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#a long long and very warm hug :<
noxtivagus · 2 years
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i'll be better in really really a bit dw 🥹
#🌙.vent#a long long and very warm hug :<#part of me wishes i cld just force myself to. idk perform better so i wldn't be such a disappointment#when i did that before i#remember feeling so empty n lonely. i hate that. never doing that intentionally to myself ever again#but my success or wtvr in whatever way is so important to me that. sacrifices....#but if i. if i do that#i'm not sure how i'll pull myself out of it#i used to cope with fiction yeah? writing n. all those things i love back in 2020#ffxiv greatly gave me comfort majorly in 2021.#but. this year with my personal struggles. i've been losing my touch on both fiction and reality#fuck i have to do so much better i need to stop wasting my time like this#this is so confusing bcs i know i'm in some sort of pain but#at the same time there shouldn't be anything wrong w me#my worth isn't just from my skills or accomplishments or whatever#n in the end all these things are so trivial. i just need to focus on who i am on the inside. the things i love. writing n creativity n just#learning or wtvr n living in this world w ppl i love but#is it perfectionism ???? i'm not. enough.#& it's so hard n confusinf when you can feel things but you can't bring yourself to believe it#i don't know i don't know what i mean to write here#oh god i just want a long warm hug n#eye contact. n heartfelt words. smiling together maybe crying together under the stars n the moon's gentle light#no that's bullshit. oh my god i hate tumblr. cringe#.... but free 💀 idk maybe i shld write again as a coping mechanism fr#i'll be well again in a bit i'll just. i have to make my way through this. i won't fucking let it weigh me down#(i say with tears still in my eyes boohoo#ok bcs yk indulging in my creativity means. i have to accept again that i really am a romantic n that'll be very embarrassing for me#but it's always been a part of me n that's one thing i'm torn about too ?#last i really let myself free w that was 2020 i actually shared what i wrote n uhh last year with ffxiv.#problem is while is it still fiction in this context that is one of the very aspects of my life that i will Never talk about.
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Touch repulsed man caught being physically affectionate
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rosylamb · 3 months
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Twirling and dancing around my room after my bath cus I am the *sweetest* rosy ever ! :D
I am the happiest sugar plum fairy princess in *all* the land of sweets ~ !! ♡
🩰 ˚ ⊹ ♡ .˚ * . 🤍
🎀 ˚ ⊹ .˚ * ♡ ˚ ⊹ .˚ * . 🧁
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smimon · 11 months
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Don't talk to me today guys, there is only one thing I can think about and it's that damn hug from Häärijä
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ask-ttte-dragons · 1 month
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Can I give you a hug, Percy?🥺
Percy: Aw! Of course!😁 I love hugs!
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yelenapines · 3 months
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my friends can talk all the shit they want cavetown is the most comfort artist to ever comfort artist
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ratgingi · 1 year
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woe characters inspired by some of my cats be upon ye. info on them in my tags lol
#dialtown oc#jack dlc#twerpys head is a sledgehammer bc the cat theyre based on was born in a wall lmao#he works at the petstore with outis bc i got said cat frm the local petstore#lilys head is a fluffy couch pillow thing and she works at an animal shelter bc thats where i got the cat shes based on#twerpy is genderfluid bc we make jokes that my cat twerpy is genderfluid a lot#also i feel like shed be aroace if she were a person. its just the vibes yk#lily isnt labeled as anything shes just vibin#the 2 are part of a big sorta found family type shit that consists of chars based on my other 3 cats i just didnt feel like drawin more rn#twerpy is really mean and stuck up but is secretly super sweet it just takes them a long time to warm up enough to someone n show it#shes also secretly incredible at like. comforting people and helping them out. but again only shows it for people hes warmed up enough to#lily is super confident and full of herself and spoiled. she thinks shes super fuckin smart but she is very much Not /lh#she loves attention though and gets her feelings hurt super easy#also shes Huge on physical affection. she loves giving people hugs and holding hands and shit#like. shell be like oh im so fuckin hot and cool literally no ones on my level and of ur like eh idk that fit isnt really that good on u#she will start Crying. and get mad that youre being mean to her for no reason while sobbing#and probably will hug onto you while doing it#twerpy also gives really good hugs but they Hate being touched. so if it willingly touches you then youre incredibly lucky special#also lily loves sitting in peoples laps#if youre friends with her she is far more likely to sit on your lap instead of any chair in the room nd thats just smth youll have 2 deal w#dlc wiki
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barkingangelbaby · 4 months
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venting so much i ran out of tags lmao
#i think im hallucinating ?????#i have my headphones on (listening to boyfeel on repeat n choppin up some paper)#and keep feeling / seeing shadows in my peripheral vision#im probably just dehydrated and having bad floaters but i dont like it :)#today has also been bad dramatically awful#life isn't serious there's no reason to feel this heavy#oop very emo thoughts incoming#life can't be meaningful or ill miss my parents too much but can't be meaningless or im living without them for nothing#im just. struggling very hard this year. idk#i had so much health bullshit going on for months that i put off going to a psych n now im so busy that it feels bad taking time off for it#and im also scared of getting on meds bc the idea of being dependent on something that i might not have access to is.. auuughhh#idk dude my adhd has been debilitating lately and i feel so stuck and sometimes i think i have ocd bc my compulsions are so fucking bad and#all my mental bullshit with my breathing has slowly been driving me wild and peaks my anxiety#and sometimes i worry abt being bipolar bc my mom's mom is and my mom's best friend told me she thought my mom might have been#bc the way my moods are so low or so high is exhausting it feels like i haven't had a “normal” day in so long#but also atp when im happy i feel manic bc idk how to healthily experience happiness anymore#idfk y'all !!!! im also very nonverbal these days#ugh and still going back n forth on telling my therapist ive been suicidal again bc i dont want him to have to report me or anything idk#a few months ago i made a joke about offing myself and he got rly serious n said he'd have to take action if im serious so im leaning no#like. i wouldnt actually kill myself. i just don't want to exist sometimes in this life#its just been very very very very very very very very very very very very very very hard lately without my parents or grandma#and even after all these years it's still heartwrenching to think about continuing to live this life without them#like. i just want to make them laugh. i just want to feel their arms around me in a warm hug. i just want to dance to their favorite songs.#i don't want to think of them and see their dead bodies anymore. i want to remember them healthy and smiling.#i would take care of them again in every lifetime but fuck dude. i just want to remember their good days instead of the end. can i please#please fucking invision them at their best. i want to remember the dad that played baseball and video games and whose laugh filled the room#i want to remember my grandma who was so sassy but kind. whose button nose crinkled when she smiled. who taught me to happily be dramatic#i don't want to remember them being frail. i want to forget the frustration i saw in their eyes. i want to forget seeing them struggle#(insert sadness about not remembering my mom at all)#just. fuck dude. my life is simple and i am safe so i shouldn't complain. but things feel so fucking hard sometimes. i feel so heartbroken
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grim-faux · 2 years
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Ive mentioned before how Mono has an.... we'll say, interesting relationship with food things. He's food descriptions are about as concise as his table manners - a grain thing, a meat thing, some sort of paste. Sweet goo, stuff like that.
If the Thin Man gave him a warm muffin, his first instinct would be 'hug', because it's warm and soft, and who wouldn't hug a toasty, warm thing?
ᵗʰᶦˢ ᶦˢ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵃᵐᵉ ˡᵃᵈ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᶜˡᶦᵐᵇᵉᵈ ᶦⁿᵗᵒ ᵃ ᵐᵘᵍ ᵇʳᵒʷⁿᶦᵉ [here]
And he pretty much shovels everything into his mouth as quickly as he can, since he might have to bolt in the next second. There's no telling if he'll get the chance to eat again. The whole 'meal time' for kids is always chaotic.
Then there's the whole process of food 'concoctions', such as grain things and pasta bits - this is all hard stuff. But Mono has learned at last if you put this stuff into something like fluids (or random liquid condiments when rain isn't available), it will soften enough he can slurp it up.
Everything is pretty much repulsive, but as long as its edible and safe to consume, and doesn't kill him, it's all good.
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serufu · 9 months
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I had an insane day so instead of talking about that I'm gonna juke left and post some of the pictures of my 3 days so far in the Ice Fog up here in the mountains this week lol, I hate driving in it but it's so beautiful
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Bonus far away shots from the foothill plains too!
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thornilee013 · 8 months
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Happy Wednesday! YAY!! I’m so excited for you! I hope you have the most amazing time! Also, as someone who spent roughly 14 years with a marine biology special interest, I absolutely did not notice that you didn’t include the names of fish so you are so good haha. I’ve really been enjoying the aquarium scenes in baby Jean! I spent years watching documentaries about aquariums/aquarium construction/marine biology and begging for trips the the aquarium any time we were close to one. The little aquatic theme to baby Jean so far has been so fun for me!
When you have some time, could I please get some baby Jean? I hope you and your dogs are staying warm!! 🤍🤍🤍
prev | Baby Jean | WW 18.1.2024
Jean fought the urge to cry as he looked around himself for any hint of his family. Instead, he was surrounded by strangers. He leaned back against the glass of the exhibit and sat down, cradling his chin in his hands.
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waveringiridescence · 7 months
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what kind of catharsis do you need?
A warm meal
You're hungry. You've been hungry for a long, long time. There's something missing from your life that you're desperate for, but too afraid to indulge in. Go ahead -- I won't tell. Feast if you need to. Sink your teeth in. Fill that aching spot inside you with something good and sweet.
「 … tagged by… 」 ─ @nvrcmplt (mwa, thank you)
「 … tagging … 」 ─ @intcritus, @deathsprofit, (you or the muse of your choice), @despairforme & @everdaring. & anyone else who feels like to take it.
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psalmsofpsychosis · 10 months
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i like to play a game in which i ask myself "are you actually insane or have you been talking to white people too much"
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HII OMG i had to follow for the soul calibur and kingdom hearts ships!!! also you seem pretty cool!!! :D if it isn't too much trouble, could you tell me more about your ship with aqua? i love her sm! (kittyandco)
hello!!! thank you thank you! it's great to see you here ajdhqkdjw I love so many of your ships and have been following for a while! i'm a huge marvel fan and hux is a character i like a lot too and there's so many f/os of yours that i recognize! soulcal is so special to me since some of my earliest memories are of me playing it! as a result, I've been with my guy for a while- what a guy, am I right? 😍
i'm always down to talk about my aqua! I also love her sm if i do say so myself- this might end up being a little long but here we gooooo!
okay so. Ash is another Keyblade wielder raised by Master E.raqus! He found her after she was orphaned so she sees him as a fatherly figure. She's just a few months older than Aqua and a little younger than Terra. She dresses in mostly all red (her and Aqua are the red and blue couple!!!!) and has those chest straps the other wayfinder trio folk do as well.
She became a Keyblade master before Aqua did (though not very long before- just a few weeks) and she's very good at what she does! She wears a long red coat. I wanted her to look cool and important which is why her outfit is like that.
I hope you like the childhood best friends to lovers trope because that's exactly what happens! These two have been together since they were children. They were always together. No matter what. Always together, hand in hand, giggling and laughing and training and talking. It isn't until their teenage years where Ash goes "... Oh. Oh."
Ash has it bad. She's so horribly in love with her best friend. Terra knows, Ven knows, Dad knows, they all know- It's so obvious! As a kid, she always wanted to be with Aqua, but as she grew older, those cute little giggles turned into longing glances.
Ash often calls Aqua "Berry", a nickname from when they were kids. Ash was red... Aqua was blue... Like a blueberry! So she's Berry for short. She always called Aqua that when they were little, and it stuck! So you can sometimes see her call Aqua "berry"!
Just imagine a little Ash and Aqua when they were small.
"You're Aqua.. and I'm Ash!"
"You're red, and I'm blue!"
"You're like water... But I'm like fire!"
And little Aqua giggles,
"Hey, we match! We're meant to be, right?"
"Yeah, that's right! Ash and Aqua, we'll be best friends forever and ever!"
Anyways, Ash said that she'd finally confess after years of pining after they're all Masters, but... haha... ha... (looks at birth by sleep). She doesn't take the end of the game very well.
(Oh and more appearance details! Ash has brown skin and eyes and black hair like I do. Her coat is red and her shirt under is black. Her straps are green. Her Keyblade is green too. Her hair is long, but tied in a ponytail with a white ribbon. The ribbon was a gift from Eraqus when she was younger.)
Like with the others, Aqua makes a wayfinder for Ash. Ash's is red, just like her coat. But Ash refuses to take it. She laughs, saying that her and Aqua are so close that they don't need this to be together. And so, for all of BBS, Aqua carries two Wayfinders.
But at the end, right before she falls into darkness, Aqua asks for Ash's hand and gives her a blue Wayfinder.
"Aqua..." "Keep it. I'll always be by your side, okay?"
So for all of Ash's appearances until they reunite in 3, Ash carries a blue Wayfinder from her belt. However, that also means that Aqua carries a red Wayfinder in 0.2
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It makes moments like these a little more emotional. She thinks of Ash whenever she looks at that. Ash is what keeps her going throughout the darkness. Her best friend, the woman that she loves.
And then... At the end of BBS... Aqua falls into darkness. And Ash is forced to watch. The last thing Aqua hears is Ash begging and screaming, pleading for the darkness to please just take her instead. Anything, she'd give up anything to save Aqua.
Ash punches at the ground again and again till her knuckles bleed the same red as the Wayfinder Aqua always held onto, casts every single spell she knows. She doesn't care about how much it hurts. She just wanted to save Aqua.
... And she failed. Aqua doesn't come back.
Ash's hands are scarred from all that, and every single one of those scars are a reminder that she failed. She has bandages around her hands.
For ten years, she is alone. Eraqus is gone, her best friend Terra is gone, Ven is gone... And Aqua is gone. Her light is gone. Ash spends ten years by herself, wandering worlds and imagining what it would be like to see Aqua again. She loves her so much..
Ash can be seen wandering worlds in 2. Sora tries to talk to her, seeing that she's a Keyblade wielder. But Ash tells him to leave. She doesn't care about anything that doesn't have to do with Aqua. She doesn't even have it in her to be a boss fight.
But yeah. For ten years, we get mean and sad Ash. After Mickey sees Aqua, he tracks down Ash. Ash agrees to help them because she wants to see Aqua again. So we see her work with Riku and Yen Sid and Mickey and all those losers later. She's a little serious and quiet (which is wild, since she's a goofy and bright jokester with Aqua!)
Her and Riku also develop a sibling type bond. She's the cool big sister to him. Riku picks up on Ash always playing with the blue Wayfinder she carried on her.
And then a bunch of stuff happens and she's the one who has to fight Anti-Aqua. It horrifies her and she's crying for the whole fight.
"Please, Aqua... I-I can't... Don't make me do this..."
"You left me here. You abandoned me. You never came me."
"Aqua, please... I did everything I could!"
And when Aqua finally comes back, Ash is tackling her in a hug. They're both sobbing, clinging to each other with all they have. Aqua has always felt like home to Ash. Ash was home. She was finally home. Aqua cries, saying that she never stopped thinking about Ash.
You know how in 0.2 Aqua looks up at the sky sometimes? Ash looks up at the stars a lot too. Reminds me of the days when her and younger Aqua would stay up and laugh together under the stars.
A little while after they reunite, they kiss. They've always been so close, and sometimes just... snaps. And they both confess that they've been in love with each other for a long, long time. And yeah! For the rest of 3, you can see them kissing and holding hands and being really cute. They're a very adorable couple (if I do say so myself hehe)!
Also, Ash is afraid of taking off her bandages around Aqua at first. Her scars are ugly. Her scars are a reminder of how she wasn't enough. She wants to be the perfect woman for Aqua, and Aqua shouldn't have to see that side of her. But Aqua tells Ash that she loves Ash for who she is, and her hands are beautiful, no matter how many scars are on them. Aqua kisses them often.
Also, Ash sometimes refers to Aqua as "my heart" and Aqua refers to Ash as "my light". In a world of darkness, thoughts of Ash was all Aqua had. Her bright smile, loud laugh, all of it... Ash was her light. And a heart is supposed to be Ash's guiding key, right? Well, Ash's heart always found its way back to Aqua. Aqua is her heart.
There's a lot more to this ship and I've written soooo damn much for them, but that's pretty much what you need to know about them! They're the red/blue Keyblade gfs!!!! They're so in love! Best friends (and even more than that) forever!
Ash is pretty sassy and humorous, and can sometimes be a bit of a flirt (only towards Aqua). It makes Aqua blush. Aqua is just the sweetest person alive- It's adorable how she's the only person who can fluster Ash. They love each other so much. Ten years without each other wasn't easy. Ash isn't used to having anyone around again, and Aqua isn't used to the light. But that's okay. They have each other, right?
Oh! Also! When they reunite, they finally trade Wayfinders again. Red for Ash, blue for Aqua.
This is mostly Ash/Aqua focused, but she's cool big sis to Ven, and sassy daughter (who loves him lots) to Eraqus. She didn't like Terra as a kid, but as they grew up together, they've gotten extremely close and care for each other deeply. However, Ash likes to pick on him a lot. She calls him an idiot a lot, but she cares about him, I promise! He was also one of the first to go "hey, Ash, youre down bad for your bestie aren't you-"
Thank you for this ask!!!
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littlegoldfinchh · 2 years
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Not naming names but some of you are so strong and deserve the whole world actually
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alasblogpoetry · 2 years
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Coolth.
Earth a lifeless cement - Dirt frozen over, Trees bare and dead.
Wind a motionless freeze - Air is as if claws Cling onto our skin.
Sun a heartless deceit - A disk blank and white, An absence of heat.
Fire - its faint orange tongues barely touching our skin.
Layers of sweaters - heavy but transparent to coolth.
Submerged, by woods, by deathly coolth of morning, by thirst for warmth.
Together a freezing love - Forget the fire and layers, We hug.
Warmth.
(to MK, AK, DB, and Art)
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