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She is the vice president of Biden.
The memes are just how absurdist gen z and millennials are responding to the situation, her campaign is encouraging it to advertise to a younger voter base
She wants to tax the rich, secure reproductive rights, secure Lgbtq rights, expand medicare, and a bunch of other stuff. She has an unusually good track record on human rights FOR a politician.
She is a black woman who is a former prosecutor and served as like the district attorney or something similar in California(most populous state.). She is objectively very accomplished.
Kamala is snarky, charismatic, and very well spoken. She's famous for having lots of lines like "this is not a food fight" during a debate, like i said, snarky.
Biden, who has just stepped down, was very unpopular and was mostly elected so trump wouldn't be elected. He's kinda senile. A lot of people rag on his stutter but that isn't really fair, most of the jabs are
The Democratic party REALLY wasn't happy about him being their candidate. Like one of the worst ever approval ratings. Very importantly he's pro isreal. Kamala has a less explicit, more protect Palestine view, which is a major plus for younger voter groups.
A lot of people are now energized by the fact they feel like the left finally has a chance at making some real progress and pushing out a lot of the far right(and some basically Nazis. I wish that was an exaggeration)
So pro human rights "young" black female prosecutor vs bigoted white guy facist who tried to overthrow the government looks really good to the people who are exhausted after decades of fighting tooth and nail to make progress in this country, and looks like even more of a relief against the current far right resurgence and hate crime resurgence
Make sense?
(As far as I'm aware she hasn't mentioned sudan or the congo. So no idea there. Just know things like she was forced to change a speech that was critical of isreal and some other stuff)
yo can americans explain kamala harris to me?? like, why do people want her? is it because she’s a meme? what’s her stance on congo/sudan/palestine? is she gonna tax the rich? what’s going on?
#Not the best at explaining things but always happy to try and help#:)#Have a good day#Tell me if you have anymore questions
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AUGH I’d love to see more time looping odile if possible,,,,, how do you think she’d like; “devolve” over each of the acts as compared to Siffrin over time :O
ok im gonna be honest i did like portrait edits months ago and just never finished them. so here you go
act 3:
act 5:
#some of them are still missing... I'll edit this post if I finish them as well#isat#isat spoilers#odile loops au#day 108#isat odile#i'm too lazy to individually export them in transparent atm...#tell me if yall ever need it#edit: I FORGOT TO ANSWER THE QUESTION#I mean yeah technically the portraits work but I do have Thoughts about this#I just think that throughout the loops odile becomes more. annoyed. and irritated#Like by act 3 fighting isn't really amusing anymore#dying/getting frozen is. ah. welp#But by act 5 she's just speedrunning#Just super irritated. like die already i've got variables to test#act 3 frozen is a momentary rest; the break is nice and she knows she can get back next loop; it's fine. act 5 is ugh seriously#tired. annoyed. unamused. what a waste of time#anyways wait how long has it been since I posted#(sees date of last post) OH. um#sorry guys I've been busy job (internship) hunting#will I post more from now on? No promises <3#Thank you for sticking around nontheless... I appreciate all the stuff yall send in my inbox <3#isat au
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I started in DC by reading fanfics, but as I began to read actual comics, I started to be unable to read the actual fanfic that got me into it in the first place because it's so out of character.
But there are still some stories that I love to read because I love the found family trope so much, even if it isn't really accurate to the source material.
As a comics purist (sometimes), are there tropes that you like enough that you'll still enjoy a fic even if it's not accurate to canon?
oh my god this is SUCH a fun question. bc while i started with the comics, there were certain characters and/or character dynamics where i was exposed to the fanon before the canon (just bc it's hard to read everything when you start out just to read some fanfic) and so i've definitely experienced the fanon to canon transition. (*especially* with Jason Todd. i had only read 80s/90s stuff where he was already dead or the New-52 bc that was on-going when i got into comics and man. the fanon misunderstandings i had about him before i got frustrated and sat down to read all his pre-Flashpoint stuff were absolutely bonkers.) and aside from that, whilst i tend to prefer canon over fanon, i'm not past giving fanon its flowers for occasionally having really interesting insights. occasionally. so some of my fanon "guilty pleasure" tropes would probably be
Morally Grey Tim Drake - this is one where if you try to back it up with canon, i *will* get salty about it. of everyone in the Batfam aside from maybe Bruce and Cass, Tim has the *most* black and white morals. often his internal conflicts are routed in such an inability to compromise his moral views and it can cause him to clash with other characters. he's *very* stiff and rigid in his beliefs and is *rare* to compromise in even the smallest ways. i mean, DC has repeatedly used Tim Drake of Tomorrow/Savior/Gun Batman!Tim for a reason. it's to demonstrate that of everyone, Tim *cannot* have his morals compromised. there's no grey area for him. he's zero or a hundred, so if he tips over the edge of "too far" he tips *all the way*, and doing so is one of his worst fears, how he could go "too far" if he let himself. a couple panels out of context from Red Robin (2009) (which was a grief spiral for Tim to begin with) don't change that. now that said. if it's done *right*, i sort of love Tim being morally grey in fanfic. it takes a specific flavor for me, and it's incredibly important to include that mental spiral along with it, of him struggling to justify it. i don't have any interest in "Tim Drake is loosy goosy with Bruce's morals and has the highest kill count and no one knows teehee" bc it doesn't play with the interesting parts of making Tim morally grey, which are fracturing his psyche. but all in all, i think it's fun to put Tim in a morally grey area and i will read it in fanfic and i enjoy writing it a lot
Joker Junior!Tim Drake - i've not written it on this account (yet) but on my main ao3 account one of my biggest fics surrounds this concept. this is one of those "well *technically* it's canon but only in a specific very divorced from the comics universe and would not work at all in the main timeline" so, i categorize it as fanon in that 95% of fics exploring the concept are not doing so within the Batman Beyond universe, but the main timeline. i just love it. I'll take any excuse to whump Tim, but this concept is so fun. psychologically breaking Tim will always be my favorite pastime. there are so many ways to explore the long-term effects this could have on him, how it could affect the Batfam. i'm not a fan of it being used as a "gotcha" to Jason or Babs' trauma with the Joker to paint Tim as the Ultimate Victim, but it is fun to see how their relationships would be affected by being mutual victims of him. (i have a vague JayTim idea where TIm fully retires from being Robin after being Joker Junior and killing the Joker, making Steph Robin for most of his typical Robin era and Jason still tracks him down out of curiosity bc he wants to know what happened and all. very underbaked but i've got thoughts.)
Renegade/Apprentice of Slade!Dick Grayson - this is another one where yes, this happened *sort of* in canon, but i highly doubt most people writing Renegate!Dick have read or are actually pulling from Nightwing: Renegade. it's just an exploration fo the concept fo Dick being Slade's apprentice and i will always eat it up in any capacity. whether Dick grows up with Slade from a young age, or chooses Slade for whatever reason later in life. it's not anything that works in canon bc it compromises Dick morally (similar to the above with Tim) and therefore will always come across incredibly fanon in most fics. but i can't say i don't enjoy it. it's fun to make Dick a little morally fucked up and see what you can make him under Slade's tutelage.
Jason & Damian Meeting in the League -there's no world where i believe this could work in the canon comics. (maybe in the Young Justice cartoon i suppose, but even then i think it's iffy) i would go as far to say it's wildly unrealistic. i don't see a world where Ra's would let Jason anywhere *near* Damian, bc Jason was Talia's pet project that he didn't approve of. that all said, there's something very interesting about how they *could've* met and them potentially bonding during that timeframe. them being somewhat brotherly during this time because Jason sees Bruce in Damian and sort of latches onto the kid and Damian is full of wonder hearing real stories about Batman and Robin, then that getting violently ripped away by Jason leaving the League is fun to me. it's fun how that could affect them within the Batfam and all. it's super fanon to me, but i do not care. i will eat it up
Bad Dad Clark Kent/Good Dad Lex Luthor - i will admit as a late, i've been less and less kind to this particular fanon bc of everything i've argued with people about, *this* one seems the most pervasive as misunderstood fanon. i don't mind when fanon exists, my gripe is when ppl try to claim it's canon. and the *arguments* i've had over this with people who can never seem to cite an actual comic are... frustrating. but that said, i think there is something fun to this strictly in fanon. the duality of who you expect to accept Kon and who you expect to hurt him being flipped is just sort of fun for the occasional guilty pleasure fic. it can make Kon's internal conflict a bit more interesting. the same goes for the Jon favoritism from Clark, it's not a canon thing (and i rlly wish ppl understood how complicated the timeline of Kon and Jon is and any distance from Clark toward Kon isn't malice, it's that Kon is from a timeline that Clark does not remember in the current canon so Clark just straight up doesn't know the poor kid.) but it's sort of fun to give Kon that complex of being overlooked and forgotten sometimes. making Kon just a *bit* more Luthor than Kent will *always* appeal to me in fanfic, especially if he *knows* it's wrong but craves approval from anyone who will give it.
Good Dad Bruce Wayne - i'll die on the hill Bruce is canonically a shitty father. maybe not to the extreme some people write him as, but he's not great at it. that said, i enjoy it in fanfiction. sometimes, i just want silly fluff or hurt/comfort where Bruce finally gets it right and manages to comfort whatever Batkid is in the fic. one of my favorite fics of all time is hinged on Bruce being a good dad, so i think it's just fun to explore how good the relationships *could* be, if Bruce was slightly less of an asshole. i usually prefer him as an asshole, but there are times i want low stakes nonsense.
Gotham Rogues Having Soft Spots for Robin(s) - just about every Rogue in Gotham has done something absolutely irredeemable, and most of them don't like or care about anyone in the Batfamily. but if there's a fic where one of the Robins inexplicably is sort of close with a Rogue and they have a cute silly relationship out of it? I'll eat it up i fear. Steph and the Riddler are besties? I'll believe it. Tim and Scarecrow get along pretty well? give me ten of these. Rogues protecting Robins just hits a spot. the unexpected nature of the relationship, as well as the fact they see each other regularly, can make a lot of good fodder.
#necrotic answerings#canon vs fanon#batfanon#batfamily#I was *going* to include “Janet and Jack Drake are bad parents”#then realized I don't really like that fanon anymore.#but I used to go *hard* for it even knowing it wasn't canon. it was all projection but still#nowadays I think the tragedy of Tim losing his parents the way he did is *far* worse if they loved him and were good to him.#I'm so serious about the Kon thing i've had *nasty* arguments where ppl got so rude to me telling me to “Google it”#like listen I get it. kon's canon backstory is currently difficult to understand#the timeline of the superboy mantle is a little confusing and most people have not read young justice (2019)#so for fanon it's far easier to simplify it as “clark just kinda sucks to kon” and i enjoy that#but the canon is also fun. it's fun when you consider how fucked up it is most people don't remember kon#and the timeline he remembers doesn't exist anymore.#also technically since they never killed off new-52!superboy on page there could be two superboys/kon-els running around rn. who knows.#i like to believe there is bc it's funny.#i have wanted to write a new-52!konkon/tim/kon sandwich#with the “is it selfcest or not” question#bc new-52!kon wasn't a clone of clark and lex.#so like. he's arguably a different character just sharing the name kon-el for some reason#also on the nightwing: renegade thing i know *damn* well most fanon-only fans haven't read it (no shade in that)#bc the fanon crowd despises devin grayson and she wrote it.#one day i'll write a meta about fandom treatment of devin grayson trust me.#this question was SO fun#i feel like i should have more answers?#if you'd asked me like six months ago this list would be three times as long#but the more i exist in this fandom somehow the saltier i get idk what's happening#so now i'm more and more attached to canon#but i will never begrudge someone for liking fanon#like i said my issue with it is the confusion of what is canon
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help I'm going insane over deltarune and Undertale stuff again
#Guysss#Did you know the sprite for spamton neo has 6 stirngs#It's fucking with me so much guys#Element 6 and gaster and whatnot#Also have I. Have I mentioned the muffet thing#Muffet has these lines in. I think the neutral route?#Where she talks abt the person who warned her abt u#They had a lovely smile and were shapeshifting in the shadows apparently#Also the muffet laugh slowed down by 666% and reversed is the smile.ogg sound for entry 17#There's multiple ways to make that connection this is just the fastest#Also gaster presumably egg man bc if you get ch1 egg in ch2 the car closest to u in the traffic jam can be interacted with one time#There's a man in that car and he smiles at you#Very clearly egg man but also specifically referring to him smiling like#Bestie gaster spooky noise literally titled smile.ogg. and is also very clearly the thing that fucked spamton up#Like bc the addisons after the neo fight tell u abt his mysterious benefactor right#And the garbage noise on the phone#And garbage noise being the description of what happens on the phone in the dark world#And yknow thats also smile.ogg#... Also what the fuck is the thing about the ocean in deltarune like fr#The vessel creation screen is water. There's ocean.ogg in the beginning of the dark world in ch1. the fucking song from the sea with onion#Whatever the fuck was going on when sans was talking about shyren at that one post a few years back#I have so much brain space that I use to store infinite utdr info#Like fr I need ppl to ask me directed questions for me to infodump bc I don't even know where to start??#Like. Do I start with the fonts thing? I can't even find the fonts thing anymore but I know its a thing#Do I start at the significance of the number 6 to gaster stuff? Do I start with the way his leitmotif is concerningly in noelles theme??#Like really. I'm begging to be asked questions about my special interests
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god, in the next life, please let me be born in the late 80s in california so i can go to animation school like calarts and work on powerpuff girls or my little pony and be a hipster in 2010s thank you!!!!!!
#I JUST WANNA MAKE CARTOONS BUT EVERY ART SCHOOL IN POLAND IS LIKE#why would you want to make a film in this technique…. what are you trying to project in this film… how queer#I WANNA DRAW SILLY SHIT LEAVE ME ALONEEEE#IM SO TIRED OF EXPLAINING EVERY TINY STEP OF MY PROCESS#I KNOW THATS THE POINT BUT GODDDDD#LET ME JUST ANIMATE DUMB SHIT FOR PEOPLE TO ENJOY#I HATE HAVING TO FIND AND EXPLAIN MEANING BEHIND EVERYTHING#WHY CANT IT ALL JUST BE POINTLESS#im speedrunning this degree and getting the fuck out#im truly beginning to detest the art world in the strangest way possible#cause at the end of the day i crave its approval#but i can tell that once im done with school it wont matter to me anymore#fuck man#all i wanted was to get a degree to make cool stuff for kids#and now im here#questioning if i was ever good enough for that in the first place#personal#sorry yall
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I find it funny how Twitter is always arguing what is better to call fang
Like many grew up with "Nack the weasel"
And others "fang the sniper"
A new generation going to get used to "Fang the hunter" plus "jet the Jerboa" being a new one mentioned but still an old name.
Yet no one's asking the proper question
WHAT IS HIS REAL NAME!?
If all these are fake names! Then what the hell is his real name! Or at least a name that makes him freeze up like "how do you know that!?" No one seems to ask that! No! Everyone's arguing that if you call him a certain old fake name of his than the other you're wrong! Like guYs, WHAT THE HELL IS HIS ACTUAL NAME THEN LMAO.
Nack the weasel is the closest one because well, he debuted with it and in my headcanon that's his actual name while fang is just a fake one.
But if NACK is just another fake name then WHAT IS HIS NAME I NEED TO KNOW-
#THIS IS A GENERAL QUESTION#IF ITS NACK COOL#IMMA STILL CALL HIM FANG BECAUSE IM USED TO THAT ONE#IF YOU CALL HIM NACK THATS FINE#you can still call him his other names#its just the fact that he doesn't use them anymore and has a new one!#but they're all canon so ya dint have to fight over it#they are all fake names#BUT HIS REAL NAME COULD BE A MYSTERY#or im just overthinking it and its just nack#BUT STILL!#TELL ME WHATS HIS REAL NAME#fang the sniper#nack the weasel#fang the hunter#luna's shenanigans#Jet the jerboa#we adding jet now by the way#fang gets all the tags
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monthly calypsoworld tag ramble :]
#it’s actually incredibly tragic . but that does not mean the prototypes cannot be fun#like ohhh every second i think about them i know they are destined for frankly horrible deaths . just due to the nature of their existence#i’ve been approaching pvp2003 by mostly just . fleshing out the things that i need to as they come up . Mostly#the the anesidora prototypes have been horribly neglected . on the account of not really being important to calypso’s development LOL#but that does need to change . and maybe that Will change if i play around with them some more#always feel like such a freak when i kill my own characters sorry like yea … i made a guy … AND THEYRE DEAD BTW. but what can i sayyyyy .#calypso’s Whole Thing is abt death and rebirth . somewhat literally and somewhat figuratively#ten dies and becomes anesidora (real actual literal death. less literal transformation)#anesidora dies and becomes calypso (purely metaphorical)#calypso dies and … stays the same? she should be someone else but she doesn’t really have it in her anymore to become someone new#<- (not literal? but not Entirely hypothetical. she got blown up and was dead but she got better)#the anesidora prototypes that came before her Also struggled heavily with identity . Most of their downfalls boil down to a very violent ego#death . ego death#anesidora 1-8 dealt with identity as clones . identity as robots . dysmorphia as robots . also just generally poorly thought out designs#how fucked would it be to wake up in your cool new robot body built for fighting and it just Doesn’t work off the bat . <- A-2#they figured That out by A-3 but A-10 (calypso) was the only prototype to make it into field testing#i love A-9 . 9 is really exciting to me bc she is a question i’ll never answer . what happened to her ? wouldn’t you like to know.#all i’ll tell you is that she never made it into a robot . maybe she’s still out there . (going ooooo ooooo and waggling my fingers)
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what guides you? your heart or your head?
(are they really so different?)
what leads you? feelings or analytical thought?
(can we even distinguish between the two? can we ever separate one from the other?)
what drives you? longing or tangible goals?
(can you even tell the difference? can you have one without the other?)
the head or the heart? logic or love? empathy or rationalization?
(I don't know I don't know I don't know)
#words#I took that romeo and juliet uquiz#the question what guides you head or hesrt fucked me up#bc I don't know#I can't tell the difference#I have never been able to tell the difference#they are so completely intertwined one could not exist without the other#I feel bc I am#I am bc I think#anyway#is this poetry? idk anymore
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I have had about 3-4 people make jokes about me being "the real-life John Constantine" in my life, including my dead best friend, which I always brushed off as absurd, but it never felt so real as tonight, when someone I haven't spoken to in 6 years showed up at my doorstep suddenly, asking me if they could look through my "stupidly large library of fucking magic books" because "they needed one for something & I was the first person they thought of that would have what they need" and I was just like "how is this the thing people know me for. I moved out of state, dropped off the face of the earth, and ghosted everyone I know, and still people FIND me & SHOW UP at my HOUSE specifically to ask me about the OCCULT without warning. It's like my life is an issue of Hellblazer."
#txt#“my life CANNOT be real” I always think to myself#and yet somehow. it is#anyway yes I told them to go downstairs take what they need & just mail it back to me when they're done#I keep my collection of occult texts on two massive bookshelves that I keep in the basement bc old habits die hard I guess#I didn't ask questions because I never want to know 👍#it was maybe 15 minutes between when they showed up & when they left with few words exchanged between#they did ask me why I “don't practice anymore” & I did ignore them if that tells you anything#but admittedly I have been flipping through some of my books ever since they left. for old times sake.#delete later
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i love the combative way yaz asks questions after s12. i dont think she does it so much in s12 but from halloween apocalypse on (im thinking of "so you know them, these sea devils?" or "yeah, what does quantum extraction mean?" rn but im sure there are more) her questions always feel half challenge half like shes already gearing up for a fight
#combined with graham's 'shes still not explaining anything then?' in potd or like half of halloween apocalypse itself#('questions? no? see you later' & 'i feel like some of this might be my fault' & 'yeah we got away!' &#'i dont always tell you anything' & 'since ryan and graham left' etc etc)#you get a really clear picture of their duo trips#big finishhhhhhhhhhh let me write their duo adventureeessssssssssss#and ive said this before but i'll say it again bc ive been writing them so im thinking abt them but ithink 14 would be super sensitive to i#like takes a lot of care to not brush yaz off even in distraction or smth else fairly innocent#bc i think 13 in the end was purposefully avoiding answering questions#like if she answers this innocuous question then maybe yaz will ask another and another and then shes gonna feel empowered to#ask the Difficult Ones#so i think she just tried to avoid questions in general#and so 14 trying to make up for it (and for how unable yaz is left to tolerate any of the doctors unanswered questions anymore too)#just answers Everything. Promptly#yaz would of course figure out that she can use this for evil bc she can interrupt any conversation the doctor is having with anyone by jus#going 'what are we having for dinner' or smth#and she 100% Would use it for evil if the doctor is having conversations she doesnt like
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my existence makes me feel awful for my family
#they really wanted someone so much better. im 21 ive done nothing with my life and i cant tell anyone im disabled#mum hid it from everyone but her entirely and now i cant say a thing or ill get her in drama and ill have to keep lying anyway#i had to lie about all the abuse and they saw through it but i still have to lie anyway for all of us i cant say i dont have a job#bc i have no id no nothing to my name no bank account no literally anything and that i have to take care of mum bc they would all just get#mean and give me a million questions and yell at me and dad already stopped talking to me for weeks bc he wouldn't listen when i was trying#to say the id stuff is convoluted ''why cant i just get it with you'' LEGALLY I DONT EVEN HAVE A DAD BC YOU REFUSED TO BE A PART OF IT AT#AT FUCKING ALL AND MUM HAD TO DO EVERYTHING ALONE AND DIDNT WANNA HIT YOU WITH SINGLE MOTHER TAX#I DOCUMENT WISE JUST STOPPED EXISTING I HAVE NO SCHOOL CARDS EVEN LIKE NOTHING AT ALL SHE LOST MY BIRTH CERT BOTH OF OURS AND I JUST?????#im sick of getting into fights about everything. my granddad is dying and i barely see him because dad doesnt like me anymore and its scary#trying to talk to him at all bc he'll yell if i stutter he'll yell if i tell him ive gone out snywhere at all he thinks everyone in the#world is just drooling to assault me but he's violent and scary so i cant tell him that anything has ever happened to me bc the one time i#even just vaguely told him someone wasnt nice to me he threatened to tie them to the back of his car and he's attacked my stepdad with a#screwdriver and thankfully he wasnt hurt badly hut like. im so scared of my dad. and it breaks my heart bc he used to be so gentle to me.#hes always had a bad temper i have haunting memories of him chasing me and mum in his car but he never once hit me. but the more i remember#the more i realise that he fucked me up honestly just as bad as mum did. im constantly scared of getting yelled at i cant be loving with#anyone not sincerely bc im terrified theyll leave me theyll hurt me and im always proven right and i miss my best friend and i miss my dad#i wish i could tell him about anything in my life i wish i could tell anyone anything all the secrets all the expectations n the way i know#everyone views me is killing me inside my family thinks im fat lazy selfish worthless dull stupid they think i dont even like seeing them#but they actively push me out every single occasion i see them i barely even have any photos with anyone i never get happy birthday messages#or calls or anything they all just forget i exist until they have to remember and i cant trll them any of my life bc ill get yelled at by#dad or called a liar or ill have one of my deepest secrets spilled to the entire family while im sleeping again.#whatever sorry
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#like i’m just not going to ask questions anymore#shoot first ask questions never#why did i even tolerate that for so long like that’s such weird behavior#following some of my blogs while having others blocked like#like no???#from now on i will simply block ppl back if i notice them blocking me on any blog idc lmao#take it up with the cops#keep ur weirdo behavior away from me#it’s so weird.#begging ppl to be normal lmao#if you don’t know how to act on the internet stay far far away from me because i am not the one#telling me you want to plot with one of my blogs you have blocked while not unblocking it is bizarre.#and even if it’s a misunderstanding i do not care because it’s been weeks. ample time imo#like genuinely idc for it and i don’t want to hear it 🙂#if you trigger my rsd or bpd or anything im going to block from now on idc how small it is#i am NOT going to crash out here where im trying to have a good time#if this is mean of me i do not care. i’m so tired of protecting other ppl’s feelings before my own#ooc.#tbd.
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I have a longing to be understood more than anything else i think
#someone very recently acknowledged something that usually goes unseen and it wasn't even that great of an acknowledgement but ive just been#staring at the messages every once in a while. its great. not really i sort of feel like a real weirdo#im very lonely. i cant say why but let it be known that i am very lonely#ok i have a question to those who lie their eyes upon this post: tell me what you know about me please?#so much lies in my social perception and i am just. not being perceived. at all. darn#i have a lot to cry about but morally i dont think i should-- specifics would mean being mean to the people i love#talking to anyone anymore just makes me feel horrible. doing anything anymore makes me feel horrible..tmbg has my back though ill live for#another.week or a few. and then my birthday will happen and rhen um#.Well. it sucks that sucks man. i dont want to disclose my age but to elaborate on why ACTUALLY HOLD ON#the thing i am about to say is not true; it is a metaphorical thing: it is my 21st birthday soon.#i decided that i wouldnt live past this age around 5 years ago and the only reason ive lived five years is being killed this year. i dont#think every thing ive been desperately clinging on to for the past 2 (?) years can keep me alive past then..i think im going to die. i have#to#NO MORE BEING A DOWNER#fox (vulpes vulpes) on the Internet for the first time#okay maybe a little more..i dont know who im talking to in this post. my friends do not read my tumblr and. i dont know anyone else.really.#uh#I'm listen to tmbg right now i love them#hey reader; i can only think of 3 people who see enough about me to check my blog. so i have separate questions for the each of you.#one of you likes (liked? school came in and i couldnt see your blog much past then; idk if its changed) tmbg. what do you think of The Else?#and uh you there... the guyyy. Google john flansburgh..i dont have a reason to this one ive just not been able to stop thinking about askin#you what you think of him.#um third person..... um#okay theres nothing iecan ask. i do want to apologize to you though: im sorry.#iThis is bullshit#im gonna delete this soon#Um also sorry if my wording here is. really wack. i tend to do that#i dont think anyones going to see this as is always#i think i just like talking to the hypothetical beast. yeah
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#ok so i'm existing in a reverie right now because i drafted up a resignation letter earlier and i've been panicking about whether#or not it's the right decision to make#bc i don't want to quit and have to leave behind all my tiny students who i'm so so so close with#but the idea of trying to reconcile my love for them at the expense of my career/mental health is absolutely out of the question these days#i've had a pretty crappy year with a few select children re; physical aggression (i cant even begin to tell you how bad this has been)#and an overall lack of support from management#and that all being something that could repeat in 2025 makes me feel sick#management are just out of control its actually disgraceful and i dont wanna participate in the politics of it anymore!!!!#i just wanna teach children and open their eyes to the world and live my lil life peacefully
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I cared. I still do. I still think of you and I still cry over you. You were importat to me. You still are.
#I was interested. I wanted to get to know you.#I did not want validation. I only said it because you said it... I don't know why. I was susceptible.#I was blindly accepting certain things that you said about me. Judgement that you had for me.#I was under severe stress from my job at the time; while at the same time dealing with unresolved emotional trauma and very low self worth.#vent#I was burnt out. Crushed... Completely.#I didn't want attention. I did not want you to cure my depression. I though I was just letting you know me. I wasn't aware I was oversharin#I tried... SO HARD to get over the things that triggered me and hurt me but I just couldn't...#I wanted to. I did everything in my might; I took it to therapy; I looked everywhere within me; to either get over it#or completely forget about you and stop caring at all; so things were ok and normal again; but it didn't go away...#I just feel so... unsafe... at the idea of talking again#I know I wasn't the best listener and I profoundly regret that.#I was not only thinking about myself like you said and I was aware of the effort that other's put; but I was afraid/resistant to PRECISELY#that cause of past events with other people. Because in some I was the one putting that effort and ended badly for me. Looking back#that was inappropiate of you because you felt too comfortable generalizing my past relationships and why in your head they failed.#“I cant help but feel you are looking down on people who” Stay away from me if you ever make a stretch like this again.#By “experiment” I meant that you don't know how a relatioship with somebody is gonna turn out until you go and try. That's all I meant.#I didn't want things to turn out this way. I'm sorry they did.#The effort I put for you may have been shit to you. But to me it was a lot. And I'm done taking judgement.#Altho I love my friends I still keep distance. I still can't completely help that. I can go months not talking to my BF.#You were my BF during my teenage years. I remembered you fondly. I still do.#I don't feel ready to talk again having to keep to myself interest that I might have. Related to trauma. I do not feel comfortable with tha#No I do not look at your blogs.#The day I said I was abused I had a panic attack right after that. That's mainly why I had to cut contact: I didn't want another one.#I didn't tell you because I didn't trust you to not say “talk to the void” again. I didn't trust you to want to hear about it. I didnt feel#safe with you anymore. Event tho we ressumed contact I felt that way the entire time.#I wanted to answer all the questions you had; I really did; until I couldn't stand it anymore.#And the day I removed you from discord... I know you probably had an awful day that day... I'm so; so sorry...#I'd like to one day be completely unbothered by assumptions and stuff cuz I know it's not your fault... You went through stuff too...#stuff
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Why do people on reddit have to fuck around with you and make you feel like an idiot for asking a question instead of just answering the question?
#asked if I could make peanut butter set hard like chocolate#dude jokingly told me to freeze it#my dumb stupid ass responded in earnest and told him it melts at room temp#he tells me of fucking course it does#shit that was frozen melts when not frozen anymore. i know this and should know this and walked right into it#oh it's impossible btw. peanut butter can't do that#and I'm apparently a fucking jackass for not already knowing it#you can buy peanut butter flavored white chocolate but peanut butter physically is not able to set. you cannot make it do that#like my dumb ass should have known rather than askinf such a shitty question you can only get that texture by freezing it and eating it cold#I just wish the dude had just. told me it wasn't possible instead of assuming I was being maliciously ignorant by not knowing#and talking down to me#fuck reddit
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