#Not Breathing
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
d-lanx · 1 month ago
Text
Tumblr media
THE FUCKING SHORTY SHORTS AGAIN!!!!
12 notes · View notes
omegaremix · 4 days ago
Text
Tumblr media
Autumn 1999 Mixtape:
Alec Empire  Limited Editions 1990-1994
Filter “Take A Picture”
Front Line Assembly State Of Mind
Nine Inch Nails The Fragile
Chris Connelly Whiplash Boychild
Einsturzende Neubauten Tabula Rasa
Autechre EP7
Delerium “Flowers Become Screens”
Lights Of Euphoria “Hope Of Salvation”
Pigface “First Taken Third Found” (Phylr RMX)
Patric Catani 100 DPS
Carl Crack Black Ark
Juno Reactor Bible Of Dreams
Underworld “King Of Snake” (Fatboy Slim RMX)
Not Breathing “Aceed Emprov Garbash”
Ministry Dark Side Of The Spoon
Death Funk Funk Riot Beat
Eat Static “Contact”
Nic Endo White Heat
8 notes · View notes
hilsonisthecure · 2 years ago
Text
⚠️ spoiler (s8)⚠️
Tumblr media
153 notes · View notes
its-my-whump · 6 months ago
Text
Medwhump May- Day 24
Not breathing
Reguarding my own experience yesterday, I found some incentive to write again. It wasn't as bad, as I just made it, but surely felt like hell.
@medwhumpmay
Tw: removing stitches, therefor kind of self-inflicted pain, emotional whump
Part 24 (all others here)
The doctor had locked eyes with her and she refused to look away or bury her face under her arm. "M'kay." Half-loud and more exhaled, than spoken, was everything, that came over her lips.
She swallowed strongly and added.."Don't... don't tell me, what your doing, just get it over with, pls." Her frightened eyes searched for the nurses, standing right by her side. "Jst, talk music or so?" Her plea drifted off into a question as her voice lost the last of its volumne. "Sure thing, sweety." The nurse smiled down at her.
Whatever they talked about, she wouldn't know. She realised, she was answering questions with brief exhaled words of compliance, but she didn't even heard those questions, she was fairly sure.
When the dull, sometimes stinking pain over the last weeks was unpleasant, than this was sheer torture. Or more the ache in her tummy and the pull on those stitches, whenever she moved, was a freaking walk in the park compared to this.
Her body just reacted to the pain. Her arms still crossed in front of her chest, holding them, to give herself some kind of support and maybe even a hug, she buried her nails into her shrunken biceps. Normally, she would dig her fingers into the flesh right and left of her belly, to deal with such a consumping all-body-pain. But she couldn't, due to said suture being stretched way too much and being currantly removed, additionally the doctors hands. The slight dull pain in her arm and the tension in her muscles was grounding. It was self-inflicted, so she was in control of the intencity. Not really, the pain of those pulled up suture knots, feeling like layers of skin were seperated from her tummy, was actually responsible for the intensity.
Being bedridden for weeks now, her usual short nails had grown and consumed by the searing, climbing and burning pain, she didn't even realise how deep and strong there were diggering into the skin of her arms, while she pulled them even tighter against her chest.
She had never believed, that she'd ever consciously scream out in pain, but she did. Shortly and still stopped by her embarrassed mind, even though she wanted to tear down the walls, screaming it out. She stiffled it, feeling red additing to the strain in her face.
The nurse put her hand on her shoulder right next to hers, in a clear gesture to take a hold of it. A short view to that small fragile creation of skin and bones and she closed her eyes. Even though, she really wanted to hold a hand right now, she would just plainly crush it, if she tried to take it to deal with the pain. So her eyes automatically closed in desperation and her fingers just dug deeper. Her body stiffened and she bit her tongue. It felt like there were a hundred stitches and the doctor had merely removed two. Maybe even only one. It felt like, when you want to cut a thick cord with a dull knife. Only that that damn cord was knoted to a hurting, burning, bloody part of her skin, that was currantly ripped open.
The pain, she produced in her biceps was not nearly enough, her fingers became numb, the little joints between the digets started to move in the wrong direction. Her jaw hurt from clenching her teeth, stars started to flicker through her black vision, so strong she was pressing her eyes close. Her face felt hot and wet.
A static noise in her ears, she was shaking, but all was a haze. She didn't even realise, the pain was ebbing away, cause the shadow it left, was still lingering through her tummy.
A hand, no two, warm, firmly squeezing her shoulders. Words, a word wafting towards her, like carried with the wind. Voices, talking, to her? Kind of commotion, but she was safe here in the warm stupor of darkness. Suddenly, everything so calm and soothing, became somewhat urgent. The squeeze on her shoulders stronger, she was shaking or been shaken? That word again
"Breathe!"
My masterlist
15 notes · View notes
faofinn · 1 year ago
Text
15. Sick in an Inconvenient Place
The Daniels always tried to give the family a nice summer holiday, something to get away for a bit and spend time as a family. Often, it had been whatever Fred’s research dictated, but not always, and this year they’d chosen to camp in the new forest. Abroad was nice, too, but Finn’s seizures weren’t super controlled, and it was easier being closer to home, in a country they knew could manage properly without a language barrier. 
The campsite was nice, quiet and well-maintained. The weather was good, and there were plenty of facilities there to enjoy themselves. Despite being nearly 23, Fao loved these holidays with his family, a chance to escape the demands of med school and relax, as well as spend quality time with his brother. He didn’t get to see him as much as he’d like, but there was no escape from him now, sharing a bed in a section of the tent. Not that Fao minded, his brother was sweet and always cuddly, and he missed it when he was away. 
Finn loved the holidays, and not just the reprieve from school. Fao joining them always made it better, though as a teenager, he tried to deny it. 
Of course, being snuggled up to him like a limpet at every opportunity often made his argument moot, but the family went along with his charade. It made Finn feel more mature, gave him the impression he was growing up, even if they all knew he wasn't. If Fred was anything to go by, Sheila wasn't sure if Finn would ever grow up.
Fao wasn’t sure how he’d ended up playing hide and seek with his brother, but he was having fun and he wasn’t going to complain. He’d been shit at hiding, so Finn had protested that he had to do the seeking, and he’d do the hiding. Fao didn’t mind, Finn wasn’t usually that hard to find, and he gave him the time before he went in search of him. 
Finn had found Fao almost immediately, his brother basically just standing behind a tree. Of course, Finn complained, so Fao let him hide, which he loved. It was more fun to hide, anyway.
He'd ran off as soon as Fao started counting; he'd seen a tree he was sure he could climb - and he would be higher than Fao, so he definitely wouldn't find him. It was a bit of a struggle to get up, but he'd managed with minimal injury. Out of breath and trying not to giggle, he missed the first warning. 
Fao regretted letting Finn hide, his brother seemingly having disappeared. Of course, that was the aim of the game, but that wasn’t the point. He scoured the area they’d set out to play in, though he wasn’t convinced Finn hadn’t gone outside of it. 
As Fao passed him, Finn covered his hand with his mouth, trying his best to not giggle. He managed it, somehow, and Fao continued on. His excitement and laughter quickly stopped as his stomach flipped and lights flashed across his vision. The nausea was almost unbearable, and realisation dawned. He knew he needed to get down, but everything was slow, his limbs barely under his control. The panic was overwhelming, the game forgotten, and he called out to his brother. 
"Fao!"
At Finn calling his name, Fao whipped around, the fear clear in his brother’s voice. He couldn’t see him for a minute, eyes flicking around the clearing. Then he spotted him up the tree, and rushed over. 
“Finn? What’s wrong?”
He'd managed to get some of the way down, too far to jump without getting hurt, but he didn't have much of a choice. Fao's voice was distant, muffled behind the rush of blood in his ears. He couldn't see anymore and just had to hope that Fao would find him. 
Fao rushed forwards, just in time to see Finn fall, having got halfway down the tree he’d obviously been hiding in. He was just too far away, as Fao tried to cover the ground, and his brother hit the floor with a thud. 
“Finn!” He fell to his knees next to him, hands shaking, taken back to watching Finn fall the first time, finding him at the bottom of the stairs in his own blood. 
Finn had landed awkwardly, seizing as he hit the ground. Blood seeped from a cut across his forehead, and the spit that collected at his lips was mainly blood. 
Fao scrabbled for his phone, starting the timer as quickly as he could. He didn’t have his bag with him, didn’t have anything. The midaz was back at the tent. He should’ve brought it with him but he’d thought for five minutes they’d be okay. 
Of course, though, they weren't. Five minutes ticked closer and closer, and Finn’s seizure showed no signs of stopping. Cyanosis was clear on his lips, each breath a desperate struggle against contracting muscles. Blood dripped down his face and into his eye, but there was nothing he could do. 
The awkward way Finn had fallen had Fao worried about his cspine, but the way he was breathing (or not) meant that Fao didn’t have much of a choice but to get him on his side. He muttered his apologies, shoving him onto his side in the dirt. 
Glancing at his phone, he found he had one precious bar of service, and quickly called Sheila. He was in the middle of nowhere, and as much as he needed an ambulance, he needed her to get them to him. He was quick as he explained, leaving out the fact Finn had literally fallen out of a tree. 
He couldn’t stay on the phone with her long, quickly dialling for an ambulance. He was as calm as he could be, clinical with them, and explained exactly what he was dealing with. He didn’t know the area, didn’t know the hospitals, which was nerve wracking enough, not to mention Finn very definitely unwell, in an awkward place in the middle of nowhere. 
Sheila had a rough idea where they were, but Fred had explored more of the campsite and had a pretty good inkling he knew where they were. He told Sheila to wait for the ambulance, to direct them to the woods and he'd be back to meet them. He grabbed Finn’s midaz from the tent and ran off, worry and adrenaline seeing him sprint through the site to find his sons. 
Fao spoke soothingly to Finn as he continued to seize, hoping and praying the ambulance came quickly. He hated not being able to do anything, and listening to Finn’s erratic breathing was like torture. He heard footsteps and looked up, expecting paramedics but seeing Fred.
“Dad!”
Fred was more than a little out of breath, but dropped to his knees by the pair. "I've got his midaz. Been longer than five, yeah?"
Fao nodded quickly. “Yeah, yeah, give it.” 
Fred had already opened the syringe and reached to wipe the bloody spit from Finn's mouth before giving the midaz. He apologised to his son under his breath, making sure the midaz was in the right place. 
"What happened?"
“We were playing hide and seek, and then he called for me, just before he went. He, uh, might’ve been in the tree?”
Fred looked at Fao, face paling. "You're kidding me. Please tell me you're joking."
“I wish I was joking. He got halfway down before he fell, but…”
"Explains the blood." Fred felt sick. "How did he land?"
“Hard?” Fao winced. 
"On his head?"
“Sort of.” Fao mumbled. “I didn’t get to him quick enough, I tried…”
Fred's mind reeled. "It's okay. It's not your fault. You did your best."
He’d said that last time, and Finn had still nearly died. Fao sighed. “Yeah.”
Fred reached a hand to squeeze Fao's shoulder. "Thank you for being here for him."
He made a noise. “He’s my little brother.”
"I know, I know. I'm gonna have to go meet the ambulance, okay? I'll be right back."
“Yeah, go. I’ll be with him.”
"Thank you." He squeezed his youngest's arm. "Just hold on, Finn. Please, just hold on."
Fao watched his dad go, praying things didn’t take much longer, that Finn stopped seizing, that something got better. 
The midaz seemed to help, his breathing starting to even out, the seizure starting to slow. It still hadn't fully resolved by the time the ambulance arrived, his eyes still fixed, muscles still contracting. 
Fao looked up as the paramedics arrived, relieved to finally see them as his brother began to stop seizing, though he could still feel the flicker of muscle contraction against him. 
"Hi, Finn and Fao, yeah?" The one in front gave them a tense smile. "I'm Mia, this is Tom. How's Finn doing now? Your dad caught us up a bit."
“Hi, yeah. As you can see he’s started to resolve, he’s had his midaz about a minute ago now, but he’s not fully come out of it yet, I can still feel him. He was in the tree, and he was just coming down as he went, I tried to catch him but I wasn’t able to. He hit his head, I was worried about his cspine but I was more worried about his airway so I had to roll him.”
"Okay. How long has he been seizing for? And how far did he fall?"
“Um, however long is on my phone? 8 minutes? He fell from about half way down, maybe a metre, he was trying to climb down but I guess he’d already started.”
"Alright. I'm gonna get some more people to come give us a hand." She murmured as Tom connected Finn to the oxygen. "I'll see if I can get a cannula in, too, just in case that midaz doesn't help."
“He’s usually decent to cannulate.” Fao murmured. “Let me know if there’s anything I can do to help you guys.”
"Just keep doing what you're doing, you're doing a great job."
He nodded, staying put and murmuring to his brother. “Got some help now, Finn. Gonna get you sorted.”
Sure enough, Finn was easy enough to cannulate, even with his occasional jerks. His airway was cleared, his oxygen starting to climb back into acceptable territory. As the minutes crawled by, their assessment continued to be worrying. His gaze was still fixed, as were his pupils, his head injury all too obvious. Of course, they were worried about it being a distracting injury, especially with the possibility of a spinal injury all too likely. 
Fao could tell things weren’t good, the paramedics sounding increasingly concerned as they worked. That was the problem with his medical brain, he could get the gist of what they were saying, what their worries were, and he bit his lip. Finn definitely wasn’t right, still tolerating the oxygen and all too unresponsive. 
"I'm going to give him more diaz. He's not out of it yet." Mia murmured. "Can you grab that and the BVM? Just in case."
Her crewmate did so, passing her the meds and sorting the BVM, making sure it was in reach if they needed it. “Here.”
"Right, that's given. Can you mark it? Great." She rubbed Finn's arm. "C'mon, kid."
“Come on, Finn.” Fao murmured. “Don’t do this.”
The seconds dragged on into minutes, and Finn’s seizure finally seemed to stop. His body slowly relaxed into the dirt, the ambulance crew carefully adjusting him onto his back and taking control of his head. His airway was secured and observations rechecked.  
"Pupils are a bit more reactive now, but they're still very sluggish. He's got good air entry, no obvious problem there. Abdo is nice and soft, nothing on the long bones, but I'm not sure if he's broken that arm." Mia ran through, though glanced up as the monitor beeped at them. "Finn? Come on, don't do this."
Tom looked up at her, catching the urgency in her tone. He reached to rub at Finn’s chest, knuckles on bare skin. "Finn, come on, take a breath. You can do it."
"He's not going to, is he?" She murmured. 
"I've got the BVM. Do you want to update them and get the pads on?" Tom asked, swapping the masks over. "There we go, that's getting air entry there. Sats are coming back up. Should we intubate?"
29 notes · View notes
baubeautyandthegeek · 6 months ago
Text
Running Back For More - Penny Blake/Olivia Crain
A/N: Day 24 for @medwhumpmay , Second GIF made for me by @whoreofthecottage
Tumblr media Tumblr media
“She’s not breathing...”    Shirley sounds panicked even as Penny follows her to where her mother is lying. Hugh moves away as she moves to gently scoop Liv up, moving to set her on the dinner table and get to work, pressing air into Liv’s lungs, her voice soft as she works to revive the woman.    “Come on Livvie... not like this... come on back.”    Liv chokes when she finally breathes and Penny moves quickly to roll her onto her side, rubbing her back gently to ease her breathing, watching her closely. Saving lives wasn’t always easy but Penny knew she’d fight for Liv and the children as much as possible.  
3 notes · View notes
tswifty · 2 years ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media
I can’t do this rn I— 🏃‍♀️😭🏃‍♀️😭
34 notes · View notes
osachiyo · 1 year ago
Text
BRO I ACCIDNETLALY POSTED IT AGAIN SOMEONE KILL ME
5 notes · View notes
ormspryde · 1 year ago
Text
Breathe, damn you
While sailing to Nordopolica, a sudden storm comes upon the ship Yeager and Raven are aboard. Raven falls overboard; Yeager jumps in to save him.
3 notes · View notes
heartstringsduet · 1 year ago
Text
Knowing it was coming did NOT help one bit. I hate this
3 notes · View notes
sentimental-apathy · 7 months ago
Text
I literally cannot breathe omfg
40K notes · View notes
retrogamingblog2 · 5 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
28K notes · View notes
orinthered · 5 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
been playing botw lately
23K notes · View notes
jinaxxo · 5 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
Zelda and Link as "The Shadow" (1909), Edmund Blair Leighton
28K notes · View notes
virtualplushy · 6 months ago
Text
being traumatized is so embarrassing sometimes like oooogh my mom was mean to me when i was little so now i want to eviscerate myself anytime i think i’ve done something wrong. fuck you
25K notes · View notes