#Yeah ig just to be safe.

[drag0nalias0]

Hrng. Its kinda just hitting me that its febuary rn.

Another valentines day is coming up soon. Sometimes i feel like im the only one who gets a slightly bitter taste in the mouth when i think of the holiday. Like i love putting blorbos and such into valentines situations. But well... if i think about myself during valentines day it just bring back that one scene from a few years ago. I wonder how shes doing now. I wonder if she ever thinks of me. Fuck, now im sadder than i was before :(. Anyway i hope shes doing well... i wish our paths would cross again. However i doubt she has many fond memories of me. I was too clingy back then. I mean i see a mutal friend most days so if i really wanted to... but a coward will always be a coward. I wish i was better to her. I just miss her so much. If i was just a little less intense with my weird interests she probably would have let me stay a little longer. I wonder if she still remembers when we used to hang out. I still have a little bit of the valantines choclate she gave me... still in the bear packaging just sitting in my side drawer.

At this point ive kinda forgottern what she looks like. I dont think ive ever taken a photo with her. I was such an idiot. I just remember a ginger bob cut. So vibrantly orange i kept thinking it was dye. Her things were around the same size as mine. I remember being so insecure about being "fat". I wasnt. Just most other people were quite skinny. I honstly loved how she stood out from the stick thin girl i always saw. She was just so very beautiful. Sometimew i fear ill never fall in love with someone the same way i was in love her. Sometimes i fear ill never fall in love at all.... The other thing was the way she wispered to me. She said some rather innapropriate stuff. She also kabedonned me a few time. It was one of the best things i ever experienced....

Anyway if i really really wanted to give someone valentines choclates there are 2 people i could think of giving it to, i mean i find them more attractive than most people and i like both of them a lot (also both of them are the only trans people i know irl so t4t agenda) . However it probably would be too weird so i guess not. Although i could do one of them (mutual friend mentioned earlier) if i done it anonmously....

ugh this is cringe

[telekitnetic-art]

DON'T LET YOUR HEART DIE <3

onto 2025, I suppose.

[harbingersecho]

[skibasyndrome]

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[dreamedfyre-a]

firm believer there was no bedding ceremony when helaena and aegon married because she would cry and possibly kill someone

[spitblaze]

So the thing is that it actually doesn't matter how much you hate men. You can personally despise men with every single fiber of your being and never want to be within a hundred feet of one and as long as you don't let it give you gender essentialist brainworms it's fine.

Are you lashing out at others for not having the same fear and hatred and aversion of men that you do? Are you going out and telling people that dating men diminishes their worth as a person or a romantic/sexual partner? Are you telling people that it's 'their own fault' for dating a man when their boyfriend or husband or partner hurts them? Are you publicly going out of your way to shame and bully and show your disgust for gay and bi men for having the audacity to be men who love other men? Are you telling men who belong to gender/sexual/racial minorities that their status as men nullifies any other oppression they face? Are you telling trans women that their having a penis (or having had a penis at some point) makes them dangerous or telling trans men they're 'traitors' to womanhood or confused girls about to ruin their lives? No?? Then who give a shit.

[eru-iru]

I just realized the two fandoms I left are all because of the fandom itself and how miserable it is there. ppl just can't respect other ppl's boundaries and would throw in words that they don't even know the meaning of. I mostly keep to myself but some of it was so loud I'd heard it from other ppl and would sometimes end up seeing it. like some artist would leave and sell all the merch they bought just because ppl bullied them so bad over being a fan of a character. or you just ship smth and ppl would bully you for it. like these are simple ships and some got driven out coz of how hostile ppl are. seeing all that shit really is just demoralizing and not make me want to put content for those fandoms anymore.

[sol-consort]

something about being in an online game makes you want to personally give every tank player who's ever lived a kiss on the lips

[dykedvonte]

I really do like character design in mouthwashing

Anya is obvi inspired by Shelley Duval (who was also verbally abused by Cubric, if I recall correctly), the Shining protagonist. Curly is your typical captain America style charismatic leader, he is even canonically a gym bro (although I recall you mentioning that if Curly's pre-crash face wasn't revealed, you would've headcanoned him as black, so I am a bit curios, what his dynamic w/ Jimmy would've been. Like, I think this little piece of sht would be casually racist towards him, he is just that sort of asshole. If the story was set at our times he would've def vote for Trump and complain abt immigrants eating dogs or something equally rediculous lol. Also, his dynamic w/ Anya - being marginalised himself would've he been harder on Jimbo's bullshit? Or would that not matter at all in their particular situation? So many possibilities.)

Daisuke is a bright spot in an otherwise dull and grey space. Swansea is simply perfect, 10/10😁

-💀

I don’t think Jimmy would be racist towards Curly or anyone for that matter.

Like I don’t see Jimmy as a misanthrope. He’s not hateful just to be hateful, he’s spiteful. All of his envy and resentment of others comes from his own projection of shared aspects he feels inferior by. I think the biggest difference is it adds a little more ire to Jimmy’s sentiments as it takes away an easy aspect of Curly’s life. I assume Mouthwashing operates in a similar social history and structure as our world so Curly likely faced prejudices based on his race in this scenario. He had something extra outside of his control weighing him down and yet he still reached that highest rung.

For Jimmy it’s infuriating. It feeds that delusion that Curly has it so much easier, that he doesn’t have to do the real work to get to that space. He should’ve struggled more, he should be more bitter but he isn’t. He’s not like him still and he’s pissed about it. He still wouldn’t understand the underlying and systemic issues Curly would’ve faced cause he can’t. He wouldn’t try to because in doing that it’s an admission he’s just not trying like Curly is. Any comments that could be seen as racist are less targeted at Curly’s ethnicity but just at him. Jimmy’s issues are with Curly as a whole, being so idealic compared to him and everything around him. It’s not just one facet of him physically, mentally or emotionally that makes Jimmy so envious. It’s why he’s obsessed, it everything about him.

As for Anya, this is no anger toward you, but there’s this perception in fandom spaces with intersectionality that sharing a minority status creates an equal understanding of what exact struggles the others go through. You can understand the feeling of oppression but certain aspects of certain systems will still be misunderstood if they don’t apply to you. Curly is still a man and Anya a woman. Perhaps she is a woman of color, it think he may have been a bit harsher to Jimmy as he would be aware of the racial factors at play when it comes to the dehumanization and sexism perpetrated towards WOC but he still wouldn’t get it as a man.

It’s like apples and oranges to where they are both fruit but being categorically the same doesn’t make them identical. I can not describe to you the taste of an apple by using an orange. Anya would no more understand Curly’s struggles being black than he would her being the only woman on board. Of course they share the similarity of being the only one but even in this case we do work off the assumption everybody but Daisuke is white. He’d inherently have more solidarity with him on that aspect than her.

[zymstarz]

yeah sure that's how i'll [re]come out

[tommygotwrittenoff]

my favorite thing about bt is when there's an opportunity for buck and t to have a deeper connection, but then t just shuts it down. like, go girl, give us nothing!!!!

[gxyhxrror]

OCD is so funny bc it can be different each day and also centered on so so many things

I have horrible intrusive thoughts

& contamination ocd & washing my hands dozens of times & like today changing socks multiple times if my brain decides they touched one ‘gross’ thing on the floor

& it’s so centered around everything being connected & sensory issues & thinking “I can’t do that until after this” until I’m not doing anything at all

& being super avoidant bc my mental illness is so exhausting & I can’t do things I haven’t prepared for & I have to be able to go over & over info or plans,,

if I have a certain type of dr appointment or unpleasant thing like a job interview,, I try to plan all the details of how it will go & I get stressed bc I feel weak for not being able to know for sure how it will be or the experience itself bc it hasn’t happened yet

ocd is in everything i do & think now

[mrsmarlasinger]

I can't do drugs tonight because the protective order was actually both granted and served today. SAD. Now I have to pack up and flee from DV tonight or whatever 🙄

[deus-ex-mona]

series i’m gatekeeping from my family vs series i’m ✨ok✨ with my family knowing i’m into:

[adore-gregor]

🙄🫠

[impossible-rat-babies]

I can’t take him places w me in this playthrough bc I just stare at them standing next to each other help