#Unconventional Construction

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Canada Was 'Highly Confident' It Heard Man-Made Noises During Search For Titan Submersible, Documents Show

Reported Banging Kept Hope Going Days After Vessel Was Likely Destroyed

— Ashley Burke - CBC News | August 10, 2024

The Titan submersible, operated by OceanGate Expeditions to explore the wreckage of the sunken RMS Titanic off the coast of Newfoundland, dives in an undated photograph. (OceanGate Expeditions/Handout/Reuters)

Canada's military was "highly confident" for days in June 2023 that bangs heard underwater while searching for the missing Titan submersible were man made — by an object striking the hull of a vessel — near the famous Titanic wreck site, CBC News has learned.

Those noises helped keep hope going that the five wealthy explorers on board the missing vessel were still alive during the multi-day, multi-national search, even though it is now believed the vessel imploded within hours of going into the water.

Now internal government documents obtained by CBC News through the Access to Information Act reveal more details about what the Canadian Coast Guard privately documented during the search, including where a military patrol plane first heard the banging on June 19, the day after the Titan went missing.

The Royal Canadian Air Force's CP-140 Aurora heard multiple "bangs that they are highly confident are manmade by an object striking a hull," read multiple daily internal notices written by the Canadian Coast Guard between June 19 and June 22.

"They believe the sound originated from near [Titanic's] wreck site at a depth of approximately 10,000 feet."

That "sensitive information" was included in more than a dozen internal emails and updates to officials at Fisheries and Oceans Canada (DFO) that CBC News obtained, and all the way up to Jody Thomas, the prime minister's national security adviser at the time.

U.S. Searched Area Where Sounds Were Heard

U.S. officials who were leading the search efforts confirmed on June 21 the sounds had been heard and sent a remotely operated vehicle to search that area.

The search was called off on June 22 when debris from the Titan was found, the same day the Wall Street Journal first reported the U.S. navy's top-secret system used to track enemy submarines had detected what it suspected was the Titan's implosion just hours after the vessel began its voyage.

That information was shared with the U.S.'s search team, but U.S, officials told American media there were no other indications of a catastrophe, so they made the decision to continue the search efforts.

CBS later reported a U.S. navy analysis determined the banging noises were most likely noise from other search ships or ocean sounds.

What unfolded underwater is still at the centre of a U.S. investigation, with public hearings scheduled for next month. The Canadian Coast Guard referred CBC News's request for comment about the documents to Canada's defence department, which has yet to provide a comment about the sounds it detected.

Four of the five people onboard the Titan were Pierre-Henri Nargeolet, top left; Shahzada Dawood, top right; whose son Suleman was also on board; Hamish Harding, bottom left; and Stockton Rush, bottom right. (Getty, Reuters)

Noises Weren't From Titan: Retired Sonar Operator

Roger Draper, a recently retired Petty Officer Second Class Sonar Operator from the Royal Canadian Navy, contacted CBC News after the story was first posted.

Draper, who was not involved in search efforts for the Titan, said no one he personally spoke to at the navy's fleet school in Halifax where he was teaching at the time, actually thought the five crew members were alive.

He said the Titan was 10,000 feet underwater and the only way the military could have picked up any sort of communication from the Titan was if the submersible was equipped with a loud communication device. If crew members were banging from inside the submersible, it wouldn't have been detected, he said.

"I don't think anyone was under the illusion someone was ringing the submersible like a bell and everybody could hear it," Draper said. "I think they heard mechanical noises and they told the Coast Guard who was running the show."

He said it's "very common" for sonar operators to hear mechanical noises underwater, and the banging detected heard could have been coming from oil rigs off the coast of Newfoundland, a submersed pipeline, or other vessels.

"I think it was a very deliberate decision to state the mechanical noises were heard, even though the belief on the ground would have been there was no one who survived that," said Draper, who noted that he had served the military for more than two decades as a sonar operator working to find mostly submarines and ships underwater using sound.

He said Canada's military would have dropped devices into the ocean during the search that make loud continuous electronic noise with a high and low tone that can last about 20 minutes.

If anyone was alive underwater they would have very clearly heard that noise, he said, adding the military would have also dropped sonobuoys into the ocean. These devices act as an underwater microphone to pick up any sound detected in response.

There's "no question" the sounds the military heard were manmade, Draper said, but Canada should have made it very clear publicly during the search that they didn't think the sounds were coming from the Titan so people didn't get their hopes up.

'We Just Have To Remain Optimistic'

The documents obtained by CBC News show the minister's office responsible for the Canadian Coast Guard emailed sent on June 21 asking what they could tell the public about media reports that a Canadian aircraft had heard banging noises.

A senior official with the Canadian Coast Guard responded saying the minister at the time, Joyce Murray, could tell the public there's still hope.

"Yes the Minister can make reference to the banging noises heard," Marc Mes, director general of fleet and maritime services with the Canadian Coast Guard, responded on June 21. "Something along the lines of: Acoustic equipment and sensors on scene including from Canadian Air Force aircraft have detected potential banging sounds, indicating continued hope of locating the submersible.

Murray told reporters that day "we just have to remain optimistic."

"We have to keep working until we find the submersible," Murray told reporters on June 21. "We will continue to double down and to figure out where the submersible is and how it can be brought to the surface."

The family of French explorer Paul-Henri Nargeolet, who died in the 2023 implosion of a submersible bound for the Titanic, has sued OceanGate for $50 million US, accusing the sub's operator of ‘persistent carelessness, recklessness and negligence.’ 2:04

'Irreversible Failures'

The family of one of the victims — French explorer Paul-Henri Nargeolet, known as "Mr. Titanic" — launched a $50-million lawsuit earlier this week alleging he died due to gross negligence by Titan's U.S. operator and manufacturer OceanGate Expeditions and other defendants.

The suit claims all five people on board knew they were going to die before the implosion because an "acoustic safety system" onboard the Titan "would have alerted the crew that the carbon-fibre hull was crackling under extreme pressure."

"They would have continued to descend, in full knowledge of the vessel's irreversible failures, experiencing terror and mental anguish prior to the Titan ultimately imploding," the lawsuit alleges.

But U.S. investigators haven't found any signs the five crew members had any warning the submersible's implosion was going to take their lives, the New York Times reported.

OceanGate suspended all operations after the disaster and declined CBC's request for comment on the lawsuit's allegations.

Unconventional Construction

CBC News obtained more than 600 pages of internal emails, memos and reports from the DFO, which runs the coast guard, from an access to information request. The documents, prepared for top officials, also detail how deeply Canada was involved in the high-profile search and offer new insight into what unfolded behind the scenes from a Canadian perspective.

Canada was involved in the U.S.-led search efforts because the Titan submersible left on a Canadian-flagged vessel— the Polar Prince — from St. John's on June 18, 2023. Later that day, it lost contact with the Polar Prince, about an hour and 45 minutes into its descent to the Titanic.

From the start, the coast guard flagged the search as a high priority and said "no matter how trivial" the Atlantic Canada team should flag all updates to Ottawa because there was "high interest" from senior management, a June 19 email said.

Those updates included warning that Titan's carbon fibre shell "does not create a good radar target."

The implosion raised questions about the Titan's unconventional construction, including its use of carbon fibre for its roomier cylinder-shaped cabin, which was different from many submersibles' titanium, spherical cabins.

An investigation by CBC's The Fifth Estate and the Radio-Canada's Enquête uncovered new information about the doomed sub, including how OceanGate CEO Stockton Rush had boasted about breaking basic engineering rules and how, for three years, his experimental submersible was allowed to leave a Canadian port without any oversight to carry passengers to the Titanic. Rush was among those killed.

A report by the coast guard noted it was not "classified by any regulatory body" and had "defects/issues."

The wreck of the Titanic, which sank in 1912, is some 3,800 metres below the surface of the Atlantic Ocean, about 596 kilometres off the coast of Newfoundland. (Atlantic Productions/The Associated Press)

Canada brought in specialized equipment, including a hyperbaric chamber and technicians, to support any dive operations, along with advanced sonar equipment to search at significant water depths, the documents said.

Canada's defence department told CBC News in May it estimates it spent more than $2.4 million in operational costs to help in the search.

The coast guard estimates its efforts totalled more than $600,000. Both departments say those figures are not additional expenses, but part of budgeted operational costs to help respond to distress calls.

The high-profile search led to questions about who should pay for such efforts.

Canada's Transportation Safety Board is also investigating and is currently writing a report on its findings.

In Photos | Debris From Titan Arrives in St. John's Harbour:

— Ashley Burke is a senior reporter with the CBC's Parliamentary Bureau in Ottawa. She was recognized with the Charles Lynch Award and was a finalist for the Michener Award for her exclusive reporting on the toxic workplace at Rideau Hall. She has also uncovered allegations of sexual misconduct in the Canadian military.

[aworldofpattern]

Miley Cyrus at the Grammys 2024, wearing Ancient Egypt-inspired net dress by John Galliano for Maison Margiela, constructed entirely from safety pins.

It took 675 hours of craftsmanship, using 14,000 safety pins.

This dress refers back to one from Galliano's Fall 1997 ready-to-wear collection.

[1424xgaywolf]

I wanted to share my queer identity with anyone who finds this post. If someone in the community asked me who I am, if they asked for labels, I would say I’m “bisexual abrosexual-abroromantic transmasc nonbinary sapphillean” because they would understand what that means and would (hopefully) be supportive of all of it. I know that there are some transphobic and bi-pan-phobic etc people in the community, and I’ve never understood it. I figured that out of everyone, people in the community would be the most unconditionally accepting and supportive people.

But if someone who either doesn’t understand, wants to understand, or if I’m “testing the waters” to see if they are an ally, then I would most likely just say I’m queer/gay because both of those are umbrella terms that aren’t specific labels. Sometimes I like knowing what labels fit me because it comforts me to know that there are other people like me and that I’m not just a big question mark, but other times I just don’t want labels, especially because I have so many and it just would be so exhausting to have to explain what they all mean generally and how I fit into those labels. If you use labels I will 100% support you, even if I don’t fully understand it because labels are your choice and I respect that. Sometimes though I just wish that the world wasn’t a place that relies so strongly on trying to stuff people into their arbitrary and binary boxes.

I also just want to clear this up for anyone who gets confused, but “male female intersex” are the sex you were assigned at birth, pertaining to your biology and your reproductive organs. “Man woman nonbinary etc” are genders, and gender is a social construct. When I think of the word “female” I think of ciswomen who identify with the gender assigned at birth, as well as trans men, trans mascs, and nonbinary people who were assigned female at birth, because you are still a female. I will never call a trans/nb/etc person a woman if that’s not who they are, but you will technically always be a female because of biology but that is not a bad thing. Same goes for amab people. I’m afab and I realize that there’s nothing I could do to change that, because time travel hasn’t been invented yet lol. I understand that some people might not like the fact that they were either afab/amab because they don’t identify with the gender they were born as, but we as a society need to separate sex and gender because the two are not the same and trying to say they are is an arbitrary and outdated way of thinking.

Furthermore, if you are an older person who uses the argument “back in my day” or “in my generation” for quite literally anything you could use that argument for, I would like to point out that this is no longer your day, this is a new day and trying to say that your day was the right day is like saying we should go back to cavemen time because you’re basically cavemen/women by now. Your days are over and we have already evolved into a generation that is more accepting (though sadly still not completely) of EVERYONE. If you want to try and ignore the existence of queer people, other religions, other races (different than whatever your’s is), then go right ahead because it won’t change a thing. We’ll still exist no matter how you try and squash us and force us into your ways. We are resilient and have been since the beginning.

Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

[fear-no-mort]

i gotta say the one answer they gave during the panel that like lowkey concerned me was when they said theres no clear for the show’s ending currently ,like i knowthat as serious and consistent rnm is at the end of the day its still just like a sitcom style show, and im sure the ending will be fine (even if a bit underwhelming because to be honest at this point how could it not be with everything else considered) but i dunno it just made me sort of sad? to hear like damn

[exculis]

on track to have enough yarn to make this thing. next question will be: do i like it enough to dye it

[o-vera-nalyzing]

my hack is listening to an audiobook. i physically cannot just sit and listen so i end up doing all the tasks that don’t need like full brain power but i want to do like crocheting or sewing

adhd will have you fighting for your life to do beloved hobbies that bring you nothing but joy

[nnctales]

Can Weird Things be Used as Binder in Concrete?

In the quest to enhance the strength and durability of concrete, researchers and engineers often experiment with a myriad of unconventional materials. The idea is to explore whether these “weird” substances can function effectively as binders, the crucial ingredient that holds concrete together. This article delves into the fascinating realm of concrete science, examining the potential of various…

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press relations

stanford!artdonaldson x sportsjournalist!reader

summary: assigned to write a profile of stanford's rising tennis star, you get to know art better. much better.

warnings: smut, dry humping, b0ner alert, implied consent

a/n: this does have a *hint* of art x patrick x reader undertones at the end! any (constructive) feedback is appreciated :)

you get the message as you exit the lecture hall and head to the cafeteria for lunch. “other writers are busy. can you take the art donaldson profile?” reads the text from your editor. having written for the stanford daily as a sports reporter for the past year, you’re no stranger to turning a dull interview with a rather dim-witted football player into an oh-so-riveting piece. however, this is out of your comfort zone.

tennis is…boring. sure, you’d happily tagged along to a couple of tashi duncan’s matches, unwilling to pass up the opportunity to see an olympic-bound athlete in her prime, but it isn’t your ideal way to spend a saturday afternoon. 

and yet, that is exactly what you are doing. the donaldson interview is lined up for directly after his match with a ucla player. “he’s got a tight schedule, so we need to accommodate him,” said your editor when you questioned why you had to sit through a match and then manage to cram in an interview in the men’s fucking lockerroom. 

art donaldson is a year above you, living in the same dorm. you recognize most athletes at this point—in part because they’re constantly (obnoxiously) sporting team merch, and because of your job—but art is known by most for his friendship with tashi duncan. neither are particularly social, keeping their circle tight amongst fellow tennis players, both at stanford and professionals. 

it’s difficult not to stick out in the bleachers. while other players, including a brown-haired boy cheering quite loudly, observe the game, it’s by no means packed. as donaldson pauses for water after the first set, he catches your gaze, giving an awkward wave in acknowledgement as he wipes the sweat from his face. you silently pray that he knows you’re the reporter he’s supposed to speak to, and doesn’t just think you’re some crazed tashi duncan fangirl. 

his playing is statuesque, long limbs sweeping across the court (but not entirely stripped of the boyish energy that defined his success as a high school student). after beating his opponent 2-0, donaldson steps off the court, dramatically embraced by the brown-haired spectator, who you have since realized is his former doubles partner, patrick zweig, and you take this as a signal to get this interview started before he becomes swept up in celebrations. 

climbing down the bleachers, you see art duck down into the hallway, making his way into the locker rooms. in all your time as a sports reporter, you hadn’t had such an…unconventional… interview location, and you feel a bit sick as the sound of the shower draws closer. 

“art donaldson?” you say, standing just outside the open door of the locker room. 

“yeah” he calls back, as though he was expecting you, but not entirely welcoming the intrusion. the shower turns off, and the soft sound of his steps on the tiles echo. “well, come in,” he calls again. 

you step into the steam-filled space with your eyes directed down. “i understand you have physical therapy shortly, so i’ll try to keep this quick—,” you say, taken aback as you finally draw your eyes upward. he’s managed to pull on a pair of checkered boxers, fabric sticking to his still-damp body. 

you can’t imagine you look particularly composed, hair sticking to your face from the steam with a burning blush spread across your cheeks. you watch as art bites his cheek and awkwardly motions for you to sit on the bench across from him as he methodically changes the overgrip on his racket. 

“so,” you say, clearing your throat, “how did you first become interested in tennis?” he glances up from his task. “my parents needed someone to watch me, and my grandma was busy, so they stuck me in a local tennis camp. i doubt they realized that they were signing up for over a decade of tennis running my—and their—lives.”

you hum in agreement. “and what specific areas of your game are you hoping to improve on this season?” you follow up. his gaze becomes more intent��more focused. setting the racket to his side, art stands, before quickly realizing he’s still only boxer-clad. you stare at the opposite wall, hoping to save him the embarrassment, and you see him fumble to slip on shorts out of the corner of your eye. he clears his throat. “ – um – yeah, i’m trying to get faster on my feet. sorry, i—” he says, before you cut him off in protest. “no, no, i should have given you a moment to clean up after your match, it’s my fault,” you say, rising off of the bench awkwardly, avoiding his gaze. 

but with the lingering steam, and your downward gaze, your fumble to exit the locker room instead lands you into direct contact with his chest. “shit! sorry,” you exclaim, drawing your chin up. a wash of heat cascades from your head, nipples taut, despite the warmth of the room, as your body reacts to the sudden proximity. art is equally flushed, pink lips slightly parted and chest rocking as he concentrates on breathing deeply, trying to lower his racing heart. you can smell him, fresh with a hint of that post-game sweat, a droplet of water falling from a blonde curl. 

he brings a calloused hand to your hair, brushing it behind your shoulder, as if to ask permission. the slight nod and glaze of your tongue over your lips is enough for him to understand, his breath heavy against your face as your noses are close enough to touch. that final centimeter is finally closed, and it’s as though air rushes back into you while inhibition is tossed out. without thinking, your hair tangles into his mess of damp hair, and you feel his soft moan against your lips. you gasp as his hand grabs your ass, drawing you into contact with his erection (for how much of that interview was he hard?). 

“you—ah—you have physical th-therapy,” you say, breathless as he works his mouth down your jaw and neck. “just…five more minutes,” he says in between kisses, like a teenager wishing to sleep in, causing you to chuckle. bringing your left knee up, your hips are suddenly flush against his, and the new contact sends you both reeling, his cock twitching in his shorts. you tentatively rock, again, against his groin, and you both seem to realize that that hit the spot. pushing your back against a locker, art draws his groin against yours again, and again, his soft pants becoming near whimpers as your lips meet for a desperate, sloppy kiss. 

you’re lost in the rhythm the two of you have found, ignoring the rattle of the lockers with each thrust. fuck you’re embarrassingly close (that’s what a two month dry spell will do for you) but before you have to worry about coming too early, you hear his strangled voice in your ear. “ – f-fuck, s-sorry i’m close, was so pent up.” before you’re able to reply, your body has taken this as permission to let the orgasm wash over you at last. still reeling from your own orgasm, you feel the warm spread of art’s cum seep through the thin fabric of his shorts, as he continues to rut against you. 

bringing your arms up to hurriedly fix your now-tangled hair, you draw away from art. a fresh blush comes to your cheeks at the realization of how silly you feel, grinding like a pubescent teen. art seems tired, yes, but not embarrassed, slipping off his pants and boxers and replacing them with clean ones. before he’s got his wits back, you’re out the door, praying no one managed to overhear the encounter. to your dismay, patrick zweig, smug as ever, sits outside the locker room.

[strangererotica]

EXPLICIT CONTENT | MINORS DNI

Art the Clown x Reader SMUT • headcanons, how Art fucks, what he gets off to, etc

big content warning! contains some stuff that may gross you out; read at your own risk: menstruation kink, piss kink, oral sex, anal sex, object insertion, blood kink, various weapons mentioned, bondage, human hair and bones, butts and what comes out of butts, public sex, cockwarming, mostly dom!Art and sub!reader

🔪 Remember the work desk with all of Art’s weapons and tools on it? He knows you want him to fuck you, but he’s got shit to do (meaning weapons to build) so he lets you sit under the desk, cockwarming him while he works. You’re on the ground between his knees, patiently holding him in your mouth. When he finishes constructing his latest instrument of torture/slaughter, Art pats his palm against his thigh, wordlessly telling you to climb up into his lap and ride him.🩸

🔪 Art enjoys blood and guts, so it goes without saying that during your period, he’s particularly eager to fuck you. He can detect the slight change in your scent, usually aware you’ve begun to bleed even before you know. He plays with your pussy like it’s a new, special toy when you’re bleeding, spreading your lips and tracing his name on your inner thighs in red. Seeing/touching/tasting blood that comes from you is special to Art. It’s the only time he gets to play in blood without it being the result of him hurting someone, so that makes the experience unique for him. He saves your used pads for ‘alone time,’ using them later as a ‘sleeve,’ to masturbate with.🩸

🔪 Art sometimes fucks you with unconventional objects, like the handle of one of his weapons (knife, axe) or the neck of a bottle. If you’ve displeased him but he still wants to fuck you, he might deny you his cock and instead use something else, like the handle of one of his knives or the barrel of an (empty!) gun, to make you come instead of his cock, as a degrading ‘punishment.’🩸

🔪 Art loves bondage. He knows what he’s doing when it comes to tying knots, as evidenced by the multiple victims you’ve watched him restrain. He enjoys the power dynamic of being in absolute control of another person. When that crosses over into sex, you both get off on him tying you up and doing whatever the fuck he wants with your body.🩸

🔪 Art’s methods can border on sadistic at times (I mean how could they not??) but because he wants to keep you around to play with for the long haul, he never pushes you beyond the limits of safety, no matter how many new ways he comes up with to plug every hole in your body. If we know anything about Art, it’s that he’s perceptive. He studies the way your body responds to different forms of stimulation and mentally catalogs the information for later. All of his skill in crafting tools of torture means he’s able to create customized ‘toys,’ to fuck you with. But the thing is, they’re never normal, or sweet; they always contain something fucked-up and sick. Art once surprised you with a whip he’d put together for you. Its strands were soft and felt so good gliding over your clit. You came so hard when Art whipped your pussy till it was puffy and leaking. It would have been a wonderful gift, if you hadn’t realized later, upon closer inspection, that the strands now wet with your cum were in fact strands of human hair. And the custom dildo Art made for you, the one that was so smooth and colored beige/white? You later found out Art had chiseled and smoothed down a human bone to make it for you. The information almost made you sick on the spot. Art found your horrified reaction hilarious, of course, and it didn’t stop him from laying you down and fucking you with it all the same…🩸

🔪 ANAL ANAL ANAL ANAL ANAL ANAL …

He loves to fuck you in the ass. Art’s a nasty little motherfucker when it comes to the stuff that comes out of butts, and I’m not gonna elaborate here, but you can use your imagination to follow where I’m going with this…🩸

🔪 Art has zero inhibitions: he kills anyone, anywhere. Imagine that relating to sex; of course he’s going to fuck you wherever he wants, including places where you might get caught. Sex in public/risky spaces feels natural to Art, because he literally does not give a single fuck. Remember the first time you ever saw him? When you stumbled out the back door of that sleazy little bar in your home town, so drunk off your ass you thought you were leaving through the front? Art was in the alleyway behind the bar, black garbage bag hoisted over his shoulder, not even looking for anyone to fuck up but when he saw you, he knew he’d found a victim for the night. He’d planned to stalk you home and do unspeakable things to you-but as you took the lead and approached him, there in the alleyway, he was caught off guard, his whole plan upended the moment you slid your arms around his waist, stood up on your tiptoes, and placed a soft, sloppy kiss on his cheek. He was awestruck, and even if he could speak, Art would still have been at a loss for words. You walked him backward a few steps, lining him up against a dumpster in the alleyway. You began fondling him through his costume, grinning when you realized his body had already begun to respond. One thing led to another, and within minutes, Art had you bent over that dumpster, with a fresh hole torn in the front of his costume where your bodies were joined…🩸

🔪 No one would associate The Miles County Clown with tenderness, but if they knew Art, they would see a softer side of him only you do. He’s still fucking deranged, don’t get me wrong. But Art also has moments of vulnerability, when there’s nothing he wants more than to hold you. Sitting in Art’s lap, he wraps his arms around you and stays still, so still, just enjoying the soft thump of your heartbeat against his, and the low hum of your breath on his chest. Your nearness calms the monster inside Art so well that sometimes, he forgets he is the monster itself…🩸

🔪 Another benefit of having you in his lap? Art realized he could use his strength to make you stay in his lap no matter how badly you had to get up and take a piss, forcing you to wet yourself all over him. You felt him gradually getting hard under you as you began to wriggle on his lap. Art could see your discomfort, and when you told him you needed to get up and take a piss, he refused to release you. You’d expect him to be smiling at you at a time like this, silently mocking you; but the look in his eyes was deathly serious, pitch black and full of a demented lust that would have had you locked you in place even if his arms hadn’t. Blushing into his shoulder, you accepted the fact that Art wasn’t letting go of you any time soon, and that he really was into this. He wanted this to happen. You allowed your bladder to empty, a soft trickle saturating your panties, followed by a steady stream of hot piss that spread over Art’s lap. His clothes were soaked through below the waist, your piss running down between his thighs and dampening the couch cushion beneath you. Art was rock hard by this point, his wet cock throbbing against your pussy. He lifted you off his lap just enough to reach between your bodies and position his tip against your entrance, then used your piss as a lube to slide inside you…🩸

[kleopatra45]

Aspects of Uranus in the Natal Chart

☌ Uranus Conjunct Other Planets

Conjunctions with Uranus can bring both innovation and unpredictability. On the positive side, they combine the energies of the planets involved, creating a powerful synergy that fosters originality and sudden breakthroughs. However, the disruptive nature of Uranus can also lead to instability or sudden changes if the combined energies are not well-managed.

Uranus Conjunct Sun Uranus conjunct Sun brings a strong sense of individuality and a desire for freedom. You are innovative and unafraid to break away from tradition. This aspect encourages you to embrace your uniqueness and explore unconventional paths, often leading to sudden breakthroughs or unexpected success. Uranus Conjunct Moon Uranus conjunct Moon enhances emotional intuition and unpredictability. You experience sudden mood changes and a strong need for emotional freedom. This aspect fosters emotional growth through embracing change, encouraging you to trust your instincts and adapt to new experiences. Uranus Conjunct Mercury Uranus conjunct Mercury amplifies your intellectual curiosity and innovative thinking. You are quick-witted and open to unconventional ideas. This aspect fosters mental expansion and encourages you to explore new perspectives, often leading to sudden insights and creative solutions. Uranus Conjunct Venus Uranus conjunct Venus brings a love of freedom and unconventional relationships. You are attracted to unique and exciting experiences, often breaking away from traditional norms. This aspect encourages you to embrace change in your love life, fostering personal growth through exploring new forms of connection. Uranus Conjunct Mars Uranus conjunct Mars combines ambition with unpredictability. You pursue your goals with energy and a desire for independence, often leading to sudden actions or changes in direction. This aspect encourages bold, unconventional approaches to achieving your aspirations. Uranus Conjunct Jupiter Uranus conjunct Jupiter inspires innovative thinking and a desire for freedom. You are open-minded and adventurous, attracting sudden opportunities for growth. This aspect encourages embracing change and exploring unconventional ideas, leading to unique successes and personal development. Uranus Conjunct Saturn Uranus conjunct Saturn blends discipline with innovation. You seek to balance structure with a desire for freedom, often leading to breakthroughs in traditional systems. This aspect encourages strategic planning while embracing change, fostering long-term success through unconventional methods. Uranus Conjunct Neptune Uranus conjunct Neptune enhances your intuition and spiritual insight. You are imaginative and open to exploring new realms of consciousness. This aspect fosters spiritual growth through embracing change and exploring the unknown, often leading to visionary experiences. Uranus Conjunct Pluto Uranus conjunct Pluto brings transformative power to your growth and ambitions. You pursue your goals with intensity and a desire for change, often leading to profound transformations. This aspect encourages harnessing your inner strength to achieve significant breakthroughs and personal evolution.

⚹ Uranus Sextile Other Planets

Sextiles with Uranus are positive aspects that encourage innovation and the easy flow of energy between the involved planets. This harmonious connection facilitates smooth interactions and enhances the beneficial qualities of each planet, leading to supportive and constructive outcomes. The ease of this aspect promotes opportunities for growth, creativity, and positive developments in the areas influenced by the sextile.

Uranus Sextile Sun Uranus sextile Sun offers opportunities for growth through embracing change and innovation. Your open-mindedness and willingness to explore new paths attract unique experiences. This aspect supports personal development through creative and unconventional pursuits. Uranus Sextile Moon Uranus sextile Moon brings emotional growth through embracing change and new experiences. You are open to exploring your emotions in unconventional ways, fostering a sense of emotional freedom and adaptability. This aspect supports harmonious relationships and emotional expansion. Uranus Sextile Mercury Uranus sextile Mercury enhances your intellectual abilities and communication skills. You are open to new ideas and innovative thinking, making it easier to connect with others and explore different perspectives. This aspect supports mental expansion and creative problem-solving. Uranus Sextile Venus Uranus sextile Venus brings pleasant experiences and opportunities for growth through embracing change in your relationships and values. You are open to unconventional connections and experiences, attracting positive relationships and material abundance. This aspect encourages you to enjoy life's pleasures in new and exciting ways. Uranus Sextile Mars Uranus sextile Mars provides opportunities for successful action and growth through embracing change and innovation. Your energetic and enthusiastic approach to pursuing your goals leads to positive outcomes. This aspect supports taking bold steps and exploring new directions. Uranus Sextile Jupiter Uranus sextile Jupiter offers chances for growth through innovation and change. Your open-mindedness and adaptability attract exciting opportunities. This aspect encourages you to explore new ideas and embrace unconventional paths, leading to personal and professional advancements. Uranus Sextile Saturn Uranus sextile Saturn blends innovation with discipline, offering opportunities for growth through structured change. You are open to exploring new methods within established systems, leading to steady progress and long-term success. This aspect encourages balancing tradition with modernity. Uranus Sextile Neptune Uranus sextile Neptune enhances your spiritual and creative pursuits through embracing change and innovation. You are open to exploring new realms of consciousness and imagination, leading to fulfilling and inspiring experiences. This aspect supports expanding your horizons in artistic and spiritual ways. Uranus Sextile Pluto Uranus sextile Pluto brings transformative opportunities for growth through embracing change and innovation. You approach your ambitions with a blend of intensity and adaptability, leading to profound personal and professional breakthroughs. This aspect encourages harnessing your inner strength to achieve significant growth.

□ Uranus Square Other Planets

Squares with Uranus create tension and challenges between the involved planets, prompting growth through conflict. This dynamic aspect often leads to struggles and obstacles that need to be overcome, pushing individuals to address and resolve the underlying issues. The friction generated by squares can be difficult to navigate, but it ultimately encourages personal development and resilience as one learns to balance and harmonize the conflicting energies.

Uranus Square Sun Uranus square Sun creates tension between your desire for individuality and the need for stability. You may struggle with balancing your innovative ideas and practical responsibilities. This aspect encourages finding ways to express your uniqueness while maintaining a sense of balance and stability. Uranus Square Moon Uranus square Moon can lead to emotional unpredictability and challenges in balancing your need for freedom with emotional security. You may face sudden mood changes or disruptions in your relationships. This aspect encourages finding ways to embrace change while maintaining emotional stability. Uranus Square Mercury Uranus square Mercury may lead to conflicts between your innovative ideas and practical communication. You may struggle with balancing your desire for intellectual freedom with the need for clear and effective communication. This aspect encourages finding ways to express your ideas while considering practical constraints. Uranus Square Venus Uranus square Venus can result in tension between your desire for freedom and the need for stability in your relationships and values. You may face challenges in balancing your unconventional desires with practical considerations. This aspect encourages finding ways to embrace change while maintaining meaningful connections. Uranus Square Mars Uranus square Mars can lead to conflicts between your ambitious drive and the need for stability. You may struggle with balancing your desire for independence with practical responsibilities. This aspect encourages finding ways to pursue your goals while maintaining a sense of balance and stability. Uranus Square Jupiter Uranus square Jupiter can bring unexpected disruptions and challenges to your growth. While open-minded, you may struggle with balancing innovative ideas and practical realities. This aspect encourages adapting to change and finding stability amidst disruptions. Uranus Square Saturn Uranus square Saturn creates tension between your desire for freedom and the need for structure and discipline. You may face challenges in balancing your innovative ideas with practical responsibilities. This aspect encourages finding ways to embrace change while maintaining a sense of order and stability. Uranus Square Neptune Uranus square Neptune can lead to confusion and tension between your ideals and the need for practical change. You may struggle with balancing your dreams and realities. This aspect encourages finding clarity and realism in your pursuits to harmonize your visionary ideas with practical efforts. Uranus Square Pluto Uranus square Pluto can create intense challenges and power struggles. While determined, you may face obstacles due to conflicting desires or sudden disruptions. This aspect encourages transforming your approach and harnessing inner strength to overcome significant challenges.

△ Uranus Trine Other Planets

Trines with Uranus create a smooth and beneficial connection between the involved planets, enhancing talents and creating a sense of ease. This harmonious aspect facilitates the natural flow of energy, making it easier to express and develop the qualities associated with the planets. Trines often lead to emotional balance, inner harmony, and an overall sense of well-being, as the supportive nature of this aspect encourages the effortless integration of strengths and abilities.

Uranus Trine Sun Uranus trine Sun brings harmony and ease to your pursuit of individuality and freedom. Your natural creativity and desire for innovation attract unique opportunities. This aspect supports personal growth through embracing change and exploring new paths. Uranus Trine Moon Uranus trine Moon enhances your emotional adaptability and intuitive insights. You are open to change and find emotional growth through exploring new experiences. This aspect supports harmonious relationships and emotional expansion, fostering a sense of fulfillment. Uranus Trine Mercury Uranus trine Mercury boosts your intellectual abilities and communication skills. You easily connect with others and explore new ideas. This aspect supports mental expansion and creative problem-solving, encouraging innovative thinking and effective communication. Uranus Trine Venus Uranus trine Venus fosters harmonious relationships and a love of unique experiences. You are open to exploring new forms of connection and value personal freedom. This aspect supports enjoying life's pleasures in unconventional ways, attracting positive and fulfilling relationships. Uranus Trine Mars Uranus trine Mars enhances your drive and energy, allowing you to pursue goals with enthusiasm and creativity. You are open to exploring new directions and easily adapt to change. This aspect supports successful action and personal growth through embracing innovation. Uranus Trine Jupiter Uranus trine Jupiter fosters personal and professional growth through embracing change and innovation. You are open-minded and adaptable, attracting unique opportunities for expansion. This aspect supports exploring new ideas and pursuing unconventional paths to achieve success. Uranus Trine Saturn Uranus trine Saturn blends discipline with innovation, creating a balance between tradition and modernity. You are open to exploring new methods within established systems, leading to steady progress and long-term success. This aspect supports integrating change into structured environments for positive outcomes. Uranus Trine Neptune Uranus trine Neptune enhances your spiritual and creative pursuits, fostering a sense of harmony and ease in exploring new realms of consciousness and imagination. This aspect supports expanding your horizons in artistic and spiritual ways, leading to fulfilling and inspiring experiences. Uranus Trine Pluto Uranus trine Pluto brings transformative power and smooth progress to your growth and ambitions. You easily adapt to change and harness your inner strength to achieve significant breakthroughs. This aspect supports personal and professional evolution through embracing change and innovation.

☍ Uranus Opposition Other Planets

Oppositions with Uranus create tension and challenges that require balance and integration between the involved planets. This dynamic aspect often leads to conflicts or opposing forces that need to be harmonized, pushing individuals to find compromise and resolution. The opposition can bring about a sense of polarization, where the energies of the planets pull in different directions, but it also presents opportunities for growth and understanding as one learns to navigate and reconcile the opposing forces.

Uranus Opposition Sun Uranus opposition Sun creates a push-and-pull dynamic between your need for individuality and external demands. You may feel torn between following your path and meeting others' expectations. This aspect encourages finding a balance between personal freedom and social obligations. Uranus Opposition Moon Uranus opposition Moon can lead to emotional tension and unpredictability. You may experience sudden mood swings or challenges in balancing your need for freedom with emotional security. This aspect encourages finding ways to embrace change while maintaining emotional stability. Uranus Opposition Mercury Uranus opposition Mercury may lead to conflicts between your innovative ideas and practical communication. You may struggle with balancing your desire for intellectual freedom with the need for clear and effective communication. This aspect encourages finding ways to express your ideas while considering practical constraints. Uranus Opposition Venus Uranus opposition Venus can create tension in your relationships and values. You may feel torn between the desire for freedom and the need for connection. This aspect encourages finding a balance between embracing change and maintaining meaningful relationships. Uranus Opposition Mars Uranus opposition Mars can lead to conflicts between your ambitious drive and the need for stability. You may struggle with balancing your desire for independence with practical responsibilities. This aspect encourages finding ways to pursue your goals while maintaining a sense of balance and stability. Uranus Opposition Jupiter Uranus opposition Jupiter may bring unexpected challenges to your growth and expansion. You may face sudden disruptions or changes that challenge your beliefs and aspirations. This aspect encourages adapting to change and finding new ways to pursue your goals. Uranus Opposition Saturn Uranus opposition Saturn creates tension between your desire for freedom and the need for structure and discipline. You may feel torn between embracing change and maintaining stability. This aspect encourages finding a balance between innovation and tradition. Uranus Opposition Neptune Uranus opposition Neptune may lead to confusion and tension between your ideals and the need for practical change. You may struggle with balancing your dreams and realities. This aspect encourages finding clarity and realism in your pursuits to harmonize your visionary ideas with practical efforts. Uranus Opposition Pluto Uranus opposition Pluto can create intense challenges and power struggles. You may feel torn between the desire for change and the need for control. This aspect encourages finding ways to harness your inner strength and embrace transformation while maintaining stability.

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[dresshistorynerd]

So I got this tag on my answer to an ask about when it became acceptable for western women to wear pants, and you know it's all I need to go on a tangent.

I think the short answer here would be men have worn skirts as long as people have worn anything, so pretty long tbh. But since I am incapable of answering anything shortly, I think we can re-frame this question:

When did skirts stop being socially acceptable for men?

So let's start with acknowledging that tunics, togas, kirtles and such men wore through history were, in fact, skirts. I think there's often a tendency to think of these as very different garments from those that women wore, but really they are not. Most of the time they were literally referred to with the same name. (I will do a very broad and simplified overview of men's clothing from ancient times to Early Middle Ages so we can get to the point which is Late Middle Ages.)

Ancient Greek men and women both wore chitons. Even it's length wasn't determined by gender, but by occupation. Athletes, soldiers and slaves wore knee-length chitons for easier movement. Roman men and women wore very similar garment, tunics. Especially in earlier ancient Rome long sleeves were associated with women, but later became more popular and unconventional for men too. Length though was still dependent on occupation and class, not gender. Toga was sure men's clothing, but worn over tunic. It was wrapped around the waist, like a dress would, and then hung over shoulder. Romans did wear leggings when they needed to. For example for leg protection when hunting as in this mosaic from 4th century. They would have been mostly used by men since men would be doing the kinds of activities that would require them. But that does not lessen the dressyness of the tunics worn here. If a woman today wears leggings under her skirt, the skirt doesn't suddenly become not a skirt.

All over Europe thorough the early Middle Ages, the clothes were very similar in their basic shape and construction as in Rome and Greece. In Central and Northern Europe though people would wear pants under shorter tunics. There were exceptions to the everyone wearing a tunic trend. Celtic men wore braccae, which were pants, and short tunics and literally just shirts. Celts are the rare case, where I think we can say that men didn't wear dresses. Most other peoples in these colder areas wore at least knee-length tunics. Shorter tunics and trousers were worn again mostly by soldiers and slaves, so rarely any other woman than slave women. The trousers were though definitely trousers in Early Middle Ages. They were usually loose for easier construction and therefore not that similar to Roman leggings. However leggings style fitted pants were still used, especially by nobility. I'd say the loose trousers are a gray area. They wore both dresses and pants, but still definitely dresses. I'd say this style was very comparable to the 2000s miniskirts over jeans style. First one below is a reconstruction of Old Norse clothing by Danish history museum. The second is some celebrity from 2005. I see no difference.

When we get to the high Middle Ages tunics are still used by both men and women, and still it's length is dependent on class and activity more than gender, but there's some new developments too. Pants and skirt combo is fully out and leggings' are back in in form of hose. Hose were not in fact pants and calling them leggings is also misleading. Really they are socks. Or at least that's how they started. As it has become a trend here they were used by everyone, not just men. During early Middle Ages they were worn often with the trousers, sometimes the trousers tucked inside them making them baggy. In high Middle Ages they became very long when used with shorter tunics, fully displacing the need for trousers. They would be tied to the waist to keep them up, as they were not knitted (knitting was being invented in Egypt around this time, and some knitting was introduced to Europe during middle Ages, but it really only took off much later during Renaissance Era) and therefore not stretchy. First picture is an example of that from 1440s. Another exciting development in the High Medieval era was bliaut in France and it's sphere of influence. Bliaut was an early attempt in Europe of a fitted dress. And again used by both men and women. The second illustration below from mid 12th century shows a noble man wearing a bliaut and nicely showing off his leg covered in fitted hose. Bliaut was usually likely fitted with lacing on the sides, but it wasn't tailored (tailoring wasn't really a thing just yet) and so created a wrinkled effect around the torso.

In the 14th century things really picked up in European fashion. European kingdoms finally started to become richer and the rich started to have some extra money to put into clothing, so new trends started to pop up rapidly. Tailoring became a thing and clothes could be now cut to be very fitted, which gave birth to fitted kirtle. At the same time having extra money meant being able to spend extra money on more fabric and to create very voluminous clothing, which gave birth to the houppelande.

Kirtle was once again worn by everyone. It wasn't an undergarment, for women that would be shift and men shirt and breeches, but it was an underlayer. It could be worn in public but often had at least another layer on top of it. The bodice part, including sleeves were very fitted with lacing or buttons (though there were over-layer kirtles that had different sleeves that changed with fashions and would be usually worn over a fitted kirtle). Men's kirtles were short, earlier in 14th century knee-length but towards the end of the century even shorter styles became fashionable in some areas. First picture below shows a man with knee-length kirtle from 1450s Italy.

Houppelande was also unisex. It was a loose full-length overgown with a lot of fabric that was gathered on the neckline and could be worn belted or unbelted. The sleeves were also wide and became increasingly wider (for men and women) later in the century and into the next century. Shorter gowns similar in style and construction to the houppelande were also fashionable for men. Both of these styles are seen in the second picture below from late 14th century.

In the very end of 14th century, first signs of pantification of men can be seen. In France and it's sphere of influence the skirt part of the kirtle became so short it barely covered the breeches as seen below on these fashionable musicians from 1395-1400 France. Long houppelandes, length ranging from floor to calf, were still used by men though (the second picture, 1414 France), as were knee and thigh length gowns of similar loose style.

The hems continued to be short through the 15th century in France, but in other places like Italy and German sphere of influence, they were still fairly long, at least to mid thigh, through the first half of the century. In France at some point in late 13th century the very short under-kirtle started to be called doublet and they are just getting shorter in 1400s. The showing underwear problem was fixed by joined hose and the codpiece, signaling the entrance of The Sluttiest Era of men's fashion. Below is an example from 1450s Belgium of doublet and early codpiece in display. As you can see from the other figures, the overgowns of the previous century were also getting very, very short. In the next French example below from 1470s we can see the skirt shrink out of existence right before our eyes.

The very skimpy doublet and it's accompanying codpiece spread to the rest of the Europe in the second half of 15th century and it would only get sluttier from there. The Italians were just showing their full ass (example from 1490s). The dress was not gone yet though. The doublet and codpiece continued to be fashionable, but the overdress got longer again in the French area too. For example in the second example there's Italian soldiers in a knee length dresses from 1513.

But we have to talk about the Germans. They went absolutely mad with the whole doublet and codpiece. Just look at this 1513 painting below (first one). But they did not only do it sluttier than everyone else, they also changed the course of men's fashion.

Let's take a detour talking about the Landsknecht, the mercenary pikeman army of the Holy Roman Empire. (I'm not that knowledgeable in war history so take my war history explanation with a grain of salt.) Pikemen had recently become a formidable counter-unit against cavalry, which earlier in the Medieval Era had been the most important units. Knights were the professional highly trained cavalry, which the whole feudal system leaned against. On the other hand land units were usually not made of professional soldiers. Landsknecht were formed in late 15th century as a professional army of pikemen. They were skilled and highly organized, and quickly became a decisive force in European wars. Their military significance gave them a lot of power in the Holy Roman Empire, some were even given knighthood, which previously wasn't possible for land units, and interestingly for us they were exempt from sumptuary laws. Sumptuary laws controlled who could wear what. As the bourgeois became richer in Europe in late Middle Ages and Renaissance Era, laws were enacted to limit certain fabrics, colors and styles from those outside nobility, to uphold the hierarchy between rich bourgeois and the nobles. The Landsknecht, who were well payed mercenaries (they would mutiny, if they didn't get payed enough), went immediately absolute mad with the power to bypass sumptuary laws. Crimes against fashion (affectionate) were committed. What do you do, when you have extra money and one of your privileges is to wear every color and fabric? You wear every color and fabric. At the same time. You wear them on top of each other and so they can be seen at the same time, you slash the outer layer. In the second image you can feast your eyes on the Landsknecht.

Just to give you a little more of that good stuff, here's a selection of some of my favorite Landsknecht illustrations. This is the peak male performance. Look at those codpieces. Look at those bare legs. The tiny shorts. And savor them.

The Landsknecht were the hot shit. Their lavish and over the top influence quickly took over men's fashion in Germany in early 1500s. Slashing, the technique possibly started by them, but at least popularized by them, instantly spread all over Europe. That's how you get the typical Renaissance poof sleeves. They at first slashed the thighs of their hose, but it seems like to fit more of everything into their outfits, they started wearing the hose in two parts, upper hose and nether hose, which was a sort of return to the early Medieval trousers and knee-high hose style. The two part hose was adopted by the wider German men's fashion early in the century, but already in 1520s had spread to rest of Europe. It was first combined with the knee-length overdress that had made it's comeback in the turn of the century, like in this Italian painting from 1526 (first image). At this point knitting had become established and wide-spread craft in Europe and the stockings were born, replacing nether hose. They were basically nether hose, but from knitted fabric. The gown shortened again and turned into more of a jacket as the trunk hose became increasingly the centerpiece of the outfit, until in 1560s doublet - trunk hose combination emerged as the standard outerwear (as seen in the second example, 1569 Netherlands) putting the last nail on the coffin of the men's dress as well as the Sluttiest Era. The hose and doublet became profoundly un-slutty and un-horny, especially when the solemn Spanish influence spread all over with it's dark and muted colors.

Especially in Middle Ages, but thorough European history, trousers have been associated with soldiers. The largely accepted theory is that trousers were invented for horse riding, but in climates with cold winters, where short skirts are too cold, and long skirts are still a hazard when moving around, trousers (with or without a short skirt) are convenient for all kinds of other movement requiring activities like war. So by adopting hose as general men's clothing, men in 1500s associated masculinity with militarism. It was not a coincidence that the style came from Landsknecht. I may have been joking about them being "peak male performance", but really they were the new masculine ideals for the new age. At the time capitalism was taking form and European great powers had begun the process of violently conquering the world for money, so it's not surprising that the men, who fought for money and became rich and powerful doing so, were idealised.

Because of capitalism and increasingly centralized power, the feudal system was crumbling and with it the feudal social hierarchy. Capitalism shifted the wealth from land ownership (which feudal nobility was built upon) to capital and trade, deteriorating the hierarchy based on land. At the same time Reformation and centralized secular powers were weakening the power of the Church, wavering also the hierarchy justified by godly ordain. The ruling class was not about to give up their power, so a new social hierarchy needed to form. Through colonialism the concept of race was created and the new hierarchy was drawn from racial, gender and wealth lines. It was a long process, but it started in 1500s, and the increasing distinction between men's and women's fashions was part of drawing those lines. At the same time distinctions between white men and racialized men, as well as white women and racialized women were drawn. As in Europe up until this point, all over the world (with some exceptions) skirts were used by everyone. So when European men fully adopted the trousers, and trousers, as well as their association to military, were equated with masculinity, part of it was to emasculate racialized men, to draw distinctions.

Surprise, it was colonialism all along! Honestly if there's a societal or cultural change after Middle Ages, a good guess for the reason behind it is always colonialism. It won't be right every time, but quite a lot of times. Trousers as a concept is of course not related to colonialism, but the idea that trousers equal masculinity and especially the idea that skirts equal femininity are. So I guess decolonize masculinity by wearing skirts?

[kiwriteswords]

I Promise You This

Chapter One: All That Emptiness Knows Just Where I Live

Pairing: Aaron Hotchner x Fem!Reader

Trigger Warnings: Chronic illness, reader with past abusive relationship, canon-typical violence, canon-typical themes, language, future sexual themes

Rating: Mature for mature themes and future chapters.

Word Count: 1k

Summary: Y/N, the newest and youngest profiler in the BAU, is haunted by her past—an abusive relationship and an illness she keeps hidden from her team. Though skilled in her work, she distances herself emotionally, fearing vulnerability. Aaron Hotchner, her reserved and perceptive boss, begins to notice the cracks in her carefully constructed walls as they navigate high-stakes cases together. Drawn to her resilience, Hotch finds himself increasingly protective of Y/N. As their bond deepens, both must confront their own emotional barriers, leading to an unexpected connection amidst the darkness of their work.

AN: I originally posted this story back in 2021, but for a multitude of reasons, I stepped away from the fandom and removed it. Now, in 2024, I’ve decided to return and revisit this fic with a fresh perspective. I’m currently in the process of rewriting the entire 45-chapter story, adding new depth, and refining the plot. As I re-upload the chapters, I will be including trigger warnings (TWs) for sensitive content. However, if I miss something, please don’t hesitate to let me know. Your comments, shares, and likes/kudos are incredibly encouraging and motivate me to keep working on this rewrite, as well as inspire new content. Thank you for being here, and I hope you enjoy the updated version of this story!— Ki

Masterlist | I Promise You This | Ao3

You stare out the jet’s window, your eyes tracing the clouds below. Sleep eludes you, and the quiet conversation among your team members fades into the background. Music hums softly in your ears, a barely audible escape. You know the odds—three missing children—and yet your mind feels curiously empty.

Laughter breaks through your thoughts. You glance over and see Morgan teasing Reid, as usual. The whole team joins in, and even Hotch chuckles. If he’s laughing, whatever Reid said must have been good.

You smile faintly, though it doesn’t reach your eyes. Isolation is familiar to you—whether you're buried in a book or lost in your music, you’ve always found comfort in keeping a certain distance. It’s not about not fitting in, at least not entirely. The team welcomed you when you joined. They accepted you. But you’ve never quite let yourself feel like you belong.

Only in your twenties, you’ve already lived more life than most people twice your age. A childhood overshadowed by responsibilities that shouldn’t have been yours, and a turbulent adolescence marked by health problems that kept you in and out of hospitals. You were the kid who missed weeks of school but somehow still pulled straight A’s. The one who didn’t go to prom, didn’t have a high school sweetheart, and definitely didn’t have a tight-knit group of friends.

Then there was him. The boy who promised you the world but only gave you heartache. The one who made you feel small, unworthy, broken—both with his words and his hands. The one who convinced you to stay, even when every fiber of your being screamed to leave. You did leave, eventually, but not without scars, some of which never quite healed.

No one on the team knows any of this. To them, you’re just Y/N, the youngest, least experienced profiler in the BAU. A fast learner, sure. Someone who pulls her weight in the field. But you’ve made sure your past is buried deep, nowhere near your file. Only Spencer ever asked why your academic timeline was a little... unconventional. You gave him the same story you’ve told everyone else: You took time to travel.

The truth? You finished undergrad earlier than most, and jumped into grad school while working at a local field office. It was around that time the BAU reached out, and suddenly, your life was moving at a pace you could barely keep up with. Your health remained an ongoing battle, but that was nobody’s business. You’ve never let it slow you down, and you’re not about to start now.

Therapy helped. It gave you the tools to face your past and, more importantly, to reclaim your future. Joining the BAU felt like a step in the right direction—a chance to put your trauma to use, to give your pain purpose. And if you keep your distance from the team, it’s not because you don’t trust them. It’s because trusting people still feels like a risk.

The jet dips, signaling the approach to Phoenix. Your body tenses involuntarily. You haven’t been back here in years, not since... him. You’re not sure how you’ll react once your feet touch the ground again.

"What are you listening to?" Hotch’s voice pulls you from your thoughts.

You jump, startled by his sudden appearance across from you. He watches you with that quiet intensity, and for a moment, you wonder how long he’s been sitting there.

"Nothing important," you murmur, pausing the music and slipping your headphones out.

Hotch’s gaze lingers, and you shift uncomfortably. It’s not that he’s unkind—far from it. But there’s something about his presence, his authority, that makes you second-guess yourself.

"You seemed deep in thought," he notes, a rare hint of amusement in his voice.

"Just zoning out," you reply with a shrug. "Long flight."

He nods but doesn’t push. Hotch is observant, more so than the others. He’s noticed the way you isolate yourself on these flights, how you always seem a little more on edge than you let on. But he hasn’t asked, not yet. You’re grateful for that.

"What were you all laughing about earlier?" you ask, more to fill the silence than out of genuine curiosity.

"Reid’s latest hairstyle," Hotch replies with a smirk. "Morgan’s convinced he’s trying out for a boy band."

You laugh softly, surprising yourself. "He does have that early 2000s look going for him."

"Maybe next week he’ll try the ‘classic detective’ look," Hotch says, the corner of his mouth twitching in amusement.

For a moment, the tension eases. You almost forget where you’re headed.

"Have you gone over the case file?" Hotch asks, his tone shifting back to business.

"Yeah," you nod, glancing back out the window. The familiar skyline of Phoenix looms closer. You take a deep breath. "I haven’t been here in a long time."

"Family here?" he asks casually, clearly not realizing the weight of the question.

You shake your head quickly. "No, I just... used to live nearby for a while."

It’s technically the truth. But the memories attached to this city are ones you’d rather not revisit.

Before Hotch can respond, Morgan sticks his neck out from across the aisle. "You lived in Phoenix? How did I not know that?"

"It was a long time ago," you say, deflecting with a practiced ease.

Morgan grins and steers the conversation back to the case, but Hotch lingers for a moment longer, watching you. There’s something about you that doesn’t quite add up, something just out of reach. He’s known you for a year, yet you’re still a puzzle he hasn’t managed to solve. And maybe that’s why he keeps trying.

As the jet touches down, you pull your bag over your shoulder and follow the team out, doing your best to leave the past behind. But Hotch’s eyes stay on you, and for the first time in a long time, you wonder if someone might be able to see through your walls after all.

[germanpostwarmodern]

During the 1960s numerous subsaharan African countries gained independence from their colonial rule, a process that put an end to a grim period of history during which European rulers conquered and subjugated African peoples and tribes. But the African independence movement not only shook off the shackles of foreign rule but also initiated a boom in modern architecture that has gone largely unnoticed outside of Africa: as a sign of modernization and ambition conference centers, administrative buildings, universities, high rises and luxury hotels were erected, predominantly as concrete constructions and under the aegis of European architects. The employment of the latter obviously came at the expense of local building traditions and techniques but at least local climate conditions were accounted for, a concession that resulted in expressive details and unusual forms.

Over time these buildings have nonetheless fallen into disrepair and often lost their initial purpose. Against this background and in view of their obscurity beyond Africa the architect Manuel Herz at the ETH Zurich initiated a research project focused on Ghana, Senegal, Cote d’Ivoire, Kenya and Zambia. The result is the monumental compendium „African Modernism: The Architecture of Independence“, originally published in 2015 by Park Books and presented here in its second edition from 2022. On 640 pages the volume documents a stunning selection of buildings, cities and architects that are expertly captured by photographers Iwan Baan and Alexia Webster. In an unconventional move they go beyond the purely architectural documentation and also take into account the everyday life and hence demonstrate the lively goings-on in and around the buildings.

In light of these qualities the present volume is a highly recommended opportunity to get familiar with African post-independence architecture and hopefully only the starting point for increased interest and research into the architecture of the continent.

[pinkbeanii]

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓓𝔂𝓮𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓗𝓲𝓼 𝓗𝓪𝓲𝓻˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

-an unconventional date night w/ jongseob-

A/N: inspired by @soulseobie and their Soul one shot, also @kisseobie made the og prompt. This is my first time posting my writing to tumblr so please be nice!! Constructive criticism is welcomed!

Warnings: mentions of wandering hands but entirely sfw, pet names (baby, babe, beautiful, sweetheart), like two-ish kisses but no details, shirtless jongseob but no description

It doesn't matter if you have experience or not with hair, Jongseob trusts you implicitly.

He has so much confidence that even if you have no clue what you're doing it'll turn out okay, and if not then-

“it's just hair baby, it'll grow out eventually!”

Seobie is pretty laid back about the color, obviously he has opinions but yours are more important to him.

Definitely wants to go with you to get supplies, and he's attached to your hip the whole time. It's fun honestly, how involved he wants to be.

"what about this one babe? think I could pull off neon green?"

"oooo, they have rainbow bowls! we have to get some!"

"do you think we'll need a hair treatment for after?"

Very insistent on paying, saying that it's his hair you're doing and it's the least he can do. Tbh, hair stuff can be pretty expensive so you really aren't complaining.

Once you have all the supplies and your space is set up (covered in paper and plastic wrap as to not stain anything) Jongseob is practically bouncing in excitement.

He's gotten his hair done before, obviously, but it's his baby who's doing it this time, ofc he's excited!

Jongseob is dressed in some random old band tee of his, and forced you to wear one as well. It doesn't matter if you were wearing stuff you didn't mind getting dye on, he insists on his shirt.

"no, this is not just bc I like how you look in my clothes, I just don't want you to get dye on your pretty outfit!"

[It definitely is, and he is absolutely pouting when you accuse him of it]

Assuming his hair is already blonde (it is at the time of writing this) you guys start with color right away. He wants to be surprised, so he doesn't even look while you're mixing the color or applying it.

He's very chatty the whole time, still feeling excited and energetic. Which was cute and sweet at first, but he kept moving his head, causing you to mess up in certain areas and get dye places it really shouldn't be.

"babe, you gotta stop moving, I got dye on your neck again!"

"I'm sorry! I'll try not to."

He tries his best not to move too much, but as you finish up the back and move to the front, the moving becomes touching.

Seobie is normally pretty touchy with you, but as nice as his hands feel running up and down your thigh, it's also really distracting.

His hands don't wander too much, he really doesn't want to disturb you! But it's an unconscious thing, his hands just gravitate to your skin whenever they have a chance.

If you point it out he'll get kinda sheepish-

"oh, I didn't realize. your skin is just so soft and warm!"

When you're applying near the roots of his hair, towards his scalp, he gets shivers from the cool temperature. No matter how many times you get your hair dyed, it's always a weird feeling to have goopy dye on your scalp

As you get to his bangs and move in front of him, he gets an idea.

It's pretty obvious, at least to you, when Jongseob has a plan to do something, but being so immersed in applying the dye you didn't notice.

Just as you finish painting a stripe of dye, he pulls you fully onto his lap. Hands gripping your hips making sure you can't squirm out of his reach.

"JONGSEOB!"

"what? I want you here with me, isn't it easier than trying to stand?"

"you could have given me some warning, and what if I'd gotten dye on you? and I don't think that-"

*kiss*

"I want you here, please."

Not being able to say no to his pleas, and feeling quite comfortable in his lap, you stay seated.

Finishing up the front was easy. Using your gloved hand you massage any left over dye into his hair, making sure every strand is coated.

With your hands in his hair Jongseob relaxes even more, leaning into your touch and letting out a whine when you stop-

"felt good, keep going?"

Ofc you indulge him for a while longer, he's so sweet when he asks so it's only natural.

After finally pulling your hands out of his hair and removing your gloves, you hand him the neon orange shower cap he'd insisted on at the beauty store.

Seobie smiles when you turn around, the neon shower cap stretched over his head. He reaches for you again, grabbing you by the waist and pulling you between his legs.

"wanna play switch while this sets?"

After about 30 minutes the timer you'd set rings, signalling that it was time to wash out the hair dye.

You both got settled in the bathroom. Jongseob on the floor, upper body resting against the bathtub, neck stretched so his head was over the tub.

You tucked a rolled towel under his neck, hoping it would help lessen the uncomfortable feeling. Seobie gave you a thumbs up-

"thanks beautiful, feels fine don't worry."

You both thanked the universe that the shower head was detachable, and began the rinsing process.

Jongseob relaxed as your hands entered his hair again. He'd always had a soft spot for you playing with his hair, something you used to your advantage whenever you could.

As you worked to rinse his hair water splashed around, landing everywhere. No matter how hard you tried to minimize it, the water had a mind of its own.

By the time you were halfway done the floor outside the bathtub was damp and so was Jongseob, mostly his shirt. Which he promptly took off as soon as you gave him a break to sit up.

Seobie balled up the tshirt and tossed it up to the counter, turning to you shamelessly.

Ofc you'd seen him like this before, but it still left your face hot and needing to look away.

"what's got you so shy sweetheart, nothing you haven't seen before."

This boy... He's just... Cocky isn't the right word, but it was more than confidence. Maybe comfortable is a good word for it. He knew he was safe with you, so being shirtless didn't leave him feeling "exposed"

Once you got ahold of yourself it was time to continue rinsing.

It took quite a bit before the water ran clear, during which you took advantage of your position to occasionally glance at the shirtless boy under you. No matter how many times you'd seen him, it was still a very pretty sight.

When the dye had been fully rinsed out you pulled Seobie to sit up, plopping a dry towel over his head and drying his hair gently.

Neither of you felt like using a hair dryer, so once his hair was mostly dry, tho still slightly damp, you helped him stand.

"ready to show me babe?"

Covering his eyes you walked him in front of the mirror-

"3,2,1!"

Jongseob looked at his new hair with a wide smile, turning his head side to side, admiring it.

After a thorough appreciation of your hard work, he turned to you and gently held your face-

"it looks absolutely perfect baby, knew you could do it!"

His words left your face hot again, making him giggle at your sudden shyness. In turn, he peppered your face with kisses, light pecks scattered everywhere, ending with a sweet kiss to your lips.

An overall enjoyable experience, with a fun outcome. Seobie would definitely ask you to do it again next time he wanted a change.

Thanks for reading!! I hope this was enjoyable, the plot and idea kinda got away from me at times, but I had fun writing it!

Also, in my head the colour would be like a pinky orange, bc I love Seob's orange hair (let's be real, I love all his hair colors) and my favorite hair color on me is pink, so therefore: pinky orange lol

[volcanocraft]

Your Gem as an unlabelled bi/gay non-op transman who uses she/her has overridden my previous headcanons and rewired my brain. Quite possibly the most correct take I've ever seen.

I really appreciate you saying this :’) she is so dear to me. I love your turiagirl headcanons as I think gem would definitely be mspec and I haven’t heard of the label before… it’s always fun finding out the new ways people are able to label complex gender attraction!

I’ve been thinking about bi gay gem for the past couple of days too. I just think she is able to represent a facet of masculinity I can relate to heavily because of her unconventional expression of her gender. Unlabelled because she doesn’t think too hard about it but able to identify herself in the flux that is masc while also using conventionally fem constructs because she just likes them … AOUHH thank you for making my day 💖

[daisynik7]

cw: fluff, established relationship, suggestive at the end

Author’s Note: this drabble was inspired by my snookums @dprkento because we were talking about building forts together the other day and I thought how cute would it be if we did that for husband!Nanami?! anyways, ily, thank you for always making me feel so special and loved. Divider by @/cafekitsune.

It’s been a stressful week for both you and your husband, more so for Nanami though, who has worked overtime nearly every day since Monday. When Friday finally arrives, you come up with an idea to help the two of you unwind. It’s a bit unconventional, maybe even a little childish, but you have a good feeling that it’s just what he needs. 

Around seven in the evening, you hear the familiar jingle of keys from the other side of the front door. You crawl out from under your creation, chest thumping with excitement, unsure how he’ll react to all of this. Waiting by the entrance, the door swings open to reveal Nanami, eyes tired, shoulders hunched, the aura of an overworked man surrounding him. He shrugs his jacket off, hanging it on the coat rack while he removes his shoes. When he sees you, his expression brightens, a small smile forming on his lips, always happy to be home. You greet him with a warm embrace, wrapping your arms around his torso, squeezing him tight. He nuzzles his nose to the top of your head, inhaling your scent, exhaling a heavy sigh. “Hi.”

You giggle into his chest then peer up at him. “You sound exhausted.”

“I am exhausted,” he admits, bowing down to kiss you on the lips.

“Have I got the perfect surprise for you then,” you say, smirking. 

He stares at you with a brow raised, curious. “Oh no, what now?” You’ve got another trick up your sleeve, keeping him on his toes. And while he pretends to be hesitant at first, he always looks forward to whatever you have in store for him. 

Tugging on his hand, you lead him into the living room, where your masterpiece awaits. “Ta-da!” You hold your arms out, presenting the pillow fort you constructed for him. The base is made of the chairs you dragged all the way from the dining table, concealed by mismatched throw blankets laid out on top of each other to act as the roof. The interior is designed with every pillow you could find lying around the house atop the thickest comforter you have to provide enough cushioning. The finishing touch is your favorite stuffed animal sitting in the corner inviting you in, the same one that Nanami won for you years ago after spending far too much time and money on a crane machine to get it. 

His lips are parted in surprise, inspecting each inch of it carefully. When he doesn’t have any response, you nudge with your elbow. “Well, what do you think?”

He kneels down at the entrance, appreciating the interior, eyes wide with wonder. “You built this? For me?”

“For us,” you correct him, beaming. “I thought we could give up on being adults for a night and relive our childhood.”

He chuckles, crawling inside, his muscular body filling up nearly the entire space. “I never built a fort like this when I was kid. This is a first for me.” Loosening his tie, he rolls over on his back, leaning his head into the pillows, finally relaxed. He waves over to you, beckoning you to join him. 

“Hold on. Let me get the snacks.” You shuffle towards the kitchen counter, gathering all the treats you prepared for tonight: chips, candies, even a box of pizza from one of your go-to restaurants. You dump all the food near the entrance of the fort and shimmy beside your husband, laying the pizza flat on your laps. He presses a sweet kiss to your cheek before grabbing a slice to indulge on. 

When you finish dinner, you set up a laptop on a small standing tray near your feet, snuggling closer to Nanami, who has since removed his tie and unbuttoned his dress shirt. From your peripheral, you can tell he’s not paying attention to the movie. Instead, his focus is on you. 

Still facing the screen, you grin. “What?”

He hums, leaning in closer, his mouth hot on your skin, not answering. He places a delicate kiss on your neck, lingering as his hand slides across your thighs, slipping between your legs. “Kento,” you breathe out, turning towards him, capturing his lips with yours. 

“Thank you for this,” he whispers between kisses, sliding his other hand beneath your shirt and up your back, fingers at the clasp of your bra. “I love you.”

It doesn’t take long for the two of you to undress and christen the pillow fort properly. As Nanami cradles you in his arms, watching you sleep against his chest, he admires the fort one last time before slipping into a peaceful slumber with a smile on his face.