#Osdd system

[lorelei-system]

I was thinking about blackout amnesia and switching the other day, and about how, for us, it’s not like “I close my eyes while laying on the couch, and I open my eyes and I’m in bed”, but more like “I suddenly realize that I’m in bed but I don’t remember ever having gotten out of the couch.” And it can be a delayed realization.

Just as an alter switching in can realize belatedly that they’re fronting. Instead of immediately being like “oh, I switched in, I’m *blank*, I’m fronting now”, an alter may have fronted for a while, and randomly go, “oh wait, I’m *blank*! How long have I been fronting?”

I don’t know how common that is, but I figured I’d mention it.

[spikey-ghostz]

Im almost always dissociated, I never know who I am or what's happening, theres so many time gaps, memory loss, and just over all confusion, was better for a little bit but after some stuff I went through it got a lot worse

My life just feels like one big dissociative puddle, where I dont know who I am, whats going on, or whats real, im always just so disconnected from everything

[catandfiddlesystem]

Its me guys I'd accidentally doxx us if I got chatty enough I can't help it :[

plural culture is some alters oversharing, while the others refuse to even share their names

[plurapony]

Regarding Astro (@/kingofantiendos)

So I was mutuals with Astro for a long while! And previously whilst I wasn't really a fan of his actions I just kind of ignored him and sent a private message that I didn't agree with his reply and went on about my day. Kay used to have a separate blog (now deleted) where she let out intrusive thoughts and it would have been hypocritical to call him out whilst one of our parts did a similar thing.

Note: At this point in time, he only really said "imma touch you" a few times which is kinda cringe in a middle school boy kind of way but not inherently harmful in my perspective. Also Kay's blog was deleted as we all agreed it was an unhealthy coping mechanism and it was harming both us and others.

But holy shit. This new stuff that he's been putting out makes me physically fucking cringe when I see it. I am nonbinary but our previous host is a transgender man and seeing Astro's posts feels like a direct blow to the stomach for us. I would have said I didn't think what Astro was doing constituted harassment before but, now? Absolutely undoubtedly harassment. Some of the people he has been regularly interacting with I'm not a fan of personally but I feel bad for their sake. It's gone past immature humour and into 4chan trolling territory and it's disgusting and not okay.

Astro would spam like my posts and reblog complimenting me and my blog which made it really fucking hard to block him because I genuinely felt super guilty (ocpd:[) even though I know I wanted to and I know it had to be done.

But as an anti-endo I wanted to make a statement that Astro does not speak for anti-endos as a whole and he uses it as a guise to get away with pure bigotry and harassment.

He doesn't just harass endogenics, he targets anyone who is even SLIGHTLY accepting of endogenics. Collectively we are anti-endogenic and we have our reasons but there are some of us who are endo-neutral and all of us agree that endogenics are still human and they are still deserving of basic human respect and kindness. This isn't okay, ever.

[IMAGE ID: ponyville is a (pro) endo free zone break dni and get blocked loser! END ID]

[omnium-gatherums]

You aren't cringe just because you express yourselves.

You aren't cringe just because you Exist Online and like having 'cool' and 'aesthetic' names or 'aesthetic' alter profiles.

You aren't cringe for having in-system relationships.

You aren't cringe just because you like dressing in different ways.

You aren't cringe for having non-human alters who may or may not behave like the non-human they are (a dog alter behaving like a dog when they front).

You aren't cringe if you CHOOSE to do things to attempt to make yourself stand out.

You aren't cringe for having a lot of introjects, or having introjects at all.

You aren't cringe for being a large system - whether that's a hundred alters, hundreds, thousands.

You aren't cringe for having alter playlists.

You aren't cringe for drawing yourselves and sharing it online.

You aren't cringe for experiencing your system joy, for being joyful of your system, for loving your system, for loving yourselves, even though you don't enjoy the hard parts of having a CDD.

You aren't cringe just for expressing yourselves and fucking Existing.

It's not cringe, it's not faking, it's not "romanticizing" DID by simply fucking existing and expressing yourselves.

[thebeesystemandmemes]

Be kind to yourselves, amnesia from childhood trauma doesn’t only mean you forgot traumatic memories. It also means you’re missing a lot of memories of pretty important things that you’re expected to have learned during those times.

[uzi-to-earth]

WASSUP PEEPS!!! Its ur girl Uzi back in the house 🔥🔥🔥

[steamedbuncollective]

Could you make a role for a C-PTSD holder that’s attached to the military because of it?

Thank ya

MILITARY-BORN C-PTSD HOLDER

A military-born C-PTSD holder is an alter who holds the memories and/or symptoms of C-PTSD specifically caused or formed by the military.

Teal is used as the teal ribbon represents PTSD and DID, and the light camouflage pattern represents the military.

no credit needed to use this flag/term!

endos do not use this flag. make ur own flag/term.

[killerssideblog]

When someone enters the front room some of us will say "[name] joined the chat", and some of us will say things like "chat, are you seeing this?" Or "someone in chat says [...]" when talking too or about people in the room.

I accidentally did this with a friend of ours today, and asked "oh, [name] joined the chat?" And he didnt even question it. Just agreed.

i love you systems who call your alters "parts"

i love you systems who call your alters "alters"

i love you systems who call your alters "headmates"

i love you systems who call your alters "voices"

i love you systems who call your alters swears

i love you systems who call your alters things that are silly, weird, or normal

dont let anyone tell you what to call them <3

[traumagenic-positivity]

reminder that you don't have to feel terribly miserable about being a system!! you can enjoy it!! it saved your life, and I understand!! don't listen to people saying you have to hate it to be a "real" system. you're valid whether you hate it or love it <3

[stormyaxolotl]

System pfps

ekko from arcane

art credits: official [9x]

[nidotrans]

embrace the cringe parts of yourself, go hug your alters /silly

Piscín (He / Sé)

[doomsdayradio]

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[plurapony]

"anti-psych" this "misinformation" this "endogenic plurality" this

clearly you are passionate about the subject but i promise you posting links on tumblr is doing absolutely nothing!!! for your cause. i mean that with my full chest. your posts will eventually get buried and you are not making a difference.

why not instead, go to university? use your interest in the subject to get to an influential position? why not get to a position where instead of linking studies you can be the one making the studies?? making the research papers???

all discourse on tumblr at the end of the day is really really dumb and it doesn't do anything but incite arguments with other tumblr users.

genuinely. if you care about something then actually put in work so you can make a difference.

[IMAGE ID: ponyville is a (pro) endo free zone break dni and get blocked loser! END ID]

[omnium-gatherums]

I don't know how else to repeatedly explain to people and really get across to people just how "amnesia doesn't work like that" and "you would think that, but that's just not how it works" so I will simply give the example of me telling my therapist "like when DID symptoms and shit say "do you get told of things you said/did that you don't remember?" I don't know! Probably! But I wouldn't know!" and her just nodding and saying "Yes You Do."

Too many people think that if you had DID and you had amnesia, you would know it and it would be immediately obvious and undeniable to you and others around you.