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like i know im ace but sometimes i question it, for the main reason that i hate to be missing out on this thing everyone else shares,

and sometimes i think maybe its just like partying, ive never enjoyed it or looked forward to it but it was mostly due to my situation of being a nerd with two friends who didn’t party either, and maybe with the right group of people and some more social maturity from me that im developing in my twenties i would like it too, if i ever got the chance.

but then i hear comments from these gay people about what it feels like NOT to be attracted to someone and i relate to it and instead of being happy about my asexuality being validated i feel sad that there’s no escaping from it.

in hindsight it’s quite funny that when i was in middle school my main “romantic” fantasy was being together with someone but behaving in such a way at school that people would think of us as great friends and would be surprised to find that we were actually together.

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there’s also this episode of One Day At A Time where the girl hasn’t realized she’s a lesbian yet so she kisses this guy and her attitude is very much like “oh this is nice! this is fun! this is cool this is okay” and it’s until later that she understands there’s more feelings that should be involved and it also made me think

in hindsight it’s quite funny that when i was in middle school my main “romantic” fantasy was being together with someone but behaving in such a way at school that people would think of us as great friends and would be surprised to find that we were actually together.

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was watching unhhhh and katya said something like “if you’re in the middle of kissing someone and think ‘isn’t this nice? wouldn’t that be nice?’ that’s the sign” and it left me thinking

in hindsight it’s quite funny that when i was in middle school my main “romantic” fantasy was being together with someone but behaving in such a way at school that people would think of us as great friends and would be surprised to find that we were actually together.

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in hindsight it’s quite funny that when i was in middle school my main “romantic” fantasy was being together with someone but behaving in such a way at school that people would think of us as great friends and would be surprised to find that we were actually together.

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for new year’s resolution i think i just want to pay more attention to media i consume in general and the feelings and thoughts they create for me. so some ways to do this im thinking about are

1. paying more attention to the music. maybe spotting motifs or trying to appreciate pieces i like more, or noticing how music differs between scenes and between works.

2. keeping track of stuff i’ve watched/read/listened to and stuff i want to. maybe even take note if i cried or if i felt very strongly about something and why.

3. look up analysis (videos or written essays) of things i like to gain insights that im not well-trained enough to spot myself yet.

4. but also try to get some of my own thoughts on stuff written down before going to look at what other people say. make an effort to come up with interpretations and connections or at least put my impressions into words, even if they’re superficial.

i often feel like i often hop into the emotional roller coasters and only later, when i look the thing up i find ppl understood so much more and had a much richer experiences than i did. i don’t fully think that’s true, but i do think it would be good for me to pay closer attention to things, even if the points i wrote are quite simple. gotta start somewhere ^-^

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if you’re romantic and not into sexy moves, the closest thing to that slow-dancing with your crush you can get is the part when they play salsa/cumbia/bachata and so on so people do pair up to dance. it’s absolutely not slow but you can take advantage of the moment to hold their hand and stuff.

another thing that in my experience is a lie from usamerican media is time at parties when they play slow music and everyone pairs up and dances slowly and close to each other.

all parties ive been to you have to play the most danceable music the whole time, switching often enough between styles (salsa, dance routines, electronic, etc) lest it gets boring, because the second you play something not energetic enough everyone sits down and the rest of the party is doomed.

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another thing that in my experience is a lie from usamerican media is time at parties when they play slow music and everyone pairs up and dances slowly and close to each other.

all parties ive been to you have to play the most danceable music the whole time, switching often enough between styles (salsa, dance routines, electronic, etc) lest it gets boring, because the second you play something not energetic enough everyone sits down and the rest of the party is doomed.

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something happened in the cursed show that made me actually genuinely smile and it only took *checks episode info* SIX SEASONS

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i want to write fanfic again but i’m out of inspiration. none of the shows im watching have the right alignment of specific conditions that create fanfic ideas. or maybe the problem is me idk.

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going back to reading gabenath fanfic that’s what i’m going to do about it. i need somewhere to project this yearning into.

my infatuation is getting so intense that my heart beat accelerates so much i want to scream when i see a picture of him but i can’t talk to my friends about it because they’ll go “well if your feelings are that strong maybe you should do something about them!” and like. lol. lmao.

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Quick doodle ^_^

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Your art? Chef’s kiss. I especially adore the way you draw Reverse!Gabe.

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*smooch*

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bonus >o<

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tmw you spend your entire future trailing behind a couple you're in love with and after almost dying for them one dies to be with his wife but also dies so you can live . And you have to take care of their traumatized son after they die

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my infatuation is getting so intense that my heart beat accelerates so much i want to scream when i see a picture of him but i can’t talk to my friends about it because they’ll go “well if your feelings are that strong maybe you should do something about them!” and like. lol. lmao.

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I love them..