt on the first watch like Eda's urgency to stop DoU plan just faded away after this episode), but this is one of her best episodes.

- The Owl Beast becoming a curse was so confusing on the first watch, lol.

- Luz's part is ok. But the way crush on Amity wasn't mentioned in 2 previous episodes and then here it's all she can think about is kinda funny. Probably not out of character for a teenager, but i wish the writing connected the episodes together in a smoother way.

- I don't feel bad for Amity being pelleted in this episode after she beat up Hooty in s1.

- The ending was way too silly. And i refuse the notion that Luz is taller than Amity.

Episode 9

- Again, hate the way Willow and Gus are utilized here, their c-plot with the music would've been fun as a c-plot in any other episode, but again they are just taken out of picture instead of interacting with Luz meaningfully.

- Yes, it would've changed ASIAS, but this could've been an episode where Amity and Willow or Amity and Gus go to the Eclipse Lake together, sneaking away while Eda stays with Luz and maybe gets to act as a mentor to whoever stays behind. You could even plot it in such a way that Willow/Gus don't get to meet Hunter, instead dealing with the scouts/separated from Amity and King. Or at least the episode could have had a better bonding experience between Amity and King.

- And i really don't like Eda's part here. Her trying to reach out to Hunter was cool, but otherwise she is just comically irresponsible and incompetent for the most part; and the whole deal with her being unable to turn into the harpy mode and then negotiating with the Owl Beast seemed unecessary and just rehearsing what the previous episode did, when the time could've been spend on other things. And the whole 'it's a wild animal!' towards the Owl Beast even seemed like going back from what the previous episode established.

- But the fandom reactions to Eda's interactions with Hunter are so fascinating (in a bad way) and just highlight the fandom fucked up hierarchy: on the one hand as a white character she is automatically assumed to be nicer than Darius towards Hunter and automatically seen as a 'mom' for him, but as a woman she is still considered too mean and failing poor Hunter even though she doesn't know his backstory and there is nothing she can realistically do in this episode, and she acts in the same 'mean' teasing way towards other kids as well.

- I found Amity vs Hunter fight boring until the end. I know fandom has knee-jerk reaction towards calling s2 Amity bland, but to me she feels like that, and it has nothing to do with her not being 'mean' anymore, but the consequences of her lacking strongly written dynamics with Willow or Gus or King or Eda.

- Even with Hunter here, if there was a continuation/development for Amity - being upset over this encounter and how trying being nice didn't work for her the way it works for Luz, it would've been more interesting.

- But still weird how the fandom focused on whether Amity would be mean to Hunter or not after this episode, while ignoring how Hunter's behavior here had hurt her.

Episode 10

- One of the best episodes in the series, imo. Probably my second favourite episode. The first time around i was too worried how Camila would be treated by the narrative to fully appreciate it, and it really just grew on me afterwards.

- I like how King got more confident: 'don't forget to mention me!' rather than clinging to Luz and crying how he wouldn't let her go like in the 1st episode.

- The way the fandom continued to demonize Camila even after this episode is wild. The first thing she does is freeing a cute animal - which doesn't mean someone is automatically a good person, of course, but in the context of the episode it's clearly a shortcut to show what kind of person she is😭But taking care of Vee and saving animals and trying to support Luz wasn't enough, she had to prove herself by being a 'fellow pop-culture nerd' and taking care of a white boy to be accepted by the fandom.

- And i like how Vee immediately is allowed to show complicated emotions and thoughts, and the way Luz and Vee were not explored at all in s3 is such a shame. If there was just a brief scene... But even with just this episode we have enough information to see Vee as a person.

- Anyway a great episode, a great introduction to Vee and exploration of Camila. Writing-wise probably one of the 2-3 episodes i liked start-to-finish.

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Conclusion:

i kinda regret not watching episodes 6-10 immediately after 1-5 (but i didn't have time to watch anything) because i can't tell how they all work together, but right now i don't have strong opinion on episodes 6-10 as a whole, because episodes 6 and 10 are great, the rest are somewhat-good or meh.

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Season 2a thoughts:

But overall season 2a writing is so uneven (even before the shortening) and Gus and Willow are treated so poorly, it is my least favourite part of the show. And while the first season wasn't as 'serious' and had a lot of the same problems, it still was better structurally. And yes, there are many parts of season 2a that are important, and i don't know how you would remove them, but it just shows that the series can't handle all the characters and pace their arcs around each other.

Best episode: 10 or 6

Worst episode: 2

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Style swap- Invader Zim and Psychonauts

Cause I thought it would be fun and practice

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"I can't ignore what's under dancefloor boards, The rhythm of my heart a dead-as-disco beat, But I still move my feet, to slip out of this groove, I'm free" ~ 2econd 2ight 2eer, Will Wood, The Normal Album

I have been plagued with visions of LDR Sun every time I listen to this song and I NEEDED to get this out of my system @spadillelicious when do we get to smooch the boy pLEASE

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My favorite thing in red dead redemption and red dead online is how the characters are HUMAN! Not just in the way they are,but in their appearances too! They have wrinkles,they have scars and smile lines and gray hair,the works. Sean is missing a tooth (albeit through a painful situation),one of Molly’s teeth in the front is slightly bigger than the other,Dutch has forehead wrinkles,Maggie in red dead online has a blind eye and a huge burn scar,a lot of the characters have crows feet too! They’re all SO human and I love red dead for that!! It’s a beautiful game with details that are still being found all these years later but the details in the characters by far are my favorite

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Good morning 🙏🏼

I want to thank everyone their support with reblogging my stuff over the years and reblogging some of the context of the situation.

Tumblr and Instagram is filled with the most supportive people I’ve ever had the chance of meeting. The last time something like this happened, I didn’t have much support, not even from people I thought were close to me. It took me a year or two to be okay with being perceived again in fandoms. So I’m very grateful for everything.

I just wanted to post that I appreciate all of the asks and I’ve been reading all of them. I actually get anxious I’m spamming everyone too much so I probably won’t reply to everything. Please don’t feel pressured to support me financially, there’s is a free option on patreon to follow. I’ll post future project plans and occasional updates because I still love comics and I still love DC/Marvel. I do enjoy having people following along for my art/reading journey so I would always be okay with people just following for free. My brain is telling me this post is too long now so I will go 🙏🏼😭

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I really want to see a more fucked up version of Charlie in canon. Like, okay, I am a die-hard for sweet bubbly girls in media. But I always see how some people make Charlie actually, oh I dunno... demonic? And it's so refreshing for her type of character. I could honestly see her having low empathy (and we kinda see this with how she handled Angel's situation or even Vaggie's nervousness about taking control on an activity). An exploration of that trait (if it was intended) would be interesting to see for a protagonist, especially when her main goal is about helping others. I would love to see her actually have a level of difficulty in understanding others' feelings from the other residents, sinners, and even her father.

But give her a fucked up side. Not a "she gets more power when she's angey uwu", but a "oh, she's a little fucked in the head". It would give so much to her character that she just doesn't have.

@/murmurmurena (don't wanna bother them so slash there we go) has some fun ideas with Charlie. I highly encourage people to check their stuff out! So many fun dark ideas with her character while also still keeping to her canon personality pretty well! Personally, I think Charlie being a bit more naive to her own messed up traits would work best but her also being aware of these traits can make for some interesting character for her.

THIS FIC, "A Game Between You and I". RIGHT HERE WITH THE FIRST CHAPTER. A bit of spoil for the fic here: but I love how they handled Charlie’s absolute ignorance as to why the idea of Russian roulette is horrifying to Angel Dust. It doesn't feel like her being intentionally malicious or aware that she's the odd man out here. This is also a pretty old fic going by only the pilot, but the point still stands that it was such a fun take for her character!

Charlie is one of my favorite characters in the show in part of the POTENTIAL she could have as being the most bubbly sweetheart character while also being the most messed up character in the show. I can't say I have strong confidence with the show's writing and fully expect them to stick with Charlie being the "nice girl but oh no, don't get her angry or she gets scarwy". Which isn't bad for a character mind you, there's just so much more potential to Charlie outside of that trope, especially when you get into the theories of her either being a doll, Roo's biological daughter, or what have you. And for the MAIN CHARACTER of the show, it would be not only interesting but also bring the spotlight back to her.

There's really no question that the side characters steal the show, particularly all the male characters. If I'm honest, Charlie does not feel like she gets a lot of love from the show itself when she's supposed to be the main character. She feels far more flat compared to the rest of the characters (again, the male cast in this "female-lead" show has more depth than most of the female cast currently. I wouldn't be pointing this tidbit concerning the genders of characters if it weren't for the fact Viv defended Helluva's lack of development with their female cast by saying "Hazbin is a female-lead show and Helluva is a male-lead" and Hazbin ended up with it not feeling female lead (to me) and the male cast just completely stealing the show. I don't normally care about gender stuff, especially since I do personally lean interest towards male characters. But using one show as a defense for poor development of the female characters, and then that show not really holding up with no very interesting well-developed feeling female characters irritates me. It's just very clear that these shows don't seem to care much about the female cast :/)

If you like how Charlie is written that's totally fine. PERSONALLY, I just think they're missing so much opportunity with her character by just making her the standard female character type. I honestly don't have a lot of faith they'll actually do something with Charlie's character though. She's a pretty static character in S1 being the same from start to end. Not changing or learning anything to create any development. What does the end of season Charlie do that start of season Charlie wouldn't do? Fight back? Because we see with the pilot (which is the “first episode”) that Charlie does fight people if pushed like with Katie Killjoy and even Valentino. Static characters can work in media depending on the show or their role. But Charlie is the MC of a show about “bettering one's self”. So to have her as a static with not a lot of strong dilemmas for herself (like we see with Angel Husk Al and even Vox) seems silly. Plus, considering Hazbin is telling a whole story and it's not a fun episodic thing, characters are expected to grow on some level. Or else, what was the point of their hero's journey?

[somedayslater]

i didnt read the last chapters since i discovered it was the end (but i was spoiled by tumblr lol)... i didnt want to believe it... i want to still look forward to new chapters of No Home :(

For the last few years eunyung and haejoon have been my companions. I healed a little while following the story of eunyung, feeling like its ok to be angry and wanting revenge on your family and the society that continues to want to keep you in a "house" where you are mistreated. How the world isnt made for children at all, the absolute unfairness of it all. That you can choose to keep going, and if you do so its ok to keep your distance with what hurts you.

I healed too with haejoon, who came to terms with the fact that he will always be overcome with sadness and grief from time to time, and when that happens he can only let himself feel and wait for it to pass, and try to look forward to the next day.

Honestly this manwha was the best ever. I couldnt read this manhwa as a form of escapism because it was too real. It pulled strings in my heart i didnt know i had, made me question a lot of things about myself, about others, about my relationship with others. It made me have painful discussion with a few people. Following this manhwa, most of the time, was really unpleasant lol. I hated then loved eunyoung, I liked and then disliked haejoon (yeah sorry haejoon, i think you can be really cruel and stupid and i wanted to strangle you a few times in the last arcs (i would NOT be friend with that guy lol) -thats why this character is so amazing). But i felt so much while reading it i wouldnt trade it for anything. It was funny, it was dumb, it was deep, it was enraging and healing, but most of all it was sincere. The most sincere depiction of what being a person in a deeply flawed society is, and how there's happiness even while surviving.

It was so frustrating to see the manhwa go in a direction i didnt want it to go ! I wanted it to become my cozy refuge, where every problems are magically solved, where haejoon and eunyung ends up understanding and loving each other in a cliché way, where theres a new home with my *fave charas* and its a series of feel-good interactions. Instead the problems kept pilling up, most of them didnt have a satisfactory conclusion, eunyung and haejoon kept hurting each other and distancing themselves. Haejoon just cut contact with his father without knowing what were his nefarious motives or without this guy facing any consequences, we dont know if eunyung's parents will keep bothering eunyung unchecked, we dont know if they're going to be happy and rich, or if, realistically, as orphans without generational wealth and deep traumas, they're going to end up in a shitty life situation.

And i couldnt thank wanan enough for this. They didnt take the easy way, the feel-good way, the way that would have given them a probably bigger fandom so a bigger source of money. I'm amazed by how they managed to hold this whole story so perfectly. Not a single misstep. Everything they draw was where it should have been, every action from the characters were understandable (and frustrating lol), the fucking subtlety of the developing relationships, no deus ex machina and no miserabilism. I didnt always agree with wanan's ethic or what i perceived of it (i think stealing or being violent is ok depending on the context, i dont think working hard to earn money is a virtue) but i respect how they choose to present it. I didnt talk about the other characters because honestly they didnt move me as much (except marie), but i love them so much too. I felt sad that eunyung and haejoon didnt become best friend 5ever (or even lovers hehe) but honestly, understandable lol. If i was one of them i WOULDNT become close with the other at all, so its kinda amazing they could still find this level of mutual understanding.

In short, wanan is an amazing story teller.

And an amazing image-composist (have no idea how to say this in english). The artstyle doesnt look like much, but this gave wanan a wide graphic range to convey emotions that wouldnt have been possible with a more sophisticated style i think -how will i forget the red swirlings mixing with eunyung skin ? The expressions, the choice of colors, the choice in showing something in particular without giving a clear explanation on why (often haejoon's surprised or contemplative face, which made me re-read chapters a few times to try to understand what was happening in his big head). It didnt feel like wanan thought their readers were stupid, nor did they play the fake-deep style. It was perfectly balanced.

And so even if i didnt read it, i have no doubt the end will be the same. Im so sad they decided to end this manhwa, but i know prolonging it would have been greedy and that ultimately, the manhwa would have suffer for it. Some authors do that : they have a popular series going on, and for whatever reason they keep writing new chapters without a clear goal and so the story becomes diluted, messy, useless. I love when they do this, because i can say goodbye to a story progressively as my interest in it wans, without feeling sadness or loss. But it makes me not think of the story at all in the future, since everything that was good about it became buried in new shitty chapters. Because wanan didnt do that, i know that i would think of no home for a long while, maybe forever,

,like i really lost companions when no home ended actually. Because it really, really hurts, knowing i wont be seeing new faces of the no home characters anymore. I know it sounds probably stupid ; i feel genuine grief here lol. I want to know what will happen to them, if they are alright, if they found a place in the world... if there is something to look forward after all, and i really dread not having answers every monday anymore. and the fandom is so small i cant comfort myself by re-entering the no home world every week or whatever... does anyone else feel this way ToT ? maybe i should participate myself but well,, i wouldnt know where to begin...

And saying that ! I'm almost never on this blog, i dont really have socmed accounts, i dont participate in fandoms at all. But I spent a looot of time reading and watching people who does -without being connected or interacting with posts or fanfics at all. AND i really want to thank you all for giving me so much material to chew, posts that made me think, fics that made me smile, drawings that inspired me, witnessing interactions that made me laugh. I was and i probably will continue to be a ghost on socmed, but i really want you to know that you had an impact on me and i was looking forward to your new posts (and will continue to!).

the "every no home chapter is a test of my willingness to Not blow my own brains out" and explosion eunhae monday of @skiptoyuri

the regular nohome posters which makes me happy to check tumblr regularly @shimamitsulover @lesbianpegbar @luckyswamps @tomoyoo @cloudbends @t0a2ter @solcarow @dragon-of-timeless-blue

the awesome artists who keep producing bangers nohome art @gohaejoon @maxsolosur @jjd5426 @bnnuycafe @ct-bunny @lentl-soup @fartaycat @jjd5426 @prokkoli @moxymaxing @ginangtan

the nohome posters that i enjoyed running into @pleuvoire @homolobotomized @podoro-vines @fmet @welpuu @revertrate @obstinaterixatrix @kulluto

the artists that made me interested in checking no home @cienfll @craysmo @ant-eaters @idledee @fruiitlins @froqpi-art @201918b @tinfishmeal @ohrsoh @30mingirlfriend

thanks @ditherslam for the awesome fanfics, obviously i read them all and they're some of my favourites. youre an amazing writer and i cant wait for the next chap of "your atoms"!!

thanks @homeless202 for being an insatiable nohome poster for a while (and @grannykombucha !)

im forgetting a lot of others but i really wanted to thank you all for your time, energy, work. i never interacted with your posts or with you but i really want to convey how cool it is that you all contribute to make no home a more well-known manhwa and the fandom alive

thank youuuu (hope the @ are ok tell me if its bothersome ill delete it)

and really, really, thank you wanan ! waaaa i want to cry

[nerves-nebula]

the state of sa recovery fics in this fandom is DIREEEEEE <- guy who has yet to write an actual sa recovery fic of its own because it gets to irrationally bitter and upset at the thought of even a fictional characters getting the attention and affection that it wants and knows it will never have

[elinordash]

now if only he could get the 90-minute equivalent of justice for his actions huh

[crystallizsch]

really weird ramble but uhhh i’m really tempted to go somewhat multifandom with this blog ;;;

idk why i’m so hesitant since the other fandoms i wanna yell about seem to have some overlap with twst fans here and there 😭

i COULD do another side blog but that is too much work 😔

“post whatever you want it’s your blog” but >:[ …

anyways. posting this just a heads up in case i do randomly post anything other than twst one day

[13eyond13]

love it when a character that's hard to read intuitively for you has like a dedicated fandom interpreter who can just glance at their blank face in a panel and then give you a 3k word essay on their innermost thoughts & desires & fears and neatly tie it back into the themes & whatnot as if it's the most obvious thing in the world

[ispridestillasin]

So I decided to watch a bit of Bridgerton with my mother, which I'm not really interested in (I don't really like period pieces unless it's a fanfic for a ship I like) but it's a show she enjoys so I sometimes catch her watching it and join her, and literally the only takeaway from the stuff I've seen with her is that Colin, Lord Debling, and Penelope should have all been poly