#Ugh I have no words left
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Tim has to come clean about what he did years ago after that. How his parents sent a artifact home and how him being a curious kid solved it after finding out it can give him a wish if he did. He didn't think it would really work if he did solve it but made his wish on not being alone anymore and how before he knew it, he had a little brother and (fake) 'evidence' of his birth into the Drake family so no one would question it, heck even their parents had implanted memories of a second Drake kid being born. How the only people who knew the actual truth was Tim and now no doubt Danny (Tim was never for sure if Danny knew but since he talked about a wish ghost, he most likely knew)
Danny does his best, in toddler speak, to explain he is the Ghost King, wanted to relive for a bit (his scheduled vacation time, both for his own relaxation but also to remind him about how living a life feels), but got pulled into one of his subjects (Desiree) wish granting abilities when he reverting into his core form to be reborn at the same time (though everyone heard Danny mutter under his breath something about 'the right timing' and 'Clockwork wanting entertainment to watch again') and how Danny wanted to keep Tim safe and happy cause he reminds him of his sister from his first life when taking care of him (Danny grumbles about 'children shouldn't be have to parent other children because their parents are dummies and/or to into themselves'. Jason agrees when he hears it) and how when he heard about Jason doing his Red Hood stuff, he noticed the contaminated ecto signs and knew he needed to help and was even asked by Lady Gotham herself, thus he needed to see Jason first to get a full feel of how bad the ecto was and send the right amount of blob ghosties to him to help filter out the bad stuff.
Everyone in the room is a bit stunned to say the least with all the bombshells being dropped, again as best as Danny can explain with his toddler speak, when Danny turns his attention to his side, Jason noticing a new blob ghost popping into the room and rushing to Danny's ear and making squeaking/chirping sounds Jason can almost make out.
Danny frowns before nodding and turns back to look at Bruce before saying "I sended one ghosties to look at the bad ecto. They'd saids bads peoples ares swimming in it, yuck! Ands thats you haves a son, he looks like you, a lot, but with green eyes! Ands he's with a pretty lady and a fruitloop old mans."
-Slams DPxDC door open and tosses AU idea on table-
Tim's parents send home an artifact that is said to able to grant wishes! While being curious about it Tim messes with the artifact and when he 'solves' it, according to legend one must solve it to get a wish, he wishes he wasn't alone anymore.
The object glows bright and as he shields his eyes he can hear.
'So you have wished it, so it shall be!'
He gets his wish in the form of a recently reincarnated ghost!King (who entered the DC world for a reincarnated vaycay... he should had known something was going to happen because CW was encouraging the break) Danny whose just a baby/toddler right now.
Basically, big brother Tim and baby Danny adventures in Gotham after that.
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Fanart for @honeydots Fire Emblem fanfic. I've been using it as a reason to fluke out of social interactions for the last two weeks and boy oh boy I will continue to do so >:)
#But jokes aside I love the fic#Some of Takumis monologues hit a bit TOO close to home#I have like 2k words left to read and I find myself a tad hesitant to do so because then it would be OVER and who's gonna save me from bein#ugh#SOCIAL#with my FRIENDS#then huh??#anyway#forrest admission to being bullied to Leo made me tear uuuup im not jooooking and that was the moment I decided I needed to draw fanart#I've read so much fanfic in my life but this is the first time I actually drew something for it#so feel special I guess?#thank you for writing this wonderful fic#have the praise from another long fic writer because gurl I KNOW how difficult it is trust me#i KNOW#fire emblem#fire emblem fates#fire emblem leo#fire emblem takumi#leokumi#ao3 fanfic#fanart#my art
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#talkys#delete later#(this is a meme redraw)#ruined my life is a strong word. and of course theres lots of self blame and obvs ive probably wronged lots of people before#and i dont deserve unending torture for it. right. like part of me doesnt even actually feel ill will toward the other party#because whatever! normal human experience!#the other part is like ohhh okay you lied to and kinda used me + treated me badly then lied again to the point where i found out the truth#from another party so you didnt even have to fess up yourself and now you're back to being happy as if nothing happened#i was just a stepping stone i was just a distraction. ok!#like for real actually ok ^_^ it literally happens to ppl all the time...#<- he keeps experiencing waves of horrific sense of self worth that already wasnt Too Great as a result#ugh. and thats nobody's fault but my own right.... but idk. i cant believe it...! i cant believe someone treated me dis way#and i let it happen... and i would have let it keep happening if an end hadnt been put to it by someone else....#but still. at the end of the day i was the only one left with these thoughts. ykwim. other party has forgotten. got happy ending.#doesnt deserve ''consequences'' but still feels horrific to see and think about. you know?#i literally got all the bad. throughout and after.
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Not me creeping up to the wordcount of the fourth longest book ever written
#A Reflection of Starlight#AROS#valvert#fanfic#writing#Hey I switched back to LibreOffice again after setting up my new computer#(RIP my old computer's installation of MS Office 2009)#And also my old computer in general as it is now giving me the blue screen of death upon boot#but ANYWAY#does anybody know how to make LibreOffice stop highlighting formatted areas? BC with Dark Mode it's highlighting white text#which makes it impossible to read my footnote and page numbers#Also I CANNOT believe this program was coded to be so that 'Ignore' and 'Ignore All' options only do so for the CURRENT SESSION ONLY#Like what in god's name???#I spent 3-4 hours reformatting AROS after converting it only to learn that all the 'errors' I told it to ignore just popped back#the second I reopened the document like jesus christ#Why even offer those options if it doesn't do it permanently for that document file#HHHHHHHhhhhhhHHHHHH#I then spent another several hours being forced to change the language formatting to French for all the French bits#JUST so it would stop underlining all of them in red#And there's no way for me to get rid of the underlining on things like cut off bits of dialogue#bc they are NOT proper words and I refuse to add them to my Dictionary (thus polluting it) just to get rid of them#Ugh#So anyway remember years ago how I joked about what if I accidentally wrote a fanfic longer than the source material itself#That being one of the longest books ever written (technically THE longest book ever written#if we're counting the FRENCH version of it and not the English translation#And yeah I know I technically split AROS into 3 books but that was only for reader convenience#It's still one book in my heart#And also because I think it would be REALLY funny to surpass Hugo's wordcount#Which is entirely plausible bc in English it was only about 531k so I only a little over 100k off and I think I can easily make that#with the material I have left to write but is already mostly plotted out
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He’s my little meow meow, my darling, my bbygirl (Patreon)
#Doodles#Commander Peepers#I'm soooooo normal about him you guys <3 So normal! <3 <3#*Looking back over the other Little Guys I've collected* Hmmmmmmm Evil Xisuma and Spamton and Sableye and Rick Diggins#I think there might be a theme here#Just casually making Venn Diagrams in my head - Evil X has the red/black - Spamton is trans - Sableye has Gremlin energy - Rick is too tired#And those are just the ones I can think of lol - if you look I did the same stretchy pose with EX when I was still drawing him lol#The Stretch Pose is how you can tell if I like a character lol - they stretchin'? I am infatuated <3#I mean I'm normal I'm totally normal lol#Also had to give him a bbygrl pose - I for the life of me cannot find it again but the reference is very strong in my mind's eye!#Not that I couldn't go for another one at some point lol ♪#Ugh the middle one lol - so that Word of God I mentioned in passing about female Watchdogs#I read it in passing as just a basic research of ''Oh here's what The Original Creator has to say alright neat''#Except that it Immediately made me itchy and I was like ''What. What brain this is not that big of a deal what are you doing''#And I was like ''No I'm being silly about this - just because I don't agree doesn't mean it's a big deal lol''#Except then I had stress dreams and woke up Weird the next day and the last time that happened I left a fandom#And the time before that I wrote 4 consecutive pages of 20-something panels in like 18 hours of consciousness - I have normal reactions lol#But I opted instead to vent to smol about it and she agreed with me so basically I'm just saying I'm correct lol /s#Personally Peepers doesn't strike me as misogynistic - he's very much an Equal Opportunity villain in my eyes!#And yeah I considered a lot of different angles around it but like - based on the text of WOY I just don't buy it#If it's not in the show it doesn't count! For all we know there might not even be any female Watchdogs! Lol#Would also lead to the equally-to-Spamton interesting question of How Does Trans Work in that kind of situation#I've definitely not already put a lot of thought into it don't look at me lol#Don't ask me to write an essay about both of those things I'll do it and where will that leave us lol#ANYway lol ♪ He's still the absolute funnest to draw in distress and discomfort <3 And kneeling! He makes me want to practice :D#I always feel like I can try again and do better! >:3c
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Am so fucking done
#vent#this fucking irl group#not friends anymore#fuck them#but I will be damned if they get the last word at this point#they keep hurting my spouse#over and over#and over and over#and now the biggest issue is the way I handled it#leaving the fact that they were hurting and have been hurting as a FUCKING FOOTNOTE#Ugh#but of fucking pricks#so fucking done#my spouse deserves better#and so much love#so much love#they deserve people who actually value their time and effort#not people who constantly make them feel like shit and#left out of everything#sorry for vent btw#I’m just so fucking done
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girls don’t ever have a ??? what is this ??? breakneck-speed-developing friendship with a girl you meet during study abroad, who met a boy during study abroad and was dating him the whole time while also ditching him to be with you. don’t go across germany with her for the weekend to meet her extended family and have them tell you they thought you’d known each other for years not 3 weeks. dont walk around an old church with her family and see her down the pew having a moment to herself praying. don’t have a (: haha what (: smiling at each other moment in her grandma’s backyard. it will haunt you for the rest of your waking life.
#nothing actually ever Happened with us but raking it all over in my head the what ifs that might have made that different!!!#so many little what ifs that unfortunately do keep me up at night#did i mention we haven’t texted nary a word to each other since we left europe#after spending 30 days straight glued at the hip#sometimes i do allow myself to be delusional and think she might have felt Something#but was just scared#ugh#being gay is terrible#mod talk
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hey, regular reminder that if you get someone in your inbox (that you have never interacted with before/has never been following you) asking you to reblog a post on their blog (sob story asking for donations, usually about a pet to make it extra guilt-trippy) and they specifically ask you to answer this ask privately (for a vague and weak reason, why wouldn't they want more eyes on this post?) and then you go to their blog and their account is days old at most (and they're even claiming they have an old account that got shadowbanned ((?? being "shadowbanned" on tumblr does not mean you can't still post from that account?)) but never mention the url of that old blog) and all their reblogs are straight from the op and not from anyone they might be following who reblogged the post first (indicating they just quickly searched a semi-popular fandom tag to reblog some innocuous fanart to make the blog seem lived in)-
this is probably a scam :/ keep your eye out for odd details, inconsistency, and a glaring lack of credibility. stay safe out there everypony.
#ugh#yucky#bad taste in my mouth#this specific format of ask has also just been previously proven to be a scam tactic#so anybody trying to use it legitimately to fundraise is begging not to be taken seriously srry#they've clearly been in other peoples' inboxes with the same guilt-trippy copypasta#bc the ~200 notes they got are filled with ppl saying they cant donate rn but will signal boost it#ughhh#i'm rereading the exact wording of this post and getting so mad it doesn't make any sense#one of the pictures included is a vet invoice but they say they haven't gone to the vet yet but also the cat is pictured in a cone already#it does not make sense#said vet is also “the only one in the area that will take donations over the phone” but “needs to be paid upfront”#so. you cant have taken the cat to the vet yet. bc you dont have the money. which you are asking to be donated directly to ur paypal#thats not over the phone. thats. what?#MAYBE they mean an online payment but like.#then why do u have an invoice and the cat is clearly bandaged and in a cone already!!#then they also say the cat is already on antibiotics and only has days left if they dont get further treatment#and then a paragraph later claim the cat needs antibiotics!#im SO tempted to email this vet#i wont#im gonna put this to bed now
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How did they cover up Charredtail's death?
I was hoping nobody would ask LOL cuz I ... wasn't sure myself, tbh
the most obvious route they could take is that it was self-defense. it was an open secret that Charredtail had a bit of a crush on Cobaltshine, who didn't get along well with Hornetstar, and while nobody suspected her as a murderer in a serious enough capacity to make an accusation- especially since it could have easily been explained as her losing her footing- it was Very obvious that she wasn't openly negatively affected by her death at all. though she did, of course, panic behind closed doors (as it were) and stew in guilt, not because she actually misses Cobaltshine or anything but because she knows she's not a murderer and is afraid of the ways the whole ordeal has changed her.
anyway, the lie they could potentially spin, with everyone more or less knowing the tense charred-cobalt-hornet thing, is that Charredtail genuinely suspected his mate of killing his crush and got violent about it, giving Hornetstar no other choice. obviously they'd all hate to deface Charredtail's memory like that, but Marshlily and Fireflash had to make an executive decision since Hornetstar wasn't ready to talk about it. Marshlily is very, very invested in keeping the peace, so Fireflash followed her lead and made that official statement. however, Marshlily did promise herself that someday, when all of this is over, she'd make everything right by him. it haunts her, but she has faith that someday she can clear his name, even if he never forgives her.
that said ... distrust has been building among GhostClan. not too much, not for a rebellion, but there are ... theories ...
so who knows how well that's believed?
#🌹.txt#i uh. can't remember if i mentioned that cobalt thing bc it was never gonna happen; idt she even reciprocated it lol#before the death scene i mean#but he did have a little bit of a crush on jer#good luck bud she's t4t#also fun fact: hornetstar did actually murder cobaltshine as an in-game event#i was just lucky enough to be able to fold it into the curse#can't remember why bc i don't think any of their interactions were notable enough to jot down#but it clearly left an impression. and i can fit it in well here bc as much as i love Hornetstar I'd already characterized her as#jealous and ... not controlling but like. hates it perhaps more than is warranted when other cats have feelings for charred#just due to her insecurity#ugh i hope this isn't just word vomit - if it's too all over the place I'll take a look next time im on my laptop#gc lore#arc one lore
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slamming my head against the wheel of my car and the horn goes fucking crazy
#scarf.txt#i know those eyes/this man is dead izuru & chiaki. killing myself.#/pos btw I’m just fucking nuts#UGH. THIS FUCKING SONG. SHUT THE FUCK UP. I’m going to lose my god damn mind. I’m going to lose my motherfucking mind#I’m straight up going to lose it.#for the record I have been insane about this song for over a decade at this point the sensation is not new.#but this is my first time applying it to these characters.#and it fits incredibly fucking well.#IN EYES ONCE FAMILIAR A STRANGER I SEE WITH SO MANY WORDS LEFT TO SAY#I’m going to lose it.
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Saturday Six (Stuff)
But on Sunday
The Farmer's Market was slow AF again yesterday. But it was also hot as hell too. Though I did get quite a few people talking to me, which was great. Idk, this year has been very strange. (゜-゜)
Speaking of work being strange, idk what to do about my accountant. She still hasn't got my sales tax put in to the state dept of revenue, nor are my federal taxes done. I'd fire her but she's a family friend. Ugh. (;¬д¬)
I do not like this record breaking heat were having. Neither does my air conditioner.(・`ェ´・)つ
My annoying neighbor who has, for the 7 years that I've lived here, put out his leftover food "for the birds", has now recently put out an aluminum pan for food. Welp, naturally this attracts rodents. And other stray animals. My cat Reggie does not mind the occasional rodent, and has recently caught a few rats and left them for us. Ugh. On Thursday there was a bit of commotion (people grabbing loudly) outside, and I was looking for Reggie anyway due to it being firework day, so I looked to see what was up. It was a mother effing snek!!!! Ugh. So yeah, he's got sneks coming around, because of all the rodents. In all the years, we've never seen one here until now. I'm very upset to say the least. And I'll be talking to my landlord tomorrow. ヽ(●-`Д´-)ノ
My parents had a birthday/anniversary party yesterday and I had probably THE WORST deviled egg of my life. ヽ(゚Д゚)ノ
I keep torturing myself by looking at houses for sale. It's really frustrating.(´Д`)
#Saturday Six#About me#Personal#Please do not rebloggle#July 7 2024#Carey rambles about life and stuff and things and ugh why is everything such a pain#It's no wonder my left shoulder/neck is tensed up to the point that I'm in constant pain!#I wonder if I could claim disability for it#It never really goes away. Ugh#I'm really trying to find things to be positive about but it's truly very hard#I SAW A KITTEN TODAY - It was soooo cuuuute! I'd have taken it but I already have 3 cats...#Anyway thanks for reading my nonsensical rambles whenever I post them here#I appreciate y'all so much#I hope you have a great day or night wherever you are in the word#Hugsss from mom or just a friend-whatever you need right now-because I know I need hugsss٩(๑•◡-๑)۶ⒽⓤⒼ❤💜 💙 💚 💛 ❤️ 💗 💕#Now back to your regularly scheduled scrolling
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I know it's wrong and bad to say this, but sometimes I really hate when my friends have other friends. (specifically when I can't also be friends with those friends) because every time I want someone to hang out with or talk to, the only couple friends I have are always busy with their other friends. when I want to plan something with them, they will always choose the other friends over me. they will cancel plans *with* me as soon as other friends ask, but won't cancel plans *for* me when i ask. they will use up their social spoons on other friends and leave none for me. always putting things with me off or simply not responding at all.
i'm always told by random people when I say I want mkre friends "it's better to have a couple great friends than many aquantances" or something like that. but honestly it sucks because you can't rely on 1-2 people to always be there for you every day or every week when you want or need someone. if you keep asking, you're seen as annoying and clingy and they will ignore you eventually (or worse)
it's annoying that they get to fill their social needs at all times, but I never get to. because i'm never the one that gets to go first in the social queue. and when it gets to my turn, it refreshes and i'm pushed to the back again.
the only solution I can ever think of is being friends with my friends' friends too....but for some reason!!!!!! that never works out!!!! (if my friends will even share their friends with me to begin with)
#and dont even get me started on when i share my friends with each other and they choose each other over me and kick me out lmao#WHY ARE FRIENDS SO HARD#why am i just a little creature that requires certain amounts/types of social interaction that never gets met#and no one wants to do anything about it. and im forced to sit here feeling bad about it because i cant fix it either fbbdbdfghhdhjrhfdj#this whole friend and human interaction and bonding and companionship bullshit is going to be lifelong issue and im not here for it#NO ADVICE IM GIVEN WORKS. IM TIRED OF ONE SIDED BULLSHIT WHERE ONLY I TRY. HUMANS ARE ANNOYING#im like a non human creature that wears human skin and everyone except me knows and they dont want me and i domt know why#i also dont have the energy to do the whole new friends song and dance where you small talk to get to know each other#and share your life stories. i rather just hang out and become friends through enjoyment of mutual enjoyed activity????#or something like that idk#i tried so hard to be friendly to friends' friend last weekend when we all hung out so i can be adopted into their friend group but#they didnt even tell me it was nice meeting me and hanging out and didnt even say bye to me. only to my friends#and i was too sad about that to say it to them instead as they walked away. theyre way more social and good at words#and i was overwhelmed and struggling to speak so i was waiting for the queue to say those things or something#i expected it like an idiot loser becuase i thought i did a good job being a cute gremlin that fits into the group that seems to have#other goofy gremlins like me. i thought maybe they can be “my people” or something. but then they turned around and left#after telling my friends bye. and didnt acknowledge me. and i juat kept smiling and turned around and walked away too#PRETENDING IT WAS FINE. BUT IT FELT BAD. BECAUSE I FAILED TO MAKE A FRIEND WHEN I THOUGHT I DID GOOD WITH THEM FOR ONCE#so “being confident/believing in yourself” like im told to do DIDNT WORK AND IT FELT WORSE THAN DOUBTING MYSELF. YOU LIARS. ugh fhdhdhfhjssk#WHAT DO. WHY LEE BAD AT THIS. WHY IT FEEL BAD. WHY NOT JUST ACCEPT BEING ALONE 99% OF TIME AND GIVE UP. WOULD BE EASIER#lee rants#autism things#i know its rude to invite yourself into a friend group but what if i try anyway 🤪✌️
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good morning this alhaitham piece is killing me
#i have 6000 words left to edit#._.#bf and kitty are both sleeping beside me#tw vent#i feel kinda sad today but it’s alright i’m gonna get through it#once i finish this piece i’m going to try and put more effort into being more active in the community#i miss having friends LOL#i have like two friends on this site#the thought of putting myself out there again genuinely fills me with so much panic#but i know that if i continue to allow it to scare me then it’ll signal to my brain that it IS something to be afraid of#which like#it technically isn’t#i want to believe in the good of people and see the good in people and give everyone the benefit of the doubt#i shouldn’t have to suffer just because one person turned out to be super shitty#anyway~ sorry for this#ugh being vulnerable on main ick#i feel like touya nii LMAOOOOO#like ew what i’m being vulnerable IN PUBLIC????????? oh god#but moving on#please have a lovely wednesday today <3#i might get sushi!!!!!#clari chatters
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sorry how am i meant to be normal about this
#sparrow speaks#im sorry ugh i wnat a sideblog#they them#theyre like lame ass side charcters who even cares <- i care#alot#i forgot about ct...#they were#ct seemed like the only one south genuinly liked/trusted. but that could be just because she was lower on the leaderboard#but fuckkkkkk#did south get worse after ct left ? Was it ct and north that knew her best ?#she said something like “at least us girls have eachohter” or smt similar#The Twins#rvb lb#i just ugh#i am going to make them a webweave as soon as i finsih the series mark my words
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[medical gaslighting]
Oh and I had to see a different OB/GYN than my normal endo specialist and she was the WORST
She actually suggested that my period and ovulation pain that leaves me vomiting and nearly hallucinating might be “normal” for my body.
And then proceeded to lecture me on IUDs for more than half of my appointment after I explicitly stated that I don’t want one and my normal doctor said it’s not a good plan for me (nevermind the fact that IUDs are contradicted by my connective tissue diseas in the first place)
And then she said I have “too much going on” in my body and need to figure even MORE out before I can even be evaluated for endometriosis. And blamed my pain on tethered cord and “nerve pain signals getting misinterpreted.”
I should have walked out, but I was so dissociated I just sat there, frozen, staring at her in complete disbelief
#there was more but I’m not able to access that right now#she was fucking terrible and the physical exam left me crying on the table even through my dissociation#but everything is normal yeah /s#fuck doctors#endometriosis#my regular endo specialist wants to go through with the hysterectomy I want and this doctor laughed in my face for not trying BC pills#UGH#I do not have the words#I then spent the rest of the afternoon coming up with horrible ways that her day could be ruined#like hoping someone slashes 2/4 of her tires#or poking herself with used medical equipment so she has to spend weeks doing blood draws#or that I hope she burns literally everything she tries to cook so it’s just a carbon crisp#makes me think of that song ‘pray for you’ which is admittedly in my head way more than it should be#olive blogs#disability#medical gaslighting
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straight up hate the initial stages of trying to write a canon character in fic. it's oodles of fun getting in the groove and then hitting a point where the canon character speaks, running head first into that mile tall brick wall of '....wait, would he say that? would he say it like that?' and then the whole thing falls apart
#this is pacifically about astarion rn#i think i have an idea of his character in general but like#not sure about how to actually word the things coming out of his mouth#or at least im not sure if he reads as astarion or astarion but slightly to the left or#some random guy who's name is astarion and who looks like him but sure as shit is not The Real Astarion#you feel me?#and it's not like it matters all that much considering im just trying to do dumb little headcanons for funzies#but i do wanna write actual things with him at some point so i wanna get used to him#and this all just murdered the fuck out of my momentum......#ugh. the pain of art or what the fuck ever#i suppose i could read more fic and see how other people write him but like#yall give me self-esteem issues lmao#skill issue on my part but it is what it is#to the void with love
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