#THE SAFE IS OPEN AND I DONT HAVE THEM
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i cant even play old flash games in peace
the curse
it glitched so now i cant do the last thing i need to finish it
#i JUST NEED THE CHOC CHIPS DONUTS#IN THE SAFE#BUT NO#THE SAFE IS OPEN AND I DONT HAVE THEM#THEYRE THE LAST THING I NEED#leaf's posts#cw caps#playing that garfield game#scary scavenger hunt#i think#i remember playing it a lot when i was like 7#might have been older idk#cant remember too well#i just found the same site again after forgetting it so im playing#but noo#no finishing it#the curse#(im not actually mad just mildly annoyed lmao)
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the internet was cut off and i ran out of data so i asked my brother if i can connect to his hotspot and downloaded dol on my phone,,,,,,,,,
#were in the process of moving !!!!!!!!!! new apartment has wifi !!!!!!!!! but more importantly were not homeless !!!!!!!!!!!!!😭😭#my time completely cut off from everyone was very much like the pic LMAOAOA#dol was the only offline game i could think of that wasnt some dumbass puzzle game or something#i even play this shit in public cause i literally have nothing to do without internet except maybe look at my gallery for the 400th time#i turn off the combat animations tho so its just all text when im outside 😭like im brave but not THAT brave#but anyway its safe to say that im getting back into it again 🧍♀️#last time i played dol was before the pregnancy update and like knowing u can get pregnant now is scary#like what if im not prepared to take care of a fictional child#will i be a good mother?????????? i dont want to traumatize the kid and subject them to the horrors of the town like????????#im still like kind of early in + i still have yet to explore the other stuff i never did during my last playthrough so im pretty excited#also somehow course of temptation was still running in the browser i have opened on my chrome so yk..............#played a bit of that as well.........................#its so funny how every npc has names its insane and i love the phone thingy too#ok thats all i think#frambling...?
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I watched this and now I feel like crying because my parents never really made it possible for me to be close with them. It's not too late for me because there never really was a chance to begin with. whatever tho I don't care 👎🏾
#my mother is 60 and I rather die than try to be close to her and my father is dead so 🤷🏾♂️#I am so jealous of people who have families that actually loves them. and makes them want to be around their family.#i have a huge family and i only really feel safe/cared for by two people. my little sister and my grandmother. but i cant be open with them#like. I cant be myself around my grandma. i love her because she raised me and took care of me and did everything my#mother was supposed to do. and she cares for me but she's old and sensitive. being around her is draining but i still love her#my sister is kind but i always make her worry and bum her out by being open so its. better for her when i dont talk that much.#this video is fucked up. I wish I had a family that i loved so much that i decide to learn their language to talk to them#fuck i wish i had a family that wanted to listen to me lol#whatever i literally dont care anymore#the dib speakz!!#ignore this lol#agony
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#ive been a lot more exhausted recently#my mental health is getting worse#i can barely keep my eyes open#let alone get out of the bed#i haven't been eating#but im trying to#im pretty sure im depressed. but i have no one to talk about it#just me and my thoughts#there's something wrong with me#theres so many thing i want to say#but i dont know how to say it#drawing isnt as fun or comforting as it was#augh ignore this im just going through a depressive episode#I'll be okay#i have a lot of people cheering me on to keep living#to stay alive#to stay safe#and im not going to let them down#I'll be fine#I'll force myself to eat. sleep. etc#i need to be okay#im going to be okay.#i just need a break#personal
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for the love of god someone convince me from texting my ex, i daydreamed too closr to the sun and now i want attention😭
#its not a door i should open#but idk if im crazy and i need to drop my suspicions and try again or if im really going to be right some day#and we get involved again then that person comes along and its a messy awful breakup and i just cant do that to them#but fuck i wish i could be with them#i would love them but the problem is (aside from their drinking) it would be so easy to fall in love with them#but they want long term and aside from me knowing im leaving the province soon i dont think wish how i am now id be okay with pretending#its not fair#i want to see them again#im jealous of attention they probably get and that theyve probably given#and i really hate how i was made and that i cant just go with the flow#but again drinking and dark eyes aside theyre practically perfect#i miss them so much sometimes that im actually posting more on instagram in the hopes theyll notice me again#i wonder if they think about me or if theyre too busy getting laid#cause theyre in a band so duh obviously theyre getting laid#I FUCKING HATE MY INABILITY TO BE ATTRACTED TO PEOPLE#ITS NOT FAIR#I HATE MY SUPERSTITIONS SO DAMN MUCH I WANT TO LET THEM GO AND BE HAPPY BUT I CANT#I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THE PERSON I WANT TO BE WITH WITH PRETTY BLUE EYES AND BIG HANDS#fuck nate was so close to perfect and i love that theyre so interesting and fuck i think id just give in if they had blue eyes#i could ignore the other problems and feel better about trying to be with them#mostly i just want them to kiss me and hug me again#they were so gentle about it and it felt so safe and i wanna cry cause i know its not fair to contact them#but fuck i wish i could#i dont want to be alone anymore and they made me laugh#i dont know what to do but i wish it was easier to at least meet people if not date them#i just want to feel something for someone new so i can feel like im over them#but sadly they work at ikea and its not even the closest one to me but i have to go there for a new mattress topper and jars#and i keep imagining running into them AND ITS FUCKING ME UP i want to talk to them but i cant do that
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just learned that the entire Creatures series is on steam and it feels like there's an alien about to explode out of my chest
if you don't know what these are, they were one of the first life simulators ever. You hatch and raise these various little ai beasts called Norns in their funky spaceship and teach them everything they know and keep them safe, and they have emotions and personalities and families and can breed and have mutations and get sick, and there's medicine and chemicals and so much more brainy nonsense if you care to get into it, and it all goes SO IN-DEPTH... IT'S INSANE THAT THIS SERIES WAS FIRST RELEASED IN 1998!!!
and as far as i know there's still a semi-active modding community! LIKE THEY JUST RELEASED A NEW DLC SPECIFICALLY FOR MODDERS LESS THAN A DAY AGO ARE YOU KIDDING. HUH?? i didn't even know that until 2 minutes ago sorry that is my live reaction. what. 20+ year old game just got a new dlc 12 hours ago coincidentally just when i rediscover the series. okay. im being so normal right now👍
#medi bee talking#coming back from the dead specifically to be abnormal about a 20 year old game series#my fucking childhood game(s)#the first games i ever played in my pathetic life right next to putt-putt#spore came later but it still deserves an award for childhood game i think. but this isnt about her#this is the quickest ive ever bought something in my life#the emotions that shot through me when i opened up the steam page and heard their little norn noises and the sounds of the spaceship#i've kept the discs for 1 and 3 (i never had 2) all these years and would occasionally go through the trouble of installing them#for that sweet succulent nostalgia hit#but paying a few dollars to have them safe and soundly digital on my steam account is worth so fucking much to me#even if im probably going to have to fiddle with the settings to get the albian years games to work on my modern computer#nobody talk to me im reliving my childhood (PLEASE tell me im not the only one who played these games PLEASE)#my insane bias wants to recommend this game to everyone in the world#sadly im not sure the younger generation would get it. whatever i dont even care (cares a lot)
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when your bf is a human radiator and the night is cold but he has the audacity to tell you to move because he has to sleep
#kaeluc#luckae#my art#normally id put the stupid texts in tags but this was a 45min doodle and i dont take it seriously#as kaeya says :#😩😩😩#if ur interested in my deranged insanity. thinking about the pipeline of just like old times mutual wordless agreed cuddling turning into#whatever the fuck happens#and then back to stupid vulnurable openness without having to say much in thr middle of the night#sigh.#ok imagine. they are so soft and cringe but by day remember all the walls between them and the awkward push and pull at a safe distance..#no communication kings idiots idiots idiots but they know the other loves them!! but also!!#so so afraid that its only one sided and they are just delusional and hopeful!!#ok fuck it just look at my art and leave idk man....i need help
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OK HOLD ON CUZ @wintercorpse THOUGHT OF THE FUNNIEST EP IDEA
TAX RETURN SEASON EP
The gang usually get shitty "Christmas Bonuses" around the holidays and Chardee Macdennis do a silly gift exchange (without frank) but this year none of them get SHIT and so Dee is like "ok u guys dont pay me so youre not getting shit til tax return season"
BUT THIS YEAR DEE DECIDES TO GET THE GUYS EACH A GIFT THATS SUPER HYPER SPECIFIC TO SOME THING THEYVE DONE IN SECRET AND SO THEY BECOME SUPER PARANOID TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT SHE KNOWS BUT WHAT THEY DONT KNOW IS SHE DOESNT ACTUALLY KNOW THE FULL CONTEXT FOR EACH THING BUT SHE GAVE THEM THE GIFTS TO FIND OUT FOR BLACKMAIL
"NOW PAY ME MORE BITCHES- I DONT KEEP MY SECRETS FOR FREE!"
#'she walked in on each of them doing this thing and theyre like dont say ANYTHING and shes like oh dont worry ur secrets safe with me<3'#'VINDICTIVE BITCH'#'AND ITD BE SO GOOD WITH [AT FIRST] ONLY GETTING DEE'S FLASHBACK VERSION UNTIL THE END WHERE WE SEE#THE [FULL CONTEXT] FLASHBACK'#AND THE HYPER DRAMATIC ZOOM IN AND DIMMING OF THE SCREEN ON THEIR FACES WHEN THEY OPEN THE GIFTS#'wait but i thought...fuck..WHAT DOES SHE KNOW...'#RCG LET DEE HAVE A SCHEME#a scheme (thats not fucking Dee Day) where she comes out on top 🧍
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A new friend awaits!!! Will they be a Sagittarius or a Capricorn?? Who knows :3
#originals#ik 98 furbies have their own “birthday” codes so this is the first guy in the clan to have two birthdays!!!#technically mango has two days too but I don't know when i *actually* got mango and i dont think the 23 furbies have codes#(or maybe i cant actually read factory codes)#furby#safe furby#furby community#furby fandom#all furby#furblr#I've always wanted a 98 furby and here they are#man im debating on customizing them i've always wanted to make star berry#but i saw this little guy and went *GASP!!!*#i mean i do have to do maintenance anyway since they're nonfunctional#I've observed most people will say not working but in order to sell them they wont ever check to see what the issue is#just put batteries in and go well no power it's shot#i have no problems with opening furbies to see whats wrong! a lot of ppl who want 2 sell do#if i ever *HAVE* to sell a 98 i'm gonna note that they were opened and aren't “fully original”#bc that matters to people and i'm not gonna yuck their yum
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the whole "you shouldn't identify as X, don't form an identity when you can't/don't know yet, you're too young, what if/you might change your mind!" etc etc. it's so silly when you think about it. what's wrong with changing your mind anyway? why did we all decide that gender/sexuality identity has to be static and can never change? why did we decide that it's a bad thing to change? because the old generation tells us change is bad? because they (mostly conservatives) want to conserve "the good old days/the way things are supposed to be" in their minds???
WHO CARES if someone says they're gay then realizes 5 years later they're bi. WHO CARES if someone says they're a girl and realizes after trying it out they're not. let people explore who they are until they figure it out even if they go through every lable available to them! maybe none fit and they make up their own! who cares! who cares if they change it every year for the rest of their lives! humans change. that's the only constant about us! why is it a bad thing, even taboo, to accept change and exploration within sexuality and gender specifically?
there's always so much shame that comes with someone realizing they were wrong, changing as a person, or discovering something new about themselves. i've seen people afraid to explore themselves more or afraid to talk about a change in identity, for fear of the queer community pushing back on them the same way they're afraid to come out to the cishets in their life who are trans/homophobic. that's just not fair that their own community can become hostile towards them, too. being in a closet within a bigger closet essentially. everyone is always told to figure it all out first before claiming an identity, because then you're locked in it for life, apparently. you can't change your mind after that. why though? what's the point of that really? why can't we embrace fluidity a bit more? why can't we accept that humans do change all the time? why is making and trying to prove that these identities are static/unchanging/innate the only way to validate them? why can't they just, I don't know, BE VALID. without reason. why must we jump through hoops to be valid when we should just automatically be valid because we are human. stop letting the cishets gatekeep everything, leading to us gatekeeping each other!
I am sometimes very hesitant to talk about my own identity. I identified as a gay/biromantic trans guy for like idk 8-10 years? transitioned and everything. then like a year or two ago, I realized/decided that doesn't fit right anymore. now i'm a nonbinary, but also kinda fluid, aroace person. sometimes I don't like to talk about that because of the stigma behind changing your gender/sexuality identities. but you know what. i'll talk about it anyway and people have to learn to accept it.
what were the consequences and bad parts about changing my mind/identity like that? none. absolutely none. (outside of people being weird about it for no reason) but the benefits are feeling more comfortable with myself, and that's no one else's business.
#lee rambles#lgbt#lgbtqia#what tag do people usually use. idk#sexuality#nonbinary#transgender#gender#i know some things you cant “change” like if you transition. reversing some parts might be hard. but who cares#change what you want. change back a 3rd time if you want. we should let people do what they want in a safe way.#we arent going to talk about and debate children and their ability to “choose” im not opening those worms. thats for another discussion#but i will say them simply using words to describe themselves (identity) and changing it later DOES ABSOLUTELY NO HARM. LET THEM DO IT.#we are not talking about physically changing things so dont argue that. only words. words dont harm ans are allowed to change.#but people gatekeep adults from words as well so its not “about the children” its people in general.#everyone wants to gatekeep everyone from gender/sexuality so much for some reason#but this isnt about “the children!” so lets not talk about them#if anyone tries to argue children i will instablock. you have no permissiom#anyway. i feel like this entire post is a whole unpopular opinion. it'll probably make someone mad or cause misunderstanding#because words are hard and explaining my thoughts is hard. but youre not allowed to argue with me. im tired and dont want to deal with it#thats my boundary and im setting it up. no arguing. im not asking for debate or opnions. im simply rambling to myself snd anyone who#might not have thought about this before? idk. not sure who im rambling to or why i even added specific tags lmao#im tired and sleep deprived where am i going with this.......
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honestly still the biggest personal tragedy of session 5 is that when grian joined gem in the tower building. in gems episode, there were almost a solid 10 minutes of just that. them hanging out, calm, peaceful, no danger, away from people that could hurt them . and guess what ? grian left LESS THAN 3 MINUTES OF THAT IN HIS EPISODE dbjksffejw
#rant in tags#gems episode straight up got me to start drawing the most complicated fanart in a year or so just of that scene#and grian just. cut most of it out#(gem probably did too. but come on g. only 3??)#i think i know what im feeling. i called it in a yt comment on session 2 or so#im clinging to the last remains of peace and happiness we get#i watched every pov and i think this episode grian's is my favourite (even if he cut out most of my fav scene overall)#he almost died' rigged a charity' loved bdubs and built a tower. it was nice#he barely interacted with the reds (love them too but). he was just hanging out. the cleoðo&grian & i guess bdubs team is my fav#literally not a single spec of danger in that house. all positivity (thanks etho for starting the 'we love bdubs' day too bdw)#even martyns single trap got disarmed immediately#i was hoping for an grian & cleo team because of the potential for chaos but i think i love this more at least for now#ive been thinking too. the heart foundation honestly stresses me out so much#i love them with all my heart. i do#but i dont trust bigb at all. havent since episode one and wont start now. feels like that man has no loyalty to tango and skizz#hes very fun dont get me wrong but he makes me worried. i still have no idea what his deal is#theyre also very open. no fortification ( i like walls theyre safe)#and their system is very easy to rig (as shown in this episode)#(also bigb straight up saw grian throw his quartz in and said NOTHING)#“this is a death game! why do you not want death? what are you even here for?” SHUSH#this is all /positive. its good stress#(and i love death and betrayal martyn's win is my fav ending so far)#i just got too used to the peace and happiness at the beginning#i did not mean to rant this much but i have a lot of feelings about this series i dont have anywhere else to express#trafficblr#secret life
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Lmaooo so pretty much since I started, my work friend who works in the freezer/cooler sections has been trying to get me to come help over there (I actually cannot as I am not SAFE certified. He knows this but still it's just a running joke) and the other week I was working Health and Beauty and he was like "hey hey hey uh uh! You're supposed to help ME!" To which I said that only one person can ask a day and Bootleg already asked that day. So a couple days ago he was leaving the breakroom as I was coming in to clock in, as was our mutual work buddy who also works that area. He goes "ah ah ah you gotta help work the cooler today. See I asked before anyone else could!" To which I said "ah man, I'm not clocked in yet, doesn't count!" And went in to clock in as they left
So yesterday our mutual work buddy was like "so I heard you're coming to the cooler 👀" (again joking) and I just said "nope he's a liar. He's telling you lies man. But I heard YOU'RE coming to clothing."
We just laughed and went on with what we had been doing.
But TODAY I guess when RC came in to lunch, he was telling Homicidal Forklift Driver that I should move to the cooler. Like trying to get someone else to back them up that I should switch bc they see what a good job I do in clothing so I would be able to make the shelves look nice there too
RC was like oh hell no, I need her in clothing man. She's like the one person there who works!
To which they both said, "yeah and imagine how nice the cooler would look!"
She told them that I actually had mentioned yesterday that it didn't really sound like a bad deal, but that I'd 100% be moved back to clothing within a month bc no one but me can handle the kids section 😅
Felt nice though having people "fight" over me/praise my work sgdgdggdg getting that recognition for how well I do my job
I really dont think I'd mind working in the cooler, or fresh, but I hate having to check for close expiration dates and the boxes are so so heavy 😰
Plus I think the girl who recovers clothing second shift would kill me agsgdgdggd she'd like come in as a customer 8am on the dot and track me down to beg me to come back to clothing bc she can't handle the mess that is kids without me 😅
Anyways that made me laugh to hear
#marquilla#i mean 👀 it's a viable way out if NewLady pisses me off bad enough and they dont move her first agdggdgdgdh#ive seen the SAFE certification test before and it's mostly common sense food handling imo it's just that the specifics are what get you is#what ive heard like theres basically no room for error (which is good bc safe food handling SHOULD be that high a priority) and you need to#know 100% what the correct temps for the safe zone are ect ect (i did at one point know them i just dont remember)#anyway anyways thats funny that he's got HFD on board and he doesnt even work in that area 😭 he works recieving#which is another job ive thought ab tbh like if i ever get forklift certified i think i want to work back there bc they get to unload trucks#and sign for packages from what ive seen and they get to work the big door thats satisfying to open shdgdggd i got to do that once bc i was#over there and whoever is closest no matter your actual job is supposed to let them in and let a receiving person know and damn is that#door fun to watch open and close 👀 i ALMOST got to close it yesterday but they didnt leave before i was done :( shdhdhhdhd#i think unloading the trucks would be fun bc you drive the pallets around the store or just dump em in the dock if it's past 8am but then#you have to clear the dock if someone else filled it overnight 😒 but hey that might still be fun idk#and as far as I know the 4am recieving crew all like me a lot abdbbdbdgd so other than working with HFD it wouldn't be so bad#i think we should be allowed to shadow other areas like not specifically cross training but like i think working liquidations/claims would#be fun but it might not be idk only problem with that and recieving is that it's very loud in the back and idk if id be allowed those yellow#headphones or earplugs to dampen the sound or not#i think any of those jobs would be fun. id really like to work bakery but im allergic to too many common ingredients that id be#afraid that i might not be a great fit like yes gloves exist but still idk if thats a safe/good idea job wise...#ANYWAYS dhddhhdhd
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last post ended up deleting my tags so im continuing them here
#but.#even after all the time i had aparti still went back at 16#i traveled across the country just to see her again#and it fucking sucked#she ripped that wound right back open#which . felt so weird because she WANTED me to come#she made all the plans#honestly the train trip there was nice#i got to experience a lot of cool things#but the second i got there. it was . one of the worst times of my life#just nonstop#and now ive finally been away for awhile again#but i still miss her#& i dont know why#but it also doesnt help the only gf i have ever had did the same type of thing LMAO//.... i .. i just cannot win#maybe it's just my roll#say all these nice things n then immediately flip#she would make me hang out w her friends n talk me up n then. cheat on me with them with me there#& then get upset when i cried or tried to break up w her LMAO...#like. she wasnt poly or anything she was actually against it#but the worst part is how openly & loudly she'd love me right before it. so now i never know who is telling the truth. i never feel safe#but anyway. again. i stayed#over n over again id try to break up w her but then i loved her & so when she got upset n threaten to kms id flip n stay#n she'd do it again#until eventually she broke up w me n left me so fuckd up im not gonna lie JHVAJH#she still tried to stay friends after that n i tried#but then i started sobbing mid card game & it was very embarrassing top 10 worst things i have done#but i just. all i want is to be a good person. i want to be someone good & loving but i feel like im such a jealous monster#even if i dont let myself show it n try to ignore it bc i dont want to hurt anyone or be this awful it;s still here. just. permeating.#what if i feel too much what if ill never know when someone is genuine what if im just an evil obsessive freak n everyone i love hates me
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i think a big plus of having Guz be so tall and just in general bigger than me is that I could sit in front of him with my back to his chest and have his arms wrapped around me and he could just hide me away from the world for a little while. he is my own personal brick wall fsdjkl a weighted blanket perhaps too,,
#so much softer than a brick wall ofc dsfkl but . just saying ''wall'' doesnt conjure up the mental image as well as ''brick wall''#my nervous system is absolutely shot fdsjkl i opened my other main account to check in with a couple ppl and got so nauseous and dizzy ;-;#idk what is wrong w meeee (well no i do sort of know but fjsdkl i dont know how to fix That so im pretending thats not the issue)#i was doing so well for a couple weeks too wtf 😭😭#thank god i have a counseling appt on monday dsjkl i think i very much need it#so many difficult things happened today now that i think about it fjksl i did Nawt have a rest day fdsjkl#i think ... tonight i will shut everything out and just draw or write or smth#just completely wrap myself up in creating stuff for a couple hours at least#i would like One hug from my man and perhaps ten minutes of deep pressure FDSJKL or just. feeling safe for a bit. agh. i've said too much#OVERWHELMED. THATS WHAT IM FEELING. AUGH. finally placed the feeling im having HFDSJKL#theres so many strings in my life and i have dropped quite a few over the holidays and i dont think i can pick them back up#like. idk how i ever held all of them wtf jfsdkl how was i doing that !!! theres so many goddamn strings to hold !!#vent //#dandy.cmd
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i life is fucking falling apart out of nowhere and i dont know what to do sbout it
#im so so fucking tired and stressed and angry and upset and i cant do anything#my cat is hurt and in pain and we cant even get her to eat even though she hasnt eaten in days#but i dont know what to do about it when she refuses to eat#and weve spent over $600 on her medical care so far and we already dont have lots of money to waste#and its all our fault snd its all MY fault for letting her leave the house#but i cant DO anything about it because even now my mom leaves the doors and windows wide open for the cats to go out snd get themselves#killed because she just doesnt fucking care and i cant DO anything about it i cant keep them safe on my own#i dont even know if shes going yo survive this or if shes gonna have long lasting effects forever#and now my computer keeps bluescreening repeatedly and im not good enough with computers to know how to fix it#and im too fucking stupid to follow instructions and i dont know what to DO#and im scared my computer is gonna die for real and then whats gonna be of me#im spending so much money more money than i even have to pay for this computer#and its one of the only good things i have in my stupid fucking life right now and i cant do anything as i watch it bluescreen#im fucking scared and stressed and anxious and i cant fucking do this#whatever sorry. rant over i just needed to talk
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Shit is getting too real for my liking
#so i briefly mentioned this but yesterday my sibling got into a big fight with my parents#apparently they recorded the conversation they had with our mom afterward and showed it to their therapist#and she sent them home with a book on how to deal with toxic people and said she wanted our parents to start therapy as well#and shes telling them that its a shit situation and we shouldnt be treated this way etc.#and like. i already knew it was a shit situation but hearing that people outside of it agree#i thought id feel reassured but i feel less safe than ever#also my sibling has more guts than i could ever hope to have holy shit#theyre opening up to their therapist and actually confronting mom and trying to make a change here and im so proud of them#(i just hide and try to avoid it lol)#but yeah just. idk. i dont like this one bit. i want out.#snowys talking again
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