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skunkes · 6 months ago

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#a doodley #i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash #anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago #im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up #and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad #like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to #quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen #and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be #and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die #and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago #and your brothers that passed away #recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7 #the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad #said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then #i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was #like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry #im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible #i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad

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royaltea000 · 2 months ago

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When your disciples make you wanna drink but you’re a monk

#wow a double post today #yeah I was waiting for my laptop to charge lol #I just KNOW that sometimes xuanzang wishes he could have a drink the way his disciples act in public #guys please stop terrorizing the locals we need to go get our passport approved #ma’am I’m so sorry I know they look scary I swear they don’t bite without provocation #most of the time he says under his breath #rip xuanzang you woulda loved child leashes #being a single mom is hard #especially when your three children are centuries old yaoguais who have the power to kill you if they accidentally pat you too hard #and let’s not even TALK about the eldest kid #journey to the west #jttw tripitaka #xuanzang #digital art #my art #journey to the west fanart #figures as soon as I sit down to work my computer dies #how can I work when even the universe is telling me to slack off 🫶

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bellaxgiornata · 10 months ago

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Feeling a little sick still today so I'm sharing some pet photos! It's almost been a year since I joined tumblr and one of my first posts was of my pets because I'm a proud fur mama as well as a mama!

Y'all might remember my cat Miso from last spring's Keyboard Chewing Incident of 2023 wherein my cat kept breaking into my office until he absolutely demolished my keyboard and I couldn't write for a few days until I got a new one (and finally thwarted him because it's wireless 🙌🏻). But I also have an Australian shepherd/husky? mix named Alphonse--the large, furry, stubborn one of the group. He honestly acts more like a cat than a dog (and my cat acts more like a dog than a cat, so it works?). And the last fur child we adopted is our special needs dog Jaina who is a double merle dog. She was born deaf and with malformed pupils and third eyelids but she's the happiest damn thing I've ever seen in my life and I wish I could borrow her energy today. Not surprisingly the three of them all get into trouble just as much as my toddler. And they sometimes even work together to cause mayhem...

Feel free to tell me about your pets! 🙃

#bella getting personal #just sharing my pets today because i can #im a fur mom too 🐕🐕🐈#also feel free to tell me about your pets #because i love pets 💕

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skecherss · 5 months ago

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Forced to engage in Solomon-esque shenanigans this morning

#i'm watching my family's chickens for them #the chickens are not cooperating.#we have a (somewhat) broody hen who just hatched chicks and apparently today was the day she decided she was done parenting #she snuck back into the main coop with the other girls. and since she was no longer making mama hen sounds i had no way of telling her apar #from. the other two totally identical chickens #one of whom can and WILL peck baby chicks #the babies were my only indicator. they wouldn't stop crying until their mom was back #she still didn't seem to care a whit about them but at least she wasn't actively attacking them #sketchies

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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 months ago

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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]

a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious

i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me

as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy

#snap chats #may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ #i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise #can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL #im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways #i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history #but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX #i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him #yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All #it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me #i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context #i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness #and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help #but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading #Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh #im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling #and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl #ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted #but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo #i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING #because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time #im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway #its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for #down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth #as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP #i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT

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purplebass · 4 months ago

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Today is my city's patron saint. The lore says that his sacrifice and prayers stopped Vesuvius from erupting and performed a miracle. They kept his blood in a glass case and every Sept 19 if his blood liquefies, it's a good sign that Vesuvius won't erupt again for a while. Idk why this reminds me of when antari marked people with their blood in acol but it does. Blood that protects

#Tweety.txt #today the blood liquefied by the way lmao #the lore of my city is crazy one time I should tell you about how Nero was in the underground city during an earthquake just chilling lmao #or how his mom agrippina was drowned in the sea of Lucrino (in the phlegraean fields)#and even if I don't really believe in miracles idk I like this lore #today is also talk like a pirate day #patron saint januarius of pirates #tw blood mention

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ismyteadoneyet · 1 month ago

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bro getting myself an audhd assessment for the sole reason of making the rest of my family realize that THE HAVE IT THEMSELVES is getting more and more tempting by the fkn day I SWEAR TO GOD

#like my dad keeps critizising and “making fun” of his OWN BROTHER for having very very obvious special interests and “needing routine”#and somehow fails to fkn realize that he IS THE VERY FKN SAME #my mom is currently doing health checks and sht for a lot of things that MIGHT STEM FROM THE FACT THAT SHE IS ALSO NEURODIVERGENT #“I just have trouble starting/finishing things and I'm unfocused and tired a lot” BESTIE IF YOU JUST FKN LISTEN TO ME-#LIKE BOTH ME AND MOM HAVE WORKED WITH AUDHD KIDS FOR YEARS WHY CAN YOU NOT SEE THE SIMILIARITIES I BEG #like we had an entire discussion of good/bad rep of neurodivergency and how most people boil autism down to “oh so like Sheldon!”#When it's literally the worst most stereotypical awful thing I know because SHELDON IS MADE OUT TO BE A JOKE AND IS SIMPLY JUST FKN MEAN #and like they don't seem to realize why “oh I couldn't tell they had autism when I met them!” IS THE ENTIRE FKN POINT #I am so tired #I keep trying to use neurodivergent lingo in casual conversation in hopes they'll pick it up too but no luck yet #I literally couldn't help myself when talking about my uncle today and asked if he had a diagnosis on paper #since it “clearly runs in the family” and they got SO FKN QUIET #I'M SO TIRED OF PLAYING DUMB IN MY OWN HOME #BCS IF I DO SAY SHT OUT LOUD they play it off as “oh your friends have brainwashed you into thinking you are neurodivergent sweetheart :((”#I'm tired #tove rambles

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sandpapersnowman · 2 months ago

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I had been worried that cutting my dad off and distancing myself from him would put me in a difficult position with his side of the family but I've actually reconnected with a couple family members over how shitty he's been and it turns out I'm not the first one to stop talking to him, he's been blocked by like two of my aunts And my cousin

#my cousin texted me out of nowhere yesterday and we've been chatting which has been really nice #and I asked her like btw did my dad send you to talk to me and shes like oh God no I haven't talked to him since he got drunk and rampaged #and I was like oh which time and she's like the one a couple months ago and I was like ayy me too lmao #so! turns out the only person who is straining and breaking familial relationships is him 🤔#not that he'll ever see the pattern that his sister and aunt and two of his nieces AND his ex wife/baby mama AND his own kid #have told him to get his shit together and stop being an asshole to everyone #but yknow #if he stopped drinking it'd solve 25% of his problems and therapy would solve another 50%#but he refuses to stop drinking or listen to anyone but other brainwashed trumpheads so! fuck 'im #dad mention #alcohol mentioned #anyway. feeling better about my choice to stop talking to him #he went off on my mom today and called her a lot of horrible things and accused her of leading him on #when she has actively been telling him since they got divorced TEN YEARS AGO that nothing is ever happening w them again #but since he doesn't listen to her he didn't hear it and just dug his pity party hole deeper #anyway. back to my night having a nice time and having a good relationship with basically everyone else in my family #unlike some people 🍵 🐸

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eddiediaaz · 10 months ago

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me: i'm gonna call my mom just to talk but i'm not gonna tell her about my new type 2 diabetes diagnosis because she has a lot on her plate and just told me my grandma is in the hospital again, and i don't wanna add yet another thing to it.

my mom: your voice sounds strange, are you sure you're okay?

me: starts sobbing and tells her everything lol

#also had to tell her about the breakup #asking me if i'm okay when i'm already feeling on the verge of tears is like THE trigger for me #i will start bawling lol (and i did for the second time today. first time was with the doctor when she told me fdskjdfbds)#(i tried really hard to keep it in okay but she just kept going on with the complications if left untreated and it was A Lot)#anyway i love my mom and how supportive she is about this #and my step dad was also yelling supportive things through the phone too lol it was so sweet #i cannot tell my dad yet tho cause i know he'll say shit like “i told you so” (about extra weight complications) and i can't handle this rn #i know he'll be supportive but not in a way i need rn #so i'll tell him one day but not now

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thelovers-thedreamers-and-me · 3 months ago

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the downside to being a sitcom neighbour sort of person is that when rough things happen and emotionally fuck u up a lil bit, it also sounds completely made up

#bert's dead dad tag #found out today the way my dad told mom he wanted a divorce?#he wrote her a letter and left it on the dining room table for her to find on the morning of her fortieth birthday #who the fuck does that dead father #like that is the sort of thing i would entirely make up if i needed everyone at the table to fuckin hate an npc #and at least one person would go 'you're laying it on a little bit heavy'#i know he did work to become a better person as he got older #which is good because BOY howdy was that man a piece of shit in the early 90s #and we are having Complicated feelings about it tonight and also for the last nine months #something something when i was writing his eulogy i came across an old article discussing something he did in the 90s #YDIP (your dad is problematic)#like yeah this is the sort of thing that would have been vaguely acceptable in the cultural context #but like. still objectively bad. potentially ruining several lives sort of bad.#learned this and then wrote the rest of his eulogy about how he was a great guy and how i'm lucky to have been his son #(which was rough enough on its own because i've never said 'i'm [dad's name]'s son' as many times as i did that trip home)#but like what else do you do? i sent off a message looking for more information #and that information if it comes is just gonna sit with me i guess #sure as hell not telling my sister and this whole thing i've been getting through without really having anyone here for me to talk to #(hence the big fuckoff tag rant. your problem now losers who like clicking the read more button)#so even if i get all the answers i want about this one thing it's not gonna do any good except putting an end to one question #but part of having a dead dad who's been out of the business of forming new memories since you came out is having more questions #answering this one's just gonna add even more questions to the pile #but. got fuckall else to do

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l3ominor · 13 days ago

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fleshdyk3 · 4 months ago

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god i fucking hate my dad

#he came home today from a bike trip he went on and he's been arguing with me about honeybee the whole fucking day #he keeps saying just let her out let her run around! every time i put her in her pen to nap #and he refuses to stop her from biting him #and he got mad at her for playing with his socks when she'd just been playing with mine and he threw them on the floor of the living room #which first of all stop being such a fucking slob #and second of all what the fuck did you expect to happen? it's a soft new toy on the floor where she spends most of her time. where all her #toys are. very similar to the two soft items she's allowed to play with (my socks)#she's fucking 3 months old she doesn't understand the difference between my socks and his socks #and i keep telling him i know what im doing i was doing all the research while he went to buttfuck nowhere on his midlife crisis motorcycle #but he just wont fucking listen to me #and hes like oh youre at that age where you think youre right about everything and are so stubborn like fuck you actually #first of all im stubborn about this because its a living breathing puppy and his actions will affect her behaviour as an adult #and bc i know what im fucking doing. ive been an animal person my entire life. i did all the research. i did this exact same thing with #parrots for five years.#and hes like you cant just put her in her pen every time shes being a dog like no i fucking dont. i only put her in her pen when it's time #for a nap and she's getting overtired. you can't just let her run around until she collapses bc for one she never fucking will #second that's only going to make her energy threshold higher and then she'll be absolutely impossible to handle #and i told him that and that i read that on like every professional dog training source i read #and he said that might be true or might not be #like it fucking is bitch omfg #and then he tried to one up me like um i actually raised you guys for a long time i know what im doing #like a child is not a fucking dog. also my mom raised us lets be fucking serious. and look how well adjusted i turned out #and he told me to relax and calm down like i wasnt even arguing with him but i sure as hell will now #like dont tell me to fucking relax. when has telling anyone to relax ever made anything better. especially a teenager. especially a (for #simplicity's sake) woman.#and i told him dont tell me to relax and he got all pissy and stormed off #like literally fuck you #im my fathers daughter. im just as stubborn as he is.#rambles

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 7 months ago

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mini rant under cut, warning for cursing.

how many more times does someone close to me have to traumatize me before it stops. how many more times. I am sick of this shit.

#blue chatter #I’m fine nothing happened today #just. got to deal with my apparently incredibly queerphobic brothers this weekend #on top of my quietly queerphobic mom #why is my dad who went to priest school the only one here being kind about this #I’m so tired #I hate having new things to tell my therapist every time I come home #and I wish I could put my foot down and be like ‘I’m not going home until this stops’#but every time I actually talk to my parents my resolve crumbles like a Cheeto under someone’s heel #I hate being scared all the time #and having to hide how hurt I feel in case I get called volatile again #because heaven forbid I feel angry #when my brother tells me to my face that he hates everyone like me and that they’re sinning against God #without a trace of irony. and them my mom is like ‘I think you can talk this out’#NO!!! I cannot!!!!!! I can barely talk this out with you bc you think this is a phase!!!!#I hate dreading to go to my parents’ house every time #my therapy is helping but half the time I feel like it makes me feel worse #anyway. angrypost done. I’m gonna paint a little.#and then go to bed.#goodnight y’all

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fiona-fififi · 6 months ago

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#today my grandparents were over #and my grandma mentioned that my cousin's best friend and his long-time boyfriend are getting married tomorrow #and my grandpa started talking about it with my mom #and what he said was 'you know i don't have any problem with that.#i've never met a person like that who wasn't perfectly nice. they're great people.'#and my mom said something like 'yeah and that's just the way of the world now'#and grandpa said 'well actually that's always been the way it's just now they're able to be open about it'#in such a pleasant proud way #like he was just genuinely happy that queer people are able to be open and be themselves #and i nearly broke down crying #because i've always been too afraid to ask #but it is a relief to know he wouldn't hate me if i ever got up the nerve to tell him i'm bi #anyway #personal #also #in case it matters #this man is 91 years old #and i'm very happy to know this is the way he thinks

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bilestat · 7 months ago

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feels like absolute shit when it’s so clear the person you were excitedly telling stuff to was not paying attention at all and couldn’t care less

#i love my mom but i wish she would just tell me she doesn’t wanna hear about stuff lol #it would hurt my feelings less #has happened a lot lately but TWICE today 🙂 i am going to end it all #i need more irl friends so bad #personal #to be deleted

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suffercerebral · 8 months ago

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me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects

#maybe my mom was onto something all these years telling me i'm bipolar #no i don't think i am but i do technically have a bpd diagnosis so like. mood swings up the fucking wazoo are not new #but i am not one to be like 'exercise will fix me'#i've also just come to terms recently with the fact that i didn't kill myself already so might as well start thinking of the long term #so not being in constant pain when im older is something im actually thinking of now #so like. gotta move more which i was doing during this semester! walking like 3 miles a day which didn't help brain but #it's gotta be good for you anyway even if i don't get the endorphins everyone says you get when working out #that's neverrrr been me bc also chronic illness w exercise intolerance #so it's like. wah i have a desire to move my body more and know it's beneficial #but chronic illness + mental illness + trying not to think about exercise in terms of weight loss bc i'm trying not to make that the goal #although certainly wouldn't be mad if that was the result but if i prioritize it over just overall health it's gonna make me obsessive #i'm saying a lot of words. i have no one to really talk to so i once again come to tumblr as a public diary #ANYWAY. trying to find balance with wanting to exercise for overall well-being but dealing with other factors like chronic illness #which has actually been under the most control it's been in years i barely even consider myself (physicslly) disabled these days #and also balancing the fact that while my disordered eating has never recovered and i still have extremely bad relationship with myself #im in a relatively better place with that. i'm not starving myself and im not going through binge/purge cycles #but my relationship with food and eating is still very much unhealthy #and i don't think that will ever really change bc it's so ingrained in the everything about me #i don't really know what i'm talking ahout anymore or what prompted this #i can't simply just say 'i'm gonna go for a hike today' and be normal about. always gotta psycho analyze myself #im in a very weird stage in my life where i feel like i have control over nothing and i barely even exist in my own body #im just like a cacophony of voices trapped inside a meat suit but im not in the drivers seat im stuffed in the trunk and tied up #and the guy driving is an old blind mind who should have lost his license his ass is NOT road safe!#so it's like i have all these ideas and desires and feelings and ahh!! but hey i'm locked up here let me out please #and also the state of the world. so bleak and hopeless and paralyzing that i've just kind of shut my feelings off so i'm rapidly switching #between numbness and overwhelming agony #what the fuck am i talking about

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