#i think im hallucinating ?????

[bedforddanes75]

i swear 2 god i just tagged something as troye sivan and one of the recommended tags said poppers

[bloodielavender]

im so fucking paranoid that i cant sleep, i feel like im losing my mind :(

[redd-the-guy]

I’ve had a few more auditory hallucinations recently, like how I thought I was hearing circus music outside my home when I was in middle school and hearing my name being called out from my brother when he didn’t. I’ve had very limited visual hallucinations and mind tricks, but they aren’t as often as my auditory ones.

[axinite25]

Books really are just staring at trees and hallucinating aren't they

[futuristiclovezr]

TW: Hallucinations?

i think i’m hallucinating roblox jumping and walking sounds-

like it’s there it’s not just imaginative it’s there

any advice i guess?

[delightfulbatter]

I had a dream about my own death again I know dreams are supposed to mean nothing but I feel like something is trying to tell me something still.

[cachantun]

man i hate pizza but right now i wish i was eating a slice of the nastiest pizza ever swimming in mysterious fat with a total of 7 pieces of toppings with that fat cheese filled crust oh my god

[latenightsundayblues]

Whoops! Mark's having that problem again!

[miwtual]

@yellowjacketsnetwork event 05 — growth @lgbtqcreators creator challenge — past event (growth) — aaron schwartz, on the other side of grief with ocean vuong (insp)

[pixlokita]

I wonder if pit Bonnie is using some sort of auditory thing to cause Oswald hallucinations the more he’s around ?? Idk like the people screaming in the background or hearing him at random when he’s not there :Tc or maybe it’s sound disks he’s using as a disguise but for some reason it gives nightmares to Oswald instead >>

[phonification]

brain ghost nickel

[hugeegosorry]

My dealer: got some straight gas🔥😛this strain is called "House MD"😳 you'll be zonked out of your gourd💯

me: yeah whatever. I don't feel shit.

5 minutes later: dude i swear i saw the ghost of your dead girlfriend

My buddy Wilson pacing: the patient is lying to us

[metal-district]

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[kaiserouo]

it's me i'm that hunter. i need to constantly stare at a titan

[blondeaxolotl]

Twst fans I have a question to you all, I was talking to my QP partner about Twst characters and Malleus was brought up, and it reminded me of this one cool artist with a silly malleus design which I absolutely fell in love with and I wanted to show their Malleus to my qp partner. Except for some reason I can NOT find the artist at all and I've been doom scrolling every tag I could think of and unfortunately I couldn't find them at all

THEIR MALLEUS LOOKED SOMETHING LIKE THIS, PROBABLY NOT THE BEST EXAMPLE BUT ITS ALL I CAN REMEMBER, but please if you know what artist I'm talking about, let me know because I miss their art I'll be honest Edit: Found them YIPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[sualne]

carnis au accidental [???] but i was thinking about mimic luffy wanting to get closer and closer to law, and i'd been thinking since i've made the au about how he'd want to see law's scars (already various scenes on how it could happen, written notes and all, don't know which to pick), and then the fact that he knows there's something carnis still in him.

so i was thinking of another scene where he's inspecting the scars on his face and they both very close but it's not the scars he's really looking at, he's searching for that carnis leftover and says maybe mostly to himself "It's still inside you. That's just so unfair. Why, just why couldn't it have been me?"

And jokingly is thought: This is it folks, I broke the code, this is about bottom dysphoria!

But then! I thought again, the au is about feeling otherized, isolated and monstrous and wrong. i've already strongly considered the idea of luffy's death as a suicide metaphor. the mimic has been thinking about socially detransitioning because it keeps getting accosted by creeps and assholes and knows that luffy would've fought back most of the time but also knows it's much stronger now and doesn't want to get caught, he needs to lays low, it doesn't want to cause a scene, it has to go stealth.

law hates the idea because it's not enough that it killed luffy now it has to just go and erase that important part of him of as well but the mimic insist, he's still a man, he'll just fake being a girl to make it easier. but law doesn't understand because to him the mimic is faking being a man, it's faking being a person, it's faking being luffy.

the reason the mimic wants to lay low is because it doesn't want to get caught so it can stay with law and study him, understand him. law doesn't knows that, he's too freaked out by the fact that's it's a mimic! that it killed luffy and might possibly want to kill him too! but the mimic feels a kind of kinship with law because of that remaining carnis in him.

remains he got from nearly dying, from losing his family, from an attack to another carnis. and i thought, law is meant to be reminiscent of mimics. he had to regrow his face, he's (as always) autistic and doesn't always act as expected, he's also paranoid even when he happens to be right, he's traumatized to the point of psychosis, the encounter changed him. it was meant as a parallel to how ppl like to think murderers&co are all mentally ill because they can't possibly be Normal Like Them, they must be different, they must not be human, they're obviously monsters. but those victims, those who get to survive, the trauma change them, they can acquire all sort of neurodivergences, and when those same Normal People learn that a person has some kind of The Scary Disorder they think "Oh, you're a monster too! You'll (inevitably) hurt someone!" which lead back to being otherized ect.

there's also something about how law didn't just get scars from his near death experience but also what's essentially a disease.

and then back to the mimic, who recognize itself in him, in that disease, but it isn't quite right, it's not enough and it's also nothing alike at all and also he's kind of jealous? it makes no sense to the mimic itself but he can't stop thinking about law either.

it's also how a monster that's linked to what is theorized to be something close to a hivemind accidentally developing a sense of identity and facing some sort of existential crisis over the fact that it can't ever escape it's monstrous nature and doesn't want to either. and that sound like, very much like being trans and cracking your egg and realizing you're fucked cause that sure is knowledge to have about oneself and also it's in the fictional 90s of a op carnis au so good luck with that.

anyway that's a lot of words and im not sure how to phrase the rest it's just, this was supposed to be a casual au where i went "OHOHO look at the Tragedy" but i thought about it too long and now i feel like i've ended up with a millefeuilles of overlaying themes and im, i means sure. can't draw All that tho so what now.