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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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I can pinpoint the moment that destroyed my life today:
It’s been a handful of weeks since Murderbot came within inches of having a new, organic governor module implanted in its head via infection - do you think, maybe, that’s also been hiding behind the redacted? Not the way everything else is, just as a deep-seated reminder of what it can’t afford to lose?
What a way to be told “I love you” - to be told “I will not lose you, I will not let go, I will do the hard part of holding on even if you don’t want me to”
#the murderbot diaries#murderbot#murderbot spoilers#perihelion#I am not normal about this and I will continue to be not normal about this#I have feelings about how important they are to each other#how their relationship doesn’t fit into neat boxes and is still undeniable#I don’t think art loves quite like humans love but it DOES love and will all of that power behind it#that love is an overwhelming thing I think#not romantic but INTENSE the way it just… IS intense by nature#and like… I got to the part where mb was thinking about just walking away in the other direction like#’oh this is BAD bad’#and this moment just…….#something about ‘you can’t go because I won’t let you’#’I will make the hard choice for you even if you don’t like what I choose’#not even in a possessive way just. just that mb is not ALLOWED to not exist#and I’ve got a lot of goddamn feelings about it#mb is a little bit in pieces and art is gonna forcibly hold those pieces together until it starts to heal#(but also. goddamn don’t even get me started on art having to hear that because. HHHHHH)
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Those wacky skeletons ♥ (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#Sans#Papyrus#Handplates#You can tell because of Sans' gloves lol#Getting-used-to-them-again doodles as well as just expressing Feeling <3 Happy towards them! Want them to be happy too!#It might seem silly for these - how many sets in now? - to still be getting used to drawing them again lol but it's because they're adults!#Their clothes and the way they hold themselves - but also especially Sans lol I dunno why I have such difficulty with him at times#He's got a cute face and I still find myself like ????how your face#Other than that tho it's just silliness hehe ♪ My favourite lads :D#I feel the need to make the distinction: I do actually have different favourites based on the AU lol#Like for example in classic I still love Flowey just a tiiiiiny bit more than Papyrus but it really is constantly neck and neck#Whereas in Handplates it's no competition even a little bit lol - Papyrus is just my Very Favourite#But Gaster is my favourite Handplates-specific character since he's unique to the AU! It gets a bit in the weeds lol#Sans isn't far behind at all of course the trio are very important! The duo even moreso imo#Going back to gloves tho I did carry over one of my quirks from my original UT doodles about Papyrus' gloves lol#I initially envisioned them as combination mitten-gloves with a free index finger and all the rest together#I still rather like the design! But it is admittedly not Handplates accurate lol#The occasional dip into self-indulgence who me? Lol#Sleeping on each other is important to me as well!! It is such a favourite hehe#Honestly I just imagined Papyrus getting so exhausted that he fell asleep in the snow lol poor lad#Sans teleported in but it's also funny to imagine him just walking up like ''you good? yeah he's fine'' *flop* haha#Silly lads <3 Do love 'em ♪
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Wardrobe Woes
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#Yes: there are people who read these comics who don't know much about mdzs. Several are my beloved and supportive friends B'*)#This comic in particular is one that I've been thinking about for a very long time and I'm so happy to finally be here!#I was trying to think about how to explain the social rules of the forehead ribbon and the reason lwj was so upset#and the metaphor of 'it's kind of like wwx accidently undoing lwj's bikini in front of a crowd.' came to mind.#of course there's a bit more to it than that but the point here is that - accident or not - it still embarrasses lwj#wwx doesn't get the entire context behind it (at the time. Now he *does* and it all makes a bit more sense)#But he knows he made lwj upset. He knows he doesn't want to put lwj in another embarrassing situation.#Not after all this. Not after everything. Not after realizing that his desire for friendship might be the kind of desire that ruins lan zha#Love the symbolism of the archery outfits being red during this moment of 'whoops only married couples can do that' moment.#What if we accidental proposed............accidental marriage....accidental kiss the bridegroom....accidental fall in love.#Guess we did inadvertently get the puffy sleeves and bikini outfits in the end.#wwx in an old timey bathing suit is so important to me. I'll die on this hill.#lwj's cute little box is inspired by @lazycranberrydoodles's cute fan art <3 I love it a lot
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ANNIVERSARY BLAST
#kaitou joker#chiimo art shenanigans#damn it really has been a decade#i just want to gush for a bit because while kaijo isnt a perfect anime#it means so much to me#i mean it basically kickstarted my love for the phantom thief genre#and it was such an important part of my life growing up#im just really happy im able to draw a little something to celebrate#i also love how the people behind kaijo still care about the series#we got a new manga serialization which is crazy because!! i wasnt expecting that!!!#words blanking rn bc im sleepy but genuinely#thank you kaijo for everything :]
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I just know Darry is the type of guardian that when the boys start acting up in public he gets a death grip on their arm but does not change his demeanor at ALL
#pony starts acting like a brat or#two bit starts looking at the loose jewelry counter a little too hard#or dallas starts running his mouth#n before they can even THINK about knocking it off darrys got a hand around their bicep#but hes still talking to the lady behind the counter like 🙂🙂↕️#it makes his brothers CRAZY#but he'll be damned if it doesnt work#darry curtis#sodapop curtis#ponyboy curtis#dallas winston#two bit mathews#steve randle#johnny cade#the outsiders#the outsiders 1983
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click the image for a cute little surprise 🤭
#fhr#fallen hero#sidestep#damien becker#heartbreak#i mean there's also the thing behind those gates#but that's a whole other can of worms best left unopened#i'll be a bit more busy the next few months so here's a little treat for each and every sidestep#despite everything... you're still you! (hopefully)#art#my art#transparent art#god please i hope the transparency thing works
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Tbh i am not surprised that a person who openly talked about having drinking problems since 1d days, because of how crazy 1d worked has been agressive. What surprises me is people being surprised (they never seriously saw drunk person?). But i am also confused about this whole book. Apparently Maya said that that book is not fully bout Liam but compilation about her exes and some of the worst parts are not about him. But recently she said that the book is “ofc about him” so what is true then? Or did she meant it that ofc some parts are about him or that whole book is about him?
Sorry, just confused
I also am not surprised- we've learned so much more about the real stories of things and about the guys' actual lives over the last years, and the story that has unfolded around Liam has been totally consistent throughout if you've been following it, and so the information Maya is telling us is shocking and upsetting but not difficult to believe. I got an anon yesterday saying they were worried about getting similar revelations about the other boys, like "if Liam could be doing this we just don't know, any of them could", and while in a way that's always true I guess, anyone could be doing anything in private like... that doesn't really concern me. Because none of these Liam revelations are coming out of nowhere, there have been many MANY steps along the way leading us here if you've been watching, and he has talked openly about both his mental health struggles and his addiction issues. So to answer that anon... to find out something similar about Louis would in contrast contradict everything we know about him and no I'm not worried about it. Is he probably very irritating, absolutely, but an abuser or a loose cannon, well that news would shock me. But anyway as for the book I don't find it strange that she was nervous when it came out and treading lightly and later decided, fuck it. In the absolutely on point tiktok she dropped today (YES👏GIRL👏FUCKING TELL THEM👏) she even mentions attempts to keep her from publishing the book, presumably by Liam's team, that I am riveted by and cannot WAIT to hear more details about actually- like I said I don't find it at all strange that she was nervous and downplayed it a bit then. But if she says now that it's just about Liam, well, I would say it's been clear from the beginning that the book is their story. Maya herself brought up the parallel of songs being written about stuff and I think it's the same thing; it's true (she was in an abusive relationship that involved certain kinds of events) but maybe not 100% literal (I'm sure details were changed to make the story work, it's not like a word for word timeline of their interactions or whatever).
#maya henry#blah blah blah#re the tiktok also lmaoooo are people really saying she wants money her family IS RICH like RICH RICH#but hot damn the part about enabling UH HUH !!!!!#yep yep yep#in terms of the other guys and what would shock me... well obviously we know Zayn has also had a history of agression#and we know WAY too much about him being pushy about sex lol#I would not be shocked to hear he crossed a line... but think he's probably just a bit of a fuckboy#I absolutely do not trust Niall behind closed doors but the songs we have about him seem to tell a pretty consistent story;#self absorbed but basically harmless#harry... who tf knows what he is like outside of being with Louis but I would be shocked to hear of him being aggressive yeah#I have a lot of issues with him but taking advantage of people or being pushy are not even on the radar#and as for Louis... like I said yeah it WOULD shock me. I don't just love him because he has a nice face!#it's BECAUSE of the ways we do know him and know what he's like. because of his tenderness and care#and his consistent kindness and love#and his openness about his private side#so yeah- it would shock the hell out of me it really would#but then I think that anon also was worried about eleanor spiling smth about their relationship so we are not coming from the same place#my kneejerk response was I'm sure he paid her on time what else are you worried about lol#although out of everyone if someone was going to say he lashed out at them I suppose it would be her#it was probably one of the most difficult and frought relationships in his life#and one that he did not want#so! but still no it doesn't worry me#tbh there was one thing in mayas video today that did surprise me which was the premeditation#Liam actually planning using the fans against people and sneaking around doing stuff#I guess even believing everythign I had chosen to paint a picture in my mind of someone who was still#basically unaware of the wrong they were doing and more flailing than plotting#and that shakes me a little. and makes me very unhappy to hear#liam discourse
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KakaIru + Those Four Guys From Naruto
I'll assume you've seen the original versions with the canon couples. (I'd link it but have no idea what the OG really is). Now it's the gae version.
#kakairu#koteizu#Genrai#Naruto#Those two guys from Naruto#those two guys from naruto but it's not those two guys#genma shiranui#namiashi raidou#hagane kotetsu#izumo kamizuki#the funniest bit of this is that izumo's screencap isn't edited. Demon Possessed Izumo canon#Also funny that literally 2 seconds after that he's already putting his anger behind because he had a DUO battle tactic idea#Izumo: *is ready to falcon punch Kotetsu into another dimension after embarrassing him in front of 2 ANBU jonin*#Also Izumo: *includes his buddy his friend his sun and stars into his tactic ideas regardless because Friendship Means Friend*#Izumo is the embodiment of 'Just because I'm mad at you doesn't mean I stopped caring'#Also Izumo is currently on duty in that scene + dealing with Ko's lazy ass + just embarrassed himself in front of 2 respected jonin ->#and STILL had an idea for a killer top tier tactic right there. Brilliant baby. Smart boi. Intelligent cutie. Creative little muffin. I lov#Also this is in no way a diss to iruka. Iruka bby. Iruka my boy. Iruka my heart & soul since naruto 1st aired. i love u bby.#Kotetsu in canon: Wants to fight Izumo. Kotetsu as soon as Izumo wants to fight: NOPE *runs*#also gonna post the not gay version for the non shipper side of fandom. Not like I have more than 4 followers but in case it makes it out#It's just. I've seen The 4 Guys being shipped in PLENTY KakaIru fics. So I assumed someone might enjoy this lmao#also because i ship these 3. Everything gay I ship. I love me some non toxic masculine intimate friendship but I also love my gay sorry
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Hi, frat boy!
#toontown#corporate clash#corporateclash#toontown corporate clash#toontowncorporateclash#ttcc#chip revvington#chainsaw consultant#perry draws#boo. college Chip jumpscare#he sucks. i love him. completely unfiltered dude in his early 20s with a scary temper to match.#quiet guy but a little pleasant if you can get past the fact he's still a bit of an asshole. will sneak up behind you and-#make a horrific noise with his voice box to make you jump and scream and then laugh at you for getting scared.#still inherently non violent. but also anything can happen when you're pissed off enough.#imagine being chased through campus by a 12 foot tall robot with a chainsaw for a face because you. as the new guy. got peer pressured into#poking the bear by way of splashing oil on his David Bowie tank top while he's walking by.#pov: you're spruce campbell and it's your freshman year. you're being hazed by older frat suits. then everyone starts backing away from you#you turn around. that one section of murders by miracle musical starts playing while you stare down this behemoth wielding a steel chair.#hcips
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uh oh watching xxi and im so fucking unwell…. NEED to kill the director of this episode because that sequence of flint breaking down in his cabin is SOOOO fucking good. how 3/4 of the scene is shot from behind flint so he’s left in shadow and the only time we see his face it’s only half of it… as if his grief and rage and pain is still something only he can see… and even at the end, when we are so close to seeing his full face, the camera slowly backs away and hides him from view with the table, as if warning us that this view into flint is not for us. we hover so close to the edge— we are right over his shoulder, we see his shaking hands, we see him slump, we hear him sob— but we are not allowed in. the cinematography really reinforces the message that no one, not flint’s crew, not silver, and not even us, the audience, gets to see the shattered man underneath, because that undoes it all. that breaks the illusion of the monster of the high seas. and that’s the last thing they can afford to do now.
#SORRYYYY i’m so insane about this#gnawing at the walls chewing drywall eating rocks etc etc#pressed my face right up against the screen and turned my volume up to hear and see every bit of this scene#because WOW#no one talk to me about the difference between this season and the previous ones for emotional scenes…#we could see all of flint’s breakdowns in full lighting and front view#flint let us in. he let us see. he let us know that he was still redeemable and still had a conscience#but now… but now we are forced into shadow to watch from behind a table and it is all slipping away so so fast#and that kills me a little bit i think.#ok i’m done. sorry#black sails#james flint
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I work with somebody about once a week who is so fascinating to me, especially when they are at our first desk. When someone walks in, they do not so much as smile or look at them, much less greet them. When someone leaves, they don't do anything either. If someone says, "Thank you," they say, "Sure," and if someone says, "Have a good one," they say, "Sure."
Listen. I don't know if it's because I was born and raised in the South for over three decades or because I was the front-facing customer-service-driven person at my previous jobs for a grand total of eight years. But I wince and get a little flappy anxious every time. What do you mean, you're not greeting people warmly so they're smiling as soon as they come through the door? What do you mean, you don't thank them for coming, wish them a good day, and bid them farewell? What do you mean, you just don't interact with the public unless forced, even in our front-facing job?
I think the amiable Southern politeness is just too engrained in me. There is no getting rid of it. And I'm kind of hoping that eventually I can work my way up to having more shifts at our first desk instead of our second because it's a lot weirder to gently greet someone from a distance when the employee closest to them is not paying them a single bit of mind.
#please do not misunderstand me this is not me criticizing people who have social anxiety or autism or are uncomfortable with small talk#i have and am all of those things in fact#it's just me reflecting on the cultural differences between the south and the midwest that i have discovered so far#people are startled when i hold the door open for them if i go in before them and they're close behind me#and my coworkers seem alarmed sometimes when i greet people with a beaming smile and try to make conversation#i still can't stop myself from smiling and making eye contact with someone if we pass on the sidewalk#i force myself to talk at a reasonable pace and not jump in and interrupt people with 'yeah' or 'sure' like i'm impatient with them#and part of it is my upbringing but also part of it is that we are painfully in need of funding and donations#and literally the only thing i can do in that regard is make people feel so happy to be in our building that they keep coming back#and they develop relationships with the staff and attend our programs and finally see how much more we could do#if we had just a little bit more help#augh i really love my job y'all and i really hope i can keep doing well there and get more hours and responsibility and money#i come home every day feeling fuzzy and smiling even if i am absolutely exhausted as well#my ramblings
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Softly, slowly, I want to love you anyway (Patreon)
#Doodles#ISaT#Loop#Isabeau#Siffrin#Sloopis Sloopis Sloopis#Top tier polyship heck yes#Poor Loop :'0 Give them love now!!!#Kinda-sorta inspired by my Loop fic - that transformation had to be difficult ;;#The ones with Isabeau are deffo more Star of Your Dreams tho <3 Isa's so sweet weh#Loop honey letting people in is like The Thing that will help The Most#Always deflecting giving outs letting people off the hook at their own expense :'( Pushing others away is easier than letting them see ;;#It's why Isa's such a good boy!! He genuinely wants to know to be close to see the real them - both of them!!!#It's work but it's worth it <3#And obviously Sif understands haha#If ever a pair needed some self-love it was these two like Sheesh#Loop still wouldn't make it easy hehe <3 They're just like that#It'd be so easy for Sif to accidentally hurt them and need to backtrack and it's worse because Loop would Get It#They understand each other so intrinsically and yet Sif still has - will always have - a victory that Loop never got to ;;#Even loving each other and sharing what they currently have it's still a painful reminder of what they left behind :'0 Loooop </3#They really are fun to draw hehe Loop's eyes are so pretty ♪ And actual sparkles on the dark gradient this time! Yes!#I debated whether I wanted their tears to be visible - blotted out by how bright their head is? But went with it for expression reasons#Gods can you imagine how beautiful their tears would be tho? Little prisms splitting up their white light#Although that would imply colour lol - I mean if Anyone Would have a bit of colour it Would be Loop sooooo#Hmngh love 'em
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I remember hearing a video essayist for a different fandom saying a lot of people are having wild takes on the media in question because it's becoming more common to get information about the books second-hand than to actually read the books. And I think something like this happened with pjsk. Except worse because we don't even have video essays we have tiktoks. And that's why We're Like This
#jay rambles.txt#I think this is rapidly becoming an issue with fandom in general#so little people actually engage with the source#Like I think we put essays and character analysists a bit too high on a pedestal let's calm down a little and breathe#I think this is an issue with fast-paced fandoms too. we don't have time in our lives to pay attention to detail anymore but still want to#be included. I recognise that. I am not blameless#but the only way to combat that is to Actually Engage with the media I'm afraid. being behind on thing is not a bad thing#if it means you learn to appreciate it. stop getting all your story info from tiktok & pinterest & tumbrl posts. staaph#if you know that fandom I'm talking about you get a cookie and my condolences
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most of my les mis art rots in my procreate/sketchbook so here's a few
#tags past this one will be explaining/adding onto these#enjolras one i feel a bit iffy about posting cuz the perspective is whack mostly cuz i freehanded it half asleep no reference or anything#but whatever i like parts of it#the one w valjean and cosette on a whiteboard was at my school and i watched my teacher erase them a few days later and it hurt my soul#just a little#last two are actually 2 stills from my animatic#i will never shut up until the animatic is done which i don't think will be for another few weeks#i have never made an animatic before and it's a little scary but overall i think it's going rlly well :3#hard part (sketching) is behind me#those 2 shots are from the beginning part#les mis animatic coming soon to a blog near you#yeah nothing else i'd like to add#posting this late expecting it to kinda flop idc#les mis#les miserables#jean valjean#javert#inspector javert#enjolras#he was in this right.. i forgor#marius pontmercy#cosette fauchelevent#bishop myriel#he's there#once#same w enjolras sorry just one art of them </3#good god i just yap don't i .
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So I haven't thought of a way to end the Lucanis arc with House Dellamorte still in tact and in power BUT I do think that with the combined brain power and sheer determination of Caterina Illario and Rook they will be able to find a way to sort that shit out. It might involve tons of murder, maybe manipulation bribery and/or blood magic but by the maker they've got to keep the two idiot cousins alive somehow
#lucanis is team mascot because his expertise starts and ends with stabbing sorry#house dellamorte#im sort of at the moment leaninng toward getting a whole new first talon#and having illario run things from behind the scenes after caterina dies#lucanis does contracts and is protected from the templars by this fact alone#but idk i still have to mull it over in my head how theyre gonna fix caterina's mess#she could have saved the house by just holding out on naming lucanis first talon for like a month#just until the gods were dead#but no#caterina fucked all of them lol#lucanis dellamorte#caterina dellamorte#illario dellamorte#im including illario here because while he did have his cousin imprisoned and tortured#i think he was just a little bit valid for it honestly#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#datv
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