#MEOWS BACK BABEY !!

[bumblingbabooshka]

Resistance. Blood Won The Poll! [Patreon | Commissions]

[3-aem]

honestly just wanna give you a hug and a head pat and tell you you’re doing great

my cat has differing opinions and is currently singing a song about them bc i accidentally forgot i put him in the bathroom when i needed to clean a mess 😭😭

[catsxratsxbats]

meow mrow meow mew :3

Meow meow mew meow :3

[slashpaws]

hobie and the spot from across the spiderverse my FUCKING BELOVEDS i am obsessed w/ them both on god.

[skyward-floored]

The cat’s out of the bag chapter 6

Fight time babey!!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/52017334/chapters/145974010

Chapter 5 | Next (coming soon)

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Twilight and the others bolted through the woods, Legend at the helm with Wind clinging tight to his shoulder. Twilight was running beside them, dodging stray roots and slippery leaves, and listening carefully for whatever it was that Wind had heard.

He heard nothing but their footsteps though, and anxiety twisted through him as they ran.

Had Wind heard Sky? Monsters? Something else entirely?

They could have stopped and tried to figure it out from Wind’s meows, but they didn’t have time to waste. Sky didn’t have time to waste.

He’d been missing for over a day now, and Twilight knew his mind wasn’t the only one running rampant with possibilities, all of them bad. The scene behind them haunted him, the blood on the ground and gouges in the trees, and he pushed himself to run even faster.

Twilight heard Four puffing behind him as the ground began to slope upwards, the trees thinning out. The sound of water faintly hit his ears, but he couldn’t pinpoint exactly where it was coming from. All he knew was that they were moving up onto a small ridge of some kind, and the ground was getting rockier and more difficult to run on.

Legend suddenly flung out an arm to stop Twilight, and he froze, looking at the spot where Legend was pointing.

A group of monsters, dead ahead.

They were just close enough for them to see, the beasts gathered on a rocky outcropping. The group appeared to mostly be lizalfos-looking things, a few taller ones in the back with deadly-looking axes. Some tektites were scattered around as well, or at least what Twilight assumed were tektites based on the long legs, along with a single moblin he recognized from Wild’s era.

Legend pulled him back a little so they wouldn’t be seen through the sparse cover, and Twilight frowned at the beasts as the other Links caught up to them.

“Monsters,” he said, and Wind let out a soft hiss. “Organized ones. The same from the clearing?”

“No, these look fresh,” Warriors said, eyes narrowed as he counted. “No injuries or blood on them. And no sign of Sky. Must be a different group.”

“Should we fight them? Or just sneak past?” Four asked, slightly out of breath, and Time hummed, studying them.

“There aren’t too many... if they’re infected they’ll give us trouble though. And I’ll admit I don’t know all of those beasts. Traveler?”

Hyrule looked at the group of monsters, grimacing. “Not a good group to fight when we’re down two swords. Those two tall ones at the back there, those are Dairas, they’re bad news. And except for the tektites, the rest are smart enemies as well. I’ve... never seen a group like this outside of dungeons.”

“Might be wise to avoid them for now, then. We’re pressed on time, and we can always hunt them down again once we find Sky,” Warriors said.

Hyrule nodded. “There isn’t anyone around for them to attack anyway, except for us. We’re a long way from any settlements.”

Twilight nodded with the rest of them, and studied the terrain.

They were in a thin strip of forest at the moment, a steep upward slope to their right, the rocky cliff with the monsters to their left. If the beasts saw them, there wouldn’t be many places to run or fight... at least not easily. Twilight looked at the cliff with a frown, and Wild joined him, craning his neck to try and get a better look at it.

“Is it a long drop that way?” Wild asked, tilting his head towards the cliff. Hyrule made a so-so gesture.

“If I’m remembering correctly, it could be worse, but it isn’t great. The river loops around below, but it’s not very deep, and pretty rocky.”

“So it wouldn’t end well. Gotcha,” Legend said as he and Wind both studied the area. “Avoid the monsters, avoid the cliff, and we’ll be just fine.”

Hopefully, Twilight thought with a grimace. If they were seen, this had the potential to be a messy battle. Not to mention the problem of keeping Wind safe if something happened...

Twilight glanced at him, but the sailor didn’t seem bothered at the possibility of a fight, just worried about Sky. Twilight almost asked him to move to his shoulder, but then he remembered his promise to be less overbearing, and overprotective.

So he took a deep breath in, and then let it out, trying to expel all of his worries along with it. They would be fine. Wind would probably fare better than most of them if there was a fight actually, since he could easily run and hide.

Not that he would want to do either of those things.

The Links began to prepare to sneak, and Twilight set his thoughts aside as they all muffled armor and put away noisy accessories. He watched as Wild slipped a mask over his face beside him, tying his hair up into a bun, and Warriors glanced at him in confusion.

“...Why are you doing that, Champion?”

Wild looked at Warriors as if that was the stupidest question he’d heard all day. “Makes me sneakier. Duh.”

“...I won’t question how putting your hair up makes you sneakier. Or covering your mouth, for that matter.”

“It keeps him from running it,” Legend said with a smarmy grin, and Wild elbowed him.

“Enough, let’s go. No noise,” Time warned, already having padded his armor in key places to quiet its clanking. “And keep an eye out for any sign of our missing knight.”

The other Links nodded, and they began to file quietly through the undergrowth, keeping crouched low to the ground. Hyrule led the line, showing those behind him the quietest places to step, and Time held up the rear, making sure nobody got behind. Wind stayed hunched on Legend’s shoulder, his tail twitching with anxiety, and Legend gave his head a quick scratch.

Twilight followed behind the two, avoiding crumbly rocks and wishing he could transform. He’d be able to sneak so much easier if he had the abilities of a wolf. He might even be able to sneak ahead and cause a distraction so the others could slip by undetected.

He never thought he’d miss the option to turn into a beast so much.

A bird cawing in the branches above them had everyone tense, but the monsters didn’t seem to care, only giving a glance their direction before returning to whatever it was they were doing. Hyrule had them remain motionless a moment longer than necessary, then waved them on with a tense look.

Twilight sighed quietly in relief, and they continued, crawling through the leaf litter.

Ignoring the fact that they were sneaking around a group of bloodthirsty monsters that were likely infected, it was actually a rather nice afternoon. The sun was well on its way to setting, golden sunshine spilling through the trees. Tiny pink flowers poked up through the rocks to catch the last hour or two of sun for the day, and their sweet perfume occasionally tickled Twilight’s nose.

And Wind’s, apparently.

Legend crawled right by a patch of flowers, pollen floating into the air when he brushed against them, and Wind stiffened, his nose and whiskers twitching. Before Twilight could try to figure out what was up, the little sailor let out a huge, sniveling, cat sneeze.

And then three more in rapid succession, all louder than the previous.

Everyone froze, and Twilight looked at the monsters, one of the Dairas staring directly at the bushes where they were crouched.

Its snout scrunched up as it sniffed the air, and Twilight held his breath as it skulked closer, claws gripping its axe. The other Links put their hands on their weapons as it leaned towards the shrub where Legend and Wind were sheltering behind, and Twilight tensed, prepared to leap out and attack first.

Wild beat him to it.

Right as the Daira’s eyes landed on Legend and Wind, an arrow embedded itself right in its forehead, making it rear backwards with a howl. The other monsters immediately noticed, and Warriors shouted for them to attack while they were still surprised.

The Links exploded out of the bushes and began to fight, alarmed cries from the monsters ringing through the air. Twilight went for the daira Wild had shot, and it snarled, black blood dripping down its face. Somehow the headshot hadn’t killed it.

Their weapons clashed, a loud screech of metal against metal making Twilight’s ears hurt. They strained for a moment, Twilight actually sliding back in the dirt a little, but then he managed to push back and slash at the monster’s shoulder.

It howled in anger as more blood spread across its scales, beady eyes glaring at Twilight. It raised its arm back to throw its axe at him, and Twilight scrambled for his shield.

Wild came in the clutch again though, shooting an arrow in a gap in its armor near the daira’s shoulder. It turned towards him with a furious screech, but Twilight took the opportunity to lunge forward and separate its head from its body.

Blood sprayed as it fell, but Twilight didn’t waste time watching, turning towards the rest of the battle. It was a messy affair, monster blood making the rocks slippery, axes flying and tektites leaping down upon them. Twilight was only looking for one thing though, and as he held his shield up to block a stray axe, his heart pounded sickeningly.

Where was Wind?

A screech rang through the air, and Twilight saw Wind still clinging to Legend’s shoulder, serving as a pair of eyes for the back of his head. A lizalfos had tried to sneak up on the veteran while he was busy with some tektites, but Wind had given him enough warning to whirl around and defend himself.

Twilight sighed in relief, and ran towards the cliff where Time was fighting two lizalfos by himself. Legend was keeping Wind safe, the veteran would do a good job.

Going back-to-back with Time, Twilight fought the monstrous lizards together with him, slipping easily into a pattern of movement. Time would jump and Twilight would thrust, Twilight would dodge and Time would use the opening he’d been given.

They were steadily wearing the beasts down, and Time finally shouted for him to duck, and Twilight did, his mentor whirling into a spin attack that stunned both lizalfos.

Twilight sprang back up and killed the one he’d been focusing on, but the other managed to avoid Time’s strike. Twilight moved to help him, then lunged out of the way as the other daira threw an axe at his face.

Time took a hit on his cheek, but before Twilight could panic, he sprang forward and killed the lizalfos despite the blood on his face. Twilight glared back at the daira as it raised its arm again, but when an arrow just barely missed its neck, it abruptly turned and threw it a different direction.

Right at Wild, who couldn’t move fast enough to avoid it.

The axe hit Wild’s shoulder with a sickening thud, and he went down with a cry, red already visible on his tunic.

Twilight’s blood went cold.

“Wild!” he shouted in a panic, but before he could run to the champion, something else went flying towards him.

He ducked just in time, and looked behind him to see a tektite go flying off the cliff, its legs waving frantically. Twilight stared, then looked back at where it had come from, and saw a tektite in the moblin’s grasp, its arm winding back. It threw another tektite at Twilight, which he dodged, and he watched this one also fall down the cliff and land in the river below with a distant splash.

The moblin was throwing tektites at them.

Oh come on!

“Champion’s down!” Twilight yelled, dodging tektites as he made his way towards the moblin. “Can anyone get to him?!”

“Got it!” Four shouted back, already on his way, and Twilight watched in relief as the smithy made it to the bush where Wild had collapsed. He knew Four had healing items on him, Wild would be fine. Please let him be fine.

Twilight watched Four for a little too long though, and something slammed into him, throwing him to the rocky ground with a grunt.

A tektite had landed on his chest, and Twilight swung at it, but the bug jumped out of the way. He growled and tried to get up to go after it, but the tektite jumped on him again, slamming him back down against the rocks.

Twilight glared up at it as his head throbbed, his back aching from the abuse it had suffered. Right as he was about to try something different, a sword tore through the bug, knocking it off of his chest and killing it at the same time.

Legend stood above him with a hand outstretched, and Twilight gladly took it with a nod of thanks. Wind meowed a greeting, still looking unharmed to Twilight’s relief, but he didn’t have time to talk to the two of them.

Something went flying towards Legend’s neck from behind, and Twilight lunged to pull him down, an axe coming so close to their heads that Twilight felt the air displace as it went by.

A snarl of anger rang through the air as Twilight and Legend scrambled to their feet, and Wind got a determined look on his face. Twilight didn’t like the look of that, but there were too many tektites and axes flying towards him to follow Wind when he suddenly leapt off of Legend’s shoulder and took off across the battlefield.

“Wind you idiot! Get back here!” Legend shouted, but Wind ignored him, slipping past monsters and darting between legs.

Twilight lost sight of him in mere seconds, and he and Legend exchanged exasperated looks. What was Wind thinking?

He’s going to get himself killed running off like that! All it’ll take is for a stray axe or a lizalfos swinging its tail the wrong direction and he’ll be—

A roar interrupted his thoughts, and Twilight lunged out of the way of the moblin that was bearing down on them. Legend had dodged the other direction, and they both swung their swords at the same time, trying to land a hit.

The moblin took both of their strikes with barely a flinch though, and Twilight had to lunge out of the way of another axe from the daira that nearly took his head off.

We don’t have time for this, Wind needs—

Legend took a hit from the moblin and fell backwards with a gasp, a hand pressed to his middle. He wasn’t bleeding, but he’d been hit hard enough that he was having trouble standing up. Twilight could hear him wheezing from here.

The moblin roared in excitement, and Twilight bolted over to Legend, standing between him and the moblin, and... sheathing his sword.

Legend wheezed something that sounded vaguely like “what on earth are you doing you numbskull”, but Twilight remained in front of him as the moblin eagerly ran forward, watching the distance intently.

Wait for it... wait for it...

The moblin was feet away and already pulling back to deal a deadly blow, thinking Twilight was defenseless, but Twilight was in the perfect position to perform one even more deadly.

He drew his sword in a move so fast nobody watching would have been able to follow it, and slashed the moblin from shoulder to hip moments before he himself would have been struck.

The moblin gurgled, then fell to the ground with a thud, already fading into shadow.

Twilight breathed out, and forced himself not to look at Time as he heard the Shade’s voice in his head.

The mortal draw deals death.

“...Wow,” Legend wheezed, and Twilight turned and offered him a hand up in a mirrored action of earlier. “I... want to learn that.”

“Maybe,” Twilight said with a faint smile, then remembered Wind. “Where’s the sailor?”

Legend and Twilight began scanning the battlefield again, slightly less chaotic with the monsters dwindling, and tektites no longer flying everywhere. Twilight finally spotted the lithe form of Wind slipping around some rocks near the cliff edge, and he squinted, relieved that he didn’t seem hurt.

He was less relieved when he snuck up onto a taller rock right next to the remaining daira, though.

The daira didn’t notice Wind and wound back to throw an axe at Warriors, who was bolting for Wild since Four had shouted for assistance. Before the daira could attack him or anyone else though, Wind launched himself at its arm, clinging to its scales and biting down.

Hard.

The monster howled and swung at him, but Wind didn’t let go, biting down even harder as the Daira flailed. It raised its axe again, but Wind merely let go of its arm and threw himself at its face, making it screech in rage.

It snapped at him with its teeth, and Twilight shouted, trying to get to the two. There were too many rocks and enemies between him and Wind though, and all Twilight and Legend could do was watch as the Daira tore Wind off its face, snarling with hatred.

Wind snarled back and bit the monster’s hand again, making it shriek. It whipped its hand around, frantically trying to dislodge Wind, and Twilight watched almost in slow-motion as it stepped backward, slipping on a loose rock.

The Daira cried out as it fell backwards towards the cliff, and Wind tried to scramble out of its grip, his determination switched abruptly to fear as he let out a frantic meow.

Twilight bolted for him and the Daira, shouting for Wind. Legend sliced at monsters with no mercy as they both charged forward, and Twilight’s heart pounded in his throat as he ran.

Wind, get loose, come on Wind please, get loose—

The daira teetered on the edge, scrambling to keep its balance and not fall, but it had slipped too far. It must have realized it wasn’t going to be able to save itself, and instead it grabbed Wind with both hands, stopping him from escaping and screeching in victory as they both tipped backwards off the cliff.

The last thing Twilight saw before the sailor went over the edge were two frantic blue eyes meeting his.

Then he was gone.

“WIND!”

[connor6sex]

Lifesteal s6 day 1 report

So i watched a whole lotta lifesteal yesterday, and i continue to be watching a lifesteal stream as i write this. But Derapchu is wonderfully ignorable, so we persist. Here are the majority of my observations and thoughts on day 1. Some of my recollection may be wrong, please correct inconsistencies if you know more than i do. Intense Spoilers below (including mace spoilers)

So i began the day over an hour to launch, meowing up a storm in Pangi's chat. meow meow meow. Wonderful stuff. Once the server was closer to start and everyone else went live, i pulled up Princezam and Squiddo's streams. These were to be my main perspectives for the day. At one point i did end up watching 4 streams at once, and it was chaotic and i dont like watching more than 2 at once. I had a man on the inside[4 monitors with almost everyone's stream pulled up] to give me more news as it breaks.

The first death was Roshambo who died to dripstone i believe.

The initial team breakdown is as follows:

The Empire: This the group of assholes who preanounced their team, Minutetech, Mapicc, Spoke and Jepexx. Joined by surprise new member ChiefXD. This team began by rushing Mace and potions in order to kill people. They declared themselves the 'evil empire' and did some murderating. They got one of [the?] first kills on HannnahxxRose using dripstone. [or jumper? i think they both died early on to dripstone]

Blindfold Brothers: As the name suggests Manepear and Flamefrags decided that it would be them against the world. They briefly allied with another group against the empire, but they super betrayed and killed a bunch of people. Why my informant was surprised when they did that is beyond me. I thought it was obvious that these two would go on a murder spree.

The next team i actually dont know much about. Idk how stable and who's acutaslly in it: I think Woogie, Redd, Hannah, Leo, Kab and Clown [according to woogie's !team command]. Kab suspects that Clown is going to betray the rest of the group, which would be pretty Clownpierce of him. But CLown and Kab are tight. As a group of 6, they are officially the largest team on the server. They attempted to take down the Empire, and Mane and Flame even joined them temporarily to hunt the Empire.

The Pants Pals: 4CVIT Squiddo and MrCube6. Amazing team, fantastic. Also a member of this team: Eevee Trial Chamber Gay (tcg) the dog. This dog is the msot important thing on this server. Dont care about the mace anymore, only this dog matters. Yes this group is the one that got the the mace, but forget that. puppy. Squiddo, inspired by her dog buried the mace in a barrel that only she knows the location of.

Spacewaffles: Bacon and Planet are back babey! they built a nice tower together with tuff and copper, it looks great. They are neighbours with Zam and also Ash. Who also built houses near spawn.

Derap Wemmbu Ash: according to chat and also backed up by Derap when i asked, they are also Allied with Pangi & Spep. Derap & Terrain also have thier own alliance outside of the team. derap said a duo name that was long and weird, i think it was like glazed donut something duo. idk. derap's a freak. In pangi's chat, his !team command says Derap. Derap's pinned message does not say Pangi.

PrinceZam: is alone. on purpose! this time! He claims he could have friends but he doesn't want them! Zam's going solo and he's being a pacifist this season, or at least for as long as it lasts. He's not doing this for 'moral' reasons, but Zam also stated he didn't know that Morals are subjective. So, uh. take that as you will.

PE: Pentar Ecorridor. Clever name, said no one. idk what they're up to. Pentar killed Zam on Bacon's request. that was Zam's first death.

The Sticklers: Jumper & Ro. idk anything about what they've done. I just noticed Jumper was live, so i asked her team in chat. Jumper is down to 6 hearts after Clown killed her twice in succession. idk about the other deaths.

other people: idk. SB737 has not logged on yet. Whether he is on vacation until monday or as some chatters said he died in hospital after being run over by a truck. Who can say which one is true. Jaron i think also hasn't logged on. idk what anyone else is up to.

heart recipe: 4 netherite, 4 nautilus shells 1 ominous key

Now thats the stuff that i might actually reference some day. but like. idk man.

Some other things: Wemmbu was stuck in a hole for a while. Zam and Mapicc were discussing how long he would stay there complaining and how long until he just logs off. At one point Pentar was willing to go rescue him, but Mapicc killed him before Wemmbu could be helped to preserver the important Wemmbu Research being done. Later Wemmbu was killed by Spoke and the whole world rejoiced as Wemmbu was freed from Cave civilisation.

No one likes the Empire. idk if the Empire even likes the Empire likes the Empire. Jepexx [tried? accidentally?] nearly teamkilled at multiple points. Idk if this team will last. they were being called Frat bros by other people, and made enemies of everyone. I think MoralTech might also be having second thoughts about being evil.

No one knows where the Mace is. the Pants Pals, (which until they named themselves that i was referring to them as 4squid6 as that's the best way to combine their names.) got the mace quietly after Sqiuddo's mad rng role of getting the heavy core on the first ominous key. After that Squiddo went and hid the mace, her own team does not know where it is. Clown later claimed to have the mace, and no one can technically verify he doesn't. but everyone suspects their enemies of having it. and no one knows for sure. Very fun for someone who's known who has the mace the whole time. I've been in chat saying that I have it, or freddy fazbear has it. It's important to spread misinformation in times like these. Remember, unverified guesses may count as streamsniping at mod's discretion. If you are saying random names have the mace, make sure that its people who aren't real or at least not on Lifesteal this season or haven't logged on. Does SB have the mace? Have they asked him? Have we proved SB doesn't have it? I think SB might have it. :shrug:

[words-for-cat-bracket]

round 5 - week 2 - 1 of 2

brought to you by: apple cider

macska (hungarian) vs 猫 (chinese)

info and propawganda under the cut!

macska /ˈmɒt͡ʃkɒ/

-ka is a diminutive so its sound like it means ""little macs"" - except there's no ""macs"", that word doesn't exist, only macska: little macs, which is very true because all cats are babies.

Macska is just a little switcheroo away from makacs (cs is a single letter in hungarian) which means stubborn which is what cats are C:

猫 (māo) /mɑu̯˥/

It sounds like Meow! Also, Cantonese is a really cool language (that I can definitely not pronounce sadly)

Little ears and a tail 🥺

sounds like meow

BRO ITSLITERALLY THE CAT SOUND IRS LITERLALY WHEN A CAT GOES ""MOW"" ANNSJSYSSHSHSHH

Because it sounds like a cat <3

It sounds like the sound cats make.

māo sounds like the sound a cat makes

this word reads as ""māo"".

real pokemon moment. we chinese really saw a cat, asked it what it wanted to be named as, and then called it that. we even kept the same intonation (the dash over the a) to ensure that everyone else who knew chinese would talk to the cat in the exact same way the cat called to us.

it's got 3 radicals; the left (犭) for quadruped animal, the cap (艹) for grass, and the base (田) for field, like rice fields. that's basically the whole backstory of how we saw and met the cat. the kitty really was just coming in from the grass on his 4 lil paws to our field and introduced themselves as mao. ily cat

if you read the cap and base section only it looks like a cat's face and ears.

every time you want to write the word cat you have to draw them!!! wont you think of a lil babey kitty while drawing them? isn't it beautiful how every time we wanted to write cat in chinese we took the time to depict a cat? decided everyone should know how or what a cat looks like and devoted our time of remembrance to just a leetol creeture?

because it's literally onomatopoeic. the cat is named after the sound it makes (which is so cute)

simple, cute, direct, just like cat

It sounds like a cat sound, and also just really nice. If you interpret the radicals in the unintended way I'm deciding to, the leftmost bit of the character could look like a cat scratching their back on a fencepost behind them, or something. Overall, it is a very cat word

it sounds like cat sounds (cute) and its easy for me to remember as a chinese novice bc it has the same radical as dog and is easy to draw

sounds like the noise cats make. cute

猫 as a character is peak cat! It's been a while since I've been in Chinese school, so bear with me, but the left side uses the claw symbol, which shows it's an animal, and the right side (苗, pronounced miáo) helps explain its pronunciation. 苗 specifically means something along the lines of seedling/young/descendant and isn't really depictive of what it means, but when I was younger, I thought it looked a little like a cat with little ears and whiskers as well. (Chinese cats say ""喵"" (miāo) which ties back to the 苗 symbol as well!) Also, 猫 ""māo"" is kind of pronounced like a meow, which I think should give it bonus points. Overall, 猫 is the peak word for cat! :3

you cannot tell me they are not the perfect word for a kitty cat. they came up to us and introduced themselves, so we decided to call them by the name they call themselves, and in mandarin, we call them ""little māo"" because they are our little meow meows!! they are our babies!! also chinese is Ancient. our writing system goes back like 4000 years!! and we are still using it! i admit we probably weren't calling them 貓 for all these 4000 years but respect your elders! /lh

[duskdragonxiii]

GUESS WHAT'S BACK ON JAN 24TH? BEYOND THE END IS BACK BABEY!! Sorry it's been so long, what a year am i right? But i have some buffer back again and im ready to work!! The hell arc is set to finish and the heaven arc to begin in 2025 so stay tuned!!

💜You can get access to the jan update RIGHT MEOW on patreon!!!

💚New to the comic? You can read all 3000+ pages so far @ beyondtheend.gay

[g-n-c-quoi]

no one seems to be mentioning my favorite part of the return of the boops which is that

the cats boop back.

and when you get enough of them

FUCKIN MEOW BABEY!!

[azurexsnake]

sorry for the spammie spam but I missed you and about your cheeta vash it reminded me of this big meow meow vash art I saw

he's just so babey

I’m almost positive this and another fanart that is maybe somewhere in my retweets is what sparked that line of thought and I can’t go back now. Vash is a zoomie baby and I lob heem sm 💞💞💞💞

[ruthytwoshakes]

Howdy everybody!

it’s June! What! It was March yesterday I think,,,, urgurgh

But actually wait this is super exciting!! I’m out of my depressive slump which means I get to use the rest of June to prepare for artfight!

I’ll still be posting here, but it’ll be just my preparations + artfight attacks until August. I’ll be tagging everything with “Daffys Artfight 2023” so if you don’t want to see soooooo many skeletons and my cool swag characters than block that tag babey B)) and I’ll see you in August with more tf2!

And since I am very much developing a special interest with tf2, I’ll be doing attacks on tf2 ocs! If you want to attack me and draw my little meow meow Glider, than I’ll love you forever and ever and draw your little guy too teehee

Alrighty! Here’s the breakdown for this years artfight:

Until July 1st, I’ll be redesigning, updating, and writing my characters + (hopefully) posting about them on here! Also I’ll be bookmarking characters during this time, so send me your little guys during this time >B)

When the teams are decided I’ll make sure to use the templates that go along with it and finally edit my profile lol.

Every year for artfight, I do a mass attack with a bunch of skeleton characters! Last year was about 70, this year I’m planning to do 100 and actually finish it this time! As soon as artfight starts I’ll begin planning out my sketch and working on editing a nice little speedpaint for you all.

If I’m able too, I’d love to start a chain with someone and give my characters some friends! Last year I did one with Sam, my most littlest guy, and it was super fun!! (I’ve also got a lot more characters this year that I’ve been wanting to flesh out hehehe)

And that’s about it! I’ll add on some art I’ve been working on below

Here’s the personification of my process of creating characters! That’s a mouthful though, so he’s just called the Creator. Silly guy. As old and as young as time itself. Fuzzy.

Here’s some WIP character designs! I’m struggling a bit for inspiration on the top two, but fuck it we ball.

Thank you for reading! And I hope to see ya there! (My user is DaffoDuck) or https://artfight.net/~DaffoDuck

Well howdy again,, did you think there was secrets down here?? Because there is MUHAHAHA

here’s some tf2 plans and progress for my ongoing projects

The tf2 horror thing I’ve been working on! Sure have been working on it! Most definitely my most bodacious dude. H. I’m just mainly struggling with the bigger meaning of it,, got the plot all done,,,, now gotta somehow make it anti-capitalist. I gotta go analyze some more horror stories,, gotta go back to the scp phase.

I absolutely adore the child mercs that people have come up with, so I wanted to try my hand at it! I’ve got a real fun story going on, and I’m involving the classic mercs! I’ve changed them up quite a bit though because they’re much younger in this, and teachers,, hehheheh. Basically I stuck them all in a summer camp,, imagine LumberJanes and Gravity Falls with tf2 humor. Kinda terrifying when I write it out

OOOOO IM ALMOST DONE WITH A REALLY COOL THING!!!! I just need to finishing a little bit of writing but I’m almost done with my take on a class swap! As far as I can remember it goes like this: Heavy is Medic, Medic is Heavy, Sniper is Scout, Scout is Sniper, Pyro is Demoman, Demoman is Pyro, Spy is Soldier, Soldier is Engineer, Engineer is Spy. GHHRGRRRRR IM SO FUCKING EXCITED

I have a lot more but I forgor because it’s 5am in the fucking evening what oh my god goodnight!!!!!!! SHIT,!!!!!

[kulaiyin]

(content: APHO2)

i thought i should continue APHO2 right before i got super busy. i didn’t get that far in the story, but i did end up doing through a lot of the side stories that i piled up from raising friendship through the adventure tasks!

bronya, even as an adult, is babey

(as always, reactions under the cut!)

oh man void archives... 

if i recall correctly, his story and welt’s as well as the sky people were first introduced in the alien space manga. i also sort of skimmed that manga, but it’s so cool that it’s like a prequel to APHO

i’m not sure if this whole thing will play a role in honkai star rail (which, by the way, is releasing in 2-3 days at the time of this post!!! i’m super excited about it), but i do know void archives appears in welt’s star rail splash art

(... this isn’t directly related to honkai but fun fact... lucheni was first mentioned in that one voice recording in APHO, and at that time i just finished watching tkrz elisabeth 2016, and that is the ONLY reason i know about the origin of the name lucheni)

took a break after the big fight! phew

THAT’S NOT A DRINK CAROLE!

C-CAROLE!!!!

the story behind the omurice is actually really sweet though, carole wants to perfect it to thank mei for treating her with that dish back then... 🥺 these drink dialogues are really funny/cute, i wish there was an archive somewhere

side stories... they were really sweet!

NANI THE F ADAM

i almost forgot that bronya became a game designer LKJLJKALWA honestly i love that, it’s so fitting. and she came out of retirement because game dev wasn’t paying bills 🤧 (relatable)

WAIT THIS IS SO FUNNY!!!!!

OH...!!!!!!

this is the moment i realized that the current event, meow town, was the origin of the susannah and stan vlog series?! it was so surreal to see timido talk about stuff like valkyries on their days off and lewis and stuff... APHO2 was written how long ago?! and meow town just happened this patch! 

it’s really cool, i felt the connectivity of honkai story just now...

seems like lots of events in general are connecting too, and this patch is really an interlude into APHO events. like “kitty” being carole, and lyle on the moon base being, well, lyle...!

... now i want to see a grown up seele and susannah...!

i really love the way the CN va for carole said this line  (❤´艸｀❤) so funny

NOOOOOOOOOO

.................... WHY HOMU

i reached the end of my APHO2 screenshots... yes, i ended up leaving the story uncompleted yet again... according to my achievements list, i think i still have 2 more story parts to go through. hopefully i get to complete it soon!

i ended up not screencapping/saving a lot of conversations, but APHO2 dialogue is honestly so funny... i really love the main gang. lyle especially is great

[skullamity]

It's actually Parsnip (the fluffy black cat) who is deaf! We adopted him in May when he was 6 months old, and we immediately got the sense that something was off about him. He didn't respond to sound at all, but it was very hard to tell that that was what was going on because he's incredibly confident when you would think not being able to hear stuff while in a new place would make him hesitant, afraid to timid. Our vet was like oh, hmm. Yeah. He doesn't even swivel his ears at sudden loud noises behind him, it's like it's not even happening for him.

Pros about his lack of hearing:

- not afraid of vacuum cleaner

- cannot hear bags crinkling so he doesn't come running hoping for early dinner every time anyone touches a plastic bag

- did not spend Canada day evening being terrified of neighbour's fireworks

- managed to stubbornly befriend Dusty who spent the first 2 months making mountain lion screams at him if he made eye contact with her because he could not hear how much she hated him

Cons about his lack of hearing:

- is all up in my shit when I am trying to vacuum in a way that makes vacuuming difficult

- does meow, but can't hear his own voice. he has one volume and it is LOUD, and if he gets lost in the house looking for me like the other cats sometimes do, you can't just like...respond to him so he knows what room you're in by the sound of your voice, he has to see you, so you've gotta drop what you are doing and go find him or he will just scream forever.

- he has the worst cat manners ever, because while he and Ham love each other, Ham is a sad babey marshmallow and when Parsnip plays too hard and goes for his ears, Ham won't fight back. He just makes the saddest noise I've ever heard in hopes that Parsnip will let up, but it literally falls on deaf ears and I have to rescue him.

- the other two cats understand words like NO and OFF. If Ham gets on the table while we are eating I can say Ham, OFF and he's like oops there's food up here, I will go. Parsnip cannot learn words and wants to see what we are doing all of the time. He learns nothing and I will yeet him off that same table every thirty seconds until the meal is over. He doesn't even want our food, just wants to see what's going on on the table, and does not seem to understand that being physically placed on the floor is meant to convey that.

- his favourite toys are the ones that cause the most vibration on the floor, which just so happen to usually be the loudest toys ever, and he will play with them at 2 in the morning.

- his people manners also suck. He does not understand that we don't like it when he climbs our flesh with his claws, or affectionately chomps our ears or noses because he can't hear our pained vocal reactions.

- soothing him when we are doing something stressful like clipping his nails is so much harder than it is with the cats who can hear us gently talking to them. He just thinks that every week or so we are mean to his feet and spends the entire time flipping the hell out. :(

Anyhow, here are some bonus pictures of thre three of them!

And here's Parsnip causing me to retire the small trash bin in my room :( I emptied it in front of him ONCE and he decided it was so great that he helpfully emptied it himself so he could get in it, every night for a week at like 2am until I gave up and got rid of it.

Hey who wants to see pics of my garbage idiot cat children?

Unexpectedly photogenic Parsnip (black long hair) and Ham (grey tabby shorthair with white bib and boots) cuddling at the top of the cat tree where they DEFINITELY both fit, don't question it:

Immediate top ten anime betrayal moment:

Dusty (grey and peach torbie short hair) and Parsnip chilling in a window together even though she find his deaf ass The Most Annoying:

All three of them are goblins, but for completely different reasons and in completely different ways. They're all super cute, though, so everybody should look at them right now!

If anyone has questions about what it's like to live with a young deaf cat (as opposed to an old cat that has gone deaf), feel free to ask and I will be glad to answer, but otherwise I'm not typing up an essay.

Bonus:

an extremely cryptid photo of Parsnip mid-stretch that reminds me of

[words-for-cat-bracket]

round 4 - week 2 - 2 of 4

brought to you by: gizmo

猫 (chinese) vs kitku (polish)

info and propawganda under the cut!

猫 (māo) /mɑu̯˥/

It sounds like Meow! Also, Cantonese is a really cool language (that I can definitely not pronounce sadly)

Little ears and a tail 🥺

sounds like meow

BRO ITSLITERALLY THE CAT SOUND IRS LITERLALY WHEN A CAT GOES "MOW" ANNSJSYSSHSHSHH

Because it sounds like a cat <3

It sounds like the sound cats make.

māo sounds like the sound a cat makes

this word reads as "māo".

real pokemon moment. we chinese really saw a cat, asked it what it wanted to be named as, and then called it that. we even kept the same intonation (the dash over the a) to ensure that everyone else who knew chinese would talk to the cat in the exact same way the cat called to us.

it's got 3 radicals; the left (犭) for quadruped animal, the cap (艹) for grass, and the base (田) for field, like rice fields. that's basically the whole backstory of how we saw and met the cat. the kitty really was just coming in from the grass on his 4 lil paws to our field and introduced themselves as mao. ily cat

if you read the cap and base section only it looks like a cat's face and ears.

every time you want to write the word cat you have to draw them!!! wont you think of a lil babey kitty while drawing them? isn't it beautiful how every time we wanted to write cat in chinese we took the time to depict a cat? decided everyone should know how or what a cat looks like and devoted our time of remembrance to just a leetol creeture?

because it's literally onomatopoeic. the cat is named after the sound it makes (which is so cute)

simple, cute, direct, just like cat

It sounds like a cat sound, and also just really nice. If you interpret the radicals in the unintended way I'm deciding to, the leftmost bit of the character could look like a cat scratching their back on a fencepost behind them, or something. Overall, it is a very cat word

it sounds like cat sounds (cute) and its easy for me to remember as a chinese novice bc it has the same radical as dog and is easy to draw

sounds like the noise cats make. cute

猫 as a character is peak cat! It's been a while since I've been in Chinese school, so bear with me, but the left side uses the claw symbol, which shows it's an animal, and the right side (苗, pronounced miáo) helps explain its pronunciation. 苗 specifically means something along the lines of seedling/young/descendant and isn't really depictive of what it means, but when I was younger, I thought it looked a little like a cat with little ears and whiskers as well. (Chinese cats say "喵" (miāo) which ties back to the 苗 symbol as well!) Also, 猫 "māo" is kind of pronounced like a meow, which I think should give it bonus points. Overall, 猫 is the peak word for cat! :3

you cannot tell me they are not the perfect word for a kitty cat. they came up to us and introduced themselves, so we decided to call them by the name they call themselves, and in mandarin, we call them "little māo" because they are our little meow meows!! they are our babies!! also chinese is Ancient. our writing system goes back like 4000 years!! and we are still using it! i admit we probably weren't calling them 貓 for all these 4000 years but respect your elders! /lh

kitku - no IPA provided

diversity for the win! kitku will devour everything

[the-acid-pear]

If i could get to pick which old rpg maker game got a remake next i would no doubt say RE:Kinder. I miss that little fucked up kid sm.

[muddyorbsblr]

Bestie when I tell you it's gonna get worse before it gets better…🥺😭

Wanda's a whole mood and later on she's gonna be an MVP when it comes to putting a certain Asgardian Barbie in his place 🫡

Thor is running on the dumbest vibes here and once he realizes how badly he messed up here, he won't even be shocked if Loki sits him at the very back row with the worst possible view if/when he and Reader get married 🥴

Precious meow meow stabby babey must be protected at all costs, he just wants to give his bb all the love and affection 🥹

Brace yourself, bestie, because part 2's coming soon-ish and we're nowhere near the comfort feels yet 😭

would've could've should've pt1

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Part of the 500 Follower Celebration Requested by: Anonymous

Summary: A careless comment from Thor calls into question the stability of your relationship with Loki

Pairing: Loki x Reader

Word Count: 3.5k

Warnings: 18+ | mature themes; the slightest bit of steam toward the beginning; angst; Tony and Thor having a very much "bro" type attitude and not in the good way; hinting at Reader's emotional baggage; the slightest mention of human experimentation [let me know if I missed anything!]

Things to be aware of: established but private/secret relationship; Reader's baggage will be explained further in part 2

There was something rather peaceful in the routine you and Loki had settled into when either of you came back from a mission. Decompressing the night before the debriefing care of Rogers that you took bets on how long this one would last. And whoever won would get to pick where to get takeout from on your next indoor date night.

Your last mission was particularly stressful, nearly losing a limb from triggering a booby trap while retrieving intel about potential human experimentation from a HYDRA base. The second Nat mentioned that little tidbit in passing while you were unpacking your equipment from the mission, the god left the common area, raiding the pantry for a selection of your favorite snacks, and queueing up one of your comfort movies.

The one about a woman that hit her head and found herself stranded in a romantic comedy only to realize that her best friend, the one that had been in front of her all this time, was her great love all along.

When you got to your apartment, Loki was already there with the movie ready to play on the screen, and he even went the extra step to open and plate the snacks on the coffee table in your living room for easier access. And the cherry on top of it all was that he brought over one of his sweaters for you to change into, something he'd been doing more and more ever since you mentioned how comfortable they were during one of your missions together where you'd shared a suite.

"You know, I'm pretty sure they're watching the same movie outside," you mentioned, speaking around the wafer stick you were munching on. "Nat just texted me that she has Netflix power considering how this mission got us stressed out to hell and back. Wanna just watch it outside with the rest of the guys?"

The god shook his head, pulling you closer to him. "If we join them outside, then I would be unable to do this." He tilted your chin up and pressed a soft kiss to your lips. "And this is my favorite part," he mumbled against your skin before proceeding to give you a series of kisses, increasing with passion in each one.

Suddenly whatever was happening in the movie didn't matter to you anymore, an army of butterflies fluttering near violently at your stomach as he wrapped his arm around you and maneuvered your positions until you were straddling him on the couch, your knees on either side of his hips. He kept his hand on your waist, holding you steady while his other hand buried itself in your hair before he licked into your mouth, letting out a decadent sounding moan when your tongues met.

He moved his hand to your lower back, changing your positions once again so that your back was flat on the couch, and he hovered over you and between your legs. You leaned into his touch, losing yourself in his attentions, until his hand moved upward, cupping your breast. That was when you broke the kiss.

"I'm sorry," he panted, immediately moving his hand away once he saw the frantic, panicked look in your eyes. "I got carried away--"

"No, sweetie, I'm sorry," you insisted, placing your hands on his shoulders, and pulling yourself up slightly to kiss him, trying to reassure your boyfriend he did nothing wrong. "It's just…I want to be ready, really, I do. And I know it's frustrating for you it's just that…every time we take a step  in that direction something in me starts running and cowering in a corner, it's not fair to you that--"

"Please don't apologize, darling, you have nothing to be sorry for." He righted your positions on the couch, delicately stroking your hair and giving you a soft peck on your lips before he stood, offering you his hand. "I think we could both benefit from cooling off a bit. Would you like to join the others outside?"

Despite having offered it yourself just a few minutes earlier, your stomach dropped when the tables had turned, knowing that you'd put a stop to something that could have turned out completely mind-blowing and possibly even life changing. Only thing was, when you reached the peak of a relationship, that was it.

The only way forward was down.

"You go ahead," you told him, walking toward your bedroom. "I'll just change into my sweats first…so no one asks questions."

By some miracle, no one on the team had caught on yet that you two had started seeing each other and had been in a relationship for the better part of the year. And neither of you seemed to be itching to burst your little bubble of privacy quite yet, knowing that the second the team knew, Wanda and Nat would be down your throat with questions practically begging for every detail. And Thor would be doing much of the same for his brother.

At least that was the story you tried to tell yourself. It was better than what that little voice in your head tried to scream at you every time he didn't take the seat next to you. Or when he'd drop your hand and take a few steps back the second he heard someone rounding the corner.

Loki gave you a strained smile, starting to walk toward your front door. "I'll see you outside then." Before you could reach your bedroom, he called out to you. "I love you, little mortal."

You blinked back the tears that were threatening to come out, looking back at him with a contrived smile of your own. "I love you, too, Mischief."

A good few minutes passed before you exited your apartment, the movie paused on the TV and a rather lively discussion being had among your teammates. Something about Barnes' new girlfriend.

"Oh good you're here, jellybean, welcome to the circus," Tony greeted you, jutting his chin toward the empty seat next to Wanda. "Need your input on something."

Instead of taking the seat, you walked over to the bar to pour yourself a glass of wine. You had a feeling you were gonna need it. On your way there, you spotted Loki seated near his brother, giving you a minuscule smile and a tiny wave of his hand.

"Go ahead, I'm listening," you called out.

"Stark's trying to tell me the woman I'm seeing isn't all that interested in me because she doesn't want to spend the night," Bucky started. "Said she's just with me for the aesthetic of dating me, whatever backwards 21st Century nonsense that is. I'm trying to tell the rest of these horn dogs that maybe she's just not ready yet. Good things take time. Flowers need to blossom--"

"Sarge, don't ever say that line again, it's so cheesy you'll attract rats in here," you shot back, pointing your finger at the soldier before turning toward Stark. "That said though…I'm with Bucky on this one, Stark. Maybe she's just not ready yet I mean…not everyone's ready to drop trou and put out so easily, you know. How long have you been dating this girl anyways?" You turned back to Bucky as you asked the question.

"Three weeks? Give or take?"

"Dammit Stark, it's only been three weeks, give our boy some time." You made a show of facepalming before you picked up your glass, plopping down next to Wanda who immediately rested her head on your shoulder.

"They've been at this for the last ten minutes," she groaned. "Wake me when they put the movie back on." Meanwhile, you clocked Nat next to her, not so subtly massaging her temples in an attempt to calm herself down. You shared the feeling; this was such a common sense discussion it shouldn't have lasted thirty seconds.

"Well then perhaps you could provide some insight for another situation, Lady Y/N," Thor boomed from across the floor, swatting his brother's hand away when he tried to get the blond Asgardian to stop.

"Brother you really need not--"

"Nonsense. Lady Y/N seems knowledgeable on how timetables and relations between mortals work, perhaps she'll finally give the perspective I have been seeking."

Your boyfriend shot you a look, as if he was already embarrassed by what his brother was about to say, piquing your curiosity even more. "I'm all ears, Thunder. Ask away."

"My brother has been seeing a mortal woman for the better part of the last Midgardian year. My best estimate…eight moons," he began, your stomach once again dropping at the realization that he was about to ask your insight about…yourself. You gave him a motion to go on, placing your glass on the table to hide the way your hand had begun to shake. "And while it has been as you here on Midgard would say 'like pulling teeth' trying to get him to divulge any detail about her, something I have surmised is that she also seems unwilling to spend the night with him. Yet he claims they love each other."

"Yikes, tough break, Reindeer Games!" Tony winced. "My two cents? You're not just on the same boat with Barnes over here, you're the goddamn captain of the ship. Go on, jellybean, tell him."

"I-I…" you stuttered, your heart thundering in your chest from unwittingly having been placed on the proverbial hot seat. "Maybe she just…wants to be sure, you know? I mean…I don't know how y'all do it in Asgard but here, with some people, being intimate is…something m-more than physical."

You could see from where you sat that the raven-haired god's fingers were twitching, his leg bouncing as if he wanted to stand up and leave the room. You pretty much wanted out of this, too.

Thor waved off your explanation. "I completely disagree. That amount of time passed, I believe one should be sure lest she be wasting both of their time. Brother, much as I can tell you love this mortal, it is my expert opinion, which I believe will be backed by the men in this room, that your mortal woman does not love you. This is, as our genius friend Stark has stated earlier, all for the optics of having you at her arm."

It was getting impossible to breathe. How dare he say that about you right in your face like this? Thinking he knew everything there was to know about your relationship just because he was in one of his own?

"You know not the first thing about her, Brother," Loki hissed, speaking through his teeth as if he was readying himself to strike.

"I know enough," the blond Asgardian shot back dismissively. "You know I think the world of you, Brother, and after everything you've endured, you deserve every bit of happiness this universe will grant you." He clapped his hand on Loki's shoulder. "If this mortal shares not this sentiment, then perhaps your time is better spent elsewhere."

"He's right, Mischief," you choked out, your voice so small you were surprised it even traveled that far that it had everyone looking to you. "Maybe you are wasting your time with this one…you know, if she's making you wait so long." You stood up abruptly, making Wanda groan in protest when she nearly fell over to the spot you'd just vacated.

In what was probably your most poorly miscalculated decision for the night, you downed your wine in a single gulp, starting to walk back to your apartment.

"Hey where you going, jellybean, you just got here," Tony hollered from his seat. "Come on, I know talking about Frosty the Snowman's nonexistent sex life was a drag, how about we all drop it for now, I'll order some tacos and we can go back to grilling Manchie here."

"Or we could lay off either of us and grill someone else for a change?" Bucky groaned, throwing his human arm over his eyes as he turned his face to the ceiling.

"You know what, you are so right, let's talk about the big guy who has a lot to say about being the resident relationship expert." Stark turned to face Thor. "How is Lady Thunder lately? And how are you with the whole your old hammer chooses her over you thing?"

The conversation faded into a dulled roar in your ears as the wine begun to take what fleeting effect it would have on you, your pulse faintly thumping in your ears as you made your way back to your apartment.

You hadn't even been back two minutes before your door swung open again, the God of Mischief standing at your entryway looking a mix of concerned and distraught. "Darling, I completely apologize for my oaf of a brother, I had no idea he would--"

"It's okay, Loki," you cut him off, throwing your hands up as if to push away the conversation. "Maybe he's on to something, I mean you should be with someone who doesn't take forever and a day to be ready for something like this, maybe we should--"

In an instant, he stood inches away from you, placing his hands on your shoulders in a gentle but firm grasp. "Don't say another word, my love, please." He rubbed his hands up and down your arms in a soothing gesture; whether it was to soothe you or him was beyond you.

"You want more, I get that," you pressed on. "And I can't give that to you--"

"You are all that I want, precious mortal." He leaned in, pressing a desperate kiss to your lips before wrapping his arms around you. "I am already more than content that you've even granted me the honor to know who you are outside of our duties. This is all I need, to be able to love you as I have these past moons."

Tears began to fall from your eyes as your words weighed heavy on your tongue. "I'm sure there's someone out there more than willing to give you what I can't, it's selfish of me to keep you--"

"Stop, little mortal, I beg of you," he pleaded, repeatedly pressing his lips to your forehead. "Don't rid yourself of me like this. I don't care if there's someone else out there, they aren't you." He sat you both down back on the couch, cradling you against his chest as his hand rubbed up and down your back in soothing motions. "Please just try to put what my oaf of a brother said out of your mind. His opinion is entirely his own and it is one I do not share."

Your next question blurted out without much resistance. "Loki what if I never become ready? What if you really are wasting your time with me, you shouldn't--"

"Any time I spend with you, regardless of how it is spent, is never a waste," he whispered, stroking your face as he held your gaze. "If ever you decide to share that part of yourself with me, it will be an honor that I will cherish for the rest of my days, but I will never be the one to place pressure on you to move yourself at a pace you're uncomfortable with."

You nuzzled your face into the crook of his neck, prompting him to press a kiss to your temple when you sniffled from the tears you were trying and failing to hold back. "I do love you," you mumbled against him. "You know that, right?"

"Of course I do, my darling mortal." He pressed his cheek against yours, taking deep breaths to calm himself after the scare your words from earlier gave him. He wanted to punch his brother clean across the jaw for jeopardizing his happiness with his careless words, and the stabbing pain it put him through seeing how deeply that opinion had cut you.

He started moving toward your bedroom, carrying you in his arms bridal style. Mostly in refusal to let you go even for a fraction of a moment.

"What're you doing?" you mumbled, making a motion to move out of his arms.

"We're going to bed, darling. Just to sleep, nothing more, I swear."

"Hmph…" you shook your head, the motion making the tip of your nose nuzzle his neck in a slight tickling sensation. "Maybe…maybe you should stay at your place tonight." Your voice was so small, so unsure of what you'd just said. The god stopped in his tracks, his body going rigid and making you immediately regret your words.

"Do you want me to leave, dear heart?" he choked out, his heart at war with himself as it protested against him putting you back down on your feet.

"No," you admitted, lifting your head from his shoulder and showing him the tears that had begun to redden your eyes. "I want you to stay, I'll always want you to stay, I just don't…" Your breath hitched in the back of your throat, almost sounding like a hiccup. "I don't want you to be frustrated because of me--"

"I'm not," he reassured you, resting his forehead on yours. "Being with you like this is more than enough for me. I need you to know this, my darling."

He laid you down on your bed before his clothes changed into his own loungewear set with a wash of his green magic, settling under the covers next to you and pulling you into his arms.

"Promise me something, Mischief?"

"Anything."

"If…and when…the time comes that you get tired of waiting? And you want to be with someone else--"

"Little mortal, not another word." He tightened his hold on you, as if he couldn't hold you close enough. "Please, my love, let's just retire for the night."

"Just let me get this out," you insisted. "Let me say my piece and I'll never mention it again. Okay?"

He sighed, pressing a lingering kiss to your forehead. "Okay."

"If you want to be with someone else, just promise you'll tell me and leave me first? I don't wanna find out waking up one morning and seeing someone else with her arms around you and just waving it around for everyone to see." Your voice dwindled and wavered into barely a whisper, your arm tightening around his midsection, a part of you already refusing to give him up even if the day were to come.

"That will never happen," he told you. "Why would I ever wish to leave you?"

"Just--Just promise me anyway. Please?"

"Look at me, little mortal." He traced along your jaw with his finger, tilting your chin up so he could see your eyes. The sight of the genuine fear of that precise outcome reflected in your expression knocked nearly all of the air from the god's lungs. "On the remotest chance of that happening, I promise I will never do wrong by you. But I want nothing more than for you rest assured that I will never wish to be with another.

"Perhaps one day you'll believe it. But I will gladly spend my days proving my devotion to you. This…This I will gladly swear to you. On whatever semblance of a soul I have left." He brushed the tip of his nose against yours before pressing a tender kiss to the same spot. "I love you, my darling Y/N."

You finally settled in his embrace, resting your head on his chest as you began to let your breathing even out. "I love you, too, Loki."

Just the thought of history repeating itself one day had your blood going cold, feeling as if your very bones were shaking from the images your mind conjured of the inevitable day that Loki would leave you. Somewhere deep inside you knew it was ridiculous for you to even think that your boyfriend was anywhere even near capable of putting you through what he had all those years ago.

But that was the thing about fear. Sometimes it was rational, like jumping out of the Quinjet and having a passing scare that your parachute had a hole in it. And other times it was outright absurd. Like now. Thinking that in the morning after you first had sex, the god would have realized there wasn't anything worth spending more time with. That he'd have had his fill of you and now it was time to move on to better prospects.

It didn't help, either, that your overly cautious mind was yelling that the signs were all there. That it could tell you exactly where this was headed because of the dropped hands. The refusal to even sit near each other. The barely there acknowledgement when you were even in the same room together. Everything that had happened before with him…felt like a mirror image of what was happening now. With Loki.

And you didn't have it in you to tell him that his desire for privacy was slowly and quite surely crushing you.

A/N: Starting off another story from the request pile! This is going to have 3 parts, where both parts 1 and 2 will deliver on the more angsty part and part 3 will be the comfort/fluff. I know you asked for "90% angst", Anon, but hopefully 10k words worth of angst will do it…because part 2 is 6.5k words long 😳👀

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