#Trans struggles

[brainz4sale]

tw dysphoria comfort art <33

tw sh !!

[goatguyeddy]

Do any other pre t trans dudes have zero idea what kind of man they want to be? Like there’s a goal there somewhere but you have no idea what it is, you know that transitioning will get you closer to the answer, you’re just not sure how it will do that and sometimes you worry if it even will

[peterokii]

how i transed my gender in primary school but didnt realize it until i was 17

[m3l4nch0ly-h1ll]

A trans woman and trans man pressing their chests together for comfort. Thinking of how wrong their chests feel but how right they feel together. If only they could've switched bodies, how easy that would be for them. But, they can't. So this is their method of reassurance. They're in this together, and they'll feel right soon enough. Until they have the chest that they want, where their roles are reversed, and they can finally feel like a puzzle piece when they push their bare chests together.

[elliott-the-creature]

not me wanting to cry on Christmas.

my aunt (aka my mom’s friend, but we all call her our aunt) gave me a custom made blanket, but it has my deadname on it. I know the thought was there, and I don’t want to say anything, but I feel like shit rn.

will I have to stay in the closet forever… this feeling is horrible. I wish I could formally come out with my chosen name and pronouns, but I know that nobody will use them :(

[finnslay]

Sigh

[void-does-not-sleep]

Genuinely don’t know what I identify as anymore.

I say I’m transmasc and I do prefer He/they pronouns and I’d definitely prefer to be born male if I was given the option. But on the other hand I also feel like I don’t tick certain boxes when it comes to being trans masculine? It’s hard to explain really. I do want a flat chest but would I really want a penis? I don’t think so. Also, thinking about being extremely hairy (like a moustache or hand hair/feet hair) makes me extremely uncomfortable. And on top of that I don’t think I’d wanna transition medically (apart from maybe top surgery or breast reduction at least) so no testosterone or bottom surgery.

My ideal body would just be a totally flat chest with preferably no nipples and no genitalia, just a small hole to pee out of kinda like a doll.

I also really struggle to see myself as human in general so identifying my gender has been such a struggle. It seems like anytime I think I have it figured out it only lasts a few months at most till the doubt and identity crisis hit again.

Maybe I’m just somewhere on the nonbinary/a gender spectrum? I can’t even tell anymore.

Xenogenders/neopronouns have been a thing I’ve been wanting to experiment with online to see if that would help with the “not feeling human” thing.

Life would me so much easier if I was a cat or a small floating orb of light lol

[smiley-positivity-potato]

i remember when i was 21. i had an ex best friend who just so happened to also be my first ex gf AND my first abusive, codependent, romantic relationship- AND my first best friendship. she had known me from the 8th grade all the way until early adulthood, and we had dated on and off. it was a vicious cycle. but she had knew me and she had saw how i struggled with my gender, my name change, and legal gender marker change over the years, so, of course, i trusted her, wholeheartedly - but mostly, i had loved our child. i still do. so i came back again and again.

but at the end of the day, she was still a cruel woman who expected men to be "manly" in her eyes. and it wasn't always proclaimed by her. or maybe it just wasn't as obvious to me, at the time, as it was and is now after my transition because, gawd, sometimes she was so kind.

so i thought nothing of it when she asked if i could help her take out the trash when we lived together. back then i was still heavily recovering from ED, experiencing epilepsy and was still learning about the limitations of my disabilities as the list increased. but i still wanted to try.

the bag was huge and when i tried to lift it, it wouldn't budge. so I told her i wouldn't be able to lift it out of our apartment and carry it all the way to the parking lot dumpster alone. and so she asked: "What kinda man are you if you can't even take out the trash?". and with that said, it had felt like she had just slapped me right across the face. i had just come out that year or so, and so her comment after a few seconds had caused me to immediately grow defensive and ANGRY. i was UPSET- FOR DISABLED MASCULINE PEOPLE, DISABLED TRANSMASC PEOPLE, AND DISABLED MEN IN GENERAL BECAUSE HOW DARE YOU!?!? How DARE you try to sum up masculinity to just physical labor and physical strength. how dare you.

i was so angry at the time, that i felt my fingers and face twitch. but now, after six years I finally have the guts to say the actual answer i always wanted to say:

I'm the kinda man that didn't take out OUR trash that day because at that very moment, if i could've, i would've made sure you'd been thrown in the dumpster too. because the only piece of trash i saw that day, at that very moment, was you running your mouth on a topic you had no right to speak on. There. There's your answer.

[andy-arfs]

the struggle of being genderqueer trans man and wanting to experiment with gender the way a cis boy would and still be percieved as a boy but if i do it ill just be seen as a girl 😭 struggles of a pre t genderqueer trans man

[littleemoboy06]

I started taking testosterone like a month ago and I don't know if I'm the only one but I've noticed that I'm a little more sensitive to touch (and tickling of course 😳) not only on my *you know what* but also overall

My friend said that now I jump even more every time she pokes my sides so she makes fun of me that I'm even more ticklish now 😭

[yuribomber]

i never wanted to be political but

• im transgender

• im disabled

• im human

• i have needs

• i have empathy

[brainz4sale]

trans masc dysphoria tip!! 🏳️‍⚧️

✨ ROSEMARY WATER / COCONUT OIL ✨

helps to grow and thicken bodyhair :3

you can buy it cheap or just make it yourself! It’s not a gendered product and easily accessible <3 for me personally it works wonders when I apply it all over me every few days :3 I also recommend eye brow brushes to temporarily dye facial hair! just make sure to find the right tone and not stain your face

[skelespidey]

"when will you stop talking about being trans and the internal as well as external struggle about being trans if it's such a bothersome thing?" because i will NEVER and i mean NEVER EVER settle down until people know that there are so many things that they do that absolutely radiate transphobia and just how much it hurts to feel transphobia and as well as thinking it in your head, constantly question if you're REALLY trans frequently. being trans is such a pain because it's so hard to fight any sort of dysphoria. it fuels your problems 10x more than your problems would be without being trans because on top of everything you have to sit and wish to be another gender and constantly feel like you have to prove that you are not the gender your were born as. it's constantly trying to prove to both yourself as well as others that you are the gender that you feel you are. it will literally fuck up your days and it ruins everything about yourself because you feel that it's not how you wish to be seen/perceived.

[peterokii]

my mom doesnt like my tattoo

[neoanedotheart]

MY FRIEND MADE SOMETHING I SAID INTO AN IMG BC I WAS HAVING GENDER PROBLAMS I LOVE HIM HE'S SO AWESOME CREDITS TO ASPEN HE IS THE BEST!!!

[heartstopperlarrie]

Question for any transmasc people/trans men:

What do you do to help you “pass” pre-T? Cause I’m getting sick and tired of people misgendering me