#OCD was right

[onethousand825days]

8:40 on a saturday my aunt is trying to talk me out of killing myself over my devastating haircut

[hurristuff]

For this Disability Pride Month, I saw a post that was shittybad and it made me angry. So have this

[bogkeep]

thoughts, repeating.

[vividstardustrevolution]

Disabled people (both people with physical disabilities and people with psychological disabilities) should be able to get housing, food, medical needs, etc met without having to work or stay in school. ...Okay, really, everyone deserves access to free or affordable housing, food, and medical care, but disabled people ESPECIALLY deserve it because if I, a law student with "low support needs" autism, depression, GAD, OCD, and ADHD, cannot afford to take a break from school and take a semester off because I'd have to start repaying my loans because I had to drop down to three credits last fall and because I would have to get a job, so it wouldn't really be a break (which, I have had one job in my life, and I'm not fully convinced it wasn't a fluke, and also, trying to maintain a job when you have disabilities is difficult), I can only imagine that disabled people with higher support needs are even more fucked than me when it comes to being able to get housing and food and medical care without much, if any, funding.

Yes, Medicaid, Medicare, Food Stamps, and housing programs exist in the US, but, uh, I hate to break it to y'all, but that doesn't fully fix the problem, at all. There are a lot of old apartment complexes that are straight up inaccessible if you use a wheelchair. I'm living in one now. Applying for Medicaid and other programs can be a pain in the ass, especially when you're disabled.

"Just live with your parents!" My parents were emotionally abusive and emotionally neglectful, transphobic, and they literally harassed me so much during my 1L year that I still have nightmares.

"Live with a roommate!" I tried to. It went fucking terribly.

"Are you really disabled if you're able to be in law school?" YES. YES I AM.

Actually, on that note, law schools and the law profession need to become more accommodating for disabled people ASAP. Buck v. Bell needs to be overturned. Courts should be wheelchair accessible. Having to get past seven plus different forms of ableism just to graduate and pass the bar is ridiculous. Seriously, can we get some resources for disabled people in law school and the law profession, please?

Disabled rights matter, and we have every right to be able to live in peace and get our needs met, regardless of our support needs, disabilities, or anything else.

[thatonegaybrit]

; finding out you're neurodivergent is just an " oh " drawn out and progressively getting louder the more you learn about your neurotype.

[cringefaecompilation]

i wish people would understand that orym's worldview is an uphill struggle for him to maintain rather than him just being "always right"

he admits his biases and tries to look past them even if it makes him uncomfortable. he tries to "follow the rules" and do what he's told and breaks down when he realizes that in doing so he could lose people he cares about. he has to ground himself to not seek out vengeance and focus on the livelihoods of other people and believe in them that they are good and kind and not try to force them into what he thinks is right.

because if he doesn't, if he loses that hope has has in people, if he only relies on his own fight or flight responses, he'll become someone who is so selfish to only focus on their own pain and use it as justification for anything and everything they do.

and what kind of person would do that?

[lazylittledragon]

Not trying to be rude or anything but you shouldn't use the word 'manic' or 'manic period' etc. unless you actually have manic/depressive episodes because it downplays how severe those disorders can actually be. They're just words but unlearning harmful terminology like that can help destigmatise mental illness and I would hope youi would want to do that.

yeah it's almost like i used those words specifically because i DO understand how severe they are

[shadebloopnik]

This is gonna sound SOOO off or smthn but

Was the Perfect Family Harmony planned to be a weapon against the Bergens?

Long post ahead bc brain is rotting

Ok so as we know, the Perfect Family Harmony is smthn that's so powerful that its capable of shattering diamonds. Not just that but its one of the only thing capable of doing so(according to Floyd it was the only thing but giving the benefit of the doubt)

So we know its strong, and we saw it blasting off Velvet and Veneer off their platforms when they performed it, and they weren't even the targets, they were blasted away by just the shockwave that came with using it.

"Its that powerful."

Ok, so its definitely powerful enough to be used as a weapon right? Yeah it was relatively safe enough to use in front of a crowd, else they wouldn't have tried to do it during a concert, but that could just be when those harmonizing aren't targeting anything.

If it could shatter diamonds, how easily could it break cages? What would it do if it was used to target a Bergen? A whole Kingdom of Bergens?

Lets also go back to that concert, to that time John was obsessed with them getting it right. They were in the Troll tree, in Bergentown, a place where any of them could die during Trollstice. The Bergens were a huge threat, something that trolls, at their size, couldn't fight back against normally so they had to run instead right?

But what if they COULD fight back? What if they had a weapon so powerful that it might finally be able to free them? To defeat the monsters that tortured their kind for centuries?

What if John Dory found a way to help make sure nothing would threaten his brothers' safety ever again?

Like, it'd make John Dory's obsession make SOOO MUCH MORE SENSE

Like yea he clearly has OCD and anxiety and some bossiness and that definitely added to it all, but imagine if it was more than that?

Look at him during that performance. He was in deep. He had a wild look in his eyes, a sort of deranged obsession to have everything be perfect no matter what. It wasn't healthy, it was scary, maybe even downright terrifying for his brothers who had to be subjected to it.

But you know what else he looked like?

Terrified

Man was scared out of his mind. His anxiety and stress levels were through the roof. He probably was one wrong tune away from hyperventilating.

What if it was bc it was so much more than the fans? What if he put the salvation of the entire troll-kind on his shoulders?

One wrong step meant they were nothing.

One wrong step meant disappointing the fans.

One wrong step meant letting down the kingdom.

One wrong step meant another troll getting eaten.

Thats why when they failed, John blew up. He took all of that self-hatred of failing to use that weapon to defeat the bergens and poured it all onto his brothers.

"I know we can reach the Perfect Family Harmony."

"What if we don't want to."

John Dory, blind to how and WHY his brothers didn't want to follow his lead, felt betrayed.

To him, all he's ever done was to ensure their safety, everything was for the greater good. He'd done everything he could, his goals slowly twisting him into a crazed obsession. To hear his brothers say they didn't want to help anymore might've struck a cord too much. If you'd noticed he actually looked really sad and hurt when they started bringing up how much they hated being in the band, but it slowly twisted to anger instead. Kind of in a like, "I tried doing everything for these shts and THIS is how they repay me???" way. He was so stressed and stuck in his own head with his failures that he just couldn't see what his brothers were trying to say.

So in a fit of impulsive rage, he left. To him it probably was like that rlly childish way of saying "Yea im leaving, good luck dealing with the Bergens while im goneee." You know? Like how kids runaway from home when they get angry or upset over every little thing but come back when they realize how stupid that was?

"Im not allowed to change."

And he DID come back. Who knows how long, but he did. Imagine how he must've felt seeing their empty pod in an empty tree, with the knowledge that he could've done something about it. The Perfect Family Harmony could've saved them. They could've used it to break the cage, to fight the Bergens. Hell, it could've been powerful enough to wipe out all the Bergens if they do so wished.

"Im the oldest, I have to be the leader."

He and his brothers were the only ones who'd ever gotten close to getting it right.

"Why do you think I moved into the middle of nowhere? So I didn't have to be in charge of anyone."

The village was counting on them. Counting on him. He let them down. He failed.

"Freeing the village Four little brothers is a lot of responsibility."

They could've gotten it. If only John did it right. If only John did it differently.

If only John Dory was Perfect

[lylahammar]

btw since we're talkin about intrusive thoughts being contagious, I would recommend everyone avoid sharing details about specific intrusive thoughts they have anywhere in public, or with anyone who also suffers from intrusive thoughts. Whenever I see a post about intrusive thoughts on social media, the comments are pretty much always filled with people sharing really graphic info about their specific recurring thoughts, and while I understand the urge to illustrate your suffering for ableists/those who don't understand, it's ultimately really harmful to others like you who might idly take a peek at the comments without thinking about it. Please just keep that in mind and if you're gonna talk about your intrusive thoughts, try to keep your language broad and vague!

[juice-boxy]

Hi if you have ocd and you're reading this you have immunity now.

Yeah that post that said you're a bad person/something bad was gonna happen if you don't share/reblog/like/follow?

Well thats not true anymore.

Yeah, because I'm magic, see? I've got this cool forcefield spell, and I'm passing it to you, okay?

You're a wizard like me now.

Here, let me explain the spell!

The forecfield lasts as long as you want and shows up whenever you want. (No cool down period or anything it's wicked awesome...went through alot of cool quests to get it to be this powerful)

It looks like however you want it to look! And you can summon it however you see fit! No effort or anything required!

It's unbreakable too because we are so cool like that!!

Isn't that awesome? You're awesome!

Now go out there with your impenetrable forcefield spell and have a good time on the internet <3

EDIT: you don't have to be ocd for this to apply. You also don't need to interact with this post! It exists, and you read it, that's all you need. Ily<3

[gender-luster]

me when the mental disorders disorder me

me when the disabilities disable me

me when the mental disorders cause me to severely neglect myself without even realizing it

me when the mental disorders that i already knew were disabling disable me

[genderqueerdykes]

i just wanted to say to every disabled person: Someone doubting your condition or telling you you don't have something doesn't change whether or not it's happening. someone's disbelief of gravity doesn't change the effect of its forces. you are the expert, don't worry about what someone else says about your lived experience, especially strangers. you know you best

[kayvsworld]

every time i see someone trying to label specifically what tony’s mental health situation is or isn’t i pour one out for natasha romanoff who entered the ring at the worst possible moment (he’s dying he’s got heavy metal poisoning he’s actively lying to everyone around him he’s very recently traumatized) under orders from her boss to decide, definitely, on paper what mentally is going on with this man. like girl you are not qualified

[hajihiko]

Ryota learns what he's gotta do at the boat; nothing anyone expects of him, but it's what he Does.

[ranticore]

i feel like something is lost when writing a deeply religious character in a 'magic/gods etc are objectively real' setting and it never scratches the itch for me to read about faith and so on. it almost feels like cheating to write someone questioning faith when the evidence of magic etc is so objective and abundant, and it's just not interesting if ur looking at it as a study or commentary on religion in the real world. by saying all this I'm covertly announcing that I've made a new setting called It's Just Earth and another catholic priest character

[youremyonlyhope]

Living with Body Focused Repetitive Behaviors

Me: *Is super stressed over life.*

Trichotillomania: Time to pull some hair! C'mon. You won't even notice you're doing it. It'll make you feel better.

Me: NO. *Spends 4 days putting hair in a mini twist protective style* There.

Dermatillomania: Hey. Your hands are free. And restless. And dry... Pick your skin. Bleed. Bleed.

Me: Stop! *Starts up a new crochet project to keep hands busy.* Ok cool.

Onychophagia: Hi hi. Your nails are.... perfect biting length... you should do that.

Me: Noooooooooooo *Paints nails.*

Dermatillomania: Oh look, you got some nail polish on your skin. Pick it off... now pick some more...

Me: SDJAKFDSJFKLDKAFDJKLAFJDKSAKLFDASL