#SORRY THIS IS SO LONG LOL

[professorhayforbreath]

so episode 5. all my thoughts

we picked up where the last one left off, good start

annabeth saying she knows percy isn't dead... how. to annabeth and grover there should have been no way percy was alive and finding out he was should've been so emotional but instead she was like dw i know he's not dead lol. it's kind of... lazy writing? like how are you gonna write a scene as gut wrenching as percy trapping himself with a monster and telling his friends to complete the quest without him because he's actively dying and has no reason to believe he'll survive, and then make the fallout of that so... nonchalant? idk if it's a time limit thing but that was so underwhelming to me

annabeth being the one to see the fates... no

fugitive percy enjoyers at least we won!!!!

the trio peeking over the road barrier at ares was cute goofy silly i liked that :)

gabe on the news shit talking percy i'm hooting and hollering!! "i really-- WE really loved that car" and "i'm gonna kill him". excellent. now put percy on the news fake crying about his "loving" stepfather i believe in you

i did want them to acknowledge annabeth's lack of experience with the world outside camp but having her say "i've never seen any kind of movie" has gotta be one of the weirdest ways they could've done that

the turnstile scene was cool i guess but as we go on i'm more and more conscious of how many episodes are left and how much plot there is to get through and idk i feel like this scene could've hit the cutting room floor and we wouldn't have lost anything

i do love the ambience of the park though. maybe i'm easy to impress because the aesthetic of an abandoned amusement park is just fantastic on its own but the set was very cool. wish it wasn't so dark so i could've actually seen it ❤️

percy and annabeth having a serious conversation with 'what is love' blaring in the background is sending me

first ever seaweed brain dropped! i liked the way they did it, it felt natural

actually back to the "i've never seen a movie" thing. you're telling me that in this version of the story, in which frederick chase was apparently a great dad who treated annabeth like a gift, he never took her to the movies? or she never watched one on tv? she had a whole seven years of life in the real world before going to camp and she's never seen a movie

annabeth isn't allowed to have fears she's too smart for that apparently

i think the scene with the chair was overall well executed with some great lines and fantastic acting but... idk. they really scrapped the original scene just to do what they already did last episode. i miss the spiders i miss hephaestus tv. it felt redundant to have percy sacrifice himself again. percy this is the second time today you've been like "no dw i'll just die" do you need to talk to someone

annabeth disillusionment arc complete already? calm down guys this is season one

ZOO TRUCK ZOO TRUCK ZOO TR

so it's confirmed the reason they go into the lotus casino is BECAUSE hermes is there :/ they said these literal children cannot fall for tricks and traps it's too unrealistic

not much to say about the grover and ares scenes bc i don't know what to make of them. i didn't mind them. ares had some funny lines. i guess my only complaint is that the grover i know would not have been so calm talking to the god of war. i'm curious to see where that cliffhanger leads

is it just me or did the pacing improve a little bit this episode?

despite how negative i sound i enjoyed episode 5 a lot more than episode 4. there are still so many weird changes, additions, and omissions though. honestly i think a big part of the reason i enjoyed this one is because i'm not expecting anything anymore. i'm not getting my hopes up about them adapting the book normally i'm just intrigued by this thing like a scientist observing an experiment. like hmm what are they doing now? fascinating *takes notes*

[siennadraws-13]

Did Carol visit Earth, and if so, when?

So in Wandavision, we learned that Monica has some sort of resentment towards Carol. When her name is brought up, Monica seems a little frustrated and somewhat eager to change the subject. And in Ms. Marvel, we learn that several people are under the impression that Carol completely abandoned Earth. This adds on to the common theory that Monica is upset with Carol because she is under the impression that Carol completely abandoned the Rambeaus, even during the time where Maria was dying. And to be completely fair, if Monica is under this impression, that means Carol really didnt visit for quite some time, but did she visit during the blip?

We know that Monica was dusted, but Maria was not. Meaning that Monica would be completely unaware if Carol visited in the five years that she was dusted. We also see in the new trailer for The Marvels (which you should totally watch btw) that Carol has 3 pictures hung up on a corner of her ship. A picture of a random canyon (which is possibly somewhere important to Carol), a picture of Maria, and a newspaper clipping talking about Monica. How did Carol get this newspaper clipping? Nick Fury most certainly didn't bring it with him when we see him leave at the end of Secret Invasion, so where Would Carol have gotten it? She would have had to have gone down to Earth herself and gotten it. And if Monica doesn't think Carol's visited since the events of Captain Marvel, that means that Carol would have visited during the events of the blip, visiting Maria, possibly even with her in her last moments.

I'm confident that this will be a topic that's explored in The Marvels, perhaps we'll learn how often Carol visited Maria, When she first visited, or how she reacted when she leared than Monica was dusted. We'll have to wait and see

TLDR: Monica thinks Carol didnt visit them, but she might have visited during the blip considering she has a newspaper clipping of monica in her spaceship.

[poliwhirl42]

Hi! What is your opinion on every pokemon season (by region) or at least the ones you have watched?

Oh man, a great question! I'll try to condense my thoughts about each into a few sentences but you should probably prepare for a novel haha:

Kanto: Honestly, when I watch the Original Series, I actually prefer watching the Orange Islands and Johto over the first season (I'll get to why in the next section). I think the first season is incredibly nostalgic to watch and has some of the most iconic moments in the entire anime, and the rest of the Pokemon anime wouldn't exist without it as a foundation, so I have to give it credit. Aside from most of the gym battles being kinda stupid, I do wish they'd followed up on lore they introduced that could've been incredibly interesting to explore, like Ash's childhood/his father's whereabouts, Jessie's mom, the Mewtwo/Mew stuff and other Team Rocket history from the CD drama, etc. But I also realize that the writers were just getting their bearings with making an anime adaptation in the midst of a rapidly-growing cultural phenomenon based off a video game, so I recognize the challenges and uncertainties that came along with that. Also quickly adding I highly enjoyed Orange Islands and my Pokeshipping heart revisits certain episodes from time to time as well.

Johto: Those who know me well know I LOVE the Johto series. I'm actually in the middle of a rewatch of it. Definitely rewatching it in full nowadays though, has definitely made me recognize that this series was far from perfect, but looking past its writing flaws, it's just purely entertaining for me. The English voice actors really found their voices and added so much to their characters, especially with the dialogue and the creative liberties they took in creating the dub. I like how certain backstories like Jessie's were explored a bit more in Johto as well, and I definitely think the gym battles were taken a little more seriously than they were in the first season. There were also some GREAT Brock episodes which I highly appreciated, and I never tire of watching the Butch and Cassidy episodes (aka the fortune telling one and the Lugia Arc). Also, Gary and Ash's battle in the League is my second favorite League battle of all time behind Ash VS Paul. Johto is also not only my favorite region but is also home to my favorite Pokemon opening song/OST of all time, and I generally just loved the vibes with this series where not every episode or scene had to be jam-packed with action every single second. It was nice to have episodes of them helping out a Character-of-the-Day or visiting a city or just laying in the grass taking a nap after camping out or having lunch. When I think of a Pokemon journey, those in-between moments are for me just as special as the action-packed high stakes moments. I definitely recognize the downside of this, though, because I do recognize that the constant repetitive pattern of Johto's plotlines in many episodes was fatiguing for many fans who wanted to see something different, and as much as I enjoy watching it, I agree. Johto itself is so RICH with its history and traditional Japanese roots and culture and it really felt like the writers shied away from integrating Ash's journey with a lot of the Johto game lore. It would've been cool to have characters like Jimmy and Marina interact with Ash, perhaps have Silver be introduced, and I also think they really dropped the ball on having characters like Casey and Ritchie be rivals in the Silver Conference. This is getting long though lol so onto AG next!

Advanced Generation: AG to me is like the underrated gem of the pokeani series. I think sometimes it slips through the cracks because it's not as "nostalgic" as OS but not as "hyped up" as XY or DP are. I really like AG a lot even though I don't talk about it much, but I do admittedly feel like several episodes or arcs at least in Hoenn are kind of forgettable to me or lackluster- the two major ones that come to mind are the Hoenn League and the Aqua/Magma arc, both of which should've been FAR more exciting and entertaining. DESPITE THAT THOUGH, I thought the group of four- Ash, Brock, May and Max was incredibly entertaining and brought a whole new dynamic which was different from the OG trio's. I also loved May assuming the role of dual protagonist and absolutely loved the concept of contests! I love Contestshipping and adored every moment May's rivals appeared on screen with their quips and banter. Her growth in this series was fantastic and her battle with Drew at the end of Battle Frontier was chef's kiss. Ash himself, this is actually my favorite portrayal of Ash as he's such a little egotistical brat in Hoenn- other people don't like this as much but I still eat it up, like you just wanna punch him but he's so funny. The battles were also SO MUCH BETTER in AG; I loved little scenes where Ash was teaching his pokemon new moves and actively training alongside them; really showed he was getting more and more serious about being a Pokemon trainer.

Diamond and Pearl: Aside from Johto, DP is my favorite series and is actually the series that was currently airing when I first became fully invested in the Pokemon anime (I did not watch it much as a child), so it's very nostalgic for me. I love almost everything about it, between Dawn continuing the dual protagonist role, contests still being included, Ash's entire team, Paul being an amazing rival, the Sinnoh League being amazing and still my favorite League, rivals like Conway, Zoey, Kenny, Ursula, Nando, and Barry all being awesome in their own ways, so many fun arcs like the summer camp arc, Wallace Cup, Hearthome Tag Battle, Team Galactic's major involvement, Brock's development leading up to him becoming a Pokemon Doctor...I can't get enough of this series. The only thing I don't like is probably the giant amount of filler episodes they really didn't need at certain points and the gaps between Ash's gym battles; even though I love it to pieces like I do Johto, I agree that similarly both did not need to be drawn out as long as they did.

Best Wishes: Besto Wishes!!! So aside from me blabbering on about how much I love Burgundy, gosh I absolutely love BW. There are some things about it I will unfortunately never be able to forgive- like the confirmation of Ash being 10, the Rocket/Plasma arc being canceled, and basically the soft-reboot essentially making all of Ash's development pre-BW for naught. But gosh was this series so refreshing in other ways. Iris and Cilan, both amazing characters, offered a new dynamic with Ash that the previous characters didn't and I will die on this hill disagreeing with everyone who says that Misty and Brock are just like Iris and Cilan. I think Iris out of all the Pokegirls actually had the BEST portrayal of a backstory and I like the development she received. I also love that Ash rotated between pokemon that he caught, aside from his DP team I'm also very attached to his BW and loved all their starkly different personalities. BW was just so much FUN to watch. I go back so many times to rewatch the fun Battle Club arcs and I definitely think the rivals made the series so entertaining. I wish they had explored the connoisseur thing more and wish that Cilan had gotten way more episodes than he did. I wish his rivalry with Burgundy had been explored more as well, and honestly I think they could've done without the Decolore Islands arc. I really wish they had just stayed in Unova and had characters like Georgia and Burgundy return at least one final time since they weren't present for the Unova League. I could say a lot more of course but again don't wanna make this a novel so moving on...~

XY: XY is unfortunately the series I've seen the least of and it's known to be well...not one of my favorites lol. I have a lot of issues with the way Ash is portrayed which is why it's taken me so long to watch it. I have, ironically, seen all of XYZ though, and think the Team Flare arc is the absolute greatest villain arc in the entire series. But I'm still working through all the previous stuff! I was in college when XY aired, so I had unfortunately missed a lot of parts due to being so busy, but it also has its own layer of nostalgia for me, mainly because it was between BW-XY when I first came into the Pokeani fandom on Tumblr and was introduced to a variety of incredible friends, many of which I've now met in person and am still close with to this day. One day I hope to sit down and just power through all of it, because despite some of the issues I have, I know that it has so many good moments and is absolutely gorgeously animated. Also Sawyer is best boy he's my fave and his battle with Ash was one of the best things I've ever seen (my 3rd favorite battle ever).

Sun and Moon: Sun and Moon is simultaneously hilarious and depressing as hell, and I absolutely love it. I don't know if I can say too much because it's been a VERY long time since I've watched SM. It was the first series I watched consistently as it was airing but I also had a lot of stuff going on IRL so by the end I had dropped off just a little bit against my own will. Nonetheless I love so many things about it, between the humor, Ash's found family in Kukui/Burnet, Ash's team, the TRio's team and being so entertaining in this series, Team Skull/Guzma (I find Guzma very attractive lol), and of course Ash winning the Alola League which was amazing to experience and be part of that moment! I love the concept of family in this series and it's just so incredibly heartwarming, hilarious, AND heartwrenching all in one. I really need to do a rewatch of it though.

JN: I'm biting my tongue but I really do not like Journeys lol. I don't really wanna talk about it haha it makes me sad that everything I wanted to happen in the future didn't and it was just so poorly written. The only episodes I like honestly are Lillie/Gladion's return and Paul's return.

I KNOW A LOT OF THIS IS KINDA ALL OVER THE PLACE AND DISJOINTED BUT PLEASE ENJOY MY THOUGHTS and feel free to add yours as well!

[fangsandsoftgrass]

🐾 gotta know all about Cirwedh's pets :D

OMG YESS

Okay, so I'll link this post as a general visual for all her buddies. Most of her animal friends are either ones she made while traveling bc they just liked her vibes and tagged along, or she rehabilitated them. They don't follow her around but instead live in and around her home in Malabal Tor :3

so we already know Gladriel is kinda like her sister since her mom (Mother Bear) took Cirwedh in after she ran away, but she's also her absolute best friend. She was pretty much Cirwedh's FIRST friend. When she was living with her parents, she stayed inside their home or at the village shrine to Y'ffre. She didn't really get to play with other children because of her unstable emotions (girlie was literally a kid name one kid that doesn't struggle with their emotions LOL) so her parents kept her kinda isolated already. Her first-ever friend was a bear :3

Dagger is her squirrel; he's always with her and Glad, either literally in Cirwedh's hair or in the trees; he's her second animal companion. She pulled him out of a river when he was a wee baby squirrel, and she couldn't find any nests in the trees nearby, so she just took him in and raised him. He's her baby :3 She will also literally throw him at people as a distraction because he goes fucking WILD. It's awesome. He loves it.

Bramble is an albino fruit bat that she carries in her pack or pocket during the day and flies around like a scout in the air while she travels on the ground with everyone else. Cirwedh met her in Eastern Skyrim during her time in the Pact. It's funny bc when she was in the P act, she was under the guise of a Nord, and as such, she had to at least pretend she followed their diet. So she would always leave any fruit given to her while in Windhelm out on the windowsill of the place she was staying, and Bramble would come every night and eat it :3 She just went with Cir when she left Windhelm and has been w her since bc she likes the travel and is also trained to be recon

And finally (of the ones she travels with) is RootGrabber, a Groundhog that she was given as a baby in Grahtwood and raised. He was found by a local and apparently had been orphaned by some nasty stoats. He tags along wherever she goes and forages along their travels :> he is instrumental in terms of alchemy because he will sometimes bring her herbs, and she can accept them bc he's an animal and is exempt from the Green Pact.

[burninlovebutler]

GAH i didn't wanna do this bc im a gemini & i talk a lot if im unsupervised lol BUT YALL WERE POSTIN SOME SAPPY SHIT SO I WANTED TO JOIN (so sorry this is gonna be so long i apologize in advance)

this wasn't initially the road i was gonna take while talking about this but ofc if u read any of my writing or know me in any capacity, it shouldn't surprise you that we're getting sad lol

as i stood next to my partner watching the midnight fireworks last night, i had a fleeting thought -

16 year old me didn't think i'd still be here at 26 -

i didn't expect to still be on this earth in 2023

when i was around that age my home life was really shitty and abusive and lonely and my only saving grace at the time was the family i found within the one direction/5sos fandom. there were so many times then that my fandom friends saved me, literally.

i wouldn't be here today without them.

i stopped being in fandoms around 2016 and while i still have MANY long term close friends from that time, we all have gone our separate ways interest wise.

I didn't realize just how much i missed being a part of a community until i joined tumblr again. the austin/elvis fandom welcomed me with open arms & filled me with that same youthful joy and connection as i had when i was 16. and even BETTER bc this fandom has blown me away with how kind and gentle and loving it is

point is - i’m grateful that i AM still here, that i’ve been here long enough to meet you and experience this amazing fandom.

it's insane to me to think i would've never met some of the brightest stars of my days without walking into that theater that day. my year would've been so empty, lonely and sad without you all, so thank you all from the bottom of my cold lil heart - you all showed up in my life when i needed u the most

(something weird about this 1D -> Elvis/Aus pipeline is that when i went back to see the day i saw the movie the first time it was on July 23, aka the 1D anniversary 👀 lil weird)

i initially made this blog solely for my fanfic but i'm glad i branched out - though i still wanted to take the time to anyone who's interacted w my writings, even if it was just help with plot or moodboards. my heart skips a beat when my writing is a point of conversation.

thank you to the beauties who grace my dash everyday, even if we don't talk often 💖

@feverkitten @p-oolshark @pearlparty @avengen @presleys @mrsniallhoran505 @missmaywemeetagain @marooosa @eliseinmemphis @elvisabutler @lovininapinkcadillac @aconflagrationofmyown @austinsmutler @heartbrake-hotel @dre6ming @flwrs4aust @rosaminny @presleysdarling @woundmetender @rainydayz101 @ggwritesstuff @golden-kiwis @lattedreamer @weak-aesthetic @bcofl0ve

and of course to my almost daily babes, my days would be so empty without you all and my heart would be so deflated - i never thought i'd end up with a group like this

@succsessions @lllsaslll @cryingabtab @elvisfatass @loving-elvis @nora-nexus-34 @lavenderelvis @luluthesandgoose @powerofelvis @bisexualwvtson @samfangirls @lindszeppelin @infatuatedharleys @ab4eva @sagesolsticewrites @slowsweetlove @areacodefan @jelliedonut @steph-speaks @star-shard @foreverdolly @purejasmine @oh-my-front-door

and how could i ever forget the two that really roped me in @karamelcoveredolicity @troubleinapinksuit - even though it was through war, violence & lawsuits (lol) that our love was carved from, it is the most magical. i am so honored and so grateful to call you friends

one of my biggest goals for 2022 was to make new friends - ones who are reliable, kind, like-minded, supportive, generous, loving - because i was feeling so lonely & unloved, and to my surprise this goal was met ABUNDANTLY by you all, i really can not stress how much you all mean to me

extra special shout out to @bisexualwvtson for setting up the christmas card exchange, it was probably my favorite part of this holiday season - those cards made my whole christmas and i will cherish them forever

i love you all so much its DISGUSTING how much i love you - i don’t know how i would’ve made it through this year without you all - and it makes me so fucking sad when i think about all the memories that wouldn’t have happened without austin/elvis/you guys - it is because of you all that i have some of the best and happiest memories of this year, thank you ❤️

i hope that we are together for a long long time - i know that i am, i’m here for the long haul 💗 pls be in the nursing home with me breaking hips to Elvis songs

love, mel xx

(I APOLOGIZE IF IVE MISSED ANYONE I TRIED MY BEST TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING MY BRAIN IS TRASH SO IM SO SORRY PLS DONT BE OFFENDED IF I MISSED U I LOVE U)

[elzore-da-great]

Something I wrote from The Learnerer's perspective. Liam is @melodythebunny 's oc.

Keen didn't take the news well. Valorie was back. Again. He knew what to expect at this point. Not too long after, she would leave. Again.

The thought infuriated him. He hated her. There were many reasons why but the biggest and most frustrating one was the way she treated Liam.

Why? Why did she keep coming back just to leave again? The fact that she kept coming back made him think maybe she did care about him. Yet, if she really did care about him she wouldn't keep leaving him like this.

Part of him wished one day she would leave and never return. While that would devastate Liam, it would be for the best.

Keen was abandoned as a child. He turned out fine, right? He didn't need parents. He didn't need anyone. That's what he always told himself. It took him a long time to realize that was wrong. He knew the years of solitude had affected him greatly.

But Keen's parents didn't choose to abandon him from a young age, they died. So why would she choose to abandon Liam?

Maybe if she left for good, Liam would finally get the hint and stop looking up to her.

Keen never got that either, why did Liam still look up to her? Why did he care about making her proud when she was never around?

It wasn't fair. What did she ever do for Liam except make him upset? Keen has been caring for him everyday for years and yet all he is to Liam is some weirdo that married his Dad.

To Keen, Liam is his son just as much as Cordette is his daughter. Yet, no matter what he does he'll always be the "step-parent" to Liam.

Keen doesn't want Liam to feel abandoned like he did. Liam deserves to feel loved, to feel included. So he has always tried to include Liam, show affection in every way he knows how.

The thing is, Keen has never been good with emotions. He's not good at deciphering how someone is feeling and he never knows how someone will react to what he's saying so it can be difficult for him to interact with Liam at times. It doesn't help that the only way Keen knows how to show affection is physically but Liam doesn't seem to like that.

But at least he tries! Valorie doesn't even try!

The fact is, Liam will never be enough for Valorie and Keen will never be enough for Liam.

[wastedonthesebutterflies]

🐸 🍪 🦋 📷

🐸 oh dear, uhhh… lemme ask juno one sec

This is what she says. Idfk. Shes not wrong though. My aesthetic could probably be called brooding vampire + generally a mess

🍪 ooh.. maybe the triple chocolate?? Like, chocolate base + chocolate chips + white chocolate chips

🦋 sleepy, scholarly*, concerning**

📷 this lovely 1899 fanart (not mine, signed in bottom left corner)

*this is slightly theoretical because i am currently exhausted and have several attention problems but hopefully when they are fixed it will be more practically accurate

**i half convinced this person at my school i was a vampire and also apparently people here think i am unsettling before they get to know me and also juno thinks i am decomposing

[carnage-cathedral]

alright. this is Dean Winchester's little Carnage Collective status report. putting it under a cut because it's probably gonna be long and disorganized, but this is my little report on what I've noticed, things that seem significant to me, and general system info.

so we don't know exactly when Seb's earliest alters formed, but we consider the birth of our system to be when I split, which was somewhere around the end of August. I had been conscious alongside Seb for weeks leading up to that, but he didn't realize I was more than just an imaginary friend lol. Seb is missing entire chunks of his memories, especially in early childhood.

we seem to be fictive and non-human heavy. not sure why, that's just how it is. Sebastian himself doesn't even consider himself human anymore. as of this post we have Sebastian (vampiric fallen angel), Dean Winchester (human, Supernatural introject), Party Poison (human, Killjoys introject), Mercy/Massacre (angelic being), Karma (cyborg), Connor (android, Detroit: Become Human introject), Klaus Hargreeves (human, Umbrella Academy introject) and Zachariel (angelic cat being). as of right now, most of our members are not really interested in fronting since there's been so much stress lately. our most active people right now are me, Poison and Klaus. everyone in the system is some kind of gay, trans or acespec. those of us who have set ages all seem to be close to young adulthood (although I'm a little older, closer to 30). something that almost all of us have in common is a fear of being alone. I assume this is related to Seb's past. but for this reason, we usually have at least two people up so we don't get lonely.

almost all of us (or at least those who are more active in the front and interact with the world) have personal items that we've dug up from Seb's stuff and claimed as our own. we refer to them as totems. examples include my clothes and jewelry, Connor's coin, Poison's pants, etc. pretty much everything else is shared, because luckily we all get along.

we seem to have attachments to the music that was being played in the days leading up to each of us forming, and of course our tastes in music vary anyway. some of us have little to no interest in music or media in general, and some of us have personal anthems or playlists that we sometimes use to help ground ourselves.

I have access to almost all of Seb's memories, or at least the ones he could recall. because of this I'm able to kinda give new headmates a sort of mental tour so we're all a little more familiar with the life we've been thrown into. helps us blend in better when we interact with people who don't know we're a system because we can just pretend to be Seb. some of us have source memories as well, and some of us have source trauma that's completely separate from Seb's. sometimes we'll have memory gaps (or something, not good at proper system terms yet) but the beauty of us using tumblr is that we can scroll through each other's blogs to catch up on what's happening and all stay somewhat on the same page. we rely heavily on this platform for our self expression, which is why we all have separate blogs instead of sharing one (if you aren't following them, I suggest that you do. all tagged in the pinned post).

our innerworld or headspace or whatever is still a little abstract. sometimes it's pretty much just a void or foggy expanse. sometimes we can see the front room as if it's an actual room. the interior and furniture seems to take after the Phantomhive house from Black Butler, which is interesting considering none of us are from that source. there's also a large fish tank which appeared alongside Connor. for the first while when it was just Seb and I, our innerworld took the form of my Impala, and we still use a lot of car metaphors and terminology to describe our positions in the system and fronting and all that. we can hear each other's actual voices and see each other's actual forms on the inside, which is also really cool. tallest member is Mercy, at roughly 8 and a half feet, and our smallest is Zach, who is around 4 and a half feet. those of us who are fictives are pretty much identical to our source appearances, with a few minor differences like slight differences in height or minor physical attributes.

roles are still being sorted out. Poison and I seem to be gatekeepers, as we can both somewhat control who fronts. Connor and Zach are not actual children, but we consider them littles to some degree just because of their personalities. Mercy formed as a caretaker for me, but throughout the fallout of our little cut and run situation, she kinda turned into a creature of vengeance. she and Karma are both like that. angry on behalf of Seb or the system, and violent towards those who are responsible for our trauma.

our name, Carnage, came from Seb's old tumblr URL, and we've adopted the anatomical heart as our little symbol.

I personally find it extremely interesting that Seb's eating disorder (which we are trying to recover the body from) did not carry over to any of us. the body is used to eating badly, but none of us besides Seb have a conscious desire to engage in any disordered eating behaviors.

all in all, so far we seem to be pretty good. or at least it's not too hard to handle. some days are rougher, but we lean on each other and our friends here for support. we're very fortunate that everyone gets along and cooperates. Poison and I have become leaders (he calls us the parents of the system lol) and everyone seems to respect our leadership. Sebastian is unfortunately still dormant, although we catch bits of influence from him here and there, so we at least know he's still in here somewhere.

[fionacle]

BTW, what did you think of The Lonely Planet??

Oh, I loved it. A sentient planet is such a cool concept to explore in terms of how it’d emote and such! A character being obsessed with Wander and being so intense about it that even he gets uncomfortable is also interesting. The planet also just had a nice voice lol. Rewatching the show it’s also cool to see that this is one of the later ones that has a reference to older ones, I think the lines about climbing the tallest mountains and whatever is taken from the song that plays when Wander is trying to train Captain Tim! And the planet were super fun like her talking about her core and the moon’s puns like “I find myself incredibly attracted to you.” Not my favorite, but such a nice episode imo :)

[astrangewoman]

Marshal’s papaw is dying, and the veil is spiderweb thin for him right now. he’s been having full-blown conversations with his parents and siblings who have long passed, and Marshal got a video of him looking up and around the ceiling of his living room, where his lil hospice bed is, saying, “it’s beautiful. it’s all so beautiful.” I don’t know what he was seeing, whether it was heaven or the veil or something in-between, but I fully believe he’s seeing something we can’t.

this is honestly the most beautiful death experience I’ve had. when my papaw died, he was so sick and frail that he could no longer speak. he didn’t get to go home from the hospital, and he wasn’t really With Us in the mental sense anymore. he did perk up when my mom (his daughter-in-law) walked in the room, though. he passed not long after she went and visited, like he was waiting for her. Marshal’s papaw goes in and out of knowing what’s going on, but perhaps the most beautiful thing that’s happened is that he’s seeing Marshal as he truly is—not as the granddaughter he once knew. he’s referred to Marshal as “Mark’s son” and hasn’t deadnamed him once, both of which are extremely abnormal. I told Marshal that I suspected that’s what was happening, that he’s seeing Marshal’s true self. it’s been so wonderful to witness.

Marshal’s papaw, who is a church of god preacher, mind you, has also been talking about his past-lives and reincarnation. that’s been extremely interesting to hear about bc it basically goes against everything I was ever taught in my strict religious upbringing. he’s excited for his next life, but something is holding him here, not allowing him to leave yet. I think it’s his love for his wife. I think he’s not ready to leave his soulmate just yet. he’s a mountain man, and I mean that in the very literal sense; the whole family lives in a holler of a mountain where they have always lived for generations. he had premonition dreams, and Marshal does too from time to time. it’s fascinating. I’ve always said the Smokies are magick, but actually witnessing it is something else altogether. he was born on that mountain and now he’s going to die on it too. that’s a powerful thing.

being with my papaw while he died and holding his hand during the process had such a profound impact on me. I was already moderately fascinated by death, but that experience and the feeling of transcending some barrier cracked open something inside of me. I would love to find a way to be more involved with the process with others to help them cope and see the beauty of it all. I’d love to join a threshold choir—which is a choir that sings to people as they die—but there aren’t any in my area. maybe I’ll start one. maybe I’ll become a death doula. I just feel this calling; I don’t know what else to call it.

I’ve also been feeling this sort of awareness (???) recently. like the other day, I said a prayer to the gods and the moon for Marshal’s papaw to have a peaceful and painless journey, and as I was saying it out loud, I got wave after wave after wave of prickly chills on the back of my neck and all over my body, like someone really was receiving it and letting me know they had. I said the prayer 4 times because I felt like I needed to, and the feeling got stronger each time. I also have felt it in the cemeteries we’ve visited recently, like people are reaching out to me—something is reaching out to me. the awareness mostly lives on the back of my neck, but it sometimes sweeps through my whole body, causing me to lose my breath for a second. I feel it in my chest when that happens, like hum. I don’t know what to do with that or where to go with it or what that means, but it feels significant.

[cody-go-explody]

Fellow Neurodiverse peeps/ peeps who suspect they may be neurodiverse!

what is something that you did not realize was a sign of neurodiversity until you actually learned about neurodiversity?

since i have actually learned/found out about neurodiversity..well being a thing! i have noticed that there were actually a lot of signs pointing towards me being neurodiverse from quite a young age, and me and my mom recently looked at the CDC's symptom criteria for both autism and adhd and realised i practically hit every criteria for innatentive type adhd, and some of the symptoms for autism when i was younger as well (our suspicion is that i masked it sort of) and both me, my mom and my grandma are highly sensitive which also turned out to be under the umbrella of neurodiversity (i did not know this until like the beginning of this year which is kind of how i like learned about neurodiversity) and i just wanted to know if anyone else out there, looking back had any signals/signs that they did not realise were signs!

[loderlied]

forgive me if you have mentioned this, but what element(s) is ven connected to as a kineticist and what is her relationship like with her powers?

ah i think i mentioned it before, but only in passing, so i don’t blame you for not having seen it. should’ve put it on her ref sheet… anyways, ven is mainly connected to fire! she’s also able to channel water though. (if she were in wrath i’d totally have made her a blood kineticist tho. shame that it isn’t available in km)

her relationship with her powers is a bit more complicated than what is expected of someone like ven. most people think that she sees her powers as only another tool for her many chaos-causing shenanigans, and they’re useful in fights, nothing more. and while that is partially true, it’s a bit more complicated than that. now would be a good time to bring up ursula temir, vens adoptive mother, lawful good hard ass, fellow kineticist and mentor. with ven being cn i think you can imagine that their relationship is everything but perfect, but ursula, usually ruthless and unforgiving to criminals, met ven when she was a teen and living in the streets, just having escaped a very dangerous household and surviving by doing shitty one-woman plays/musicals and robbing people (ven also has a few rogue levels btw). okay i’m rambling, so to summarize: ven discovers her powers, accidentally sets a whole building on fire, is to be executed for her crimes, ursula, being a very influential woman, convinces her persecutors to let her go, because she saw her younger self in ven. so, ursula trains this chaotic gremlin girl and eventually ends up adopting her. (not officially) they’re almost polar opposites and would never admit they care for each other, but every time ven uses her powers she can’t help but think of the woman who saved her life so long ago…

[vorracle]

What happened to your Instagram account, are you alright?

I have it deactivated. I really want to get off Instagram and don't care that much to post my art there anymore, especially since the AI stuff isn't something I can opt out of. The story and music feature are great, but not really worth the rest of it.

I'm alright, I'm also just dealing with some emotions about someone on there and I need to step away from all that too. I have no hard feelings about the person and I love them to death, it's just some of my own personal kind of stuff.

Doesn't help all of my ex's are still using that as their primary source of social media and the art circle I'm in seems to always have ties to one of my ex's in particular. I can't seem to escape it. Here, Cara, and BlueSky don't have any of them, and I feel much safer to post on these platforms than I do on Instagram.

[plentyofsoup]

speaking about movies - which films and cartoons are your favorite? what can you recommend?

I've been told I have pretty bad taste lol, I tend to prefer surrealist stuff with horror, unique art styles [like stop motion], and/or comedy vibes. I really like stuff that has deeper meaning to it as well.

One I got into recently was Junk Head!

It's all four of those things, and just really sweet and silly as well. It's about a future where humans have basically become robots and are unable to procreate anymore so one man is sent down to a lower world full of mutants to find out a way to save humanity. It's free on YouTube as well

Warning for: gore/violence

I also got really into Wes Anderson movies recently [Isle of Dogs, Fantastic Mr Fox, Asteroid City]

All three are really good. The animation is probably one of my favorite stop motion styles. I love how the characters move.

There's a couple online series I've gotten into a lot as well being Kraina Grzybów TV - Smile Guide, and U M A M I's Interface

I genuinely do not know the actual plot of Smile Guide. Its fake "how too" guides and is very nonesensical. I think it's about a girl who died and is going through hell guided by a giant squirrel? It's very funny as well as spooky.

Warning for: jump scares, loud noises, flashing imagery

Interface follows a clown demon and an immortal man traveling through the world of interface. It's very bitter sweet. I adore Mischief [the clown] a lot.

Warning for: flashing lights

Then there's Gregory Horror Show, which is also available free on YouTube with some missing episodes

Which is about lost souls stuck in a hotel owned by a bastard rat man. The character designs in this show are so good

Warning for: cartoon violence, general adult themes though they're pretty mild

Then recently I finished this one as well that's *also* available to watch on YouTube

Strange hill high follows the three main characters Mitchell, Becky, and Templeton as they attend a very weird school.

It's made with puppets and 3D animation, the character deisgns in this one are also great

Warning for: gross-out humor, this one's aimed at a younger audience so it's otherwise pretty safe.

[anxiousosaurus]

His name is Tiger, but I call him so many things. Tiges, Tigey, Tiger-Muffin are all that include his name, but I also refer to him as Baby, Precious, Baby Precious, Beans, Beanie Baby, Beanie Boy, an Esteemed Gentleman when he's being fancy, Honey Muffin, Mr. Muffin, Muffin Baby. Sometimes I say his legal name is Mr. Tiger Muffin Honey Precious Baby Child. The poor lad doesn't have a chance at knowing what to respond to, so when I call for him I just have to do the " Here Kittty Kitty Kitty!" which always makes me wonder how cats know to respond to that? Do they think of themselves as kitties?

not a dream

People who have pets, drop their names and nicknames you call them in the notes/reblogs/replies/tags/whichever you want.

I think this could be so fun and cute to read.

[marimbles]

Halloween comic two weeks late bc i will never let tamadrien die