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Uh.... Love how.... Instead of gently reassuring me or such whenever I say something really bad about myself Oliver just sigh loudly/grunt and then go to argue against me and finally gently tell me the opposite :')
#miranda talking shit#Me: no one cares about what i think...#Oliver: -loud groan-🙄 ok who said that except you? No one. I care about your opinions. I want to hear what you think#I meam then he went on a little side note to clarify 'oh i dont care that much about hearing it but i want to hear it bc i want to have an#Discussion with you' (very on brand. Cant just say something like caring about someone without adding not like i care after lol)#Hes probably tired of my insecure shit but he still goes so hard every time i say something. Ive said im fat/similar three times and all#Times he took it as an personal attack i honestly love it. Not met anyone who goes through all kinds of tones in one ... Time#Its refreshing. I know ive known him for soon three years but i would say we've only been friends for two#But hes still so refreshing in his way of thinking and talking. I think i like how he's not treating me... Intentionally softer/gently bc#Of how i am or bc of our situation? If he thinks im wrong or say something stupid he'll say so straight up. Im used to people being too#Scared to do that because they know i cry easily or something similar. No he's just like ... I'll say whatever i think. Yet hes also way#Too nice. The amount of patience in that lil guy is big. If i was more brave and gave less shits about what others thinks id tell him this#Stuff. But i know hes not... Good with that sort of things. Technically no one im close with is really lmao. So i just scream lovingly#About them on here. Everyone is so nice to me and its just something i wish i could express clearly to others#Instead id probably ramble and start to cry if i try to put it into words. My heart just big and im luv people thanks
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WIBTA for asking my coworker to stop giving me unsolicited advice?
this is really low stakes and petty workplace stuff, so sorry in advance lol
i work in the warehouse section of a furniture store. i work only 3 days a week due to disability. the coworker in question is a minor who has been working here a couple weeks longer than i have. i am an adult (almost 21) and this coworker is a highschooler (i think a senior but im not sure).
i am the only afab person in the warehouse area, though i am trans and use they/them pronouns. some of the other coworkers i have in the back are very.. condescending sometimes, but theyve either stopped or i can avoid them.
(examples: one of them wont let me talk if i try to have a conversation with him. he will active speak over me if i try to have a conversation with him. he does this to all the afab workers, but none of the amab ones so i avoid talking to him. another used to take what i was doing out of my hands and do it for me if he thought i was doing it wrong. he has since stopped, but i avoid asking him questions because he gets really condescending about answering them.)
this coworker in specific really grinds my gears for very silly and petty reasons (music taste, made a big deal abt my pronouns, leaving piles of cardboard that he wont let anyone touch while hes working but will leave before taking care of it, etc.) but recently he’s been giving me advice on how to do things that i am already doing.
for example, we recycle a specific kind of box to get reused by our shipping facility so they get set aside instead of put in the cardboard crusher. i will gather the cardboard from upstairs to take down, and while i am putting the specific boxes on the pile to be recycled he will pull me aside to remind me where the boxes go.
just today, i was opening and unboxing some containers and putting them in their place on the warehouse shelving. i was through more than half of the box when he came up to me and asked if i knew where the containers were supposed to go and then pointed them out to me.
i try my best to give this guy the benefit of the doubt because it feels really weird to have this one sided beef with a minor, but ive started getting icy with him because its frustrating when most of our interactions are him telling me how to do that things im already doing. next time he tried to give me advice, im debating telling him something along the lines of “appreciate the help, but i’ll ask you a question if i need help”
i think i might be the asshole bc i might be reading too much into the situation and he might be trying to genuinely help me (seeing as i work very few hrs a week and he probably works more than i do). but at the same time, i dont need someone who’s been working only barely longer than i have telling me how to do my job.
WIBTA if i asked him to stop?
What are these acronyms?
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hello aims!
two days ago i came out to my mama as bisexual. although, i dont think she understood the meaning of bisexuality because she asked me if having a boyfriend before chnaged my view and if i still loved yoongi from bts LMAO.
anyway, the process was surely difficult and unexpected. i told her because she straight up asked me if i was a lesbian. i quickly told her no at first because i was nervous for her reaction but as soon as i said no, she told me, “ill still support you and love you no matter what!” with a smile so that gave me comfort and reasoning to just out myself to her. i asked what brought this up abd she was telling me she saw my tiktok reposts about loving my girlfriend. so i was like shit but i waited a couple mins before doing so then i told her and her reaction was far different then when she asked me. her face looked different and her attitude was different. she then told me im not mad at you and told me “i dont like it because of our religion” i was silent. i expected a hug of some sort or another “i will support you.” i didnt get that but whatever i stayed strong. she then kept saying she wasnt mad and she wasnt going to tell anyone. i was like okay and then the subject changed.
an hour or two went by, i was playing a game with my girlfriend (my mother doesnt know about her because after that reaction, i couldnt do it.) i received a message from my mother for me to think about liking girls and if thats really what i want basically. i was shocked. i didnt know what to do or say to her. i waited a couple mins as i cried and then i accessed the situation. i told her how im still me and how i understand that shes shocked, but saying this was super hurtful. she apologized, telling me she knows she cant chnage my feelings, but if me being gay was anything that she did or if i was raised wrong. i told her no and how it was never her or my dad because the both raised me great. she then proceeded to tell me shes scared and overprotective because theres hate in this world. i assured her im fine and always have been fine and even went on her level to explain that God would love me no matter what. that he loves all of us no matter what and she liked the message so i assumed she felt okay. she then proceeded to ask if i loved yoongi from bts still LMAO i was like girl yes!!!! she then told me how she wouldn’t tell anyone again and how if i ever need to talk to someone shes there for me. she said she would always love me and never abandon me then that was it.
overall, im feeling okay. somewhat embarrassed and regretful for telling her when i thought she would be fully okay with it! i still think shes still processing.. idk i cant fully be with her and think if shes mad or embarrassed to have me as a daughter. i say embarrassed because she told me she wasnt going to tell anyone because she didnt want anyone to say anything to her not like its their business. although i understand her view of oeople coming at her, it feels like shes embarrassed. idk it feels hurtful still. i just want to like redo my coming out moment😭😭😭 i never wanna experience that kind of feeling again. its also hard too because my girl loves sending me gifts each holiday so im likeHoldup.. now i cant even say its from a friend or else she will think its a girlfrienf which it is but i cant say that! im scared to even bring up the fact i got a girl. aims this is truly scary. idk what to do.
hi bb !! i wanted to say how proud i am of you for your coming out and i feel honored that you opened up to me about your situation. i’m sorry that this moment didn’t turn out as you were expecting and that you mom seems to be giving you mixed reactions on this situation that can be confusing. maybe give her some time to process and then answer any questions she might have bc it came sometimes be hard for people to wrap their heads around something they don’t fully understand. no matter what, never let her change who you are and what you love. again, im very proud of you and i am wishing you only the best in this world. you deserve everything.🤍
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edit: i wrote this like an hour or two after the episode. was in a really dark place. am only in a slightly LESS dark place. just want to emphasize that i dont actually. blame. djenkins or like. idk. i cant tell how i feel because i don’t want to blame creatives for the effect their narratives have on me personally. i dont want to make a bigger deal than is necessary i just dont know what is right and wrong in this scenario. sorry. ive seen people saying blaming him or talking about this is bad. and im just in The Horrors with my mental illnesses so i’m paranoid i’m doing something wrong here. I’m not saying djenkins meant for this to be the result. i dont think he would at all believe that. i think he meant for the best to happen. its not his fault or responsibility that i feel this way and that others feel this way. i’m mentally ill. i am not the arbiter of truth or sanity. i don’t want to delete this because its a marker of a vent/emotion/situation i went through. but it does not reflect my current beliefs entirely.
christ alive maybe think about shit for a minute like. to be like “i like when mentor figures die so i wanted izzy to die for eds growth bc he was like a mentor to ed”. ed spent the entirety of the first two episodes abusing the fuck out of izzy, izzy nearly killed himself. izzy got his leg cut off.
and then we think “okay. well clearly, izzy isnt coping well because theres no way that was his actual fault” yk. like sane rational people who have been victims of abuse in the past and used similar coping mechanisms to protect ourselves and our images of our abusers because we loved them.
we think “the show can’t possibly be telling us that izzy deserved it.” and then. he says “i provoked you. its my fault you attacked me.” and its not criticized or shot down or retaliated against. he deserved to get abused because he was harsh and wanted blackbeard to exist because without him he felt unimportant to ed. because he needed that closeness with ed but was denied because of their lifestyle.
what you end up with isn’t a mentor figure who went through the horrors and then died after a fruitful life. you end up with a man who was severely traumatized, suicidal, drinking to cope, telling the other man that serially abused him that it was okay because he was asking for it. a man who was just discovering he could be safe now dying immediately after.
i dont care if thats how redemption arcs or character arcs are supposed to go, if you are supposed to give this character everything and then kill him because his purpose was served. that message will cause so much harm to a lot of people. it already has.
please can someone talk to me or something. engage with me. i dont feel good. im feeling really really bad.
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MAKE THEM FUCK LIKE RABBITS IN TBE NEXT CHAPPPPPPP. Like wdym bae u got the athlete stamina? Physical touch is your love language? You've been dying to touch me? my cooter won't let him leave till I've had my fill (pun intended) 😀😀😀😀
Ok jokes aside just finished reading the recent chap + the headcanons and oh god I have THOUGHTS. Kai and his loser clique can all rot, leave it to insecure men to try dragging you down to their level because your ambition scares them and reminds them of just how incompetent they truly are. I'm not a film major but in somewhat similar humanities field and personally I could relate so much to that scene of a group of guys putting a lone girl in such an intimidating situation just to "teach her a lesson" because they consider themselves experienced. Like go to hell. Kudos to her for immediately slapping that cunt and putting kai in his fucking place.
And as for our main couple oh my god 😭 yn you broke my heart by what you said to gojo (I can't imagine how terrible she'd feel once she finds out his past like it's just so heartbreaking to have lost so much and have to hear that you have it easy. Ily bby toru), but watching her accept that she was wrong and how they both communicated really warmed my heart. Fucking finally he admitted he likes her and wants to be with her. Now go be w your girl!!
Thank you for this chapter!😙 it was well worth the wait and I've been in such a good mood ever since reading it. Thank you for your efforts 🫂
like rabbits 😭😭😭🤣🤣 i am unfortunately putting gojo in celibacy camp for next chap bc he needs to master abstinence🧍🏻♀️it’s a 7-day program so we’ll see if he survives /joking. YOUR COOTER COMMENT HAS ME DYING
“leave it to insecure men to try dragging you down to their level because your ambition scares them and reminds them of just how incompetent they truly are”
just exactly ditto. exactly this. i’ve no words to add, u 100% slayed w this. kiss 💋
im happy (but also not very happy) that u resonated w the bar scene. obv not so happy bc i hate that you’ve had to go through that but i rly hope it was some sort of representation for what you’ve had to face :””) i swear men who try to sabotage women’s careers bc of their own insecurities r the scum of earth
AND YES aaa reader’s dialogue in the argument 💔💔 it was so out of line but w everything she’s been dealing w i think it was just a cumulation of all the build up. it felt real to write that part bc ive been in situations where i’ve really liked men who just cannot show up for me the way i need them to, and just turning them into a “villain” was the easiest way to get over them, and i think that’s what was going through reader’s mind in that moment :”) but yes she apologized n i don’t think satoru holds it against her all that much bc he understands her well, but oof yea big chance the regret is gonna bite her down the line
SORRY FOR THE LONG RESPONSE BACK BB i’m so happy you enjoyed the chapter n you’re in a good mood after reading it omg 🥺💕 thank u so freaking much for the ask
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Hey, rereading some of our old convvwos and nowwv I'm wwvondering:
Wwve'vvwe seen howwv Dual handles Dog being sick (not wwvell)
But, wwvhat about the revvwerse? Howwv wwvould Dog tackle, say, wwvalking in on something like Three Paws In The Grave's incident?
SO this took a sec both bc zzz and halfway thru my brain went “....do a drabble-”(my man-) “Drabbles Explain Better-” so. both once i finish up HF
dual 🤝 dog: im handling this soooo well why do you think im NOT handling the situation well?? <- is actively starting to eat drywall
okay but Hilariously, while dog has my low empathy projection (equal parts a “....okay that's enough crying. at me. stop that" and deer in the headlights what the FUCK. do I do here??) they also are good at kind of. problem solving taking control of a situation when necessary? turn the emotions Off, get it handled and Then have a meltdown later
(that's why for smaller injuries or illnesses they're just. sitting on him. “Ampora take the damn drugs” “fuck you-” “i will force feed you like a god damn cat” "hot")
BUT LIKE THREE PAWS IN THE GRAVE,,,i think there's a quick automatic assessment of a) something is Wrong with sati, b) he looks worse than usual (bc dog is used to commiserating with him about Fuck Ow Bones, Fuck Ow Mouth etc) an then c) oh. little guy. puppy noises. ...huh
it's the last one that makes it easier actually, combo they know what they're like in puppy mode and kids are paradoxically easier to handle than adults
they are. So Much softer with him than normal, gentle coaxing and a steady stream of “I'm right here baby, I got you, you're okay, let's get some food/water/medicine in you huh, oh you're bein so brave sugar ain't you?” etc
it's only once he's resting again that they just. Stare intently. where saturn was “oh fuck they're dyin i can't wwvatch” dog is halfway convinced he WILL die if they look away while their mind is going a million miles a minute of “how can I help/i can't help/he's gonna die/it'll be your fault somehow/he's gonna be okay/hes gonna” all overlapping at once (with also an internal shaking him. what is going on. why did you not tell me. ampora i am going to drag this information out of you kicking and screaming)
an even once he's up and Some Degree of less terrible they're fussing for Awhile. asmr you want to do your job and your weird rat keeps trying to contain you to A Nest- oh they have handcuffs- QUIT IT-
#jackals barks#saturn tag#ship: hate made us feel so alive <3<#dog voice you are a fiend a bastard i hope you pewish then i shall know peace-#also dog when sati is Suffering: aaaaAAAA FUCK NOT LIKE THAT-#long post#the handcuffs is only half a joke#they have Considered It
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omg i loved your soulmate troupe… im so inspired by it but i have a question?? How do you find such great like “big boy words” like anachronistic and such and perfectly incorporate them in without sounded pompous :(( i admire your vocab its so beautiful
this is a really interesting question, and i'm not sure i know the answer to it!!! speculation/advice under the cut
i think, in the context of soulmate trope, it may be that the reader character is established as this observant, detail-oriented person who analyses/notices a bunch of mundane things, so it makes some sense that that sort of person would have a wider vocabulary in order to describe things better. like, try picturing yaoyorozu using the word mellifluous versus kaminari using it. it would sound weird and pretentious for kaminari to use words like that, because he's established to not be too bright and doesn't use that sort of language in general. yaoyorozu, though, we know she has to have a wide body of knowledge to utilise her quirk the best she can, so it would make sense that she's come across that word and may casually use it. so it may not seem pretentious for soulmate trope bc it feels in character for the POV reader character.
i think the probable, most comprehensive answer is that i've just been doing it for a long time. been reading a lot. been writing a lot. which i know is not a fun answer, because it's better to have immediately applicable advice.
here's my best attempt regardless, though:
if you're wondering if anything you yourself wrote is pretentious bc you use bigger words, it's probable not actually pretentious. it's your brain trying to kill you. you've looked at your work a lot, so you're not seeing it with fresh eyes; you're seeing your writing process behind every sentence. you're most likely fine.
2) our current literacy crisis involves a strange undercurrent of an aversion to "purple prose," which, normally, means language so flowery and over-the-top that it makes a work incomprehensible, but with the current literary scene has been watered down to mean something along the lines of "heavy description and figurative language." which can include using vocabulary we don't encounter in everyday life. people can tell you it's cringe to use them. it's not, and even if it were, cringe is dead, and we are free.
3) nothing wrong with being pretentious!!! we are alive!!!! indulge in the senses and in luxuriant descriptions!!!!!
4) specificity in language is good. it's not pompous if it's the most specific, appropriate word for the situation. it communicates the ideas better
5) some words may seem pretentious because of the story's context. has the story established that it only uses fifth-grade-level words? then of course it would feel out of place and pretentious when there's suddenly a five-syllable word.
6) as for finding words, well. besides reading, there's lots of ways to find different vocabulary. my dumbest but most effective advice: look up lists of vocabulary words that seventh graders are supposed to be quizzed on weekly. you want lists that are divided into, like, fourteen units, bc that means it's a year-long endeavour and designed to amp up in difficulty. yes, you'll know like 97% of the words, but there'll be some weirdly specific terms thrown in there. keep track of the ones you've never heard of or the ones you want to re-cement in your vocabulary. so, we start with seventh grade bc it's not intimidating, bc it's for fucking seventh graders. but keep going all the way up to 12th grade. all those words you collected--put them in a planner or daily calendar with their definitions; commit to learning one word a day and using it in conversation that day. i am slightly embarrassed to say i did this for years. nowadays, you can buy word-a-day tearaway calendars, but i liked having the customisation for words i knew i wanted to learn. i remember picking a bunch of old-fashioned, sexual-adjacent words for like two weeks in a row bc i wanted to write a loki fanfic.
anyway. i hope any shred of that helps lol. and wow i'm really flattered that you'd ask me about it, gosh!!!! thank you so much for your question and for reading my silly stories!!!! xx.
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i am incomprehensibly angry today. my mother and her fucking republican boyfriend are out getting a dog and i cannot TELL you in writing how stupid of a decision this is.
we have a cat. i love him very much but he has some medical issues. he has a tendency to itch at his face, presumably due to the buildup on his chin and poor cleanup of his food dishes.
we are poor. we had to hold off his vet visits for about an entire year and a half because my mother didn't have the money. it was REALLY bad; he used to have a bunch of gashes near his eyes damn well constsntly because of how terrible and itchy he was all the time. we got him to the vet in early september and his meds have helped him. a lot!! hes okay now & all healed up.
but the vet visit was very very expensive and my mom could only afford it with some kind of vet card? idk but my point is vet visits are very expensive and we can't afford to take our cat there regularly.
and suddenly in comes my fucking mother off to get a puppy because idk her boyfriend wanted it So so bad because yeah? geniunely ridiculous.
she forgets to wash the cat's chin repeatedly, which is for his itchiness. the reason WHY he was sick was because my mother apparently never cleaned his food dish in the four years of taking care of him once. 2 of our previous cats were too obese to clean themselves properly, and our elderly cat had so much buildup on her bottom that when i think about it it makes me want to fucking throttle my mother. she adopted four cats on complete impulse, which led to us inevitably giving them away when no landlord wanted to deal with the wear and tear of having 4 cats. neither my mother or her shithead want to play with buddy for the required time and i can't do much about it because i'm at school all day and when i get home im exhausted and hungry. our cat is also fairly anxious and he DOES NOT like new things; he growls at the mailman and runs away whenever i come home from school.
and now, with all of these problems she wants to get a fucking PUPPY with our anxious adult cat? EXCUSE ME? EXCUSE ME???? Do you not see a flaw here. Is there not something wrong here. Hello. Can anyone hear me
she had the balls to act surprised when i had an immediate negative reaction to her announcing the dog to me in the car. ok. i don't get a say in it bc im her daughter. not like i live here or anything. nahhhh that'd be so crasy
im not even against the idea completely as long as i have my own space where the dog isn't allowed to go! i like dogs theyre silly! but my mother is the type to buy from backyard breeders because its a cheap animal. i doubt she even knows about FIP or bird flu or ANYTHING like that. that dog is not going to be fucking trained or socialized properly i know it in my BONES. and im not even sure she knows how to introduce the cat to the dog. where the hell is my cat going to stay while they get used to each other? my room has poisonous plants in it and the office is almost completely empty, i wouldn't want him staying in there for a long period of time. my cat can't stay in my room especially since i'm gone in the mornings and my mother works while i'm at school, so there's nobody to supervise him. he eats plants and the plants will make him sick/kill him possibly
do we even have enough money for a dog bed? dog toys? for it to be sterilized? enough time for it to play safely? time for it to walk outside? proper training? i bet you the answer is no. lmfao
this entire situation is just so fucking STUPID and irresponsible. i will admit that i do have a hand in this, and i'll try to rectify it more especially with my cat's chin wipe thing. but i have to deal with this fucking shit until i move out in 3 years. what happens to our cat when im gone? is he going to turn into another Lola? completely inable to manage himself because my mother is too distracted with the dog? will she get MORE dogs like she did with our cats?
im going to kill everyone in this HOUSE!!!!!!! FUCK ALL OF YOU SERIOUSLY AND FUCK YOU EVEN MORE FOR NOT TALKING TO ME ABOUT IT IN ANY DEPTH
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do you have any evidence about shittyclive being a groomer? genuine question
im glad you asked because he literally groomed me!
note for all of this i am going to be using he/him, i don't keep up with him enough to know exactly what pronouns he uses, if its anything different please tell me and ill update this post. he may be a groomer but im not a twat. also please be patient because my chronological memory is Horrible so i may not remember things in the correct order, but i have all of this written down and i Know that all of this happened
this all happened bc of a server i made called DAAC in ~May 2020 - that's where i met neil and also his friend K (not gonna name em but iykyk), along w a few other people. most of the ppl in that server were obsessed w sexualising me, especially neil. im not abt to put my age on the internet but it was. yknow. not fun, and everyone in that server knew my age btw because i trusted them and did not think that all This would happen (he also drew nsfw stuff and showed it to me)
anyway to cut a very long and unimportant story short, dated a guy, he was crazy, broke up w him and he stalked me march 2021 to ~july 2021, in that time neil attempted to pose as a sort of "protector" and in his OWN WORDS a father figure. side note my stepdad died in feb 2021 and i grieved too much and he dropped a frankly quite ass song abt it but i digress. yeah we got really close knit we were a "father-son" duo and when i tell you the ONLY THING HE TALKED ABOUT WAS SEX i wish i was kidding but our only topics were him telling me abt what he wants to do to his man of the month or how hes suicidal and AGAIN, absolutely inappropriate at the age i was. this lasted for so long that i began to break down entirely and becoming suicidal, also resorting to drinking and hurting myself, even going to crisis teams along with missing a LOT of school because i had become entirely dependent on him. basically he had me on a leash and was using me as a crisis hotline AND a sex hotline. i tried to cut him off multiple times in an emotional state and this obviously wasn't the best thing i couldve done but i literally saw no other choice. oh also during this time he suggested i have DID and i had a counselor for my stepdads death and. god damn he may be a weirdo but he was correct there ill give him that (he did also try to recount my trauma to work out how i worked as a system which. i shouldnt even have to explain how thats just odd)
(another thing i just remembered he sent inappropriate pictures to me and my friend, ill put her recount of it at the end of this)
one day i spoke to K, realised that was i was doing was wrong and attempted to talk about the situation with neil to which he was like. oh yeah i cant do this anymore bye and when i went to tell K he did the same. this was when i was in school which was rare, i just entirely broke down (also worth mentioning every time he told me about being suicidal i mentioned getting a therapist but he said he couldn't and i would also get all shaky and sob uncontrollably and basically be unable to function THATS HOW BAD THE DEPENDENCY WAS) and i had to be picked up bc it was that bad
i texted his instagram begging for at least and explanation and that i loved him and wanted to talk to him again (<- so manipulated it was insane) and he was like yeah but only on weekends and i felt such STRONG RELIEF and then when i went to sleep he went sike lol bye
remember the bf from earlier? yeah he faked his identity multiple times so i (at the time) was used to keeping tabs on people since. stalking. and i didn't want the guy to get the jump on me. so i kept tabs on neil for a bit, which i do regret and am sorry for, and one day he just disappeared? and honestly? i celebrated. also the ex from earlier faked his death multiple times so neils attempt at faking it this way was a dig at that specific incident. it didnt really work because i think about a day ish later he admitted to my friend (the same one from earlier, ill call her V) that he did it and wasnt dead
then he "apologised" to me and while i may not have screenshots for the most part he mentions what he did in the apology which is just. outright admission FROM HIM about what he did. he also admitted the apology was a total lie on his blog which i find funny because he frames it as a "gotcha" when i didnt even accept the apology?
also found out from an anonymous person who knew neil that apparently hes meeting up w people and also is violent w his friends which. ew
ok heres the evidence
(censored parts are for my own safety)
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ive seen the argument that rhys killed the winter court children thrown around so much but thank you for saying that bc i was starting to think i read it wrong. kallias only agrees to help the night court when it's made clear that rhys didnt kill the children and that amarantha had another mind reader. and they even become allies because kallias and viviane are at some celebration at the housw of wind later in the books right? if it had been rhys none of that would happen.
there are a lot of reasons you can not like rhysand he was always meant to be a morally grey character (imo sjm made him too nice actually) but im always confused when people keep using this reason because it might be the only one he was proven innocent
i loved the story dont get me wrong but reader in that is closer to hybern than to rhysand like the whole thing with the ic is that they all did terrible things but with a reason and she's just a bitch for a lack of a better word
i also felt both az and rhys were justified in how they treated her, i mean it was tough to read but she went way too far in how she was talking about elain, calling her all type of misogynistic names just because azriel and her are together so ofc azriel lost it on her (and not even that badly like he meant everything he said and none of those were lies) and then ofc the last straw for rhys was her threatening to dig up the archeron dad, that's a disgusting thing to do and rhys doesnt play about feyre. also if she has had this personality for centuries i can only imagine the list of shit the ic has against her
id love to read more of this story but i think it's pretty clear she's a villain, not even morally grey like the ic. i do love villain stories though so im excited lol
I mean, with the Winter Court situation, I’m pretty sure that’s what happened? 🫣 I don’t have the books on me at the moment so I can’t check but I agree it would be weird if Kalias and Viviane came over for the solstice with the death of a dozen children between them, so I’m inclined to believe Rhys wasn’t the one who committed that particular crime for Amarantha 🫠😭
And with Rhys being morally grey, I feel like it gets a little confusing because we don’t really get to see what he’s like as a character without Feyre? I feel like he probably took a bit of a (positive) turn now that he has his mate if that makes sense? Also the fact he isn’t under the pressure of maintaining a mask so thoroughly has probably contributed to who he’s become? I’d really like to get a scene though where the morally grey part bleeds through, perhaps if someone’s threatened in a future book? 👀
Either way, he’s a fictional character (to many’s upset 😔) so I suppose his personal ethics aren’t a particular point of contention when held against some problems occurring in our world 😕
‘i loved the story dont get me wrong but reader in that is closer to hybern than to rhysand’
You do not have to worry about a thing, she is fully intended to be easily and actively dislikable though I don’t think it’s an issue if some people take her side since this is a work of fiction 🧡💛
However, I am really interested in seeing what sides people take when it comes to what she does and her motivations, as well as what she holds dear and who she’s loyal to when it comes down to it! I’ll be curious if anyone will feel her actions might be more easily justifiable or at the very least understandable once more of her past is dug up? Whether people feel a bad deed is always a bad deed irrespective of circumstance, or whether the context and environment surrounding an action should be taken into consideration before passing judgement :)
‘calling her all type of misogynistic names just because azriel and her are together so ofc azriel lost it on her’
To be perfectly honest with you, I really enjoyed getting to write the parts because of how inappropriate they were given the situation 🤦😭 Her trying to convince Az to be with her and then insulting the person he claims to be in love with 🫣
‘and then ofc the last straw for rhys was her threatening to dig up the archeron dad, that's a disgusting thing to do and rhys doesnt play about feyre.’
I mean, not only is she a prominent figure in society, but she also has some pretty intense power readily disposable, and she doesn’t really act like she’s responsible enough to handle it (but we’ll inevitably examine those parts, too, because it would be weird if she just came into all that power without any sort of accountability or understanding of death and life, right? 👀)
‘id love to read more of this story but i think it's pretty clear she's a villain, not even morally grey like the ic. i do love villain stories though so im excited lol’
Honestly I’m still figuring out what’s going to happen in the end? She’s going to get with Az, but I’m indecisive on whether it’ll be a clean ending or not? I feel like if it is going to be like that, there’s a line that she won’t be able to cross, whereas it might be quite interesting to see how people try to reconcile her actions while still keeping in line with their own morals?
Also witnessing through her actions what sort of person she’s become and what situations have led up to that (and whether there are other people partially responsible for the things that have happened)
Either way, I think it’ll be exciting to figure these things out! There’s still so much of the story yet to be decided on, so it’s going to take some time for a next part to come together! And thank you so much for writing in!! I absolutely adore getting to read thoughts like this, it makes me so happy to know you’re invested to this level 🧡💛
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i have no idea what it is like to have such a following as Thomas does so im probably speaking out of turn and my opinion is wrong but. speaking purely as a fan myself, i can’t help putting myself in the shoes of the people Thomas replies to saying stuff like this (by “this” mean like the reply above and those replies where he has expressed disapproval of criticism or questions about how long the next video will take x x)
one thing here is alright. i like that he said they shouldn’t “tag him” in stuff like this instead of just vaguely implying that they shouldn’t tweet stuff like this at all, like he has done in other occasions. so that’s good. i think it’s fair for people to post whatever they want but to also expect them to not tag the creator in comments that aren’t wanted.
however i don’t like that he’s suggesting that a single tweet like this can make his skin condition worse? im not defending the original tweet because i can see how it sounds very insensitive considering thomas’s situation. but im speaking only about thomas’s response and. like maybe if you’re getting so worked up about a single tweet (when you’re a social media personality that probably gets tagged in hundreds of posts daily) and it gives you the amount of stress that can physically affect your health then you should maybe work on that yourself? because social media is what it is and rude comments aren’t going anywhere.
if i am wrong, though, and the right thing to do is that all fanders be careful of what they say because Thomas can’t help what tweets he sees because he gets tagged in them and also bc the twitter algorithm is annoying, and if for certain criticisms it’s certainly best to try our best keep them away from him because they’ll directly hurt him then ! i still think! that he should NOT target the individual person in public by replying to their tweet and telling them off there.
i think (again, speaking as a fan, putting myself in other fans’ shoes and thinking that this could happen to me) i think that he should post his own PSA saying “please don’t tag me in comments about x or y” and/or dm the person directly to tell them that the tweet hurt him and to not do that in the future.
because even if a tweet is rude and insensitive, the one posting it wasn’t asking for thomas to bring it
- thousands of views and a bunch of unwanted comments
- who knows how many angry fans telling them off for what they did or being passive aggressive in thomas’s comments
- a bad reputation in the fandom as “that person thomas had to call out because they were rude to him”
- the guilt of apparently personally worsening Thomas’s stress and health problems, said by Thomas himself.
i don’t think those are fair consequences to writing a poorly worded, insulting tweet. maybe it’s just me but i think it’s too much.
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finally put together my thoughts about last glass chapter, idk how comprehensible it all is but I dont have the words to praise it how it deserves
the use of the pythia in the ch27 is super interesting to me
there are moments where I wonder if he doesnt have a bit of a hard time letting go of the pythia title, its all he had for a big part of his life after all, it was what have him purpose in life
and the problem wasnt inheritly in the title or the role, it was in the rules and how he was treated, he deserved to be respected as a person even when he was the pythia
that cechovs syringe was really cool, at first it was scary bc the priests intentions were definitely to use it on wilbur and I really like how it went from a fear factor to our saving grace AND created wilburs whole dilemma about taking tommy away from his goddess but saving him
by having the priest have it at first and wilbur taking it it felt really smoothly incorporated into the story instead of wilbur just finding it somewhere or something
I hate how they blame wilburs change on the deathlings, the fact that he turned against clara, the tattoo choice, everything
even now its like they cant give credit for any decisions, for having a mind of his own and just cant imagine being a person without being the pythia
or even that hes someone while having the role of the pythia
and it just hurts to see so much
thats why schlatts change in attitude mustve hurt so much
clara failed wilbur and the other pythias that came before him so bad
like I understand that all those rules are man-made, but it feels like she should protect them when she uses them for her visions yk
is the curse real? like do you personally work with it as real? or is that something left up for interpretation (or will we learn next chapter maybe)? bc tommy was cursed and he did die but at the same time coming to the palace was dangerous in nature and the actual killing was enacted as jacks revenge and that has been going on way longer than tommy was cursed, everyone cursed was kinda set up for their death beforehand they even got cursed in a way
whether it is real or not it was yet another thing that built up to the moment of Wilbur deciding to save tommy and played a big role in it bc it was thanks to the curse that wilbur knew that tommy doesnt want to die and has been praying to krisitin bc of it and it looked like shes ignoring him and all this helped wilbur decide to save him
and I think he wouldnt have saved tommy without knowing all this. it goes against the deathlings' religion (at least i think? it was murder so im not sure sure but I think it was wrong on jacks side but on tommys side I dont think it matters how he died but taking him away from death is wrong) and tommy actually worshiped kristin of his own choice and wilbur knows that and he also knows what its like not to be respected
now ofc I cant be sure what wilbur wouldve done bc that crimeboys bond is STRONG and also in the heat of the moment, accounting it was murder and all, but still
oh my god
writing this I realised that you could say THE CURSE SAVED TOMMYS LIFE this is insane I am obsessed, I think this look on it makes it all really beautiful, storytelling wise
very interested in how theyll handle the fact that jack tried to kill tommy bc honestly this situation was very different from when tommy did it, it was PLANNED
glass!jack and glass!niki you are so interesting to me I am rotating you in my brain constantly, their path of thinking has captured me
I hope that schlatts confession about his opinion on the visions helps wilbur make his peace a bit, bc while it doesnt excuse how schlatt treated wilbur, it explains it and also shows that it wasnt wilburs fault that he was failing his role as the pythia when schlatt didnt listen bc he was basically set up to fail from the start
and yes wilbur is parting with his role as the pythia but this might still help him recover, bc at least he wasnt so bad at his one job all these year
and if it doesnt help at least we got schlatt calling wilbur pretty boy, obsessed
I love how in reaction to what schlatt says wilbur feels the pythia dying in the palace and leaving it behind
what a banger chapter, so much happened and it was all so interesting
all that happened and mainly the stuff around tommys dying just showa so perfectly what this story has been telling us this whole time, what the main theme is basically, and that is that in the end you when it matters the only one you can rely on is yourself, not some god and the scene with wilbur saving tommy and kristin not being there really pushes this on you so well I love it sm
rn im just putting all my hope on phil and the deathlings to save wilbur from being forced to be the pythia again
also probably very hypothetical question but im thinking about if wilbur got the option to kinda peacefully step out of his role of the pythia by getting a vision about the next one if he would do it or wouldnt bc he would refuse to bring that fate onto someone else
aaaa thank you, yes I really enjoyed playing around with using the pythia vs wilbur in this chapter. it's hard because I wanted the chapter to be mostly wilbur, but there were key moments where I knew he was going to slip back into the pythia mindset, mostly when he's talking to the priest and later to schlatt. it's not necessarily he's having a hard time letting go of the title, it's that he's spent so much of his life in this mindset that he's not a person, that he's supposed to be wholly devoted to this goddess that he keeps slipping in and out of that mental space.
I'm glad the syringe felt smoothly incorporated!! I was worried it would feel like too much of a "this is a surprise tool that will help us later" bit and while it definitely still was, I wanted it to be tied into what was going on and the worldbuilding and everything
I mean, wilbur has spent the last decade acting as a completely dedicated pythia. then he's gone for a little over half a year and suddenly he's gotten a tattoo and severed his ties to clara and is working with the deathlings? from the priests perspective you can kind of see how it's a bit difficult to believe he got there on his own. especially when they think of becoming the pythia as the highest honor anyone can attain, and how the dehumanizing aspects are meant to be more revered and honorable than anything else
oooo that's an interesting question about the curse. this is going to sound like a cop out answer but I swear it's not, I genuinely haven't decided if the curse is real or not. in a way I think of it like schrodinger's curse. it's both real and not real at the same time. all of the deaths can be explained away by circumstance, but that doesn't mean that the curse didn't cause them. I set it up so that it was completely up to interpretation. I hope that makes sense?
hmm that's an interesting take actually! I definitely think it was a combination of things that led to wilbur deciding to save tommy's life, but the ultimate deciding factor was simply that crimeboys have an unhealthy bond. wilbur will pull tommy back from death even if he's in the arms of his goddess, because he needs tommy by his side. tommy will fight to keep wilbur to himself and get jealous when he starts to heal and connect with other people. the two of them hurt each other because of how much they love each other. that was kind of the core of that whole thing, although I really like what you pointed out with the whole curse saving tommy's life in a way
glass!rocketduo are so interesting babygirls your logic is so screwed up <3
yeah, wilbur was set up to fail from the start. and it does help him find some kind of peace with it! it wasn't his fault, he wasn't a failure. schlatt was never going to listen to him for reasons outside his control.
yessss you get it, one of the primary themes is about relying on yourself and other people before relying on goddesses that might or might not choose to help you. the deities in glass are so far above humanity they can choose what they want to help with and when, and humanity is only left to try and understand why the goddesses do what they do but they'll never really be able to.
hmm that's also an interesting question... personally I think wilbur wouldn't pass on the teachings, but even then the priests would just do it for him so it wouldn't change much. I still think he would choose not to participate though.
thank you so much for the kind words i'm so glad you enjoyed!!!
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4.7 archon quest live react utc!
okay I started this a little while after starting the quest but I'm talking to atossa now
my original theory was the missing guy was dain but this dude has lived in the village for ages so it can't be LOL
and THEN i started thinking oh could this be a wanderer type situation ,,,, but who knows 🤷♂️
if this quest goes deep into traveller sibling stuff like that animation that dropped suggests I'm so not gonna be stable after this btw LMAO
well duh paimon of course the abyss is involved this is a dain quest didn't u pay attention 🙄 /j
DAINSLEIF HOW I HAVE MISSED YOU
God he's just as pretty as ever ,,,,,,
has his outfit gotten more detailed or am I just forgetting things 🤔
ugh I need to kiss him
it's so hard to pay attention to what he's saying when he looks like that 😪😪😪
ALSO IS IT JUST ME OR DOES HE HAVE A HUUUUUGE CROTCH BULGE 😳 not that I'm looking or anything I swear it was just so prominent
anw I support big dick dain theory
DO NAWT ASK IF WE BELIEVE OUR SIBLING BETRAYED US OMFG what do I respond what do I SAY
I'm going w I want to have faith in her 🙏 truly I think the traveller understands their sibling so intimately that they're still trying to reason out that they're in the right with whatever they're up to ,,, but it's also understandable that they might feel betrayed bc clearly their sib can contact them if they really want to and they're just choosing not to ,,, 😔 idk bro it's complicated
"there's still hope for the two of you to reconcile" 🥺🥺🥺🥺 I WANT TO RECONCILE 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
omg sinner lore cmon tell me who it is I wanna KNOWWWWW is it someone we know already or what
vedrfolnir is a Very mondstat sounding name,,,,
DAINSLEIFS OLDER BROTHER ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
WHAT . THE . FUCK .
STOP ARE WE ACTUALLY ABOUT TO GET GENUINE KHAENRIAH BACKSTORY RIGHT NOW I WILL SCREAM AND BAWL MY EYES OUT
five sinners of Khaenri’ah ooooo
RHINEDOTTIR?!?! OH MY GOD?!?!?!?!?!?! I KNOW WE KNEW SHE WAS INVOLVED BUT LIKE OH MY GOD SHE WAS INVOLVED INVOLVED???
oh my god is that why albedo looks the way he does w the blond hair and the blue eyes is it bc he's been modelled in dains brothers image ,,,,, (<- delusional theory hours)
god fuck i love abyss lore so much this is why i still play genshin man
ooooooo okay so they weren't directly involved in the cataclysm but that in itself IS the problem bc they could have helped stop it I see i see im with it 🧠
our sibling WAS travelling with dain though right ... we're not gonna get slapped with oh yeah we showed u them w dain this whole time but it was to throw u off bc its really his brother ... right ....
well surely the purpose of the loom of fate is to rework the world. like. loom. fate. kinda an obvious name if u ask me
oooo yes please be to do with the leylines I LOVE when shit is to do with the leylines
OOOOOOOO WAIT DID THE ABYSS TRY TO IMPLANT SOMEONE INTO PPLS MEMORIES USING THE LOOM AS AN EXPERIMENT PERHAPS
christ paimons yawn just fucking exploded my ears
omg dain got implanted w memories of The Guy ,,,
"and it appears he has the ability to "implant" memories into the minds of others" THATS WHAT IVE BEEN SAYING DAIN
we would work so well together bbg
omg we're gonna go look for the eye
of all places he chose the outside of the chasm?? hmm.
DAIN?!
BBG DAIN WHAT IS HAPPENING TO U
he's being fucked with isn't he .... im abt to throw HANDS w someone aren't i
this domain description is scaring me maybe i don't want the answers to be revealed bro
oh we r fully In the chasm now huh
don't get me wrong it makes sense I just also feel this was way too obvious of a location for dain to hide smth so sensitive LMFAO
WDYM THE MECHANISMS HAVE CHANGED OVER TIME
why do I feel like dains brother has like. possessed him or some shit rn. just a bad feeling I have LOL
I'M NOT COMFORTABLE HERE LADS I FEEL VERY BAD VIBES RADIATING FROM THIS ALTAR ROOM
NEW ABYSS LECTOR??? Big fan big fan
I do NOT want to leave u rn dain I fear for ur safety
UM
HELLO?
OH MY GODDDS
LUMINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE U LOOK SO HOT WHEN UR EVIL
AND WE GET HER VOICELINES TOOOOOOOOO
picking aether once again a choice I will never regret
THIS IS SO INTENSE BROOO
I'm not gonna lie I thought for a split second we might be getting a taste of playable dain there ,,, of course I was too hopeful 😪
omg the disembodied voice,,, whoever is doing this put their whole va-ussy into it icl
the fact that we're not just. back in the world map rn. and this is a "special story mode" map. is scaring me a little icl
everyone remembers him now and he's not gone missing ??? and he was WITH SOMEONE??? bro what is HAPPENING RN
genshin don't make me piece this together by myself u KNOW my theories are full of shit
we're in someone else's memory was right omg okay maybe I'm not full of shit after all
OKAY YEAH I'M ACTUALLY PIECING THIS TOGETHER PRETTY WELL NOW maybe I am smart /j
Holy shit an actually good npc design??? he's kinda hot icl
HES GOT THE KHAENRIAH EYES
is this... is it .... is he .......
CARIBERT :(((((( WHAT IF I EXPLODE
WHAT DOES THE NOTE SAY I CANT READ THAT
oh this place is pretty,,,,
bro I'm feeling so many big emotions rn
omg NOW i can rly see kaeya's hair colour on him it wasn't so noticeably Blue in the other lighting
delulu theory x2 is kaeya the loom /j
I FUCKING KNEW THE LOOM WOULD WEAVE LEYLINES !!!!!
caribert :(((( mf I thought we were done w u making me cry in ur last quest
I'M BAWLING HE JUST WANTED A NORMAL LIFE
sobbing and screaming "even the form you see before you is nothing short of an illusion [...] an imagined version of what I would look like if I had had the chance to grow up" IM NOT WELL RN
I'm omw to hyv hq to make caribert exist in teyvat fr I can't handle this shit
UHM.
CARIBERT DID YOU FUCKING SIDELINE US SO DAIN COULD BE AMBUSHED BY LUMINE????
OH NO
OH GOD OH FUCK WHAT THE FUCK OH MY GOD?!?!?!
I FUCKING KNEWWWWWWW DAIN HAD THE EYE ON HIM AND NOT IN SOME RANDOM LOCATION
BUT WDYM INSIDE HIS BODY LUMINE BETTER NOT HAVE RIPPED IT OUT OF HIM
BROOOOOOOOOO CARIBERT IS A DICK I TAKE EVERYTHING BACK FUCK YOU DUDE
oh goddamnit maybe he's not a dick he's been nice to the hilichurls 😔
still PISSED at him though
I'm going to kms actually
NOOOOOOOO NO NO NO NO I'M GONNA SOB SCREAM THROW UP
STOPPP HE CANT TOUCH HERRRR :((((((
"I'd love to hug you too" IM NOT OKAY RN I CANT DO THIS
oooo okay so our sibling wants to use the loom against celestia that tracks but like. how?
o shit she's so right u would think the whole furina focalors thing would have angered celestia but they're just. quiet.
STOPPPPP OUR NAMES BEING PERSONALISED IS A CANON THING BC OUR SIBLINGS THE ONLY ONE WHO CALLS US BY OUR REAL NAME WHAT IF I KMS
"for some reason I'm not interested in asking questions rn" IDC DUDE IM INTERESTED TELL MEEEE /j
"why can't we continue our journey together?" my meds aren't powerful enough to fight this shit rn /j
TWO KIDS IN THE TREE??? WHOMST???
"I don't know how to face myself sometimes let alone my own brother" I'M BAWLING AGAIN
UHM. FUCKERY???
BRO THE GLASS CRACKING OVERLAY I like that, nice touch
DONT FUCKING TELL ME WE WONT REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED IN HERE FUCK THIS SHIT
THEY REUNITED AND WONT EVEN BE ABLE TO REMEMBER IT?!?!? HOYOVERSE U HATE US FR
im never playing genshin again what the fuck /j (<- loves it)
PAIMON YAWN JUMPSCARE AGAIN
DAINS INJURED :( BUT HE LEFT :(((( BBG COME BACK :(((((
we literally only don't remember meeting our sibling that's so fucking tragic what the shit man
"I'm not sure why but it almost feels like I lost something" SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I CANT DO THISSSS
caribert left a memory for someone as to what "happened" :( his legacy can live on in the village :((((((((
now what IM interested in is whether the loom of fate is going to have any significance in natlan or whether we're still going to have to wait til the 5.7 dain quest next year to find out what's going on with it bc if it's complete NOW why would they wait a whole year to put their plan into motion
aw atossa really loved caribert huh :(((
THE PICTURE?!?!?!?! I'M GOING TO END IT ALL RIGHT NOW.
fuck me what a quest,,,,
as usual ty to anyone who bothered to read through the brain vomit LOL ily <3 im gonna go uh. cry a lot now, goodbye 👋
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ok two things.
not that i need to clarify and not that anyone needs to know more detail but. to clarify from my post last night: my brother did nothing wrong by showing his music to me AT ALL. but there are two things that are hard about it and i hate to say it but the bigger one is… he has the same spark i used to have and feel like ive lost forever snd him making unfathomably beautiful music makes me… jealous. or at the very least mournful about what happened to my own musical / poetic pursuits and skills and how i feel like i will never be able to do anything like that again bc ive lost myself and feel detached from my life and am frozen like a dear in headlights. and the second thing is he’s in a lot of pain rn with his own situation and we don’t communicate abt it except in ways that are extremely like.. strained and sheepish and i feel like a bad big sister for not being more affectionate and like trying to force through the barrier and be lovey dovey with him basically bc i think he needs / wants that even though we’re both weird about it. lol
my cousins posted a picture of them smoking together on their ig story and my mom screenshotted it and sent it to me and my siblings w/o knowing that ig tells you when you screenshot someone’s story and is now doubling down on how righteous she is abt taking a screenshot bc they’re being stupid and smoking when it’s unhealthy. and my dad is telling her “people are allowed to be you g and make mistakes” and she’s continui ng to double down abt how when she was their age she didn’t care about fitting in and just accepted that she didn’t fit in instead of engaging in bad behavior etc etc. like first of all our cousins didn’t hurt anyone by posting that why did she need to screenshot it 💀 they’re going to read into that for sure and i don’t blame them like it’s just so weird and im so fucking embarrassed abt it. and second of all lkke… you are not better than them for not smoking or doing other stuff and also them smoking isn’t necessarily abt fitting in. shut up 💗 [UPDATE post cancelled apparently ig doesn’t notify ppl when they screenshot stories anymore. but my point abt her being judgy abt young ppl being young ppl remains]
#purrs#delete later#ask to tag#the ig story screenshot thing is making me so fucking mad too bc when i bc ame out as bi on social media years ago she fucking screenshotted#the story and it freaked me out and when i asked her abt it she said she screenshotted it to make a point abt how you shouldn’t put#private information (like abt ur sexuality) online bc ppl can use that against you and hurt you and it’s nobody’s business when…. she was#LITERALLY the only person to screenshot that post and guess what. SHE used it against me!!!!!!!! like idk how to describe it but she’s so#judgmental towards young ppl (esp me and my siblings lol but still) like. figuring themselves out in public and just existing and these#aren’t the only examples either it just sucks so bad and is so fucking weird. mind your own damn business lol#the coming out day snapchat story screenshot fiasco is one of the worst and most painful things that has ever happened to me in my rs with#her and with my own sexuality btw 💖 it’s been like 6 yrs and it still hurts and silences me to this day lol
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Cult tactics tw
Wild to me i am just now realizing my system was Very interested in learning as much as we could about cults while we were with a person who used cult abuse tactics on me (purposefully sleep depriving me, other stuff im ironically to tired rn to think of other things. And normal abuse stuff like gaslighting ans lovebombing obviously) im preeetty sure he was trying to make a cult with the polycule (abusing members into abusing eacn other to do his bidding).
And as soon as i wasnt in that situation i did not wanna hear about it at all. (i say I but it wasnt me Alastor, we split from the abuse so it was somene who doesn't exist anymore)
At the time i was like oh haha :) it just interesting i guess :). When i never was interested before (not that i didnt care about that it happened but i didnt seek to hear about it.) I wonder if part of our brain like Knew hey. This stuff seem similar to cult stuff. And trying desperately to get us to realize Something is Wrong
Also gross to me he also listenes to cult podcast things. I think he legitmately was learning tips on how to abuse on purpose. Bc the way he acted thinking back no way that shits an accdent. You dont consistently sleep deprive me on accident. You don't need basic respect explained to you like youre a toddler as a grown man he fucking knew he just actinf dumb to force me to explain and shirk responsibility of knowingly treatinf me like shit like oh haha didnt know screaming at you was bad ooplsss. Fck yourself. And im p sure he even said shit like he wants to be a cult leader Whilst listening to pdcasts where ppl recount horrible cult abuse and he tried to make the polycule do like. Cult themed aesthetic things like gross gross gross diedie die
Sorry lost the plot there anyways fuck that guy hope he dies
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idk why he says nothings wrong when i ask him, when clearly something is wrong. ik how he is & when somethings up but he still denied it. i understand if he doesnt wanna get into it rn or he just wants to let it go but like in this case, i pretty much know exactly what its about that could be bothering him & the only way to put him at ease is to talk about it….again! this one specific thing triggered his mood last night & i didnt even think it would. i noticed a red scratch mark on my chest and sent him a pic saying how i think his cat made the scratch. his reply was soo serious, like i could actually feel him doubting me thru the phone. i knew he was questioning if it was really the cat bc he said how he was close to my chest the other day and didnt see anything so that is odd that theres a scratch. !! i immediately knew where his mind went & that thought didnt even occur to me when i sent that pic..like if i knew that would cause him to think of this crazy scenario then i wouldnt have sent that snap in the first place tbh bc right after that, his tone & the way he texted just shifted. hes not the best at masking his feelings like me so i can tell when the energy feels different. i also posted some pics from the hangout on my ig story & he saw it later that night. i have a feeling that added to his misery and all of today it was so prevalent, even if he denies it. idc if he says nothings wrong bc its not convincing and its not just in my head. he went from msging me all cutesy & happy to immediately being more neutral & uninterested. we always send a snap to say good morning (unless we get busy but we still send a snap with whatever we’re doing). he didnt open the app, as well as reply to my snap, until 7:15pm.. around 4 was when i asked him whats wrong (bc i already knew he was ignoring me). his response was that nothing really is wrong and how he went straight to work and his boss switched his assignment. usually id let that go but not when its already past 7 and hes firsttt opening snapchat to answer me ? and i see that hes been on instagram. also.. hes always talking to me when hes either at work already, still at home, or driving to work. the only time he goes mia like that is when something is definitely upsetting him. also!.. when that happens, he will text me after a couple hrs to let me know how hes feeling & why he was silent. he didnt always do that but i told him to bc its not fair to me by feeling like ive done something or just the feeling of purposely being ignored by my own boyfriend. but yeah.. he didnt do any of that this time BC its this whole situation again. i really dont know what more i could do to reassure him about it. i feel like ive done and am doing all that i can rn. its mostly up to him now to let himself figure it out and honestly, just trust me. like just saying.. im not gonna be making that mistake that you (both) did and be stupid with it.. and neither will snow. theyre not a “friend” its actually becoming really genuine and sweet and i wont let it get ruined bc of him doubting me. i also wont let the friendship ruin me and him. i really cant help but compare it to what he did with his friend, especially since i just found out like a month ago. i also have this suspicion that it happened earlier that yr (when we were still together) than what he told me, but i dont even wanna think about that for any longer. i was told by her Husband! that it happened when they were still in school together. that means a year before. idk if i believe that. she mightve lied, but my suspicion’s still there. like i asked him if he remembered what month and he couldnt. all he knew was that it was during our break..-.- the what.…like 1 1/2 month long break. you dont remember which month..? i sound so salty rn omg i dont mean to. im just trying to understand. ill see how he is with me tm bc we barely talked today. kind of glad i worked most of the day so i was able to keep busy and not hyper focus on him ignoring me.
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