#THINKING SO MUCH ABOUT THEM

[messrsrarchives]

what i really love about wolfstar, is that they can be messy together. they don't have to hide with each other.

it's that remus puts on this front all the time to avoid becoming what everyone says he is. he's always conscious of keeping his voice low, keeping his actions subtle, and fading into the background. he's conscious of making sure that the one day a month where he's taken over by the other part of himself doesn't bleed into the rest. he's so cautious. too cautious, even, that people rarely see all his layers. because there's anger too. there's anger at the fact he lives like this, anger at the fact every day is affected by it, anger at the world for turning him and then turning him away. there's so much anger that he can't show, because he doesn't want people to think the books are right.

then there's sirius who walks around like he's never learnt the meaning of the word cautious. spouting off about how much he hates his family, betraying them at every available opportunity, keeping himself loud and eccentric after years of being told he was to be seen not heard. he's outgoing, energetic, he's always putting on a show. he's saying "look at me, look at my family, see how i'm not them". he's smart, he's loud, he's doing so much all at once so that he never stills long enough to actually think about anything that's happened to him. and yes, maybe james gets some parts. maybe james is the one that takes him in, maybe james is his other half.

but he's not remus.

it's together that they're able to actually unpick their layers, that they can show each other the mess underneath and know that they won't be judged. sirius doesn't mind showing remus the more broken parts of himself because sirius watches all of remus' bones break every month. remus is okay being angry with sirius - not at, but with - because he knows that if there's anything sirius understand, it's anger at the cards that you've been handed. anger at the world for not understanding you, at your family, at your blood.

and i love that about them. but i hate it too, because that's the very thing that ends them.

it's the fact that remus showed sirius all his parts that sirius starts suspecting him. it's the fact that remus trusted sirius with so much that when he stops doing so, it's obvious. he must be hiding something right?

and it's remus, remembering fifth year when sirius showed him the worst part of himself. it's the fact that remus was the only one sirius didn't beg to see that he's not like his family, thinking that remus understood that what's in your blood doesn't define you, and remus ends up being the one that sees it most, that he stops telling him things.

so really, they show each other the parts of themselves that no one else gets to see, and they're never quite able to hand those pieces back and slot them into place again. and it's so fucking tragic that they found a person that knew them inside and out, and ended up wishing that they didn't. maybe if they didn't know each other so well, remus would have begged harder for a trial. he wouldn't have believed it for a second. he wouldn't know that there's Black blood in sirius' veins, wouldn't have thought him capable of it. and maybe, if sirius knew remus less, he'd take his silence as what it always was. caution, so that people around him aren't hurt.

but,,, well.

[flameishstudios]

Rondael didn’t immediately go to fight Ajax when they pulled him away from his team, he didn’t even threaten them, or taunt them, he just asked them what was up, why they wanted to talk to him

He didn’t get hostile or rude until they threatened him, he said it himself he wasn’t going for people this time and he wasn’t very interested in fighting(specifically he wasn’t very interested in fighting them, he cares about them, he doesn’t want to have to fight him)but that’s not what Ajax wants

Ajax is mad

They want him dead

They wanted him dead because he let them get attached and then he left

They wanted him dead because he left them and he doesn’t care

They want him dead even more now, because now he almost killed them, they almost died to him, he’s not on their team, and he left them, and he’s stronger than them right now, and he almost killed them, and he doesn’t care

And if he doesn’t care than neither will Ajax,

But he does care, he might not show it because he knows that’s a weakness, but he does care, he doesn’t immediately fight him because he still cares, he doesn’t immediately insult them because he still cares, he doesn’t fully chase after him because he still cares

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The math just adds up!

[hansoeii]

promise.

[illusioncanthurtme--art]

Physically? I am sitting in my bedroom. Mentally? Spiritually? I AM DEAD ON THE FLOOR!!!!! THESE TWO HAVE KILLED ME!!!!

(Another drawing! This was originally attempt #1 at drawing stan, and then fiddleford just showed up. Kinda feels like them five minutes after the above acting like nothing happened though, so it works sdjkgkjfshj)

[maeamian]

If you saw me agreeing with being annoyed about wasted helium in a fictional context and were like "I bet she has some more helium based anger in her life" good news LAPD fucked up a raid on a medical facility they thought was a pot farm and flat out ruined thousands of gallons of the stuff.

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[astearisms]

catalysts, protectors

[avi-mation]

Try not to think about Roomies’ unique quirks in showing affection.

How Etho is bit awkward in showing it but craves physical touch, discovers that forehead touches work for him. And both Cleo and Grian recognise it and put an effort to reciprocate it.

How Grian wants to do things to show his appreciation for his team, it coming out with him bringing trinkets or spending quality time with his loved ones. How both Cleo and Etho accept his need to feel wanted and make sure to always have some physical reminder from their beloved avian.

How Cleo likes to see her boys happy. How sometimes to make it happen, they would manhandle them in the most playful way, with some extra forehead kisses to sweeten the deal.

Now try not to think about it

[palarien]

sketched this out at jury duty actually

[soldrawss]

Something something 16yo 2k12 Mikey gets sucked into a portal and sent into the RISE universe and ends up helping raise the RISE kiddos AU

[carebeardean]

do you ever think about how this was the first time Edwin laughed in 70 years. or are you normal

[walkerrenee]

sometimes i randomly remember how insane maggie stiefvater was for making ronan lynch—a man that can create reality—a man of god, when he himself is a god of a man. then to take this man and have him be not only in love with, but a literal soulmate of a man named adam. parrish. adam parrish. who, mind you, lives above ronan's very own place of worship. and is the namesake of the first of mankind that the bible says god made from the literal dust of the ground (adam parrish: comes from nothing, hair "dusty" in color) and appoints him to care for the garden of eden (adam parrish: sacrifices himself to ronan's sentient forest). then has adam viewing ronan as a god and ronan saying "maybe he dreamt (created)" adam???? like who just fucking writes that and goes about their life?

[hansoeii]

the best person I know.

[1alchemistart]

dont got much to offer for The Holiday but have these sillies!

happy valentines day :D

[somewhereincairparavel]

"jason is a knockoff watered down percy" NO hear me out, jason actually parallels annabeth immensely, sharing SO many similarities with her personality, not percy, in this essay I will-

edit: my full analysis is out now! here