#My comfort zone ≠ ranting online

[thatuselesshuman]

!Warning! This is a wee bit of a rant so don't read if you're looking for my usual haha funny 😁👉👈

Pls tell me I'm not the only one who hates when people ask "what's wrong?" Like, shit, trust me when I say I don't know myself any better than you do. If it's anything but physical, then your guess is as good as mine. "Oh why are you so non-confrontational right now? You're usually fine with that kind of thing." Good question! Have any guesses? As far as I can tell you is that the thought of asking that waitress for the fries that was supposed to come with my meal makes me want to die, and you needling me about it makes me want to take initiative and do it myself. Being perceived makes me want to tear my skin off rn so please don't perceive me (with love).

I've been ignoring all that for the sake of optimism and pushing through the bullshit for so long, that at this point I'm just hoping that it'll resolve itself through the grace of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. It is so long past the point where i need to sort my shit out that I'm not sure it's worth it/doable. It's like not knowing how to cross multiply for 8 years in school and it's coming back to bite you in the ass later, but you'll be damned before you learn cause you've gotten this far (real life events for me). When you've been bullshitting for so long, it's way messier to actually fix it and learn than to just continue with what you were doing.

This is the same reason why I don't want to go to the doctor for any of the mental disorders my family is downright convinced I have. ADHD? Na not me bro, must be someone else you're looking for. Autism? Nope. I know how I think and I'm not like that. Did I take an online test that told me otherwise? Yeah but those things are ass most of the times anyways, can't trust them. Plus, my life is perfectly fine without any of that so, as far as I'm concerned, I'll live my life without ever knowing.

Moral of the story: if I ever went to therapy, I'd probably make my therapist quit 💀

[illithiddies]

Hm. Having thoughts

[eiloveir]

→﹐naruto hc! <3

‹𝟹 :: ⭑⭒  🗨 !!  naruto characters and their social media habits

warnings: rushed and out-of-character

note: this is just something I decided to create on a whim, though I was inspired by a post on a clock app. i imagined how these characters might use social media, so here it is.

characters: konoha 12

𓋭  ۫   ☔️ ﹒ ❊  ͚

uzumaki naruto

this guy’s the reigning king of shitposting. he’s got a knack for calling out anything he deems “overrated,” and he doesn’t hold back. his feed is a never-ending stream of complaints about everything from minor inconveniences to full-blown disasters. you might see posts about how his ramen was too hot or things like pineapple on pizza. he’s the kind of troll who wouldn’t hesitate to pick a fight with kids on roblox, turning every argument into a battle that leaves them in tears and scrambling to save face (konohamaru). he would also be the type to start internet beefs over the most mundane things. if you’re ever scrolling through your feed and see a heated argument about why a certain trend is lame, chances are he is behind it.

haruno sakura

the feminist and activist extraordinaire! she’s the type of woman who not only supports human rights in every way possible but also cheers on the LGBTQ+ community with gusto—because, spoiler alert, she’s part of it. she’s someone who’s fully aware of the impact social media can have and is determined to use it to amplify her voice and make a real difference. i also think she has multiple social media accounts like a pro—there’s her private twitter account where she rants about how messed up the government is, her ao3 account where she writes fan fiction with a side of social commentary, and of course, her tumblr where she’s a curator of memes, political discourse, and everything in between. (me)

uchiha sasuke

god, bruh. this dude is basically a social media ghost—he hardly ever posts anything, but when he does, it’s like the internet has just won the lottery. he’s that guy who seems to do absolutely nothing yet somehow manages to grab everyone’s attention. he’s not really into posting on social media, but when he does, it’s always so aesthetically pleasing that you’d think he has a personal stylist and a professional photographer on speed dial. he doesn’t even try to make his posts look good; he just rolls out of bed and somehow manages to be effortlessly cool. man could post a picture of his breakfast and it would still get more likes than your entire feed.

nara shikamaru

this lazy ass (me) would probably end up being a streamer, posting about his win streaks and achievements in every game he plays. despite barely lifting a finger to do anything else, he’d be all over social media, bragging about every victory and high score. he’s the kind of guy who’d stream his gaming marathons from the comfort of his bed, racking up followers while casually lounging around in sweatpants. If there’s a leaderboard, you can bet he’s at the top, and he’s not shy about letting everyone know it.

yamanaka ino

girlie is the famous influencer! she’s always buzzing with posts about the latest fashion trends, beauty tips, and social events. like, you know, the kind of Instagram girlie who’s always flaunting her ootd and setting style standards. she’s practically a fashion icon with every outfit she wears. she’s also the type to post inspirational messages like “wear whatever makes you feel good” or “your body, your choice.” she’s incredibly popular across all her social media platforms and has a tiktok account—she’s all about those thirst traps and dance covers.

akimichi choji

my boi would definitely be the type to either watch mukbangs obsessively or become a mukbanger himself. he’d spend hours trying to replicate recipes he’s seen online, turning his kitchen into a culinary experiment zone. and you can bet he’d be posting all about it—sharing his attempts, successes, and occasional fails. his feed would be full of mouthwatering food shots and videos of him devouring his creations, proving that he’s just as passionate about cooking and eating as he is about sharing it with the world.

tenten

she’d regularly post about her daily life, giving followers an inside look at her studies or work. her feed would be filled with a lot of photos showcasing her favorite books, snapshots of her workout routines, and candid moments with her for lifers. she’s all about fitness, making her social media a hub for health tips and personal growth. you’d see her posting everything from meal prep ideas to gym selfies. she’d be the type to inspire others with her discipline and positivity.

rock lee

lee would be the type to flood his feed with gym and fitness content, sharing everything from his daily workout routines to personal fitness goals. his posts would be packed with enthusiasm and motivational messages, like “don’t judge a person because of their appearance” and other self-improvement quotes. despite his positive energy, not everyone’s a fan—especially naruto and kiba, who might be more inclined to roll their eyes and make a shitty rant about his optimism.

hyuga neji

this dude, much like sasuke, is totally indifferent to social media. he doesn’t bother with frequent posts but when he does, they’re thoughtful and deliberate. you might see him sharing reflections on life, articles he’s stumbled upon, or insightful news about everyday occurrences. he avoids jumping into pointless online drama or trends, yet somehow, he’s always clued in. that’s thanks to lee and tenten, who can’t stop talking about the latest gossip and social media happenings. despite his apparent disinterest, he picks up on all the chatter and remains surprisingly well-informed about the buzz. so, even though he’s a low-key user, he’s never completely out of the loop.

inuzuka kiba

his socials would be about random rants and memes. he’d post exaggerated complaints about the most trivial matters. his feed would be a fucking mess of humorous and offbeat content—think sarcastic comments, goofy polls, and plenty of memes featuring akamaru. he’d frequently stir up controversies, posting impulsively and diving headfirst into debates. his online presence would be a whirlwind of arguments, especially with naruto, where they often argue over who’s the dumbest between them.

hyuga hinata

she’s the type to be a crocheter, the kind you see on tiktok with an account just for her yarn creations. her feed would be packed with posts showcasing her latest crocheting projects—everything from cozy blankets and stylish scarves to adorable amigurumi (crocheted plush toys). she’d share detailed photos and videos of her work. her account would also feature tutorials and tips for fellow crocheters, helping them improve their skills. she might post about her extensive yarn collection, offer free patterns, and give followers a peek into her crafting process. whether she’s showing off her latest masterpiece or sharing a behind-the-scenes look at her studio, her feed would be a inspiring hub for all things crochet.

aburame shino

the random entomologist on your feed. he would be all about his shit for insects and the natural world. his posts would feature photos of various bugs, often accompanied by educational captions about their behavior, ecology, and characteristics. his feed would include updates from his fieldwork, observations on insect behavior, and informative posts about conservation efforts. while he might occasionally share glimpses of his other interests or hobbies, the focus would remain firmly on nature and entomology. whether he’s showcasing a rare beetle he’s spotted or sharing insights on preserving insect habitats, his content would be a treasure trove of knowledge for fellow nature enthusiasts.

[lindwurmkai]

I have finally figured out what's been bothering me about the godawful "reading discourse" (or sometimes more broadly "children's media discourse") that's been plaguing this website recently, other than the condescension towards people with "low reading comprehension" that no one even bothers to hide:

It's concern trolling.

If you're genuinely concerned about a specific individual's reading habits (or lack thereof) because they're your cousin or whatever and you're fairly sure they would benefit from stepping out of their comfort zone, talk to them directly. If you're concerned about broad trends, there are better ways to address those than by posting a rant online that sounds like, "I hate when people don't spend their free time the way I want them to."

It's so blatantly not motivated by actual concern that it reminds me of unsolicited diet advice! The total stranger is just concerned about your health, you see.

Posting this shit on a website where it could easily go viral means your audience may well include:

- people with intellectual or neurodevelopmental disabilities, brain damage etc. who literally can't read what you want them to read

- autistic people who are either incapable of redirecting their attention to a non-special-interest activity like that or will require lots of patient, gentle encouragement to get there

- people who are so busy that they barely have any time to read for pleasure

- people who have reading-related trauma

- people who are actively being traumatised rn and find that escaping into children's media as often as possible is the only thing keeping them alive

And I'm not disputing that some of those people could still benefit from being encouraged to branch out - but it's not going to work unless you know them personally and use an approach tailored to their exact situation. So ... do you want it to work? Do you really want to reach people, to help them, or are you just defending your right to be annoyed by other people's hobbies that have nothing to do with you?

That is what irritates me. Why the fuck do you care. Why do you think you have any business telling us how we should spend our time??

I don't even like children's media - I have an irrational aversion to it unless I'm revisiting a childhood favourite. I almost exclusively read adult fiction and the majority of the visual media I watch is Chinese dramas. I barely have a horse in this race! But I do have lower reading comprehension and media literacy than others my age and even though I get it now, some of the things many on here are insulting teens for not understanding I still couldn't comprehend in my 20s.

I also know how difficult it can be to forcibly redirect my attention to something I'm not already interested in - it's just lucky coincidence that I love reading. I do struggle to branch out from my favourite genres, and I'm not up for nonfiction very often. Is that a crime? Shouldn't I get to choose freely what to spend my limited energy on?

The issue at the heart of the matter is ableism whether you like it or not. But it's also bizarre to observe how badly some people want to control what others do in their free time.

[hadesoftheladies]

if you're a radfem (or feminist in general) chances are you're dealing with these: repressed anger and the effects of gaslighting

if you're exhausted a lot (without strenuous physical activity and lack of sleep), find yourself having outbursts of strong emotion, feeling desperate for a form of escape, fantasizing about drastic measures, anxious and "forgetful" about memories you have, nervous about speaking about your experiences . . .

here's some tricks on how i've been coping:

-boundaries. if you can cut off people (irl or online) that cause you to spiral into hate, frustration, anger at their ignorance/malice, do it. even if it's a musician whose one song you like. or your brother or dad. limit time as much as possible with them. the less access they have, the less relevant they become, the more energy you conserve.

-do art! create something, it doesn't matter what it is. express those emotions! make sure you're doing it in a judgement-free zone. it's important you don't become a critic at this time. do messy, honest art (sometimes i write short scenes of gay/lesbian characters to cope with the homophobia in my life, and it makes me feel MUCH better and less cynical, sometimes you need to create beauty to remember it exists in the world)

-get out! get out into nature, if you can. if you can't immerse yourself in some form of it. try watching a potted plant for a while or watch insects. take interest in the mundane aspects of life. see that leaf curl? that ant? you're part of that. when you see the clouds, remember they are part of the cycle. the earth grows into its beauty as you do. the moon is the sky's cycle tracker. you belong to this world. you belong in it. this is your home. revel in it.

-if you can, and if you want to, hang out with animals. animals are great companions with none of the misogyny, internalized or otherwise! they don't mind if you cry, either. seriously, if you need non-draining, non-complicated companionship, animals are a good option. it's also good to remember you're a simple animal sometimes, with simple needs. sometimes all you need is a nice belly rub and a little treat.

-cultivate female friendships where it's safe to rant and also not all about ranting. your friendships should be a comfort, not a chore. you need irl community. if you can access it at this time, if you can find a way to cultivate it, please do. it may save you

-it is okay to enoy things despite the evil in the world. you don't have to be an activist 24/7. go watch your favorite movie. listen to your favorite comedian. and let down your guard while you're enjoying that little something. it's important you don't fall into analyzing things.

-for the gaslighting, start having conversations where you make it explicitly clear that you want the other party to ONLY listen. also, JOURNAL, even if it's just a paragraph or two sentences. write down the small important facts of your day. you'll either build a more reliable memory or come to see how reliable your memory is. just don't hang out with people that are constantly testing you. that is not an environment where you develop healthy trust in yourself.

-fight back! these are some ways to heal from the bruising of the world, but honestly? you need to acknowledge how RIGHT and GOOD your anger is. and one of the best ways to do that is to fight back! do something that addresses part of the injustice your heart is screaming about. it doesn't have to be big, it just needs to help someone and address the situation. address the alarms in your brain telling you something isn't right and you have to do something about it. scratch that itch! do that something. you will feel really good

please feel free to add any other tips you guys may have for cultivating joy, hope and energy, because we don't have to be miserable while/for doing the right thing

[davekat-sucks]

Its not often I participate in online arguments... or ever... but just this once, I'll throw my hat in the ring. You right, DaveKat is not a good ship at all. I'm a new Homestuck reader (currently at page 4488). I'll never ever get into the sequel stuff of Homestuck bc of the horror stories I've heard of it but even then, when I heard DaveKat as a ship I was like, "Huh??? That's a ship??? and its popular??????" because I don't see the vision. Dave and Karkat have no chemistry like what is their relationship like?? Karkat going on his millionth rant that day and Dave pissing on him for it like??? AND there isn't any build up to it to which I heard it was forced upon. Like for what? For what purpose?? But you know what I do like? DaveJade. I'm a big DaveJade fan. Not only do they have a lot of chemistry but like their dynamic, the contrast between the silliness of Jade and the cool guy Dave is SO fun and SO SO cute. Also Also, Dave and Jade's relationship just feels so real to me. Like I think Jade is like the only person Dave really enjoys talking with other than y'know, Rose and John. iirc (bc its been a while since I continued reading HS) the only time Dave smirked while talking to someone was with Jade on page 382 (which I only found out ta'day :0) and no doubt in my mind Dave was excited to meet Jade when she finally got into the medium and helped her out finding the frogs on her planet. I also think that Jade would be a very supportive figure for Dave givin his insecurities about himself, that at least she thinks Dave is very cool even when he thinks otherwise. Another thing, Jade did not have to go out there dressed all fancy n crap like for who you so fancy for? DAVE OBVIOUSLY!!! Also seeing art of Dave trying so hard to keep his cool around Jade is so cute and funny DaveJade is just so CUTE GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love DaveJade :)

Also I ship Karkat and Terezi bc they have a very funny dynamic lol (I think what sold me on DaveJade was this album art from Vol 8 LOOK HOW CUTE THEY ARE!!!!)

Dave and Jade could really help and support each other. Jade wants to see the outside world and gain connections with people as Dave learns to open himself more and know he can be vulnerable at times with those he care for so that he can have confidence to still be strong and cool in his own way. Both of them can be out to do whatever they want together. If not just them, then with friends too. See the world they have never saw before when they were stuck at home (get it? Cuz Homestuck lmao). I think some of the Homestuck pairings was suppose to be this. Couples that not only have great chemistry, but also ones that can help grow and mature as people for the new universe they would eventually live in. And it's that support that would soon lead to be with their friends to rise and stand up whatever is facing them. It's why DaveJade works. I don't see it working with Davekat. Most fanon I see has them kind of stationary. Never changing to be something else. Even now, they are just depicted as people that stay the same and too nervous to grow out from their comfort zone.

[ay-miphae]

I like hearing peoples' life stories, so it might be cool to hear some of your life story (as much as you are willing to tell)

*this is in response to that reblog about asks and rants and such

Hell yea thank you for such a loaded ask, this took me awhile to think about but I have not forgotten but now that Inktober madness is over I’ll go for it.

Hmm. Life story is interesting, I don’t know if there’s much of a tangible story there yet. I’ve come to realize I don’t have a very strong sense of identity or self, rather basing my identity off my hyperfixations so that’s often the closest I get to describing myself. But I have this whole blog for that purpose lmao, and also for my interests in music and drawing. But a significant constant in my life (that I don’t talk a whole lot about here) is coffee.

It’s a little silly I know. I am a little too dependent on my beloved bean water and you guys are free to tease me about that lmao. But it’s always been here.

It was there in my childhood years, the smell of fresh brewed coffee from the kitchen every morning. My dad still drinks black coffee (almost) every morning, and I think I must have been 4 when I insisted on trying it the first time. “Yea I like it!” (I did not. It was very bitter.)

Sometimes the grocery store would have coffee samples, where I had a field day trying them all and somehow growing to like the taste. And then I realized I could add milks and flavors and be creative with it. Enjoying coffee of any kind became a source of comfort and something I looked forward to and cherished through my early teenage years. Maybe a cafe run with a friend that was just so special and unique to me, or the time it iced over all the streets and my dad and I brewed a particular brand of coffee that gives me nostalgia every time I taste it, or making myself a bit of something to tide me over a long night of studying.

When I was old enough to get a job, that’s naturally where I gravitated. Don’t get me wrong - customer service takes a lot out of you - but it was something I genuinely enjoyed for awhile. Like - wow, I get to make a coffee for this person? That’s so cool! I mean the magic certainly gets lost after countless afternoon rushes and unpleasant customer interactions. I don’t know though. I guess it’s still a special thing I get to do, and it feels nice to put artistic craft and care into something that would have meant the world to me a few years back.

I’ve never been that close with my parents. But somehow the bean water still works wonders. Buying a Chemex coffeemaker for my dad for Christmas, deciding that we wanted an espresso machine at home, talking over getting some coffee to go. A little outside my comfort zone, but I guess little steps count. Not to mention the times my closest IRL friend (@samevanssatscores hi) and I have yoinked ourselves to the local coffee + records shop to bond over going absolutely feral over iced lattes and records neither of us have ever heard of. And meeting both of my online best friends in person and being so excited that hey! we’re having coffee (or boba) together! in person this time!

So I guess this is my long-winded ode to bean water, which, sure, is a universal drink that keeps millions of people awake each day. But it’s not just function, it’s about the experience of enjoying it and connecting via it, and that’s something that’s only gotten more and more true in my life.

[hot-take-tournament]

Omg the reblog person is so real for that. I understand that Tumblr doesn't have an algorithm so liking doesn't functionally do anything but I get extremely anxious about reblogging so the guilt trips are really awful for me (and I assume it's the same for others with similar issues.)

Uh- bit of a tangent/rant below. For context I'm an "Audhd-er" (I think that's the term people use, it means I'm autistic and I have ADHD)

I understand most of the time they are over-exaggerating their feelings on the matter. In posts about reblogging stuff from writers and artists it's always kind of a "LIKES DO NOTHING SHOW YOUR LOVE WITH REBLOGS LIKES MEAN NOTHING"

I've always found that a bit odd. As someone with two mutuals (one of whom is rarely online) and 1 normal follower my reblogs really aren't gonna do much so I mostly reblog stuff my mutuals might like and occasionally make my own posts. (Keeping everything else private for the most part) When I get a like it always brings a warm fuzzy feeling because it means someone enjoyed my reblog or post enough to share with me that they liked it.

I've only had one post that breached containment and it was a fun weekend of checking out the blogs of people who liked it! All in all I think maybe people are just unaware of the anxieties that come with being online and the people who experience those anxieties are too anxious to really speak up about it. I mean look at me I'm chilling behind an anon mask rn (I rarely send an off anon ask lol.)

For a website dubbed by its users as the neurodivergent website, some people forget to consider that learning and working within the culture of a social media platform can be extremely stressful for many types of people, let alone an autistic person such as myself (the ADHD doesn't help either). Some of us would prefer to lurk in our private blogs, only coming out of our comfort zone when we feel ok to do so.

All in all, a reminder to reblog is perfectly fine, but please refrain from the guilt-tripping and social obligation type of thing— or at least be aware of it and try not to be offended if one of your mutuals struggles to reblog.

Now this is all my personal perspective, other people will likely have completely different experiences but I wanted to share in case people were confused on why it's an issue for some people. Thanks for reading this whole thing and I hope you have a lovely day <3

I think I get what you're saying -

For a lot of people it genuinely takes a surprising amount of guts to put themselves out there on the internet in any way, even if it's anonymously, and that includes things as simple as reblogging a post.

It's not just Tumblr either. You also see it on Reddit and Twitter, and in online games where people just want to keep to themselves and not interact with strangers. Some people just want to lurk, maybe liking or upvoting, but not commenting or reblogging, because that feels like making yourself more "visible" somehow, in a way simply liking posts doesn't.

It's difficult to put into words, but I feel it's kind of like being in a university lecture with 50+ strangers. Liking is sitting in the back quietly taking notes. Reblogging is like putting your hand up and giving an opinion when the professor asks for one.

It's true that only reblogging actually contributes anything functionally, but there are plenty of people, especially neurodivergent people, who might struggle with that kind of thing, but still want to show some appreciation, or just save it as a bookmark.

So, I think that's partly why that kind of guilt-tripping or threatening reblog bait can be so stressful. Tumblr is a comfort app for a lot of people, who just want to curate their own little private space. Reblog baits are like someone banging on your door, telling you that you're actively doing something wrong by keeping to yourself, and (in the case of "I'll block/unfollow you if you like/read but don't reblog" baits) people will hate you for doing it.

It also implicitly takes away the sense of control you have over your own personal online space. Ideally, you should be able to do whatever you want with your own blog - no one should dictate your own online experience. So, if you just want to reblog things you like or want to share, at whatever pace you feel comfortable with, there shouldn't be anything wrong with that.

But reblog baits seem to suggest that you shouldn't have that control, and there are certain things that you have no choice but to put on your blog, and it has to be right now. And I feel that sense of having control suddenly snatched away from you without warning could also be a major source of anxiety for a lot of people who see Tumblr as a source of comfort.

With all that in mind, while I do believe that it's not quite this simple, considering artists and writers, and especially those who rely on commissions, do need exposure from reblogs, I also feel it's difficult to blame people for finding very aggressive reblog baits stressful, especially when you're suddenly blindsided with them.

At least, those are just my initial thoughts based on what you said, but absolutely let me know if you disagree with any of this or feel I misrepresented what you meant <3

[theonevoice]

Hello! Thanks for responding to my post. It's nice to know I'm not the only one who was making that connection. Then I noticed that you were the one who made those astounding portraits of Crowley and Aziraphale -- I'm sure you know which ones -- and I had to reach out. Bravo! That was some amazing art.

Forgive me, I'm not accustomed to conversing with strangers anonymously online. I don't know if there is an etiquette for it. I mostly lurk. But between your art and your allusions to scholarship, I wondered what you do?

For my part, I am a sociologist. So I'm not in the field of literature or media, but I do know how to use Google Scholar, and I was, for my part, disappointed in its offerings on Terry Pratchett.

Sincerely,

Kate

Hi Kate! Thank you for reaching out, I am always happy to receive mail, so to speak! And thanks for liking the drawings (they are my newly re-discovered hobby)!

Regarding the original discussion (the so-called Great Tradition of Western novels and the shameful lack of study of Terry Pratchett novels), I agree: in the field of academic literary studies there is a very bad and unfortunately widespread prejudice against almost all fantasy and scifi literature, with minuscule exceptions (Asimov, sometimes but not always Tolkien). As of now, I am a researcher in the field of Comparative Literature and Literary Criticism and Theory (they are all grouped in the same academic "sector" where I live), and for my part, I have two strong and loud opinions on the matter (which I regularly inflict on all my colleagues):

1) Fantasy and Science Fiction literature is not "inferior", less deep, less aesthetically valid, or less interesting than other genres, and overlooking it is just a bad pompous habit shared by many scholars (there are historical reasons for it, but I find it still unacceptable)

2) If we want to properly comprehend the collective imagination of our times through its artistic manifestations, which is one of the declared objectives of literary studies, we *must* take into account those narratives that venture outside the comfort zone of realism, because that's where many crucial issues are processed

By the way, I personally believe that the second point applies to comics and anime as well (not despite their younger target, but exactly because of it).

That's it, sorry for the rant! But I am very grateful for your ask, because it gave me a chance to add Tumblr to my list of places where I have preached about this! XD

[l0ves1ckf0ol]

WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. . . . anthony larusso x gn!reader

note: as awaited, i have finally uploaded more cobra kai content

anthony larusso was the equivalent of an insufferable and egotistical asshole or as everyone would call him, a bully. the l/n's and the larussos were close knit so at one point, anthony and y/n used to be friends. until the families hung out less due to their busy schedules and well- here we are, y/n sitting alone at their table at the cafeteria as anthony laughed along with his friends at another table. though the both of them only had small talk, after hearing about how he was bullying the new kid just because of a girl or something along the lines of that, they had had enough. y/n wasn't really intending to get close with the guy (kenny) , though they were really curious about the whole karate shenanigans they stayed put and out of their business but this dude really needs to stop.

he doesn't even know karate what's he to stand up for?

anthony larusso used to be a bright boy who y/n played online games with during their trips, he used to be a kid being able to find joy on a screen, he used to like hanging out with y/n now he probably doesn't even think about them anymore.

y/n wasn't one to be in anyone's business but once they had heard that kenny was shoved in a locker then stuffed inside with milk. they had never felt angrier than ever. they weren't even close with kenny but anthony has crossed the level of being a douchebag. y/n hates to think of anyone badly, they just wanna make sure that anthony now was the same anthony that they talked about video games with.

the surprise on mrs. larusso's face was hilarious as y/n casually pops in and swears that they wanted to hang out with anthony, they also brought cookies (courtesy to their mom). y/n didn't have the pleasure to see sam on their way upstairs, she probably had training. they had also learned thag anthony has bad manners because mrs. larusso insisted that anthony can't peel his eyes off of a screen to even talk to her.

they knock on his bedroom door, "come in!" y/n hears and they went inside. anthony was on his desk - surprisingly even doing his homework. "if you're gonna rant about eagle fang, sam i don't have time-" he stops himself once he looks up to see who it was. his face falls for a moment and then lights up, realizing it was his childhood friend.

"hey... y/n. why are you here?" anthony frowns, confused. y/n sighs as they close the door behind them. "you know i don't have any friends at school, can i at least make an attempt to make one?" y/n lies, they thought they'd be fine off without anthony (again, a lie.)

"well i'm done with homework, let's catch up." anthony says, closing the math book that was opened on his desk. "wait here, i'll get us some chips and some drinks." y/n notes that he was still polite. good so far.

once he was back, he insisted they'd watch their favorite show when they were kids on his ipad and that was where they both got cozy on his bed, stomachs against the mattress and arms folded for their chin to lay on as they ate lays potato chips while watching Bluey. it had been way too long since they both shared a bed while watching wholesome shows. it felt nice. it felt even nice when anthony still acted like the same chubby kid that y/n loved spending time with.

why was he acting such a douchebag in school anyway?

"what's with the big shot attitude at school, ant?" y/n starts, still staring at the screen of the ipad, watching the show. "you haven't called me that for a while." they scoff,

"you haven't had the time to." they mutter. anthony sighs through his nose, "you know i'm sorry about not hanging out with you, my mom was surprised i went out my room to get us snacks, i went out my comfort zone for you." he jokes sarcastically, y/n rolls their eyes. "ha ha, you are the funniest person on earth."

anthony giggles as bingo and bluey chase each other at their yard. "why do you suddenly care anyway? you show up suddenly at my house and you claim to miss hanging out with me, you're still weird after a long time." he mumble his head tilting to the side one slight movement of relaxation he would fall on their shoulder. "just wanted to check on you." y/n told him. "how come when i come over, i see you- the kid that i used to be the bestest friends with, turn out to be real nice and innocent and when you're at school- you're a bully, a huge douchebag."

anthony stays silent, unmoving and this worries y/n. "ant?" y/n hears a sniffle. anthony looks at them, glossy eyes and tear stained cheeks. "why? what's wrong?" y/n asks as anthony shuts off the ipad and lays on his back.

"i don't know, y/n. i'm- i want people to like me. like how my people like my sister, the nicest larusso kid, lia seems to like kenny so i-"

"so you made fun of him, humiliated him?"

anthony scoffs, "you are just like everyone else." he mutters, sitting up to face them. y/n raises a brow, "enlighten me larusso." they reply. "i don't get why people just berate me for what i do and not even question why i act like this, why i am the way i am." anthony rants, y/n shrugs, "well then, why are you this way?"

"because... because...." anthony trails off as he tries to find a valid answer, eyebrows knitting together. y/n had a hunch in their head about the reason.

"look- i know you can't help but feel like you're left alone to fend for yourself or you need to constantly chase your parents' expectations or even just their attention, but that isn't any excuse to bully someone." y/n told him, bracing for him to get upset and this was a one shot answer to making things awkward between them.

"i know... i shouldn't have done it anyway." anthony mumbles.

"good, now i wanna see you apologize to him- i dont care how just do it sincerely." y/n says to him. "can i just hang out with you right now? it's been so long." he whines, flopping back down on to his pillow. "alright, alright, do it at school.

[suspicious-whumping-egg]

Hi I really want to write but I don't really know how and I don't know how to start but I'm also really worried that people would judge me can you just help me and give me some tips

Hey anon! First of all there’s no right or wrong way to write! Good writing usually shares common characteristics like figurative language, literary devices, a strong plot, characters, and theme, etc, but different people like different things and if you write what you love, you’ll find your audience. There always may be people who judge you but that doesn’t mean their opinions are more relevant than those of who enjoy your writing, and those people may just not be your target audience. What’s important is that you genuinely enjoy writing it, because if you write to cater to an imaginary audience (or even a real one), you might find yourself losing passion or interest in the project while becoming more and more stressed, losing the audience your writing may have attracted if you’d just written what you enjoyed. Expanding your comfort zone is good, of course, but do it on your own terms, and know that you don’t need to treat all online writing advice like a rule, but a guideline. Writing advice, good, mediocre, and otherwise, can be a good tool regardless if you use it, because analyzing why someone might have come up with this advice or what they were going for can also lead you to develop more of your own helpful processes. I.e. back when people tried to avoid using the word “said” nearly at all because they didn’t want to repeat it— the goal ofc was to keep from being tedious and repetitive, but sometimes it’s best to keep it at “said” instead of trying to use different or more complicated words that don’t fit the point of the advice makes sense, even if the actual advice doesn’t.

Now, if you’re interested in having more detail or (literary) strength to your writing I definitely recommend researching literary devices, plot structure, character development methods, how to develop and communicate a theme, etc. What’s also very important is making sure you know how people in general work, if you’re looking for realism in your characters, so looking at some general psychology concepts can be helpful. If you’re looking to write with some type of structure, it can help to plan plot diagrams, write out character bios, etc. If you prefer to just let it all marinate in your mind and dump it out on the page, that’s great too! Discord can also be a nice medium because it gives the record keeping of the former but instead of structured documents, it’s just unhinged rants to your friends that still give you more concrete ideas. Personally I’m a bit more of the second type, although my avoidance of making documents or diagrams for my plot and characters does mean I have to do a lot of thinking, remembering, and planning in my head in order to keep a strong plot, proper character development, etc.

Last but not least, don’t be too hard on yourself! Many people you see writing, including on tumblr, have been doing so for a long time. I’ve been writing for maybe three years, and the first things I wrote were for my eyes only (and maybe those of a select few) and I certainly didn’t post it. Writing is a craft, and like any other, it takes time to develop and grow. There may be some rough spots at first, and that doesn’t mean you should give up. And if you do post it, remember that numbers do not equal worth. Many of us know the feeling of working super hard on a piece to only get a scatter of likes, maybe a reblog or two. But if you find yourself writing as a way of getting notes, or feeling like notes dictate the worth of your writing, it can be a good idea to keep writing but not posting it. Although taking a break can also be good and healthy! The best writing doesn’t often come when you sit down and force yourself to write, and trying to forge yourself to write when you’re not vibing it can sometimes just be more frustrating and can exacerbate burnout. Personally, when I have writer’s block, or anytime I’m trying to write, I spend a lot of time just thinking and daydreaming about scenarios until I feel that excitement and motivation to write again.

If you’d like more advice, feel free to send another ask or dm me here or at blue.e on discord! Happy writing <33

[spook5hadow]

It took five games into the new season of Overwatch for someone to be a toxic POS. Honestly that's pretty impressive and has to be a record of some sort.

I just... I just don't understand what makes a person plan an online game with other living breathing human beings and think "hey, I'm going to be jerk/bully/meanie pants".

Add onto the fact that the game literally encourages players to play "all roles" yet according to seemingly majority of the player base, playing outside of your comfort zone is a cardinal sin and worthy of flaming and ripping someone apart for.

People often tell me to just suck it up or deal with it because that's the price of playing online games, but I'm sorry no?! Maybe I don't want to be content with the fact that so many people in the world are colossal assholes. Maybe that genuinely upsets me because these people are out there being horrible people online and then just getting on with their lives not caring about the repercussions of their actions.

Honestly, if you're a dick and a bully to people online, I don't want to associate with you. Because that shows me that a part of your soul is dark and nasty and not worth my time.

Whether it's Overwatch or Apex or WoW or whatever, it's a FUCKING GAME. People play to have fun and if you're not having fun then have the agency to close the game, walk away and breathe. Participate in some self care and love and think about what it is that is making you so angry at the world that you're bullying random strangers on the internet.

Rant over. Sorry.

[dotster001]

Another twst writter NICE!

It's rare for me to see matchups in this fandom so I am very much interested huehuehue

I hope it's okay that I go by anon I use they/them pronouns

My personality type is an Into and my zodiac sign is a Libra

at the start I'm the most quiet of the bunch but when I get comfortable enough I end up being the biggest crackhead my friends online are either always caught offgaurd by my shenanigans or used to it at this point daily

even though I seem rather talkative annoyingly very much, flirting with random people in servers,I actually prefer to be left by myself to do my own things I go with the flow and tend to slack off at times but when it comes to things I'm interested in I make sure to give it my all and when I'm in the zone I don't like to be told off what to do, just because I'm a passive person doesn't mean I'll let people step on me I have my own limits and boundaries and won't hesitate to stand up for myself or others.

People usually underestimate me because of how dumb I act at times but when a serious situation calls it's basically a personality switch for me that I have to be in charge if nobody is up for the position, I also make sure to be very attentive to people I'm close with even down to the little details and if one were to ask me about my honest opinion I won't hesitate to be blunt though I make sure to tone it down a little depending on who I'm talking since I'm aware what I say can be rather rude.

Interests:Drawing and playing videogames also making absurd theories!!!

hope this isn't too long have a good day (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

Event Closed

(a fellow Libra 😁)

I match you with Vil Schoenheit.

At first he is impressed by your calm collected aura, but he sticks around because there's something alluring about your crackhead, randomly flirty, but also private, nature. He's always on his toes with you, and it's new and exciting. Also, we all know that everyone loves libras! It's that winning personality. ;)

Draw him something? He'll be so flattered, and so happy. He'll give you a soft kiss on your cheek, tell you how beautiful you are, then post it on his magicam with an elegant caption about true love, and pure beauty, and the magnificence of art. Rook sobs about it every time, because he can't cope with the "sheer weight of Rois du Poison's love."

When Vil thinks back onto the moment he realized he was in love, it was a moment when you were blunt with Ace about being a dumbass. He can't remember which time it was, exactly, but he can clearly recall you standing before him, a serious expression on your face, as you told him if he didn't get his act together, he'd end up failing out of NRC. As a fellow blunt person, Vil was in awe. Don't be afraid to be blunt with him. He can take it. And he wants to hear what your opinions of him are.

Vil can learn a lot from your go with the flow/slacker side. At first he's not too sure about it, but his stress levels start to significantly decrease when he follows your way of living. And Rook comments that his forehead looks less lined in recent photographs. Huh. Who'd have thought?

The absurd theories…who knew Vil Schoenheit would be so intrigued by a conspiracy? His head spins whenever you just go off on a rant, but it's so hot how into your theories you are…(it's the Aries in him. He loves when you're passionate)

"These games are a waste of time," Vil grouched.

"And yet, you've been watching me play for three hours, perfectly entertained," you hummed.

He didn't say anything, but with how long you'd known Vil, you knew his lower lip was probably protruding prettily, and his arms were probably crossed, in a beautiful version of a pout. 

"Is it possible that, just maybe, you less are upset about the video game, and more that I haven't been paying attention to you?"

Vil scoffed a little too loudly, affirming your question more clearly than a yes ever could. 

"Vil," you hummed, before patting your lap.

He humphed, and rolled his eyes, before laying down and resting his head in your lap.

You gently pet his hair with one hand, while continuing to try and game with the other. It wasn't long before Vil was breathing slightly heavier, and it was clear that he had fallen asleep.

"Aw, my sleepy queen," you whispered, removing your hand from Vil's hair. 

At least, that's what you tried to do. A half asleep Vil whined, and pushed your hand back into his hair, before settling back into sleep.

"My needy, sleepy, queen," you muttered with a roll of your eyes, resuming petting his hair.

[juune-buug]

ABOUT ME!??!?! WHAAAT

HELLO im june or whatever honestly have fun with my name i dont mind ^_^ my insta is @juune_buug the pronouns are she/they mexican (eng and span speaker)

i am numero uno trinket fan ok MAIN INTERESTS ATM: i'll mainly be making mcyt fanart and hcs (QSMP to be specific) since i've been obsessed with minecraft roleplay for like literally my entire life KKKKKKKKK i may draw ships (of characters, NOT CCS!) and aus if im feeling it!!

I'm also mainly a Philza viewer ok i survive off of clip channels and vods amen

i MIGHT also be drawing OCS and writing stuff about their lore or whatevs (beware of long unavoidable rants) ALSO FEEL FREE TO TALK TO ME ABOUT *YOUR* OWN OCS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!! i love worldbuilding and story writing collabs so feel free to dm if interested!

(OC SHIPS ARE ENCOURAGED PLES AND THANK YOUW)

(no NSFW, gore, OVERLY DETAILED mechas, and just general indecency allowed when it comes to art trades lul)

Misc interests:

Coraline, OTGW, bee and puppycat, murder drones, ITSV, anything cubito related, kirby, resident evil, and idk ill add more maybers i'm not very active online, but i'm always down to collab and get out of my comfort zone! feel free to dm :) i love alex g

[xerserise]

1. I have something going on with dopamine (many of my issues are correlated with dopamine stuff) which makes it hard to be happy.

2. The dopamine stuff and possibly other neurology of mine (combined with the world I was raised in) mean I have significant executive function issues—making it hard to start things, keep doing things, finish things, plan things, and even to want things.

I'm trying to find more joy in life, because it sucks being miserable all the time. But finding things that give me joy is hard work. Getting myself to start the thing that might be fun is work. Pretty soon, doing the novel and interesting thing that made me happy becomes work, because it's not new and doesn't keep my interest and doesn't hold as many secrets to uncover—it's just another thing I did/learned/tried, and forcing myself to maintain it becomes a hated chore.

The more interests I've gone through, the more overlap there is with other potential interests. I've already done something like that, so why do it again? (But also sometimes: I've already done something like that, so I have some skills that can transfer over.)

Do I constantly chase a new interest? Do I try to reignite passion for an interest I'm losing passion for? Do I pick up an old interest again, in the hopes that a spark flares up? Do I expose myself to new things outside my comfort zone (Hah! No.)?

The problem is, interest can't be forced, only attention. So most of the time, if I'm not trying to make myself wash dishes or brush my teeth or call the doctor or something, I'm disinterestedly whiling away the time with something relatively mindless and mildly entertaining (often while trying to get myself to stop doing the mindless thing and get myself to do the important thing). Which is no way to discover new interests or take care of the home or get a to-do list done. It is soothing, though. Sometimes. Occasionally.

On the other hand, getting joy out of doing things kicks my brain into high gear (heavily focused on the fun thing) without giving me choice of where my focus goes, often leaving necessary things undone (leading to future misery).

Forcing myself to care for myself and do necessary household stuff uses so much of my energy and my limited capacity to choose where focus goes. After that, my brain needs a break. But the first break of the day is often the end of the 'working day'. Regardless of when the break occurs. The next day, I once again have to push myself to get fed and washed and take care of stuff around the house, collapsing before it's all done. And again. And again. And...

My attempts to connect with others (because doing fun things with people is fun, and I want to have more fun) online leads to idly scrolling my feeds, which have been curated to show me things I think are important. So an idle decision to check my notifications will result in idly scrolling for hours through post after post about how people are being harmed by the systems of society, and by genocide and by individual acts of bigotry. And in person, you can't block people or choose to skip over their rants or check someone's profile before making a choice about whether to engage in conversation.

Anyway, the moral of this story is: [possum_screaming.png]

[sinsandsweetness]

https://www.tumblr.com/sinsandsweetness/732843908529373184/hi-t-babyyy-i-need-to-rant-for-a-moment-i-was

omg this.

lowk i hate the phrase vanilla because it makes missionary seem like a bad thing, when it’s such an intimate position.

the sad thing is i feel like slowly people are calling more and more things “vanilla” like even choking or spanking and basically calling others boring if they aren’t into more intense kinks

which also promotes such a lack of communication and potentially pressures others into feeling like they have to go out of their comfort zone in order to not be boring or vanilla.

it takes the intimate connection out of sex and seriously makes you feel like an object icl

This is such an interesting discussion and I happen to have a lot of opinions and agree with you a bunch.

I’ll start off by saying I think there’s something really intimate and beautiful about kinky sex. Bondage, impact play, cnc, whatever it is you’re into, I see the appeal. The trust you have to have with your partner is so high and so intimate and I think to me, that’s what makes it special.

My issue however, is that there has become this (mostly online) discourse around vanilla sex or kinky sex and what women should be into and should be okay with. (Obviously men and women and everyone in between but right now I’m focusing on women because I’m just really passionate)

I think that there has become this expectation and pressure for women to be okay with all these “degrading” sexual acts like choking, spitting, slapping, being tied up, being verbally degraded, and overall just rough, violent sex. And I think it can be really dangerous for anyone, but specifically young, inexperienced women to cling to these expectations and allow their bodies to basically become a tool for male pleasure, because of these pressures and internal expectations and insecurities.

There’s nothing wrong with vanilla. With sweet, simple, mundane sex where you hold intimate eye contact and you say I love you and you cuddle after and that’s it. It’s 100% ok.

It’s also ok to want to be hit or choked or spit on. But you shouldn’t be wanting that only because of outside pressures. It should be 100% what you and your partner is consenting to. Not just one or the other.