#VENT //

[foldingfittedsheets]

So two coworkers called out sick- one was sick yesterday and didn’t mask despite knowing they were sick and knowing I’d be coming in.

Their only concession was staying away from the desk but I gotta say, I would have appreciated a mask more, and so would customers this person helped I’m sure.

Then I found out that our manager had told them, “Don’t tell FFS that you’re sick.” And like. First off it was 1000% obvious but also why would you ask them to lie to me when my health is a risk factor? Why hide that?

So I’m annoyed by that but I close the store alone and my sick coworker went home. Today I got my only day at the big store yanked to work the little store all alone today.

Then a tech came in to fix our speakers after I begged the manager to leave them broken until after the holidays so I would t have to listen to Christmas music. Super ironic because he didn’t even know they were broken because he never works the little store.

He’s on my fuckin’ shitlist, lemme tell ya.

[joffyworld]

DO ART FOR YOU! 🫵

FUCK EVERYONE ELSE!!!

Seriously.

I'm so sick and weary of logging on here and seeing creators I adore, and people I don't even know alike, apologising for not uploading or basically begging for a break like they're not a human with needs.

You're literally a human being, with thoughts, feelings and emotions. You're not an art factory, you're not some positivity pump, you're nothing other than a genuine human being living a genuine life experience.

SO GO LIVE IT!!!

YOU OWE THE INTERNET NOTHING!!!!

There should be, and realistically is, no shame in just fucking leaving if you want to. There's no contract you signed, there's no permit you bought or lease you hold. You're a person who decided to share their art with the world, FOR FREE, and garnered an audience of faceless people behind screens who enjoy that art because YOU wanted to make it and share it.

Let me be frank as best I can. You owe the internet nothing, you owe the world nothing and you owe yourself EVERYTHING. You are the only person who can live your life, you are the only person who can create the things you create and you are the only motherfucker that should matter to you when you create those things.

Art is supposed to be a wondrous joy that inspires the mind and indulges ideas that other creatures can't even comprehend. It's supposed to be a magical and fun fantasy land where anything is possible because you make it possible. It's not a 9-5 unless you make it one, so stop making your hobby a 9-5 unless you're getting paid for it, and even then put in limits because no job that you choose to do should end in you burnt out and wishing you'd never started in the first place.

Remember when we were all kids? When we all drew and wrote for fun simply because we could? We'd show people are shit and be like "Mama look!" and she'd clap her hands all proud. But she wasn't why you picked up that crayon, you just did it for you because you wanted to make some shit.

That's how it should be. That's how it is unless you let those fake ass numbers on a screen rule your life. It's all meaningless, the praise may be genuine but that doesn't mean you should spend your whole life running in circles and performing for an audience.

Be a human being! Be an artist! Fuck everyone else!

Just be yourself <3

[wolfsteax]

[theheavenlybat]

If everyone always leaves what’s the point in staying.

[finsrcool]

they want you to “recover” but call you fat when you finally eat. What kind of logic is that?

What am I supposed to listen to?

[cosmicmicrowav]

Lmao ok yeah so something similar happened to me when I was 12. Basically my doctor diagnosed me with severe depression but wanted to do blood tests before proceeding with treatment. Ofc bc I live in New England it came back with a vitamin D deficiency, and my mental illness was all chalked up to that. My parents, who at the time preferred "natural" remedies and thought therapists were for people with "real mental problems" were happy to just give me a vitamin D supplement and call it a day. (They've since come around but it took years)

Cue my first semester of college when I started experiencing even worse depression and dissociation spells. Finally I caved and went to the counseling center where directly following my first session I was sent down to the health center to be evaluated for antidepressants. After years of therapy and meds, I have come to terms with the fact my mental illness will never go away entirely, but with the right help I have learned to function in the world and lead a fulfilling life.

Don't get me wrong I know a balance of the right vitamins and minerals is important for mental health, but my issues were much more complicated and ran so much deeper than a daily vitamin supplement could "fix."

honestly the thing about The Vitamin (wishing to have some specific easily fixed chemical thing "wrong with you") for me is like. people will push that idea onto you even when you try not to do so yourself. you'll tell someone you might have some stuff going on and they'll be like "are you sure it's not just The Vitamin? you should eat more Vitamin Food, it'll fix you right up!"

then you'll go the doctor and describe to them the symptoms of a chronic condition you feel you have and the doctor will go "I see, I'm going to order you these tests before i draw any conclusions, just to make sure you're not missing The Vitamin". And then you'll get the tests back and they'll be like "well, it looks like you're not missing The Vitamin, so you're good to go!" and not fix anything

[de4r-in-headlights]

I hate waking up so much 😭😭 im always tweaking

[icyimp]

I hate how bpd makes me extremely impulsive and I act on it and think what I’m doing is what I want but then when it hits me and the impulsivity dies down.

I realise I’m not ready for whatever choice I’ve made or sure if want whatever it is.

It’s even worse if others are involved, it makes me feel like an awful person.

[xvelvetcoffinx]

Some of my trauma is literally over 18 years old like it’s legally an adult but it won’t move the fuck out of my head??? Get a job and pay some rent buddy.

[fucktoyfelix]

Honestly my big problem with all the sex work subscription services isnt the 20% they take. (That commission is worth the service they provide hosting and managing payments imo)

Its always the damned tos! They always ban cnc, outdoor, hypnosis, etc. I understand its hard to moderate if something happening is actually legal...but they also always ban piss, scat, and blood, including menstrual blood. Which, I don't have any interest in creating...but its clear the policies are based on purintan ideas of disgust and not about safety.

So im toying with the idea of creating my own subscription service site so I can just freely post the realistic cnc, drugging and hypnosis shit that I'm actually passionate about.

[m4rs-ex3]

actually gonna take a mini break..... which could mean i won't go on tumblr at all or it just means i'll only be making simple posts and not reblogging, and it could be for the rest of the day or it could be for a number of days (this is significant i promise usually i would be yapping like CRAZY rn)

i don't like disliking my show. i don't need to hear about everything they did wrong when i want to be celebrating everything they've done right for 7 seasons. i can't expect everyone to decide that positivity is the only way and i can't expect people to not want to share their opinions when i can't seem to stop talking about my opinion on that. i don't want to do what i did when season 4 came out and i tried to forget tdp existed for months because i couldn't stand being a fan of something others didn't like. tdp is everything to me. i'm not letting this part of my life go because i care too much about what everyone else thinks. and i know that's nobody's fault but my own, but still. i'm hoping it dies down, but even if it doesn't, i just need to step back and remind myself why i love this show, and that that is all that matters.

i know it is NOT that deep but the finals week stress + mourning-in-advance + insane adrenaline rush and joy while watching followed by + immediate feeling of dread and incredible sadness and confusion and anger after i've already had a rough couple and months and tdp was the sole thing keeping me going, it has all just been a lot, as i'm sure you can imagine. it sounds so excessive and sensitive and it probably is those things, but it's how i feel. mainly i just really needed to get this off my chest lol

[androidnightmares]

I could've been much worse; I could've turned into my mom

"A Mother's Hate" by Sam Gordon | Quote by Anna Kamienska | "The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls" by Emilie Autumn | "Norwegian Wood" by Haruki Murakami

[emerald-jade-tears]

everytime i think about the future, it’s just nothing.

i never see myself living in the future.

there is no future in which I am there

[thetransblog]

I am so incredibly tired of trans folks being treated as a debate.

I’m so, so tired of being treated like I’m just an opinion, a life style even!

I see people making those videos about “transphobic people vs trans supporters” where they sit them down in a room and treat us like we are some sort of weird debate to have and we are an opinion and not real human beings with emotions

We aren’t just transgender, we are people, we are someone, we are like everybody else we have feelings.

Yet we are treated like a background character with a different opinion to debate about.

[ganglemangled]