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Tired, 39 year old Shen Yuan is constantly nagged by his parents about giving them grandchildren. At a certain point, they were done with begging for him to marry a nice lady and just skipped to pleading for grandkids.
While the idea of having a child does make his heart yearn in a way that will definitely be dangerous if thought about for too long, he just doesn't have the time! No way! And what kind of father would he be, secretly reading cheesy, terrible webnovels in his free time? Which, mind you, is rare nowadays. He'd like to spend that valuable time getting rest via napping, thank you very much.
So what if Shen Yuan's heart swells when he sees his students run up to their parents with adorable, toothy grins? So what if he treats his class like they're his own children from time to time, spoiling them silly and proudly wearing the badge of "Best Teacher!" every year? So what if he wants a child to call his own!?
To love and care for a child, Shen Yuan has accepted that it would simply be a privilege he'll never experience.
...Think, think! Don't get so mopey now, Shen Yuan! Try to outweigh the baby fever with the pessimism you (slightly) obtained from your mean older brother!
How about this: There'll be no time for himself, none at all! Just more and more work. Come home from his job, dealing with a bunch of rowdy kids to find your own permanent little monster running around the house! At least he's getting paid for the first one!?
Shen Yuan had seen those videos and posts of kids accidentally exposing their parents embarrassing tendencies. Knowing him, his hypothetical child would have piles upon piles of blackmail on the Shen family's youngest son! Leave this old man alone, alright? Non-existent dumpling, theoretical baobei, please don't be so careless with your father's reputation...
(It would be careless too, to become a gaping hole in the heart of his child. Wouldn't it be selfish to have one, only to die a few years later?)
Over a decade ago, believe it or not, this esteemed Mr. Shen had gone by the shameless persona of "Peerless Cucumber" on the internet. He'd been an infamous anti-fan of the male power fantasy stallion web-novel series, Proud Immortal Demon Way and would leave scalding essay-length comments and posts ranting about its terrible plot point and flaming the author for his awful characterization and overall writing. That era of his life was when he actually had the time to stare into the digital sea of texts and write entire documentaries as replies for twelve hours straight. Fortunately or unfortunately, Shen Yuan doesn't have the same luxury as of now.
Despite the constant hate spewing from his younger self, present-day Shen Yuan is honestly very impressed by the constant thousand word updates every day. Honestly, looking back, how did that man accomplish that? Airplane Shooting Towards The Sky, dear author, are your hands okay? Youthful Shen Yuan's hands cramped all too much from simply typing up angry comments, now imagine PIDW's author??
Aaah, yes, the former hater Peerless Cucumber had long forgotten about PIDW. The author mysteriously disappeared one day, leaving Luo Binghe out on his own for more wives to dual cultivate with as Shen Yuan had realized his passion for literature (and critique!).
With a newfound, realized passion in his heart, Shen Yuan went off to actually pursue the college education his parents had very lovingly saved (and were ecstatic he was actually using) and became a literature teacher! NEET 21 year old Shen Yuan would be quite astonished to see this dignified Mr. Shen now, yes, very much so indeed.
Now, Shen Yuan.. doesn't quite remember PIDW all too well. He begrudgingly admits that it holds a dear and special place in his heart, but in all honesty, Shen Yuan can remember merely a handful of the wives and plot points. Ah, this is what happens when you actually get a life, interesting! Clap it up!
The most Shen Yuan remembers is the stallion novel character, Luo Binghe. His favorite, and - he really can’t stress this enough - an absolutely wasted potential of a character. Shen Yuan may be an older and wiser man who doesn't waste constant time on the internet like before, but that only means he actually has a degree to be critic. Serves all of those self-righteous, questioning commenters right from all those years ago! Look at him now!
Importantly however, Shen Yuan also remembers just how badly he wanted to coddle the protagonist, blackening or not, pre-abyss, post-abyss, even as a demonic tyrannic emperor! Can you believe that none of Luo Binghe's wives wanted to squeeze his cheeks and kiss his forehead!? Master Airplane, throw in some fluff, will you? Spare the poor boy from all of these succubi (metaphorically and literally) and let him take a nap! Ahhh, who really cares if Luo Binghe has a kingdom he needs to take over? Throw a blanket on him! Cranky, old Mr. Shen knows the feeling of being terribly overworked, so imagine how the protagonist feels!? Shen Yuan nods his head approvingly at the thought.
All of those mistresses flocking over to Luo Binghe... If Shen Yuan were his guardian, he would kick them all out without a second thought in place of good family bonding time.
Women, power, sex... really, what's needed is a loving father who'll coddle and take care of Binghe when no one else can!
So, Shen Yuan guesses he shouldn't be surprised when he wakes up in the body of Tianlang-jun.
#do y'all fw this or#i dont usually strive towards chronically ill sy but i thought itd be a good touch lol#also it works well with tianlang's rotting body. parallels go crazy amiright ahahah#will this be dadson action... who knows.....#(it will be sorry)#i cant believe this will pretty much be my first fic#im amping up the daddy thing sorry guys#b-blackened or crispy bingge... finding his loving dad and going from skeptical and outright bitter to a good boy!!#currently deciding how theyll actually meet and stay together though...#sqh is deathly terrified btw but he should be more scared of binghe#dont touch his silly goofy hot himbo diedie!!#sy!tlj au#svsss#mxtx svsss#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#tianlang jun#shen yuan#luo bingge#bingqiu
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when the tadc au is so good u wanna turn it into an oc story the only reason its an au is because it still takes the basic premise of "transported to a digital circus and tormented by the AI" but lorddd the au version of these characters.... especially ragatha and jax....
#i want to steal it#for myself#GIVE IT TO MEEEEEE#i dont even like canon jax and ragatha#but the way i made them in this au#they're so much worse like all their negative traits just amped up#especially ragatha#i love it#who would've thought making them worse made them more likable
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"it sounds loony" is such a funny comment from castiel. i hope he said it intentionally bc he was like "dean likes cartoons... haha looney tunes."
I too love Cas’s forays into human wordplay/culture. <3
It almost feels like he makes more of an effort when he’s entertaining the thought of of staying permanently. He watches TV, he plays along a little more, etc. In Hunter Heroici, Castle is completely goofing off, and it’s so fun!
Alas. In Cas’s mental framework, he decides that his dream of becoming a hunter was just a pipedream. That becoming one was just a balm he was using to fantasize about running away from his responsibilities in Heaven.
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By Ouroboros, another episode where Cas plays with human sayings, the shift is clear. He’s not just observing anymore—he’s grounding himself in humanity. Back in season 5, he called human emotion “dangerously crippling,” and as late as season 12, he said humans often make interactions “needlessly difficult.” But by Ouroboros, Cas is using more human metaphors, a sign that he’s becoming more comfortable integrating with them.
But with Jack on Earth, everything changes. Jack becomes a new mission for Cas—a holy excuse for Cas to stay. It gives Cas permission to settle on Earth in a way he never had before.
#cas and jack#permission to stay#cas feels guilty for his own hypocrisy bc he WANTS to stay on earth#but he’s not allowed to want#jack functions in a complicated way i think#cas comes to love jack#jack is also his excuse to stay#and the human metaphor amps up whenever cas feels that he’s more *allowed* to stay#or when he’s entertaining the thought of living on earth permanently#in hunter heroici it’s one of the first times we get to see this in him#<3#cas stuff
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I've been thinking recently, so here's a headcanon:
when Ciel is in a moment of distress, near panic attack perhaps, if someone were to reach out and touch him so that Ciel could feel their skin, his distress would be amplified. however, he does not react that way in response to a gloved hand reaching out for him. in fact, it is almost soothing. afterall, the hand that has comforted him for the past almost 4 years has been gloved. so if he was ever conditioned to fear all touch, that behavior eventually went extinct.
#discounting the which arc cause that was trauma amped up to 100 and it was more the size of the hand that mattered to ciel. he thought he#was 10 years old again so he basically forgot about how he had somewhat matured in the time since that month#man that was awful...#but anyway yea this isn't very happy either. and probably not true. but will that stop me from making a Dadbastian based headcanon?#what do you think#kuroshitsuji#black butler#headcanons#dadbastian#sebastian michaelis#ciel phantomhive#o!ciel#if I ever see anyone take this post in the wrong way istg have a bad night#ptsd cw
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tragic i finally got a proper solo pomni art idea. but itd genuinely be darker and way easier to misread as smth w upsetting connotations (though the actual concept would still be upsetting) more so than anything else ive posted so idk if id be willing to do that....
#im not opposed to making art that isnt cute and fun obviously#but the idea is like. a bit genuinely unpleasant and idk if i have that sorta confidence#im putting a pin in the thought. maybe ill try to do smth w it later but idt im gonna yet. if ever#(maybe my brain is amping up how actually distressing it would be but idk#maybe ill just find another way to depict it#i get invested in how pomnis fears and stress and whatnot present and this is related to that. im sure i could find another way#but then again sometimes art is meant to be unpleasant. and picking smth more palatable could take away from the point)#(im a horror fan and i like when art makes me upset bc thats often vital to evoking the correct type ofthoughts in the audience abt subject#but still. i get a little uneasy)#(edit ftr its not anything like.... weird bad or smth its more just kinda. visceral maybe?#though im testing it out and i mightve found a way to make it not so uncomfortable. but its not quite conveying the same thing anymore...)
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I’ve gotten slightly more used to the controls of MetalGear Rising (+ Raiden being a cyborg) and now I’m having the time of my life. Built in cyborg sword heels is unbelievably cool
#I haven’t played the fourth game so it seems a lot of shit happened to get to this point !#I’ve seen that this game tends to be very popular because of its different style to other MG games and its ridiculous cutscenes#and I can get why!#the most common complaint I’ve seen was that it messes up characters or past games#which. maybe helps that I haven’t played the fourth game then lol because I’ve been enjoying the characters and story too#very edgy and dramatic but it works#for Raiden it’s an extension of basically everything in the second game in regards to his emotional turmoil and identity#it IS baffling to know that he’s with Rose and his son still while also doing all this 😭#their relationship was wild in the 2nd game#the codec conversations are great too. i regret not listening to them more at the start !#wolf <3#I think im halfway ish or more through the game but its been good#i played Ground Zeroes last week so its nice having a game that has the hilarity and ridiculousness I loved from the first MGSgames#even if it amps it up even more#im not planning on actually playing V until I get through all the other games I can. just got MGSPWHD 🎉#<- I thought this game wasn’t in the digital store but it turned out it was under this frankly atrociously acronym#*atrocious
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Guys I missed the countdown by 7 minutes can we redo it?
#would anyone believe me if i said i was distracted by wrestling cable around a piece of wood#i got the best shower thought to pull my amp so it faces into my room instead of into the corner#just rotating it#and the fuckening cable was stuck under a wooden art project (like a canvas) and i had a sbahj moment trying to figure out...#...which side of the canvas the majority of the cable was on#i know where the cable is connected to the wall but i didnt know how far along i pushed it along the wall#ughhhhshdjdossb#rip my back but im determined to go into the new year playing guitar#so can we redo it now 14 minutes later? bc i cant explain the configuration of my room#ShitPost.exe#OBLIGATORY: 'DISCLAIMER: i'M HI (HIGH)' TAG#wait i need more minutes i think i gotta tune to C please hold idk what tune this band does#firmly grasp the moment. go back to 2359 and hold the moment for me ill hit unpuase when im good and ready#edit: unpause i was being dramatic its only drop D but i found the keyboard riff so ill learn that on guitar instead#WE'LL START FROM FIVE... 4... 3.. 2.. fuckyou#dundundununundundjndunnizndnndndjsn#listen up yall#edit 2: i wasn't being dramatic lmao the song i was planning on in the shower was actually C#but i changed my mind when i sat down bc i couldnt remember which song (ive had the playlist on repeat most of today#so fuck my life back to tuning ig#its okay tho i fiddled around on the midnight in my heart#wow can i say anything without innuendo#edit 3: oh thank god its drop c not c lmao still maybe i should prank future cori by leaving my guitar in drop c for the next time i play#gonna pull it out like 'holy shit whats wrong with this thang' (i would not lol i tune it every time)#but ill remember this moment and shake my fist at past cori bc theres nothing future cori can do to stop present cori#can u tell im procrastinating lol. my amp made a funny sound when i turned it on and its not nearly old enough to need warming up yet#fuck i mean i need time to warm up too but like . fuck lol.
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Cake Mania
#cake mania#flash#my first time management AND restaurant game#back then i didn't like it much. it was annoying how slow the oven was and i thought the cakes besides the brown round one looked dumb#the frosting machine was cool though#replaying it now i think there's also the issue that it's just boring#most restaurant games that actually feature the meal prep part will do something to keep you on your toes and amp up the difficulty#new snacks. new flavors. new meals that need several steps to cook. things that need restocking every now and then.#cake mania has nothing. it's just cakes and more cakes. if you don't buy any bonus machines you're stuck with the same four flavors.#there are bonus toppings but you gotta buy these on your own too#also it doesn't have a clock to show you how much time is left#the sequel fixed that but not the boredom#the art is very nice though i'll give it that
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my rheumatologist told me that her treatment plan will "cure" my AMPS, do you think that's true or BS lmfao (i definitely think the treatment could HELP but cure is a strong word,,?)
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#sorry i havent been active on this blog! college and health has been rough#thought id at least pass this along to someone more knowledgeable#i personally think the idea that AMPS can be cured is BS#you can definitely get better and/or find ways to cope with it that improve your quality of life#things get better#but theres no for sure cure#amps#amplified musculoskeletal pain syndrome#amplified pain culture is#amps culture is#crps#rsd#crps/rsd
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Another day i shall be spending the whole day Out and am thus unable to draw anything. if only you guys knew. I have so many thoughts. I can imagine anything 👉😎
#i thought of shepard masseffect in a mech labelled spectre and got dizzy. sorry good morning. afternoon. wherever. robot..#every day i forget what i was imagining the day before though. and i am also not good at finishing my work. burdened by lack of skill#yes i know theres the atlas mech in me3. i never shot the pilots out in time and it is not a sexy robot either. unfortunate! oh well.#imagine if you will. krogan crawler mechs built like tanks. or a sniper mech named archan- (i am pulled off stage.)#please dont show up in tags. i will now blab more before i put it in my own sorting tags.#thane's with a sort of camoflaughing cloak with heavy life support built in. biotic amps and massive energy fields.#salarian stgs/mordin with supporting group of smaller field recon suits for covert ops. covert as you can get with mechs LMAO#ok thats eight tags or so. thats enoufg right. ok. sorting time#mass effect#armour clanking
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#the show does such an interesting thing with untruths that it's obvious and how they are displayed and#what is not necessarily the truth isn't a lie and how these accounts are subjected through different perspectives and bias and blah blah#the ' objective ' truth by the interviewer who he himself is not an ' objective ' figure he is not the end all be all he is not#professional in his jounalism (the hostility towards louis amps up more and more) it is clear obvious he is not the objective of anything#however it is how the audience the white audience perceives this will depend on if they see the story as black or white or a range...(ei am#i the journalist or am i the outsider looking in seeing the story itself#i think its interesting what they do with all these characters i think its weird how ppl* interact with it but idk when the show tells you#something out right believe it#this is just mini thoughts bc aaaaa twitter needs to be deleted off my phone 😭😭#ohh i just didnt listen to myself like my badd#random thoughts
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Honestly Barbara is lucky with how corrupt Gotham is, in no other city could they pull permits to do the huge electrical upgrades necessary to support Oracle to a building like the Clock Tower
#these are the kind of thoughts that only i have lmao#batfam#wow a cross over event!!#dc#bread talk#barbara gordon#oracles plug loading must be Massive#every time i look at her set up im like yeah thats a whole panelboard Just for that one computer lmao#hot girls when they pull an entire 100 amps down for their night time activites#especially if the clock tower is in old gotham they might have had to replace the overhead for the entire block lmao#oh lord#what if gotham has underground ducting#fuckkkkk that#at barbara in the 90s comics girly thats not “some gift money” thats “massive infrastructure overhaul” money#bread critiques the gotham city electrical infrastructure more at 11#breadboarding
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I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away
#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd#ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding.#i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way#when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee#but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo#and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards#not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony#my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like#marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there#i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my#parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL)#but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school#nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is#same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL#i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not.#i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds#but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice#i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring#that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases#and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason#you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident#im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like#i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS#i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3#i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔
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Slamming my hands down on the table-
Ok so good news and bad news. Good news I have more writing. Bad news is its a crackship between Amp (Horrorfell!Cas) and Huntsman (lmk)... I call it ✨FeralFangs✨
Huntsman laid in wait deep in the dark forest, waiting for his prey to show itself and trigger one of his traps. Lo and behold the indicator strapped to his wrist vibrates and one of the dots on the map pulses that it’s been triggered.
With a silent grace and fervor only attainable through years of hunting in such terrain, he closes in on the clearing. He knows his charge could escape in a moments notice so time was of the essence and he had to forgo some of his stealth to make it in time.
As he approaches the trap he sees a figure caught by the leg in his snare, its signature jacket’s hood pulled up. With a feral grin he pounces- tackling them to the floor.
“Aha! Gotcha-!” He pulls their hood away to reveal a dummy and his eyes go wide. “What!? No!!”
He quickly stands and frantically surveys the area for any sign of where they’d gone while frustration boils inside him from getting played so easily
All of a sudden an instinct seizes his body, making him freeze as he feels a shudder down his spine. The shift in the air is tangible as predator becomes prey and he feels eyes bore into his neck.
In a rush of wind he’s pushed to the ground from behind and the breath is knocked out of him as he feels a weight settle on his back. A light puff of laughter rings in his head right beside his face as he flushes from both embarrassment and another emotion
“Hehehehehe, Gotcha~!” A soft raspy voice sing-songs in his ear. He feels speechless for a moment before regaining his composure and scoffing
“That was a cheap trick!” The giggles grow louder as the figure releases him and he turns around to scowl at the one who’d bested him
“It was an effective one.” Amp smugly replies, still sitting proudly on his legs.
The two stare at each other in silence, Huntsman’s embarrassed scowl deepening as Amp’s delighted grin grows. He just wanted to win their game one time!!! He was supposed to be the best hunter, it was in his name!
Suddenly he gets an idea, a smirk flashing across his face before he pounces- pushing Amp off of him and onto the grass behind her, but she wouldn’t go down without a fight and in a tangle of limbs the two wrestle in the grass. Shrieks and laughter followed the two as they struggled back and forth in the clearing, one pinning the other only to get thwarted and shoved away for the cycle to continue.
Finally the couple collapses onto the ground next to each other, staring up at the sky and breathing heavily. There was dirt on their clothes and leaves and twigs in their unkempt hair but the smiles on their faces made it all worth it.
Amp looks over at Huntsman’s face for a moment, admiring it. Then she flips over, crawling closer to rest her chin on his chest and look up at him.
“So…” She trails off, huntsman lifting his head closer. The air grows thick with a different kind of tension and she can feel his heart beating
faster under her head. The tension stalls as she suddenly breaks out into a sharp-toothed grin “you hide and I’ll seek?”
She laughed at Huntsman’s expression, getting up and running away as he chases after her
“So is that a no-?! Oop!” She calls over her shoulder- narrowly avoiding a shot of web.
Sure she could just kiss him, but a deal was a deal. They’d agreed that if he caught her, he’d get a kiss. And as she hears him grumbling and giving chase behind her she can’t help but laugh at the irony of his own bet keeping him from getting what he wants
After all, there were only two unwavering truths anyone who crosses her path knows to be true. That Amp always held to her bets, and that nobody has ever caught her
Luckily for him she’s already decided that she’ll cash in a few of the small favors she’s racked up playing these games with him on something the both of them can enjoy… or that she can tease him with. Maybe both, who knows!
#idk if Huntsman is ooc but by god do these two have me in a headlock#theyd be so cute in a silly fucked up way#i care them#theyre my little skrinklos#my writing#long post#i also have more self-ship headcannons with the many lmk characters i simp for#i was trying to think up the ship name with Huntsman and came up with feralfangs and IMMEDIATELY clocked it as fitting the two of them XD#thus my brain has latched onto the two of them being together#the vaugely unnerving sweetheart and her cringefail YA badboy boyfriend#OMG HOLD THE FUCK UP#THROW SANDY IN THERE?? Omfg guys hold on im havibg an epiphany#silktea + amp would be insane#oh god im gonna be having THOUGHTS#FeralFangs
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#tekisuto#having some 2am thoughts on dating and my lack thereof#friend earlier mentioned going on two first dates yday and it gave me a little fomo#[maybe partly bc i still kinda like him but i'm sure we're in the friend zone]#but havent been on a date in so long and it'd be nice to#especially with the nicer weather#but i feel like living/mostly working from home hasnt really helped#another reason it'd be nice to get a roomie or two and move out soon#and i guess also wanting to be approached more than it being on me to make a move with how i tend to overthink#and trying to find that nice social extrovert/'let me work on my translating/play games' balance#idk sleepy rambling#today was fun though the cooper hewitt museum had some interesting exhibits up#[nice of the tags to sort of force me to get some thoughts out instead of saving more drafts lol]#[*ofc the nicer weather amps up ...other feelings that it'd be nice to handle but see 'overthinking']
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