#VENT POST

[little-miss-melancholy]

the guilt that comes with spending money on things i want, after growing up in a household that barely had enough to pay the bills..

[mouse-girl-estrogen]

i just want someone to touch me without me having to initiate

[atwoodsfemalefantasy]

ik this is kinda a post to the void, but i'm excited! i think ive decided to go to an all women's college, and the idea of it is making me really happy. i've been striving toward Ivys my entire life, but especially after the election and my radfem awakening, i just don't think i'll feel safe, comfortable, or even happy in a place filled with mostly rich white males. i have the grades and scores for an Ivy, or at least a really good chance, but i just no longer think it's the right place for me. i can't stand the thought of being around rich, entitled assholes, many of them conservative.

i started thinking about womens' colleges a while ago, but it was hard to find a great women's college that was also a great creative writing school, and i was still holding on to the dream of the prestige of an Ivy, but i've been feeling more and more disgusted and unsafe around men lately, and wanting to decenter men, and find a place apart from men. i know so many people here have posted about wanting to live in an all female place, and i feel really lucky im around college age, and i can make that at least a temporary reality.

the thought of being around only women is exhilarating. for once, i could feel completely free and safe. i write feminist horror/short stories, so a women's college would have a much more in-line environment for my academics than an Ivy. i just love women so much, and a place with only us makes me so happy. making female friends, supporting to and connecting with other women, and even just...knowing im safe and in a female centric environment sounds amazing to me.

this world is getting overwhelming as a radfem. id much rather know the truth, but its so hard to be a radfem and have hope. it gets hard to be around men, to be forced to trust them. i wish we could legitimately make female only societies, but at least i can surround myself with women in college.

for the first time, i'm not stressed for college-i'm just excited!

[kyliemalia]

No caption this is just real

[kittyriin]

[blackmagixsblog]

hi friends, i never thought i would actually make a post like this/this is very awkward for me so just hold on for the ride into the sick joke that is my life at the moment LOL

i’m trying to keep this as short as possible (but usually whenever i say that, it ends with me giving the whole double VHS titanic version 🙂) i’m a small business owner and our town recently received a lot of snow/ice over the last two weeks. lots of businesses had to close for extended periods of time during those two weeks to just keep everyone safe and off the roads that were a literal ice skating rink (my driveway is still very much an ice skating rink & bitch, i don’t know how to skate LOL)

i could list off several reasons why the town i work in is so shitty, but i’m gonna skip that and just tell you the issue at hand instead. our water department (which is a big joke) has caused the surrounding businesses in our town to be without water, this limits what i can do at my job tremendously and with the freezing temps, i don’t think it’s getting fixed as quickly as i’d hoped. so as of right now, i can’t return to work until the issue is fixed, which sucks for me. i’m a stylist, and giving people beautifully colored hair is the biggest part of what i do, i take so much pride in it. so this is a big issue for me and i am s t r e s s e d

if you’ve made it this far, thanks for listening to me vent (which is normally not my thing here) i’m dramatic and i’ve considered selling at least 3 organs on the black market by now…i mean i would never…but i did consider sooo 👀😂

that being said, if anyone wants to help me be less stressed i’m putting my cashapp below & i am so serious when i say, if you want to buy some content throw some ideas my way ✌🏻

$blackmagiclee 🖤

[auggietheclown]

This is so true it hurts

[crush-echoes]

i am consumed by what i cannot control, it plauges my every thought and weighs me down until i am laying at its feet, crying and begging to be left alone by something that i cannot avoid

[xmortem09]

Bleeding is the only thing I am good at.

[vixdesl]

They were sharing life saving info about the WILDFIRES in LA???? and ASL is "too much"

suck my fucking dick.

[emerald-jade-tears]

it’s useless to get excited about things.

i don’t feel excited ever anymore.

[guppygiggles]

Sorry this isn't tickling related, but this is my primary platform now and I just need to get this off my chest.

Please stop putting down your art.

It hurts more than just you. I probably sound like a hypocrite to some people by saying this, because I have definitely done it, but I am trying really hard to stop... mostly because I'm really starting to understand how it hurts other artists.

It feels terrible when you're learning to draw and you have to watch an artist you respect and learn from, whose work enthralls, moves, or fascinates you say their art is shit. Like... What does that mean for you, someone who is just starting out or still working on fundamentals...? What does that mean about your art? Personally... It does the farthest thing from making me encouraged to keep going and keep trying to improve. Like, if an artist whose skill is so far beyond mine thinks their work is shit, am I really going to spend so much time and effort to get to that level... Just for it to still be shit...?

I don't even want to think that I might be causing this feeling for other people... That I might be killing someone else's motivation to do something that I view as so beautiful and important.

I think everyone feels like shit about their art at one time or another, it's just the nature of making art, and I'm not saying we have to feel great about our art all the time... but I think we should try to be more careful about the stories we tell ourselves and others, and recognize that the effect we have in a moment of frustration may be much more lasting for someone else.

[blushy-tigerrr]

this is why we can’t have nice things i guess :’)

[m3nherapr1ncesss2]

Idc if I sound like an attention whore,someone pls praise and comfort me and tell me it's not my fault that I'm always tired and miserable ever since childhood,someone tell me I don't need to pretend to be happy when I'm not,tell me that even at my worst you'll still like me,I beg.

[emerald-jade-tears]

“you’ve felt alone since you were little”

shouldn’t that mean something to you????

"it gets better" - but i've been this way since i was a child.