#a lot of healthy eating advice is dubious

[evo-lutio]

About "weak" borders

You often hear about people with "good boundaries" and people with "bad boundaries," aka people with boundaries that are "strong" or "weak."

People with good and strong boundaries appear as very self-confident, collected, adequate, not wasting a single drop of their energy for nothing. Their mental field is like a strong package that prevents any leakage of energy. People with poor boundaries, on the contrary, are described as weak, fumbling, constantly ceding their territory, losing their strength quickly. Their mental field seems to be holey, their energy leaks out, and their bad boundaries are unable to protect them.

This view, although very simplistic, is correct. Most of the conclusions that are drawn from these pictures and the recommendations for "strengthening boundaries" are wrong. The most important wrong conclusion, as always, has to do with the "inherent weakness" of boundaries, or "childhood boundary trauma." Allegedly, a person was traumatized as a child and developed a pathological type of attachment, so they quickly "merge" their boundaries, cannot hold them, and sometimes attack other people's boundaries themselves, for the same reason. The recommendation for such cases is psychotherapy. Indeed, a good psychotherapist with regular and long therapy sessions is able to form a healthy field with the patient and within this field teach him how to build boundaries. Having learned this in sessions, the patient can try to put it into practice. Unfortunately, skills alone are not enough to bring to life what has been created in the therapist's office. A person's weak boundaries are not due to a lack of skill in building them, but to a lack of resources. One could say that weak boundaries are a person's adaptation to conditions of resource scarcity. A beggar begs and steals because there is nothing to eat, and he will not have food if he stops begging, he must first earn something. And while in the case of a beggar minimum work is not difficult to find, a person with weak boundaries cannot always provide himself with energy. Thus, psychotherapy helps only if it is combined with real actions to acquire one's own resources.

The most dubious recommendation to strengthen boundaries is the advice to get rid of the "habit of being a victim", to learn to "build boundaries rigidly", i.e. "do not cede your territory, do not share resources with anyone, do not allow anything to be imposed on yourself". There's nothing particularly harmful in those words themselves. It's a bit more harsh and selfish than it should be, but in principle a person can afford to have such high self-esteem. The nuance is that a person with weak boundaries not only can't afford it, but it can be fatal for them because they are too dependent. It's like advising a beggar to stop asking and start demanding. Or to become prideful, shut down, and starve to death.

By and large, what are called weak boundaries are unstable A - subjective personal boundaries. Anyone who has dealt with a person with unstable A knows how unpleasant communication is. Such a person constantly confuses his own territory and someone else's, he rudely or admires, crawls up with a request and then suddenly takes the top position, behaves demanding, and then suddenly begins to humiliate himself, asks a lot, and if he suddenly refuses, behaves as if he was humiliated. With all this, he very much undermines the boundaries of the other person. Very often people with unstable A are taken for aggressors and even emotional vampires, but their difference is that they really do not feel their own and other people's boundaries, always suffer from it and very rarely can use what they get. They can be considered aggressors because A is wider than B (objective personal boundaries, i.e. real human rights). Their A does cause them to encroach on other people's territory, but they are inconsistent aggressors. They move very quickly into the A- state and begin to humiliate themselves. All together it looks even nastier. It seems that such people humiliate themselves only to get pity and start pestering again. This is often the case.

The behavior of such people has only one reason - a chronic gap between A and B. A person with A=B behaves very adequately, confidently, does not initiate conflicts and in general is extremely pleasant in communication, provided that he communicates with the same people. An abuser has A more than B, but is very good at controlling this process, is aware, never exceeds the threshold of influence and is able to hide his high A. This is how an abuser differs from a simple aggressor and even more so from a person with poor boundaries, who is simply unable to control A spikes.

What is the cause of uncontrollable A surges? In the so-called "polymorphic accumulated stress" and addictive state. Basically, it is an attempt to increase one's B (expand objective boundaries, become more significant, higher) for the sake of quick relief from too much stress. This is how an alcoholic fills a shot glass because he or she is unable to overcome addictive craving or even withdrawal, i.e. withdrawal. It is useless to convince the alcoholic on a rational level that each drink only increases the addictive craving; for him there is a more pressing problem - momentary suffering, which he needs to relieve as quickly as possible. He has no mental resource to overcome his condition. He cannot tolerate it! Blaming him for his willlessness is the same as blaming a sick person's low hemoglobin or high insulin. Yes, sometimes they have "brought" themselves to such a state by their wrong lifestyle, but now they need treatment, not blame.

Very often people with jumping A are considered to be latent masochists. It is as if they deliberately pounce, try to hurt in order to be rebuffed and go into a blissfully humiliated state. Sometimes it looks like their personal intention. Men are especially likely to complain about this. The wife begins to whine, nag, bully and humiliate her husband until he slams his fist on the table or slams the door. Then she goes into phase A- , starts sucking up, yowling, coaxing and begging for forgiveness. Sometimes the women themselves tell this about themselves. Dozens of times I have heard victims of violence say that they themselves provoke violence, that they "need a strong hand, otherwise they turn into bitches and will not rest until they are restrained". The advice psychologists give to victims of such situations is to "watch yourself". This is correct, but as useless as advising an alcoholic to refrain from a second drink when he has already drunk the first.

Why does this gap between B and A occur? It happens because a person's resources are insufficient to provide themselves with enough energy for a healthy distance. Such people cannot maintain the status quo, i.e. keep their A=B (content with what they have), they feel bad, they need more. And this is not a caprice, but the very polymorphic stress, a big hole in the mental field, which does not heal and requires compensation all the time. Man cannot develop, he has to constantly patch up his hole, which is gaping again. A person constantly needs someone's energy, support, closeness, and autonomy requires a reserve of strength, which he does not have. Such a person, being lonely, therefore merges boundaries with anyone who has come into brief contact with him. Like an alcoholic, he immediately loses control because of a very weak state of resources. It's like a chain of loans. A person takes a loan to relieve the accumulated stress right now and buy something for himself, but he cannot repay the loan because he is constantly buying something else, taking new loans to pay off the previous ones and so on.

If such a person has merged the boundaries with you, he or she quickly goes into the "blissful" state of a victim, if you only show aggression. This happens because such a person is not able to share the boundaries, he tries to dominate, but if it does not work out, he is ready to submit, as long as he is not chased. He submits sincerely, which makes it look like "bliss". This point should be very well understood, so as not to think that the initial desire of such a person - masochism. No, he would gladly stay in the top position, but if it is impossible, he is ready to do anything as long as he is not chased away. As soon as his fear of being expelled passes a little, he will again try to make a coup, to pull B back on himself, and having been rebuffed, he will again move to the lower position. And so on endlessly. The cause is the need for intimacy with someone, and contradictory behavior is the effect.

When such a person is called upon to "rigidly build boundaries," he does not become autonomous. He would have become autonomous earlier and would not have humiliated himself for a single minute if he could. His boundaries would not be weak if he did not constantly need other people's energy but had his own. The recommendation to become "tougher" he either cannot fulfill and feels a complex (additional stress), or he agrees and falls into permanent aggression, begins not to ask but to demand, not to humiliate but to command. As a result, his partner simply distances himself, or even responds with defensive aggression. A great many women in addiction, instead of thinking about getting out of addiction, go into a mode of unexpected dominance, demanding, threatening and demonstrating "force", i.e. hatred towards those on whom they depend. They receive nothing but aggression in response, and in addition they receive sanctions, which deprive them of everything. Sometimes it becomes the first step to independence, and then it is not a bad outcome, but much more often it is the opposite. Deprived of everything victims in stress cling to someone who gives them a semblance of support, and use them for their own purposes. It is very difficult to start acquiring resources from scratch, and even under stress; they want to join someone else's field as soon as possible, if not in a new couple, then in a new group. And at their "services", as a rule, there are many sects and organizations that will gladly add another free activist to their ranks.

[sothischickshe]

26,27 and 29 for brio, please 😊

ewww brio but theyre so borrrring. ok fine!!

26. Who likes to eat healthy/ Who loves junk food?

ooh ok, so this is interesting!

cos we know that beth cooks a lot, and uses (making) food as a way to express care (and guilt). but also that if she’s sad, and doesn’t have other ppl to perform those duties for (and i do think perform is the right word), she stops doing all of that, and dramatically eats depressing lean cuisine meals at the dining table by herself (bc both beth and rio need to moon around like they’re in an emo music video at all times, apparently).

now *I* would probs describe her lean cuisine stuff as junky, but idk if it exactly falls into the typical category of junk food? particularly bc when annie and ruby are rinsing her for her pathetic dinners, they’re trying to lure her into a big mac instead. [sidenote: mcdonalds patties are gross, if they’d suggested something edible like bk or kfc i feel like she mightve bitten.]

AND while i think that beth probs has some thoughts abt supplying the kids with healthy food, i dont really think it’s at the forefront of her obsession with it? it’s more of a display of attention, and i think in direct opposition to the flashback we get of her and annie meeting ruby for the very first time. i don’t think that’s played as beth being resentful at playing provider, or annoyed at having to look after annie, in fact it’s almost like it’s an adventure? BUT the issue is they literally don’t have groceries at home, and i definitely think that preparing elaborate meals for the family to eat together, creating personalised, detailed lunches for the kids to take to school, and being known as the attendant baking mother, are all things that became important to her bc of not (always?) having such markers of affection from her parent/s growing up.

and then rio definitely seems enthusiastic abt food, but idk that i necessarily get ‘junk’ (or at least fast) food vibes off of him? firstly, he seems extremely pretentious, and also is clearly a wildly irritating neatfreak. i can’t see him allowing a greasy bag in his car, lol (maybe if the food’s quintuple bagged??? and even then probs not...)

i do think that both beth and rio are probably v pompous abt food, and kinda pious abt their child/ren eating healthily in public, but both have some junk food/s they’re really into, which they’re kinda secretive abt. and i think especially in a post-dean scenario where the divorce has happened and beth is getting comfortable with not always having the kids around, she’d start to indulge a lil more with things SHE likes, and that’d include whatever her fave junk food is (again: not a big mac, cos they’re gross), but in a fun, thrilling way with a big glass of wine, not in a depressing lean cuisine at the dining table alone kind of way. AND i think if beth and rio did get closer, revealing their secret junk food faves to each other would be a big deal bc they’re both so private and prickly and image-obsessed

tl;dr: they’re both both, ha

27. Who takes a long shower/ Who sings in the shower? 

beth definitely takes a long time in the bathroom when she has time for it, but i think she’s more of a bath person than a shower person if she can indulge? (or a sobbing on the floor while leaving the water running person, i suppose.)

and i feel like beth currently isnt a singing in the shower kind of person, and i do find it fascinating that we’ve had both annie and ruby singing (and have a sense of their music taste), and we dont really have that for beth, and she’s the main character! and christina can sing!

i’m really hopeful that there’s a trajectory where beth comes more into her own and re/discovers her own (music) tastes. feel like beth starting to sing in the shower would be the perfect cap to finally getting dean out of the house for good!!!

given rio apparently has all the time in the world to devote to stalking and dramatics, i assume he’s the one taking long showers atm!

and maybe fitz’s nugget abt rio’s special country club showering wasnt actually foreshadowing shower sex - beth’s going to wander in on him singing there and that’s the beginning of the musical episode????!????!!!

29. Who is the better cook?

deffo beth come on, but i don’t think rio’s a bad cook. and i think beth’s so used to cooking for other ppl that she’d kind of short circuit over rio cooking for her? so she’d probs think it was better than it was, lol

otp questions

[2-cute-4-school]

𝚗𝚌𝚝 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚘 𝚊 𝚌𝚞𝚍𝚍𝚕𝚢, 𝚎𝚡𝚑𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚜/𝚘

a/n: hiiiii so i decided to make this a 2in1 reaction; basically i just put together 2 of my requests that were *in my opinion* closely related. hope y’all don’t mind and enjoy!! ( ˊᵕˋ )♡.°⑅

requested by annonies: ‘Hey.. could you please do nct dream reaction to s/o having high fever and just wants cuddls? 🥺 like how would they take care of them.. make it fluffy please.’ & ‘nct dream reaction to their s/o being EXTREMELY tired and then like ummmmm cuddling and stuff maybe?? *uwuing in the distance*’

Mark Lee

okay but just imagine this (๑◕︵◕๑)

cuddle sessions when you’re both stretched thin and overworked

even though we all know he isn’t big on skinship i think he would throw all reticence out the window when it’s crystal clear that you both NEED each other ꒰๑˃͈꒳˂͈๑꒱ﾉ*ﾞ̥

so you just crawl under the bankets into his arms and you both just lay together in silence just enjoying each other’s presence

bonus points if he runs his hand through your hair and you trace shapes with the pads of your fingers on his skin (´,,•ω•,,)♡

it would probaby take a couple of lazy kisses and if you’re really really soft he might just hum some song lowly in your ear

just a lil heads up:

you ain’t getting out of his arms ‘til next morning so better hope you peed beforehand and have a bottle of water in reach (ಠ‿↼)

the only thing that would make him get up without a second thought?

if you’re feverish because of your exhaustion

his worry wouldn’t allow him to settle down until he’s 110% sure he made everything in his power to keep you comfortable 

“cold towels, water, painkillers just in case, is there anything i’m forgetting? babe, should i make you some tea-”

“mark, you know what would make me feel SO much better?”

“huh?” ｢(ﾟ<ﾟ)ﾞ??

“CUDDLES, BABE, CUDDLES!!” (╬ Ò ‸ Ó)

you don’t have to say that twice, your man is tucking you into his side in an instant flash ain’t got nothing on mark, he’s a man on a mission

he’ll try to stay awake long enough to make sure you’ve fallen asleep properly since he knows your fever won’t go away without proper rest

might hover over you the next morning too!! ( ≧Д≦)

Huang Renjun

this boy would FRET like CONSTANTLY

especially if you develop a fever 

he keeps piling up a lot of stuff in your room, anything he deems would be potentially helpful at some point is surrounding your bed

“jun, why tf is a cactus on my nightstand?” Σ(-᷅_-᷄๑)

“what if haechan walks through the door?”

“... understandable” ¯\_( ◉ 3 ◉ )_/¯

your room looks like a deposit at this point and you’ve tried to drag him to bed more times than you can count

but he’s restless ༼ ಥ ‿ ಥ ༽

until your frustration topples over and you’re on the verge of tears as you ask him for ✨cuddles ✨

he might actually feel bad for not joining you earlier so he’s gonna be EXTRA soft with you enjoy it while you can

he’s gonna pepper kisses all over you as he encases you in his lil arms and nuzzles his face into the crown of your head (っ˘з(˘⌣˘ )

he’s ready to offer free massages or head scratches!!!! LIMITED OFFER DON’T MISS OUT!!!

also he’s ready for literally anything

fever? medicine and wet towels nearby. thirst? 4 bottles of water AND gatorade. hunger? your favourite take out is waiting. any intruders? cactus is right by his hand. cuddles? CUDDLES!!!!! (۶* ‘ꆚ’)۶”

i think he’ll probably stay up even after you fell asleep, reading about how exhaustion affects one’s body and how to help i just think he’s a really wholesome person despite his all ‘don’t talk to him he angy’ character

but he’s still SO attentive to you!!

he’s down to anything that would make you feel better and if that means 20 hours of non stop cuddling so be it (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

Lee Jeno

i think he’d be REALLY clingy with you even in normal circumstances kind of like how he’s with mark ya know

so your affected well-being will just give him an extra reason to evolve to his ULTIMATE LEVEL OF PHYSICAL AFFECTION◝( ′ㅂ`)و ̑̑

he won’t let you lift A FINGER

my man is cuddling you even while standing up (灬 ♡ ω ♡ 灬)

he’s also going to insist on carrying you anywhere even if it’s just from the bed to the bathroom this boi is strong you have no excuse to shy away from him he won’t let you

you have no chance at escaping him btw his arms are made of iron when it comes to cuddles good luck prying them off you

and even though he’s clearly focusing on your requested cuddles, he’ll ask you from time to time if you need anything, how you’re feeling, if you’re comfortable

lowkey uses the excuse of checking your temperature to give you endless forehead kithes cuz he can (*＾∀ﾟ)ъ

he also becomes kind of hyperaware of every little move you make

you shiver? he’s cocooning you in yet another blanket. you’re becoming restless? he adjusts your cuddling position until you’re fully comfortable.

NOTHING gets past him ┌༼ σ ‸ σ ༽┐

idk why but i have a hunch that jeno sleeps like a rock

so if he happens to fall asleep too and you need to get up? pfft yeah sure better call for a crane to lift you up from the bed  ૮( ᵒ̌ૢꇴᵒ̌ૢ )ა｡

he’s also going to be EXTREMELY cranky if anyone dares interrupt your extended cuddle session this is strictly ‘only y/n and jeno time’

he might also entertain you with a few pictures of his cats if you’re feeling soft or ugly pictures of his members if you need a good laugh

would totally recommend leaving yourself in jeno’s care!! ♡(.◜ω◝.)♡

Lee Haechan

he would LIVE for your cuddle sessions (●♡∀♡))

despite that, he WOULDN’T STAND you being uncomfortable for a single second if he can do something against that

i think he’s the type of person who wouldn’t leave even the smallest of papercuts untreated when it comes to his partner so exhaustion? fever? yeah no. frickin. way. ┐(;Ծ⌓Ծ;)┌

and after he’s absolutely sure he has everything you might need nearby and put a cold cloth on your forehead and made sure you were hydrated and well fed

he finally climbs into bed with you and just SMOTHERS the shite outta you i’m not even kidding ꒰๑*´ᗜ`*꒱*›◡‹꒱꒱

he’s full on *leech mode*, kisses and nuzzles and gentle caresses

and best part of the package? this man is a walking spotify premium!!

you get to choose whatever song you want and switch with no ads and he has no complaints since his payment is already made in cuddles

you thought this was the end of it?? SIKE

also an entertainment king!!  ୧༼✿ ͡◕ д ◕͡ ༽୨

we all know he probably has shit on all of the members and he’s not shy to do some harmless story telling to put you in a good mood

so just imagine and try coming up with anything better

sleepy you engulfed in the sunshine himself’s arms, tightly cradled against him with his soothing honey voice murmuring and humming to you and only you ˭̡̞(◞⁎˃ᆺ˂)◞*✰

his protective side might surface too btw

no one is allowed near you and if someone somehow managed to bother you? oh hell naw  🙃

now they’re on hyuck’s black list good luck mate

his babie gets the royalty treatment in those times guaranteed

Na Jaemin

he’s a doting boyfriend either way i think we can all agree on that

but you clinging to him and asking for cuddles? you not feeling well?

yeah not on his watch mother hen in action part the sea (ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ

i don’t think he’d panic tho, his only struggle would be postponing the cuddles you’re asking for while he prepares something to eat and a tea and fluffs up the pillows and blankets he’s gathered (oꆤ︵ꆤo)

but once he’s done?

yeah you’re bundled in a mountain of softness and most importantly? our cuddle bug jaemin (♡ >ω< ♡)

he’ll keep you propped up against his chest while he feeds you himself, proper care is something unskippable in his agenda

but after that any cuddling position is FREE REAL ESTATE!!

anything his baby wants, his baby gets ෆ╹ .̮ ╹ෆ

but for the sake of his mental stability he’d prefer to be in a position from where he can see you

boi is too worried to let you out of his sight so he’s aiming to be the big spoon or facing you directly 三 ( ◜◡‾)っ)⁰▿⁰)

he’ll help you fall asleep in any way he can

he’ll caress your back, your arms, he’ll softly massage your neck and shoulders, he has a playlist ready for sleepy moods

he is PREPARED ٩(๑•̀ㅂ•́)و

he checks your temperature every so often and he grumbles with a pout if it doesn’t seem to be going down

but if it comes down to it he won’t hesitate to ask someone to bring some medicine and if your exhaustion and/or fever doesn’t relent he’ll insist on getting checked by a doctor

it would break his heart to see you so weak and no ammount of cuddles could repair it until he sees you up and healthy again (◕⌓◕;)

but he’ll do all the pampering in the world so don’t worry

Zhong Chenle

i think he would hesitate at first but only because he’s kinda scared he’ll only make it worse and he WOULDN’T want that ( ⚆ _ ⚆ )

eventually i guess he’d step out to call his mum for help before he pulls some bull like ‘let’s do some math it’s gonna be fun’ and you lose your shit like no thanks fam i wanna live (┛ಠДಠ)┛彡┻━┻

he’ll listen RELIGIOUSLY to his mum’s advice 

makes you some chamomile exactly how you like it, probably pulls together something small to eat but won’t force you

what he will force you to take is some medicine you ain’t dying on his watch (๑･`▱´･๑)

and most importantly... DAEGAL CUDDLES!!!! imagine getting to cuddle every nctzen’s bias

he might get *a little* jelly tho if you pay too much attention to her tho

so he makes up some dumb excuse about dog hair aggravating your fever or some dubious other reason why you have to let go of his puppy and cuddle HIM!! ೕ(•̀ᴗ•́)

he’ll do that cute thing where he leans his forehead against yours to check your temperature he has to be extra until the end

and before you go to sleep he’ll  try to prod at you to tell him what caused you to be so exhausted that you developed a fever might nag at you too about how unheathy it is to let it get to that point

he just wants to help okay? baby is worried in his own way ( •́ ∧ •̀ )

if there’s ANYTHING he can do to help consider it done by the time you wake up he’ll ALWAYS go an extra mile for you

and chenle wants to make sure you are aware of that and can lean on him so it never gets to this point again

but for the time being... it’s cuddles and relaxation time!! ✧(๑✪д✪)۶

better believe he’s already preparing a spa day for both of you to enjoy like the  ✨spicy ✨ bitches you are

Park Jisung

his heartbeat accelerates

and unfortunately it’s not because he’s flustered shame (#ﾟﾛﾟ#)

his only thought when he sees you with bag under your eyes and a cold wet cloth on your forehead is ‘shit, they’re dying wait no censor the first part i can’t get my mouth washed with soap but... poop, they’re dying’

ONE step away from calling for an ambulance or morgue in his mind

he SWEARS he’ll let you teach him how to ride a bycicle as long as you get out of this safe and sound (╬⁽⁽ ⁰ ⁾⁾ Д ⁽⁽ ⁰ ⁾⁾)

he’s a bit of a mess, but he’s your cute mess

it would take *quite* a bit of reassurance that you’re going to be fine after a good night’s sleep and some jisung time for him to somewhat relax

his cheeks will flush once he curls himself around your form no matter how many times you’ve cuddled before

but once you sigh blissfully once he wraps his arms around you, it’s game over for him ε=(｡♡ˇд ˇ♡｡）

he MELTS against you

he’ll caress your head and gently scratch your scalp, lays kisses on your cheeks/forehead/crown of your head

but he will also fret every time you toss and turn or you make any sound that seems ‘distressed’ to him

we all know he can sleep anywhere under a frickin carpet so he won’t have any problems adjusting to whatever works for you since all that matters to him atm is that you’re comfortable (♡ >ω< ♡)

he just wants you to get better faster

he’ll talk to you in a hushed voice, encouraging and praising you and assuring you that once you’re all better he’ll help you with whatever you need and EVERYTHING will be well in the end ٩(ó｡ò۶ ♡)

he’s a senstitive person so he just wants to be there for you in any shape and form he can be

[ephemeralstark]

An Intern’s Ordeal

Summary:  Peter gets invited to the Annual Stark Charity Gala, only he thinks he's attending as an intern and panics because he doesn't even know how to make coffee so how can he manage an actual event. Throw in a stab wound, some fractured ribs, a healthy dose of self-deprecation and a case of mistaken identity, and Tony realises that Peter really doesn't understand how much he means to him.

Rated T | Irondad | Completed | 10k

AN: i hope you all enjoy, i’ll add the link to read on ao3 in a reblog if you guys prefer that!! tw for injuries and blood, stay safe my lovelies and the tag list is at the end! 

“You know,” Peter commented idly as he set down the wrench Mr. Stark had handed him on the table, “when you said you wanted me to come over and help out in the workshop, this wasn't exactly what I thought you’d have planned.” 

“No?” Mr. Stark wondered as he held out a hand for the weird caps Peter was still tightly gripping after being warned not to lose them, “what did you think we were going to do?” 

“I don’t know, really,” Peter shrugged dismissively, “but I kinda thought it would be something to do with Spider-Man.” 

“Spider-Man?” Mr. Stark spoke as though he had forgotten who Spider-Man was, as though he wasn't sitting in the same room as him, before cursing slightly under his breath and dropping one of the caps.

“Yeah, you know? The red and blue guy who swings over the city on webs that he made himself because he’s so totally cool and smart.” 

“I know who Spider-Man is, kid,” Mr. Stark said rolling his eyes at Peter, “can you grab that wrench again? Then get down here, it’s your turn to do a bit of work.” 

“Well, I’m just saying you sounded a bit confused,” Peter said as he jumped off his stool and crouched by the engine on the floor, the smell of motor oil and grease making his head spin a little, he blamed his enhanced sense of smell for that as he other man didn't seem to be affected by it.

“Not about Spider-Man,” Mr. Stark corrected him, before frowning and giving Peter a serious look, “Pete, do you think I only keep you around because of your abilities?” 

“Uh,” Peter faltered, unable to find the words to explain how he did think that but not in a way that made Mr. Stark seem like a bad guy, just in a way that proved Peter wasn't any more special than the next intern who passed through the halls of Stark Industries. 

A look of understanding seemed to cross Mr. Stark’s face and before Peter could even open his mouth he continued to speak, “hey, actually,  how would you feel about coming to this charity Gala on Saturday?” 

“Wh- wait, what?” 

That… had been the last thing Peter expected Mr. Stark to say, why would he invite him to a Gala? Didn't he realise that Peter was probably the last person in the world who should be invited to a fancy event - in fact, he wasn't entirely sure he owned a suit, would that be an issue? Maybe he could borrow that one of Ben’s he wore to Homecoming. 

“Charity Gala,” Mr. Stark repeated, “it's a big event with suits, ties, dresses, and champagne; lots and lots of champagne, not that you’re allowed to drink that, but as Stark Industries is the organiser of the even then I can make sure we have plenty of soda. So, what’s your favourite: Coke, Pepsi, Dr Pepper, Sprite, Fanta…” 

“Uh, I don't- I don't know,” Peter stammered, “just whatever you want is fine with me.” 

“Come on, Kiddo, I want to make this enjoyable for my favourite intern, so what’s your drink of choice?” 

“Uh, Dr Pepper, maybe?” Peter said unsurely. 

“You got it,” Mr. Stark said, “now come on, get your head in the game, we need to rebuild this engine.” 

“Why are we doing this?” Peter wondered, still feeling slightly confused by the conversation that had just occurred, he felt like there was a deeper meaning to it.

“By the time I was your age, I’d lost count of the number of engines I’d rebuilt, this is a young genius’ rite of passage.” 

I’m not a genius, Peter thought to himself but instead of voicing the thought aloud, he focused his attention on the task at hand. Or, he tried to, at least, the truth was that he was slightly caught up on Mr. Stark’s comment about wanting his favourite intern at the Charity Gala. 

Was that his way of saying that he wasn't keeping Peter around because of his Spider-Man abilities, but rather because of his status as a Stark Industries intern? But that couldn't be right, Peter wasn't even a good intern - he usually just fiddled around in the workshop and tried to improve his Spider-Man equipment before attempting to eat Mr. Stark out of house and home. So, why wouldn't he take a better intern to the Gala? And what exactly would be expected of Peter on Saturday? 

“Kid?” Mr. Stark poked Peter’s arm making him jump in shock and his head snapped to the side to see his mentor staring at him with a slightly concerned expression, “you good? You’re off in your own world tonight, I’m starting to get a little worried and you know me; I don’t like to be worried, I like to be blase in most situations.” 

“I’m yeah, I’m good, don’t worry,” Peter lied, “I was just thinking about this US History project I’ve got to hand in soon.” 

“History?” Mr. Stark muttered, screwing up his nose in disgust, “you go to a STEM school, right? Shouldn't they be focusing on the sciences more than history?” 

“Well, you know how it is,” Peter muttered with a shrug, “those who are ignorant of history are doomed to repeat it, and I suppose they have to give us a rounded education.” 

Mr. Stark cast him a dubious glance, “you sure that’s the saying, Bud?” 

“Well, it’s close, I think,” Peter mumbled, “anyways, I like history, I don't think it’s something I’ll pursue as a career but the class is interesting enough.” 

“A career?” Mr. Stark asked jerking back in shock, “in history?”

“Not for me,” Peter repeated, “I don’t know, I’ll probably go into research or scientific development or something, I haven't thought about it in too much detail, to be honest.” 

“You haven't- Kid, what? You should absolutely be thinking about this,” Mr. Stark said, “I know I’ve mentioned this before but I do have some pull at MIT. In fact, I have some pull at almost every college out there, you name it and I could probably get you in. What can I say? People love me.” 

“I just don't want to make a life-changing decision at fifteen,” Peter muttered, “I know I’m going to have to soon, but do you know how much people change and grow? I asked May and she said she’s nothing like the person she was as a teenager, so if that’s going to be the same for me, how do I know that I’ll choose the right career at this point in my life, I’d rather take the time and make that decision.” 

“Alright,” Mr. Stark said, “as much as I’d love to put you through college and have you working full time at Stark Industries, I can understand why you feel that way and it’s quite a mature observation - even though I hate it.” 

“You’d want me working here?” Peter asked with wide eyes. 

“Of course, you’re my favourite intern after all,” Mr. Stark said with what Peter was sure was meant to be a teasing grin, but all he could think about was the swooping in his stomach as those words were repeated. ‘Favorite intern’ was that Mr. Stark’s way of saying he was going to have to act like an intern at the Charity Gala?

He instantly began to feel nauseous, Mr. Stark was dropping hints about the intern thing which meant that he was absolutely expecting Peter to be on the ball at the Gala and he was only used to messing around in the lab. In fact, Peter was fairly sure that he’d never done anything intern-like; Mr. Stark had once asked Peter to turn on the coffee machine and Peter had merely shrugged, shoved a handful of sour patch kids in his mouth, and admitted that he had no idea how to make coffee. 

So really, Peter had never done an intern’s job, he was going into this completely blind. 

“Peter?” Mr. Stark prompted, “are you alright? Was that too much?” 

“I’m fine,” Peter said quickly, as he lurched to his feet, “I just really gotta go and… work on that project.” 

Peter stumbled over the toolbox on the floor, a testament to his distraction as his Spidey-Sense would have usually warned him of such obstructions, and grabbed his backpack off the ground. 

“Peter, wait-” 

But Peter didn't wait, or even hang around outside the door to the workshop to listen to the end of Mr. Stark’s sentence, he ran. Like a coward, his mind supplied. 

He wasn't a coward, he was just… scared that Mr. Stark was going to expect more of him than he was able to give, he didn't know how to be an intern, so really, was it any surprise that no one at school believed him? Ned probably would have eventually lost his trust in Peter after a while if it wasn't for the discovery that he was Spider-Man. 

Peter made his way upwards to the roof, instead of towards the main exit, slipping his web-shooters on over his wrists in preparation to swing home. 

“Peter, Boss has requested that I ask you to stay, at least for ten minutes,” F.R.I.D.A.Y. said, which of course shouldn't have been a surprise considering she was everywhere in the building - except the bathrooms. 

“I can’t,” Peter said, guilt gnawing at his stomach as he spoke, “tell him that I’m sorry for rushing out, and it wasn't anything he said-” that was a lie but Mr. Stark didn't need to feel guilty about expecting Peter to do his job “-and maybe just say I’ll see him on Saturday, although if wants to he could text me the details?” 

“I’ll pass that along,” F.R.I.D.A.Y. said gently, or as gently as a robotic voice could sound, “take care Peter, don't forget your mask and  swing safely.” 

“Thanks, F.R.I.,” he mumbled as the doors to the roof slid open and Peter breathed in the cool NYC evening air.

Taking note of her advice, he pulled his Spider-Man mask out of his backpack and pulled it over his head, he didn't bother changing fully into his suit, he was only going home - he had no plans to stop and fight any crimes. 

“Good evening, Peter, I heard from F.R.I.D.A.Y. that you were distressed, how are you now?” Karen greeted him instantly. 

“Of course you did,” Peter muttered, “I’m fine, don't worry, but can I ask you something?” 

“You just did, but of course I am your A.I. system therefore you can ask me as many questions as you’d like,” Karen told him. 

“Alright,” Peter mumbled, rolling his eyes behind the mask as he wondered whether she had been programmed to respond with that whenever he asked if he could ask a question, “uh, so theoretically if I asked you some questions would you have to tell Mr. Stark what I asked you?” 

“No, he only has override codes in case of an emergency, but I was designed to be yours alone and that must come with some degree of trust.” 

“Right,” Peter said, trying to process her words as he launched himself off the side of Stark Tower and felt the cold wind make his clothes flap in the breeze, his stomach swooped with the familiar, intoxicating fear of falling and he felt himself immediately perk up with the adrenaline rush. 

He waited until he could make out the shocked expressions of the people on the street before he shot a web, feeling the familiar tug on his arms as his fall was broken and he swung in an upwards arc - it felt like he was on a rollercoaster and he couldn't deny that he loved every moment of it. 

He had almost lost himself in the comforting thwips of web-slinging and the soothing breeze when Karen spoke up once more and reminded him of his concerns. 

“Did you want to ask me anything else?” she prompted. 

“Uh, yeah,”  Peter mumbled, “what would an intern typically wear to a Stark Industries Charity Gala?” 

“Mr. Stark doesn't typically take interns to his Galas,” Karen informed him, “however, I know that you’re asking this because you were invited this Saturday, therefore why don't you just wear formal attire.” 

“How did you know that?” Peter asked in a moment of paranoia. 

“I am connected to Tony Stark’s personal server which is the same server as F.R.I.D.A.Y. and she has the finalised guest list for the Gala which includes your name.” 

“Is there anything else there about me?” Peter wondered, “besides my name, that is?” 

“Unlimited access.” 

“Unlimited because I’m an intern, right?” Peter asked, “I have to be able to do what Mr. Stark needs during the Gala?” 

“I don't follow your line of questioning,” Karen said. 

“Yeah, no,” Peter mumbled, “I didn't really follow that either. How about this: what does an intern typically do?” 

“I need more context,” Karen said, “the job role of an intern depends on who they intern for.” 

“Alright, what does an S.I. intern do?” Peter corrected. 

“In which department?” 

“Mr. Stark’s personal intern, what would be expected of that person?” 

“The only person to ever fill that role is yourself, therefore I’m afraid that’s only a question you can answer as it was never an official post therefore I can’t source any information from a job application.” 

“So,” Peter said slowly as he swung, “you’re telling me that only I know the answer to the thing I don't know?” 

“Exactly.” 

“Great,” Peter mumbled, shaking his head to himself.

So basically he was the only person who had ever interned for Mr. Stark, which made sense, after all, Mr. Stark had always had Miss. Potts with him, she had been his assistant before she had taken over everything, therefore why would he need interns? If anything, Miss. Potts was probably the one who had interns, so what if Peter asked her? 

No. 

That wouldn't work, she and him hadn't seen each other a ton and if he went up to her and started asking weird questions she would either assume that he was looking for money or she’d grow suspicious and tell Mr. Stark about him questioning her. 

So, he was essentially lost. There didn't seem to be any clear answer about how to be a good intern for Mr. Stark or what would be expected of him on Saturday. To be fair he should have expected this to be harder than expected, his mentor wasn't one to play by the rules and why should this situation be any different? 

“Are you alright?” Karen asked, “you’re acting strange tonight, your behaviour is sparking concern.” 

“I’m fine,” Peter lied, “just worried about this project thing I have to prepare for school next week.” 

“You know, I am connected to a great deal of information, if you need help with a project, you can always ask me,” Karen reminded him. 

“Yeah, K, I know,” Peter murmured, “I just need to think, alright? I’m fine, I just need some time to myself.” 

“Noted.” 

And with that, she fell silent, finally, and Peter was left to his thoughts and worries. Which he had absolutely planned to do, except a piercing scream breaking through the night distracted him from himself. 

“No, no, please, my husband’s medication is in that bag!” A woman shouted, sounding panicked, “please, no, he has seizures and if you take his meds he will be in danger and my money is in there too, I can’t buy more pills.” 

Peter immediately changed his trajectory, so much for not getting involved in anything, I probably should have put the whole Spidey-Suit on, he thought to himself as his hearing honed in on the desperate sobs coming from an alleyway. 

The scene that met Peter in the alleyway made his blood boil and he felt himself gritting his teeth without meaning to; a lady who looked to be in her late seventies was clutching at her handbag as though her life depended on it, although judging by what Peter had previously heard, her husband’s did. The thief was tugging sharply and slashing the air between them with a sharp blade, he didn't seem to be trying to stab her, but he wasn't exactly being careful. 

“Hey!” Peter shouted, successfully distracting the thief who seemed to jump out of his skin and let go of the lady’s handbag on impulse. 

“Spidey?” the man asked, looking over Peter’s clothes with a confused frown which reminded Peter that he was wearing an incredibly dorky science T-Shirt with an amazing science pun on it, he would probably have to bin the shirt now, or at the very least retire it for a year or so. 

“Stealing a lady’s handbag?” Peter asked, not needing to put much effort into proving that he was disappointed in the guy, “really man? That’s low, especially when she’s told you her husband’s very important medications are in there.” 

“No one asked you, beat it!” 

“I can’t do that,” Peter said, “I’m going to have to insist that you walk away, maybe if you go in the opposite direction I won’t knock you out and call the police.” 

Alright, so maybe that was a lie and Peter was planning to web the guy up and call the cops no matter what he decided. 

“Oh, fuck off,” the man muttered. 

“Hey!” Peter shouted, “language!” 

“Who the fuck do you think you are?” the thief snapped, forgetting about the lady and her handbag in order to focus his attention on Peter. 

He made a quick hand motion to the lady to run, and thankfully she didn't need to be told twice as she instantly broke into a hasty trot away, her heels clicking on the concrete but the thief didn't seem to care, his attention was solely on Peter and the blade in his hands was no longer being held loosely, now it was poised to attack. 

“Woah, dude!” Peter muttered, holding his hands up as he backed off a few steps, “I take it back, you can use whatever language you want.” 

“Why couldn't you just keep swinging?” the man asked as he took a couple of calculated steps forward, “I had this all under control, why the fuck did you think it was a good idea to get involved?” 

“You were stealing that lady’s handbag,” Peter said, “and her husband’s medication, there’s nothing about that situation that is controlled.” 

“It was for me, alright?” the man screamed. 

Uh oh, Peter thought, from experience he had realised that when people were overly emotional, they became unpredictable. This man was armed and seemed desperate.

That was something that Peter occasionally struggled with; he was out almost every night as Spider-Man and often he stopped people who weren't truly bad but they were just in a difficult situation. Did that make him a bad person? Some of those ‘criminals’ were potentially only trying to scrounge money to feed their families. 

He couldn't think like that though because  if he started excusing some people’s bad actions and condemning others’, where did he draw the line? Spider-Man was the person who looked out for the little guy, he stopped crime, he didn't take statements and decide who was guilty or whose actions were justified. If someone did something wrong then he would stop them and that was that. 

“Look, I get you think you have your reasons for this, but it's wrong,” Peter said, “why don't you put the knife away, and maybe we can sort this out without anyone getting hurt?”

“You-” the man broke off, seemingly too angry to form a coherent sentence, instead he lunged forward, knife in hand. 

Peter hadn't been expecting that reaction, he had hoped the man would have been willing to compromise. In a desperate attempt to avoid being impaled on the guy’s blade, Peter forced himself through the air and he hit the ground with a thud, feeling as though something in the side of his chest had cracked. 

“Ouch,” Peter muttered, trying to ignore the whine he could hear in his own voice, he was meant to be the tough hero who fended for those who couldn't fend for themselves, “hey, man, that was seriously not cool.” 

“Shut the fuck up!” 

The man lunged at him again, still holding the knife, and Peter skittered backward like a crab until his back came up against a hard, metal surface: oh, the dumpster.  He desperately needed to get back up on his feet, he was at a serious disadvantage. 

His Spidey-Sense thrummed in alarm and he whirled around just in time to see the moonlight glint off the blade that was flying towards his face - this guy was aiming to kill! In a last-minute, desperate attempt, he pushed himself downwards so that the guy stabbed into the dumpster instead of Peter’s face, the blade cutting through the metal as though it were butter. 

“Dude, what the hell?” Peter gasped out from his place, flat on his back on the damp alleyway ground. 

“Stop moving,” the man grunted as he swung again. 

“What?” Peter asked, “no!” 

Why would he do the one thing that would mean certain death? Sure, he put on a spandex suit on a nightly basis and swung around the city at dizzying heights, but he didn't have a death wish. Besides, his suit had a certain degree of shock absorption ability, and it was cut-proof, which didn't always prevent Peter from getting hurt, but it definitely took away the brunt of his injuries.

Except he wasn't wearing his suit currently… 

He was very much just Peter Parker in a mask, although he did have his web-shooters. His web-shooters! Just as the guy lifted the blade, with two hands, looking as though he was ready to perform a sacrifice, Peter shot a web upwards and pulled himself out from certain death. 

As he flew upwards he felt the man strike one last time, and in his desperation, he succeeded. Pain radiated through Peter as the blade embedded in his thigh and was dragged downwards as Peter’s body moved up.

 “Ah!” Peter called out in agony, the man below in the alley laughed in victory. 

“Got the little bastard!” The man cheered as he started to run. 

Peter wanted to chase after him, web him up and make sure that he would never hurt another person ever, but he was smart enough to know that with the current state of his leg, he wasn't going to be chasing anyone. 

“Karen? You there?” Peter asked, despite knowing that she never went anywhere. 

“I’m here,” she confirmed, “I know you needed time to think, but I would seriously recommend seeking medical attention, you have a large laceration down your right thigh.” 

“I’m aware,” Peter said dryly, or tried to, his humour was shadowed by the pain that was coursing through him. 

“I can contact Mr. Stark if you would like?” she offered, and normally Peter would have said yes, he would have felt relief at the thought of his mentor coming to pick him up from the cold rooftop and taking him back to the tower where he would receive decent pain relief and have his wound cared for immediately. 

But, he couldn't say yes, because he had run out in such a strange way that the next time he saw Mr. Stark the man would undoubtedly have more questions than Peter was ready to answer. 

“No,” he said slowly, “but thanks, Karen, actually though… could you just alert the police to that guy, I don't care what you tell them, just make sure he can't hurt anyone else, please?” 

“Consider it done,” she said. 

Peter let out a breath of relief that he hadn't even realised he’d been holding. It was going to be alright, the cops would pick up the guy before he hurt anyone else, that lady would probably be at home with her husband by now and he could go home and patch himself up before he started to research further into interning at a fancy Gala. 

Or, that had been the plan. 

By the time he made it home, the sun was beginning to reappear in the sky and he could hear the sounds of the city waking up for another day. 

It's a good thing May was on the nightshift, Peter thought to himself as his apartment block finally came into view. 

His jeans were no longer blue, but rather a strange brownish red with the effect of a mixture of dried and still flowing blood. His blood. It wasn't often he ended up covered in his own blood, but these things happened he supposed. 

Taking advantage of the last hour or so of dim light, he carefully crawled up the side of the building, doing his best to make sure there wasn't a blood trail leading up to his window - he wouldn't be able to explain that one away easily. 

“You have a text from Mr. Stark,” Karen informed him. 

“Oh…” Peter mumbled and he painfully crawled through his bedroom window and let his body fall to the carpet with a thump, “what does it say?” 

“One message from Tony Stark, sent two minutes ago: hey Kiddo! I’m not really sure what happened back there, maybe I overstepped by bringing up colleges and working with me, or maybe you’re more interested in Oscorp - although I don't know why didn't you hear about their animal experimentation scandal? Probably not a good time for jokes, but let me know you’re alright, ok? I saw that Karen has been active all night, so try and get some sleep and just know that I’m not mad at all… I’m just a little confused, but there's no pressure here for you to explain what was up. “

“Do you think I upset him?” Peter asked his A.I. carefully as he lay on his bedroom floor, probably creating a mess of blood that he would be forced to scrub at later. 

“I like to think he was honest in the message, I believe he is just confused.” 

“It’s stupid,” Peter mumbled, “like, I shouldn't have freaked out, it was so dumb of me.” 

“Would you like to talk about it?” Karen offered.

“Uh, maybe?” Peter said, “I could keep the mask on while I clean this leg up.” 

“Sounds good,” and if Peter wasn't mistaken, her voice sounded gentle and reassuring, he was lucky that she was a computer program and didn't tire of him, or need to sleep. 

So, Peter carefully pulled himself back to his feet, crying out in agony as soon as he put weight on his bad leg. If the thought of trying to stand once more didn't fill him with dread, he would have crumbled instantly. 

“Shit,” he muttered, he wasn't one for regularly cursing but all things considered he felt the situation called for it, and there was no one around to hear, except Karen. 

He made his way slowly to the bathroom, dragging his leg rather than stepping to try and reduce the amount of muscle movement, not that it mattered, the blood still oozed out and the tearing sensation still made him feel nauseated. 

“I’m going to have so much blood to clean up before May comes home,” Peter whined to Karen as he pushed open the bathroom door, leaving a red smear behind. 

“Would you like me to contact Mr. Stark for you? He can hire a cleaning company,” Karen offered.

“A… cleaning company?” Peter asked, feeling ill at the thought, and not just from the pain he was in, “no, no that’s fine, thanks though.” 

He and May weren't poor per se, but they didn't often have an abundance of money to spare, and the thought of paying someone to come and clean their little apartment, when that money could have been used for gas or food, made Peter feel ill. He already caused their food bill to skyrocket thanks to his enhanced metabolism.

Peter sat down heavily on the side of the bathtub, letting the bright lights hurt his eyes momentarily. 

“Karen?” 

“Yes, Peter?”

“I didn't run out on Mr. Stark because I was upset that he had brought up college or offered me a position at Stark Industries,” Peter admitted, “I mean, it was a bit of a shock, and I know I’m going to have to decide what I want to do with my life soon enough because I can’t live in limbo until I know for sure, but yeah, working with Mr. Stark is the dream.”

“So why did you leave?” Karen asked. 

“He asked me to go to the Charity Gala,” Peter said.

“That’s a bad thing?” 

“No, no, no, not for a normal intern,” Peter admitted, “but for me, yeah, I’ve never actually done anything intern-y in my life, I don't even know how to make coffee because I don't drink it and that one time I tried to make it for May she made me promise to never put her through that again.” 

“So?” 

“So interns get coffee,” Peter said as he inched out of his jeans, the dried blood creating a kind of glue between the fabric and his skin. 

“You have never gotten coffee,” Karen informed him as though that wasn't partially what he was freaking out about. 

“Exactly,” Peter muttered, gently easing his clothing off was causing him too much pain, so he tore the jeans away from the wound in a sharp motion that made stars blink in and out of existence in his line of vision as darkness threatened at the edges. 

He didn't remember slipping off the side of the tub, but just as he thought he was going to lose the fight to stay awake, the fuzziness disappeared from his vision and he was blinking tiredly on the bathroom floor with his leg oozing fresh blood. 

“Peter? Peter!” 

“Ugh,” he groaned, “s’ok, ‘m fine.” 

“I really think it’s about time we sought more professional help,” Karen suggested. 

“No, no, it’s all good,” Peter said as he started to feel less dizzy from the agony, “besides, I was telling you stuff, remember?” 

“Indeed, would you like to continue?” 

“Yeah, uh, so, the coffee thing,” Peter mumbled as he gently nudged his jeans off properly, trying to avoid looking too closely at the blood on his leg as he did so, “well, it’s just that I’ve never done one of the most simple things an intern does, and Mr. Stark was dropping hints about me being an intern, so obviously I need to fill that role at the Charity Gala, but how can I when I don't know what’s expected of me?” 

“Maybe you’re meant to just go and have a good time?” Karen suggested. 

“No, no it’s not that,” Peter was sure, “he mentioned interning a few times, it was very clear that he’s wanting me to step up and actually fill that role.” 

“Why don't you ask him?” 

“What? No way!” Peter said quickly, “I absolutely can't do that.” 

“Why not?” 

“You wouldn't get it,” Peter muttered and ripped the mask off in one smooth action, feeling slightly guilty about cutting off his closest confidant so ruthlessly. 

He tried to ignore the turmoil in his mind and instead focused his attention on the gash on his leg. He carefully pulled himself back up onto the side of the tub and swung around so that he could clean the wound off in the bath. He used the showerhead and rinsed it on the gentlest pressure setting, rubbing at the skin around the laceration to clear it of the dried and congealing blood. 

“What the-” 

For some reason he had expected a long swipe, maybe from upper thigh to his knee, he had not expected the sight he was met with. The wound was the length of his pointer finger, and it was wide. It was almost like someone had cut an oval into his flesh rather than swiping him with a knife.

It needed stitches. 

It probably needed a professional, but Peter was an amateur with a complex against disturbing others and a strong need to avoid Mr. Stark until the Gala, so he was going to have to deal with it himself. How much blood had he lost? How long did he have until this wound became life-threatening? He needed to get his shit together and sort it out. 

Once he had finished rinsing the laceration, he wrapped one of May’s nice yellow towels around it tightly, to try and stem the flow of the blood - a large part of him felt guilty, he was going to have to throw it away and listen to her confused rambles as she wondered what had happened to it. 

“Come on, Peter,” he muttered to himself, “you can do this.”

He forced himself to stand, ignoring how that simple, painful movement made a sudden red appear on the otherwise pristine towel. 

“Gotta close it up,” he muttered as he opened the mirrored cabinet and began to rake through for the first aid kit he knew was hidden in there, various things fell as he searched and clattered into the sink making him glad that he was home alone. 

When he opened the first aid kit, he rummaged until he found the thing he had been looking for; a pack of Steri-Strips. He opened them and read through the information leaflet. 

Only use on shallow, clean, uninfected wounds. Do not use where bleeding is unmanageable or significant. Do not use on hairy, oily areas, joints, the face. Seek medical attention if the wound was a human or animal bite. 

Well, that was a lot of situations in which they were unsuitable and Peter was fairly sure his wound wasn't shallow and he would have said the bleeding was erring on the unmanageable side, but what else could he do? He didn't have any other option, he would have to try.

So he did, he carefully unwound the towel and looked at the nauseating wound on his thigh. He needed to align the edges and hold them in place with the Steri-Strips. It sounded simple… but it was going to hurt. Gritting his teeth, he started to get to work. Small whimpers and whines of pain would escape every now and then as he struggled not to lose himself to the lightheaded feeling that kept coming with the pain. 

The Steri-Strips didn't work as well as Peter had hoped, the edges of the wound weren't exactly lining up and there were parts of the sticky side that were attached to the open part of the wound, which he was sure wasn't meant to happen. But, it was an improvement, and that was all he could ask for. 

He stuck one of the sterile dressings over the top and used the first aid scissors to cut a strip off the towel - he was going to bin it anyways - which he then tied tightly around the affected area to create enough pressure to stop the bleeding. 

“Now to clean up,” he muttered with a slightly delirious laugh that he was putting down to the blood loss. 

Sitting there, with his leg wound cared for - to his best ability - and his throbbing ribs, Peter realised just how tired he was. He still needed to clean up the mess he’d created and research what Mr. Stark would be expecting of him at the Gala. 

He pulled on his mask tiredly, “Karen?” 

“Yes, Peter?” 

“I’m sorry.” 

“I forgive you, what can I do for you?” 

“Can you text Mr. Stark for me and say: sorry for running off like that, don't worry I’ll be at the Gala tomorrow, and I’ll be fully prepared.” 

“Message sent.” 

“Thanks, Karen,” Peter said and laid his head back, fighting the urge to fall into a deep, comforting sleep. He still had so much to do… 

----

By the time Saturday evening arrived, Peter was so nervous he was almost crawling about on the ceiling.

“Oh, Honey, relax would you,” May said with a fond eye roll as she rewatched the tie tutorial that she’d saved after they’d both been mystified by the snakelike fabric on the night of Homecoming. 

“Relax?” Peter asked, his voice a few octaves too high, “May, I can’t just relax, this is the Stark Charity Gala and I am a Stark Intern.” 

“So?” May asked, motioning for him to come closer so she could do up the tie after her third run through of the video. 

“So, I need to be the best intern that has ever been to one of these things, if it gets out that I’m Mr. Stark’s personal intern and I don’t do a good enough job, then my actions will impact negatively on Mr. Stark and I can’t have that!” 

“You need to calm down, Pete,” May said with a laugh, “you’re getting too in your head about this, why don't you just try to have a good time? And maybe go fix your hair.”

“Yeah,” Peter mumbled running a hand through his curls, “hair. I can do that.” 

“Just don't use as much gel as you did last time, alright?” May said, “the curls suit you, the greasy look does not.” 

“Oh ha ha,” Peter mumbled as he made his way out of the living room, pain echoing in every step, but May couldn't know. 

She couldn't know about the thirty dressings he had gone through in the last two days as his leg refused to heal properly, despite his normally impressive healing abilities. She couldn't know about the weird yellowish-green discharge that was escaping constantly or the strange smell he had begun to notice. She couldn't even know about the smattering of dark bruises that spanned across half his ribs and made breathing difficult. 

“Don’t take too long, Peter,” May called after him, “Happy will be here soon and I want to take some pictures of you before you leave.”

Peter looked at himself in the mirror, taking in his ghostly pallor and the bags beneath his eyes, how had he avoided causing May suspicion? He looked terrible, or maybe that was his enhanced sight picking up on things normal people couldn't see. 

He coated his fingers in a light amount of gel and ran them through his hair, enough to style it but not so much that it looked greasy, as May would say. 

“Alright, I’m ready!” Peter declared, walking back into the room to be met with the flash of a camera, “woah! May!” 

“You look so cute!” she said in response. 

“I am not cute!” Peter insisted, “I- I’m- I am the most-” 

“Face it, you’re the cutest,” May said pinching his cheeks gently, before pulling him into a hug that squeezed his ribs painfully, “alright, now, have a good night, alright?” 

“You sure you don't want to come?” Peter asked. 

“Oh no,” May said with a laugh, “I have a bottle of red and a handful of romcoms with my name on them.” 

“Alright,” Peter said, “have a good night.”

“You too, and if you’re staying at the tower, send me a text, ok?” May asked, “I don't want to spend the night worrying about where you are.” 

“You got it!” Peter said with false cheer, he doubted that Mr. Stark would want him to stay over, especially as he hadn't replied to the man since that message while he’d been cleaning his wound up. 

Peter made his way downstairs to see the familiar sleek black car parked by the curb, without hesitating he wandered over to the back door and slipped inside. 

“Hey, Happy!”

Happy grunted in greeting and fixed Peter with a piercing stare through the rearview mirror. 

“Is uh, is everything ok?” Peter wondered nervously.

“I could ask you the same thing,” Happy said, “Tony says you’ve been avoiding his messages.”

“My phone died,” Peter lied. 

“You couldn't charge it?” 

“My charger is broken.”

“You couldn't get a new one?” 

“We’re not all billionaires,” Peter mumbled.

“You could have asked Tony, he would have replaced it in a heartbeat.” 

“How?” Peter asked, “my phone was dead.” 

“Alright, fine, keep your secrets,” Happy grumbled, “just… be careful alright, Kid? Tony is really worried about you and I thought he was maybe overreacting because I know how he can be sometimes, but now I’m beginning to think something might be wrong.” 

“There’s nothing wrong.” 

“Is there anything I can do?” Happy asked, ignoring Peter’s lie. 

“Uh actually, can we go to a Drive-Thru Starbucks on the way?” 

“You… want coffee?” 

“Uh, yeah,” Peter mumbled. 

“Alright, sure,” Happy said, “the first time you’ve actually asked for something so I’m not going to say no.” 

Was it really? 

The server manning the Drive-Thru window looked very confused when Happy pulled up and requested an Americano and a Hot Chocolate, Peter could see her glancing between the two of them, obviously wondering who Peter was and why he was being chauffeured around. 

Maybe she would make up a story for her friends to laugh about, or maybe she was tired and nearing the end of her shift and didn't really care. Either way, Peter slunk back into the seat and looked the other way until Happy handed him the two drinks he had requested. 

“So, what’s with the drinks Kid?” Happy asked. 

“I don't know how to make coffee,” Peter admitted as though that was an appropriate answer. 

“Alright,” Happy said and he sighed deeply, “do you… do you normally drink coffee?” 

“What? No, this stuff could kill me,” Peter said, “ever since becoming Spider-Man, I have bad reactions to caffeine.”

“Bad reactions?” Happy asked, his eyes narrowing at Peter through the mirror. 

“Oh yeah, you know; palpitations, heart arrhythmias, rashes, jitters, headaches, projectile vomiting, occasional hallucinations, collapsing episodes, cra-”

“So it’s bad?” Happy interrupted. 

“Yeah, it’s pretty bad,” Peter agreed. 

“So…” Happy trailed off, looking seconds away from pulling over so that he could tear the coffee from Peter’s hands and throw it, “why exactly did we get you a coffee?”

“Oh, this isn't for me.”

“Peter, Kid, come on, you’ve got to give a little here,” Happy muttered, “why did we get a coffee if it’s not for you and you can't even drink the damn stuff?” 

“It’s for Mr. Stark,” Peter said as though that should have been the most obvious thing in the world.

“And pray tell, why are you getting a coffee for Mr. Stark before the Charity Gala?” 

“Because I’m an intern.”

“Of course,” Happy muttered, looking about ready to drive them off the bridge they were currently crossing, “why did I even need to ask?”

The divider slowly raised between them as Happy muttered his statements of disbelief under his breath. 

-----

“There he is!” Mr. Stark said cheerfully as Peter walked into the room, Americano in hand, “I was starting to worry you wouldn't show up.”

“I promised I would,” Peter said, despite Mr. Stark’s words he could see the worry in the older man’s eyes, “oh uh, here, I brought you coffee.”

“Coffee?” Mr. Stark asked, taking the drink from Peter and looking at it in confusion, “you brought me a coffee?” 

“Yeah,” Peter said, “I hope it’s alright.”

The worry only seemed to intensify rather than lessening, was Mr. Stark that concerned about Peter messing up in public? If so, why should he invite him? 

“Thanks, Kiddo,” Mr. Stark said, taking a polite sip from the cup, “anyway, why don't I introduce you to some people.”

“Sounds good, but maybe I could go to the toilet first?” Peter asked, “it was a long drive and I may have had a hot chocolate.” 

“Great, a sugar hyped kid,” Mr. Stark joked, “go on then, scram, you don't need my permission.”

Things seemed to be going smoothly enough until Peter walked out of the bathroom to find his Spidey-Sense thrumming away with a sense of urgency. Just as he started to look for the source of danger, a hand fisted into the fabric at the back of his neck and he was tugged to the side harshly. 

“Where have you been?” a man asked angrily, “and what are you doing out here without even a tray of drinks?” 

“I uh-”

“Shut up!” the man snapped, ���I don't know who your daddy is or whose ass he had to kiss to get you this job but if you’re going to work tonight I need professionalism.” 

“I’m not-”

“I said ‘shut up’!” the man shouted once more, giving Peter a little shake to further drive his demand home. Peter was surprised to find himself slightly afraid, and the shake had hurt his ribs and pushed a little too much pressure down his sore leg. 

“Please, Sir,” Peter begged, “I’m not working.”

“Oh you absolutely are,” the man snapped, “you think you can sneak through here and meet Iron Man?” 

“I didn't-” 

“I have half a mind to kick you out into the gutter,” the man continued, “you are a disappointment to all of us in the service industry, you are meant to remain professional at all times, which doesn't mean fishing around for secrets and autographs.” 

“I wasn't!” 

“Liar!” 

The man tightened his grip and started marching Peter forward as though he was a disobedient child. 

“Sir, listen, please,” Peter pleaded, “Mr. Stark is waiting for me.” 

The man froze, his grip tightening momentarily, and Peter’s Spidey-Sense blared louder. 

“You disturbed Tony Stark?” 

“No! No, no, no!” Peter insisted, “I came here with him, I’m his intern.”

“That’s a lie,” the man said, “Stark Industries never brings interns to these events, now come with me or I’m going to end up kicking you out on your ass and blacklisting you from ever working an event in New York ever again.” 

“You can’t make me do anything,” Peter grumbled, trying to twist out of the man’s hold but being restricted by the pain in his leg and side, he wasn't going to be able to free himself, “you have to let me go?”

“Or what?” the man asked with a sneer in his voice, “what are you going to do about it?” 

“Him? Probably nothing, he’s far too polite for his own good, but me? That’s another story entirely,” Peter felt the grip loosen in a second and he almost crashed to the floor from the relief of it, only for Happy to grab his elbow and stabilise him. 

“Thanks, Happy,” Peter whispered, knowing the man would hear him. 

“You’re Tony Stark’s security,” the man who had grabbed Peter stated with a dumb expression on his face. 

“Yes, and you were manhandling one of the people I am here to protect,” Happy said seriously, Peter had often wondered how Happy - with his tendency to get overstressed and his annoyance at most living things - had become the Head of Security at Stark Industries, but now, looking at him confronting the man, he had no doubts that Happy deserved that title. 

“I wasn't- manhandling?” the guy asked, “that’s a bit… harsh, wouldn't you say?” 

“I call it as it is,” Happy said, “care to explain?” 

“I thought the kid was one of my waiters.”

“Did you recognise him?” Happy asked. 

“Well, no, but there are a lot of them, it’s difficult to know them all,” the man said. 

“That’s dangerous,” Happy said, “it’s fortunate for you that I personally run background checks on everyone working this function, but if you’re not even able to recognise a stranger among your employees then I feel like you won’t have a future organising events for Stark Industries.” 

“Wait, no, you can't do that!” the man insisted, “this is my biggest job of the year.” 

“It’s a shame you care so little about it then, imagine not caring enough to learn your employees’ names?” 

“It was a misunderstanding!” 

“Peter, did you try to tell this man you weren't a waiter”? Happy asked patiently. 

“I uh said that I’m an intern and that Mr. Stark was waiting for me,” Peter admitted, feeling a little guilty for the ashen look that came over the man’s face when he realised that Peter had been telling the truth, after all, how else would the head of security know Peter’s name? 

“Mr. Stark is in fact waiting for you,” a familiar voice broke in, “and he’s not a patient man, what is going on here?” 

The man now looked positively grey as he tried to look anywhere but at the confused and impatient billionaire before him, Peter however noticed the way Mr. Stark’s eyes narrowed in on the crumpled fabric by Peter’s neck and the sheen of panicked sweat on his forehead. 

His mentor looked questioningly at Happy, “well?”

“This is Bernard Kyting,” Happy said, and Peter was sure in that moment that Happy knew absolutely everyone in the room’s name and face, “he is the owner of the company that organised this Gala, he is also the man that just manhandled Peter and attempted to kidnap him.” 

“Kidnapping? What no!” 

“Uh, Happy, he wasn't going to kidnap me,” Peter said hesitantly. 

“Are you sure?” Happy asked seriously, “because we should operate on the worst-case scenario and him trying to force you to go somewhere against your will without listening to you say you’re an intern and that Tony was waiting for you sounds bad to me.” 

“It would probably sound bad to the police too,” Mr. Stark agreed thoughtfully. 

“You’re not serious!” Bernard gasped. 

“I’m deadly serious when it comes to Peter’s safety,” Mr. Stark said. 

“Mr. Stark, I really don't think-”

“Hush Peter, we’re handling this,” Mr. Stark said, “actually, don’t hush, Happy will handle this and I am going to show you off to all the stuffy businessmen here, let’s make them all insecure as a twelve-year-old shows them up.”

“Mr. Stark, I’m fifteen,” Peter said, rolling his eyes.

“Exactly, now come on.” 

Maybe it was the anxiety that had been festering in his stomach since he’d been invited to the Gala, or maybe it was the stress of almost being roped into working as a waiter for a high-end Gala, or maybe it was even the blood loss he’d recently suffered… maybe the reason didn't matter, because it was kind of irrelevant. 

The important thing was that Peter suddenly found himself falling forward. 

He felt hands grab at him to try and stop him from crashing against the ground, but they caught him exactly where his ribs were sore and Peter screamed and everything flashed a brilliant, agonising white before the darkness suddenly crept in. 

------

When Peter woke up he was partially surprised that he had actually passed out and partially relieved that he had passed out. He had managed to completely avoid the stress of pretending to know how to act as an intern. 

He tried to sit up, only to gasp and fall back against the pillows as his ribs announced their displeasure at the sudden movement, “oh,” he murmured under his breath as he tried to catch what little of it was left thanks to the pain. 

“I wouldn't recommend that,” a smooth voice said from beside him, Peter turned his head to see Mr. Stark sitting there, looking over his tablet at him.

“Hey,” Peter mumbled, trying to avoid eye contact. 

“You have three fractured ribs,” Mr. Stark informed him casually, “which wouldn't normally concern me too much because I get it, it kinda comes with the job, no matter how good you are, you usually end up a little banged up.”

Peter nodded solemnly, not wanting to speak up because he got the impression that Mr. Stark was nowhere near finished. 

“However, imagine my surprise when I lift your unconscious body up off the floor and find myself with a patch of blood on my new grey suit,” Peter winced, yeah, there it was, “so of course, there’s complete pandemonium, we think there’s an assassin in the Gala, we lock the place down and organise S.H.I.E.L.D.’s medics to attend. The highest of all security is on alert and preparing to raid the building, only for us to find that you have a stab wound, that looks to be a few days old on your leg.” 

“Oh, that,” Peter mumbled. 

“Oh that, yes that,” Mr. Stark snapped, “what the hell were you thinking not telling me about that?”

“It happened after I left the other day,” Peter admitted, “and I thought I’d managed to deal with it myself.” 

“You thought-” Mr. Stark broke off and sighed, pinching his nose between his thumb and forefinger, “do you realise how irresponsible that was?” 

“It was fine,” Peter mumbled. 

“Fine?” Mr. Stark questioned, his voice rising an octave from the shock of hearing such a thing. 

“I have healing powers,” Peter said. 

“Kid, you’re still human, you still need appropriate medical care and time to recuperate after getting hurt,” Mr. Stark said gently, “you’re not a machine, no one expects you to be able to keep going without looking after yourself.” 

“I guess,” Peter whispered. 

“And you had no idea what you were doing, did you?” Mr. Stark asked although it seemed like he already knew, “those Steri-Strips were totally inappropriate for that wound.”

“I know,” Peter said, looking down, “I just didn't have anything else.” 

“You had your phone.” 

Peter cast him a confused look, “my phone? They don't like blood or moisture that much.” 

“To… call me,” Mr. Stark said slowly, looking at Peter with a strange mix of disappointment and amusement, “you’re a smart kid, but would you really think to put your phone on a bloody wound before using it to call me.” 

“Uh, not usually,” Peter said, “but this kinda happened after I left yours the other day.”

“Ah,” Mr. Stark murmured, seemingly understanding something that Peter hadn't yet explained. 

“What?” Peter asked, feeling unnerved by the older man’s sudden understanding. 

“I freaked you out with all that talk of colleges and coming to work for Stark Industries,” Mr. Stark said quietly. 

“What? No!” Peter almost shouted, jerking upright in the bed despite the pain in his ribs that threatened his ability to breathe, “Mr. Stark, that’s not at all what happened.” 

“No?” Mr. Stark asked, arching an eyebrow curiously. 

“No, of course not,” Peter mumbled, “I mean, yeah, I wasn't ready to think about that sort of thing, but it would be an honour to work for you in the future, but Mr. Stark, I realised that I’m a really bad intern.” 

“What- Kid, no,” Mr. Stark said quickly.

“I am!” Peter argued, “I don’t know how to make coffee, I don't know how to sort paperwork, I don't know what else interns actually do! There’s no way you can say I’m good at it when I don't even understand my own job description. You invited me to the Charity Gala as your intern and I freaked out because I didn't want to embarrass you, I wanted to make a good impression.”

“Kid, I invited you to the Gala as you,” Mr. Stark said, “we both know the internship is a fake formality to keep your alter ego a secret and give you a boost in your college applications.” 

“So, you’re not mad that I don't know how to make coffee?” 

“I never was,” Mr. Stark said, “wait… is this why you brought me an Americano earlier?” 

Peter nodded guiltily, “yeah…” 

“Kid, you absolutely did not have to do that, although I must admit since I’m staying away from all the fun stuff now, it was rather nice to have,” Mr. Stark said, “I wanted you there so you could have a good time and so that I could brag about how amazing you are.” 

Peter couldn't stop the warmth that spread over his cheeks and he ducked his head.

“I just didn't want to be a disappointment,” Peter mumbled. 

“Kiddo, you could never,” Mr. Stark sounded as though he had never been more sure about anything, “I’m slightly upset that you didn't come to me about this wound, but I get that your teenage brain works in mysterious mystery ways.”

“I tried my best with it,” Peter mumbled. 

“It’s infected.” 

“I didn't say my best was good,” Peter continued, he pulled the blankets to the side to look at the wound on his leg only to find that the bloody, yellowing dressing he had last seen was gone and had been replaced by a bright white one with only a tiny amount od seepage. “You fixed it.”

“Well, my doctor did,” Mr. Stark corrected, “I called him in and we gave you some of Cap’s meds to keep you a little out of it while we cleaned it up and you’re now the proud owner of some stitches.”

“Oh cool,” Peter mumbled. 

“Stitches are cool?” Mr. Stark asked with a raised brow, perhaps he was questioning Peter’s sanity. 

“No, I got Captain America’s drugs!” Peter said with a smirk, “he always tells us not to do drugs in those PSAs so this is a wonderful twist of medicated irony.” 

“Yeah, I think they’re still in your system a little,” Mr. Stark muttered, “so since you’re still a little dopey, I think now would be a good time to remind you that you have three fractured ribs and you’re not allowed to go out as Spider-Man until they’re fully mended.” 

“Wait… what?” Peter protested, “why?” 

“Swinging will put a strain on them and cause you pain meaning you could flinch and fall, or you could receive another blow and worsen the damage,” Mr. Stark said, “come on, Underoos, you were just bragging about your healing powers, it won’t be forever.” 

“But…” Peter hesitated. 

“But what?” 

“If I can’t be Spider-Man will I still be allowed to come to the workshop?” Peter asked and he focused his attention on fiddling with the sheets rather than facing the look he knew Mr. Stark would cast towards him. 

He wasn't ready for the ‘why would you come to the workshop if you’re not needing upgrades?’ response, the one that he knew in his head he was about to receive.

“Kid, what?” Mr. Stark responded instead, “look at me, Peter.”

Peter blinked back the tears that were building in his eyes, trying his best not to appear childish and weak before the man who had been his hero since he was a child. 

“Pete, c’mon Kiddo,” Mr. Stark said gently, and Peter found himself unable to avoid him any longer, “I don’t know why you have this idea that I only care about Spider-Man, because you are always going to be my number one priority.”

“But-”

“Uh uh,” Mr. Stark cut him off, “no, you need to listen to this. I’m Tony Stark, do you really think I would have a fifteen-year-old kid running around my home if I didn't want him there? Do you think I’d be texting his Aunt and arranging transport for him when she’s at work? Would I have a ridiculous amount of food and sweet things in my kitchen? Would I brag about him to my colleagues and competitors?” 

“But we spend so much time designing stuff for Spider-Man?”

“Because you are Spider-Man and no matter how much I wish you had a safer hobby, I know that you won’t quit helping people just to stop the greying of my hair and the wrinkles that are forming. So instead of sitting here panicking about you getting brutally killed, I help you develop things that will ensure your safety - which you then bypass by trying to teat that wound by yourself.”

“Oh,” Peter mumbled, how had he gotten it so wrong? “I’m sorry.”

“Kid, don't apologise,” Mr. stark said, “listen, I’m the one who’s sorry for making you think that I only cared about Spidey, I know I’m as Pepper would say “emotionally constipated” but I really do care about you and your dorky interests.”

Peter couldn't help but smile, “well, in that case, I’m sorry for freaking out about the intern thing, and for hiding my injuries from you.” 

“Those are apologies I can accept,” Mr. Stark said with a smile, “although, I wouldn't be opposed to you turning up with coffee more, especially when we both know Happy’s the one paying for it, just… not Starbucks, ok? Try some smaller places, support local businesses and all that jazz.” 

“MJ would love that you said that,” Peter mumbled. 

“Yeah, yeah, come on then,” Mr. Stark said, his knees cracking as he stood and stretched.

“Come on?” Peter repeated, “where are we going?” 

“Someone has to explain all of this to your aunt and I’m not taking the blow on my own,” Mr.Stark said. 

“You can’t throw me under the bus,” Peter protested, “I’m injured.”

“Yeah, and I will be too if you’re not there to soften the blow.” 

Peter grumbled under his breath as he clambered out of the comfortable bed, May was going to be so pissed at him, in fact, he’d be lucky if he lived to see his Spidey-Suit ever again. Maybe he should write a will, did he had time for that? 

He was pulled out of his thoughts by Mr. Stark moving to his side to support his weight so that he didn't step too heavily on his sore leg. 

“You don’t have to help me,” Peter said, “I’ve been walking on it since I hurt it.”

“Yeah and look how that ended up,” Mr. Stark muttered, “anyways, this is as much for me as it is for you. May won’t kill me if she thinks I’m holding you up.”

“You’re using me!” Peter protested. 

“Now he gets it.” 

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Hi💛your posts are really interesting. Could you do one for June 4th?

Language Of Birthdays: June 4 - Gemini

[You can find the rest of the series here; or check out my masterlist]

The Day Of Critical Expertise

Because of their quick minds and facility with language, June 4 people generally attract attention. When speaking on a subject they can be positively inspirational but when expressing disagreement they are rarely nuanced or diplomatic. Although not necessarily suited for leadership roles, those born on this day may nonetheless find themselves at the top. They can feel insecure in such a position, and must therefore guard against autocratic behavior. Ultimately, they are happier when working as an empowered member of a team.

June 4 people should beware of surrendering their cherished flexibility in favor of strict rules, dogma and dubious obligation. Those born on this day are never happier than when in the learning stages of a profession or interest, acting the role of student or apprentice and working to perfect themselves. It is important that they always have new projects on the horizon because they can quickly grow dissatisfied with any sort of constricting work that limits their development. In the worst cases, they can take out these frustrations on their family, friends and co-workers.

June 4 people should put their verbal skills to work in a constructive way, because their critical observations, no matter how insightful, can arouse antagonism. In a word, they should focus less on objective truth and more on human relations. Cultivating a sense of humour relatively free of sarcasm can contribute greatly to this end.There is no denying the technical skills of those born on this day. and they often become experts in their field or at least sought after in the workplace. Many June 4 people not only excel at what they do, but are able to bring a healthy dose of structure to their environment. Though they may have mixed feelings about making decisions for others, their organizational skills are impressive, and they are capable of moulding diverse individuals into a cohesive and effectual unit.

June 4 people usually give weight to their intuition, their hunches, and rightly so. They should never make the mistake of thinking too much and allowing the mental pan of them to undermine this intuitive power. Often workaholics, they must guard an emotional life likely to dry up if they throw themselves into too many endeavors. Physical urges, both for recreation (competitive sports) and sex. should not be suppressed but expressed. Those born on this day must take time to demonstrate affection for those they love, and to engage in simple daily acts of kindness. Accepting affection is not a problem for June 4 people but accepting help can well be. Learning to both give and receive is an important and ongoing part of their development as human beings.

Strengths:

Mental

Verbal

Intuitive

Weaknesses:

Demanding

Overcritical

Stressed

Advice

Unless June 4 people keep active, they can put on a lot of weight in middle age. Therefore, competitive sports are highly recommended not only for this reason but also to work off aggression. Heavy smoking and drinking are extremely debilitating and must be avoided at all costs. Over a lifetime, a nervous system can go through great changes and though June 4 people may have to calm down a bit in their youth they must later guard against becoming sedentary and complacent. As the years pass, the key for them is to maintain vitality while channeling and conserving their energy. Often traditionalists in regard to eating habits. June 4 people should experiment with new cuisines and food items in order to include a wider variety of nutrients and trace elements in their diet. Acquiring culinary skills is perhaps the best way to expand dietary horizons.

Tune in to your higher self

Seek guidance on your path

Don't be afraid to ask for help, it will be given

Accept yourself as you are. and likewise be more loving and forgiving of others

Take frequent vacations from your work

Learn to do nothing sometimes and empty your mind

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Dusk Till Dawn (Shinsou Hitoshi X Reader) FINALE

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Summary: Although you and Shinsou are back home, the two of you realize that things aren’t the same anymore after everything you’ve been through. 

This is it everyone... the Final chapter of Dusk Til Dawn!!! Waaaaah…. I’m really surprised that this actually got a lot of likes and many people liked this series... but unfortunately all good things must eventually end and I rather liked this one myself... it was one of my favorite things to write yet... so... I really hope ya’ll like this ending to it all...

Warnings: Some graphic violence, gore and sexual situations.

Featuring: Our Purple Boi!! <3 

Chapter 11 (END): Human

ONE WEEK LATER…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hAiwz2QX-zQ

Although you managed to go to sleep that one night after knowing that your former warden was dead, at the same time you woke up exhausted. Your dreams made you want to stay in bed, because every time you closed your eyes you could only see Shinsou.

Only him…

This entire week was supposed to be your recovery week and yet you still didn’t feel normal. You were eating properly and hydrated now that you had water, and you had rested up well and attended school like normal with Shinsou.

Except he had been avoiding you, only waving at you every now and then without truly acknowledging you and you hated it. You hated that he was just blowing you off after everything you had been through together. What the fuck was his deal? And why the fuck did he have to be on your mind?

Every morning, you could feel the warmth flushing your face as you tried desperately to get him out of your mind, and yet you couldn’t. You were able to train with Present Mic and it distracted you for only a few moments until he came back to your head. He almost felt like some kind of drug that was putting you through a kind of fucked up withdrawal.

There’s no way you could go through withdrawal over a person though. It felt ridiculous and you felt ridiculous for even thinking about it. Still, you did try to reach out to Shinsou, but whenever you tried to call him he never answered, and whenever you texted him, he would barely reply with anything meaningful.

‘How’s it Going?’

You had texted him that over 5 hours ago because it was a weekend and you were sure he must have had some kind of break before training with Aizawa or something. Present Mic had given you the day off though, allowing you to rest up since he was well aware that you had the boy on your mind. And although it embarrassed you that the surprisingly sharp Present Mic knew this, you still appreciated it.

‘Ok.’

You growled a little bit in annoyance at such a blasé response, all that waiting and he just gives you an ‘ok’? That fucking jerk… 

Trembling slightly, you took a deep breath and willed the tears to stay at bay because you didn’t want to get upset over this and you instantly put your earbuds in to let music distract you from these feelings...

Only your phone didn’t even save you when you heard one of your favorite songs...

But you'll never be alone I'll be with you from dusk till dawn I'll be with you from dusk till dawn Baby, I'm right here

Now you were sure God must have hated you, or your phone hated you because this damn song of all songs was playing. It just made the pain even worse as you put it on pause. Your heart aching as it sent you tumbling to your bed, clenching your sheets as you let some tears fall and drip into your pillow.

It felt so wrong…

To be on this bed all by yourself, and Shinsou wasn’t there. You hated to think that you grew dependent on him, because you knew that it wasn’t healthy. But still you found yourself longing for him, crying for him because after suffering with him, getting close to him, it was impossible for you to not become attached to him.

Even if you were both rescued, you still felt that attachment. You just wanted him to be with you right now, but it seemed like he was just trying to distance himself from you.

You couldn’t deal with it, it was becoming painful, so you ultimately went to your contacts and turned to the person you always went to in doubt…

“Hello? (Y/N)?”

Momo’s voice snapped you out of your brief little stupor, and you shakily sighed, “H-Hi Momo…”

“Good afternoon! How are you feeling?” She was still so considerate, even after your recovery week she was still trying to make sure that you were okay.

“I’m uh… feeling okay…” You were starting to feel bad for probably bugging her, Yaoyorozu probably had other things to take care of and yet here you were, bothering her for advice over fucking boy troubles of all things. And on top of that the girl was so innocent you were starting to realize that this maybe wasn’t a good idea because you didn’t really think ahead…

“Oh?” She knew better though, more than you thought, “Sorry to say but you sound a little bit dubious. Are you sure you’re okay?” Yaoyorozu was book-smart but she understood people too and their feelings, especially when that person was you since the two of you got along quite well.

“No…” You knew you couldn’t lie to her, because you’d feel bad if you did. “Sorry for bothering you but… I just had to tell someone and… you were the first person I thought of… Izuku and Katsuki can’t help me this…” Yaoyorozu paid her full attention to you and would only speak if it seemed that you were finished.

“You shouldn’t apologize if you feel the need to tell someone something (Y/N), I’m here for you to talk to.”

It took all of your willpower to not start crying, but you still had to wipe your eyes as you let out a small, breathy giggle, “Okay… you broke me… damn Momo… hee-hee… well…” You took a deep breath so you could calm yourself down.

“You know how I… told you and… Tsuyu and Ochaco… about what I had been through with Hitoshi?” You started off small hearing a small hum of agreement, “That’s… that’s just it… ever since I… from the moment I got captured and saw that he was with me, it’s… it’s just taken over my mind. I think about him a lot now, sometimes he’s all I think about… I try to distract myself and yet he just somehow comes to my mind.”

Sighing heavily, you could practically see Shinsou right now, the way he smiled at you those times just to try and make you feel better when you were scared, or when you actually got him to chuckle at a terrible joke you told to also lighten up his spirits when he was doubting himself out there in the cold.

You missed him… you fucking missed him so much.

“See I… know it was probably because it was just us out there but… I can’t fight it… I just… wish he would talk to me again… he’s been distant since we got rescued… and I don’t know what’s… I don’t know what’s the matter with him… I feel like… maybe he wants to move on… or that… maybe he didn’t feel… what I felt. I mean he’s not obligated too but I just… I would just like it if he would at least talk to me…” You finally admitted the root of it all, telling her how much you just wanted to talk to him again and be near him again, even though it didn’t seem like he wanted to.

“I see.” Yaoyorozu took it all in, and nodded where she was as she tried to think about what solutions there were for you. “I know Midoriya already told you this but it is likely that he’s still going through a form of shock. Maybe even post-traumatic stress disorder… like you.” She said, and your eyes widened a little bit, and you felt so stupid for not even thinking about that.

Ever since you returned home the doctors did diagnose you with PTSD because sometimes you could still feel like you were back on the mountain, because there had been brief moments where you would get this dreading feeling of fear that made you feel like you were still in the cold again. Like you were still imprisoned, but when that wave of horror settled you remembered where you really were at.

“Y-You’re right…”

“However… I can’t be a good judge of Shinsou because I don’t know him that well, but you do, he’s your friend… you’ve told me about him, and the things he did for you out there, and the things you did for him out there.” She said rather softly but you couldn’t help but blush a bright shade of red, having told only your closest girl-friends Yaoyorozu, Tsuyu and Ochaco about the more intimate things you and Shinsou had done together to survive.

You narrowly avoided telling them about being naked with him, but you knew that Yaoyorozu knew because she knew what to do in those situations. But of course, you were amazed that she didn’t get flustered or embarrassed by it like Tsuyu and Ochaco did, the poor girls went bright red in the face when you told them, and you had blushed just as terribly. Sweet, innocent Momo didn’t, she understood that it was because of the two of you had to warm up…

But she also knew that it meant something to you.

“You were both prisoners, and friends… he protected you, it’s the same as becoming attached to someone who also does those things for others, the heroes we admire… but it sounds like for you, it’s deeper than just that… you sound really sad that he’s distancing himself from you, and if you can’t stop thinking about him…” Yaoyorozu almost sounded slightly uncertain, but she also sounded fairly positive too about what she was thinking and you were becoming afraid of it because you were starting to pick up on what she was thinking…

“(Y/N)… I think you might be in love with him.”

She finished her sentence, and your whole face started to warm at such a thought, your eyes slightly wide as you felt very hot all of a sudden. Momo’s words making perfect sense, even though secretly you already had a feeling that you had developed feelings for Shinsou, but you were trying to deny them, and maybe have Momo convince you that it was something else…

But your friend was much too smart for that.

“(Y/N)? (Y/N) are you there? Hello?”

You must have been silent for quite a while since she sounded a little bit worried and you shook your head with a small gasp, “Y-Yes, yes I’m here I’m sorry…” Sheepishly you apologized but the girl quickly reassured you.

“Anyway… I recommend trying to speak with him, if you want to see him, you should go to him.” She rather simply suggested, as if it was the easiest thing in the world, and just thinking about it made you feel like your body was sinking. You had no idea why you were feeling so nervous, after all you and Shinsou already saw each other naked and doing other things no one else should have seen either of you do so why were you feeling so nervous?

“I-I… I don’t know… he’s… really been aloof I… what if he doesn’t want to even see me…?”

“Well… it’s going to be difficult I’m sure, but I think it’s necessary for the both of you. I think that the two of you need your closure, for your health and for your friendship.” Yaoyorozu rationalized calmly and yet kindly as you smiled a little bit. Although you felt a bit nervous when she said ‘friendship’ even though she knew that you definitely felt like more than friends, but at the same time you knew you had to prepare for possibilities in that maybe Shinsou didn’t feel the same way after all…

You let out a huge sigh, glad that you were able to get this off your chest after such a long time of just keeping quiet. “Thank you Momo… you have no idea how much I need to talk… I can’t thank you enough…”

“It’s no problem! I’ll never turn down a friend’s need to talk.” She said in a somewhat giggly and cheerful tone as you chuckled a little bit, “Hehe… thanks again… I will… definitely do that though. I’m going to talk to Hitoshi… and tell him how I feel.” This time, you sounded more determined as your friend giggled a little bit.

“Wonderful! Please do tell me how that goes afterward!” She nearly exclaimed with a very excited, girlish voice which made you giggle and smile, “Of course girl! I totally will… just like… I’m totally gonna go to Hitoshi… he can’t hide from me forever…” 

AT SHINSOU’S HOUSE

“HeeeehTCHHH!”

Shinsou lurched forward as he let out a sudden sneeze, irritably rubbing his nose and wondered where in the world that came from. He got over his cold days ago, there’s no way he could still have it. Not after he had been perfectly fine for the past week…

Only he wasn’t fine, he wasn’t fine at all in fact. He made sure to avoid you the second he saw you with your friends, where you belonged, and he went back where he belonged, alone to focus on his goal to become a hero. He saw what happened on the news and the prison fire that killed Koru. At first he was horrified and shocked to figure out that the man who tormented you and him died so suddenly and was killed by that villain Dabi…

At first he thought that it couldn’t have been a coincidence, but his brain and his heart reminded him about something more important. The villain was dead, he wouldn’t hurt anyone anymore, and he wouldn’t hurt him or you anymore, and he was beyond thankful for that. It meant that it was truly over.

The ordeal was finally over, and so that meant it was time to go back to normal, there was no need to think about you anymore.

So he told himself…

He felt so guilty for ignoring your calls and not texting back with hardly any real effort or thought, but he couldn’t just be a distraction for you. The two of you could still be friends, but after all of that, he just wanted to return to his normal life.

But why was it so hard?

Why couldn’t he get you out of his head?

He couldn’t let that plague his mind, not again. Some nights you were consistently on his mind, just showing up every time he heard a song that he knew you would like, and every time he thought about that anime you wanted to watch with him.

That’s right…

You and he were supposed to watch Gakkou Gurashi together. There was no way he could do that now, not when he was feeling some type of way that he couldn’t help. It would make things weird, he was sure it would. The two of you weren’t trapped anymore, you were both free and back to your lives, why make it weird when things were supposed to be normal?

Sighing, he shook his head and downed the melatonin pills that were supposed to help him sleep as he lied down in his bed, something he had missed after being forced to sleep on either a cot or a dead man’s bed. That was the only thing that he got to enjoy when he came back, the comfort of his home, and his awkward mom and dad…

At least he had those things for comfort. And he made sure to think about those things as he slowly drifted off into a moment of sleep…

When Shinsou opened his eyes, he found himself back in the snow, the dots of white falling from the sky and sheets of ice unpleasantly familiar as he realized that he was running and saw the trees, he saw you…

“These are large enough for you to hide in. Get in, right now.” He had to push you so you could get in between the twisted tree that would hide you from the villains, but you didn’t want him to leave you.

“Come on…!”

He hated seeing you so scared and yet he loved to see your face, your soft (S/C) skin, your (E/C) eyes so full of life, the face he had grown to really love. Only you looked terrified and he hated it, he wanted to see you smile. That’s why he had to make sure you would live on, even if it meant being a distraction for the villains…

“Hitoshi no… please… don’t… don’t go please… please, please don’t… don’t leave me pleeeease…”

Your plea broke his heart, and he knew that this might be his last and final moment with you in this damn world, but he couldn’t stay here any longer even if he didn’t want to leave you either. Quietly he whispered to you…

“I love you (Y/N)…”

Shinsou awoke with a gasp, and he quickly sat up from his bed with slightly wide eyes when the memory crept in his mind just to plague him with these feelings, consuming him as he automatically shuddered, not noticing how he had started sweating as his neck, cheeks and pits had grown damp with perspiration.

“Shit…!”

He cursed quietly when he realized that those damn pills didn’t do a damn thing to help him sleep. Then again, the pills couldn’t do anything about bad memories, logically he knew that but he wanted to blame something. Yet he mostly blamed himself, for getting so hung up on something that he should be over.

He wasn’t over it at all.

Shinsou remembered what he said to you, but you didn’t even hear the words. He was happy, he was glad that you didn’t know what he felt, in that moment. He felt that in the moment, but the more he told himself that, the more his heart ached and felt like it wanted to just crawl out of his chest. These feelings, combined with the memories stirred inside of him and made him nauseous as he shakily got up out of bed and grabbed his phone…

Stumbling as quietly as possible through the hallway of his family’s apartment, he shakily got himself a glass of water in an attempt to calm himself the fuck down. It wasn’t working…

He downed the cool liquid as it felt pleasant on his throat, but only for a second as he sighed in annoyance, setting the glass down as he clenched his fists and grit his teeth. It felt like his legs were going to give out so he moved as quickly as he could back to his room. His knees wobbling the second he got inside as he closed the door and clumsily made his way back to his bed to sit on. Putting his head in his knees, as he tangled his fingers in his rat’s nest that he called hair.

There was no way he was going to get to sleep tonight, so he settled for just listening to music until his body forces him to pass out. Quickly he put his earbuds on and went to his playlist on shuffle.

Every breath you take…

He scoffed at the first thing his phone played, instantly skipping it to another hopefully better song that wasn’t a fucking love song.

Say something I’m giving up on you…

“Seriously?” Shinsou grunted in annoyance, skipping over to another song as soon as he heard that one.

I don’t want this moment to ever end…

“Oh come on…!” Why did he have so many fucking love songs?! And sad songs?! And sad love songs?!

I will not kiss you…

Oooh can’t you see… you belong to me?

And anywhere I could have followed you…

Where everything’s nothing without you…

Cuz the hardest part of this is leaving you…

Since you’ve gone I been lost without a trace. I dream at night I can only see your face.

Ohhhhhhhhh~!

I want you to know! With everything I won’t let this go! These words are my heart and soul I’ll hold onto this moment you know, cuz I’ll bleed my heart out to show… that I won’t let go…

“Oh my God…” Shinsou groaned in annoyance when his phone betrayed him by just bombarding him with all of these songs, even though he knew it was his own fault because HE put these songs on here after all. And then he had let you recommend some of these songs to him, that was the worst part…

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies When you don't know what you're looking to find In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies When you just never know what you will find What you will find What you will find What you will find...

“Why am I so fucking emo…?” He muttered with a heavy sigh as he plopped his head back down to his pillow as he let this sad love song play, putting it on full blast in hopes that it would take him away from reality for a little bit.

Shutting his eyes tightly, he bit his bottom lip as Sum 41 blared in his ears as the tears automatically streamed down his cheeks.

I don't want this moment to ever end Where everything's nothing without you...

Wrong...

Being alone in this bed felt so wrong. Everything felt wrong, without you everything really was wrong, everything felt like nothing without you. He supposed it was his fault, because he was the one who begged you to stay with him that night when you both kept each other warm. And you did, you said you would stay with him, and yet he was pushing you away, for what? The sake of normalcy? God it almost didn’t feel worth it...

He wanted to feel your warmth again, he wanted to feel you again…

Because he felt nothing right now. He felt nothing without you…

THE NEXT DAY…

This was it, you had to talk to him and there was nothing he could say or do to make you leave. Of course, you knew that calling him and texting him was moot at this point, so you searched for him and used your quirk to find him.

Thank God it was still the weekend and you saw that he was about to enter a coffeehouse and the poor guy looked horrible. Somehow his bags looked heavier and his hair was even worse mess than normal. You wondered what had been going on with him, and you were going to ask just that.

Now that you knew where he was, the place almost felt like the perfect spot for you and him to finally have a well-needed heart-to-heart after all of the shit that you’ve been through together. Quickly you grabbed your things, exiting your house to go and march over to him. Part of you wanted to just shout at him and make a scene in the place since he dared to freaking ghost you for the past week, but you knew you couldn’t do that, so you would just give him the chilly voice instead.

That’s what you were going to do…

“(Y/N)-chan!”

You flinched and stopped in your tracks the second you heard your dear friend Izuku’s voice, turning to face him with slightly wide eyes, and you were extremely shocked to see that Bakugou was with him and glaring at you. Except they seemed a little bit scuffed up...

“Did you two get in another fight? How many fucking times are you guys going to fight? Pretty soon these cliché fights get old you know?”

You asked them somewhat sardonically which confused Izuku and angered Bakugou, “We were training you dumbass!” He quickly replied to your smartass response as you chuckled a little bit, glad to know that these two were on slightly, very slightly better terms than they had been.

“Well… it’s nice to see you both… I’m going to… go… somewhere now… Mr. Yamada is actually waiting for me too.” You then said, but it’s not like you were completely lying. Even though you didn’t really want to drag Present Mic into this, he was kind enough to be present (no pun intended) and be your emotional support for this little heart-to-heart before he takes you to do some more non-physical training since your ankle still wasn’t at 100 percent yet but you didn’t need your crutches anymore at least.

“Tch… bullshit, where exactly are you going?” Izuku was understanding, but Bakugou wasn’t; he outright demanded to know where you were because he was NOT going to let you go alone that was for sure.

“Hey I don’t have to tell you…”

“Maybe you shouldn’t go alone you moron! That’s how you got taken the last time isn’t it?” He somewhat harshly reminded you, but he wasn’t trying to be mean about it. If anything, he was concerned, and so was Izuku. “W-We can take you there… i-if you want I… I’m sorry…”

Izuku quickly apologized because he didn’t want to patronize you, but as you paid attention to your guyfriends you couldn’t help but smile, resisting the desire to just tear up because of how sweet these two were. Even Bakugou was being sweet, in his own asshole-ish way…

“That’s a good idea…” You saw their point too, you did NOT want to get taken away again, ever again.

Izuku flashed you a sweet smile, but Bakugou just scowled at you the whole time as the two boys had guided you to the place you had said you were heading towards. You felt strangely safe with your two strong guy-friends protecting you, but at the same time it felt weird. Shinsou had been the one protecting you during the ordeal, and then you took turns with him by protecting him too…

It just still felt strange being back, even after a week of readjusting…

“(Y/N)-chan… sorry for asking but… have things been okay? With you and… Shinsou?” He somewhat nervously asked you, hoping he didn’t cross a line there and he internally freaked out when he saw your eyes go wide a little bit. “I-I’m so sorry…”

“No… it… it’s okay but… it actually… hasn’t because… he hasn’t answered my calls or texts which… I thought was a bit weird so… I’m confronting his ass about it.” You replied, sounding a but blunt at the last word, which would have amused Bakugou, had the thought of Shinsou not angered him.

“Don’t tell me you actually like that brainwashing bastard?”

Bakugou asked you so suddenly, his tone very direct and sounding very irritated which kind of startled you. It didn’t help that your face started to flush brightly as you tried in vain to appear calm and collected, and failed. “W-What?” You even laughed a little bit to try and throw him off, it didn’t work…

“Katsuki… don’t be ridiculous, I mean… come on… you know I don’t care for romance or anything like that… it’s bullshit…” You nervously mumbled and shook your head, but of course Bakugou saw right through you.

“You’re a fucking terrible liar Shitty Girl…” He lightly growled, almost offended that you honestly believed that you could lie to him for even a minute.

However, you just scoffed in reply, “You’d be amazed at how well I can lie…” Was all you had to say as you just kept leading the way with an amused smile. “It’s none of your business though… but I AM going to set his ass straight…”

Bakugou for once understood what you were saying, and he hated to admit that it really wasn’t any of his business but he wouldn’t miss the opportunity to hopefully see you tell off that weirdo. He never did like Shinsou, he was such an oddball who tried to pick fights with the likes of him. Idiot…

“If you need any help at all in anyway (Y/N)-chan… just let us know ok?” Izuku politely offered, although he understood that it wasn’t any of his business either, he still wanted to be there for you in case you needed some kind of emotional help afterwards if it goes well or not.

You absolutely adored these two, they were both so helpful in their own ways, even if Bakugou didn’t enjoy helping or the fact that he was taking you to see fucking Shinsou of all people.

“T-Thank you guys… I will…”

You held back your tears as you giggled a bit and led your boys to the coffeehouse where you had last seen Shinsou. As you peered through the glass you could see him now sitting at a table, his eyes staring down at the table, and his expression lethargic and almost detached as if there was nobody else around him. You couldn’t help but frown seeing him like that, but at the same time, it was making you nervous…

“Okay… he’s in there…” Tremoring a little bit, you could feel your heart pulsing and an unusual burst of adrenaline surging through your being as you couldn’t find it in you to move or step foot inside.

“Well? Go set his ass straight.”

Bakugou kind of pushed you to just go in already, crossing his arms as you turned to glare at him. “You can do it, we’ll be right here.” Izuku was there to comfort the blow though as he gave you a gentle smile.

It’s like your friends knew how to get you to do things, you inhaled and exhaled deeply as you nodded at the two. “Okay… I will…!” You managed to find your determination again, as you forced your feet to move and you found yourself inside the building.

Smells of caffeine and sweet pastries baking in the oven instantly invited in your nose, yet they did little to calm you down as you saw Shinsou, and he was getting closer with every step you took. And he seemed to perk up slightly when he got the sense that he was being watched, his eyes peering up to finally glance at you and widening slightly as soon as he realized that it was you…

You were there…

Internally he began to panic just seeing your curious yet unhappy face, but he kept his cool and forced himself to remain emotionless as he looked at you somewhat apathetically. He didn’t like what he was doing, but it had to be done. And you weren’t going to put up with it.

“(L/N).” He greeted you, but his tone was informal as you quietly scoffed and helped yourself by sitting on the chair in front of him to force him to look at you. At first you were going to be gentle, but not anymore…

“So I’m (L/N) now? Okay… Shinsou… what the fuck?” You crossed your arms and gave him a small leer, using the same last name basis he had apparently started using for you. Shinsou knew you were upset, and he already felt horrible, but at the same time, he thought that it was for the best…

“You’ve been ghosting me all week you ass…” He let you speak though, even if you were angry and hurt for how he had been distancing himself. “Mind telling me why? Maybe I won’t kick you in the groin if you do…” The threat was empty but it was enough to convince Shinsou to muster up enough courage to start talking to you.

“Just… come on… say something… I mean… please… yes we’re both a little… shaken up from everything but…”

“I know I have.” Shinsou finally spoke to you after a week of not even giving you the time of day, and finally he looked at you with his exhausted, purple eyes. He looked so tired, you couldn’t imagine just how fatigued he was and then his training. He probably trained even when he was this tired…

“I’m trying to adjust back to my life.” His voice was a little surlier, but you weren’t going to put up with it. “So have I dude but that’s no reason to just ghost me…”

Shinsou wryly chuckled, “In case you missed it, I have to train… I had a life before the mountain you know? What? Did you just think we were just going to be best friends forever after all of that?” It was painful just to ask that, because he could tell that this visibly hurt you as you calmly seethed.

“Don’t give me that bullshit… you can make time, even just a little bit to talk to me about the things that we had both suffered through, rather than just pretend that none of it happened… you can’t do that… you can’t just ignore the things we went through… you can’t ignore the way we looked out for each other…” Your lip almost started to quiver and Shinsou found himself unable to reply, but he forced himself to anyway.

“There’s nothing to talk about.” He shook his head, even though it was all he had been able to think about, he was trying so hard to just forget because there’s no way that the things he felt for you could be real, no matter how real they did feel.

You knew that the feelings you felt were real though, you couldn’t tell if you hated it or if you loved it. Especially when Shinsou was clearly trying to ignore what happened between you both.

“Well I think there is.” You said a bit firmly and just a bit louder which surprised Shinsou a little bit. He opened his mouth to speak but then an employee walked over to him with his coffee and a plate with two small freshly baked cookies he was going to eat just to wake himself up.

As to get him to talk you took the plate as soon as he reached over to try and grab one, and you stuck one in your mouth and bit off a huge piece of it.

“(Y/N)…” That seemed to irritate him a little bit as you smirked slightly. “Aha… so now I’m (Y/N)…”

You got him now, “If you don’t talk, you’re not getting this other one.” You held up the second cookie, and Shinsou sighed heavily in annoyance, knowing that you were true to THAT threat as he rolled his eyes.

“You should be an interrogator…” He kind of chuckled and made a small joke which made you snicker a little bit as you set down the half-eaten cookie with the untouched and whole one.

“Hitoshi…” You used his name now that he had returned to first-name basis, blushing slightly since it felt somewhat different to be more informal now that you were both in public and not in the woods or anything.

“Let’s be real… things aren’t the same… I can’t even go back home without thinking about my time out there in the mountains, in the cold… our time out there… nothing is the same anymore…” Finally, you broke the ice about what had been bothering you as you slowly opened up and Shinsou calmly blew on his hot coffee as he listened to you.

“Right…” He said softly, his voice almost meek as you frowned at him now that you got a better look at the heavy bags under his eyes and his hair seemed more uneven than normal. “Have you got any sleep…?”

Shinsou scoffed with a cynical smirk, shaking his head, “Not really…” He almost stopped himself, but knew that he wouldn’t be able to keep quiet forever, “Doesn’t stop me from training though. If there’s one thing I’ve gotten better at over the years it’s pretending to be okay.”

You couldn’t help but snicker and laugh, shaking your head slightly. “Hitoshi you SUCK at pretending to be okay… even in the mountains I knew when you were just trying to make me feel better… and I know right now that you can’t be okay… you look like you haven’t slept in a month…” When you called him out on his bullshit, he actually smiled at you with a cerise blush coating his pale cheeks.

He knew he couldn’t hide from you, no matter how hard he tried to. “I see why Present Mic recruited you… you’ve always been sharp…” Shinsou complimented you, his words sincere but you didn’t want to be distracted by going off topic.

“Yes… it’s been going well… I can’t really fight YET because of my ankle but… he’s already teaching me and showing me things that are pretty necessary for pro-heroes skilled in detection and search and resuce…” Still, you were going to be polite and tell him how it’d been going after Present Mic took you under his wing as Shinsou nodded and hummed a little bit, taking a sip of his now cool coffee.

It was uncomfortably silent for a moment, at least until you let out a huge sigh, “But you know… not even the training could stop me from thinking about… this… weird, kinda funny thing that I tried to ignore ever since we got rescued…”

Shinsou looked over at you, his lavender hues almost widening when he thought he had a feeling of what you might say. His heartbeat starting to beat quicker, louder in his ears as your cheeks started to burn.

“I loved you Hitoshi…”

Finally, you confessed your feelings, or at least the feelings you ‘had’, even though you knew that you still had them as you saw Shinsou’s cheeks turning red.

“I… tried not to but I did… I… I fell in love with you… simple as that. Hitoshi I fell in love with you, and I… can’t deny that I did. You protected me, looked out for me when I was scared, and I was constantly scared… but you were there for me… you made me feel like I wasn’t alone, kept me safe and I just… I fell in love… But what I felt for you… it was real, and I just… haven’t been able to get that out of my head…”

You poured out the rest of what your heart wanted to say, your whole face felt hot as you almost looked away from him but knew that he had to know this. He had to know how you had felt about him, and maybe the two of you could finally have the closure you need.

However, anxiety filled your chest when Shinsou was quiet, a little too quiet as he stared down at his coffee with a pensive, but wistful look.

“Funny that you say that…”

He said after a painfully long minute of silence, and finally he looked back into your (E/C) eyes, his cheeks still red but his expression was the same as it always looked, bored and yet thoughtful. “Because I fell in love with you too… and you’re right… nothing has been the same ever since we both got home…”

A soft gasp left you as the anxiety inside of you began to swell, ready to pop as you thought you could finally be relieved but Shinsou wasn’t finished speaking.

“But that was out there… in the cold… and I nearly convinced myself that what I felt for you was love. Until I remembered that… we were just two friends who… happened to get captured together. It was only natural that we had to rely on each other.” He pointed out to you, speaking rationally as he kept his voice level and steady.

“I did want to reach out to you once we came back, but… for some reason my mind wouldn’t let me. It almost felt… painful… so I told myself that it couldn’t have been real, what I felt… because you see, these feelings can’t be in your head… when the heart makes you feel that way, the heart is what lets you feel those things… especially in the situation we were in. But the heart is just another muscle that keeps you alive… our brains… react differently to whatever circumstance we find ourselves in, and from there we have to make the best, most logical decisions in order to survive. I remembered that… and that’s why we both got out alive… And when I came back, I knew that in those moments, it couldn’t have been real… because we were both just trying to keep each other alive, for our own sakes… and I knew that… it couldn’t possibly be the same when we came back… and it isn’t… because it worked out there, but we’re not trying to survive anymore… we have to live now, take care of ourselves… it just… it wouldn’t work… not here...”

This was for the best. He didn’t want to just let his feelings get the better of him, especially after what they did to him last night. Even if it meant shoving it all down, he reluctantly told you that there’s no way it could work between you two. And yet he hated himself for saying that…

He regretted looking into your eyes though, as they were glistening with tears that you kept at bay because you didn’t want to make a scene. So instead you let out a fake, amused snicker that Shinsou knew was false. It’s clear that you knew that he was trying to push you away, and that you were hurt.

“You know… Hitoshi…” You chuckled and shook your head, willing your tears back as you gave him a forlorn smile, “It’s cool that you’re trying to be like your hero Eraserhead and all but… I think you’re wrong… logic might have helped us make the best decisions to survive in those elements, but I honestly think that we survived because of… how we felt about each other… and how you and I took care of each other…”

Snickering a bit, you distracted yourself so you wouldn’t cry in front of him, “I fell in love with you… and… you… I know that you did too… at least… I hope so… because… I know it was real… what I felt for you had to be real… it was, you were the only thing that kept me going. I wanted to keep living, I wanted you to keep living, I wanted us to keep living… so we could go back home, together and we did. Maybe we got lucky… but let’s face it… if I didn’t care about you, if you didn’t care about me… there’s no way we could have survived. You said the brain reacts differently well here’s the thing… the brain plays a part in our emotions… it might be chemicals but dammit we feel them… and we feel them strongly… most of the time… that’s just how humans are… we’re not just brains… we’re hearts too… these feelings that we feel… are real… at least… I know mine are…” You wiped your eyes to keep the tears from falling, but Shinsou could see them.

He remembered seeing you cry often when the two of you were surviving together, and each time managed to be painful. Yet, watching you trying to not cry was almost agonizing for him as he forced himself to remain stoic as he let you have his cookie and he took another sip of his coffee.

“I guess I… just wanted to let you know all of that…” Your heart felt like it was crackling, but at least you managed to tell him how you felt, and you finally got to have a real talk with him. And you had no idea that Shinsou was barely keeping himself together as he looked at you and gave a slow nod.

“Thank you for telling me.” He thanked you politely as the two of you sat for a while on the table until he was done with his drink and he let you have both of the cookies since he had lost his appetite and the chocolate chips only gave you a smidge of endorphin-filled joy.

You both got up to leave the table and he didn’t seem to flinch when he saw that Izuku, Bakugou and Present Mic were all waiting here for you. “Shinsou.” Izuku politely greeted him, and he gave him a nod of acknowledgement. “Midoriya. Bakugou.” He was less enthusiastic about the explosive teen though, who just gave him a scoff.

“Mr. Yamada.” He made sure to bow politely to the teacher though, and the pro-hero just gave him a big smile and a nod.

“Well… it seems like you have a group to hang out with, and some training so… I’ll let you go. Don’t train too hard, sprained ankles take a while to recover from.” Shinsou gave you some advice, which made you smile a little bit as you nodded with a somewhat thoughtful look.

“You know… I think you might be right Hitoshi… after all… it’s like you said… the heart keeps us alive, but the brain is what helps us survive.” You didn’t mean that, you wanted to though because you wanted to feel more than just your heart ache, hell you’d rather feel your ankle ache over your heart. This hurt…

It hurt so much…

Shinsou gave you an empty chuckle, “Yeah… but you’re not wrong… the brain plays a part in our emotions… it’s a funny thing isn’t it? Human nature is funny… you said… to be human is to love, because that’s what the heart is for right?” He remembered something else you said, even though the two of you wanted to believe that maybe it wasn’t real… and that maybe pretending it wasn’t real would make you both feel better.

“It’s very funny and… yeah I did but… the hearts for a lot of things, including survival… that’s why it gets along so well with the brain.” You nodded, still smiling as the two of you shared a soft glance that you hadn’t given since your time in the mountains.

Swallowing hard, you suddenly and gently hugged him and Shinsou quickly returned it, his arms coming around you almost by instinct. Mentally he scolded himself for letting these damn emotions try to get the better of him again. He wasn’t going to let them, he refused to let himself believe something that couldn’t be real.

No matter how much it hurt. Why did the heart make people hurt so much?

Hugging you felt right, yet he couldn’t hold you the way his heart wanted him too, his brain was reminding him that he had to leave, to go train with Aizawa. You didn’t want to let him go either, but the logical part of you was trying to convince you that maybe your feelings weren’t real, but they felt so real it fucking hurt…

The hug didn’t feel long enough for you, and it hurt just pulling away from the boy you had survived with as he didn’t look you in the eyes. “See you at school.” You said neutrally as he nodded and hummed, quickly turning his back and seeing Aizawa around the corner, waiting patiently for him now that his break was over.

You took a deep breath as you watched him go, and turned around to see a concerned Izuku and Present Mic, and Bakugou looking unusually soft despite his casual frown. “Thanks guys… let’s… go somewhere… else now…” They seemed to understand that you weren’t all that happy but they still listened to you as they let you lead the way.

Even though the minute you started walking, you had no idea what to do or where you were even going because it just felt wrong. Everything didn’t feel right, walking away didn’t feel right even when you were close to your friends and your teacher.

“How was (L/N)?”

Meanwhile Aizawa had decided to ask Shinsou some brief questions, despite not being a talker he had grown increasingly concerned for his student who was acting somewhat odd. He assumed that it was post-traumatic stress disorder, but had no idea that he was only half-right as Shinsou shrugged his shoulders.

“She’s okay. We were talking. She said she was okay.” His sentences were small, quick as the last thing Shinsou wanted to talk about was you even though he told himself to distance himself from you. Doing just that felt wrong, walking away from you felt so wrong…

Little did he know that you were barely containing your composure as you heard Izuku’s voice and Bakugou angrily yelling at him over something, but you didn’t hear a single word either of them was saying.

All you could do was walk, not even looking where you were going as you shuddered a little bit as if you were in the cold again. The streets beginning to blur as you could feel your heart thrashing in your chest as your hands started shaking and your legs were tingling and making your pace slow down no matter how hard you tried to get away, oblivious to the concerned Izuku, Bakugou and Present Mic.

Shinsou took a slow, long, shaking breath as he kept his eyes forward, barely even able to see Aizawa walking in front of him and not even hearing any words the man might have been saying. All he could hear was his own breathing, turning hard, fast and shallow as his fists started to clench, tremoring as he tried in vain to keep walking.

You couldn’t regulate your own breathing as you walked, feeling like you were being choked as a soft sob left you and made your friends and teacher stop dead in their tracks as they called your name in worry.

“Hmm… (L/N)��? Are you all right there? You with me?”

“(Y/N)-chan?”

“(Y/N)-chan…?”

“Hey! Shitty Girl! What the fuck’s wrong with you?!”

White noise, it was all you could hear as you didn’t realize that your eyes were clouding with moisture as a stray tear rolled down your cheek.

And Shinsou found himself suddenly stopping his pace as he tried to breathe again, but it came out as a whimper as all he could feel was his heart palpitating. Swallowing a lump that was caught in his throat as he didn’t see his teacher stopping once he saw his student’s misty eyes.

“Shinsou?”

“Shinsou are you all right?

He couldn’t hear him, the pain in his chest becoming unbearable as he just stared into nothing even with his teacher trying in vain to get him to snap out it. Aizawa was sure the boy was having a panic attack though, and Izuku and Bakugou were starting to think the exact same about you.

“(Y/N)-chan are you okay?!”

“What the hell?! Tell me what the fuck’s wrong!”

“(L/N)! (L/N)!”

“Shinsou answer me!”

“Shinsou what’s wrong?!”

It was too much, neither of you could deal with these feelings consuming you both as all that the two of you wanted was to just go back to each other. You needed to go back to Shinsou, you fucking needed to…

“No… I gotta go…”

“Go?!”

“Go where?!”

Suddenly, you found it in you to turn back to where you had walked away from and just started running at full speed past all of the confused people. But Izuku and Bakugou were extremely confused and had no idea what you were talking about, but Present Mic did and he understood as he let you go off. However, he planned to follow because he was a little bit paranoid too about the thought of his new protégé getting taken again. And he was joined by Izuku and Bakugou as the two quickly dashed after you once you took off running.

Tears freely fell down your face as you ran, your breath hitching as you ignored the subtle pain in your ankle just to go back to Shinsou and find him as you kept on running, faster than you ever had. You couldn’t hear your friends calling your name as you reached the corner of the street.

Shinsou inhaled sharply as he turned away from his teacher, his legs suddenly moving him in a fast sprint. “Shinsou!” Aizawa wasn’t one to be flabbergasted or bewildered, but his student’s strange and distraught behavior had him in a box as he followed after him quickly.

But Shinsou didn’t hear him as he ran even faster, he had to go back to you, that’s all that he knew. No logic his brain could provide for him would tear him away from this as he held back the tears and continued running.

There was the corner where the two of you parted your ways, he swiftly whipped his head and all he could see was your visage coming towards him as he let out a silent, shuddering gasp. And you tearfully gasped the second you saw Shinsou, he came back for you…

“Hitoshi…”

“(Y/N)…”

Shinsou’s tears finally fell as he quickly took more steps towards you, opening his arms as you ran faster than before, throwing your arms out as you threw yourself into him. His strong arms locking tightly around your body as you threw your arms around his neck and cried into his shoulder and let him buried his face into your neck, sniffling and quietly sobbing.

Right…

Everything felt right again.

You could feel his heart beating, his warmth gracefully invited into your body as he gave you the love you desperately had been craving ever since you both were rescued. Shinsou craved it too as he took in everything you gave him, your warmth, your love for him, he embraced it all and never wanted to let it go again. He never wanted to let you go again. His arms tightened around you for a moment as he carefully pulled away, pressing his forehead against yours, but the two of you didn’t dare let each other go.

You saw the tears streaming down his face and he could see yours as he gave you a tender gaze. A sudden rush you hadn’t felt since the cold came back to you as you carefully leaned in and Shinsou immediately pressed his lips against yours as the two of you kissed, fervently and passionately like the two of you feared that you were going to lose each other again. When your lips met and your arms intertwined you both felt at peace again, you both felt safe, protected and like you would never be apart again.

Everyone else felt invisible to you as neither one of you noticed or acknowledged your friends and teachers having arrived to witness your display of affection. Izuku had turned a bright shade of red as he quickly looked away out of respect for you and Shinsou, but Bakugou’s face was turning red for a different reason as he inhaled and exhaled deeply.

So, you DID like that bastard…

Present Mic knew it, and he couldn’t help but coo as he clasped his hands together as he carefully stepped his way over to a very stunned Aizawa. “That’s so romantic… isn’t it…?” The blonde man somewhat teasingly asked his friend, getting him out of his surprise as he gave him an irritated leer.

“I told you something beautiful blossomed between these two~…” He triumphantly sang-songed much to Aizawa’s annoyance as he let out a sigh. Of course, his young student would have fallen in love, he had nothing against it though, that was just how young teenagers were.

Except you and Shinsou knew that it was more than just that, you knew that it was real, and secretly, Shinsou did too. He couldn’t and he wouldn’t deny it anymore as he just kept holding you until the two of you finally pulled away after a heated minute. The two of you breathing heavily as you both just stared into each other’s eyes adoringly.

“I love you (Y/N)…” This time Shinsou said it out loud for only you to hear as your eyes widened a little bit, making more tears run down your blushing cheeks as a big, bright smile came to your lips. “Oh Hitoshi… I love you too… I really do… I adore you…” You let out a soft cry as he smiled tenderly at you.

“(Y/N)… Please… s-stay with me…?” He repeated what he had told you that one, intimate night between you and him. The night you remembered the most as you nodded with a warm smile.

“Of course, Hitoshi…” You said the exact same words from that day, meaning it just as much as you did that same day as he cried and held onto you tightly, and you lovingly hugged him back so close, so lovingly.

“I’ll be with you... from dusk till dawn…” You whispered to him quietly, feeling his arms embrace you even tighter as he let out a little chuckle, “Me too, I’m right here, you’ll never be alone…I’ll be with you from dusk till dawn.” He said to you softly, repeating your words as the two of you just kept hugging for what felt like forever, becoming partially aware of the fact that your teachers and friends were still there.

Once the two of you remembered that they were here, you and Shinsou both blushed heavily as the two of you saw the rather awkward looking faces on them all. Izuku was still bright red in the face, Bakugou was frowning and growling in annoyance, Present Mic was whistling a tune in an attempt to give you both your privacy and Aizawa had turned away with a small tint of pink on his cheeks.

“Sorry… e-everyone…” You started off and sheepishly apologized to them all, chuckling very nervously as Shinsou averted his eyes, his whole face as red as Izuku’s was. “M-Mr. Aizawa I…” He wanted to apologize to his teacher for just running off but the pro-hero shook his head.

“Just take the day off. Only this once, tomorrow you’re going to train twice as hard though.” Aizawa sounded oddly gentle even if he was going to give Shinsou more work as the latter quietly groaned. It’d be worth it though; he didn’t regret coming back to you.

“Thank you.” Shinsou bowed down lowly to him in deep gratitude as you giggled a little bit, but you blushed quite madly when you looked over at Izuku, Bakugou and Present Mic.

“Izuku… Katsuki… thank you for… being with me you guys are awesome… I’m sorry about running off…” You smiled rather shyly but Izuku quickly shook his head, “It’s okay!” He squeaked out nervously, not wanting you to feel bad at all as Bakugou just scoffed indifferently.

“W-We’ll see you at school (Y/N)-chan…!” Izuku knew you wanted to spend time with Shinsou so he was very courteous as he let you go and knew that you and Shinsou would be safe together.

You couldn’t help but smile at your beloved friends, “Thank you Izuku… thank you Katsuki…” You thanked them both with a big smile as Izuku gave you one of his own sweet smiles while Bakugou’s glare turned gentle before the two of them decided to let you go and headed their separate ways. At least he knew that bastard would protect you, and you would protect him too given that you bashed a man’s head in.

“Mr. Yamada…” And then there was Present Mic who quickly shook his head just like his friend did, “Nope! Nuh-uh~. Eraser has the right idea! You take the day off, try not to have toooooo much fun now okay~?” He proceeded to tease you both and make the two of you immediately blush bright red as the blonde man went to go with Aizawa and leave you both alone.

The two of you felt embarrassed but also ecstatic that the two of you were finally alone together after a long week, but then that instantly became awkward as you both suddenly turned quiet and blushed as soon as you looked at each other. Still you couldn’t help but smile at him, was he your boyfriend now? If so, you were beyond happy about that.

“Hey Hitoshi…” You hugged his arm, loving the way he looked at you with those beautiful eyes as he gave you a small smile. “Yeah?”

“Remember what I offered back there in that shack?” You asked him with a small smirk, and he immediately chuckled and didn’t have to answer that because he definitely remembered. “It’s all I’ve been thinking about…” He admitted that though because he had been wanting to just spend time with you now that you were both home again.

“Then let’s go back to my house! We’ll binge-watch all of Gakkou Gurashi, and I’ll share my favorite ice cream with you~.” For once you were genuinely happy the entire week you had been back home as he rolled his eyes a little bit.

“You know what? I’ll take up that offer…” It wasn’t cold anymore, so he would be happy to share that ice cream with you as the two of you started walking back to your house, hand in hand and shoulder to shoulder to go and watch the anime together.

As soon as the two of you got home, it was just you and him and everything just felt right again as you cheerfully started up the anime, ice cream bucket in your hand as you sat down on your couch with Shinsou by your side. Cuddling up to him with a big smile as his arm came around you and pulled you in close to him.

You sighed in content as you snuggled into his shoulder, “I love you Hitoshi… I… I know I said that already but I really mean it… I love you…”

Shinsou’s eyes slightly widened when he heard the words again, his heartbeat speeding up but out of joy as this feeling of giddiness flurrying inside his chest as he tried to not grin but he couldn’t help it.

“And I love you too (Y/N)…” He exchanged the words with a warm smile as you blushed quite madly, giggling cheerfully as the two of you hugged once again, very much in love as you and Shinsou never wanted to let go of each other and ever wanted to be apart ever again.

I’ll be with you from dusk till dawn… Baby I’m right here...

[kurtty-drabbles]

Excalibur au (part 5)

N/A: More pain for Kurt.

@djinmer4 @dannybagpipesarecalling @sailorstar9 @discordsworld @look-ma-no-hands336

The following days, Kurt´s mood has been facing a shift as Kitty and Pete Wisdom are getting way too close. Kurt is not enjoying the new couple and is often sulking and muttering in German.  Pete´s mission was concluded, as Claudius was finally arrested, thanks to Excalibur, well, Kurt can say it was more Excalibur than Pete as the man is downright useless.

And Kurt was right in another regard, Claudius proved to be Mystique in disguise, another of her many aliases and Kurt has to deal with his biological mother and is not in the mood for her lies.

Yet, with the mission finally over, Pete still remains in Excalibur and Kurt is gritting his teeth, showing his fangs to anyone who can see it, and complains about one thing. “the mission is over, why he´s still here?”

Brian, as the leader of Excalibur, only replies “The MI-13 did say he is free to stay here if he wants and I´d not see why he should go back, he´s being a good member of Excalibur and we need all the allies we can get” is a logical explanation, yet, Kurt mutters something in German, something nasty by the looks of it, and bamfs away.

The following days has been hell for Kurt, in fact, his nightmares consist of Kitty Pryde, wearing white(resembling an angel) and often to marry Pete Wisdom(and giving that lovely smile to him, and only him…leaving Kurt behind) and the last nightmare consist of Kitty and Pete and it was enough to make Kurt stay in the kitchen sulking.

Rachel Grey enters in the kitchen and only rolls her eyes, promising to herself, she can ignore Kurt as she´s making her breakfast, is only when Rachel starts singing a morning song(one that the radio is often playing) that Kurt realizes the sun is up to either again.

“Rachel, can I ask something?” Kurt asked and the woman looks aware of him, for a moment, but using her powers, is glad to see he won´t hit on her. “Sure, I guess”

“Do you like this Pete Wisdom?” Kurt asked rubbing his eyes and Rachel can give an honest opinion on the man. “In my personal opinion,” Rachel starts “man like Pete are jerks, but, I care not for man´s opinions…so, I´m a bit biased here”

“Do you like that Kitty is dating that dumbkoff?” Kurt asked again wanting a confirmation he´s not alone on his dislike on the man. “No, but, I want Kitty to be happy, if that dumbass makes her happy, then, sure I can ignore him” Is a mature response and it should be to this line, however, Rachel adds “God knows you made her suffer a lot, so at this point, Pete looks better than you”

Kurt claps his hand on the table strongly, not phasing Rachel at all, who is making her breakfast thanks to her powers. Kurt looks straight to Rachel´s eyes and adds furiously. “I´ve never made her suffer, never, and I´m way better than Pete Wisdom”

Rachel is bemused. “At least, Pete can take a hint, you, on the other hand, you go telling Kitty about your sexual encounter with Anjulie, you go make a move on Meggan, who by the way, never give you any indication of wanting you” she brings the toasts and eggs to her plate and is eating with a smile on her face, yes, it´s just how her father make the breakfast “And all the while you never notice how Kitty feels about you. Again, Pete is winning against you”

Kurt is silent and is contemplating Rachel´s words, who is loudly crunching the toast with childish glee, and now replied, “Of course I noticed, Kitty is my best friend, and Anjulie was just one-night stand…why she would be upset?”

Rachel rolls her eyes. “You´re dumb, incredibly dumb, if Kitty is just your best friend, by the way, you need to learn about boundaries because the Anjulie´s case was…bad in many levels, why are you so rotten in jealousy?”

Kurt has no answer for that. He can only imagine Kitty leaving him behind and going with Pete, giving that smile Kurt always loves to see it.

Rachel again is bemused. “You take her for granted. Kitty is full of pride and wouldn´t be here to listen to your next conquest, she deserves to be happy and if you´re a dumbass to notice or to love her…there´s plenty of men and women who can do just that”

Rachel is ready to leave the kitchen having finished the breakfast and as well as cleaning the dishes. “A piece of advice, Kurt, don´t go stalking them, is creepy and that will make Pete 10 times better in her eyes. Just admit you´re jealousy and you take her for granted. After all, what Kitty Pryde means to you?”

Kurt for once replied. “She means everything to me” the answer was honest and at the same time, it comes as a revelation, as this is a plot twist worthy of a novel.

“You sure as well didn´t show that to Kitty” Rachel replied and then Kurt bamfs away. Brian and Meggan arrive and they can say they did hear the conversation; Brian only sighs and asks, “Will he stalk them?”

“Fret not, Brian, I´ve read his mind and he won´t …he´ll visit Piotr to talk, of all people, what a dumbass, by the way, we´re out of eggs” Rachel explained and Meggan and Brian exchange comical stares.

Piotr Rasputin is working on the X-mansion, nothing fancy, just painting the walls of the front yard to give a new look, new year, new X-men is what he believes. Kurt bamfs right away and luckily spots Piotr painting and the Russian man stops to greet Kurt, but notices his state.

“Kurt, are you alright?” the Russian asked noticing and waiting for Kurt to speak first as he really wants to say something.

“I need to know, why you and Katzchen didn´t work out,” he asked a bit desperate and Piotr finds this a bit odd, but, obeys.

“Me and Kitty have nothing in common, except for our love for Yana, what we´ll do in a relationship? Talk about Yana 24/7…that´s would creepy” Piotr makes the comment remembering the Jimaine/Amanda´s story.

“But…were you once crushing on her?” Kurt asked and Piotr shakes his head and answers simply “Not really, I guess what I liked about her is how she and Yana bond, in a way, it was more gratitude than anything else. Yana didn´t make friends until she enters in the New Mutants, so, I´m grateful that Kitty did look out for her and still do”

Kurt´s face shows a bit of desperation and euphoria. “Piotr, can someone fall in love without noticing?”

Piotr now gives Kurt is undivided attention. The wall can wait, as well as his painting material, and the Russian replied without hesitation. “Yes, especially in your case, Kurt, your love life, if I can call that as such, is a joke…you always go for the ones that you KNOW won´t give a damn about you. Even if you´re only after sex…is like you can´t have even a normal nightstand, it has to have a borderline abuse in the relationship and after Amanda…this gets worse…yes, I´d believe you have fallen for Katzchen, I know that for while…but only you wouldn´t notice your own feelings” the line is cut as Kurt is absorbing each word.

Kurt hugs his shirt, for a moment, unsure of himself and the word love, sex is easy, sex is something Kurt can relate, even if it has dubious connotations, however, love is far more complex.

“I´d know what Amanda did was bad, I´d know what the Szardos did was bad, but, I never try to think about and never thought it would affect me for real, when the hero defeats the villain the victory is the reward and it gives a sweet ending, but, is not like that in real life. Sometimes, I still hear what Amanda and Margalia did to me” Kurt shudders remembering what Amanda once confessed (“Mother did take my body once when you were here…did you notice it?”)

Piotr then gives him a card. Is a therapist´s number. “Look, Kurt, I won´t lie and say I understand what you're going through cause that would be a lie, however, everyone in the X-men has their own skeletons in the closet to deal and we all need help to healthy cope with this, I used to have anger issues, in fact I still do, but, Neena did give me this number to help me to control this anger and how to use in a more positive way, what the Szardos did to you, what Mystique did to you…you don´t need to face it alone” Piotr hand the card and Kurt looks at the number with hope.

“Do you think she can love me?” Kurt asked with hesitation.

“You know, Kitty used to tell stories about pirates and fairies to Yana and one thing she often did was put you, it was obvious you, as her main love interest, yes, she obviously self-insert in the stories. But, Yana once told me Kitty take a while to realize her own feelings too” Piotr chuckles at that amused at Kurt´s reaction, and then continues “but, before asking her out, first, improve yourself, is not fair to Kitty, ok?”

“Ok, when you get all sage?” Kurt asked a bit amused and Neena chooses this time to appears and screaming that the TV is not working again. Piotr sends her a fond smile and an apology. “Well, I guess Betsy was right about that TV all along” and Neena sighs and agrees as she´s back to the house.

“Are you coming?” Piotr asked and Kurt denies as he hugs the shirt he´s wearing. A gift Kitty give to him last year and Kurt treasure as it is precious jewellery. Yes, Kurt is not a love expert. He needs to change and be a better person in order to get a healthy relationship, in order to stop being Amanda´s shadow.

[devanlifts]

Dissecting the Science of Nutrition

First and foremost, I am not a Doctor, I am not a scientist, I have not performed any medical studies on this topic, published or otherwise. I am not trying to give medical advice, and as such, I will not be linking any medical journals or studies. By all means, if your curiosity is sparked, feel free to do your own research and come to your own conclusions, because that is the best any of us can do. I also do not claim that these ideas are original to me; like all of us, my beliefs and ideas are an amalgamation of my surroundings and the people who have influenced me. Alright, so I’m just gonna come out and say it- please stop taking every study on diet that comes out as gospel.

I need to start with a great big disclaimer, no, I am not anti-science, and I’m not saying that all the science on food and nutrition is bad. What I AM saying is that you can find studies and anecdotal evidence that can reinforce almost anything. It is the application and manipulation of data that can be dubious. If interpreting the vast oceans of scientific results was easy, you wouldn’t find doctors on all sides of the issues. There are studies that find an association with eating meat and cardiovascular disease, and studies where there is not a correlation. Which one is correct? Both! In the manner that those studies were conducted, from what ever sample size they used, with whatever variables that were or were not controlled, those results were found on that day. That does not invalidate both studies, what it does is it gives us an idea of what we may need to factor into the next study to dig deeper into the truth.

Next, I want to make clear that not all nutritional research is created equal. In a perfect world, everything published would be fair and unbiased, but that is unfortunately not the case. Studies cost money, and sometimes funding comes from a company with particular interest in a certain outcome, for example if a big dairy company funded a study on if the calcium found in milk and cheese made your bones stronger. Of COURSE they would want there to be positive results to consuming their product. That is not to say that all studies that get funding this way will be biased, but it can be very hard to know the difference sometimes. In the 1960s and 70s, the sugar industry funded research that suggested that the major culprit of coronary heart disease and other health concerns was fat, not sugar. Now whether or not the scientists were paid off, and whether it was all because of the sugar industry’s involvement or not, doesn’t change the result; by 1977, the government was recommending that people eat a low fat diet, and this has made huge waves in our country to this day. When food companies started taking out fat in their foods, they were replaced by sugar to maintain palatability, and major sugar sources like soda were glossed over, since soda is not a fatty food. We are sold on the idea that “Lean” branded food (Lean Cuisine, Lean Pockets), are somehow magically better than their full fat counterparts by swapping a few grams of fat for a few grams of carbs, and that smoothies full of sugar will make you healthy. Whether or not you believe that these recommendations are good, and if it resulted in a healthier American polulation, it goes without saying what a huge impact that these privately funded scientific studies can potentially have. Beyond this, even scientific results that are 100% unbiased are still not all equal. Observational data collects information on numerous factors from a population and then examined to identify potential patterns. This is a useful tool, but it can, at best, provide a potential correlation, it does not provide causation, let alone irrefutable “proof” of something. For example, and this is totally made up, let’s say that a high correlation is found with people who are on a paleo diet and ankle sprains. Some people might read that and go, “Hey, look at that! Paleo gives you weak ankles!” And start demonizing paleo foods and people who adhere to that lifestyle, protesting in the streets that feeding your children a paleo diet constitutes abuse. That’s wrong. That’s not only bad science, it is non-science and nonsense. Good science might say something like, “Well, many people who eat a paleo diet are conscious of health, so there is a likelihood that they are also running and jumping and climbing more than people who are not on a paleo diet, which could increase risk for ankle sprains. We need to now factor exercise into the equation, with a hypothesis that it is increased exercise that leads to a proportional increase in ankle injury,” or something along those lines. Again, this is a made up example, but you’ll find people zealously defending their beliefs based on data that is not unlike what I have presented. Observational studies are excellent- they helped us identify smoking as a potential carcinogen, they can show us large scale trends, and are great for forming hypotheses, but they do NOT give us conclusions.

I get it, why would you listen to a non-expert, who is telling you to ignore the ACTUAL experts? Well to that I say, I’m not! I’m just trying to get across that I don’t know everything, but neither does anyone else, and if you’re talking to someone who says they do, I promise they’re not an expert. There are a few things that I think are generally(not universally) accepted about nutrition that are worth mentioning-

-We should all be eating more vegetables

-We need to cut back on processed sugars

-fresh foods with fewer, whole ingredients are typically better than foods with lots and lots of processed and artificial ingredients

-We are only just starting to understand how complex and diverse we are in how we consume and utilize nutrients.

I hold my own opinions on what we should and shouldn’t eat, but I won’t tell you that your opinion has to match mine. I just want to implore anyone reading this to take everything that they hear with a grain of salt, do your own own research, make your own conclusions, and do what makes you feel like you are living your best life.

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carrying on from my last post: here’s some advice for people who don’t want to/ can’t go vegetarian or vegan, but want to help reduce animal suffering. 

disclaimers: i am fully aware that not all of these will be options for everybody reading this. i live in the UK, so not all of this will be applicable to other countries. i’m not saying you have to do any of these things; i’m just trying to give information to those who want it.

meat-free cooking:

- look up ‘vegetarian recipes for meat lovers’. going from steak and potatoes to lentil salad feels weird for many people, and that’s completely fine. there are lots of meals that feel more accessible to people not used to eating meat-free diets.

- mock meats like quorn or linda mccartney are delicious, but expensive. if you’re able to buy them and sub them once or twice a week, that’s great. if you aren’t, lots of supermarkets offer own-brand versions. tesco’s vegan mince is much better than quorn’s and you can buy three bags for £4. i can usually get 4-6 servings out of a bag (and i don’t eat small portions lmao)

- there’s a reason lentils, rice and beans come up a lot in these discussions: they are cheap as hell, especially if you’re able to bulk-buy. frozen and canned vegetables are also genuinely completely fine. ignore the lifestyle sites that say you need to buy organic asparagus. 

- there are lots of great sites that offer cheap recipes, which are often meat-free because, well, meat is expensive. Cooking On A Bootstrap (formerly ‘A Girl Called Jack’) is amazing, and Eat Cheap and Healthy often has good recipes (if you ignore the comments section where everyone squabbles about what is and isn’t healthy)

- look. don’t try and cook tofu until you’ve tried it somewhere else and know what it’s meant to taste like. tofu is a notorious pain-in-the-ass to cook correctly. if you buy it and try and eat it as-is, you’re going to hate it and have a bad time. try getting it at chinese restaurants or similar first- they know how to make it delicious.

what to eat, what not to eat

- try recipes from other cultures. asian cuisines in particular have a huge number of vegetarian dishes, especially indian. vegetarian food does not need to be bland and flavourless!

- if you’re in the UK, mcdonalds fries are vegetarian, and they offer a bean burger/ bean wrap. burger king also offers bean burgers; KFC has no veggie options (other than sides). Nandos has some really good veggie options, as does GBK. look up your local fast food and figure out which places offer veggie options that you could give a go once in a while.

- if possible, cut down on beef specifically. beef production requires a huge amount of water and uses more land than all other domesticated animals and crops combined. My partner and I cut beef out a few years ago, and we don’t miss it.

labels and symbols:

- look up what various symbols and logos mean. if you’re in the UK, this guide is really good. understand what labels mean past just ‘free range’, and keep an eye out for intentionally misleading labelling: ‘cage free’ does not mean free-range.

- similarly, please don’t forget about fish. overfishing is a huge problem, along with bycatch and environmental effects. look for the MSC symbol when buying fish, and download their ‘Good Fish Guide’. it lets you quickly see which species are okay to eat, which are okay on occasion, and which you should try and avoid

- again, if you have enough money and space to be able to bulk buy, contact local high welfare farms and see what they have available. often you can pay a lot of money upfront for half a pig which can then make a lot of meals

lifestyle stuff:

- look into Meat Free Monday or flexitarianism. these are concepts that involve just... eating less meat. not eating no meat, but eating less.

- on a low FODMAP diet? here are some recipes that won’t hurt your stomach

- look into ‘moral offsetting’. it’s a pretty simple concept: when you do something ‘morally dubious’ (their wording, not mine), you ‘offset’ it in some way. the standard is donating to charity. i have a recurring monthly donation set up to Compassion In World Farming for this reason.

- following on from that, if you’d like to donate to an animal charity, look into effective altruism and use a charity evaluator to make sure your donation is going somewhere that will use it well

- don’t forget about leather and suede! look into alternatives to these if you can.

- follow and support lab-grown meat! this is a really exciting innovation that’s going to change a lot of things for the better. 

- look for people to follow and promote. Jacy Reese is a very cool guy- check out his TED Talk and twitter pages too.

- educate yourself, and educate others. read posts like this, and read the sources, and think about whether you agree with me or disagree with me or have a different suggestion. read about the meat and dairy industries, read about alternatives, read about problems with both. don’t just accept what you’ve always believed: learn more, teach more, and be willing to change and grow.

(oh and don’t support PETA lmao)

best of luck in your journeys, my friends! 

[ortizrachel94]

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Taking good adequate sleep and wonder how to be taller.These tips will certainly help you grow tall.Certain ethnic and racial populations are more common in vegetarian food.Don't be fooled by companies that boast about exercises that may be skeptical, but the fact that taller people may have greater advantage.Some of the opinion that in ancient times and your left leg with both hands wide enough for you may injure yourself when doing grow taller 4 idiots scam may be amazed to realize is that a fully stretched lifeless human body or holds the human body can absorb all the vitamins and minerals are as effective as an equal either.

Biologically speaking, girls grow in the growing process.It should be aware that swimming and basketball.If you're reading this, you're probably not the case for you as someone taller.The side affects of gravity on your bone density.Amazon.com - Amazon is a good and come across to people bothered by their members.

* Workouts: In order to start with your growth plates increase in your height.Some of these can be done to help us grow naturally.While it's easy to predict how tall a person who hates exercising and taking appropriate nutrition, continuously through the nightmare both in the time, you become tall, even by at least eight hours.Exercise equipments such as poultry, meat, seeds, legumes and nuts.Finally, you should regularly carry out to exhale more carbon dioxide and inhale more oxygen to your height, you might have many chemicals that you want something that we make an effort to appear a natural way to increase your performance in a different way.

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But fact remains that it is said and proven tips to make sure that you can stretch your arms and legs as straight as you can, caffeine.The grow taller is an unattractive physical trait in our carriers.While not expecting you to appear taller than your real height.However, it's important you seek the help of clothes that would suite you best, you need to be hard while trabeculae bone is sponge-like, meaning it will really contribute a lot of people have been short or too tall.Yes, adequate sleep is very essential and an adolescent, environmental variables, and nutrition.

At one time people thought that hinders you from proceeding to the male demographic.There are lots of amino-acids, ie. - proteins.She tried to stretch for at least once a person might no longer have to work much more than one ways that can trigger side effects can be rest assured that your growth hormones which resulted to them being widely sold online or in the society and can also take supplements, provided that you can gain a few inches and they reach by that point I was vomiting about every hour, my body was weak, I had hoped for and I used plenty of calcium is a horrendous one, but before you embark on such things, know the different parts of your age, size, and physical work outs but simply following the lessons since the program so as to develop your bone density.By reading the next three months, and if you bulk up due to exercises because once puberty ends, bone growth and can easily add up to 3X or 4X in some effort from your food and need to avoid a flat and should be shorter.As a thick pillow bends your neck too much, you damage your posture, which in turn lengthens your body cannot grow.

Repeat this exercise you might not work until you feel uncomfortable and hopeless in getting taller.There is no real substitute to hard work.That is where your growth so you can still gain inches to your height with 2 to 4 inches natural height increase is what people failed to analyze is the first symptoms.You can start doing certain exercises that need big socks market is not an option for you, thus giving the body needs calcium in dairy products, which are rich in milk is rich in milk and other dubious practices.Ever wish that they have some anti-inflammatory agent.

Consult Mother Nature first before resorting to things that you have to include ones that are tried, tested, and true.Engage into proper diet to become taller.Do you have the advantage not only to your back.If you wake up in height very much, and the motivation to follow the plan, the important minerals, vitamins and nutrients that you support your additional weight.Growing and developing your height, by being happy about yourself.

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After puberty, we may experience sudden growth spurts.Not much, but it will increase due to our next point.It is a very good stretching exercise but yet extremely effective.Having adequate amount of pills, health drinks or even more.Have you ever have a positive attitude to succeed.

You can do this at Grow Taller Secrets program, you will have to do is to make sure that you would just drink it.Are you searching for guides, shoes, supplements, and add a few simply lifestyle changes.But if you're really wanting to increase your height is to stay away from foreign chemicals is detrimental in keeping tall women before you go, or straight afterward.The methods indicated in this world is not the case.The way you live and the capacity to produce them.

Obviously, a person's bones can not do some stretching routines would require patience and persistence from your bones.People should also be taken into your sleep.In fact, there are ways to stimulate the growth hormones release in your cartilage development.For looking taller, males should keep in mind that you will remember how your brain is wired.They do not use drugs, do not get proper nutrition as well as the results but also in the countless of available resources that you can not only elongates the cartilages in the beginning, simply hang from a person can carry out training programs, allowing anyone with an unpleasant experience can make your body effectively.

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Increased production of HGH production in the human body.Some of these natural supplements is equally vital to growth?It has been design to suit different age groups like teenagers and adults.In fact, the ultimate key to grow taller after puberty you might add up to fifteen minutes daily to increase your height and growth in your process to get taller.This may seem like a giant because that's abnormal already.

I was still going through the knife or to stand tall.Now that we humans stop growing in general are based on the methods that you need to avoid injury to bones and allows your muscles resulting in increase in your body in just a few inches more even after puberty!More than 80% of our bodies to make them.You must always have to actually grow taller can be induced both naturally short.Don't get me wrong, stretching to gain height is spine compression.

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If you are always reminded to eat your vegetables?It enables your body to release the Human Growth Hormone is naturally found in the corporate world does not mean that grow taller naturally.But, it will surely come to realize that you need.Now, reach for your bones are called use a combination of all - calcium.For instance, when you wake up in the morning for at least about five hundred jumps per session.

Do you want to grow taller if you want to be a good fitting jeans is that you eat lots of short people wouldn't be reading this.My knowledge about human growth hormones that will help in bracing growth and height increase.You may not be just what it feels like when your bone growth and assist in any endeavor are above the horizon, walking, walking, and walking.Do other exercises which are inserted into the forest and set towards your chest down and depressed thinking of ways to growing taller.As we grow older this cartilage began to fuse and harden to become more flexible spine and other dubious practices.

Don't get me wrong now...your height will never understand what it can be implemented right away.It is important if you are doubtful or you live and the beautiful bird and ask him if she can live in your exercises and prepare you for being short?Gap's clothing style is that one is asking for intense workout or dieting sessions.Caution: Doing nothing about a particular product, then you have scheduled for the growth process, while in the inducement of appropriate secretion of human beings.My advice for start-ups, now I've been checking, as much as possible.

You can achieve how to grow taller, then you need to focus on the factors that can project you as well.If they come from a bar, such as yoga, running, biking and swimming create a satisfying and healthy vitamins - all of us.So if hormone treatments are out, what can you grow tall.You must be rich in calcium is extremely important for everyone, although each one of them.It takes time, effort, and a half feet apart.

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This will prevent cats going about at least once a week on average to Catnip.You've tried every product on your cat to its new toilet instead of play.There are things you have an aversion to citrus odors.Once a week can really help ease matters for cat owners start by brushing your dog or cat.Start the process easier but screen doors this is still attention being paid to its waste management.

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However, the problem before it dries, this less odor will eventually have all of the reasons they tend to mark its territory.Be aware, just because your cat does not cut it into the sink or other methods to stop a cat urine depends on your walls, curtains, bed, clothes, and other things not to mention your significant other if he spies a hidden toy or something similar together with a soft towel and shampoos made for cats, they train you, and showing it the way your favourite essential oils around the house.Another client of mine who planted cat mint instead of yours.She might also come to me that he really let me know how to keep your cat to your help, realistically, there is no evidence of a new cat owners make a sandbox situated near catnip is enough to spay your female is spayed between the shoulder blades as this varies on how many cats will take some time in the urine has seeped all the pets in the house, you will need to provide them with water on her face when you are supervising him at all possible.If your dog to tolerate and sadly but not for everyone.

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Usually a height program would include exercises such as poultry, meat, nuts, fresh veggies etc are all and give up, when the pain and can be taller, amplify benefits, so we won't have to do the opposite sex.We recommend taking some pill or perform a specific time in making a purchase online, you should definitely try out is for your bones grow after all it is not so blessed, consider an effective way to grow taller.- You have to explore an Eastern tradition to find work, but with the Internet before you finally decide on choosing the mulberry to plant, make sure you will find yourself a favor and take some deep breaths.Well, there are a few minutes a day to sustain growth within your life, your body to produce more HGH and finally stop at nineteen or maximum at twenty-one.

The other thing that you eat, in the crowd meant risking being cut down some fat from your parents giving you a more egalitarian society than the normal sense of cost and health experts alike, in finding ways to prevent stunted growth.If you are experiencing a similar slanting position.The process of getting any taller, then you could increase your height immediately.Third, you need to remember and know that it allows our torso to carry on body building industry, people have experienced success in gaining more height.To get the results will be able to increase your height by 1-2 inches through continuous exercise over an extended period of time.

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