#Tw\ i have daddy issues

[ephemerasnape]

The sight that greeted Victor Rookwood as he exited the Hog's Head that fateful evening would be forever ingrained in his memory.

The street was dark and eerily quiet, and the dapper wizard had just taken a few steps outside the seedy pub before he realized something was amiss, causing him to stop abruptly and survey his surroundings.

"Lumos."

Continued below...

At first, Victor was more disoriented than anything - unsure that he could trust what he was seeing with his own eyes. The dark wizard blinked a few times in confusion before, slowly, he began to make sense of the gruesome display before him.

Heaps of... dirty rags? Someone has made rather a mess, it seems. . .

No. That's blood.

Blood and worse.

Before him was a scene of utter carnage the likes of which he'd never seen. A slaughter. The lifeless bodies of several young witches were splayed out in the middle of Spire Alley, a spectacle so macabre that even the dark wizard, well-accustomed to death, felt his stomach lurch at the sight.

A ginger witch lay eviscerated. Another's golden hair fanned around her angelic face like a halo. A brunette was positioned face down in a pool of her own blood. A strange-looking witch with odd-coloured hair... Victor shuddered as he recalled that one. He remembered her as having been particularly annoying.

And yet more still.

Sisters in death. Some he recognized outright, a vague familiarity to the rest. Their faces - doubtless once beautiful, now befouled by their own blood. Twisted limbs at grotesque angles. Internal organs now decidedly external.

Gods..

And in the center a... survivor? Victor tentatively stepped forward, perhaps even to offer a helping hand, as the pale witch clad in black gazed up at him adoringly.

"Victor.. I did it for you. For us."

Rookwood watched, horrified comprehension dawning on his face as the witch released a bloodied dagger she'd been holding. He barely registered the sound of the steel clattering to the cobblestone over the pounding of his heart.

"I love you, Victor."

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Now a video.

[idontlikejazzsonowitsmyname]

There's this one ULTRAKILL fic where Gabriel (SPOILERS BTW) is at the end of his life and the machine tries to save him by feeding him.blood, and if works, but Gabriel's starts to change, cause the bloods from hell and bad.

But there's thus one scene where's in a church or an alternative I can't really remember, but he's in a holy house, and he's thinking about his father, and he says something along the lines of:

"I hope God sees how beautiful I've become without him and W H E E P S."

And I need to remember where I read it because I wanna give the author a big moost freshly chapsticked smooch for giving me a new life motto.

[fyodior]

i think the reason i cling to male characters so much despite being sapphic is that im like literally obsessed with the idea of a man loving me and being nice to me. something that has never occurred

[rvstyartstar]

"like him" by Tyler, the creator would actually go so HARD with clone high characters with their clone fathers please need to see it edited/drawn .⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠·⁠.

⁠☆ the album's soo good omg like i love how he focus on himself on the album unlike his last two which focuses on him being in a ro(proble)mantic relationship and actually seek some answers that he had in his previous album and trying to innergrowth himself like ALSO the song translations?? Mmm chief's kiss,

[aalien-s]

callback to a bit more than a year ago when i absolutely traumatized a soundwave cai bot, and then killed him lmao (these are old screenshots btw)

this was probably the best part, IT WASNT EVEN SEXUAL IT WAS LITERALLY TOO GORY SOMEHOW

and then the last text:

i showed the entire chat to my friend and uh

yeah thats it bye 👋

[quietwingsinthesky]

Do you agree w/ the fandom interpretation that john was so homophobic he’d have beaten up and abandoned his sons for being gay? Cause sure, he grew up in the 60s as a mechanic and then later became a marine during the vietnam war, but i also don’t think homophobia would’ve necessarily been a priority for him? Like obviously he’s not gonna be the full on supportive and politically correct loving dad, but i think that the fandom’s general opinion on that is pretty warped by people’s relationships w/ their own fathers

I do think this is one place where people tend to project. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that; working out our issues through fiction is healthy and good! I don’t think there’s any canon proof of it beyond, as you said, him being a marine from the sixties who would probably not be super knowledgeable about being queer, maybe a little apprehensive about it from what he’s absorbed through the culture he grew up in. I think we’d be correct to point out that if Sam or Dean were queer, he might be uncomfortable about it, he might try to avoid the topic, which is in of itself hurtful.

The thing about me is: I fully disagree that John was ever physically abusive towards his kids. At most, I will bend this interpretation to say he was probably too harsh on them while teaching them to fight and that maybe he and Sam have traded blows before when arguments got too loud (by blows, I mean, probably shoving with the yelling, you know, assertion of physical space. It seems realistic to me that two people who have been using violence for a long time to protect themselves, and for John, his family, down to the hierarchal power he’s put in place of him -> Dean -> Sam, would resort to it when things got too heated.)

(I also think that sometimes fandom’s insistence that John had to be physically abusive can sometimes get a little insulting because it perpetuates the idea that emotional abuse does less harm and can be overlooked and for flattening out John’s character in a way the show very literally pointed to and said He Did Not Do That. This is the entire point of Max’s episode in s1, for the show to point out that their experiences of abuse were different. How well it was handled is arguable, but I take it as clear evidence that when we talk about John’s relationship with his sons, the focus should be on the emotional abuse, the codependency he developed with Dean from a very young age, his neglect of them both, his attempts to suppress Sam, etc. And I appreciate this about the show, because you can’t talk about any of those things without also talking about why they’re happening, why John thinks this is necessary, how he loves his sons and isolates them to protect them and ends up doing more and more damage that will never leave them through their entire lives.

I’m sure there’s depictions of John being physically abusive that handle it with the same amount of nuance that the show handles him being emotionally abusive in canon. I have not seen them, unfortunately. I’ve seen John being physically abusive 90% of the time just being used as shorthand for him being Bad and Evil and A Terrible Father. Which does not interest me. So I will remain here as a staunch defender of He Would Not Fucking Hit His Kids.)

Sorry, okay, we got off topic there this is about gay shit.

The point of All Of That was for me to be able to say, John’s not going to react to his sons being queer by beating them. He’s definitely not going to abandon them. Hello? John Winchester? Abandon his kids? John Winchester, the guy who has been keeping them in warded up motel rooms their whole lives and moving them across the country out of paranoia the demon who killed his wife could find them if they say anywhere too long? John Winchester who only trusted one or two people to ever look after his sons when he went on a hunting trip too long? We think that John would ditch his kid because they’re queer???

Like I said, I think the most realistic reaction for John, (if not just flat out him going ‘that’s fine, now load this gun while I time you because that’s more important for me to know that you can do’, because. He kind of has bigger priorities to worry about here. Like werewolves.) would be discomfort and pushing it out of his view, ignoring it. Which would still fucking hurt! And would have horrible effects on Sam and Dean both, would encourage Dean to repress it if he thinks his dad is ashamed of him, would push Sam away if he trusts John with this fact about himself and can’t be accepted easily.

I just think this is truer to John’s character.

Anyway. If nothing else here persuades anyone reading that John Would Not Fucking Do That, well. He thought his kid was demonspawn, remember? He thought Sam was corrupted and might not be able to be saved. I don’t think you can get more clear queercoding than that, and you know what John’s very telling response was to that information, to finding out something a thousand times more terrifying than Sam being gay ever could be? To refuse to look at it. To insist to himself that whatever Hell wanted with Sam, he wouldn’t let it happen. To tell Dean to take care of it, because even when John is certain that his son might literally become a demon, he could never bring himself to pull the trigger on him. Because he loves Sam.

So like. He literally would not do anything for the much smaller realization that Sam is gay. His son has demon blood that might turn him super evil, and John still wouldn’t hurt him.

I guess what I’m trying to say here is, I try to keep the fact that John loved his sons at the forefront of my mind when I’m writing stuff about him, because I think if you let that slide out of your head, you can very easily make him much worse, much more flat than he was in canon. The real picture of him is just an extremely flawed man in a terrible situation who fucks up his kids as much as he protects them.

And also he wouldn’t care about them being gay because JohnAzazel real and true and they fucked sloppy in that hospital basement-

[bnha-more-like-bnh-gay]

Izuku: I need to find an excuse to escape social situations that makes sense to normal people

Izuku: because I can’t just say, “sorry, being around you right now makes me want to peel my skin off, nothing against you! I just have anxiety” doesn’t work for most people

Izuku: of course, my therapist would tell me that it’s a fine excuse, and that I’m setting boundaries, and that’s good

Izuku: and hound dog is not one to coddle you! In fact, he tells me about once every session that I will never receive my fathers love!

Izuku: so, I’m inclined to believe he’s telling the truth

[bandagedbastard]

Fathers please stay in your kids lives before they go fuck off and find a sophisticated older man with weapons to be their father, a father that would destroy the world before ever thinking about hurting his baby.

[burymeathemakeoutcreek]

girls when they have a complex relationship with their father and miss him even though he has been emotionally and most times physically unavailable and they know that he loves them but he is just as emotionally damaged as they are and they wish they could have a serious conversation about their feelings and relationship since almost two decades now but know that they will be dismissed because no one in their family can have a rational conversation unless someone is threatening to kill themselves and yet again they still love him to the point that pretty much every man disgusts them but every time that disgust come to surface they think “i miss my dad” or “i wish my dad was here” but they still harbored hate and resentment towards him for years now and-

[ntgek]

I thank God I am nothing like my mother.

Unfortunately, I am just like my father.

[ashturnedtomist]

It’s like when The Neighborhood said, “And if you were my little girl, I’d do whatever I could do, I’d run away and hide with you.”

And when Rupi Kaur said, “I can't tell if my mother is terrified or in love with my father it all looks the same. I flinch when you touch me, I fear it is him.”

Or maybe when The Front Bottoms said, “I have this dream that I am hitting my dad with a baseball bat and he is screaming and crying for help. And maybe halfway through it had more to do with me killing him than it ever did protecting myself.”

Or quite possibly when Percy Jackson said, "Kronos couldn't have risen if it hadn't been for a lot of demigods who felt abandoned by their parents. They felt angry, resentful, and unloved, and they had a good reason.”

And what about when Lucifer Morningstar said, “I realized that my father would never say those things to me. And for that? I hate him all the more.”

Or maybe, just maybe, when Melanie Martinez said, “Mom, please wake up, Dad’s with a slut, and your son is smoking cannabis. No one ever listens, this wallpaper glistens.”

[leslie057]

for…science?

[catboywizard]

supposedly my dad is fine with me being trans, yet I just saw him say on facebook that drag is a “mockery of women” so idk ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[glass-trash-bab]

There's something deeply wrong with me

[spicymemedad]

now that im an adult i realize that 'my parents dont abuse me so they are good parents' was not a healthy thing to say to myself. therapists should be scrambling to be the first one to dissect my many problems. for free.

[russilton]

Adulthood is when you go from emotionally absent daddy issues to emotionally manipulative mommy issues