#The Suicide Hour

[lyrasky]

【ミスター・メルセデス シーズン1】第5話ネタバレあらすじ解説感想「天国か地獄か皆が動き出す」Mr. Mercedes (TV series)

【ミスター・メルセデスシーズン1】第5話ネタバレあらすじ解説感想「天国か地獄か皆が動き出す」Mr. Mercedes (TV series) #MrMercedes #ミスターメルセデス #StephenKing #スティーヴンキング #BrendanGleeson #HarryTreadaway #HollandTaylor #JustineLupe #JharrelJerome #BreedaWool #Scott Lawrence #KellyLynch #RobertStanton #MaryLouiseParker #

長い間放置していた【Mr.Mercedes】の記事を追記していると、あっと言う間に月日がたって世界情勢も考えもしなかっだことが起き、当時と全く違う環境にもいるのに、このストーリーは見るたびに新鮮で古臭くない作品だと気づいた。 小さい頃から変わらずに大好きなStephen King…

[lotus-pear]

learning to love

[four-pointed-leaf]

rough night, huh.

[couch-house]

hey man, I heard you're really going through it. I'm not sure if I can really help at all, but if you need someone to talk to, I'm here.

[poxei]

noose

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[deoidesign]

Thinking about vampires, death, life, and the space they occupy in between

[cameleonvermillon]

Dmmd love interests ranked based on whether or not Koujaku would kill himself if they and Aoba got together

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: sacrifice / self sacrifice / slight suicidal themes / death mention / ]

I personally think that Leo took the wrong lessons from the movie. I definitely think he grew to understand the importance of teamwork and making sure he takes others into account so as to not harm them by proxy of whatever scheme he has cooked up, however based on the ending events I’m not quite certain he fully grasped two things.

The first thing is communication. Oh, he can communicate, and he does, when he deems it necessary. When he’s setting up a plan prior to the action. But this is where the second thing comes in.

The second thing I don’t think Leo truly grasped is “it’s not about you.” It’s so unbearably easy to take that the wrong way, especially when taking the rest of the series into account.

What I believe Leo took from this message is not “it’s not just you, everyone matters and can contribute, can help and be helped” but “put the whole of everyone above yourself” which can both be a good lesson…and a fatal one.

And it is fatal, we see as much in the movie.

Even after the big hope speech, when Leo is “fighting” Krang!Raph, he takes a huge risk. Sure, it worked, and Leo managed to get through to Raph through a well deserved apology, but it could have so easily ended in his death and yet he barely even hesitates to go for it.

And then again, to the big scene at the end, where Leo sacrifices himself not only for the sake of his family, but for the whole world.

To him, that’s the message to take from this. That the lives of everyone, of the greater good, matters…more than him. That the risk to himself is worth it if others can be saved.

Leo learned that gambling with his life as the betting chip is always the best move to make in the end.

And to make matters worse…this thinking is what works.

These risks are ultimately what is needed to save the day, so why would Leo look away from it now? Clearly it’s the right move and everything worked out!

Thing is, Leo did grow from the events of the movie. He learned to take things more seriously and be more mature, he learned to value his team’s input and capabilities enough to rely on them more, and he learned to be less self-centered and realize the turmoil others were going through (especially if that turmoil is a result of his actions.)

But still, he’s grown to accept the gamble of his life as a viable answer to their problems.

Personally, with how Leo has been shown to toy around with the idea of “it’s better me than them” I think this goes beyond sacrifice in the name of love or even sacrifice in the name of responsibility, and pushes over into sacrifice in the name of worth.

[blacksatindahlia]

[trans-axolotl]

content note: discussion of suicide.

this next monday will be the six year anniversary of losing one of my friends to suicide.

when he died, my high school barely mentioned his death, even though for other students who died by things like car crashes or illness, there were so many public expressions of grief. they believed that having any memorials for a student who died by suicide would encourage other people to die the same way. in their rush to erase the circumstances of his death, they erased the memory of his life.

there are so many things i am angry at that high school about in terms of how they treated mental health (mandatory reporting and collaborating with cops, their refusal to recognize the ways in which that system led to peer-to-peer crisis support, their refusal to recognize the ways that trying to keep each other alive through trial and error was scary and exhausting, carceral disciplinary policies, etc etc etc). but i think one of the things i am still angriest about is the way they enforced shame around his death. it felt like they were retroactively blaming him for the constellation of circumstances that made suicide an option in his life. it felt like they were blaming those of us who missed him and cared about him and wanted to grieve him. it made those of us still there who were actively suicidal feel even more scared about the reaction if we did reach out for help from one of those mythical safe adults.

as an adult now involved in psych abolition/mad liberation work, it makes me so fucking mad to see the ways in which he was discarded by people in authority positions. and the older i get, the more options i have found in my life for making sense of the world and finding healing and community and support which were never available to him because he died when he was 16 and the only things offered to him were a carceral psychiatric system that blamed him for his own fucking death. it feels so incredibly unfair.

i miss him and i think i always will; i can't remember his laugh or the sound of his voice or his favorite color any more and that aches. this grief is so heavy and it feels harder in a new way each year, when i become older than he will ever be. sometimes meeting new comrades or seeing new anticarceral suicide support models hurts because i wish so fucking bad that we had that back then. i remember how close we came to losing even more people that year and i know it is simple fucking luck that i'm still here when he's not.

i remember another letter (never sent) that i wrote to a friend while they were in an ICU bed after a suicide attempt when i didn't know if they would live or not. i have spent so much time in the past 10 years begging for anything to keep me and my friends alive, but even in that letter i knew that there is so much fucking violence that is hidden beneath psychiatric logics of cure and safety that promise a "solution" to suicide. I knew that institutionalization, coercion, and shame would not have helped build a life more liveable for him or **** or any of the people i've loved and lost since.

there needs to be more fucking options for care and support that aren't so incredibly cruel to suicidal people. i know so many people doing incredible work in alternatives, peer respite, a million different frameworks for healing and liberation. but it makes me so mad every day i have to live in a world where there are still people restrained, locked up in psych wards, having all autonomy and personhood taken away from them. knowing there are dozens of people every day getting blamed for their deaths the same way he was blamed for his.

i miss him. i cared so fucking much for him. and he died by suicide, and all of those things are true. he has been dead for 6 years and he lived before that and the people who loved him want to remember all of him; our celebrations of his life should not require hiding the way that he died.

Image description: [1000 origami cranes in all different colors and patterns that are tied together in strings of 25]

(these were the 1000 cranes we made to give to his parents, in memorial and recognition of how much he meant to us.)

[transmasccofee]

the dangers of being God

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[shesnake]

Mary & George episode 1 "The Second Son" (2024) dir. Oliver Hermanus

[sad-leon]

hey look its another Death Wish animatic :D @remedyturtles

Song: Angel Eyes and Basetball by Foot Ox

HI REM IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM. SO NORMAL. ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY NORMAL

[upon-the-snow]

this scene made me feel shrimp emotions so here

[adhdandcomics]

every pharmacy is out of all adhd meds they won’t tell me where i can get some bc it’s a controlled substance so i just can’t get any my doctor wouldn’t answer my call my state ballot office told me the post office has my absentee ballot and they haven’t sent it back so i go to the post office and the post office told me they sent it back. 🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼 i think i’m done being alive but i almost have a reward on my local coffee punch card 🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼 so i guess we’ll keep on going 🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼 ✨

[punkitt-is-here]

krill yourself

NOW we're fucking TALKING its KRILL TIME BABY!!!

I LOVE YOU KRILL YOU ARE PERFECT!!!!!!!!!! KRILL NUMERO UNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO